Bucky x reader
Prompt: After falling in love, Bucky realizes that if he stays, she isn’t safe.
Warnings: None, just a bit short.
She haunted him.
This wasn’t what he intended to happen, not after swearing to himself that he would keep a low profile. Not after saying he could never fall in love.
She was here, in his mind everywhere he went. He remembered the way her hair spread across the pillows as they lay in bed together. He remembered her laugh, and the way her nose would scrunch up at every joke he managed to tell. He remembered her, her body. Her smile, her voice.
He tried to forget her, he really did. He tried to forget the way her hand would tenderly touch his cheek after he had nightmares, calming him instantly. He tried to forget the way her lips felt against his and how he thought they would stay together forever.
Of course, in his eyes he just wasn’t good enough.
It started gradually. At first he just wanted to be around her. He wanted to be in the same room while she laughed with their group of friends.
Then he wanted to be close, holding her hand or even having their legs touch softly on the couch of her apartment while they had beers in their hands.
Eventually, he had become entirely invested in her. Both emotionally and physically.
He felt emotionally drained when they didn’t see each other for a day, he felt nauseous without her. He wanted everything and anything he did to be with her. So, they moved in together.
His excitement couldn’t be contained as he and his best friend helped carry in his boxes. He felt genuinely happy for the first time in many years.
“You sure about this, Buck?” Steve asked with a wary expression. Bucky sighed happily, “Of course.”
He remembered one particular night with a sad smile on his face. The way his shirt slipped delicately over her shoulders after a shower shared between the two of them.
He remembered the specific taste of the pancakes she made, and the way her hips swayed softly to the music playing in the back round. The way his lips connected to her neck and her giggle before she realized the pancake was burning. The giggle turned into laughter as the normally golden cake was a sudden black.
The Winter Soldier shook his head trying to forget the happiness he once felt.
She fought for him. She screamed and cried, completely and utterly confused as to why he wanted to leave. “You don’t get to do this to me, James! You do not get to do this! Not now! Not after everything we’ve been through!”
Her hands hit his chest as he held back his tears, “I’m so sorry doll, so sorry.”
The yelling was the thing he remembered the most. He had to go, though. To keep her safe.
If only he had known about the little girl soon joining the woman he loved, then maybe he would have fought for her as well.