- You wake up. You lay in bed with that special beautiful person by your side, and you hold them against you, skin tight. You are shirtless, flat and comfortable with your body. You couldn’t be a happier person than you are right now.
- You wake up and put a shirt on, only a shirt. You haven’t owned a binder for many years now. You no longer have to layer yourself. You feel free.
- You can now wear those clothes you really liked in the shop. You bought them; they fit and suit you perfectly. No more baggy, ugly clothes.
- You look in the mirror and see your sharp jaw line, facial hair and adam’s apple. Your eyebrows are thick and your hairline is masculine. You smile, because you finally love and feel comfortable with the way you look. You feel attractive.
- You are walking down the street and the warm breeze hits your chest from underneath your shirt. You can feel the wind, it gives you shivers.
- You can stand up straight, run, swim and hike. You are no longer in pain. You enjoy being able to use your body and exercise to its potential.
- You can sleep over at another person’s house, hug, dance and cuddle without worrying about your binder.
- You speak in front of your family, friends and peers; your voice is deep and mellow, you feel confident. You are no longer afraid to speak, nowadays people can’t shut you up!
- Your family sends you birthday cards: “Son!” / “Brother!” / “Uncle!” / “Father!” - They accept you for who you are.
- You look down and touch your chest. You no longer find your body unnatural or misplaced. It is now what it was always meant to be.
- You use the men’s toilets and locker room. You no longer feel scared or paranoid, it’s just a toilet/locker room. It’s natural.
- You look at your birth certificate, ID and passport, it has “M” next to sex.
- The elderly neighbour asks, “How are you, son?”
- The shop keeper asks, “Would you like a bag with that, sir?”
- Your peers all refer to you as “He” and “Him”
Keep holding on. Transition is a slow and painful process, but you will see these things happen to you. Maybe not now, but they will come, and that is why you need to stay strong and keep pushing forward. You deserve happiness and to love your body, and you will as long as you keep going. Soon, I promise.
washing a binder when your parents don't know you have one
okay so you’re probably gonna want to wait until your parents aren’t home so they don’t get suspicious. I do this every Friday as my school finishes early and my dad is normally not home for another 20 minutes
1. fill a sink or bucket with cold soapy water
2. scrub the binder until it’s clean
3. rinse out all of the soap
4. either let the binder air dry slightly or pat it down with a towel until it’s not dripping anymore
5. leave it to dry completely. you can hang it on a coat hanger then put a shirt over the top so you can’t see the binder
handwritten physics notes from grade 11 🔭💫🌎 i wrote these notes during class (hence the post-its for additional info the teacher would mention here and there 😅) & i honestly enjoyed taking the class even though the tests were so difficult?? i guess that’s just me aaa
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so i can go swimming again
so i can actually wear the clothes i like
so i can go outside in summer without completely overheating
so i can take my top off
so i can be more comfortable in intimate relationships
so i can pass more
so i’m less embarrassed about my body
so i don’t have to crush myself in a binder every day (and night)
so i can look at my body in the mirror and begin to recognise myself
so my dysphoria can leave
so i can start to feel happy and comfortable in my own skin