big sigh

I am afraid that my fathers
qualities are leaking into my chest.
I love a good book,
I got that from my mother.
But from my father I got his
unstable sleeping pattern and
his ability not to call back for
another three weeks.

Beloved parents, all of you,
may you never have to spend
your cigarette breaks speaking,
but not ever speaking.

Beloved parents, all of you,
may you wake up, come home
and go to bed happy;

until death do you part.

—  ”Parents.” - Jen.L

I’M NOT DONE. (listen.) (companion mix.) for all the self-made self-taught witches i’ve ever loved whose narrative screwed them over and made them small. for all the girls with too much power who could handle it just perfectly, and who lost anyway. for all the girls who swallowed the darkness and came back for all of it. for julia wicker. for bonnie bennett.

the sun (soap&skin) /// curbstop (meg meyers) /// we don’t eat (adventure club remix) (james vincent mcmorrow) /// beat and the pulse (austra) /// wishing he was dead (the like) /// army of me (björk) /// heard it all (emilie autumn) /// body below (mirah) /// save me (nicki minaj) /// lilith (susanne sundfør) /// i’m not done (fever ray)

come as you are to the canyon / music from laurel canyon [listen]

  1. People in the Valley - America (1975)
  2. Ladies of the Canyon - Joni Mitchell (1970)
  3. Carry On - Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young (1970)
  4. Rock & Roll Woman - Buffalo Springfield (1967)
  5. Dedicated to the One I Love - The Mamas & The Papas (1967)
  6. You Ain’t Going Nowhere - The Byrds (1968)
  7. Country Road - James Taylor (1970)
  8. A Child in These Hills - Jackson Browne (1972)
  9. Rock Me On the Water - Linda Ronstadt (1973)
  10. Farther Along - The Flying Burrito Brothers (1970) 
  11. Old Man - Neil Young (1972)
  12. Take it Easy - The Eagles (1972)
  13. Calico Lady - Poco (1969)
  14. Suite: Judy Blue Eyes - Crosby, Stills & Nash (1969)
PTSD Olivia turned into Rowan. She is very much NOT 'fine'. Sigh.