black girls with chinky eyes

Literally just read a previous post in regards to colourism and team light skinned vs dark skinned @fabricated-bullshit I agree wholeheartedly with what you’ve said.

I am a dark skinned girl with “chinky” eyes and not “traditionally black hair”. I am not mixed in regards to direct parentage as in both my parents are dark skinned. It was really difficult growing up during secondary school because I wouldn’t fit in ANYWHERE. With a school of majority of dark-skinned girls the light skinned ones would literally be worshipped, the Asians would stick to themselves, the dark skinned girls had a heritage of Nigerian/Jamaican and generally the West Indies (I’m Ivorian). To make it worse I had a “Posh accent” but didn’t go to private school and the area I went to secondary school was known as a “ghetto” I was so confident and I loved myself. Those 5 years ruined me initially because I started to question who I am as a person. I was a happy kid, and then suddenly I couldn’t speak in public, I developed a terrible stutter, I even became so angry at the world because of this, which eventually turned into depression because I would express this to NOT A SINGLE PERSON. This led to a toxic relationship at 16, with my first ever boyfriend who convince me he could help, I told him everything and he used it against to me and spread lies about who I am as a person and people believed because I would literally break down from not being able to defend my-self clearly (Also English is my second language). Luckily I some how woke myself up in regards to my faith and got out the relationship. (It was only two months, but we had mutual friends, so getting out of the social group was also another challenge) a few years later I am happy, I am truly in love with myself again and somewhat healthy currently working on bringing back my confidence and seeking help when I need it.

Reading this blog has helped me a lot so it makes me sad to see us woman fighting and degrading each other because of the colour of our skin. The black race is literally a rainbow of colours more diverse than any other race. Yes I know the struggle is different in US because of your history but there is so much information out there just look for it !

May the Most High bless you all xxx

I reside in the UK, if my spelling seems a bit strange to you ;)