some days

Some days, it’s easy to forget. Some days, it’s easy to walk through familiar white halls, nodding to faces in those familiar uniform colors. It’s easy to look out the viewport at the stars going by, easy to turn in his chair to talk to his First Officer, easy to lean forward towards his Helmsman, easy to feel his CMO’s presence behind his left shoulder. Some days, it’s easy to pretend he doesn’t feel the -A painted on the hull of his ship like a brand on his heart. 

Some days, it’s not so easy. The leather of his seat is the same comfort it’s always been, but sometimes, when he sits just so, the material creaks and his old ship, his first love, flashes before his eyes. The hallways look the same, but sometimes he feels like the color is just off, and for a moment he’s back in the ruins of his beloved, running sideways along the wall. The uniforms are the same, but the faces are different, and sometimes he looks at one ensign and sees another, a memory. The ship is different, the crew is different, he’s different, but sometimes it’s too much. 

Some days, the ghost of the Enterprise sits too heavy on his heart. Spock tries to understand, but Jim knows he doesn’t quite get it. Neither does Bones, or Uhura, or Chekov, or Sulu, or Scotty - none of them really get it. On those days, he wonders about all the ghosts in his life. He thinks that, if his father hadn’t gone down with the Kelvin, that this is what it would feel like. He thinks that, if Pike hadn’t died in that antechamber at Headquarters, that he could soothe Jim’s soul with a comment and smile. 

And yet, in a flash, it’s gone. The ghosts are just that once again, and he can look at his new ship, his new family, without the filter of the one, the ones he lost. 

Some day, it won’t be hard to find the present.

Everything I loved about Star Trek Beyond

•The opening scene with Kirk and the aliens 

•"I ripped my shirt again.“ 

•The scene with Bones and Kirk drinking. 

•Kirk and Bones

•Kirk not flirting with anybody/being a womanizer 

•Sulu being gay 

•Sulu’s family 


•Kirk gazing lovingly up at Spock from the captain’s chair 

•The battle against the aliens 

•Bones and Spock getting on the turbolift together super badass 

•Bones and Spock going through the wrecked corridors together 

•Bones and Spock leaving on an escape pod together  

•Bones and Spock 

•Uhura kicking ass 

•Uhura risking her life to separate the saucer section 


•"Montgomery Scotty" 


•Kirk and Chekov sliding down the enterprise hull  

•Bones and Spock 


•”What’s your favorite color?" 

•Bones carrying Spock around 

•Bones being bothered that Spock was planning on leaving  

•Spock laughing 

•Spock insisting that he does "respect” Bones 

•Non sexualized Jaylah 

•Jaylah’s music 

•Scotty and Jaylah’s friendship 

•Uhura and Sulu’s friendship 

•"My innards feel like they’ve been to a barn dance.“ 

•Spock and Bones shared glance when Kirk says to Spock, "What would I do without you?" 

•"You gave your girlfriend radioactive jewelry?!” •"You gave your girlfriend a tracking device?!“ 

•"I’m glad you don’t respect me." 

•The motorcycle holograms 

•Kirk grabbing Jaylah’s hand midairwhilespining ashskdj 

•Scotty and Keenser’s reunion 

•I can fly anything 

•Sulu being badass 

•Spock wanting Bones to come with him 

•Spock and Bones  

•Jaylah’s "Let me do it!” Then Uhura’s “Let her do it!" 


•Sulu and Chekov tapping to the beat 

•Bones flying the alien ship 

•Spock being a "damn backseat driver." 


•Kirk’s birthday party 

•Jaylah being accepted into starfleet 

•Chekov flirting with everybody 

•Spock and Kirk 

•Everybody getting equal and quality screen time

•The main seven all saying "Space, the final frontier…" 

•The Rihanna song 

•The entire soundtrack 

•The space credits 


•Star Trek Beyond 

•The entire movie 

•In memory of Leonard Nimoy 

•For Anton