book bomb

Originally posted by lakritzellaz

Grandmas Feel Better Bath & Tea


Run a bath, with water as hot as you can bare. Light your favorite candles with the intent to be happy and rejuvenated. Play some music if you like, or an audio book.

Add a bath bomb or bath salt if you have it. If not you can add dried flowers, fresh flowers, essential oils or nothing.

We particularly like bubble baths, and in the spring I’ll throw in some flowers, but bath salt is a common use.

Think of everything that’s bothering you, keeping you up and clawing at the back of your mind, climb in the tub and when you feel the water creep up around your body imagine it pushing all those things to the top of your skin where it isn’t touching, all the bad things float.

Eventually you’ll be totally under water and the bad things will have to just pop right out, and that’s all you have to imagine. Relax and enjoy the water, feel clean inside and out.

Stay as long as you like, the water will get cold or the bubbles will disappear, but there’s no need to rush things. Take your time, relax and enjoy the hot water while it lasts, and forget all the things you let go.

Remember, you’re special and you’re worth living on this planet. It’s ok to feel sad and weighted down and even hurt, and it’s even more ok to let all those things go. You don’t have to hold onto them to make anyone feel better or to justify being a person.


Once your done with your bath, fold yourself up in a towel and start on your tea when you’re ready. I will sit in the bathroom and think or finish a song or wait for my hair to dry a little.


When you’re ready, prepare hot water, you can boil it in a kettle, or a pot, or stick it in the microwave. Pick your favorite tea, though I’d caution against caffeinated tea if it’s late at night, and let the tea bag, or tea case soak until the tea is the way you like it.


Drink your tea in a happy comfortable spot, away from harsh news or loud tv shows. Feel the warm tea fill you inside and imagine it filling you up with happy thoughts and just a liquid hug on the inside.


You are special. You are worth life and happiness. You deserve to be loved and cared for. You are allowed to be sad and unhappy, but you’re also allowed to let that shit go and be happy. You don’t have to stay sad to prove to people that you’re alive.

anonymous asked:

Do I really have to exist

i am not god; i sometimes think about how much doesn’t have to exist, myself included. it’s a problem i find a lot. i don’t feel necessary.

but then, neither is my dog. he is a sheepdog with no sheep. he has nightmares a lot. his purpose is moot.

one of my cats only eats bugs. he won’t catch mice. for an obligate carnivore, he loves moths.

is it required that i or you or anyone else exists. maybe not. but i kind of think of it as a small miracle. you do exist. despite how scientifically improbable it was for you to be created, you were. and something in that is beautiful, you know? the universe needed eyes to watch all these unnecessary things it created. you don’t spend hours on your sim house just to put no people in it. does a house require people to exist? no. but it does require people to be a home.

i know the world demands you Fulfill Thine Divine Purpose. i think that’s kind of bogus. you don’t have to be useful or valuable or exceptional to be worth something. my dog is worth so much to me. the idea that he’s not necessary is silly to me.

yes, i know. life goes on when people leave. true, and true indeed. i think about that a lot. but i also know that my sister’s cat goes to check to see if she’s home every night, and she’s been gone for months. 

grand scheme? who knows. but the truth is that other people need you because you help them feel like they exist with purpose. maybe you haven’t met the right people yet. i felt strongly in senior year of high school that nothing i did mattered - after all, i had no friends. i was bullied. if i died, it would make zero difference. and maybe it would have. maybe the gap would have filled after me. maybe my cat would learn that i was gone, that nobody was coming. maybe my mom would foster a new daughter. who knows. i’m not god.

but i do know if i didn’t exist. if i had taken myself off the table because i didn’t have to exist…. i wouldn’t be here talking to you and all of my new friends here. i wouldn’t tell you that, since you’re here, you might as well enjoy the rest of the things that shouldn’t exist. televisions are sound and image boxes. music and art and dance and writing don’t have to exist, but they do because they bring us joy, fill us with harmony. airplanes are godless flight machines and if god wanted us off the ground he would have given us wings.

airplanes were someone saying “this doesn’t have to exist, but i want it to.”  and i want you to exist because it’s worth it. it’s worth it for the dog you might adopt or the tattoo you might get or skinny dipping or writing songs or planting a garden. all things in life that won’t exist without you, that won’t happen without you around to make them happen. that need you to exist so they can exist too. 

please stay on this earth. i can’t force you, i can’t offer you a promise that the world ever stops hurting. but i can say that somewhere, to someone, you matter. and you matter to me, because you exist, because you reached out to me, because you have a question that i ask myself daily. 

here’s my suggestion. when i’m at the point that the rope has a stronger pull than the art of the world, i make myself count the things that are good, and didn’t have to exist, but do. libraries. books. bath bombs. me and you. because i know we can be a force for good, you and i. somewhere on some level we can help others or just help ourselves and that’s…. good. and i think, really, in this universe that loves entropy, yes, absolutely, we need you. we need the good you can do. and we need you. or, at least: i do.

True Crime Books List

I’ve seen quite a lot of posts recently asking for tips about true crime books, so I decided to do a list with some of the books I’ve read lately. I didnt like all of these books, but most of them. I added a few books about 9/11 too, bc i found them interesting. So, in no particular order:

If I did it: confessions of the killer by O.J Simpson
How I helped O.J get away with murder by Mike Gilbert
A death in Belmont by Sebastian Junger (Boston strangler)
Restless Souls by Alisa Statman (Manson family)
The Bundy Murders by Kevin M. Sullivan
Chasing the devil by David Reichert (Green River Killer)
Fatal Vision by Joe McGinniss (Jeffrey MacDonald)
Ghettoside by Jill Leovy
The stranger beside me by Ann Rule (Ted Bundy)
The zebra murders by Prentice Earl Sanders
The serial killer files by Harold Schechter
Boston Strong by Casey Sherman (Boston Bombings)
The Devil’s Defender: My Odyssey Through American Criminal Justice from Ted Bundy to the Kandahar Massacre by John Henry Browne
No easy answers by Brooks Brown (Columbine)
The Spiral Notebook: The Aurora Theater Shooter and the Epidemic of Mass Violence Committed by American Youth by Stephen Singular 
A mothers reckoning by Sue Klebold (Columbine)
The general by Ahmed Errachidi (Guantanamo)
Oklahoma City by Andrew Gumbel
102 minutes by Jim Dwyer, Kevin Flynn
Parkland by Vincent Bugliosi (JFK)
Helter Skelter by Vincent Bugliosi (Charles Manson)
One of us by Åsne Seierstad (Breivik)

These are basically fiction, but I think most of them are worth reading:

Dear Charlie by N.D Gomes  (School shooting, just read it, its awesome.)
Give a boy a gun by Todd Strasser
Nineteen minutes by Jodi Picoult (School shooting, and its so fkn good)
House rules by Jodi Picoult
Finding jake by Bryan Reardon  (School shooting, also fkn awesome)

Boys like him don’t come wrapped in pretty packages with bows and ribbons-
Boys like him come in sleepless eyes and bruised knuckles.

They see girls like you, with wide eyes and soft lips-
And crave for that vulnerability.
So they wear a smile that’s almost too bright and hold your hand almost too hard,
And they love.

They love you until your heart bleeds and your eyes sting, they love you until you’re too blinded by the daggar they’re twisting into your ribcage.

Girls like you though, they believe that they can kiss their knuckles until they’re healed. So they wait around for boys like him to grow up.

But boys like him don’t grow up, they drain-

and it works every time with girls like you.

—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #108
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Facts about Dzhokhar Tsarnaev

  • He is twenty-two years old.
  • He’s an ethnic Chechen.
  • He was born in Kyrgyzstan.
  • He is in the Islamic Faith
  • He is supposedly 5 foot and 10 inches tall.
  • His last known address is at 410 Norfolk Street in Cambridge, Massachusetts.
  • He was a student-athlete of the month for wrestling at Cambridge Rindge and Latin High School.
  • He had “foreign military training.”
  • He was popular and untroubled in high school, according to a friend.
  • He’s a “second-year medical student” (and “an angel”) according to his father, who lives in Russia.
  • He smoked pot, and was also a marijuana dealer on his college campus.
  • He was born on July 22, 1993
  • His parents are Anzor Tsarnaev and Zubeidat Tsarnaev
  • He has two sisters; Ailina Tsarnaev and Bella Tsarnaev
  • His brother Tamerlan participated in the Boston Bombing with Jahar.
  • After 14 hours of deliberation, the jury of five men and seven women came to its decision; he was sentenced to death by lethal injection on June 24, 2015.
  • He worked as a lifeguard as well
  • If you’re feeling generous, you can send him a book.  Here’s the link  and the guidelines.
  • The Daily Mail edited his picture to make him look more ethnic.
  • He was incredibly popular and had lots of friends.
  • He remained silent during his trial (except to plead guilty) until he released his statement, apologizing for his and his brother’s actions and for the victims, the survivors and their families. You can read his statement here.


**This is an on going list*

A cute little story that I just had to share: Earlier this week I received a message from an elementary school librarian in North Carolina who said they created this poster to hang in their library and she wanted me to see it. Literally made my week. SO sweet! 

Take your time to heal. We are still going to be here through whatever and whenever. We will never think of leaving you. We are a family. You are not alone in this battle. It wasn’t your fault, and nobody wanted that to happen. Stop blaming yourself. You deserve nothing but the best. The love of the world is greater than hatred and violence. That’s what your music taught all of us.
We will keep those beautiful and innocent angels in our prayers. We will pray for the families who have lost their loved ones and send them comfort. Our prayers could bring change to our hurting and broken world. We will keep on praying.
We need you to be strong and hold on. We are so excited to see you again with a big smile on your adorable face. We will wait for the time that you are completely healed and ready to inspire people through your God-given talent. We will wait to see the moonlight in your eyes again.
This world can be a dark place, but fear will never control us. Even after the worst storm, the sun will shine again. Better days are coming. Just hold on, everything’s gonna be alright.
—  E.J. Cenita, An Open Letter to Ariana Grande
total chris pine moments in wonder woman
  • stealing something from evil dudes and then just booking it
  • cooly dropping a bomb onto a building while flying away
  • ..then proceeding to crash said plane and drown
  • needing to be saved by others
  • ACCIDENTALLY bringing his problems into other people’s lives
  • just the fact that tons of dudes want to kill him (like same)
  • his face when the lasso of truth
  • claiming to be an expert in stealth and stuff yeah right
  • giggling as he swishes his feet around in the hot tub
  • casually talking about his dad’s watch while nude
  • seriously he was standing there for like 8 minutes put somE CLOTHES ON (he was just pretending to be embarrassed okay he wanted to show off)
  • being confused 99% percent of the time
  • sighing whenever diana does anything
  • giving others fashion advice
  • but also the impatient “it’s been 2hrs can we get outta here??” husband
  • not wanting diana to steal his spotlight
  • that dramatic ‘ow that hurt’ hand shaking post epic punch
  • remus lupin: don’t do the thing!! chris: i’m sorry did you say dO IT?
  • but is a total hypocrite cause he continues to nag diana NOT TO DO THE THING!
  • “you’re breaking up, i can’t hear you sorry BYE!”
  • makes a big fuss about not taking the drink but then ends up taking it anyway
  • ripping off jacket to reveal a whole new outfit and excitedly jumping into a stolen car
  • the pipe and the german accent (was that even acting cause all i saw was chris)
  • wooing all the ladies
  • …by buying them ice cream and doing stupid impressions
  • dramatic goodbye but his gf can’t even here him
  • grinning as he blows himself up
  • just a bunch of questionable life choices okay?

Concept: me watching an 8 hour long infernal devices movie that is exactly like the book with a bomb af cast