I want to talk about these moments, because when watching them it struck me how much Major got Blaine. You could argue that Major is being more understanding because they all assume Blaine has amnesia at this point, but I don’t think that’s the case.
Major started out as a social worker. He worked with troubled teens who were often just barely staying off the streets. It’s entirely likely he encountered ones who struggled with drug problems, abusive parents or guardians, anger issues, and so on. Yes, Blaine actually killed some of the kids Major worked with, but I believe Major is also seeing those kids in Blaine’s behavior.
I honestly wish more interactions with Major and Blaine went this way. Hell, I wish the show tapped into Major’s training as a social worker more in general. These moments are short but they illustrate his heart for those in trouble. He’s basically saying to Blaine: “I get it, I understand”. He’s saying it without any malice or resentment, which, given all the shit Blaine put him through, is actually pretty damn amazing.
I’m gonna drop some dark and depressing headcanon on y’all, so gear up. While I feel the writers didn’t do the best job with Blaine’s amnesia story, I have come to understand why he would continue faking it, from a character standpoint.
It’s pretty clear that aside from his grandfather, Blaine had no emotional support system or love in his family. I also don’t believe he had any real friends. Sure he acts friendly with those who work under him, but they are all too quick to turn on him when he loses his memory. They take advantage of him, lying to him and keeping secrets. Ultimately, they are criminals and their loyalty is to the almighty dollar.
Liv and the others always saw him as the bad guy, someone they couldn’t trust but had to tolerate because he fed Seattle’s zombies. Yet when he lost his memory, they didn’t lie to him or take advantage of him. They told him the truth about who he was and what he did to them. I think Blaine liked that brutal honesty, and I think for him it made the times they did trust him all the more meaningful. These were people who saw the worst in him and were still willing to come support him when he did his set at the lounge. He got his first taste of genuine friendship.
So when he told Liv he was afraid of remembering, I think that was still true. He was afraid that him remembering who he was would destroy the friendships he was building. Being himself only ever made people either not care for him or leave him in some way (his grandfather, his mother, Kurt Cobain), so he kept pretending to be this other person. His new self had a job that he earned through talent alone, a woman who was happy with him, people who trusted him… He was afraid that once he told the truth, all of that would be gone.
And I think this scene punctuates that fear being realized. That look on his face when it hits him that no one will ever see him as anything more than a murderer and liar. And knowing that he’s once again lost something important to him simply by being Blaine.
This made me SO HAPPY TO MAKE. Ever feel like you’re in a rut or have a block? Draw your OCs.
So, this is the main cast of my original comic, F.R.E.E., (which only has 4 completed pages so far) and I have such a deep love for them all. This is actually the first time I’ve drawn them all in the same picture! :o
This gang of rebels (from left to right) are Devra, Ellien (the woman kneeling), Blaine, Fray, Raiden, Eve, Odin, and Myota.