blog diary


“people were created to be loved. 
  things were created to be used. 
  the reason why the world is in chaos is 
  because things are being loved and people are being used”



  nightly clouds and the milky way over lake wanaka.
  who can marvel at the universe without philosophizing about life on earth?

anonymous asked:


pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

You’re not physically close anymore. We were, for a time. I saw you in bursts under lights that blurred away tomorrows and by fire that melted our skin. Music takes a toll on the heart. It catches up to the sound of your pulse and it made me unable to move anywhere but with you.

You’re not physically close anymore. I wish I looked at you just one more second before I closed the door. I wish I had the one extra second that I now remember as the inside of my eyelids and the cracked pavement. Stupid. I was so stupid.

I’m not sure if I even exist to you any longer. I’m not sure that, with brown eyes, I only remind you of the ground, but hers remind you of the sky. That’s how I used to think of yours. I thought
maybe, brown and blue would create a whole world. I thought we made the ground and sky. But maybe blue wasn’t meant to come back down.

I’m not sure if I even exist to you any longer. I’m not sure if, without the lights and without the fire, you can still feel me burn.

Page 1 of 365: January 1, 2015

Today was the start of the a new year. Usually, people will have another mini party today celebrating the beginning of a new start, but I actually prefer staying at home being a couch potato ^^,

Anyway, this year I decided to begin sort of like a blog diary since this year is kind of important for me. I’ll be graduating end of May and heading of to college. I want to have something to look back to when the year ends and see if I have grown as a person.

In 2014, I feel like I have changed, but at the same time have stayed the same. It’s really hard to explain. I’m still shy, but less. I’m still not outspoken, but less. I’m still have social anxiety, but it’s less. I’ve improved a little, and for me at least, is a big step. 

2014 was also the year where I have become really active here on Tumblr. I’ve met so many wonderful people ;-; I truly appreciate every single one of you that has left a message, a reply, a reblog, a like; It really means a lot ♥ I know a don’t talk to a lot of you, and maybe is because I really shy (///) but if you ever want to start a conversation with me my inbox is right open! 

Now I just want to mention a few people that I have made my stay on this website worthwhile.

duckiesteasmiles: Nami-chan, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways~ You have become someone very special to me this year. And I can’t imagine not having you in my life! I I know this year was probably not the best for you, I’m truly proud to see you back on your feet and ready to take on anything the world is ready to throw at you. I love you Nami-chan!

iwillishallandican: Ashley, you are so full of spunk! I LOVE IT. The conversation we’ve had have stayed with me up to this day, and they still make me smile or laugh when I remember them. Please continue being the way you are!

sasusakuparadise & m-mimima: Thank you you two for letting me fangirl with you about SasuSaku to my heart’s content. Not only did you guys let me express my love for the OTP freely but you’ve fed it as well. Let’s hope next year it’s a good year for SS!

xxredemption-love-and-liesxx & blossom-ghoul : Thank you for hearing me ramble about certain things and for not getting annoyed with me, because trust me, I can get pretty annoying after a while lol You two are the consistent ones in my inbox and the messages we have interchanged have given me a little escape from my responsibilities, which I’m very thankful for Cx

Last year was also a good year for the OTP as all of you might know (▰˘◡˘▰) SasuSaku finally became canon and I couldn’t be happier! I’m still not over the fact my babies had a baby~ 10 years of having my faith set on them finding happiness together finally paid off ;-;

Now my goals for 2015 are to be happy & proud of myself and my choices, be healthier, be more outgoing, and accomplish something I’ve been meaning to do for so many years. I hope this year is good to me and to everyone.

This post has gotten kind of long now, so I’ll just cut it here. To all of you, Happy New Year (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧


get to know me meme: television shows [1/?] ♡ the vampire diaries (2009 - present)

You’re going to think that the pain will never end, but it will. But first, you have to let it all in. You can’t fight it; it’s bigger than you. You have to let yourself drown in it. But then, eventually, you’ll start to swim. And every single breath that you fight for will make you stronger. And I promise you: you’ll beat it.

давайте знакомиться!)

   привет тому, кто начал читать первую запись моего мини-блога. эта идея пришла ко мне в голову совершенно случайно и неожиданно даже для меня. причиной этому послужила этому книга Зои Сагг - “Девушка online”.

   наверно все те кто уже читал эту книгу поймут почему я начала это дело. и если ты еще не знаешь, то я тебе расскажу.

  в книге говорится о подростке, которая ведет свой блог. и ведет она его анонимно. я много не буду писать о этой книге, ибо только начала читать. 

  ещё вчера я думала какую же книгу мне купить для чтения. я вспоминала своих “летних фаворитов”. это книги, которые я хотела приобрести ещё летом, но как-то не сложилось.. хотя почему не сложилось? ведь летом у меня была книга для постоянного чтения это - “Виноваты Звезды”. в первый раз когда я её прочитала у меня сносило олову от этой книги. она мне сразу понравилась. и так я её прочитывала где-то раза 3-4. 

  когда начилась школа, то чтения ушло на второй план, и я очень редко открывала эту книгу. и вспомнила я её в этот четверг. я её давала своей подруге, и её она очень понравилась. а потом она дала своей уже подруге, и та была того же мнения. и она решила купить её у меня. я была не против. ведь я её уже несколько раз прочитывала. не буду тянуть первую запись. продала я её за 300 рублей. 

  позже я решила на эти деньги купить другую книгу, и так появилась у меня книга  “Девушка online”.

  и после нескольких страниц я тоже решила завести такой мини-блог. где я могу высказать свои впечатления и события. надеюсь, что это будет не зря. 

    p.s.  моё “имя” - май дарлинг.