having some pretty heavy feelings on the death of chester bennington.
i feel weird even writing anything about this because like, why should i turn the death of someone i don’t even know into something about myself? that’s not what it’s about. but this blog is where i write my feelings and process emotions, so that’s what i’m going to do here.
i don’t really know what to say. i feel heavy. i remember being 17 and sitting on my couch at 3am during a time in my life where i was suffering from particularly intense depression and suicidal ideation, and just listening to iridescent by linkin park on repeat and sobbing. a friend had sent the song to me earlier that day and something about it just resonated so deeply with me. it gave me just enough hope to keep trying. at one of my absolute lowest points, that song was able to instill something in me to keep fighting when i was certain that i was no longer able to.
i guess it’s just really fucking heartbreaking how the people who make the music that saves you can’t always save themselves.
rest in peace, chester. sending all my love to your family and loved ones.