black doctor who

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
  • me: *gets into a new thing*
  • me: *dedicates my entire life to it in 0.3 seconds*
What TV has taught me:
  • Breaking Bad: It's easier to sell meth than it is to get affordable medical care.
  • Hannibal: If someone offers you free psychiatric help, it's probably best to say no.
  • Orange is the New Black: If your ex-girlfriend works for an international drug cartel, you should probably be nice to her.
  • House: Any small ailment means you are dying and lupus does not exist.
  • Game of Thrones: Everything you love will die.
  • Supernatural: Everything you love will die repeatedly.
  • Criminal Minds: Everything you love will be killed by a white male in his mid thirties.
  • Doctor Who: Everything you ever loved about this show will be destroyed by Steven Moffat.
  • them: omg why do u obsess over those characters so much
  • me: i indulge myself in the lives of fictional people to avoid the realization that my own life is, in fact, boring and meaningless
  • them:
  • me:
  • them:
  • me: i mean... guess i'm just a nerd hah a :)
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.
The Fandoms (2-15-17)
  • <p> <b>Outlander fandom:</b> "I can't believe season 3 isn't until September-"<p/><b>Stranger Things fandom:</b> "I can't believe we have to wait until Halloween for next season-"<p/><b>Orphan Black fandom:</b> "I can't believe the final season premieres in June-"<p/><b>Pretty Little Liars fandom:</b> "I can't believe the final season ends in June-"<p/><b>Grimm fandom:</b> "I can't believe we end in a month-"<p/><b>Game of Thrones fandom:</b> "I can't believe season 7 is later in the year and shorter-"<p/><b>Doctor Who fandom:</b> "I can't believe the 12th Doctor is leaving!"<p/><b>Sherlock fandom:</b> "I can't believe Johnlock didn't happen-"<p/><b>Star Wars fandom:</b> "I can't believe the trailer for "The Last Jedi" didnt drop yet!"<p/><b>Harry Potter fandom:</b> (coughs) "We cool"<p/></p>