blogging about my feels

having some pretty heavy feelings on the death of chester bennington. 

i feel weird even writing anything about this because like, why should i turn the death of someone i don’t even know into something about myself? that’s not what it’s about. but this blog is where i write my feelings and process emotions, so that’s what i’m going to do here. 

i don’t really know what to say. i feel heavy. i remember being 17 and sitting on my couch at 3am during a time in my life where i was suffering from particularly intense depression and suicidal ideation, and just listening to iridescent by linkin park on repeat and sobbing. a friend had sent the song to me earlier that day and something about it just resonated so deeply with me. it gave me just enough hope to keep trying. at one of my absolute lowest points, that song was able to instill something in me to keep fighting when i was certain that i was no longer able to. 

i guess it’s just really fucking heartbreaking how the people who make the music that saves you can’t always save themselves. 

rest in peace, chester. sending all my love to your family and loved ones. 

King of Memes

Or, how Tony Found Out About Bucky’s Blog. 

Tony couldn’t seep. Sometimes he managed a few hours if he was tired enough, so usually he went to the gym and worked out until he was exhausted. Tonight, though, he found the gym already occupied: Barnes, with his hair tied up, working steadily at the heavy bag. Normally Tony would make an awkward comment and leave him to it, but instead he just heads for the opposite side of the gym. After setting up at one of the far treadmills, Tony worked his way to a easy run. Barnes was laying his fists rhythmically into the bag, and the quiet thumping was sort of strangely soothing. Between the running and the thumping, Tony slipped into a near-trancelike state.

 And then Barnes let out an ungodly howl, drew back his left fist, and slammed it straight through the heavy bag with a roar of, “DIE A THOUSAND BURNING DEATHS!”

Tony fell off the treadmill, scrambled to his feet, and booked it to the elevator.

kingofmemes posted:

holy shit you guys there was a spider on my punching bag !!! thanks to my many years of combat experience & martial arts training things are okay now

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anonymous asked:

do you ever think about how when even was manic he said 'we're so going to get married' and then when he was depressed he said 'in another universe we're together for all eternity' and cry

I cry more about what that turned into actually??? They started off talking on such a grand scale, “man of my life” and “married” and “eternity”, and while that might be romantic… I feel like that didn’t serve Even particularly well? If you’re living life as a film, you might make the big gesture and let the curtain fall. If you’re living life thinking of all the parallel universes, you can comfort yourself that one of them is getting it ‘right’. What I really loved about season three was that it wasn’t too precious about anything, Isak and Even enjoyed all the talk about the infinite and du er mannen i mitt liv but it wasn’t what ended up actually meaning the most to them. 

What wound up being the most important thing was you and me and this bed and now. And then ‘move in with me because I want you and your dirty socks and your elbow next to mine on the kitchen table’. The everyday, every day. The “now” means more to me than any hypothetical forever and they’re giving everything they could right at this minute. That’s what gets me more than anything with them, seeing them take such good care of each other because they aren’t counting on anything else. Because life is

i can’t sleep 💤

anonymous asked:

You love Voltron, love YOI, made an amazing AU, Have some of the best art I've seen in a long time, you are kind to that annoying 12 year old that always bothers you, and alot more things, you are now like officially my favorite blog ever.

u done it………u killed me

The hilarious, big-hearted, observant, down to earth, and adorable duo!

We talked again yesterday. Suddenly my feelings for you came flooding back. God, I miss you so much. I want you to come back and be with me. We can finally be together. You and I. Me and you. Together.
—  together // 1:00pm


kirishima is totally that kind of bf who would kiss ur whole face and play with ur hair and bakugou it’s embarrassed just by holding hands on public so the moment they start dating katsuki is a Mess™ and eijirou thinks is the cutest thing ever

whats the best way to waste ur time?

draw gay


I was listening to this while drawing dis 

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