Do I really mean so little to her? That she only sees me as a number, just another strike on her board?
I hate that I’m still not satisfied. That I feel she’s not being completely honest with me. How can someone go from caring so much about someone to just seeing them a dirt?
I know this is getting boardline abusive…
In fact, if she could hit me I would let her do it in a heartbeat, just to feel something from her.