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“Spock’s goal now was to maintain his friendship with Jim. He could not let on how deep his caring for his former captain actually went, but if a friendship was all he was ever destined to have with Jim, then Spock would accept that and see that it flourished.”

This is my entry for the 2017 T’hy’la Big Bang Challenge! I drew fanart to go along with an AOS Spock/Kirk fanfic called Who Am I To Say, by a talented writer named Ivan. This is my first time participating in the Big Bang and I look forward to next year already. Don’t forget to go clap eyes on this year’s other incredible entries!

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TRANS (2:50 - 7:50)

MC: Hoya, what was your moment of treating your parents the worst?

MC: I dropped out of high school without my dad knowing and stopped talking to him for 8 years.

MC: You dropped out in order to become a singer?

HY: Yes. During middle school, I wanted to become a police officer. I studied a lot to go to the police academy. I’d wake up at dawn to receive tutoring and stay at the study room until the next dawn studying. So I studied hard but during winter vacation of my third year in middle school (T/N: 9th grade in USA), [CAP: Began worrying during puberty] I started wanting to become a singer. In high school, you know how we have night self-study? I didn’t have time to practice. So I thought about what it would be like to drop out but my father was so strict I couldn’t bring myself to tell him. So I just dropped out secretly. 

MC: So you dropped out first and told them afterward?

HY: Yes. So my mother was very shocked but I tried persuading her. I said I could get my GED and become a singer, so please trust me. My mother trusted me and gave her permission but-

MC: Your father was the problem.

HY: For two weeks, I pretended to go to school. 

MCs: Where’d you go? / Probably to practice.

HY: I went to a church by the mountains and practiced singing. Then I got caught by my father. I almost got hit by a baseball bat but I was a bit of an athlete so I blocked it. 

MCs: You should have just gotten hit / You should have avoided it (T/N: I guess they think blocking it would have made his father more mad)

HY: I didn’t get hurt too bad. Just here. Where it hurts less. 

MC: Has your relationship with your parents been bad since dropping out?

HY: We didn’t have a great relationship before either but it got worse. 

MC: If you had a chance at the police academy, that means you were good at studying. For him to see that kind of son suddenly drop out of high school…

MC: For a parent to hear that their child dropped out without telling them…

MC: Did you still not talk to your father after debuting?

HY: I don’t think I really contacted him. I only really saw him when I saw my entire family. 

MC: Didn’t you cry because of your father?

HY: Yes.

[Clip is from Immortal Song 2, where ALi sang “I Love You”]

MC: Did your father see that broadcast.

HY: Yes, and you know how you can see it online? My mother told me he watches it every night.

MC: Your relationship has gotten better right?

HY: A lot. We don’t talk to each other brightly but…

MC: Does your father drink a lot?

HY: Yes, a lot. He talks a lot when he drinks.

MC: Fathers can just say it when they’re sober but they always say it when they’re drunk.

Shin Bongsun: His mother must have suffered a lot, being caught in the middle. 

HY: Yes, my mother suffered a lot. 

MC: You hurt your mother’s heart over a first birthday picture? (T/N: first birthdays are usually a big celebration in Korea)

HY: When we were younger, I was looking through a photo album and saw that I had no pictures from my first birthday, but my older and younger brother did. I asked her why I was the only one who didn’t have one. My family was poor but they had one for my older brother since he was their firstborn. But I was born in the next year so they couldn’t have one for me. I jokingly asked my mom, “Why didn’t you have one for me?” and her expression became very dark. 

MC: Because she felt sorry for not being able to have one for you. 

HY: I almost ruined my relationship with my mom too. 

MC: It’s a sad story but there’s a strange humor in it.

MC: Do your remember when your toughest moments were?

HY: In middle school I came home from school but there were red tags everywhere (marking things to be confiscated to pay off debt) like in dramas. I was very shocked. Since I was young, if I wanted to eat something, to wear something, to buy something, my parents bought it for me. So I thought our family was pretty well off. But it turns out we had a lot of debt. So once I debuted and started making money I found out we owed a lot of debt. 

MC: You found out belatedly? And you paid it all off?

HY: Yes. 

MCs: You’re a really filial son / You’re amazing

(Then Moon Heejun says he had a similar experience and jokes that Hoya will be sitting next to him in 10 years xD)