hallstein  asked:

how long did it take for your toads to get used to your presence and just kind of hang out in the open like that?

I’ve had them for over 2 years now and honestly aside from Moontoad being a lousy hider they’ve only really gotten used to being in the open once I implemented the feeding rock- the big, flat stepping stone in their cage which has the light over it, on which I feed them on exclusively. After a few months of it they’ve started to associate the rock with food, and if they’re on the rock and I open the tank they all start scrambling around thinking its time for dinner even if I’m just watering the plants. 

Moontoad sits on the rock pretty much 24/7 so thats where her priorities are, but E-mail and PJ both love to hide, and I only really see them out like that when they’re hungry.

So the answer in short is, take advantage of their love of food, and hopefully they’ll come around!!

Opening the tab for a fanfic I intend to read is such a big step for me in terms of getting around to reading it; sure it might still take six months after it’s opened (…sorry, Kate) but progress is progress, right?

Life problems begin very soon.

Hello, everybody…

Soon, I’d need to take a big step towards my life. I need to pass my corrections and the bachelor…

… but the problem is that there is a chance that my family won’t really support me getting a job and a home/appartment to live in. I would propably need to do everything on my own.

This might ve propably the hardest time in entire life so far, getting a real job and a house to live in. 

Unfortunately the one room I rented for college, my family decided not to pay for it anymore, meaning I’d need to propaly save up my own earned money to do that…

I finally need to connect PayPal somehow with my bank account and do some commissions to get me out of here. Hopefully I can do that.

… otherwise I might be fucked… really hard…

… reality hurts a lot.

as mentioned previously, the boys met yesterday. [!!!]

my guy and i had a long conversation after the cope concert last week about our relationship & where things were going, and by the end of our talk he made it clear he was ready to take the next step and meet rhyan.

[back-story on the basketball: after seeing rhyan’s old/worn out one in my car, he commented on how he needed a new/legit/official one]

so i shouldn’t have been surprised when he showed up at our door yesterday with a shiny new ball in hand. introductions were made, we settled in to watch the acc championship and made small talk during the commercials. it was apparent from the start, there’d be no issue with their getting along … they immediately bonded over all things manly & guy-related.

after the game, we hit the basketball court to break in the new ball & show off our skills with the old one. we laughed, we poked fun at one another, and quickly eased into the groove. at one point, rhyan gave me a quick thumbs-up and whispered ‘he’s alright!’ [and yes, i melted]

we returned home to the smell of corn beef roasting in the oven, i put the meal together and we dove in. rhyan later commented on how strange it was to have a third person at the table, which was true … it’s always just been him and i. after dinner we stuffed ourselves with cheesecake and caught up on some dvr’d shows before saying our goodbyes.

i walked him to the car and thanked him for such an incredible day, and he quickly turned the tables – saying it was his absolute pleasure.

and in that moment, all was right in the world.


so. idk how these sorts of things are supposed to go? i’m not entirely sure what to say cause this is a lot of people i’m gonna be saying this to but. i guess i’ll just say it lol. i’m a trans guy

i’ve been just sort of identifying as agender for a while now, but agender never felt right and nonbinary never felt right either. i tried they/them pronouns for a while and they felt better than she/her but. still never really felt right. and i started getting real freaked out about possibly being trans so i just. told myself i was a girl and being called ‘she’ didn’t bug me but. it really bugs me. i’m a guy, i’ve always been a guy, it’s just taken me 22 years to figure this shit out

so i guess the reason why i’m making a Dramatic™ ass post about this is because i have a decent amount of followers and most of you guys know me by my birth name, c***y.

so. hey guys. i’m cole, my pronouns are he/him, and i’m a dude

Forgive Me...

I want to apologize.
For all the mischievous misdeeds and mistreatment in misleads,
I have struggled to confess.  Surely, conquered by the best,
But professed in a way when a hand relaxed itself on chest,
the beating of a breast bone wasn’t enough to include
the tones of an algorithm adding itself up for love to be shown.

I want to apologize.
The words one day will come out of your mouth and feel shame
when you stand before your spouse naked, unadorned apparel,
And the only thing you wear is the guilt from relationships past, 
That I fastened myself into like a buckle clicking from behind a wheel
Where steering became a thing from a laugh. We did laugh. We laughed a lot.
More than a thought, but an actual blot of ink smeared down and through
pages riddled like composition marble, only to find ourselves marveling at last.

I want to apologize.
One day when the sun sets and your hands are nestled in each others,
I will creep into your thoughts at that place and begin to make waste
To the sentiment of marriage, and my heart grieves this case. It probably
Has already happened, and since it has, I’ve saddened not because of me
Not grabbing hands, but simply because I was reckoned in thoughts.
It wasn’t me who bought the moment, but only a person who ruffled
the sheets on the throne that he should sit in.

I want to apologize.
For all the respect that comes from you is in confrontations out of the blue,
And I have mishandled your words from truth to lies, slightful vies,
Where I say, “Do you want the truth?” and you say “No,” yet cry.
I know, more than you think I do; where the caged bird sings behind bars,
Calling all cars, to a place that was charred; people fighting for freedom, and we did not.
Simply scathing the cage for a wage compensated to us from a trust that was
Formed out of lust, and those times have past. We were rewired, reborn,
reviled and we mourned. I know, and if I could just place my finger on your lips
to make you harken to silence, and show you a film over the beats of triumph, it would be this.

I want to redeem.
You would see on the silver screen, a film where two people were at their best,
Heaving chests and we ask ourselves where our love has gone. We are
stacked against when we see odds in perfection, a selection of crafty
expertise in sexually attracted sections. “I’d stay forever. I’d say I love you
Falling away, you realize what true love was, for the fear of letting go,
Was conquered by the love that lets us know what stays forever. And I am there,
Ruffled thrones, sunsets shows, marble notes, and subtle tones,
Creeping in places that don’t belong to me, but my promise was kept.

So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
—  Christopher McCandless
Moving day!

So, another chapter, another big step…Peter moved in this afternoon! 3 trips and no furniture (thank goodness) and the move is complete. So happy it’s a holiday weekend so we’ll have all day tomorrow and Monday to organize, rearrange, and get everything in order before the work week begins. So happy that I will get to fall asleep to him every night and wake up to him every morning :)

Hi all.

I am having a blogging time-out while I organize my thoughts during this semi-hectic-but-totally-awesome transitional period in my family’s life. In the last week the following has occurred:

  • My husband got a new job!
  • We all came down with the stomach flu :(
  • We found our dream home, signed a lease & are moving this weekend :-) :-) :-)
  • I spoke with a local modeling agency & I may be hopping on board within the next few months, eek!
  • Aaand I should just throw it in the mix that I have like, 5,384 loads of laundry to do ;-)

I will catch up with all of my tumblr/blogging friends very, very soon, and share all of the crazy-awesome shenanigans we are getting ourselves into. Ahhh! Can’t wait!

Hugs & all my love!
Southeast Missouri State University to offer 35 gender-neutral bathrooms
Rylan Flesch, a transgender student at the university, said the restroom change is "progress," adding that it "shows that the university cares."

Southeast Missouri State University is rolling out a plan to create 35 gender-neutral bathrooms around campus. It’s hopefully the first of many steps to make the school more inclusive and supportive of transgender students:

The LGBT Advisory Board hopes the bathroom effort will open doors for future changes around campus. One of its more recent projects is trying to get preferred names on student IDs and class rosters rather than using certain students’ birth names. […]

Eric Mahnken, former president of PRIDE and member of the LGBT Advisory Board, said the initial steps toward allowing preferred names on student IDs were positive; however, in the state of Missouri, student IDs are considered identification for voting, which requires the legal name. The project is still in progress. Another potential change for the future is gender-neutral housing, which Mahnken and Flesch said is their next big project.

Every single step matters. Good for Southeast. 

Piano Across America is undergoing some SERIOUS changes!

Just sold the big yellow truck today. Looking to downside the vehicle and make some big changes– LIFE Changes. This truck was my first car that I ever bought with my own money and I’ve had many great experiences during the 25,000 miles I’ve driven it. 

On top of all that, GET THIS: I’ve packed my bags and decided to randomly head over to New Orleans (one of my favorite cities). You wont believe how I got myself into this mess. Its really insane how life works itself out but I KNOW that I am meant to go down to experience Mardi Gras for the first time. And thats not the only reason why I’m going… I’m going to find an answer to my future. At least for a week.

Stay tuned. I’ll post a video with more details this week.

February 14, 2012