bitter about a lot of things

southsideserpentine  asked:

8, 24, 28, 35, 36 🤓

thank you so so so much for asking! love ya <3

8. Favorite quote?

a Betty quote! 
“I do everything for everyone. Everything to be perfect. The perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect student. Can’t I do this one thing for me?”

I relate to that one a lot.

24. Any unpopular opinions?

I hate b*ronica and j*rchie. even their friendships, if I’m honest with you. all fucking unhealthy as hell. I would write up long long posts about it to vent my bitterness but no one wants to read those, and I’d get slaughtered by shippers.

28. What are your thoughts on Polly?

she can be a little selfish and stupid sometimes, but I suppose her heart’s in the right place. just neutral, honestly.

35. Watch a movie with Jug at The Twilight or drink a milkshake with him at Pop’s?

easily drink a milkshake, but I think I’d need betty’s permission first ;)

36. Who’s the real DILF? 

🔊 SKEET ULRICH 🔊
🔊 FP JONES 🔊

likewise, mädchen amick (Alice Cooper) is the real milf, don’t even @ me

send me a riverdale ask! here’s the list.

Different Types of Hufflepuffs
  • The Soldier: the epitome of "Yes, we can" always defying odds, Eye of the Tiger playing in the background
  • The Sunflower: Friends with everyone, never gossips, some bitter people don't like them because "no one is ACTUALLY that nice" yes they are
  • The Punk: wears exclusively leather, probably has hair dyed a crazy color, chokers are a must, does not put up with people's shit
  • The Dork: blushing 80% of the time, loves the little things in life, lives for sweater vests
  • The Guardian: will fight anyone who talks shit about friends, probably has a hit list
  • The Designated Driver: always taking care of friends, gets called "Mom" or "Dad" a lot, low key loves it
  • The Golden Child: perfection™ incarnate, cannot do anything wrong, probably was on the LIFE cereal boxes as a kid
  • The Sass Master: has a snarky comeback for everything normally followed by a chorus of "yassss queen", lives life with a smirk or cocked eye brow
The moment I became obsessed with Elorcan:

“Elide (…) found herself not afraid of anything as he did it again, kissing one corner of her mouth, then the other. Such gentle, patient kisses- his hands equally so as they stroked the hair back from her brow, as they trailed over her hips, her ribs.” 

Why? Why THIS exact moment? If this was a description of Chaol or Dorian or even Rowan, I would probably not freak at all. But we are talking about LORCAN SALVATERRE, the dude that’s been in love with a crazy bitch for centuries, the dude that’s been described as cold and ruthless and always getting what he wants. From these descriptions alone, I would have guessed Lorcan to be really really forward when it comes to sex (which he is), but also a little impatient- someone who just goes for it without really considering his partner’s wants and needs. 

Lorcan is described as having “unending cold rage”, caring only for himself and maybe Maeve. Why should he be a considerate, attentive guy in bed????? Wouldn’t fit the character he’s being described as. Logically, you wouldn’t put Lorcan into the cute/fluffy/ perfect fae boyfriend box.

But. BUT. When he’s getting it on with Elide, he’s described as gentle and patient. He’s not pulling her clothes off after a few seconds, he’s not violently kissing her or being urgent in any way. He doesn’t even seem to restrain himself. He’s just…enjoying that they are taking it slow for now. 

AND THATS WHAT MAKES SUCH A DIFFERENCE TO ME!!!!! Because Lorcan is NOT a gentle and patient person- look at his feud with Aelin, Rowan, the Carde, basically the whole world. He manages to pick a fight with everyone after a few seconds. But with Elide, he forgets all of that- he’s knows how precious Elide is and that he can’t pull any of that bullshit with her. I bet if she told him that she wanted to wait 5 years before sleeping with him, he wouldn’t even BLINK and just accept that. 

And I also bet Lorcan would NOT do that for everyone. He’s not considerate like  Dorian, or trying to do the right thing like Chaol. I bet Lorcan has pissed a lot of his lovers off. I bet he’s grown annoyed and impatient with a lot of them, and I bet all those years of pining after Maeve also made him really cold hearted and bitter. I bet there have been more than a few times where he didn’t care about how things felt for his partner. 

But with Elide, he is suddenly gentle. He is patient. That centuries- old demi-fae, who has slaughtered and schemed and betrayed, who had probably slept with hundreds of women and who is described as muscular and hulking and honestly a little scary- that man transforms into someone else entirely. 

That quote just made that so obvious to me. And that, my friends, was the moment I became utter, desperate Elorcan TRASH. 

Wait For It (M)

Anonymous Requested: Jungkook Royal AU
Pairing: Jungkook | Reader
Genre: Fluff/Smut; Royalty AU 
Word Count: 11,013
Author’s Note: I pretty much took a whole day off from life to work on this, since I start school on Monday and wanted to try and get through as much writing as I can before hell starts.

Summary: As royalty, you were forced to be sent off and married to a prince of the neighboring kingdom to strengthen your country. But when you are betrothed earlier than you expected, you seek comfort in a random stranger until you realize that perhaps fate plays a bigger hand in things than you ever thought possible.

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For the record, you never asked to be a princess. Not that you think you would ever have had an upper hand in a situation like that in the first place, or that you expected things to be different if you could go back in time to watch your family history unfold. It’s just something that’s short, and simple, and a fleeting thought you ponder about on more than one occasion, which is certainly a lot more times than someone who was actually happy with their lives would think.

Now, it’s not that you’re ungrateful with the life you’ve been gifted with, you’re well aware of the luck you’ve received, because at the end of the day, it’s the kind of lifestyle that guarantees food upon the table. It promises a roof over your house during the night, during the rain or snow, (more than) comfortable clothing to keep you warm throughout the bitter winter. The gold and motivation and rule your family has over the kingdom is nothing to shy away from.

It just, it provokes a lot of… pressure in your system, in your heart and in your mind.

Most of these things sprout from your father, who is probably just as ruthless as he is caring and hard-working and passionate about the land he is expected to rule over with grace and respect and an equal amount of force to make sure the people of the kingdom didn’t take advantage of him. He’s always been a loving father, albeit expecting the most out of you between your two other siblings. As caring or thoughtful or empathetic has he could be, there were often moments in your life when your best was never good enough for him.

You’ve been taught since birth to follow the orders and rules set up by your father because, as so graciously pointed out by the servants the dusk and clean and care for you on more than one occasion, your father always did what he believed would be best for you. So every piano or violin or guitar lesson he ever made you take, those foreign language lessons, classes on discipline and how to look, think, behave like a princess—those were always for your own future benefit.

“Keep your back straight, shoulders back, smile pretty.”

Always cut small pieces of your meal. Take small sips of your drinks. Always remember to wipe your mouth with a napkin.”

“Don’t speak unless spoken to.”

It’s not that you hate being a princess. You just hate having things being done for you, you hate how decisions and that free-will of choice and responsibility has been ever-so-graciously lifted off your shoulders as if these were things you would never have to burden yourself with. You hate not having a voice, your words drowned by the ones of your father or mother. Your existence has constantly been overshadowed by those greater than you could ever hope to be. You hate the role you have to play into society, how you had to spend your days dealing with other people’s problems. Shouldering a kingdom is no laughing matter, there are rules and regulations and decisions that constantly need to be made to ensure the safety and well-being of everyone who live within the borders. Your mere existence is to live for other people.

It’s exhausting.

But in spite of your feelings, you know that changing fate is practically impossible. So you roll with your father’s wishes, because you understand that this is duty you owe to your kingdom. Perhaps at the end of the day, it will truly never really matter what you desire. From the moment you were birth, your entire life story has already been written by you, the quill of ink belonging to your father and mother and every other person who thought they could know you better than you could ever know yourself.

You let yourself take everything in. You visit the nearby villages and listen to everyone’s problems, their hopes and wishes and promise to become stronger and stronger to help them. You take the lessons set up by your father. You keep your back straight, your eyes forward, your mouth shut. You accept the fancy parties and the wine, the dancing and the violins echoing through your ear, speaking only when you are spoken to. It’s torture, but you have to remind yourself that is it your duty, your obligation and your responsibility.

You even let your father tell you that there will come a day when you will be sent off to a predetermined prince in a neighboring kingdom, be married off into a family you don’t know and perhaps will never truly belong to—all for the benefit of your kingdom. You let him tell you this, and you accept it. You give yourself a few years to mentally prepare yourself, expecting your father at the very least to grant you this one wish.

A raised eyebrow. “But the prince could be ready to meet you any day now.”

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10

FINALLY, THE MUCH AWAITED AND PROBABLY MUCH, MUCH NEEDED UPDATE TO THAT NONBINARY COMIC I DID LAST YEAR (last year????? I don’t remember)

I’ve learned a lot since then, and while I have to say the truth is a bitter pill to swallow, it does open my eyes to issues that I previously have not seen nor considered before. Being a cis Muslim woman is already hard enough as it is. But being an afab nonbinary Muslim? Oh boy. If I were to touch on that here I will not have the space to do so, and it’s honestly still something I’m learning about, so I don’t have the resources or knowledge enough to talk about this here.

Yes we still have a lot of things we need to work out on. Yes, I probably will never take my hijab off knowing what kind of things I might end up getting if I did (I could get kicked out of my own house, for one). I realize and understand these are issues faced by nb Muslims like me EVERYWHERE. 

But you know what? 

In the end only Allah can judge you for who you are. And I highly doubt He cares what you identify with. All I know is that He is Most Merciful and Most Forgiving. So fuck what people tell you. You’re valid, your gender is valid, your beliefs are valid, and you can be both at the same time and still be a good Muslim. 

Fuck what everyone says. Be you, do you!

*My ask box & IM is open for any nonbinary Muslim that wants to talk or vent about it to me. You’ll always find a place here with me. I promise.

it’s so funny when ppl are like ‘why is this artist that i don’t personally like successful even tho i don’t personally enjoy their music’ like asldkfsaf do u reaLLY THINK that the entire world revolves around ur unique taste???? what kind of world did u grow up in!!!! like FUN FACT i do not personally enjoy most of adele’s music but i’ve never once said that it’s objectively bad or that she isn’t talented or doesn’t deserve her success because i can recognise that other people have different taste in things than me and she clearly must be doing something right because she’s fucking KILLING IT! and good for her!!! i’m genuinely happy for her because she seems like a nice person and i don’t expect everything in popular culture to cater to my very specific tastes and i have to say i think i’m having a lot more fun playing in the hay instead of sitting in the bitter barn and complaining about it

some nice things to do

1. carry a plastic bag and pick up litter that you see
2. pay for the person behind you
3. put a cute anonymous note in a library book
4. send a kind anon ask to someone you’re following
5. tell your friends and family you love them
6. make cookies for your best friend
7. include someone who looks left out in a conversation
8. hug people tightly
9. say “thank you” to someone you appreciate
10. compliment your friend’s talents
11. have a checklist and challenge yourself to tick everything off
12. stand up, stretch, and drink a glass of water every hour
13. start jogging, don’t feel bad if you’re slow
14. wake up early so you have time for both hobbies and studying
15. look at things with your eyes more than you take photos
16. treat yourself how you would treat your best friend
17. learn how to bake a cake
18. give yourself some time alone
19. read a book
20. try a new hairstyle
21. learn a new language
22. look at things and appreciate their poetry and beauty
23. keep a journal for all the moments you want to remember
24. pay more attention to the good things than the bad things
25. have manners and don’t be aggressive or rude
26. if someone is rude, be the bigger person and walk away
27. but sugar-free chewing gum so you don’t have to give in to junk food cravings
28. write down your favourite quotes
29. if it’s raining, share your umbrella with someone who needs it
30. be nice to kids even if you dislike them
31. keep making your art, writing, and photography. keep doing things even if you think you suck
32. keep doing something you’re passionate about even though no one is being supportive
33. stop changing yourself to fit the standards of other people
34. plant a garden of fruits and flowers
35. stop sitting down so much and go out and see the world
36. be strong. don’t let people walk all over you
37. focus on your studying for 30 minutes and give yourself a 10 minute break
38. look at the moon and the stars
39. look at the clouds, sunrise and sunset
40. stop using your phone at dinner
41. have a bubble bath
42. message someone you haven’t talked to for a while
43. let go of toxic people who don’t deserve you
44. don’t be afraid to say that you were wrong
45. keep yourself busy so you stop overthinking so much
46. don’t assume things about someone you don’t know
47. say kind things behind someone’s back
48. be nice to others even if you feel angry, sad or bitter. it’s not their fault
49. remember that your emotions don’t have to rule your actions
50. stop caring so much about what other people might think
51. wear what you want
52. smile at a stranger
53. don’t worry. worrying about the future is useless. it will be a lot less scary than you imagined
54. stop not caring about important things. care about everything and everyone you love with all your heart.
55. stop checking your notifications every 2 minutes
56. don’t play mind games with people
57. make your resting face more happy
58. think happy thoughts even if it feels fake, and you will turn more positive
59. be confident. fake the confidence until you have natural confidence
60. make every morning a new beginning
61. try to understand people rather than be judgemental
62. educate yourself on societal issues
63. stop blaming other people for your own mistakes
64. swear less and don’t call people mean and derogatory terms
65. either learn or be inspired by everything you see
66. constantly find new ways to improve yourself
67. have little goals every day and feel great when you achieve them
68. your comfort zone is nice but don’t stay in it too much. be brave and try something new, even if you fail it’s not a failure
69. tidy your desk
70. watch all the best films
71. stop saying mean things to yourself
72. be happy for no reason
73. say hi to everyone you know
74. don’t dwell on your past
75. keep doing something you’re passionate about even if people criticise you
76. put your alarm away from your bed so you get out of bed as soon as the alarm goes off
77. let your emotions out, either by talking to someone or letting it out creatively
78. google everything you’re curious about
79. use a dictionary for words you don’t know
80. don’t feel sad about all the unanswerable questions
81. be kind to everyone, everything and yourself.
82. spread love and happiness constantly
83. help people who need it
84. don’t be afraid to cry
85. pick yourself up. you don’t need other people to save you
86. if you don’t have anything kind or constructive to say, don’t say it
87. breathe through your stomach, not your chest
88. sleep earlier!!
89. eat more fruits than chocolate
90. be there when your friend is sad, not just when everything is fine
91. make your bed every morning
92. observe everything and pay attention to what’s around you
93. quit any addictions you have
94. give more attention to all the great things
95. learn, accept your past, and move on
96. write things down to remember them
97. be proud of every little victory
98. be proud of who you are
99. remember that you’re loveable, important and worthy of happiness
100. don’t give up. you’re still young and you have a whole life ahead of you.

anonymous asked:

Who is your favorite character in attack on titan? why? did you like them from when you first started watching the show? or did they come in later? Who is your least favorite (out of the main cast)? Why? you've probably answered this already. sorry.

I have answered this in various ways, but I don’t mind doing it again. My favorite character, without hesitation, is this guy:

Erwin Smith wasn’t always my favorite. For the first 50 chapters that honor went to Hange Zoe. But in Utgard, when Erwin escaped the jaws of a titan and continued on to rescue Eren, I started paying attention. 

It wasn’t his total badassery that got me–it was his humility afterwards. Erwin didn’t think his act was extraordinary. What was one arm when others had given so much? 

I think his humility is further reflected in the people he surrounded himself with. A thug from the underground, an unhinged mad scientist, and freak with a nose is how outsiders would view Levi, Hange and Mike. And yet Erwin made those people his most trusted comrades. He elevated them to positions of power regardless of how outsiders would view it. He simply didn’t judge people. When a fifteen year old boy with bright ideas ended up in his military, he sat the kid down at the planning table and listened to his ideas. He made others listen to him as well

I’m going to mention one more thing I love about Erwin. There are a lot of people in this story with tragic pasts. Erwin Smith is no exception. As a boy, his father was killed for getting close to the truth. Worse, Erwin’s own actions served as the catalyst. What’s remarkable about Erwin, what makes him different from say Grisha, Zeke and Eren, is that didn’t become blind with rage. He wasn’t filled with a need for vengeance. He never became bitter or resentful. 

Erwin Smith never lost his faith in humanity. He never stopped believing in those around him. The only person Erwin ever lost faith in was himself.

My least favorite character of the main cast is probably Eren Jaeger. I don’t dislike Eren. I just like everyone else better. Ducks and runs.  

the funny thing about the whole ~~cora is appropriating asari culture~ thing (and by funny i mean extremely frustrating) is that it not only ignores all dialogue she has not just with ryder but with the other squadmates, but it’s the literal opposite point of her arc and character. she says multiple times that she loved her unit and that she learned a lot, but she was very aware that she wasn’t one of them. she was accepted and treated like family, but she wasn’t actually like them. not even because they ever made her feel unwelcome (the opposite seems to be true), it’s just that she knew

but she never pretends to be something she isn’t. hence her belief (and desire) for the initiative to be a fresh start, and a place where everyone has a chance and for them to be welcome. she even has a few banters where she talks about how the way forward for the initiative isn’t for all the different species to become reclusive - that in order to grow, alien cultures need to be willing to learn from each other

but i mean why pay attention to that when you can hate and mock her for something that isn’t true lol 

the other side of the signs
  • aries: can be very soft, emotional. sometimes doubt themselves. feel unwanted, unloved. they are without a doubt strong people but sometimes they just need someone to make them feel alright again. cry over people who hurt them in the past sometimes. never really forget what others did to them.
  • taurus: overprotective and jealous because they doubt themselves as a partner. sometimes they feel not good enough. can get angry over little things. when in rage they may say things they don't really mean and regret later. focused on their goals so much that they are about to give them up after a little failure.
  • gemini: can be mean and bitter when hurt. wouldn't admit they're hurt. ignore people because they don't know how to express themselves sometimes. overthink things and panic. it takes them a lot of time to regain their strength. they look for a home in other people. they often feel misunderstood.
  • cancer: they can be hard as a rock. they give second chances but they know exactly that giving a third chance is foolish. they won't hurt those who hurt them but they will make sure the people who did them wrong know what they did. is normally a dreamy romantic but they have an iron skin to hide in when it all gets too much.
  • leo: sometimes they feel powerless, as if something was sucking their energy out of them. challenges that seem impossible can bring them to their knees. sometimes their "roar" is a soft, whispering voice. their pride can make them roar incredibly loud though. if they feel like you make fun of them you'll get to see their teeth and this is not how you want to experience them.
  • virgo: sometimes they are mean on purpose, hurt on purpose. they may try to control others emotionally. they do this to be let alone or to make someone stay. sometimes they feel lonely and down. they also create little worlds where they hide then. they can have problems with saying or even knowing what they want and it confuses them and makes them feel uncomfortable.
  • libra: they doubt themselves a lot. they sometimes feel like the failed first try of a painting. sometimes they are not as kind as nomally, sometimes they explode. they never forget what they deserve and they will do anything to get what they want. they use their elbows to get people out of their way if it's needed.
  • scorpio: they sometimes feel things they don't understand and it makes them feel depressed. sometimes they feel like no one on this planet is made to understand them. sometimes they regret things so much that they hate themselves for making those mistakes. it takes them a ot of strength to seem as strong as they are.
  • saggittarius: the longer they look for them, the more "flaws" they'll find in themselves. they are bright people who live in so many colours but sometimes all they see is black and white, maybe grey. sometimes deep thoughts keep them awake and although they usually have many friends they don't know who to talk to. then they feel like the whole word has given up on them. they are known as funny, charming people but sometimes they feel like they're carrying the weight of everyone's happiness, like they're responsible for it, and that can be too much for them from time to time.
  • capricorn: they can be furious. sometimes, when it all gets too much, they yell and kick things and start treating the people around them badly just for standing where they stand, just for being there. they like to know more than they should. they rarely speak about how they feel. they tend to hide their true feelings from everyone around them and when they finally talk about things that bother them no one knows how to comfort them. they don't say what they want but expect others to feel what they want and when no one understands them they get angry.
  • aquarius: there can be a lot of secrets behind the pretty face of an aquarius. the best kept can be their sadness. although they are bright personalities who love to laugh and make jokes, aquarius often have experienced things that still bother them even after a long time. they won't always speak about it, they may try to cover it, but some day they will tell everyone what bothers them. it's actually hard for them to let go of their past.
  • pisces: they can be the most revengeful people. sometimes they know nothing, neither friends nor family. if they want to make someone pay for something they will do so, they will get their revenge. although they love a lot and love intensely, they also know hate. they try to avoid this feeling but they know it too well. actually pisces are haunted by a lot of things, mostly their own mistakes. they sometimes can't find peace. they fight for justice but sometimes they go too far. too far with many things. they tend to be self-destructive.

today has just reaffirmed for me the extent of which louis always puts others before himself. despite how badly he’s been treated through the years, and how easily he could’ve become bitter and hateful, he’s the complete opposite. you really can’t say that about a lot of people; his level of selflessness is such a rare and beautiful thing. i’m never going to take this boy for granted and seeing his acts of bravery inspires me so much, even if it’s under the ugliest of circumstances. i’ll still be saying louis deserves better after my throat is so hoarse i can’t get the words out anymore.

You just gotta break the egg - Trying to understand Eto and her revolution

I have been reading past comments made by Eto about the revolution and change which she wants the world to go trough. The world sure could use a change, since at it`s current state it`s basically a cycle of violence that keeps hurting and twisting the people living in it. 

However, as I have read Eto`s lines, there is something that puzzles me. When she is talking about this upcoming change, most of the discussion is surrounded with rather violent metaphors or word uses in general. To me it seems that by change, Eto means the destruction of the old system. Not, reform, not change but destruction. From the ashes of the old corrupted world, a new one shall rise. Let`s look at some of her word choices:

“Our enemy are the the Doves of CCC. However, eradicating the warped root that lurks behind all of this is my true aim.”

“In the destruction of this twisted birdcage, is the key to returning balance to the scales of the world. I would like you all to become the foundation of that destruction.”

“Because I want to take this fucked up, piece of shit world, fuck it up even more and then give it a factory reset.”



 “To give birth to something, you`ve gotta destroy the world right before your eyes.” 

This old world that needs to be broken, does not seem to be the CCG, but the warped root behind all of it that I guess is causing all this. What is that root? Is it the Washuu family that has held up a system for decades? Is it the mysterious V organization, which members said in the new chapter that some secret project they are conducting is related to keeping world at peace? Do all of these need to be destroyed that you can create something new, because I think a simple reform was not something Eto had in mind when she started to plan this. 

Why then Eto uses such such a violent words and metaphors, seeing destruction as the way to change things? I guess a lot of has to do with how she grew up. Eto grew up in a harsh world, that probably made her see it trough a warped perspective. Her massive kakuja tells that she has done a lot cannibalization over these years, so she has lived a rough life. Her father leaving her alone with Noroi affected this too, making Eto very bitter.  As has been discussed before, this manifest in her writing:

When you think about, I guess you could say that most of Eto`s creations end up having a tragic fate, as do the characters in her books. When she molded and re-created Kanae/Karren, I think Eto knew that she molded her in a way that she would not live very long after that.  Aogiri Tree, a creation of Eto too, perished at the of Rue island mission by the hands of the CCG. Probably this was partially planned so that the empty space of power left by AT could be filled by the One-Eyed-King, Kaneki. King Kaneki is also Eto`s creation, so I wonder what will happen to Ken…

So to wrap this up: the thing is that Eto, whatever she sees that the warped root is (the CCG/Washuu/V..?) that keeps twisting their world, needs to be destroyed. Not reformed or changed, eradicated. In a odd way this reminds me a bit of the mentality that the Communist had. If you read one of the most famous manifestos by Lenin, a good chunk of the text is just talking about how the previous order/system etc… needs to be destroyed. A simple change is not enough, destruction is needed. What is also an odd coincidence is that this kind of “breaking an egg” metaphor used by Eto has also been used by the Soviets too in the past. I can`t remember who said, but the massive amounts death in the Soviet Union were told by a needed sacrificed, and the process was compared to making an omelet: You can`t make an omelet without breaking a few eggs. To make things clear, I am not saying that Eto is a communist. Her violent word choices and talk about destroying the old system just reminded me of those instances. 

But are the current actions taken by Kaneki doing this? He has talked about bringing the CCG to the negotiation table, by force if he has to. Is this the thing that Eto wants to happen? Possibly a peaceful discussion how things should change?  

Why Eto uses these hard words is likely because of her hard life, and as has been seen in the past, the life of ghouls at it`s worst is very violent. Even the wars she used to live in, the 24th, has been said to one of the most dangerous and violent places to live in. 

In the end, I guess Eto herself summarized it the best in a quote from Dear Kafka:

“What cannot change can only be broken. “

Things are too corrupted to be changed anymore, so they need to be broken instead. 

Here’s the thing; mantras work. It’s impossible for them not to, if you think about it. A good mantra is an oath and a bargain and a lived story all in one. The only difference between a mantra and a pact with Them is that you pledge a mantra to yourself. And like anything else, you get back what you put in.

(“My anger a flame,” I hiss, and storm over to the boy on the bench with fury bubbling in my gut. The shadow looming behind him feels the wave of heat wash over it and scuttles off, hissing at me from the centipedes that pass for its hair.)

(“My kindness a forge,” I murmur, and sit down next to the glassy-eyed girl in the canteen. She lost a roommate last week, and I’m pretty sure she knows what happened. She’s broken up about it - but broken things can be fixed.)

(“Hope in my right hand,” I sigh, and pat the freshman’s shoulder. It’s okay, I tell him. It was a dumb mistake, but there are ways to make up credit, and the stats professor is an easygoing sort. His mood brightens with every word.)

(“Hate in my left,” I whisper, and slap the knight full across the face. He goes reeling backwards with a lot more force than I put into the blow, and the churning bitter loathing abates. It’s still his fault, but now I can think rationally again.)

Here’s the thing; mantras work. And here’s the catch: they work both ways. There’s always a price for power, after all, and it doesn’t come only when you call it.

(I read about the plight of refugees and suffer the burn marks along my knuckles and tongue - fire burns its friends as easily as its foes. I learn to be ambidextrous and switch between each hand as I write my essays - no longer can I pen cynical criticisms with my once-favoured fingers. I follow my bleeding heart’s demand to act, to fix, to build - I can no longer let things lie.)

A good mantra is an oath and a bargain and a lived story all at once; a pact you make with yourself. And a lived story only works as long as you live it. My roommate gives me a pleading look. I’ve met her little brother. He was a good kid. Just not a very smart one. And now he’s Underhill, in the hands of something a lot bigger and nastier than the usual residents of EU. I feel anger - at her, at him, at Them. I feel compassion - for her plight, for his peril. I feel hope, perhaps in vain. I feel hatred.

I feel really goddamn stupid, in retrospect, for picking this of all things as my mantra.

“Fine,” I mutter. “I’ll get him back.”

I really don’t have much of a choice in the matter.

(x)

Best Match - Worst Match

ARIES:

Best Match - Libra

  • They match with you emotionally
  • They are naturally independent and will give you your much-needed space
  • They don’t like to get into relationships quickly, making you work at it which matches with your hard working nature
  • They are fun loving and love to be out and about. This is great because it gets you out of your shell a little and together, you’ll experience many news places and activities.

Worst Match - Taurus

  • They hate the chase in a relationship whereas it’s fun for you
  • They like to know where they stand in the relationship quite often, making it more draining for you and less light-hearted
  • They are sometimes a little too practical when you just want to be more daring
  • They will find it hard to come to terms with a relationship that is ending, whereas you like to cut the cord and move on straight away

TAURUS:

Best Match - Scorpio

  • The spark is so intense, it’s crazy
  • They are independent so will happily give you your space whenever they need it, whilst remaining loyal to you
  • They are hard working but like to break away from this and be very fun, organising day trips out
  • New experiences often happen with this sign, keeping you happy and active

Worst Match - Sagittarius

  • They can be a little too much for you to handle, due to them being a fire sign
  • As an earth sign, you like a little peace now and then, yet Sagittarius can play mind games often to be fun, which just doesn’t translate well with you
  • They can be guilty of not taking important things seriously enough for your liking, such as your future together
  • They can have a lot of experience in relationships, which can turn you off big time

GEMINI:

Best Match - Sagittarius

  • You need someone to keep you on your toes and someone who can keep up with your wanderlust and zest for life
  • They are straight forward and practical too, when they want to be
  • They value freedom and adventure, which means you could explore many different countries together
  • They are someone who you’ll never be bored to be around plus if they aren’t around, you don’t both fall to pieces

Worst Match - Capricorn

  • You don’t feel they do enough that excites you.
  • They’re honest nature can be a little too honest at times and upset you
  • They can often try and bring you down to earth in times where you just want to be a dreamer
  • They like “to do lists” and you like to go with the flow every step of the way. It makes them look controlling and you look childish



CANCER:

Best Match - Taurus

  • Earth and water go amazingly well together naturally as signs
  • You’ll love to make your house a home, buying trinkets together and selecting out wall colours are activities that bring you closer together
  • Their practical nature can help in times where you are emotional, showing you it’s actually not the end of the world, even when you think it is
  • They can be very romantic, without going too over the top

Worst Match - Aquarius

  • They are very happy with their savings account and their money only being spent on what they really need, when some days you love to treat yourself. This is not great for a joint account.
  • Sometimes, they’ll correct you when it really isn’t needed when you’re alone plus it’s even worse when you’re both with a crowd of people.
  • They are extremely independent and this can make you feel like they don’t need you what so ever. In reality, you want to know someone cares about you
  • Their protective nature is intended as sweet however; sometimes you’ll feel as if they’re belittling you.

LEO:

Best Match - Sagittarius

  • They same the same sexual passions as you
  • They like to keep a relationship fun, not often bringing up serious conversations
  • They are energetic, always on the go, therefore there’s never a dull moment
  • They are surrounded by a lot of friends, so your outgoing groups will mix well

Worst Match - Scorpio

  • They can be a little too much for you, often being stubborn and always wanting to show their strong point of views
  • They’re fun, just as much as you however, they aren’t the best for giving compliments, which is what you love to hear from a partner
  • They can overall be a bit difficult to deal with because of their jealous ways which will clash with your naturally flirty, charming nature
  • They are determined when it comes to their career, making you feel annoyed that they can be jealous but also not have enough time for you

VIRGO:

Best Match - Scorpio

  • My goodness, the romance will be top notch. We’re talking about sunny picnics and getaways to Paris
  • They’re naturally funny and will help ease your slightly analytical ways and just help you relax
  • You like someone who does what they say they will do and a Scorpio is extremely reliable
  • They are imaginative, therefore mixed with your creativity, you may enjoy Art or Yoga classes together

Worst Match - Sagittarius

  • They like the chase and you hate it
  • There will always be that uncertainty surrounding your relationship, with one of you having one foot in and one foot out
  • They can be too carefree and not think about how their actions can hurt your feelings
  • They can disappear off the face of the earth for a week or two which is offensive to you. You don’t want an invisible partner

LIBRA:

Best Match - Libra

  • As the same sign, you’re like two peas in a pod
  • You’re both very sociable, with lots of friends. This means if one person has plans, the other one won’t ever resent them because they can easily make plans with other people too
  • You are both relaxed and can still talk about serious topics but only when it’s needed
  • You both have a massive sense of adventure, making the relationship fun and youthful

Worst Match - Virgo

  • They are too uptight at times, making you feel a little trapped
  • You don’t want to have to persuade them to do wild things with you, you want a partner who is up for the crazy ride
  • Their need to be right and be practical can annoy the hell out of you when you want a bit of fun
  • They can be a little critical of how carefree you are, which can sometimes make you doubt yourself and we can’t have that for a relaxed Libra 

SCORPIO:

Best Match - Pisces

  • Both of you are imaginative and have your own little bubble which you can eventually share
  • You are both very friendly and talkative, meaning you can end up chatting for hours on end
  • Fun is always really important to you, especially when you do work very hard at what you do, therefore when you get together with a Pisces, they take you out of your career mind thought
  • Pisces can be very sensitive, therefore they will never lie to you, which means the world to someone like you

Worst Match - Aries

  • They are too darn fiery when you want a soft, loving relationship
  • You feel like they always want it their way and it doesn’t work for you in a relationship
  • They aren’t a big fan of talking about where you are heading, when you just like people who are going to be honest
  • You’re a lot better as business partners or friends, with the ability to step away from each other when needed.

SAGITTARIUS:

Best Match - Aquarius

  • They are full of knowledge and facts, which really impresses you and drives the conversation well
  • They’re very independent, which suits your patient nature because they can go off and do their own thing, such as a holiday and neither of you will feel bitter-They’re very passionate, which mixes well with your energetic side, always ready to take on a new challenge.
  • You’re positive and so are they. Because they’re hardworking too, they’ll try their very best when it comes to problems the two of you might face

Worst Match - Taurus

  • They aren’t the best people to be spontaneous because of their busy, practical lifestyles, making you feel there isn’t much excitement
  • You like to go crazy sometimes but they like to keep it safe when it comes to decisions
  • They don’t like drastic change as much as you do, meaning they won’t easily pack up their bags and move in with you until it’s thought about in great detail
  • You’re fiery and they’re much more down to earth, making you show your attraction in very different ways



CAPRICORN:

Best Match - Virgo

  • They can help you reach your goals because they love to help and see people succeed
  • They’re very earthy like you therefore you can both spend lots of time together with nature
  • They are also very creative, which could see the both of you buy cameras and take beautiful pictures of landscapes
  • They are very loyal to their partners, just like you. You’ll never be unsure about where you stand with them

Worst Match - Gemini

  • You have a lack of understanding of them a lot of the time
  • Geminis are very hard to change, whereas you can change very easily when the time is right, which makes you feel that they are being too stubborn
  • You can look too boring towards them, when actually, it’s more the fact that you don’t want to be wild 24/7
  • They can be very skittish whereas you like to stay very organised



AQUARIUS:

Best Match - Sagittarius

  • They often like to learn new things, which means you can pass along your knowledge on subjects, which you’ll love doing
  • You have a lovely balance when it comes to sexuality and neither one of you is overbearing or demanding
  • Sagittarius is a fire sign which will bring out the fiery side of you that many people don’t get to see
  • They have a very get up and go attitude, which is great for you when you want to try something new

Worst Match - Cancer

  • They can be far too emotional for you
  • Your independence means they can accuse you of neglecting them when actually, you’re just getting on with your life as an individual
  • They want a very grown up, honest relationship from square one whereas you like a little bit of casual fun at first
  • They can be a little tight with their money whereas you like to go on romantic trips whenever you can, making you feel like they don’t actually want to do these types of activities with you

PISCES:

Best Match - Scorpio

  • You 100% understand each other’s language
  • As 2 water signs, there is no imbalance here whatsoever
  • You’re both very chatty and have a high respect for each other, meaning debates with different opinions will rarely turn into arguments.
  • They can be very sexy but it’s a subtle way, which is something you absolutely adore about them

Worst Match - Virgo

  • They are rather critical and too practical whereas you’re sensitive and dreamy. You will find it hard to see eye to eye
  • As opposite signs, you can either clash really badly or in rare cases, make up for what each other lack, sometimes creating a great relationship, if the Virgo is willing
  • They can be a little tricky to keep up with. One minute they can be happy, next minute not. This gives you lack of confident, which is worse thing for you
  • This combination works great as close friendships because then there isn’t an emotional attachment that is too intense.
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Commissioned by @summylise! Thanks so much and I hope you enjoy it <3

Pairing: Nalu

Works count: 7.5K

PS: If you want to feel like I felt, when you get to the fifth scene, start playing “Sign of the Times” by Harry Styles!


Natsu stares through the glass, throat tight as he drinks in the sight of her, mapping every new curve and freckle on her skin. She’s still as beautiful as he remembers, even after all these years, but that’s not what matters to him. No, she’s alive, and that’s more than he could have hoped for. Lucy’s alive and here and he can see her chest moving with every breath she takes, her lips pursed in defiance as she stares down Detective Clive, her gaze bright and as intelligent and shrewd as he remembers. She looks absolutely fierce and he chokes up at the sight, releasing a shaky exhale and wiping at his eyes when Gray isn’t looking.

He just wishes that she wasn’t sitting on the opposite side of the interrogation room’s glass.

“It’s really her,” Natsu murmurs, voice low and gruff, more strained than he’s ever heard it. His palm presses against the glass, throat tightening with emotion when Lucy glances around the room, brushing her long hair away from her eyes. She looks at the glass—to her, a mirror—and, though unknowingly, her gaze locks with his, honey eyes softening just the slightest, as if she knows he’s staring back at her. “She’s alive,” he continues, more to himself than anything.

The look Gray sends him is sympathetic and Natsu hates it, but he keeps his mouth shut, knowing he won’t be let in if he picks a fight with Gray over nothing. God, he’s missed her, and she’s right here in front of him, and he can’t do anything. He barely hears Gray’s affirmative, turning to look at his partner quickly, the question slipping from his lips without him meaning to ask. “Can I talk to her?” he asks, voice cracking.

He knows his chances aren’t good. She’s gotten into something deep, something dangerous, but he’ll be damned before he lets her disappear again. He needs to talk to her—needs to touch her and make sure this isn’t just a dream. He’s had them before. He knows how real they can be, but in his head she always disappears before he can hold her, before he can tell her that he—

“That’s why we called you in,” Gray tells him, clapping him on the back and sending him a small, strained smile. He knows. Gray’s been with him since their academy days, so he knows: about Lucy, about the night she disappeared, about the six years Natsu spent trying to find her, hoping to whatever gods might be up there that she’d come home.

He simply nods, not trusting himself to speak. Gray reaches out, tapping on the glass three times in rapid succession. Gildarts glances up, looking towards the door. He murmurs something to Lucy, who frowns, expression twisting into one of confusion. She watches Gildarts stand, his back to her as he leaves the room.

The door clicks open, Gildarts slipping through. He gives Natsu a brief nod before turning to Gray, dismissing him, and Natsu takes the chance to slip through the door without another word.

She doesn’t notice him at first, her gaze directed at the table. It’s not until he walks up to the table, coming around to stand on her side and ignoring the offered chair, that she looks up, gaze hard and icy. She recognizes him a moment later, the ferocity leaving her expression as she stares up at him. Lucy’s mouth drops open, lips parting just the slightest when she sees him. She mouths his name, eyes never leaving his as she twists around to face him.

Natsu just stands there, drinking her in, wanting nothing more than to pull her into his arms, but knowing that he can’t—shouldn’t. She’s in here because she’s been arrested, and he knows that things aren’t the same as they were six years ago. They aren’t about to curl up together on his couch, watching movies until the A.M. and stealing kisses between scenes. God, but he wishes they were. Six years he’s spent missing her, six years he’s spent wondering if she was even alive, now here she is, and Natsu can’t even touch her.

She leans back in her chair, swallowing down the lump in her throat. Her eyes glisten when she sees him, and he almost reaches out to wipe away her tears, catching himself at the last moment. Her gaze drifts to the scar on his throat, something new, and he sees her cringe, something horrified creeping into her eyes. “Natsu Dragneel,” she breathes, voice quivering as she tastes his name on her tongue.

He wonders if she repeats it to herself at night like he does, whispering her name in the darkness, lest he forget how it sounds.

“So you do remember me,” he jokes, voice cracking. There’s no humor to it. Neither laugh at his pathetic attempt, but he does see a familiar light reach her eyes, brightening them. Her lips quirk at the edges, not quite a smile, but as close as he thinks he’ll get. He wets his lips, hand pressed against the tabletop to ground himself—to keep him from pulling her into his arms and never letting go.

He never wants to let go.

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anonymous asked:

Superman hanging out with each of the robins headcanon? Please?

Dick: He is totally in awe that he can even be near THE Superman, so he’s glad to do anything. Oftentimes Superman would have to watch him if Bats brought him to the Watchtower and so Superman would fly Dick around. It reminded Dick of being on the trapeze with his parents. Now they’re very good friends and keep in touch regularly, Superman stops by Blüdhaven sometimes and they work together on occasion.

Jason: He was much more reserved towards Superman than Dick ever was, so they weren’t as close. When they did hang out, it was when Jason was younger and it was typically just them chatting about books and movies and mundane things like that.

Tim: He was quiet at first out of respect (since there’s the whole ‘children shouldn’t speak unless spoken to’ mentality that his parents seemed to like) but once he got over that, he asked Superman a lot about Krypton and what space is like. He’s a curious kid.

Steph: She was kind of awkward around Superman. She talked to him but they weren’t really close. They joked around sometimes and he helped Steph with some fighting techniques but outside of working together, they don’t hang out all too much.

Damian: He’s really bitter towards Superman. He’ll constantly say things that Superman finds amusing but are along the lines of ‘my father could beat you in a fight’. Damian isn’t very fond of Superman but since he’s Dick’s friend and his father’s coworker/sort of friend, he puts up with Superman (who finds Damian to be entertaining)

Duke: He’s incredibly respectful towards Superman but he’s also flipping out because it’s Superman!!! The Man of Steel!!! So he’s totally geeking out but he tries to keep his cool to seem normal (he totally asks for loads of photos). Any time they hang out he’s just awestruck and giddy

Building a Revolution

Overthrowing a powerful government in the name of the people is a popular plot.  It certainly has a great appeal.

However, before you get all excited about writing a story where the angered people scramble together an army and launch themselves against the government, you might want to take a step back and figure out how they got there in the first place.  A revolution isn’t built around one big event: there are things that lead up to it, and there are smaller frustrations that may go unnoticed, but because it’s a part of everyday life, it’s a constant reminder.  They might not be the things people point to when identifying what started the revolution, but they certainly kept the wood for the fire warm.

At what point did the government begin to ruffle feathers?
It’s going to start out small.  It will be annoying, but dismissed as bearable.  It may cause a bit of an obstacle, but nothing that people can’t work around.  Perhaps the government won’t let working class or its colonies to use the official currency.  Perhaps items of higher quality were held for only certain people the government deemed worthy. 

When did the government start adding to the little things?
For one reason or another, the government starts putting restrictions or laws on more things. They’re still able to work around them, but people will talk to each other about their frustration over it.  It’s also important to remember that the government will have a reason for it.  Maybe the new law/restriction is more cost effective,  Maybe it’s intended for protection.  Some examples might be that the colonies/citizens are limited to government approved materials.  Or they’re banned from traveling to a certain place, and that place happens to be on the fastest path to another colony/town.

What started sparking outrage?
Perhaps the government overspent on something, or they went to war and are now low on funds, so they introduce a tax on an item that’s considered an everyday luxury.  Or perhaps a ban is introduced and it affects something that everyone normally gets, but not necessarily a need.  There’s still not enough to pick up arms and fight, and the people might at this point lobby with the government to reconsider some of its strategies. 

When did it start picking up speed?
Perhaps the first tax isn’t bringing in enough funds.  Or the government feels the people aren’t paying as much as they should.  So another tax is introduced.  Or perhaps the ban isn’t that effective and so another ban is introduced to keep people from finding loopholes.  Maybe the government has to ban certain imports.  Anger with the government is increasing at this point.  The citizens/colonists may understand why the government is doing it, but they know they’re getting the raw deal.  Attempts to get the government’s attention become more aggressive, but there isn’t harming of other people.

How does the government respond?
So the government responds to the people’s cries of outrage, but not in the way they expected.  Another tax and/or ban is introduced, or even a new law.  Perhaps citizens/colonists are forced to use a material they are opposed to.  Perhaps the government realizes that if it doesn’t do something, it’s going to lose control over its citizens/colonies.  The militia/police force is increased to keep an eye for rebellious acts.  Arrests are made daily, and the people might be released if nothing is found.  Perhaps the government starts forbidding certain things to be said in the media, so people are forced to rely on word of mouth, and must do so carefully because of the increase in arrests.  Perhaps at this time, the idea of revolting is mentioned while others insist on trying to be diplomatic.

When does the physical conflict happen?
Perhaps there was a scuffle with the police force.  Either the citizens/colonists attacked first, or the police/militia acted aggressively.  Perhaps there was a massacre of some kind.  Maybe there were incidents that didn’t result in injury or death, but it came close to it.  Perhaps the government or citizens/colonists made a precautionary move that made the other party highly uncomfortable.  As the incidents, whether of violent or nonviolent nature, increase in number, the intensity also increases.  Influential people of the citizens/colonists begin to suggest a revolution, or to declare independence.  The government begins to realize they’re losing control unless they take more drastic measures.

When does the idea of a revolution actually become a threat?
Revolting or declaring independence becomes something that many people agree with.  The government perhaps realizes this and so starts making laws or regulations to keep it from happening.  Weaponry might become illegal for citizens/colonists so they won’t have anything to fight with if/when a revolution actually happens.  Curfews might be enforced.  Those outspoken about the government might be tailed.  The influential people work hard on a new government or system to replace the oppressive government.  Perhaps they just plan to outright revolt instead of declaring independence.  But either way, the citizens/colonists are only one word from the government away from declaring war.

It may seem like a lot to work on, but there are events leading up to the revolution that will resound with some people more than others.  Or there are events that will become a bitter memory that will help give some depth to each individual character.

Some things to consider when building the revolution:
It is not as black and white as it may seem.  Both sides are going to be guilty of doing something wrong; it’s just going to be more obvious in the government.  There are going to be people among the citizens/colonists who side with government and they’re not necessarily going to be bad guys.  When creating the conflict, keep in mind why people would choose one side over the other.
Stages will overlap.  A revolution isn’t going to be cleanly cut as posted above.  There are several times when a “stage” will mix with another “stage”, while others may blend right into the next one.  Timelining the process and placing each event can be extremely helpful as you try to keep events straight.
The revolters are most likely going to be the underdog.  They may have experienced people on their side, but if the revolution is going to made up of average citizens/colonists, they’re going to be at a disadvantage.  The government is going to be in control of an army and other resources.  The revolters are going to have to work to achieve their goals.

Homecoming

// In which Alejandro Antonio Bartholomew IV makes his first appearance  in Miami //

This is Part 1 the much awaited sugar daddy Justin series. 

Disclaimer: I am not a spanish speaker therefore I apologize in advanced if there are any grammatical issues.

*Contains Mature Content*

pls enjoy and i hope y'all look forward to this series - drea✨

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♡ 170224 | PSA to LOVEs re: Produce 101 Season 2

LOVEs, take a deep breath with me. Everyone needs to relax and wait until you have all the facts. I have more things I need to translate but I have only slept for maybe 2 hours so far and I need to get my rest, but I need to clear up a few things before the fandom blows this even more out of proportion. 

First and foremost, the boys wanted this. Pledis released a statement in the fancafe shortly after it was announced members of NU’EST would be participating in Produce 101, and in that statement it was made very clear that the boys themselves wanted to be put on this show as they see it as an opportunity for them to make a fresh start. As fans, we need to respect their decision and support them any way we can. This is not Pledis forcing them to go to a show for trainees, this is a conscious decision on the members’ part. Please respect and understand that. I understand some of us are very worried about this, trust me, I am too, but we need to love and support the boys more than anything right now. This is how they’ve decided to take the next step in their careers, they did not make this decision easily. Please, please, understand that. 

Pledis also wants fans to understand that this has nothing to do with disbandment rumors. The boys are not disbanding and this is a publicity move and a way for the boys to give themselves a fresh start. Fresh start, not a means to an end. 

Also, keep in mind that Mnet changed the rules for this season and are accepting a good portion of idols who have already debuted because there was a shortage of male trainees to send. NU’EST is not the only currently debuted boygroup who is sending idols instead of trainees. There have been a lot of shows in Kpop in recent time that also focus on bringing more attention to underrated groups, and it appears Produce 101 S2 is going to be one of them. 

LOVEs need to be calm and supportive right now and wait to have all the answers before they start rioting. I’ve seen a lot of fits being thrown from people who either don’t speak Korean or they don’t understand the whole of the situation. I’m also seeing a lot of bitterness again and bitterness has been like a cyst on this fandom. People do not want to be a part of a fandom that looks like it’s in constant misery. People join fandom to escape from real life struggles, not to add to them. Please, do not present our fandom as a miserable, old, useless thing. We need to be welcoming to new fans and we need to keep our heads about us. 

Thank you. 

Lully

People in Love - Jason Lee Scott

(ah ok this is my first ever thing I’m posting that’s mine. I hope you guys like it! If you want more, please request! Shoutout to @jxsonscott who is an amazing writer!!)

Originally posted by bertihelena

They say that people in love will do crazy and dumb stuff, but this was just insane. Jason had called you at one in the morning, on a Saturday thank Heavens, and asked if you could come over. He sounded upset over the phone so you grabbed shoes, a jacket, your phone and keys, and sucked up whatever remaining energy you had left in you. It’s a good thing you were just about to get ready for bed and hadn’t changed into pajamas yet.

Now you found yourself outside the Scott residence, anxiously waiting for your dumbass boyfriend to open his window because it was a lot colder than you expected and you were pretty sure your hands were going numb.

As if he could read your mind, his window slid open and he grimaced at the bitter cold that brushed along his skin.

“Y/N, it’s freezing,” he chastised when he saw your thin jacket.

“Oh no way. I couldn’t tell,” you gasped in mock surprise as you climbed up the trellis next to his window. Once you got close to him, you stuck out your hand and he easily caught you, swinging you into him room.

You sat on his bed and crossed your arms, a serious look on your face as you examined him. His chest was heaving and his hair was wild, as if he had pulled at it. His blue eyes were wild and scared and his hands were shaking slightly. You frowned as you noticed him clenching and unclenching his fists.

“Hey,” you said softly to grab his attention, “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, nothing,” he muttered while shaking his head, “I shouldn’t have called you.”

“Jason Lee Scott. A relationship only works if we tell each other things. You’re obviously upset about something and you’re going to tell me about it now.”

“It’s stupid, ok?”

“Nothing that scares you this much is stupid.” Your voice grew softer and you reached out to grasp his hands, “What can scare the Red Ranger this much?”

He sighed, taking a seat on his bed next to you.

“I had a nightmare that you died. I had to make sure you were safe,” he murmured, brushing some of your hair out of your eyes.

You squeezed his hands gently. The two of you had been dating for almost a year when the first ranger battle happened. You had gotten pinned under some metal and when the rangers helped with the clean up, they had found you barely awake and slowly bleeding out.

He had panicked and let his face mask fall away when he got to you. You may have been barely conscious, but you did remember seeing him. When you woke up in the hospital with his hand clutching yours, you immediately called him out on being a “bitch ass liar, study group my ass.” Since then, he was the “Team Dad” and you were “Team Mom”.

Jason was always protective of you but now it was more than ever. He told you once that he could never picture a world without you.

“You were under attack by putties and I tried to get to you but when I grabbed you, when I finally held you, you had no pulse.” His voice broke at the end of his sentence, right alongside your heart when you saw the desperation in his eyes.

“I’m here,” you hummed, “I’m here and I’m safe and I’m fine. I’m here in your room.”

You took his hand and raised it so you could press a kiss to his palm. Then, you lowered his hand to the side of your abdomen so it could brush along the scars the battle left you with.

“I’m here. I’m real,” you murmured, “I’m alive.”

He reached up and placed his hand over your heart. You wrapped your fingers around his own and the two of you sat there, feeling the steady beat of your heart.

He slowly moved closer, his lips brushing against your own. Like a magnet pulling you in, the two of you drew together. Normally, your kisses were chaste when at school or the occasional make out session during study breaks or the drawn out goodbye kisses, but none had ever been like this.

This kiss was sweet yet had a hint of longing and sadness underneath. It was a reassurement to him and a promise to you.

“I love you,” he said once you pulled apart, a hint of a smile playing at the edges of his lips.

“I love you too but I may kill you if I don’t get enough sleep,” you teased.

Finally, a smile broke across that beautiful face of his. You pulled him in for another kiss and then stood, going over towards his dresser. The second drawer down was just things that you had left at his house or purposely brought over. You looked back at him and motioned for him to turn around, which earned a smirk from him.

“Jase, I can protect myself. You know that, right?” you called as you slipped on some pajama pants and one of his shirts, “I’m decent.”

“I know and when I’m out of the suit I will let you deal with things until you tell me to step in. But when I’m in the suit, it’s serious. I’m not going to let you be in danger,” he protested.

You rolled your eyes but understood where he was coming from. With a nod, you moved over to scoot up onto the bed. You rested on the pillows and watched as he got up to turn the lights off.

“Your room is a mess,” you commented and he replied with an indignant snort of, “When have I had the time to clean?”

“I bet Captain America keeps his room clean.”

“Well, I’m not Captain America. Speaking of superheroes, are you wearing Red Ranger pajama bottoms?”

“…maybe.”

The room descended into darkness and you felt the bed shift under his weight as he crawled in beside you. You tugged on the blankets and he chuckled, pulling them up around the two of you. He wrapped an arm around your waist and brought you closer to him, a content hum slipping past your lips.

“My parents don’t even care when they find you in here anymore,” he said offhandedly.

“Yeah, well, that’s cause I do the dishes while you and Pearl watch TV,” you teased.

He pressed his lips to your forehead before yawning a “good night”.

“I love you, my knight in red armor,” you responded, nestling further into his arms. Maybe they were right, people in love do crazy and dumb stuff.

And you were one of those idiots.