blind!derek

anonymous asked:

deaf/HoH or blind sterek?

I see you, Nonny, sneaking multiple asks into one  :P  I do like these types of fics tho.  :P

Also:

anonymous said: Hii! Do you know any sterek fics where one of them or both are deaf, blind, or can’t speak? If you could put a mix of them in there that would be great (: thank you so much your amazing !         

This list fills your ask too, but also check out our mute!Stiles tag for those fics (cause this post is already kinda crazy long, lol).

Enjoy the fics!  -Emmy

First up:  Deaf

Originally posted by milena198702

(Ooooooh…he gives me Derek vibes :D )

Deaf!Derek

You Don’t Have to Hear Your Heartbeat to Feel It by redhoodedwolf

(1,186 I General I Complete)  *sterek, college au, TA!derek, college student!stiles

It took Stiles longer than he’d like to admit for him to discover his TA for Mythological Studies was deaf.

Little Gestures by Stereksale7

(1,976 I Teen I Complete)  *sterek, driver!derek

Derek is a deaf Uber driver.

He’s hardly thanked by his passengers, and when he is, it’s seldom genuine.

In comes Stiles Stilinski, who changes it all.

Give Me a Sign by WhichWolfWins

(2,215 I Explicit I Complete)   *sterek, loss of virginity

Stiles decides to learn sign language so he can communicate better with Derek and he ends up using it to communicate his feelings for him.

Laughter is the Best Medicine by literaryoblivion

(4,432 I Teen I Complete)  *sterek, human au, doctor!stiles

He hasn’t always been deaf.

Although, sometimes, he wishes he was. Mainly because he knows what he’s missing. He remembers what the rustle of the wind in the trees sounds like, remembers what kids playing in the playground sounded like, what laughter sounded like.

He misses it. A lot.

Speak to Me by Ember

(9,168 I Teen I Complete)

Derek became deaf from the fire that took his family long ago, and has refused to speak since. But when he is forced to speak in the court case of the woman who betrayed him long ago, he begrudgingly accepts the help of a newly graduated speech pathologist. Stiles, however, is about to teach a whole lot more.

Bones Straining Under the Weight by weathervaanes

(15,645 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek, au, food blogger!derek

One of Stiles’ favorite things about life is Derek Hale’s food blog. He never expects to meet the man in person.

~

“Derek,” he says again, and the name feels very strange on his tongue. “You don’t mean Derek Hale.”

His professor’s eyebrows reach up, eyes widening. “You read his blog?”

“Uh. Worship. Would be a better more descriptive word. That is Derek Hale?”

Jimmy chuckles. “Good-looking guy, huh?”

“You mean to tell me the Food Network hasn’t snatched him up to dethrone everyone else from daytime TV.”

Jimmy smiles a small private smile. “I don’t think TV is his medium.”

Stiles raises an eyebrow. “Shy?”

The man laughs heartily at that. “No, I wouldn’t say that. He just has particular forms of expression, like eyebrows and chili powder.”

Counting to Infinity by artenon

(15,763 I Teen I Complete)  *sterek

When Derek goes deaf, he finds himself going to Stiles for help. Stiles does.

Want You To Shut Up (Even Though I Cannot Hear You) by ChairmanChurch

(19,487 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek, college au, roommates, alive hale family

“Wait, wait,” Scott scrutinized him suspiciously, “is all of this about the killer thing or just that you want to ogle at your roommate’s body?”

“No way, dude. I have my standards. Not the guy with eery green grey eyes, perfectly trimmed stubble and stupid bunny teeth.”

(Or the one in which Derek is deaf and Stiles doesn’t stop talking, and Isaac’s finally being helpful)


Deaf!Stiles

The Music Of your Body by GameCake

(2,389 I Teen I Complete)  *sterek, dancer!stiles

Derek inspected the paper with curiosity. It was a poster that seemed to be advertising a dancing event. There was a dancer in the middle, dressed in ballet clothes, body toned and hard, but the movement that was captured screamed smooth and melodic even from the picture.

I don’t understand. He signed with a frown.

It’s an invitation. I am one of the dancers in the group and I would like it if you came. Stiles replied nervously.

Hush by gryvon

(5,101 I General I Complete)  *scott/stiles, alive hale family

Scott becomes infatuated with Derek’s friend Stiles.

Heartbeats by lizleminem

(5,441 I Mature I Complete)  *scott/stiles

When they’re sixteen they steal some of Stiles’ dad’s alcohol. They’re a little tipsy when Stiles starts whining about how he’s still never kissed anyone. He makes a face and signs, “I’m sixteen, Scott. This is ridiculous. I’m gonna wither up and die before I ever kiss anyone.” His signing is a little loose and sloppy from the alcohol, and when he finishes he collapses backward on the bed, sighing like the world is crumbling around him.

Scott leans over him, rolls his eyes, and signs, “I’ll kiss you if it means you’ll shut up about it.”

Savagely Wicked by KrAuEd

(6,241 I Mature I Complete)   *sterek, model!stiles, nerd!derek, alive hale family

Stiles Stilinski, also known as the most famous model any underwear company has. He’s on billboards, magazines, covers of packaging. Anything and all. Most people say he’s popular just because he’s gay, others say it’s because he’s hot, or because he’s deaf. His life is busy and he works a lot, but it all changes when he meets Derek, a local man who treats him like a normal person.

(Previously known as ‘Really? That’s how you want to play?’)

Communication (And Lack Thereof) by impalagirl, wilddragonflying

(7,761 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek, proposals, weddings

Sheriff Stilinski has been waiting for this day for a long time. As he watches his visitor walking up the path, he thinks about everything that’s happened in the past year and his fingers twitch for his gun. But he can’t do that; he can’t shoot this man, as much as he might like to sometimes. Maybe he can go one worse, though.

Wild Tonic by officerstilinskihale

(11,010 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek

Stiles nodded and smiled again, his teeth flashing brightly and he signed something again, before looking frustrated with himself.

“You’re welcome,” Derek told him, feeling a wave of relief when Stiles’ face brightened. That would’ve been awkward if Stiles hadn’t been trying to say thank you.

“I had a really good time, so yeah. I’m glad you came with me,” he said, feeling his face grow hot. Derek wasn’t usually like this. He wasn’t confident. Sure, he had the looks and he could flirt shamelessly when he got hit on, but he always got shy around the people he genuinely liked, not that there was too many of those.

But Stiles didn’t let him dwell on that. He gripped Derek’s arm, grinned cheekily and pointed at himself before lifting two fingers. It took a while for Derek to get it but when he did, he couldn’t stop a smile from spreading across his face.

Me too.

And the Rest Was Silence by Reaping

(13,417 I Explicit I Complete)

April 16th: Noise

“Still can’t hear, go away.” He forms the words carefully, not sure how loud they are, but sure the wolves will get it.

Passing Notes to Say I Love You by AceLotti

(18,618 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek, college au

Love is Deaf. You can’t just tell someone you love them. You have to show them.

Silent by Handsofred

(28,313 I General I Complete)   *sterek, mates, kidnapped stiles

Alone, Stiles could feel the tiredness start to run through his body, the cuts on his body aching and other places hurting which made him wonder how they were hurting before he blinked a few times, eyes lifting towards the windows and the grey sky, Stiles hoped that the pack would find him. Slumping down in to the bonds, Stiles dropped his chin to his chest as tears gathered in his eyes, he felt scared for the first time since the car accident and he hated the fact that he couldn’t hear for anything which could creep up on him, hated that he couldn’t protect himself, squeezing his eyes shut tightly, Stiles tried to keep the tears away as he finally let the tiredness wash over him.

Silence is Loudest by codarra

(132,553 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek, human au, sick!stiles, hurt!stiles, first time

Monday dawned fresh and cool and with a lack of Stilinski.

The buzz in the school changed over the week, once Derek started paying attention to it. No longer was the student body talking about where the students were going on vacation, or lack thereof for the more middle-class populace. They were bandying about a different series of words instead.

“Accident.”

“Car crash.”

“Hit and run.”

“Sick. Really sick.”

“Disease.”

“Brain damage.”

“Brain dead.”

“Stilinski.”

“Stilinski.”

“Stilinski.”

Blind

Originally posted by draikinator

Blind!Stiles

Blind Guy Walking Here by foodunderstandsme

(1,141 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek

Stiles could remeber the last thing he saw, it wasn’t the car that was about to hit him it was Derek Hale. Stiles is now Legally blind hiding his secret from his friends for Three years now their back and his life is turned upside down and all he can think about is Derek.

It’s Just Like You To Come And Go (series) by wednesdays

(2,469 I Teen I Series WIP)

Stiles is blind. Derek may or may not like him a little lot.

Blind Trust by FairyNiamh

(3,255 I General I Complete)  *sterek, high school au, human au

Derek hates his life, hates moving, and hates that some kid keeps staring at him.

I see You Better by theroguesgambit

(4,686 I Teen I Complete)

He dreams, sometimes, of his last moments of seeing.

At the church in Mexico, Stiles is blinded by a Berserker. Derek uses his new wolf status to act as a guide dog, while Stiles adjusts to his new reality.

In the Darkness by Boy On Strings

(7,817 I Mature I Complete) *sterek

Stiles is blinded in the final showdown with the Alpha, Derek tries to comfort him after realizing he almost lost something forever.

Can’t Stay Away by mommymuffin

(10,689 I Not Rated I Complete)  *sterek, magic!stiles, mutilation

“It’s really quite simple, Derek,” Deucalion drawls. “You pick one to kill tonight, you kill the rest later, you become part of my pack.”

“And if I refuse?” Derek growls.

“We’ll kill one of them anyway.”

Heretics and Bastards by JusticeBanana

(13,229 I Mature I WIP)  *steter, historical au, medieval au, nobleman!peter, magic!stiles

Peter is sick of court and the drama it entails. His sister is creating a life for her and her children in a new and promising land that Peter finds cold and horrid. Soon he is dragged into something much bigger than himself and the usual royal court happenings. This boy he thinks he failed to keep from harm may not be safe but he is alive.

Love is Blind by super_queer

(14,238 I Not Rated I Complete)  *major character death, sterek, werewolf!stiles, alpha!stiles

Stiles loses his sight in a terrible accident, but Derek is determined to give him a good life regardless.

Sinking Like a Stone by iamnightbird

(20,012 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek

Derek Hale is convinced he can protect his pack from anything. Kanimas, other packs, even the supernatural that remain myths (like demons and the such), but an event hits him like a punch to the gut to remind him that the things he can’t protect his pack from are the everyday horrors in which life makes us her bitch. [Blind!Stiles]

What Big Eyes You Have (Series) by A_Lesbian_With_Pink_Hair

(20,978 I G-E I Complete)  *sterek, mates

An AU ‘verse in which Stiles is born blind and is Derek’s mate. The rest of the world is just going to have to adjust accordingly because if you think that’s going to stop the boy who runs with wolves, you are horrendously mistaken.

Serendipity by mynamjo

(45,141 I Explicit I Complete)   *sterek, artist!derek, magic!stiles, florist!stiles

Derek moves back to Beacon Hills to open up his new art gallery when he meets a blind boy who won’t leave him alone.

Cornerstone by Vendelin

(83,738 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek, marine!derek, ptsd!derek, human au

Suffering from PTSD, ex-Marine Derek Hale moves back to Beacon Hills to open a bookshop and find a calmer life. That’s where he meets Stiles, completely by accident. Stiles is talkative, charming and curious. Somehow, despite the fact that he’s blind, he’s able to read Derek like no one else.

He Sees Me For Me by Karlarado

(23,999 I Not Rated I WIP)  *sterek, dad!derek

Derek and his adopted daughter move to Beacon Hills to try and start up a normal life. They meet Stiles in a park with his service/seeing-eye dog and while Malia bonds with the dog, Derek ends up bonding with Stiles.

Windows by dr_girlfriend

(83,015 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek

Derek has a new neighbor who won’t stop looking.

Blind!Derek

Definitely Actually a Love Story by saltyavocado (rainglazed) 

(2,057 I General I Complete)  *sterek, Scott and Derek are brothers

Second and final part to the Bigbro!Derek verse.

The Colors of the Rainbow by MagnusBanewood 

(3,425 I Not Rated I Complete)  *sterek

When Derek arrives at his new high school he is afraid that people will make fun of him again. But then he meets Stiles and slowly falls in love with his voice.

Feeling You by secretfanboy 

(6,158 I Teen I Complete)  *sterek,

When Derek loses his sight and hearing saving Scott from an attack, the Stilinski’s take him in.  As nurse and patient Stiles and Derek grow closer, but what will happen when Derek gets better?  Will Stiles be left with a broken heart?

anonymous asked:

Blind!Derek who trained under deulcalion as a part of the Alpha pack when Laura was killed by hunters the same incident that left Derek blind. Derek ready to be an alpha with a pack of his own. He accidentally finds his mate while scoping out his familys old territory. He smells the most intoxicating scent of books, papaya, and fresh linens and he follows it to two teens who are trespassing on his land. His mate sounds gorgeous and clever. He can’t wait to claim him.

Originally posted by teenwolfmusicart

Long Angsty Sterek Fics

All at least 20k words long (by request)

Divided We Stand by KouriArashi

Derek is being pressured by his family to pick a mate, and somehow stumbles into a choice that they didn’t expect and aren’t sure they approve of….

By Any Other Name by entanglednow

He doesn’t know his name, he doesn’t know who he is, and neither does the werewolf he’s on the run with. But he’s pretty sure they hunt monsters, because they seem to be really good at it.

Permanent Fixture by linksofmemories

Derek is Scott’s older brother. Stiles is Scott’s best friend. Derek is falling in love with Stiles. This is a bit of a problem.

Mating Habits of the Domesticated North American Werewolf by lielabell

Derek doesn’t do pining. He doesn’t. So when it becomes clear that Stiles is much more interested in having Derek as a new best friend than a boyfriend, he puts on his big boy pants and makes it fucking work. He becomes the best goddamn friend a spastic teenager could ever hope to have.

Don’t Speak by fatale

The Alpha pack has systematically attacked Stiles and his friends for months, testing their strengths and weaknesses. When one of the Alphas goes after Stiles, he awakens in the hospital and realizes that something’s wrong. Very wrong. All sounds seem to hurt him, he can’t understand what anyone is saying, and when he tries to speak, it’s gibberish. How is he supposed to deal with the fact that he’s lost the ability to communicate with his dad and his friends?

Without his ability to talk, his sarcasm, and his wit, what does Stiles even have left? Enter Derek, the only one who seems to make it better.

Enemy Lines by qhuinn (tekla)

This is the story of werewolf Derek Hale and human Stiles Stilinski: two people who grew up in the same town but completely different worlds, their realities split by the war between men and wolves.

Years later when Derek returns to Beacon Hills, he does it as Alpha of a military pack on a mission to capture those responsible for the region’s resistance. With his main objective, Sheriff Stilinski, out of sight, he settles for the next best thing: his son, Stiles.

Neither of them suspects they’ll need to trust each other if they want to make it out this alive.

Keep reading

My name is Stiles Stilinski and i used to be a spy.

When you’re burned, you’ve got nothing. No cash, no credit, no job history. You’re stuck in whatever city they decide to dump you. You do whatever work comes your way, you rely on anyone who’s still talking to you. Bottom line, until you figure out who burned you, you’re not going anywhere.

***

C4 is meant to be used, not stored.

When Stiles’s ex-handler tells him to stay put and lay low, she doesn’t mean “go out, get into a brawl with a drug cartel and blow up their warehouse”, but field work is always chaotic and people are often forced to improvise. On the bright side, it’s a big win for police and the people of Miami, because with $20 mil in lost product and chain arrests of everyone involved, the safest place for the gang is prison. On the other hand, huge plum of smoke and fire is bound to attract attention.

***

Flirtation is always a tactical option.

Detectives Hale and Parrish catch the Robin Hood a day after he dumps a local crime lord on their steps, gagged and bound with a obscenely pink bow slapped on his forehead. It’s a sheer dumb luck really- the man trips and literally falls into Derek Hale’s hands, planting his face right into the detective’s pecks after tripping on a wire. Detective Hale is an exemplary officer and in perfect physical condition, so the prep’s face is cushioned and doesn’t take any damage. It does however hit something in his head, because the prep - Stiles Stilinski- spends all interrogation shamelessly flirting with Derek. Derek is unimpressed and stoic as ever, and Parrish envies his poker face because - well, because pink tips of Derek’s ears betray that Stiles’s flirting tactics is actually hitting the target.

***

There are people you can trust.

Stiles Stilinski is whisked away by his lawyer-ex-handler Lydia Martin after she shoves a top-secret directive from DOD into Hale and Parrish’s faces and proposes an under-the-radar cooperation agreement between the spy and the law enforcement agency. Or, as Derek calls it, a pile of crap.

A pile of crap proves to be a surprisingly effective arrangement. While police are bound by law and regulations, Stiles is not bound by anything, including common sense. He goes undercover, bullshits his way out of any situation, beats up and maims should the occasion arise, and slowly but surely crawls into Derek’s heart.

Jordan isn’t blind and wishes Derek would act upon it, because Stilinski’s behavior screams that feeling is mutual, but Jordan also knows Derek’s history of horrific breakups, and falling in love with a disgraced ex-CIA who likes to dodge bullets and blow shit up might not be a good idea. So, Parrish keeps his mouth shut.

***

Don’t argue with destiny, it will kick your ass.

Parrish knows Derek is taken even when there are no cries for help or signs of struggle in Derek’s apartment. It’s 7 hours before a category 5 hurricane hits Miami, and Derek is nowhere to be found. The captain is worried too, but with all personnel deployed to assist in mandatory evacuations, there isn’t much the precinct can do except for waiting out the storm and hoping their detective is still alive when it’s over.

Parrish knows Derek won’t last that long, Argents are anything but merciful.

The thing is- he doesn’t have to fight them alone. And there is nothing more dangerous than a pissed off CIA.

Two hours before the landfall, Parrish is chasing down Derek’s cell signal when a car stops at the precinct’s door and dumps Derek on the steps. Derek is battered and bruised but otherwise fine, so Jordan grabs him, stuffs him into the car and hits the gas.

They are half-way to the safe zone when Derek finally speaks up.

“You, um… you do have his number, right?”

Jordan turns to his partner who suddenly looks very young, fiddling with his seat belt.

“Yeah, why?”

“I owe him a dinner.”

Parrish lets out a sigh of relief, thanks the heavens and looks back at the road.

Top 20 Sterek Fics 2016

Just like last year, we have decided to put together a list of fics that we read this year that we really enjoyed! So many great ones were posted but these are our personal favorites. 

Here’s last years list if you want to check it out - (x)

Have an amazing 2017 guys!

K’s:

Windows by dr_girlfriend (28/28 | 83,006 | NC17)

Derek has a new neighbor who won’t stop looking.

Excerpt:

“You’re blind,” Derek said flatly, the anger draining from him so suddenly he felt almost woozy. His vision cleared, his claws sliding back into blunt fingernails.

“Thanks for the memo, genius,” the kid said acidly. “I can still fucking defend myself, so don’t take another damn step.”

“Fuck, I…I’m sorry,” Derek stuttered.

“What?!” The kid’s brow crinkled. “I mean — what?! You’re fucking sorry!?” His lips thinned into a harsh line. “What, is this some kinda Hallmark movie where you’re discovering the error of your ways because you don’t want to rob a blind person?! That’s fucking condescending, man. I’ll have you know that —”

“Just, wait.” Derek interrupted what was apparently the start of a convincing argument as to why he should rob the kid after all, feeling his head start to spin. “This is — it’s a misunderstanding. I’m — I’m not robbing you. You’re — you’re safe, okay? I’m taking three steps back. Just — just let me explain.”

“Explain why you came busting into my apartment? Yeah, go right ahead, man, I can’t wait to hear this epic tale.”

Capes are Cool (but they don’t make a hero) by chantelle82 (3/3 | 7,068 | PG13)

The story of how Stiles and Derek fall in love and became heroes - to each other

Numbers by standinginanicedress (1/1 | 11,150 | PG13)

“I’m magic,” Stiles raises his hands in the air and puts on a serious facial expression. “I have the sixth sense.”

“The sixth sense, huh? Is that what they’re calling bullshit these days?”

Stiles’ lips purse down hard, but he still smirks. Derek wonders if there’s any single facial expression that Stiles can make that isn’t in some way at least slightly amused, whether at himself or the expense of others. “Non-believers aren’t welcome at my table, Derek.”

It’s Too Early For This by thepsychicclam (1/1 | 4,966 | PG13)

Derek loves his job at the coffee shop, especially because Stiles comes in for coffee before early Saturday morning lacrosse practices. The problem is that Derek is too shy to do anything about his crush, and the situation is not helped by the rivalry between the basketball and lacrosse teams.

Hale Construction by Mynuet (1/1 | 8,342 | G)

Derek gets a business and a home. Stiles gets his own Batman. The sheriff gets hash browns. The Stilinski household is expanded without anyone quite talking about it.

A’s:

A Heart is a Heavy Burden by lielabell (13/13 | 41,242 | PG13)

In Which Stiles: is accosted by unhappy witches, becomes friends with fire demons, is rescued by darkly handsome wizards, discovers hidden inner depths, is introduced to princes, and finds true love. Though not necessarily in that order.

(Or the Howl’s Moving Castle AU fusion fic you never knew you wanted but are delighted to have.)

French Silk Pie, Baby by KuriKuri (1/1 | 2,649 | PG13)

“See, your angel of a sister - ” Derek scoffs. Cora hasn’t been an angel since she was five months old. “ - agreed to date me, because my visa is about to expire and - ”

“I’d have to marry you for that, dumbass,” Cora butts in, rolling her eyes.

“Are you saying you wouldn’t marry me to keep me in the country?” Stiles asks, sounding mildly offended.

“Hell no,” Cora snorts, earning her a wounded look from Stiles.

Twice in a Lifetime (AKA The Importance of Snuggle Buddies) by normalcatbehaviour (1/1 | 1,761 | G)

It takes him a while to actually notice it’s not just Stiles sprawled across their couch, but to be fair to him, he isn’t really thinking about anything but finally getting some sleep and maybe liberating one of the cookies that Stiles thinks are well hidden behind the microwave. He’s half way to covering the boys up with a blanket when he finally notices.

That is definitely not Scott McCall.

It is in fact definitely Derek Hale. Derek Hale the 26 year old. Who his son is currently lying on, head tucked under Derek’s chin, Derek’s hands clenched in the back of his t-shirt.

“Um,” the Sheriff says. He wasn’t prepared for this.

tongue of dog and blind-worm’s sting by Zercalo (7/7 | 51,909 | NC17)

In order to keep the identity of the teacher he’s been seeing a secret, Derek’s been withdrawing from his pack and family. Cora, frustrated with his alienation and a little lonely, clings to the first nonjudgmental person who offers companionship – which happens to be that odd Muggleborn Revenclaw who’s always hanging around the Gryffindor common room.

She hasn’t befriended Stiles for Derek’s sake, but Derek just might reap the benefits anyway - if he pulls his head out of his ass and quit the stupid self-sacrificing act.

No Homo by RemainNameless (11/11 | 84,064 | NC17)

Stiles’ sophomore year starts something like this:
3 FourLokos
+ 1 peer-pressuring cat
- 1 best bro to end all best bros
= 1 Craigslist ad headline that reads “str8 dude - m4m - strictly platonic”.
Derek is the fool who replies.

Kass’:

Filter Out the Starlight by skoosiepants (1/1 | 12,238 | PG13)

“Why are you not more curious about me?” Stiles says when Derek’s got the door half open, sun spilling over the dark wood, dust motes spinning about his legs. Stiles is wearing fabric that hasn’t been invented yet, he’s clutching a smart phone to his chest, and he appeared out of nowhere, like an angel.

Softly, Derek says, “We all have our secrets,” and closes the door.

Or-

A heartbroken Stiles accidentally travels back in time to find his one true love. A harlequin-ish Christmas romance.

Regression to the Mean by theroguesgambit (1/1 | 16,546 | R)

There aren’t really words for this. “Sure, dude. Let’s hang out sometime and bond over the fact that our lives suck and we’ve both basically killed a bunch of people by accident” doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue.

Prompt: In the aftermath of 3B, Stiles and Derek learn to trust, learn to fuck, and learn to love themselves, each other, and their pack.

I Breathe Disaster by TamzStripped (12/12 | 84,946 | NC17)

“No. I’m not doing it. You can’t make me, Scott.”

“Don’t be such a wuss. You don’t want to die, do you? This is the only way to keep you safe from the Alpha pack.”

“Why not Danny? He’s actually gay, kind of adorable, and doesn’t look at me like he wants to shut me up…with his teeth.” Stiles threw his arms out in front of him, Scott shook his head for the thousandth time. “Why not?”

or

How Stiles went from hating Derek, to wanting to cuddle him, to hating him again, to kissing his boo-boo’s, to waxing poetic, then finally laying his life on the line to save him. Funny how things turn out.

Don’t You Wanna Be My Sky? by WhoNatural (1/1 | 9,420 | G)

Stiles got ratted out by the Realm Guard for sneaking off with Scott a total of seven times before his dad buckled, promising sabbatical once Stiles reached Faehood, and enough Earth culture in the meantime to have him talking like a born-and-bred Californian teenager.

He just didn’t have the tan.

(Or, in which Stiles is a Frost Fae sent to the Earth Realm on the Fae version of Rumspringa and immediately falls head-first into a Coffee Shop AU)

Mauve by bleep0bleep (1/1 | 7,380 | NC17)

It’s been ten years since he’s seen Derek Hale, but Stiles would recognize that ass anywhere.

Tine’s:

The Fixer and the First Son by ebjameston (10/10 | 47,625 | PG13)

“You want me to arrange a political marriage for your son?” Stiles repeats dumbly.

“It wouldn’t be the first time you’ve done this,” Talia Hale says, dark eyes twinkling over her impeccable blue pantsuit. “Senator Harvey and Elise’s match worked out perfectly, and they’re actually quite in love, from what I hear.”

“George Harvey was a little-known senatorial candidate from Kansas at the time, Madam President,” Stiles says slowly. “Your son – you, Mr. Hale,” he directs toward the man pacing tiny circles behind the president’s chair, “are the nation’s most eligible bachelor. Literally. I saw it on the cover of People.”

(Stiles is a political fixer. Derek is the president’s son. I’ve been watching too much Scandal.)

Part 1 of Stilinski & Associates

steal my breath away by stilinskisparkles (1/1 | 4,454 | PG13)

This is the worst organised robbery I’ve ever seen,” Derek comments as he begrudgingly does as he’s told.

“Nobody asked you,” Stiles huffs.

Home by TheTypewriterGirl (17/18 | 160,430 | PG13)

January seventh. Seven days since the start of 2015, and seven days since his father’s death.

The bastard, he thinks bitterly. The past year Derek Hale had made it blatantly obvious that he hated his scrawny guts, taking every given opportunity to shove him up against a wall, growl threats in his ears and roll his eyes whenever he stepped into the room, muttering some snide comment about how spastic or idiotic he was.

So why did he fucking volunteer to take him in?

Sowing Season by WeAreTheCyclones (28/? | 177,873 | R)

Just a bunch of kids doing teenage stuff: starting bands and terrorizing teachers and hurting like hell and falling for each other. The usual.

Part 3 of Play Crack the Sky

The Circus at the End of the World by mikkimouse (25/25 | 91,049 | NC17)

Three hundred years ago, the world ended not with a bang or a whimper, but with magic.

Since then, magic has been outlawed, and the world has clawed its way back to some kind of stability, with people and shifters alike divided between living within the walled safety of the Havens, or the small, less protected outposts dotting the frontier.

Derek Hale and his sisters, Laura and Cora, are the proprietors of Hale’s Circus of Magic, Monsters, and Mystical Wonders, known colloquially as the Circus at the End of the World. They and their ragtag pack ride the rails between the outposts and the Havens, performing for those who can pay (and some who can’t). Their circus is a small haven in and of itself, a place of safety for those who have nowhere else to go.

It’s a quiet life…until Stiles Stilinski joins the crew.

The circus has something Stiles needs—a ticket into the Haven of Santa Francesca. His father has been abducted, and Stiles is determined to get him back no matter what he has to do.

But Stiles has another secret, one that puts him and every member of the circus in danger. And if he’s not careful, it could get them all killed.

the-darkhunter  asked:

Hey there :-) Can you make me a rec list about firefighter sterek please? Thanks ;-)

sure! here are some cute and lovely fics that you might haven’t seen before, hopefully you’ll enjoy them!

stiles is a firefighter

  • You Are My Fire by omelet (Not Rated, 8k)  Derek thinks this is getting a little out of hand. Because honestly, he never would have guessed that he would one day come to own a firemen-themed calendar.
  • untitled by bleep0bleep (T, 1k)  Laura punches him playfully in the shoulder, chuckling. “Dude, lighten up on the staff here. It’s not their fault they think you’re one of the dudes going in the calendar.” 
  • start a fire in your heart by dedougal (E, 6k)  Stiles wants nothing more than to keep his head down and get on with his job as a firefighter. Of course, that’s when his photo ends up on the front pages, drawing attention from places he thought he’d left behind.

derek is a firefighter

  • until the clock strikes midnight again by decideophobia (T, 5k) Derek stumbles upon a test then, towards the end of the magazine, and before he realizes what he’s doing, he’s reading out loud, “Are you good in bed?”Stiles drops his pen.
  • untitled by pantstomatch (T, 3k)  Stiles is not stuck. To random passers-by it could appear that he is stuck, but he’s completely capable of getting down off this motherfucking tree all by himself. There was absolutely no reason to call the fire department, Isaac, given that they have a perfectly serviceable ladder in the garage, and Stiles totally has the agility of a jungle cat. Climbing down this tree should be a piece of cake. It’s just that, you know: tiny kitten.
  • stop, drop and roll by thepsychicclam (M, 12k)  Stiles knows he’s in trouble when he invites the Beacon Hills Fire Department into his third grade classroom and he can’t stop staring at a certain scruffy fireman. But after the third graders take a field trip to the fire station and participate in the fire department’s holiday canned food drive, Stiles can’t ignore his crush any longer.
  • boy in blue by kaihire (G,5k)  Stiles gets injured on the job because he’s just awesome like that, and it turns out his usual massage therapist isn’t in. Unfortunately, the masseur who’s replacing him is precisely the reason Stiles ended up getting hurt in the first place.
  • untitled by thepsychicclam (T,2k)  stiles is a waiter at the diner down the street from the fire station, and fireman!derek comes in frequently for lunch.
  • everybody loves good neighbors by stilinskisparkles (M, 7k)  What about an “everything run-down and suddenly a guy falls through the ceiling; now there’s a hole in the ceiling of my bedroom”-AU thing?
  • just when you think you’re in control by trilliastra (T, 2k) While Josh rushes to grab his things and Stiles tries to clean some of the mess on Josh’s table, the door opens with a bang and suddenly Derek Hale is running inside, disheveled and clearly upset.Stiles would feel sorry for him – and in another situation, he would even stop to admire Derek’s perfect body and face – but he crushed a little boy’s heart and that’s unforgivable.
    In which Stiles thinks Derek is the worst uncle when he’s, actually, the best.
  • Through Fire by hazelNuts (G, 1k) “‘you’ve just been saved from a burning building and you’re begging to go back in to save your pet cat’ au - sterek - that cat has been by stiles’ side since forever and his mom give it to him and even tho he’s old and almost blind please save him"Derek watches as Boyd tries to stop a man from running back into the burning apartment building. Boyd towers over him, but the guy is a fighter and his colleague is having some real trouble holding him back. The guy is aiming for the places he knows he will hurt the firefighter the most, his crotch, his solar plexus. He even tries to kick him in the knees. This isn’t going to end well for either man if someone doesn’t stop that guy soon.
  • Emergency Hugs by LadyDrace (T, 2k) EMERGENCY HUGS
    INQUIRE WITHIN The sign looks cheerful enough, as much as a sign can when composed of entirely letters in a sturdy black frame, but Stiles doesn’t know why he’d stopped to stare at it. Okay, that’s a lie. He does know.
  • untitled by mad-madam-m (Not Rated, 1k) “Would you like to donate to the Beacon Hills Firefighters Fund?”  Stiles gapes at the specimen of a man standing beside his car, holding out a giant rubber boot with a cheerful “DONATE” sign taped to it. The man is tall, dark, bearded, and frowning, though Stiles can’t tell if the latter is because he’s genuinely unhappy or just protecting his eyes from the sun’s glare.  “Uh,” Stiles says, because it’s too early for him to think when he’s looking at a firefighter who might as well have walked out of his wet dreams. 
  • Cooking With (A) Fire(man) by literaryoblivion (G, 2k) After a kitchen accident in his dorm, Stiles is forced to take a cooking class as punishment and ends up meeting a very attractive fireman to share his cooking station with… and maybe a few other things.
  • untitled by howlnatural (T, 2k) After Tilly the three-legged jack russell, Dr McCall - the aforementioned vet -seemed to know instinctively which tragic dog cases Derek wouldn’t be able to turn down. Dana the Australian shepherd and Bobby the former police dog who’d gone deaf in a meth lab explosion followed, and then Derek had moved to a bigger place and kind of forgotten about dating. Until Stiles.
  • Emergency Love by Kedreeva (E, 14k) Wherein Derek is a firefighter and Stiles is a paramedic, and they just keep meeting.
  • Hot Like Burning by Leslie_Knope (T, 2.5k)  In which Derek is the grumpy neighborhood firefighter, and Stiles is a bit of a lovestruck idiot.
  • Cupboard Love by mklutz (G, 33k) He’s carefully balancing the sandwiches and the two biggest tupperware containers he could find that both had functioning lids when the front door opens and he almost drops everything right there in front of the stupid fountain. If that’s Derek Hale, he’s definitely not a mountain man.
  • untitled by stileshale (Not Rated, 1k) Derek is a firefighter and Stiles likes it when he comes home in his gear.
  • untitled by lycanthrophies (Not Rated, 2k)  Riling Derek up became a fun past time activity for Stiles pretty fast, because Derek tries so hard to be stoic sometimes, it’s really a highlight to see him crack open and either get adorably flustered, or—even better—make him laugh out loud.
STEREK FIC REC POST

 500 twitter followers on my @getsterekt twitter account! thanks so much guys. here is another fic rec post in honor of u guys.

(fics marked with * are personal faves)

!!!!Before reading any fics PLEASE make sure you take note of the warnings and tags! as some of these fics may include triggering content to certain readers!!!!

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i will not give you up this time by stxrxk

  Derek Hale was hard lines and rough skin.

WORDS: 304

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: General

WARNINGS: none

to fall in deep by decideophobia

  “the guy i fucked last night woke up this morning, disoriented and looked at me, and said “oh, you’re hot.” and went back to sleep.”

WORDS: 618

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Gen

WARNINGS: none

They would have loved you by Bellakitse

Stiles finds an old camera in the Hale house, he decides he’s going to find a way to give a little bit of Derek’s family back to him.

…..

“He has nothing left from his family, Peter doesn’t count. No pictures, everything that belonged to them burned, I-I wouldn’t know how to deal if I could never see mom’s face again, we have pictures and family videos and he just doesn’t, I want to try to give something back to him,” Stiles looks up at his dad, embarrassed by his confession.

WORDS: 1282

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: General

WARNINGS: none

TLC by  KARIN848

Alternate title: Derek Hale Deserves to Be Loved. Almost 1500 words of self indulgent Derek being cared for by Stiles after fight. Derek Hale deserves to be told that he is loved and he deserves good things. Stiles endeavors to prove that Derek is worthy of his pack and worthy of love.

WORDS: 1396

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Brad The Douchebag Ex by LadyDrace 

Stiles and Derek bump into Stiles’ shitty ex while Christmas shopping. Derek isn’t entirely sure what’s going on, but when Stiles grabs his hand, he just kinda rolls with it.

WORDS: 1436

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: douchebag ex

**Hey, Babe. by Areiton

It doesn’t happen every time they’re out. But it happens. Enough that he stops thinking it’s strange.

WORDS: 1571

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: not rated

WARNINGS: none

here, in the light of day by yodasyoyo

“Go to sleep Stiles,” he mumbles.

Sleep.

Sleep?

They are naked, like, completely naked. As in Stiles’ naked dick is now pressed right up against Derek’s naked thigh. Sleep? Stiles may be exhausted and hungover, but sleep is impossible.

WORDS: 1997

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

The Well Deserved Day of Derek Hale by mackietommo

Derek doesn’t remember the last time he got a good day.

WORDS: 2066

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: General

WARNINGS: none

Ephemeral by thegirlgrey

Stiles has a weird reaction to his anesthesia. He wakes up with temporary amnesia. The resulting video gets 1 million hits on YouTube in 6 hours. (Beyoncé can suck it.)

WORDS: 2182

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Money Honey by paintedrecs

Derek’s a moderately well off businessman who has a soft heart, a rapidly emptying wallet, and a serious problem with dogs, panhandlers, and life in general.

Until Stiles comes along.

WORDS: 2845

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Five Times Derek and Stiles Wanted the Same Book (And One Time There Were Two Copies) by mikkimouse

“Hey!” Stiles yanked the book back, but the other guy had a firm grip on it. “What are you–”

He trailed off when he set eyes on the leather-clad god with a glare that could strip paint off a car who also had hold of the book.

Stiles gulped, but he didn’t let go. “Hey, dude, I had it first.”

Those powerful black eyebrows bent down further. “Like hell you did.”

WORDS: 2896

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

I’m so in love with you. by beautyinstarlight

When Stiles first says I love you to Derek, it’s a completely ordinary day in their new lives. They aren’t even dating…

Or: The story of when Stiles and Derek both said I love you and beyond.

WORDS: 3510

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: General

WARNINGS: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Homing Mechanisms by SmallBirds

Magnetoreception: The sense which allows an organism to detect a magnetic field to perceive direction, altitude or location. How birds find their way home.

Stiles returns to Beacon Hills after four years at Stanford, only to find out that Derek has moved back into town. He brings him a housewarming gift. Derek makes food. Things escalate from there.

WORDS: 3741

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: none

Operation Rescue Sourwolf by HelloWhyTheFuckAmIHere

Derek Hale will not be accused of another crime he didn’t commit. Not on Stiles’ watch.

(What really happened when Stiles used his position as FBI Intern to save Derek’s life.)

WORDS: 4221

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: violence

When Your Teachers Have No Chill by giantteenwolforgy

Derek’s not his boyfriend, but sometimes it feels like he should be.

WORDS: 4314

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: none

How to Pretend You’re Not a Virgin and Other Sordid Tales by KuriKuri

Stiles likes the anonymity, the security his pseudonym provides. Likes that there are entire forums dedicated to speculating about his identity: his gender, his sexuality, his age.

Of course, there’s one thing they all seem to agree on: he’s some sort of sex god.

Which is really, really awkward, because he’s a twenty-three year old virgin.

(Or: in which Stiles is a bestselling erotica novelist and Lydia makes him attend a convention to promote his upcoming book.)

WORDS: 5347

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Notches in Your Spine by whiskey_in_tea

Stiles is the one who finds them in the first place, Derek’s college applications.

(this fic is restricted so you will need an ao3 account to be able to read it)

WORDS: 8741

CHAPTERS: 3/3

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: none

The Truth Is by BulletBlaze

  “Well, you should get going then-”
“You could come around some time-”
A pause.
“Wait, what?”
A blush bloomed across Derek’s cheeks, barely visible over the top of his beard. He shrugged again.
“If you wanted to. You could stop by while I’m fixing it up. Help me with some things. If you wanted to.”
“You already said that,” Stiles, the idiot, mumbled in disbelief.
Derek’s blush grew a shade darker.

WORDS: 8851

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: sheriff has a heart attack

put ‘em together and what have you got? by yodasyoyo

“Oh, bibbidi bobbidi fuck you.”

Unsurprisingly, Stiles’ fairy godmother is a menace.

WORDS: 11,162

CHAPTERS: 2/2

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Keeping Tabs by Cousin Shelley (CousinShelley)

After Erica’s death at the hands of the alphas, Stiles wants to be there for Derek, but Derek just wants to be alone. In the process of waiting him out, Stiles comes up with a plan to stay a step ahead of the alpha pack, and ends up spending lots of quality time with Cora and Peter.

WORDS: 12,896

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

trusting wolves by ourdreamsunfold

In the midst of a werewolf war against the alphas, the Sheriff learns that in a pack, loyalty is earned. And his son works hard enough to earn trust for both him and Derek, and all of their friends. Especially when the pack won’t even admit to liking each other most of the time. The kids are all a work in progress, and the Sheriff is lucky to be there for them. Werewolves and all.

WORDS: 13,572

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

*borders and horizon lines by magneticwave

“Let me do this nice thing for you, Derek, no strings attached,” said nobody ever.

WORDS: 14,833

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

*Help Wanted by Jebiwonkenobi

Nice things begin to happen to Derek Hale and it kind of freaks him out.

WORDS: 15,593

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Can I Keep You? by wearing_tearing

After practically being raised watching Buffy, The X-Files, and Ghostbusters, Stiles liked to think his reaction to seeing a shimmery shadow resembling a seventeen year old boy floating ten inches above ground and glaring fiercely at him wouldn’t be to let out a high pitch scream, try to karate chop him, and then, when that obviously didn’t work, throw a basketball at him.

A basketball that just went right through the boy’s stomach.

or, the Sterek Casper AU.

WORDS: 16,005

CHAPTERS: 6/6

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Imagine Me And You by callunavulgari

“My name,” the kid tells Derek, sounding amused. “It’s Stiles. I figure if I’m going to wrestle a complete stranger for a pumpkin the least I can do is offer my name afterwards.”

“Stiles,” Derek tries, testing the way the name sits on his tongue. “I’m Derek.”

“Derek,” Stiles breathes, like he’s testing the weight of the name too. He grins, bright and blinding, which Derek guesses means that he likes the sound of it. “I’d offer to shake your hand, but since we almost got to second base a minute ago, I’d say we’re past that point.”

WORDS: 16,080

CHAPTERS: 6/6

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: none

Regression to the Mean by theroguesgambit

There aren’t really words for this. “Sure, dude. Let’s hang out sometime and bond over the fact that our lives suck and we’ve both basically killed a bunch of people by accident” doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue.

Prompt: In the aftermath of 3B, Stiles and Derek learn to trust, learn to fuck, and learn to love themselves, each other, and their pack.

WORDS: 16,580

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: ptsd (both stiles and derek)

We’ll be Better Around the Second Time by Cantabo

It’s been months. Months of fading contact with the pack. Months of the silent treatment from his father. Months of nothing but himself and the occasional lesson with Deaton to entertain him.

It’s too much, and eventually, Stiles leaves.

For years, everything goes great, until of course his dad gets injured, and he is suddenly forced to deal with people he thought he left behind in his past for good.

OR: Stiles gets pushed out of the pack, hits the road, makes new friends, learns how to grow up, and falls in love.

WORDS: 26,589

CHAPTERS: 12/12

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: None

You Can’t Dodge Stiles Stilinski by stilinskisparkles

“And this is it?” he points at the first girl. “I saw you in first period, you barely bothered to catch any of the balls you were tossed. I’m pretty sure you spent more time on your cell.”

The girl rolls her eyes, and looks completely unashamed of the fact she had her phone out in class. Derek knows Finstock would have stepped on it.

“And you,” he points at the second girl, taller and with eyes that meet Derek’s coolly. “You can’t throw anything worth half a damn. And what are you,” he points at the boy, trying not to look him in the eye, and failing. “A hundred and fifty pounds wet?”

The boy smirks at him, and Derek looks resolutely away. He’s now desperately trying not to picture him wet.

“I can’t work with this.”

WORDS: 27,250

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: underage (nothing sexual happens until stiles is 18 but theres flirting and stuff between stiles and derek while he’s 17) teacher-student relationship

A Perfect Storm by keeperofstories & queenofday

The first time Derek sees him is on the Subway.

The fifth time Derek spots him, the boy has a split lip and an angry alpha threatening him.

(OR: Where Scott is a really bad boyfriend and Derek ends up being Stiles’ hero)

WORDS: 30,848

CHAPTERS: 7/7

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: Graphic violence, abusive relationships, domestic violence

Take Me Out To The Ball Game (Or to dinner, I’m easy either way) by Whisper91

In which single-father Derek Hale falls head over heels for his sons’ new Little League coach. Unsurprisingly, it’s all Laura’s fault.

WORDS: 32,556

CHAPTERS: 7/7

RATING:Mature

WARNINGS: so much fluffff (says theres 7/8 chapters finished but im pretty sure its complete as it hasnt been updated in 2 years and the ending of ch7 is super nice and fluffy)

To Each Their Own by SylvieW

Stiles agrees to become the owner of a werewolf with some very special needs. Derek has been abused for so long he’s nearly feral. Stiles has to find a way to gain his trust before Derek’s heat, or he could be put down.

WORDS: 32,668

CHAPTERS: 10/10

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: !!heed the tags!! dub-con, werewolves are pretty much slaves, kate argent warning. abusive kate.

**Ghosts In The Suburbs by Hypocorismm

Stiles gets cursed by a witch and can see dead people. 

WORDS: 37,263

CHAPTERS: 15/15

RATING: Teen and Up

WARNINGS: angst

You Look Like Bad News (i gotta have you) by standinginanicedress

Option A : violently tell Derek that they are under no circumstances ever to hook up again because it was stupid and dumb.

Option B : tell Scott the truth, stand back and watch as Scott kills Derek with his bare hands so Stiles doesn’t even have to face the music. Not an option at all, actually. Expunge this from the record.

The real Option B : calmly explain to Derek that the situation is too fucked up and hey, maybe if Derek and Scott ever shake hands and make up, he and Stiles can hook up again because, man…it was great.

Option C : forget everything, charge headfirst into danger like fuckin’ Bravehart and have sex with Derek all over again.

Option D : bury himself alive and wait for the worms to eat him.

WORDS: 38,954

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: none

***Come with Me and Walk the Longest Mile by  DevilDoll

“Stiles shouldn’t accept rides from werewolves he meets behind abandoned convenience stores.” In which the zombie apocalypse is just one of their worries.

WORDS: 39,275

CHAPTERS: 4/4

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: underage

Killer Smile by Black_Calliope

One. Two. Seven. How many times should a killer strike before getting called ‘serial’?

Or the one where Stiles works as a member of a Behavioral Analysis Unit, gets insulted quite a lot, learns that love doesn’t always take the shortest path and cultivates an illicit relationship with a coffee mug. Not necessarily in that order. Also, Boyd has a thing for explosives and Lydia is the most BAMF coroner ever. Derek doesn’t get his spring rolls because he doesn’t deserve them. Neither does Stiles, but that’s another whole story.

WORDS: 51,434

CHAPTERS: 1/1

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: Graphic Depictions of Violence

**Those Are The Days That Bind Us by  s_a_m

His father wasn’t stupid. He was an officer of the law, trained to look for patterns. He confronted Stiles about werewolves and they shouted and Stiles tried to explain but his father was so, so, so mad, more mad than Stiles had ever seen him, ever in all his life and then his father looked at him and said,

“It’s like you’re not my son anymore.”

And Stiles broke.

WORDS: 52,171

CHAPTERS: 5/5

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: angst, PTSD, violence, gore, implied/referenced non-con, death of an unborn baby, panic attacks

[Sleep]Walking After You by relenafanel

Derek is a sleepwalker who keeps wandering into his downstairs neighbour’s bedroom.

Stiles is pretty sure the hot guy from the park is going to kill him in his sleep. He knows he shouldn’t have been so obvious about objectifying the guy’s really fine ass.

Too bad it turns out Derek is easier to get along with when he’s sleeping.

WORDS: 56,551

CHAPTERS: 10/10

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: none

***Safety in Silence by Survivah

It’s perfectly understandable. Even Derek wouldn’t want to be Derek’s soulmate.

WORDS: 66,901

CHAPTERS: 5/5

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: none

The More Things Change by KouriArashi

Ten years ago, there was a major war between the supernatural world and the mundane. Now Beacon Hills is cut off and the Argents are in control, and the supernatural creatures are slowly being hunted down. But when Stiles, who was adopted by the Argents after the death of his parents, makes friends with the Hale Pack, things start to change…

WORDS: 80,378

CHAPTERS: 18/18

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: Graphic Violence

***One life stand by Vendelin

Stiles is used to selling himself to make ends meet. But it’s getting harder to keep those ends meeting, and there’s only so much of Stiles to go around. Until a too-fancy car shows up in his neighborhood, and he meets Derek Hale.

All Derek wants is Stiles’s time, someone to stay on his arm for events and smile for the cameras. It’s the easiest job Stiles has ever had, the best-paying one he’s ever had, and he’s more than happy to sign up.

Derek is everything and nothing Stiles expects him to be, with his tailored suits, sharp mind and his quiet way of caring. But it’s just a job and Stiles never meant to fall in love.

WORDS: 84,278

CHAPTERS: 6/6

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: read tags for warnings

Into The Open Air by Acherona & trulywicked

It was a little strange moving back to Beacon Hills. His daughter becoming enchanted with his odd and very attractive neighbor didn’t really help matters.

WORDS: 99,482

CHAPTERS: 22/22

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: Violence

Hallowed Grounds by damnfancyscotch

Everything in Beacon Hills is the same when Stiles comes home from college.

Well, except for the fact that he’s a published author now, Scott is halfway across the world with a travelling circus, Erica’s epilepsy has been cured, her boss offers him a job too, and there’s this weird black dog that seems to be following him around just to judge him.

Oh, and the murders, of course.

But other than that stuff… totally the same old BH.

WORDS: 109,578

CHAPTERS: 16/16

RATING: Mature

WARNINGS: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Bruises and Bitemarks by oblivions172

Biologically, Stiles is weak. When he presented as an omega, he knew that to be the truth but that never stopped him from running his mouth as a defense mechanism. However, it could only save him so many times before he ended up pissing off the wrong person. After he’s attacked in the parking lot outside of school, Stiles realizes he can no longer protect himself with just pure wit and sarcasm. When the attack lands him in the hospital, his dad forces him to pick between two options, report the alphas who attacked him or join a kickboxing gym run by omega rights activist and alpha, Derek Hale, a man Stiles has been in love with for many years.

WORDS: 121,566

CHAPTERS: 27/27

RATING: Explicit

WARNINGS: !!Read Tags!!

sourwolfstories ultimate blind!stiles fic rec list

I See You Better by theroguesgambit

He dreams, sometimes, of his last moments of seeing.

At the church in Mexico, Stiles is blinded by a Berserker. Derek uses his new wolf status to act as a guide dog, while Stiles adjusts to his new reality.

Out of Nowhere by CaptainStilinski

It started so gradually that Stiles didn’t think much of it. Just chalked it up to too many nights using his amazing googling powers as requested -more like threatened- by the one and only broody werewolf himself.

It was nothing really. Just a barely there fuzziness around the corners of his vision. He’d blink a few times, rub his eyes, and it would go away.

Stiles didn’t think anything of it.

Serendipity by mynamjo

Derek moves back to Beacon Hills to open up his new art gallery when he meets a blind boy who won’t leave him alone.

Cornerstone by Vendelin

Suffering from PTSD, ex-Marine Derek Hale moves back to Beacon Hills to open a bookshop and find a calmer life. That’s where he meets Stiles, completely by accident. Stiles is talkative, charming and curious. Somehow, despite the fact that he’s blind, he’s able to read Derek like no one else.

Windows by dr_girlfriend

Derek has a new neighbor who won’t stop looking.

Excerpt:

“You’re blind,” Derek said flatly, the anger draining from him so suddenly he felt almost woozy. His vision cleared, his claws sliding back into blunt fingernails.

“Thanks for the memo, genius,” the kid said acidly. “I can still fucking defend myself, so don’t take another damn step.”

“Fuck, I…I’m sorry,” Derek stuttered.

“What?!” The kid’s brow crinkled. “I mean — what?! You’re fucking sorry!?” His lips thinned into a harsh line. “What, is this some kinda Hallmark movie where you’re discovering the error of your ways because you don’t want to rob a blind person?! That’s fucking condescending, man. I’ll have you know that —”

“Just, wait.” Derek interrupted what was apparently the start of a convincing argument as to why he should rob the kid after all, feeling his head start to spin. “This is — it’s a misunderstanding. I’m — I’m not robbing you. You’re — you’re safe, okay? I’m taking three steps back. Just — just let me explain.”

“Explain why you came busting into my apartment? Yeah, go right ahead, man, I can’t wait to hear this epic tale.”

Lend Me Your Eyes, Give Me Your Heart by Akiruchan

Stiles’ life sucks. He’s honest enough with himself to admit to at least that. More often than not he spends his free time running for his life, saving people from creatures who want to rip his face off, and all around having a distinct lack of self-preservation. It sort of comes with the territory. Not something he can avoid when his circle of friends happen to be werewolves.

There’s Monsters at Home by calrissian18

“How did you get past the wards?” Derek had put them up, with Peter’s grudging assistance, after the Alpha pack had made themselves at home a few times too many.

The guy pulled a face. “You mean the wards a five-year-old girl with the mental ability of a goldfish could deconstruct?” He blinked wide eyes at Derek. “Gee, I don’t know. It’s bound to go down as one of life’s great mysteries.”

Derek despised him.

Sinking Like a Stone (Carry On) by iamnightbird

Derek Hale is convinced he can protect his pack from anything. Kanimas, other packs, even the supernatural that remain myths (like demons and the such), but an event hits him like a punch to the gut to remind him that the things he can’t protect his pack from are the everyday horrors in which life makes us her bitch. [Blind!Stiles]

Lost in the Woods by idareu2bme

Stiles gets lost in the woods. His savior is a rather unlikely hero.

Love is Blind by super_queer

Stiles loses his sight in a terrible accident, but Derek is determined to give him a good life regardless.

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Sterek Recs: Bookmarked (1/?)

I’ve been lacking with my posts, specifically my sterek recs, so I decided I should post all 1,163 (and counting) fics that I have bookmarked on AO3 into a few separate posts.

WARNING: I have been bookmarking almost every sterek fic I have ever read since the summer of 2015. Some of these fics may include side pairings or briefly include Derek and/or Stiles with someone else. I tried to add some tags and warnings here but PLEASE read the tags and or warnings on the fic itself if this is something you do not like. All of these fics are completed. 


How to Win an Argument Without Really Trying by sffan (Explicit - 2.2k)

It started with a kiss.

Well, actually, it started with an argument.

— Tags and Warnings: Underage, First Time, Porn Without Plot

Blushing Pretty by the_deep_magic (Explicit - 3.2k)

Tonight’s the rare occasion when he gets to take Stiles apart, piece by piece, and Stiles – annoying, mouthy, brilliant, gorgeous Stiles – lets him. 

— Tags and Warnings: Porn Without Plot, Established Relationship, Light BDSM

🔒 The One In Which Derek’s Dick Disappears by bleep0bleep (Explicit - 3.3k)

Derek wakes up one afternoon without a particular appendage.

Stiles thinks someone left a very realistic looking dildo in his bed.

— Tags and Warnings: Mildly Dubious Consent, Public Sex, Telepathic Sex

Muffins As A Declaration Of Intent by JenNova (Explicit - 3.7k)

“Top or bottom?” Stiles asks, off to Derek’s right.

“Bottom,” Derek says automatically, not really looking at him. “Wait, what?”

— Tags and Warnings: Porn Without Plot

Stiles, why is Derek Hale passed out on our front porch? by marguerite_26, mothlights (Explicit, 4.4k)

Stiles doesn’t hear the knock on his front door, but he figures there must have been one, because now his dad’s calling out to him,

“Stiles, do you know why Derek Hale just passed out on our front porch?”

Stiles freezes, carton of milk half way to his mouth. He looks around the empty room, wondering if it has any answers. Derek Hale just passed out on his front porch – sounds like one of the signs of the coming apocalypse.

— Tags and Warnings: Spark Stiles, Magical Bond, Hurt/Comfort

With Warmest Regards (Affectionately Yours) by asocialfauxpas (fuzzytomato) (Mature - 5.9k)

House Hale and House Stilinski form an alliance through the betrothal of Prince Derek and Prince Stiles. Having only met once before, they write letters to get to know one another.

— Tags and Warnings: AU: Royalty, Alive Hale Family, background/side pairings. 

Intro To Art For NonMajors by otatop (N/A - 13k)

Derek has one more class to pass before he can finish his degree but he can’t bring himself to give a shit about art. He can, however, give a shit about his professor.

— Tags and Warnings: AU: University, Student!Derek/Teacher!Stiles, Artist!Stiles

an exaltation of larks by llassah (Explicit - 25k)

There are times when he feels as if they could fall into bed together, easy as breathing. If Stiles were not highborn, if he were an omega without connections, Derek would be sorely tempted. As it is, he resists. Derek wants, he yearns, but he resists. Still, the sight of Stiles in his cot is enough to test him, even now that it is familiar. At the end of each lambing season, he sleeps for a week, worn down by months of hard work, of relentless struggle. He doesn’t know how he’ll feel by the time Stiles leaves, how he’ll feel after long days and longer nights spent resisting the insistent tug of Stiles’s scent and the inclinations of his own foolish heart.

All Derek wants is to get through the lambing season with his body and spirit intact. He had thought that the blizzards would be the main danger, not a highborn omega with beautiful eyes and a stubborn streak.

— Tags and Warnings: AU: Historical, AU: Werewolves are Known, AU: Medievalesque Omega!Stiles, Alpha!Derek, Non-Graphic Torture, Mutual Pining

Nothing Short Of Perfect by GotTheSilver (Explicit, 27k)

In which Derek and Stiles are made aware of their potential and have to make a choice about what their relationship will be.

“Let me get this straight,” his dad says. “You’re telling me a witch told Derek and yourself that you could be destined to be together and now Derek will be going to college with you?”

Stiles shrugs, resting his hands on his legs to stop himself from fidgeting. “That’s about it, yep.”

— Tags and Warnings: University, Soul bonds, Getting Together.

By Any Other Name by entanglednow (Explicit - 33K)

He doesn’t know his name, he doesn’t know who he is, and neither does the werewolf he’s on the run with. But he’s pretty sure they hunt monsters, because they seem to be really good at it.

— Tags and Warnings: Angst, Amnesia, Violence

Strike Softly (Away From The Body) by qhuinn (tekla) (Explicit - 34k)

Derek is a bodyguard and Stiles his spoiled, resistant client.

— Tags and Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Build, Enemies to Lovers

The Worst Thing I Ever Did by RemainNameless (Explicit, 41k)

Stiles would say his relationship with Derek is about fifteen percent empty threats, thirty percent sass, ten percent avoiding violence together, and five percent eyebrows.
If anyone asked, he would say the remaining forty percent is mutual orgasms.

It’s a good thing no one ever asks.

— Tags and Warning: AU: Canon Divergence, post 3x03, Underage, Canon Typical Violence, Porn With Feelings, Possessive Behavior, Dubious Consent, D/s themes, Non-Negotiated Kink

 Traces by standinginanicedress (Explicit - 44k)

Derek snaps his fingers and glares into Stiles’ eyes. “You say you’re not the same, but – there you fucking go, acting just like yourself.”

Stiles bristles. “Oh, right. Because you know me so fucking well, don’t you?”

“Better than you seem to think,” he mutters under his breath in response, and Stiles gets even more incensed.

“Pushing me up against walls, shoving my head into steering wheels,” he shrugs his shoulders, glares, “some real heart to hearts we’ve had!”

“Holding me up in eight feet of water when I was paralyzed, nearly cutting my arm off for me to save my life. Doesn’t seem so fucking shallow to me, Stiles.”

— Tags and Warnings: Underage (17), Angst, Body Dysmorphia, PTSD, Kate Argent

our lives are changing lanes by grimm (Explicit - 47k)

There’s a lot of screaming going on inside the first house Stiles visits. He isn’t really worried, because it sounds like kids, but then the door opens and hi, says his dick, because the dude in front of him is gorgeous, built like a god with a face like thunder. Stiles wants to lick that solid jaw line. Hold the fuck on, says his cop brain, because the dude’s got kids hanging all over him; one’s on his back, skinny legs looped around his waist, and another two hanging off one arm, toes barely brushing the ground. There’s a tubby toddler clinging to his leg like a koala, and he’s got a baby tucked into the crook of the one arm that doesn’t have kids hanging off it. Stiles’ mouth drops open.

“How many of those kids did you kidnap?” he asks before he can wrangle his brain into submission.

The man gives him a look that says what the fuck is wrong with you and snaps, “You think I’d subject myself to this on purpose?”

“Oooh,” says one of the kids hanging off his arm. “I’m telling Mom.”

— Tags and Warnings: AU: Werewolves Are Known, Deputy!Stiles, Single Parent Derek, Past Kate/Derek

☆ Sense of Home by siny  (Explicit - 53k)

Home can be a place, but it can also be a person.

After the events with the Nemeton, Stiles starts suffering the consequences of their sacrifice. A journey he attempts to make on his own, but only becomes worse with every step he takes. In the process he seeks comfort in an unexpected place and it draws him toward an unexpected person.

— Tags and Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Major (Fake) Character Death, Angst, Slow Build, First Time, Happy Ending, Background/Side pairings. 

Move A Mountain by ZainClaw (Explicit - 69k)

Stiles goes camping with his friends in New Mexico after graduation where they befriend a biker gang led by Derek: a guy whom Stiles can’t decide if he will be either relieved or devastated to never see again once their week is up.

— Tags and Warnings: Smut, Angst, Biker!Derek, background/side pairings

Occam’s Razor by MissAnnThropic (Explicit - 74k)

When Stiles goes to sleep, he’s a junior in high school. He wakes up in a world where he’s twenty-four and married to Derek Hale. Stiles just can’t seem to catch a break.

— Tags and Warnings: Angst

☆ Cornerstone by Vendelin (Explicit - 83k)

Suffering from PTSD, ex-Marine Derek Hale moves back to Beacon Hills to open a bookshop and find a calmer life. That’s where he meets Stiles, completely by accident. Stiles is talkative, charming and curious. Somehow, despite the fact that he’s blind, he’s able to read Derek like no one else.

— Tags and Warnings: Blind!Stiles, Marine!Derek, PTSD

☆ No Homo by RemainNameless (Explicit - 84k)

Stiles’ sophomore year starts something like this:
3 FourLokos
+ 1 peer-pressuring cat
- 1 best bro to end all best bros
= 1 Craigslist ad headline that reads “str8 dude - m4m - strictly platonic”.
Derek is the fool who replies.

— Tags and Warnings: AU: University, Internalized Homophobia, Recreational Drug Use (Marijuana), Alcohol, Lots of Safe and Unsafe Sex

🔒 Shatterproof by pyes (Explicit - 90k)

The first time that Derek kisses Stiles, they’re in the Jeep—which is sideways—while they’re trapped in an overpass collapse.

It’s the second time when things really get scary.

— Tags and Warnings: Post 3b Pack, Hurt/Comfort, Injury Recovery, Canon Typical Violence/Gore. 

I Know Where Babies Come From, Derek by DiscontentedWinter (Explicit - 127k)

Stiles finds a baby on the porch.

It looks exactly like him.

Well, this is awkward.

— Tags and Warnings: Underage, Accidental Baby Acquisition, Domestic Fluff, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canonical Death, Pack Feels, Abduction, Threats of Rape/Non-Con

Little Wild Animal by DiscontentedWinter (Explicit - 131k)

Derek Hale finds a feral human on his pack’s property.
Humans are supposed to be extinct.
But then, Stiles is full of surprises.

— Tags and Warnings: Underage, Feral!Stiles, Angst with a Happy Ending, Background/Side pairings. Fics 2&3 of sterek aren’t majority about Sterek.

What the Hell is a Stiles?

Sterek, T, 2K, Blind Date AU


Saw the prompt from this post that someone reblogged. (Take a look at the list, there are so many good ideas!)

Our mutual friend set us up on a blind date and I thought I’d hate it but you’re actually… kind of funny? But because I expected to hate it in no way am I going to let you change my mind just because you’re gorgeous and funny and intelligent oh no my friend is not winning this


“No,” Derek says easily, without even looking up from his book. Erica groans and flops into the chair opposite him, nearly upsetting his mug of hot chocolate.

“Seriously?” she says, bracing both elbows on the table and leaning toward him. “At least hear me out.”

“Nope.”

“He’s cute, Der! I think you’d really like him.”

“Absolutely not. You have a terrible track record with set-ups.”

Erica has the decency to wince, at least, and drop her gaze from Derek’s. “But you’re a catch, Der, and you deserve someone who can make you happy. And since you don’t want to date me—”

“You don’t want to date me, either,” he reminds her, but she just rolls her eyes.

“Yeah, whatever. But seriously. You’re great.”

“I thought I was grumpy and terrible with people?” he asks, parroting her words from after the last failed date, and she huffs.

“Please?” she wheedles, poking her lower lips out a bit. “For me. If it goes badly, I’ll never try to set you up again.”

Derek sighs. Fuck.

His facial expressions must be more transparent than he thinks because Erica’s eyes light up. “Oh my god, you’re gonna say yes.”

Derek scowls at her. “Just coffee,” he says firmly. At least that way, he can get it in a to-go cup and make a neat escape after five minutes if he needs to. “No dinner, no movie, no activities.”

“Fine,” she says quickly, digging in her jeans pocket for her phone. “You got it.”

“This is not gonna end well,” he warns her, but she just waves her hand without looking up from her phone.

“Have some faith, Der,” she says, patting him on the hand absently while she pushes her chair back and stands up. “I can’t wait to tell Stiles.”

Derek blinks, watching Erica walk away. 

“Wait, what the hell is a Stiles?” he calls after her.

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fall weather fics


Shiver by  canistakahari | 1.7K

Stiles has really, really cold hands. Luckily, Derek knows just what to do about that.

All Around the Pumpkin Patch by  Twice_Shy | 4.1K

Derek works at his family’s pumpkin patch every year. This year, he finds himself distracted by one of their customers.

Fall(ing) by  damnfancyscotch | 12.6K

Stiles LOVES Fall.

and you in your autumn sweater by  Siria | 2.2K

And then Derek showed up in the sweater.

if we shadows by  Loslote | 9.7K

When Scott is bitten by a werewolf on Halloween night, the Stilinski-McCall family is whisked away to a parallel world called Halloweentown so that Scott can learn to control his new instincts. With going on coffee dates with Derek Hale, Scott’s werewolf mentor, making a new best friend in Scott’s crush, Allison Argent, and finding his calling working with the Hale pack ravens, will Stiles even want to go home when the year is up?

Pumpkin Patches Lead To The Best Things by  Swlfangirl | 4K

All he wants are some Pumpkin Spice Pancakes. Sure the strawberry ones are good, but he’s still craving fluffy, sweet and spicy, pumpkiny fried batter. With all the Hale siblings acting a little weird, Stiles isn’t sure he’ll ever get what he’s looking for. Thankfully; Pumpkin Patches, pushy sisters, and his lack of a verbal filter; he might just land himself a date with Derek Hale.

it’s gourd to see you by  kellifer_fic | 1.3K

“Who let Derek pick the pumpkin place?” Lydia says with a judgmental glare.

how you doin’? by  decideophobia | 6.7K

“So,” Derek says eventually, because he feels awkward and uncomfortable, “how you doin’?”

The Hale Farm Pumpkin Patch | ficlet

Chance only favours the prepared mind by  relenafanel | 4.1K

“What kind of bet did you lose that you have to go out with this?” the guy asked, gesturing to himself.

“First person to flirt with me,” Derek grumbled.

Corn Mazes and Apple Picking | ficlet

Gift Shop by Trelkez | 5.8K

The Christmas sweater alone should have sent any rational person running; the terrible customer service and delight in Derek’s suffering were just icing.

Imagine Me And You by  callunavulgari | 16K

“My name,” the kid tells Derek, sounding amused. “It’s Stiles. I figure if I’m going to wrestle a complete stranger for a pumpkin the least I can do is offer my name afterwards.”

“Stiles,” Derek tries, testing the way the name sits on his tongue. “I’m Derek.”

“Derek,” Stiles breathes, like he’s testing the weight of the name too. He grins, bright and blinding, which Derek guesses means that he likes the sound of it. “I’d offer to shake your hand, but since we almost got to second base a minute ago, I’d say we’re past that point.”

First Dates and Corn Mazes | ficlet

The One With the Pumpkins by  mikkimouse | 1.1K

Stiles’s daughter has found the perfect pumpkin. Unfortunately, Derek’s nephew has found the same one.

Not Quite Lost (Not Quite Found) by  alocalband | 25K

A year after the nogitsune is defeated, Derek is living a quiet life in the mountains above a small town in Colorado.

Then Stiles shows up.

F*ck You, Pumpkin Spice by  grimmypuff | 1.2K

Stiles likes Autumn. He likes Derek. He hates pumpkin-spice flavored everything.

“It offends me,” Stiles said.
“It offends you.”
“Why are you repeating everything I say?”
“Honestly? I’m hoping it’ll help me make sense of your words. I feel like I’m missing something.”

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meet cute fics

1. Worlds Apart by siny

Derek Hale, Heir Prince of Betonia and Italy, meets Stiles Stilinski, college boy.

2. Stiles Stilinski, Boyfriend Extraordinaire by MereLoup

“Beacon County Sheriff’s Department, this is deputy Mahealani speaking.”

“Oh thank god!”

“Stiles?”

“I, uh, I need some advice.”

“Advice?”

“Yeah. So, hypothetically, say you met your boyfriend’s mother and sister for the first time ever. Completely by accident. In the grocery store. And they convinced you to help them make a dinner to surprise aforementioned boyfriend when he got home after work. What would you do?”

Danny paused, and then, “Stiles, you don’t have a boyfriend.”

“That’s not the point! And I said hypothetically.”

“Stiles…what are you doing right now?”

***

Stiles never imagined he’d be in Derek’s kitchen cooking a surprise dinner with Derek’s family while they waited for Derek to get home from work.

Partly because their visit was a complete surprise.

But mostly because Stiles didn’t have a boyfriend.

Or even know who Derek was.

But he’d already come this far and Papa didn’t raise no quitter!

3. Cat Got Your Tongue by sysrae

Derek is having a bad day and breaks down on a stranger’s doorstep.
Stiles is the stranger. He really doesn’t mind.
Also, there’s a cat.

4. Imagine Me And You by callunavulgari

“My name,” the kid tells Derek, sounding amused. “It’s Stiles. I figure if I’m going to wrestle a complete stranger for a pumpkin the least I can do is offer my name afterwards.”

“Stiles,” Derek tries, testing the way the name sits on his tongue. “I’m Derek.”

“Derek,” Stiles breathes, like he’s testing the weight of the name too. He grins, bright and blinding, which Derek guesses means that he likes the sound of it. “I’d offer to shake your hand, but since we almost got to second base a minute ago, I’d say we’re past that point.”

5. Vendsgiving (AKA Stiles and Derek at an Airport on Thanksgiving) by jsea

Derek already hated traveling, so getting stuck in the airport overnight? And on Thanksgiving no less? That was going to be a nightmare.

Then Derek met Stiles.

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butyoureyessaidyes  asked:

Hi, cuties! Do y'all know of any Sterek fics where it's just hardcore AUTUMN? And they're in sweaters and hoodies and long scarves and warm coats and cute beanies and boots that crunch through leaves and cute mittens and gloves wrapped around warm cups of coffee, and there's shivering and snuggling and maybe eskimo kisses if we wanna get disgustingly fluffy about it? I'm game for fluff, angst, whump, adventures etc. I'm just really craving fall (it's so hot I'm melting where I live!). Thank you!

Since today is the first officially day of Autumn (in my hemisphere anyway.) I thought this was a good time for this list! Thanks for the excuse, @butyoureyessaidyes! - Anastasia

Originally posted by fallinlove-withautumn

The One With the Pumpkins by mikkimouse

(1/1 I 1,158 I Teen)

Stiles’s daughter has found the perfect pumpkin. Unfortunately, Derek’s nephew has found the same one. 

 A Late Autumn Wind by sheafrotherdon

(1/1 I 1,171 I Explicit)

Feeling cold, Stiles and Derek set out to warm up a little.

Happiness is a Pile of Leaves by har1ey_quinn

(1/1 I 1,307 I General)

He’s about to continue heading towards the house when a black blur makes him stop. He has about five seconds of panicking when he realizes that the blur actually looks like a dog, a dog that seems rather excited as it runs around in circles before jumping into scattered piles of leaves.

Shiver by canistakahari

(1/1 I 1,711 I Teen)

Stiles has really, really cold hands. Luckily, Derek knows just what to do about that.

and you in your autumn sweater by Siria

(1/1 I 2,252 I Teen)

And then Derek showed up in the sweater.

All Around the Pumpkin Patch by Twice_Shy (notboldly)

(1/1 I 4,193 I General)

Derek works at his family’s pumpkin patch every year. This year, he finds himself distracted by one of their customers.

Mr. Hale and the Terrible, No Good, Awful Autumn by bleep0bleep

(1/1 I 5,590 I Teen)

There’s a new sheriff in town, and Derek definitely wants to date him. Unfortunately Stiles’ son hates Derek’s guts.

Call me scent o’ mental, but I’m crazy about you by a beta perspective (Ejunkiet)

(3/3 I 6,769 I Mature)

Derek moves back for only a moment to gasp quietly against his throat, “don’t move, please.”

Please. It throws him. Derek’s voice is thrumming with something Stiles can’t identify - somewhere in the vicinity of need, a desperation that makes his stomach clench, his chest tighten until his lungs restrict. Derek - Derek rarely asks for things outright, and when he did, he was never polite about it.

Fall(ing) by damnfancyscotch

(1/1 I 12,632 I Teen)

Stiles LOVES Fall.

Imagine Me And You by callunavulgari

(6/6 I 16,080 I Teen)

“My name,” the kid tells Derek, sounding amused. “It’s Stiles. I figure if I’m going to wrestle a complete stranger for a pumpkin the least I can do is offer my name afterwards.”

“Stiles,” Derek tries, testing the way the name sits on his tongue. “I’m Derek.”

“Derek,” Stiles breathes, like he’s testing the weight of the name too. He grins, bright and blinding, which Derek guesses means that he likes the sound of it. “I’d offer to shake your hand, but since we almost got to second base a minute ago, I’d say we’re past that point.”

Derek- Blind

Request- Hey could you do a Derek Hale x reader imagine where the reader is pregnant and Derek downs know. Her scent changes because she is pregnant,but Derek thinks she’s cheating and accuses her. She starts crying and leaves. Peter then calls him an idiot and tells him that she is pregnant. Meanwhile the reader is Scott’s cousin, so she goes to his house and the entire pack is there. Derek comes to apologize and they make up. Thank you so much and I’m so happy that you’re back. ❤❤❤

A/N- So, I did not exactly add that last part in there, but enjoy!

“Y/n, can you grab me another beer?” Peter asked.

You snorted and continued to walk past him on your way out of Derek’s kitchen. “I don’t remember anyone ever offering you the first one.”

You headed over to the couch, smiling as Derek glared at his uncle. Peter liked to show up to the loft uninvited, and Derek usually didn’t feel like starting the argument to throw him out. It wasn’t like he wouldn’t leave eventually, but neither of you wanted to deal with him talking circles around you.

“I think we should just kill him,” you murmured in his ear. “Again.”

“Yeah,” Derek said gruffly.

You came around the side of the couch and sank down next to him, snuggling into his side. He suddenly tensed at your touch, and you pulled away to look up at him. “Derek? What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” he muttered.

“We’ve been through too much for you to say that to me,” you reminded him, sitting up straight.

“Forget it, Y/n,” he said gruffly.

“Derek, come on-”

“You wanna do this in front of him?” He gestured to Peter, who simply raised his eyebrows at the two of you.

“Oh, don’t mind me,” Derek’s uncle mused. “Please, Y/n, continue.”

You rolled your eyes. “Fuck off. Derek, seriously, I don’t understand what’s been going on with you-”

“With me?” he demanded. “I’m not the one who’s been sneaking off all the time, making Scott give me half-assed explanations about why you’re suddenly not at his house anymore.”

“What?” you demanded, swallowing thickly.

“If you want someone to cover for you, you might want to pick someone who’s a better liar. Your cousin sounds like he doesn’t even believe himself half the time.”

“Oh dear,” Peter remarked, leaning forward eagerly.

“Derek-”

“Not to mention you smell different,” he continued, not letting you get a word in. “I couldn’t place it before, but now…it makes sense.”

“What makes sense?” you asked slowly.

“You’re cheating on me.”

“What?” you choked. “Derek-”

“I thought you cared enough about me to at least end things, but obviously not.”

Peter cleared his throat. “If I may-”

“Shut up, Peter,” he snarled.

“You think I’d cheat on you?” you whispered. “You really think that?

Derek blinked. “Wait…”

“No,” you spat, jumping up from the couch. “You’re always so fucking blind, Derek. It’s been that way since we were kids. Kate was just the beginning, and I thought things were different, but-”

You cut yourself off and shook your head, deciding to save your breath and grab your jacket instead. Derek jumped up after you. “Y/n, wait-”

You brushed off his hands, and yanked open the door of the loft instead. “Go to hell.”

He stood in shock, watching at your sharp eyes disappeared behind the rusted metal of the door. It slammed shut violently, echoing in the wide space of the loft. No matter how much interior decorating the two of you tried to do, you never seemed to be able to fill it with enough to muffle the sound.

“Well done, Derek,” Peter snarked, rising from the armchair and giving a sarcastic clap.

“I really don’t need this right now,” Derek growled back.

“She’s got a point, you know,” his uncle continued. “About you being blind.”

“Shut up.”

“You don’t have any idea what’s going on do you?”

“Then enlighten me,” he snapped.

Peter rolled his eyes. “Think. You don’t actually believe that Scott would cover for Y/n if she was cheating on you, do you?”

“I..I don’t…” Derek sighed. “No, I don’t think he would.”

“And Y/n smells different, you said? But not like another man, just different.”

“Just get to the point, Peter.”

“Maybe that has something to do with her hormones. And that’s a very short list of possibilities, Derek.”

Peter stared at his nephew pointedly, and Derek narrowed his eyes. His brows furrowed for a good three seconds, and then his eyes suddenly went wide. “Oh god.”

He was out the door faster than Peter could blink, running down the stairs after you. You were right, and he couldn’t believe he had been so blind. Up until a few weeks ago, Derek hadn’t believed you felt anything for him but love, and now he realized he was wrong to assume any differently. He just hoped you could forgive him, and that you were still nearby.

Luckily, he didn’t have to go far, and as soon as his feet hit the last set of stairs, he saw you sitting at the bottom. You were angrily wiping at your eyes, and as Derek slowly walked down, he felt guilt wash through him.

You heard his footfalls before you saw him, but you knew he was the one who had followed you down. No one else’s boots would sound that sheepish hitting the floor.

“Leave me alo-”

“You’re pregnant.”

You froze, and felt your breath catch in your throat. “Scott?”

“No, Peter.”

You let out a soft puff of laughter, and slowly turned to Derek. “Of course he knew. And of course he had to rub it in your face.”

Derek’s lips twitched. “I’m sorry I thought…what I thought. You’re right. I’m so caught up in what I think or feel sometimes that I don’t even see what’s happening right in front of me.”

“I know, Hale,” you said with a tired sigh. “And yet I love you anyway.”

“You could have told me,” he informed you, coming to sit next to you. “I don’t know what you thought, but I would have been there for you every step of the way. I would’ve gone to appointments, and shopping…”

“I just wasn’t sure a baby was what you wanted. I’m still not sure. I don’t even know if it’s a good idea.”

“Why’s that?” he asked.

“We have to fight for our lives like, every three months, on average. Sometimes more than that. You wanna raise a kid in Beacon Hills?”

“We could leave,” he suggested. “Go somewhere safer.”

“You’d leave Scott? The Pack?”

“Scott’s been handling things on his own for a long time now. He doesn’t need us.”

“You need him. We both need him. And I wouldn’t mind staying…just as long as you want this too.”

Derek let out a soft breath, and reached forward to place his hand on your cheek. “Y/n, I want you. Every part of you, including that little guy inside of you.”

You stared up at him carefully, but you felt a smile forming on your lips. “How do you know it’s a boy?”

“Or girl,” he said quickly, flushing bright red. “I just…when I thought about it, I always imagined a boy.”

“You’ve thought about it?”

“All the time,” he admitted. “I’ve wanted this with you for a long time.”

Your breath caught in your throat, and you suddenly felt an unbelievable warmth wash over you. “Me too.”

Derek leaned forward, pressing one soft kiss to your lips. “Good.”

He pulled away, brushing his thumb over your cheek as he stood up. “I should probably go get Peter that beer. To thank him.”

You sighed, and placed your hands on your knees to stand up. “He probably already got it out of the fridge himself.”

“We should probably go make sure he doesn’t take anything else.”

“Yeah,” you agreed. “But then again, I think he’ll be fine on his own for a few more minutes.”

“Yeah?” Derek asked.

“Yeah.”

He smiled, and sank back down on the stairs. You took a seat beside him, and he wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer. He pressed one soft kiss to your forehead and smiled to himself, unable to believe how lucky he was.

In the span of fifteen minutes, he had gone from being sure he had lost you, to convinced he was never going to let you go. And if he was being honest, that was a change he didn’t mind at all.

justasecondoutofsync  asked:

Do you know of any new fics that deal with Deaf or blind Derek and/or Stiles?

deaf derek:

Little Gestures by Stereksale7 (1/1 | 1,976 | PG13)

Derek is a deaf Uber driver.
He’s hardly thanked by his passengers, and when he is, it’s seldom genuine.
In comes Stiles Stilinski, who changes it all.

Laughter is the Best Medicine by literaryoblivion (1/1 | 4,432 | PG13)

He hasn’t always been deaf.

Although, sometimes, he wishes he was. Mainly because he knows what he’s missing. He remembers what the rustle of the wind in the trees sounds like, remembers what kids playing in the playground sounded like, what laughter sounded like.

He misses it. A lot.

blind derek:

The Colors Of The Rainbow by MagnusBanewood (1/1 | 3,425 | NR)

When Derek arrives at his new high school he is afraid that people will make fun of him again. But then he meets Stiles and slowly falls in love with his voice.

Summoning A Mate by Saskia (2/? | 3,608 | G)

Blinded by a hunter, Derek has no intention of ever finding his mate. What good is a blind werewolf to anyone? But when Isaac and Scott hire a witch to summon Derek’s mate, a storm brings more than just a Stilinski to their little town.
Will Derek be able to fight his desire and reign in his wolf from claiming his mate? And what if Derek’s past isn’t finished with him yet?

and this one fits both categories

Feeling You by secretfanboy (1/1 | 5,158 | PG13)

When Derek loses his sight and hearing saving Scott from an attack, the Stilinski’s take him in. As nurse and patient Stiles and Derek grow closer, but what will happen when Derek gets better? Will Stiles be left with a broken heart?

anonymous asked:

AU Stiles is born blind. Talia told Claudia that there's a possibility for Stiles to see if they gave him the bite. On the day they were supposed to give him the bite the hale fire happens. Years later Derek's the alpha and offers Stiles the bite. Stiles says yes. Okay so 2 options 1)it doesn't work and Stiles is a blind badass who wood Derek this his smarts and charm. 2)it works and the first thing he sees is Derek. "Scott you didnt tell me he was gorgeous! I've been missing out!"

Oh my gosh, I want both of those to happen!

I just imagine Stiles giving Deucalion a run for his money and being a total badass; the Daredevil of Beacon Hills.

But also Stiles being able to see for the first time but suddenly can’t speak becasue he is looking at the most gorgeous man he’s sure that if he opens his mouth he’s going to let out an sound that is completely inhuman or just drool non-stop. 

Originally posted by thealpha

anonymous asked:

Heyy, do you know any deaf/blind/mute or even a stuttering problem Stiles fics? If you could find some of those that would be awesome. But none that make him like that because he was raped or kidnapped (just not my thing.) tysm and sorry if this is me asking to much 😬

Yes! I found some for you! Not all of these are Sterek and some have a biiit of angst. But no rape or kidnapping! If you need more or different ones just ask! Enjoyyyy.

Check the disabled tag in the category “additional tags” where I already collected some fics!

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1. Deaf!Stiles:

The Only Sound

Summary: Stiles becomes acutely aware of the weight and vibration of his voice in his throat. He knows what volume feels like, and understands the intricacies of modulating it through context clues. If his voice shakes at first, no one seems to notice much.

Except Peter.

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Wild Tonic

Summary: Stiles nodded and smiled again, his teeth flashing brightly and he signed something again, before looking frustrated with himself.

“You’re welcome,” Derek told him, feeling a wave of relief when Stiles’ face brightened. That would’ve been awkward if Stiles hadn’t been trying to say thank you.

“I had a really good time, so yeah. I’m glad you came with me,” he said, feeling his face grow hot. Derek wasn’t usually like this. He wasn’t confident. Sure, he had the looks and he could flirt shamelessly when he got hit on, but he always got shy around the people he genuinely liked, not that there was too many of those.

But Stiles didn’t let him dwell on that. He gripped Derek’s arm, grinned cheekily and pointed at himself before lifting two fingers. It took a while for Derek to get it but when he did, he couldn’t stop a smile from spreading across his face.

Me too.

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Silence is Loudest

Summary: Monday dawned fresh and cool and with a lack of Stilinski.

The buzz in the school changed over the week, once Derek started paying attention to it. No longer was the student body talking about where the students were going on vacation, or lack thereof for the more middle-class populace. They were bandying about a different series of words instead.

“Accident.”

“Car crash.”

“Hit and run.”

“Sick. Really sick.”

“Disease.”

“Brain damage.”

“Brain dead.”

“Stilinski.”

“Stilinski.”

“Stilinski.”

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2. Blind!Stiles:

Windows

Summary: Derek has a new neighbor who won’t stop looking

“You’re blind,” Derek said flatly, the anger draining from him so suddenly he felt almost woozy. His vision cleared, his claws sliding back into blunt fingernails.

“Thanks for the memo, genius,” the kid said acidly. “I can still fucking defend myself, so don’t take another damn step.”

“Fuck, I…I’m sorry,” Derek stuttered.

“What?!” The kid’s brow crinkled. “I mean — what?! You’re fucking sorry!?” His lips thinned into a harsh line. “What, is this some kinda Hallmark movie where you’re discovering the error of your ways because you don’t want to rob a blind person?! That’s fucking condescending, man. I’ll have you know that —”

“Just, wait.” Derek interrupted what was apparently the start of a convincing argument as to why he should rob the kid after all, feeling his head start to spin. “This is — it’s a misunderstanding. I’m — I’m not robbing you. You’re — you’re safe, okay? I’m taking three steps back. Just — just let me explain.”

“Explain why you came busting into my apartment? Yeah, go right ahead, man, I can’t wait to hear this epic tale.”

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Lost in the Woods

Summary: Stiles gets lost in the woods. His savior is a rather unlikely hero.

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All The Better To See You With

Summary: In which Derek has to deal with the fact that his mate is a blind teenager, and learns to really see Stiles instead of just looking at him. There’s more to a person than what they can’t do.

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3. Mute!Stiles:

the amber of the moment

Summary: Ever since he was eight years old, Stiles had been running. Fate decided it was time to stop.

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Please Don’t Say You Love Me (‘Cause I Might Not Say It Back)

Summary: ‘Derek glanced at Stiles, who’s smile dissolved into a light frown. He moved his hands again, and Derek flicked his eyes back to Sheriff Stilinski, silently asking for help. The Sheriff took a few steps forwards.

“Stiles is mute.” He said.’

AU in which Stiles is mute and Derek is a college drop out.

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Stiles and the Shy Guy

Summary: Stiles Stilinski is a mute fox. Derek Hale is a quiet wolf. What could possibly go wrong? Oh, wait. That’s right. Everything!

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4. Stuttering!Stiles:

Tongue-Tied

Summary: They called him Stutter Stilinski, and when no one was looking on the playground, and Scott was nowhere to be seen (thankfully a rarity), a group of older kids would spot him and run up, surrounding him before Stiles could think.

Where Stiles has a stutter and Derek is surprisingly helpful.

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Cloudy Skys

Summary: Jock Derek Hale had found stuttering nerd Stiles Stilinski adorable and so he asked the stuttering boy out. Months later, with the pressure of his fellow “jockies”, Derek breaks Stiles’ heart.

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Prince Among Wolves by tylerfucklin

Looking for full day/evening sitter. 2 twin boys age 4. Must have exp. w/werewolves. Must be human. No pedophiles. No teenage girls. Pay negotiable.

The Boy and the Beast by Dira Sudis

In which events in Beacon Hills go rather differently from the start, and a Beauty and the Beast (ish) story ensues. (Scott is not a teacup and no one sings about their feelings.)

Dating Backwards by RemainNameless

Pornstars Derek and Stiles work for the same company. Derek only shoots with werewolves and Stiles only shoots with humans. That’s not going to change after they meet. It’s really not.
(It might.)

[Sleep]Walking After You by relenafanel

Derek is a sleepwalker who keeps wandering into his downstairs neighbour’s bedroom.

Stiles is pretty sure the hot guy from the park is going to kill him in his sleep. He knows he shouldn’t have been so obvious about objectifying the guy’s really fine ass.

Too bad it turns out Derek is easier to get along with when he’s sleeping.

Cupboard Love by mklutz

He’s carefully balancing the sandwiches and the two biggest tupperware containers he could find that both had functioning lids when the front door opens and he almost drops everything right there in front of the stupid fountain.

If that’s Derek Hale, he’s definitely not a mountain man.

i want to say all those things that would be better unsaid by aeneapsych

Derek is a lonely professor who decides to call a phone sex line.

Stiles is a poor grad student who needs to make a living somehow.

“One night stands were never this good. Hell, his previous relationships were never this good. Derek was so screwed, but right now he didn’t care.”

Windows by dr_girlfriend

Derek has a new neighbor who won’t stop looking.

Excerpt:

“You’re blind,” Derek said flatly, the anger draining from him so suddenly he felt almost woozy. His vision cleared, his claws sliding back into blunt fingernails.

“Thanks for the memo, genius,” the kid said acidly. “I can still fucking defend myself, so don’t take another damn step.”

“Fuck, I…I’m sorry,” Derek stuttered.

“What?!” The kid’s brow crinkled. “I mean — what?! You’re fucking sorry!?” His lips thinned into a harsh line. “What, is this some kinda Hallmark movie where you’re discovering the error of your ways because you don’t want to rob a blind person?! That’s fucking condescending, man. I’ll have you know that —”

“Just, wait.” Derek interrupted what was apparently the start of a convincing argument as to why he should rob the kid after all, feeling his head start to spin. “This is — it’s a misunderstanding. I’m — I’m not robbing you. You’re — you’re safe, okay? I’m taking three steps back. Just — just let me explain.”

“Explain why you came busting into my apartment? Yeah, go right ahead, man, I can’t wait to hear this epic tale.”

I don’t need any help to be breakable (believe me) by Oywiththepoodlesalready

He tried to kiss me.
“We know”, Scott says, placatingly, and Stiles rounds on him, fists clenched and eyes blazing.
“No. No, you don’t”, he spits, “You have no idea.”

In which Derek has an accident and doesn’t remember anyone except Stiles.

Not Mine to Love by Sabeley

It should have been awkward then, as the haze of lust left them, but Derek really didn’t mind the fact that Stiles was collapsed on his chest, breathing heavily. He didn’t care that he was naked in his roommate’s bed, coming down from the best orgasm he had ever had. He didn’t even care that he had just lost his virginity to someone who wasn’t Jennifer.

“That can’t happen again,” he said simply.

It happened twice more that night and it never really stopped.

Hurt People {Part 2}

Pairing: Derek Hale x Reader

Requested: | yes | no |

Summary: Derek and the reader are both hurt by their past and rely on each other to heal. Until one day he just leaves. What happens three years later when he comes back in the middle of war?

Word Count: 7078 my finger slipped

Warnings: cursing, alcohol, panic attack, mentions of depression and anxiety

A/N: I have a few shout outs to do on this one…so first shout out to my friend @snowflakes-and-sparks for helping me with the original idea, shout out to @stilinski-lover-24 for helping me as I wrote part 2 and shout out to who inspired me to write Hurt People in the first place 🌼 

Also, a huge thank you to everyone who requested a part 2 and I’m sorry that it took me a while 💕


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Originally posted by berezneva-tw


Part 1

You were frozen, Derek was standing right there in front of you like he never left like he never abandoned you. You let out a shaky breath, realizing that you had stopped breathing for a few seconds. But you had to pull yourself together, you were still in danger, Deucalion’s body on the floor proving that. You managed to knock out a few more hunters before the rest of them retreated, leaving you alone.


Scott lowered down to Deucalion’s level, slightly jumping when the older alpha reached for his hand. You didn’t hear what he said, you were too busy staring wide-eyed at Derek who stared back at you, his expression blank.


You wanted to say something, yell at him for leaving you broken beyond repair, yell for all the hearts you broke because of him, for all the times you felt your own heart breaking over and over again, but nothing came out.


Malia nudging you brought you back to reality, Derek was standing in front of you. Your first instinct was to take a step back and look around for a distraction.


“Stiles, what are you doing here?” From the corner of your eye, you saw Derek look down before walking towards Scott.


What was he expecting, a hug?


You knew you had made things awkward, Lydia clearing her throat sending you a glare that quickly softened as soon as she understood what was going through your head.


“As much as I enjoy the family reunion, what are you doing here?” Peter asked, trying to lighten up the mood, a sarcastic tone evident in his voice.


“I found a pack slaughtered in Brazil.” Derek started “There were two words written in blood on a wall. Beacon Hills.”


“You came back to Beacon Hills?” Scott asked in disbelief.


“I came back for you.” You looked up at him, finding his green eyes already on you.



You, Derek, Scott, and Malia walked into the school, quickly finding Peter petrified, a scared look on his face.


“He’s not dead. He…he can’t be.” Malia stuttered and you quickly grabbed her hand trying to provide her some comfort.


“There’s a heartbeat but it’s faint” Derek focused on his uncle’s chest.


You sighed in relief, glad that Peter wasn’t dead. The footsteps approaching you turned all of your attentions towards the sound.


“We’re not alone.” Well no shit Sherlock, thanks for stating the obvious.


“Scott,” Malia called urgently, noticing that he was still staring at Peter.


The footsteps were getting louder and Scott wasn’t moving.


“I think I know how to catch it.” He mumbled.


He grabbed his phone and quickly dialed Stiles’ number. He asked for mountain ash, confusing all of you but didn’t explain.


“I’m glad that you have a plan, but we have to go or we’re gonna get caught.” You shifted uncomfortably on your heels, not really liking the idea of being caught whether it was by hunters or by the Anuk-Ite itself, you didn’t know which was worse.


The four of you started running, not wanting to stick around and fight whoever it was. You leaned against the wall, your breathing heavier than usual as you tried to be as quiet as possible.


From the multiple sets of footsteps you assumed that it was hunters, they were looking for you.


“We can’t just hide, Peter’s not gonna last like that” Malia whispered-yelled.


“Neither will we if that thing finds us too” Derek replied in the same tone.


“We’ve gotta wait for Stiles” Scott tried to calm her down.


“I’m not waiting here” Malia took off running and you sighed before the three of you ran after her.


“Malia wait.”


She stopped dead in her tracks in the middle of the hallway and it didn’t take you long to understand why. Monroe was standing by the doors, two hunters with big guns in their hands a few steps back. She didn’t say a word, raising her gun and shooting. You flinched, hoping to be hit but you heard Scott grunt in pain.


“Scott.” You didn’t take your eyes off of Monroe, waiting to see what she was going to do.


From the corner of your eye, you saw Malia rushing over to him, catching him before he hit the ground. Derek stood next to you ready to fight if he had to.


“I’m okay, don’t let her go.”


Scott fell with a loud thud making you look away from the threats in front of you. When you looked back you were surprised to see that they were gone. Malia got her claws and fangs out and ran after them.


Derek lowered down to Scott’s level inspecting the wound.


“You’re not okay, it’s yellow wolfsbane. It’s gonna kill you?”


“What?” You felt a knot in your stomach and your chest heavy.


Scott couldn’t die, not tonight


“We have to get him out of here.” You panicked, finally talking to Derek after all this time.


“Help me get him up.”


You basically had to drag him to an empty classroom and you sat him down in one of the stools as Derek looked for something in the cabinets.


“What the hell are you doing?” You hissed at his back.


“Just go help Malia,” Scott mumbled, making you shift your attention back to the Alpha.


“I’m not worried about her, we gotta get rid of this.” Derek finally turned around a small torch in his hands “There’s only one way to get rid of wolfsbane. Burn it out.” He lit up the torch and you slightly winced at how much it’d hurt.


“Okay.” Scott was slowly processing the information.


“You’re not gonna be able to do much until you heal.” Derek walked over to the both of you.


“If I’m right we just need Stiles to get here.”


“Yeah, but it’d be cool if you were still alive when he gets here.” You frowned as you saw how much the wolfsbane was affecting him.


His skin was pale, he was sweating but he was freezing and his body wasn’t healing.


“Okay,” Scott mumbled giving you a small smile.


“You’re gonna be okay Scott.” You reassured brushing some of his hair away that was stuck to his forehead.


Derek burned his wound and Scott let out an agonizing scream. You widened your eyes momentarily looking at Derek, maybe he knew what to do. He looked at you just as panicked making you even more nervous. If he kept yelling he was going to give away your location and you were all going to get caught.


Without thinking twice, you grabbed one of his hands in between yours and focused on taking his pain, that was just as bad as it seemed. You clenched your jaw, preventing yourself from making any noise watching the veins in your arms turn black.


When Derek put down the small torch, you let go of Scott’s hand but you weren’t quick enough to catch him as he passed out. You sat him up, his back against one of the tables as you checked for his pulse, sighing in relief when you heard a faint heartbeat.


“You’re…you’re a werewolf?” Derek asked in disbelief.


You flashed your yellow eyes at him, a small smirk playing on your lips that he almost didn’t notice. Almost.


“A lot changed while you were gone, Derek.” Your eyes returned to their original color and you focused on Scott.


He blinked a few times, his mouth slightly opened as he tried to process the newly acquired information.


“You’ll catch flies.” You said without glancing at him.


“It’s just…” He cut himself off “Did you hear that?”


“Hear what?” You focused but all you heard was your heartbeats.


“Stay here.” He turned around walking towards the closed door.


“Where are you going?” You whispered-yelled.


If there was actually someone out there, you didn’t want to get caught because you were yelling at your ex-boyfriend.


“I’m gonna take a look.”


“What? You can’t go out there.” You kept the same tone “If there’s someone out there you can’t go alone.”


“Someone needs to stay with Scott.” He turned around facing you “I’ll be fine.” He sent a small smile your way.


Shit. You were showing that you cared, that you still cared.


“I wasn’t worried about you if that’s what you think.” Your tone was cold and distant.


“Sure.” That was the last thing he said before leaving you alone with an unconscious Scott.


You sighed and ran a hand through your hair, glancing at Scott who was starting to wake up.


“Hey, there sleepy head.” You chuckled.


“Where’s Derek?” He asked looking around.


“He heard something so he went to check it out.” You paused “Thanks for telling me that he’d be back by the way.”


“To be honest…” He looked up at you “I didn’t think you’d stay if I told you.”


His words were like daggers in your chest. After Derek left you pushed all of them away and every time someone mentioned him you’d just walk away. Just the thought of him was too painful but you masked it as anger. It made sense that he thought that way, you couldn’t blame him but it still hurt.


“I…I’m your beta Scott, I’ll always stay.” You gave him a sad smile, the memories of the previous years without Derek weren’t leaving you alone, and they had the worst timing.


You cleared your throat and blinked a couple of tears away.


“He should’ve been back by now.” You glanced at the door nervously “Maybe something happened.”


What if he was hurt? Or worse, dead?


“We have to stick to the plan.”


“I…I don’t even know what’s the plan.”


“Do you trust me?” He grabbed your hand and unclenched it, your palm bloody from your claws.


You didn’t even notice it. You were on the edge and fear was slowly making its way into your body.


“I do.”


“C’mon.” You helped him up and before you left the classroom he put a hand on your shoulder “Go find him.”


“What if…what if something happened?”


“Help him.” He squeezed your shoulder before opening the door “Be careful.”


We went to the library and you walked down the dark and empty hallways looking for Derek and Malia. Your heartbeat was so loud that you could barely hear anything else.


“Derek?” You whispered “Malia?”


And then it hit you. This unwelcome panic and fear that made you stop dead in your tracks. You found someone, but it wasn’t who you wanted. Your heart was racing and you wanted to run but you were paralyzed, you forced your body to move but it wasn’t responding.


“(Y/N)” You heard his voice but you knew it wasn’t him.


You clenched your fists to stop your hands from shaking but it was useless. Your breathing increased like you just ran a marathon, you wanted, needed to run but you couldn’t, you were stuck.


“(Y/N)” Footsteps approached you but you didn’t dare to turn around.


“You’re not him.” You mumbled, your eyes shut.


“Don’t you wanna look at me? See how much I’ve changed…how happy I’ve been without you”

“No.”

“Don’t you miss seeing me? Touch me” You felt it touch your back and you took a step forward quickly turning around, making sure your eyes stayed closed.

“No.”

“Are you willing to give me another chance (Y/N)?” You swung your arms forward hoping you’d hit the damn thing and maybe you’d get it to shut up.

“You’re not real.” You were growing frustrated.

“Don’t I sound real? Why don’t you look at me? Please…(Y/N) look at me.” It begged.

It sounded so real that you almost wanted to open your eyes.

“Please, look at me.”

His voice cracked as he begged and you couldn’t resist, you snapped your eyes open only to be met with scary purple irises. You felt your body freeze, unable to move and then everything went black.



You felt warm again, the tips of your fingers moved and that was when you realized what was happening. You took a deep breath, giving you lungs some needed oxygen before you saw the two hunters in front of you. One gun was pointed at your head, and the other at your heart.


You were quick to shift and fight. They were skilled, more than you thought but you still managed to knock one out. The other took advantage of the second you took to catch your breath to push you against a row of lockers, your head hitting the cold metal, the pain spreading through the back of your skull as a few black spots appeared in your vision. You tried to push yourself off the floor, but your body wasn’t responding, you felt yourself change back to human and heard the hunter pick up his gun.


“Please…” You whimpered.


You heard the gun click, its safety was now off and then you felt the cold metal of the barrel against your forehead.


“Please…” You could barely speak, almost slipping into unconsciousness as you fought to stay awake.


A distant growl sparked your attention, but your heavy eyes didn’t make any effort to move. You heard shouting, a loud thud and you no longer felt the gun against your head which was a relief.


“(Y/N)? (Y/N) stay with me.” You recognized Derek’s voice and pushed yourself further into the lockers, hoping they’d swallow you, a terrified expression across your features.


Somehow you managed to get back on your feet and tried to run away, the Anuk-Ite was messing with your head once again.


“(Y/N), calm down you’re safe.”


“You…you’re not real.” You stumbled as your legs gave up, hoping the wall would support you but he caught you first.


“What are you talking about?” He asked confused “(Y/N), it’s me…Derek.”


You blinked a few times, your vision blurring a bit but you could still make out his face. You’d know it anywhere.


“You’re real.” You whispered.


“Yeah, I am.” His voice softened as he pulled you in for a hug.


The memories from earlier came back, what the Anuk-Ite had said. How happy he was without you. You didn’t want to be comforted by someone who left you. Your eyes filled with tears as you tried to pull away from him, your clenched fists hitting his chest as he hugged you tighter.


“Let me go.” Your voice came out muffled due to your face being hidden in his chest.


“I won’t. Not again.” You heard him sigh before he gently kissed your forehead.


You couldn’t hold it anymore, and you started crying. You were shaking the pain in the back of your head getting worse as you cried into Derek’s chest. He gently rocked you back and forth hoping that you’d stop crying.


“Your head is bleeding.”


Before you could say anything both of his large hands were wrapped around one of yours. You watched the veins in his arms turn black and you closed your eyes in relief as the pain slowly faded. He took your pain until there was nothing left. You still felt extremely dizzy and your vision was blurry but the pain was gone.


Without saying a word, he gently picked you up and carried you towards where everyone else was. You’d be lying if you said it didn’t feel nice to be held by him again if you didn’t think about the times where you fell asleep on the couch and he carried you to bed if you didn’t miss those moments, if you didn’t miss him.


The sound of voices brought you back to reality as you looked around trying to see who they belonged to.


“(Y/N)?”


“Jackson?”


“What happened to you?”


“Hunters…but I’m okay.” You smiled “Did it work?”


“What?”

“Scott’s plan.”

“Yeah, it did.”

“Is…everyone okay?”

“Yeah, we are.” You recognized Scott’s voice and heard his footsteps get closer to you.


“What happened to her?”


“I think she has a concussion.” Derek looked down at you “She’s slowly healing.”


“I’m fine.” You mumbled.


Your eyes were heavy, but you tried to keep the open. You wanted to be part of the moment, hear what happened, how Scott managed to defeat the Anuk-Ite and Jackson’s sarcastic remarks. But as much as you tried, you were too comfortable and tired in Derek’s arms so you slowly drifted to sleep.



A few days later the pack decided to go out to celebrate. Jackson and Ethan would be on a plane to London the next morning so Lydia thought it’d be a good idea to go out. You, on the other hand, didn’t want to go. Derek would definitely be there and you hadn’t spoken since that day at the school, in fact, you were avoiding him like the plague.


Despite all this, Lydia still dragged you out of the house and gave you something to wear. You had to admit that the black dress hugged all your curves right but you weren’t in the mood to go out. She wanted to do your makeup too, but as soon as you flashed your yellow eyes she stopped bothering you.


You walked into the Sinema with Lydia and Stiles quickly spotting everyone else. Jackson and Ethan were on the dance floor, Malia and Scott were sitting on one of the couches and Thiam and Liam were arguing at the bar probably over something petty. Luckily Derek wasn’t there, at least not yet.


The loud music was annoying you, any other day it would have been something you enjoyed but today you’d rather stay home. Walking through the crowd over to the bar, you sat down in one of the stools next to Liam and Theo and ordered a few shots downing them one after the other.


“You know we can’t get drunk right?” Theo asked over the loud music.


You glanced over at him noticing that Liam was nowhere to be seen.


“Yeah, I miss that. I wanted to get fucking wasted.” You drank your last shot and put the glass down.


“I didn’t think I’d see you here, to be honest.” He chuckled.


“Lydia practically dragged me here.” You shrugged as you order two more shots “I had no choice.”


The bartender placed the two shots on the counter and you slid one towards Theo.


“I thought you hated me.” He looked down at the drink with a frown.


“Yeah I do but, you saved Liam and you’re keeping me company.” You drank the shot scrunching your face and the burning sensation in your throat “I guess you’re not that bad.”


You ordered two more shots but the bartender shook his head, telling you to slow down or else he’d end up cleaning your vomit off the counter. You were ready to tell him off but Theo beat you to it.


“Just wait a bit (Y/N), it’s not like it’ll do any difference.”


“Fine.” You growled under your breath.


The two of you sat in silence, looking around seeing everyone slowly get drunk. It was sad and funny at the same time, the hangover not so much.


And then he walked in. With his stupid leather jacket, his hands in his pockets and his famous scowl. He looked around and you quickly turned, your back facing him as you wanted to turn invisible, actually debating if you could just call Corey so he could get you out of there. You kept chatting with Theo until you excused yourself to go to the bathroom, hoping that Derek wouldn’t spot you in the crowd and you could hide in the bathroom for the rest of the night. Sure it’d be weird, but you were more than willing to do it as long as you could avoid Derek.


The bathroom was empty and you sighed, leaning against one of the sinks and focusing on what was written on the stalls. A bunch of phone numbers and apparently Daisy loved David, good for her you thought.


Your phone vibrated inside your clutch and you grabbed it, seeing a text from Lydia.


Where are you? Derek is looking for you


You quickly typed a reply, your anxiety making your hands shake and hard for you to write.


I’m in the bathroom. I don’t want to see him. I want to go home


You opened your contacts and scrolled through them until you stopped on Corey’s name. But then it hit you that he was on on a date with Mason and you didn’t want to interrupt. Maybe Theo could drive you home, he was your last resource. With a sudden rush of adrenaline, you swung the door open maybe a little too hard and walked through the crowd of sweaty and intoxicated bodies towards the bar where Theo was. You placed your hand on his shoulder making him turn around.


“Can you do me a favor?”


“I guess.” He furrowed his eyebrows.


“Can you get me out of here? I’ll…buy you dinner or something I just need to get out of here”


“What got you so desperate?” He smirked.


“Please.” You begged.


He opened his mouth to say something but his gaze landed on something behind you and a few seconds later you felt a tap on your shoulder. You turned around slowly, seeing Derek right in front of you.


“Can we talk?”


You pretended that you weren’t panicking on the inside, your heart beating fast but still broken. How could something dead still make you feel so alive?


“I’m listening.” You shrugged.


“Alone.” He cleared his throat uncomfortably, his hands shoved deeply in his pockets and avoiding eye contact. He was just as uncomfortable as you were.


You turned to Theo with a sigh before giving him a tight smile.


“I guess I won’t need your help after all. Thanks anyway.” He looked between you and Derek with his eyebrows raised before nodding.


You followed him outside, looking down at your feet the entire time. The air outside the club was lighter and the music was nothing but a fade melody to your ears.


“What do you want?” You spat coldly as you leaned against the wall.


You were terrified because after three years there he was right in front of you and you probably were about to have the conversation that you imagined so many times. But now that you were face to face with him, your mind was blank. The adrenaline from earlier faded and your stomach dropped but you didn’t dare to show it. You had to control yourself.


“I…I want to apologize.”


You let a sarcastic laugh and crossed your arms over your chest.


“Are you serious?” You tilted your head a little and squinted trying to see if there was any evidence of his statement being a joke but you found nothing “You think that after what you’ve done you can come back give me puppy dog eyes, apologize and everything’s fine?”


“No, I…” You cut him off.


“You what Derek, uh? You’re sorry? You regret leaving? You still love me? You hope I still love you? Is that it?” You spat angrily.


“Yes…I…I…” He stuttered.


“Do you think…” You paused hearing your voice raise, you weren’t going to yell at him, he didn’t deserve it “Do you think you can come back after three years, after you left me after you took off with Braeden and apologize? What do you want me to do? Run back into your arms? No, it’s not gonna happen.” You shook your head, a few strands of hair falling onto your face.


He was silent for a few moments. For the first time in your life, you saw Derek Hale speechless.


“I want to explain.” His gaze finally met yours.


“The damage is done Derek, I don’t want to h…”


“Can you please shut up?” You were taken aback by his words but you still let him continue “Just hear me out and then you can punch me, turn your back on me and hate me for the rest of your life.” He took a deep breath “I know that what I did was wrong and I will never forgive myself for that. I…I needed to do that, I didn’t take off with Braeden, she knew someone that could help me, she took me there.”


“What about picking up the phone? Or texting me? I left you voicemails, fucking embarrassing ones, half drunk and alone outside some random club as I tried not to cry and you…”  You ran your hand through your hair in frustration “I didn’t even know if you were alive. You dumped me and I found out through somebody else. Do you have any idea how humiliating that was?”


“I’m sorry.” It was like he was stuck on repeat like those were the only words he knew.


“Saying you’re sorry won’t make things okay again Derek.” You shook your head “Do you have any idea what you did to me? What you turned me into?”


“I asked Scott about you and he said that you changed a lot. He said that it was painful to see you like that.”


“Jack had black hair and green eyes.” You rambled, staring off into the distance.


“What?” He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.


“Brian played basketball and Dean had this I don’t care attitude but once you got to know him, if you knew how to handle him he was the sweetest guy I’ve ever met.” You smiled fondly at the memory of the three boys “The point is…” You sighed “They all had something that reminded me of you and they weren’t you, that’s what I needed at the time.”


“Did you love them?” He asked, his eyes on the floor like he was scared of the answer.


You did love them, but not as much as you loved Derek. Although you were still young you knew that you were never going to love someone as much as you loved Derek.


“Yes.”


Your voice was cold and firm, it wasn’t a lie but you could’ve said something else. You could’ve said that it wasn’t the same. But you didn’t and the words got caught up in your throat, knowing that they would’ve changed everything. Maybe you didn’t want things to change, or maybe you did but you just wanted to make him suffer. You wanted to see the hurt flash across his eyes because when it came to you Derek Hale was defenseless, he could never mask anything with anger, he knew you’d see right through him. It was both a blessing and a curse.


Derek closed his eyes and took a deep breath before looking up at you.


“It was the fucking cycle. Someone hurt you, you hurt me and I hurt somebody else. A few somebody elses. You turned me into what I’ve always despised, you turned me into a monster.


He remained quiet like he was processing your words.


“I had to get over the fact that I lost you and you weren’t even dead.”


“I’m so sorry.”


“And you know what the worst part is? After all this time, after all the shit you put me through, I still love you like I did the day you left.” You rubbed your face, not caring for the minimal amount of makeup that you probably had ruined.


“You…you still love me?” His eyes lit up like a little kid on Christmas morning.


“I thought it was obvious.” The traces of a smile reached your features as you shook your head “But I can’t forgive you. I…I can barely look at you.”


He stayed silent, biting the inside of his cheek, looking like he was thinking about something.


“I wanna make it up to you.” He said.


“Derek.” You sighed “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”


“(Y/N), I’m not letting you go. I wanna make things right.”


“I’m not ready.”


“I don’t care how long it takes.” He shook his head.


“Derek, I…I need to think about that.” You started to feel light headed and your heart beat increased.


“Are you okay?” He asked with a frown.


You pushed him off you and stumbled towards somewhere that didn’t make you feel like everything was closing down on you. Clutching your chest you fell to your knees unable to control your breathing. You closed your eyes and tried to repeat the mantra your therapist told you to use in situations like the one you were in. But it wasn’t working, not when Derek was there, the one who triggered your panic attack.


“(Y/N)” His voice seemed distant.


You looked up at him, your eyes yellow and your fangs over your teeth.


“I can’t breathe.” You growled feeling your control slipping.


“(Y/N), focus on me. Focus on my voice.” He kneeled down next to you.


You were trying to pay attention to him, but even with special hearing, you could barely make out any of his words. The only thing you could hear was your own heartbeat.


“What’s your anchor?”


“Anger…” You said in between breaths.


“Focus on that!” Despite your condition, you still noticed the crease between his eyebrows and a concerned look in his eyes.


“I…I can’t.”


“Why?”


“Because I’m not angry anymore. My anger was towards you.”


“Repeat after me, alpha, beta, omega.”


“Alpha…” You growled “Beta…omega.”


But it wasn’t working. You felt blood trickling down your hands as your claws pierced your palms breaking the skin. It felt like you were running out of oxygen, like your lungs had forgotten how to work. Everything around you was like a blur, you couldn’t see where you were although you knew. Not even the hard concrete hurting your knees made you flinch. You felt nothing.


So it surprised you when Derek suddenly cupped your face and pressed his lips to yours. You were shocked, to say the least, and held your breath, your eyes were wide open and your hands clenched. You didn’t kiss back, not because you didn’t react but because you didn’t want to. After a few seconds, he pulled away slowly, your breathing back to normal when you remembered that something similar happened once with Stiles and Lydia. You didn’t make eye contact, not exactly sure how to feel about the entire situation yet he didn’t take his eyes off you.


“Are you okay now?” He cleared his throat.


“Uh, yeah thanks.” You gave him a small smile, still not looking at him “I think I’m just gonna head home.”


“I’ll take you.”


“No, it’s fine.” You pushed yourself off the floor and brushed the dirt off your hands and knees.


“(Y/N), you’re not going anywhere alone after what happened.”


“Fine.” You sighed, too tired to argue with him.


The two of you walked in silence towards his car. He tried to open the door for you, but you beat him to it. Things were already awkward enough. You leaned your head against the window as he drove, your arms wrapped around your torso. Your eyelids were heavy, your body felt tired, the aftermath of a panic attack was almost as bad as the panic attack itself.


“How long has this been happening?” He asked after a few minutes of silence.


“What?” You turned your head towards him.


The moonlight illuminated his features making him look angelic, like some sort of creature carved by the gods. Somehow, you still couldn’t wrap your head around the fact that you once called him yours. You called him yours only to have him ripped off of you like a band-aid.


“The panic attacks.” His voice brought you back to reality.


You sat up straight and rested your hands in your lap.


“Since you left. I got depressed and then anxiety came along.”


“How are you now?”


“I’m doing better I guess.” You fumbled with your fingers in your lap.


Derek didn’t ask anything else to your relief and you returned to your original position. When you got to your house, you gave him a quick thank you and a goodbye before you went inside. That night you didn’t sleep because all you could think of was about the time where you were able to call Derek yours.



You typed on the computer at the front desk of the animal clinic. Deaton had been generous enough to give you a job to keep you busy and since you could actually handle it, he kept you.


Stiles’ voices could be heard from the examination room making it hard for you to concentrate. With a sigh you got up from your chair and made your way towards the human boy.


“Stiles, for the last time…”


“Sorry, sorry.” He held up his hands.


You rolled your eyes and got back to your desk.


“Hey (Y/N).” He and Scott decided to come after you “Can I ask you something?”


“If I say yes will you leave me alone?” You asked not looking up from some papers you were working on.


“Yes.”


“Okay.”


“So, you know that night at the club.” He sat on your desk with a smirk.


“Yes…”


“Theo says you left with Derek.” You gulped “Care to tell us what happened?” A goofy grin was spread across his face as he wiggled his eyebrows.


You glared at him, a small growl coming from the back of your throat that you were sure that he heard. When you looked up at Scott, he mumbled a small apology. Knowing the two boys for most of your life, you knew this had been Stiles’ idea and Scott, being the good friend he was, went along with it.


“Why don’t you mind your own business Stilinski?”


The small bell above the door rang and you looked over to see who had just walked in. Your eyes widened as you saw Derek, holding a two cups of coffee and a box where there was probably food in there.


“Is that for me?” Stiles hopped off your desk and walked towards Derek and the food.


“No, it’s not.” He growled.


“Hey, Stiles.” Scott finally spoke up “I have to show you that thing I was telling you about the other day.”


“What thing?”


“The thing.” Scott raised his eyebrows.


It was obvious that he was trying to give you and Derek some time alone, but Stiles didn’t want to leave.


“Oh, the thing.” A light went off in his head and the two boys finally left.


“Hi.” He grinned.


“Uh, hi.” You gave him a small smile “What are you doing here?”


“I brought you coffee and a muffin.” He placed one of the cups and the box with the muffin on your desk.


“Thanks…”


“I just thought I’d stop by and bring you something to eat. I mean you’re probably bored.”


“That’s nice.” You felt yourself blush, so you looked down hoping your hair would cover your face.


You grabbed your food and got up, walking towards the small chairs by the door where people usually waited. You turned them towards each other and sat down on one of them and sipped your drink as Derek sat on the other.


“How are you feeling?”


“I’m better thank you.” You smiled.


“Are they getting back together?” You heard Stiles’ voice from the other room “She’s been really moody lately, she needs to get laid.”


“She’s gonna hear you.”


You bit the inside of your cheek and clenched your fists fighting the urge to get up and punch Stiles in the face.


“So…” You cleared your throat trying to get rid of the awkward tension in the room “What have you been up to?”


“Not much.” He shrugged “I’m looking for a new apartment.”


“Oh really?” You took a bite of your muffin “This is really good.”


“It’s from that bakery where we had our first date.” You cringed “What?” He chuckled.


You thought about your first date with Derek and how everything went wrong. It started raining, you tripped and spilled your milkshake all over his shirt and the only place that was open was that small coffee shop where the two of you found shelter.


“I was thinking about that day.” You shook your head “It was awful.”


“It was cute.” He laughed.


“It was a disaster.” You giggled “But I’m glad things turned out okay. I honestly thought you’d never want to see me again.” The two of you laughed at the memory.


“Here’s to first dates.” He raised his cup.


“Date?” You raised an eyebrow.


“I mean…if you want it to be one.” He stuttered and blushed.


“Here’s to first dates.” You raised your cup with a smile.



That first date turned into many more dates, more than when you were together. So it was no surprise when you found yourself at his new apartment helping him move in. You sat on the floor surrounded by boxes, not knowing Derek actually owned that much stuff.


“Since when do you have so much stuff?” You asked.


He turned around after putting a book in a shelf.


“Since always.” He shrugged.


You came across a box that was different from the others. It was a shoe box, but it was worn out like it had been opened too many times, but it was too light to actually have shoes in it. Curiosity got the best of you and you opened the box gasping at its contents. There were tons of polaroids of the two of you, some of them you didn’t know about their existence. You went through every single one of them with a smile. There were little post its with your calligraphy, cute little notes you had left at the loft when you stayed the night. There was a journal and you carefully opened it before reading its first page.



I don’t know how to do this. You were the one who always liked to be artistic not me. But I guess this is the way I found of keeping you alive in my memory, by writing on a stupid journal that I bought at a convenience store. It’s been way too long since I last saw you and I know how miserable I made you. I listened to your voicemails, all of them, but I never called you back because I didn’t know what to say. I left without saying anything. But the truth is, you’re better off without me at least is what I’m telling myself. You’ll forget me eventually, you’ll forget we were together and the crazy world I pulled you into, you’ll move on and find someone else, you’ll move on and you’ll become a mother, the kind of mother that cheers too loud for her kids, you’ll grow old, you’ll be safe and I’ll be here writing on this journal about how I was stupid enough to let you go.



The journal was full, but you didn’t read anything else. Instead you kept going through the box. You found his ring, you kept yours too, you just didn’t expect that he would keep his. In the bottom of the box, there was a drawing that you immediately recognized. It was your drawing, his face on the page and your initials on the bottom right corner of the page. You hadn’t thought about it in years, the day you made it, the day he ruined a perfectly good drawing book just to get a page. The day you told him without words how much he meant to you.


You put the box away and walked towards him with the drawing in your hand. He heard your footsteps and turned around just in time for you to press your lips against his. It felt new, but old at the same time. It felt like coming home after been away for too long, because in fact that was it. Derek was your home and you had been away for too long.


“Fuck, I missed you so much.” You mumbled against his lips.


“Not more than I did.” He said breathlessly once you pulled away.


“You kept the drawing.” You showed him the paper.


“I did.” He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, his red cheeks contrasting against his pale skin.


“You’re so cute.” You shook your head before you kissed him again.


“Does this mean…?” He asked, as his thumbs traced soft circles on your waist.


“Yes, Derek it does.” You giggled happily “You made it up to me.”


Maybe he made the wrong decision when he left, maybe it was a mistake, maybe he came back for the wrong reasons but in the end the two of you were back together and you hadn’t felt that happy since he left. So maybe it was worth the pain, maybe it was all worth it if it meant that he’d end up right back in your arms.