big bon

8

countdown to yoongi’s birthday: D-1
ㅡ bon voyage

“It was healing. We spent a lot of time on the road. Ever since I was younger, I enjoyed taking buses and organising my thoughts while being on the move. It was nice to be able to do that again.”

3

“ So I kept taking the meds. And I don’t know what happened or when, but it was like a switch - flipped. 

It’s like I’ve been living inside somebody else’s body. 

Every pill I take I think it’s gonna be the last one, but it’s just the last one, and the last one, and the last one… ”

Rin is Bi

  • Rin wasn’t raised knowing about the different sexual orientations
  • Not that it mattered to Father Shiro Fujimoto if Rin turned out gay or straight or anything else 
  • Father Shiro Fujimoto just never thought to tell Rin about the differences and Rin never asked 
  • Rin always just seemed to be about girls from the very beginning 
  • so he left it at that 
  • Now Shiro’s gone 
  • and Rin’s in a totally new world
  • a world that’s dangerous and scary 
  • but he finds solace in his friends
  • Shiemi and Bon most specifically 
  • Rin knew from the get go that he really liked Shiemi 
  • she was so sweet and smol and innocent 
  • and he got the chance to save her 
  • and it felt really good
  • and when Rin met Bon - well the guy didn’t like him so why would Rin think twice about that guy 
  • well… things are different now 
  • him and Bon have gotten through a lot together 
  • Rin’s recently began noticing that when Bon gets close to him his heart speeds up and his cheeks get hot 
  • he just thought something was wrong with him 
  • so one night while he was laying in his bed, Yukio was sitting at his desk grading papers and Rin began talking 
  • Yukio listened to the ‘symptoms’ as Rin called them and leaned back in his seat, looking at his older brother 
  • “Nii-san. I think you might have a thing for Suguro-kun.” 
  • it took Rin a loooong second to process what Yukio said 
  • “What do you mean ‘a thing’? 
  • “I mean I think you might have a crush on him.” 
  • Rin felt like his heart stopped 
  • and everything got really confusing 
  • “Yukio that’s stupid. Bon’s a guy and besides that… there’s someone else I like. A girl! I can’t like a guy and a girl!” 
  • “And why not?” 
  • “Cause they’re two totally different things!” 
  • “Explain.” 
  • “One is female! She is sweet and quiet and nice and so so so so soooo cute! And then the other is Bon! A…big guy. With muscles and facial hair and…cool piercings. And he’s really strong and smart and stuff…. Not that she isn’t strong and smart in her own way! I just…” 
  • Yukio waited for Rin to continue but Rin laid in silence, his mouth open as he stared at the ceiling thinking about Ryuuji 
  • “Think about what you just said - and then come back to me.” Yukio chuckled, turning off the desk light and heading to bed 
  • the next day Rin sat next to Shiemi but kept ‘sneaking’ glances over to Ryuuji 
  • Bon caught the glances everytime…
  • (maybe cause he was staring at Rin too) 
  • after class Rin went to Shima - who would probably be an expert on this kind of thing (in Rin’s mind at least) 
  • “Shima - what does it mean when someone likes a guy and also like a girl?” 
  • “What? That means they’re bi.” 
  • Rin.exe has stopped working 
  • “What..?” 
  • “Bi. Okumura. You know what that is right?” 
  • “Yeah, of course! …Not.” 
  • “Its just when someone likes both genders. I guess that’s how you could explain it..” 
  • “Can a guy be bi?”
  • “Yes, most definitely.” 
  • “And girls can be bi?” 
  • “Absolutely.” 
  • “Shima… I think I’m bi.” 
  • Shima stopped and looked at Rin for just two seconds - just to make sure he was being serious 
  • and when he saw how nervous Rin looked?
  • he put his arm around Rin’s shoulders and grinned at the young man 
  • “That’s good for you Okumura! I’m glad you figured that out!” 
  • “Its no big deal?”
  • “Not at all Okumura, not at all.”