can we talk about double chins?

i have one. i’m 5′2 and a size large, not that it matters. but i have a double chin. even when i was way skinnier i had one. why do i rarely see anyone who looks like me in the media… or social media? i follow very body-positive people, and still, where are the people who look like me?

i want to see peole who look like me modeling for independent brands, for mainstream businesses. i want to see illustrations depicting people who look like me. i want to see people wearing chokers who look like me. i want to see product photos for chokers with models who look like me, product photos for anything with people who look like me. c’mon, people.

for all my other followers with ~chins~ like me: you’re beautiful. fuck everyone else who says otherwise, with their words or their actions.

here’s me and my double chin, and my awesome friends. i’m the one who is cute af with the greenish hair.

How Pokémon GO Helped my Body Image

I have never been an athletic person.  I’ve always been horrible at sports, and had no interest in playing them.  This didn’t really bother me when I was younger, as I had always had many other interests.  The older I got, the more people that I knew who actually were athletic. My sister was a competitive athlete, and is now a power-lifter.  My first boyfriend was a football player.  My best friends included ballerinas, skiers, soccer players and synchronized swimmers. And there I was, with no talents to my name.

Once my eating disorder began to develop, I thought of how much easier it would be to lose weight if I could play sports.  Because this wasn’t really an option for me, I began to go to the gym.  At 13, I lied about my age, got a membership, and started going regularly.  I was finally able to say that I worked out, instead of playing sports, but was still active.  My gym-going turned in to a bit of an obsession, walking hand-in-hand with my anorexia.  At my sickest, I was going to the gym 6-7 days a week, sometimes twice a day.  I didn’t exercise to be healthy; I exercised to lose weight.  And, because of this, I still find that I cannot go to the gym for the right reasons, and it ends up fueling my disordered thoughts.  To prevent another relapse, I have had to quit going to the gym altogether.

Now at 19, and still surrounded by fitness experts and fitstagrams, not being able to be active is a bit of a downer.  Sure, I go on hikes and am not particularly weak, but I’ve missed the endorphin release that you get from physical activities.  This is where Pokémon GO comes in.

Pokémon GO has been everywhere in the news lately, so it would be hard to pretend that you don’t know the game’s premise.  It involves a lot of walking.  Whether you’re walking around to catch more Pokémon, or trying to get your 2, 5, or 10km eggs to hatch, it’s impossible to be any good at the game unless you’re out and moving.

As someone who has grown up being somewhat obsessed with the Pokémon games, even with artwork of the game on my walls, it was the perfect thing for me.  Not only am I able to play a fun game that all of my friends play, but I finally have a reason to exercise that doesn’t trigger my eating disorder.  I am comfortable going on walks that can be longer than 5km every day, and feel healthy doing it.  I am back to being able to do things that help my body become stronger, without the obsessions behind it (other than the obsession of evolving my pocket monsters).  Being able to walk and do something that I enjoy has increased my confidence in myself. My body image has only been getting better, as I’m no longer stuck in the house avoiding all things triggering.  I am focusing on myself, while still being active and social, all because of one game.

Thank you, Pokémon GO, for giving me everything that I’ve needed.