book experience

anonymous asked:

you've written and published at least two (maybe three with Red Mouth?) books!! SELF published at that!!!! you are not a dud, miss christina

LMAOOOOOOOO thank you!

i am a dud in all other areas of life rn i feel like im going through a mid life crisis

also yes red mouth, will be by august 2017!

i received so many messages and replies similar to this one so i just wanted to say i made that post to be self deprecating, not bc my mom’s a bitch

my mom is (slowly, painfully slowly) learning about my desire for privacy and being a closed book. she ruined my experience of publishing by being so obnoxious about it so she (tries) to not blabber her mouth about my publishing anymore. it probably took everything in her to not introduce me as a writer LMAO

even if it’s with well intentions, and even if it’s just a “she’s a writer”, she already ruined support when she bought 40+ copies and handed them out to random people as i told her time and time again that this was not what i was wanting

anyways so my mom def didn’t mean it in a bitchy way, there is sooo many things my mom could say about my books, ^^^ obvs, she would bring it up over and over to people i did and did not know bc she was so proud even tho she’d see me next to her telling her to stop, or i’d pull her aside before a social event and say “please dont bring it up” and she would anyway and just laugh later when i told her no

so yeah there was probably a lot she could say about my books but she ruined supporting me so it’s a no no now, that post was just supposed to hate on myself not on my mom, she adores me im her favorite :~) 

Reblog if you go to fictional characters for comfort.

Whether it be when you feel you don’t belong, when you feel upset, when you’re angry, when you’re going through a hard time or when you’re feeling empty. (Social Experiment: I want to see how many people do this)

have you ever felt so empty?
have you ever looked at the night skies hoping you weren’t this lonely?
have you ever held your tears because your heart aches in a way you never feel before?
have you ever felt useless and disappointed for no reason?
have you ever thought that things never go right?
have you ever felt sick of life? have things in your mind ever ran unstoppably which eventually makes you feel tired?


or is it just me, of all people?

—  f.f

testing out a new brush so i was like mm okay gonna draw gf’s otp why not


edit: fixed neil a bit to be more canon!

 HOW TO “GENERATE” MOTIVATION & INSPIRATION. 

     I’ve seen SO many of my friends struggle with motivation these days, so I wanted to make a little psa about how to attempt to get motivation back ( this also helps fight depression yo ) — It’s all about POSITIVE VIBES. Positivity attracts positivity. Motivation is driven by the WANT to do something, and that doesn’t ( usually ) come on its own, but needs a kick-starter ( this is where inspiration comes into play ). Inspiration is easily triggered by positivity, and everyone has positivity stored in them ( it is a human thing after all ), so what’s needed is to extract it. This part is where people say that their depression prevents them, and a big reason for that is because they are waiting for the positivity to come to them, but relying on something to come to YOU is not as good as generating it YOURSELF. So, can positivity be generated when you feel down? By: DOING YOUR BEST. This is a cliche saying, but it actually works. Do one more thing than you did yesterday. For some, this is a slow process. Doing one more draft, answering one more ask - but the thing is, the more you do, the better you will feel about yourself. And, there it is: you have made a positiv feeling/vibe/emotion. By feeling good about yourself, and sending out this ‘ positive vibe ‘, you are attracting inspiration, which will turn into motivation. Then, it’ll be easier to do more things, which, again, will give you an even better feeling - more motivation - more productivity - more positive vibes! When you hit a certain point, you will have “excess” positivity, which you can give to the people around you! So now you’re not only making positiv energy, but you’re also distributing it to your social circle, which will make good things happen to you. You’ll feel better about yourself, your work, and the people in your life ( and they will feel better about you ). And all of this JUST because you decided that you wanted to do a little more than usual. People who say that “this won’t work for me”, are ruining for themselves, because that means that instead of generating positivity, you are making negativity, which brings NOTHING good. Don’t say: “this won’t work for me”, don’t say “this might work for me”. Say: “THIS WORKS FOR ME”, because — Well, it does.

     Small personal note about my own experience with this ‘ method ‘ of generating motivation ( feel free to ignore this) ; People tell me that I can’t understand what it’s like to be depressed and that it’s impossible to just “do” things when you’re feeling down, but, trust me, I DO know what that’s like. I suffer from a rare medical condition that causes me a lot of pain, which I have been very depressed about ( still feel down sometimes about it ), but I can STILL use the method described above to make motivation! So, I have no doubt that it will work for you too! 

Literary experience heals the wound, without undermining the privilege, of individuality. There are mass emotions which heal the wound; but they destroy the privilege. In them our separate selves are pooled and we sink back into sub-individuality. But in reading great literature I become a thousand men and yet remain myself. Like a night sky in the Greek poem, I see with a myriad eyes, but it is still I who see. Here, as in worship, in love, in moral action, and in knowing, I transcend myself; and am never more myself than when I do.
—  C. S. LewisAn Experiment in Criticism

“Can you promise me the next time we meet, we won’t have to say goodbye?”

“You know, I can’t promise you that.”

“Then I hope we will never meet again.”

And she left. Without looking back.

—  Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #44