Don’t get lost, I tell myself. Just pick up your knees and push. Push a little bit farther, a little bit harder. Don’t push other’s it’s not nice. Don’t push your heart, it won’t heal as fast. Push deeper, though. You could love again.
Remember how lovely it is to be looked at like you’re brand new to someone? Remember looking at someone and feeling the wanting familiarity that comes with holding someone’s face lightly between your palms and kissing them. Above the right eyebrow, scattering kisses across the bridge of their nose. On to their lips. Taste. Remember feeling the hair on the back of their neck against your fingertips for the first time, your how their shoulders square off towards yours and you feel content?
Remember car rides? Well, imagine new ones, and they squeeze your knee, or take your hand and kiss the back near your knuckles. Think about reaching out and brushing the fingers of your left hand against their ear. Sit back, and trust them to drive you where you need to be.
Remember, not always where you must be, but where you need to be, a lookout, or the beach, or maybe just windows down with a good song on going around the block a couple times, or maybe just to the grocery store to pick up two ripe plums. Let the plum juice run down your fingers. Sit on the roof or hood or trunk of the car. Make sure your thigh brushes theirs. Kiss them.
Think about a kitchen table where you share your mornings, and maybe nights. Think about your legs and feet brushing theirs. Think about lazy morning kisses, hand holding. Hugs. Think about the new ones you’ll share. Push yourself to think new, not compare to old. Think about what will make their day better. Your day better. Your day collectively better.
Remember yoga at first, how you felt weak, detached, immovable, always trying to catch your breath? Well, that’s not you anymore, you are constantly focusing yourself for the next move, the next pose trusting that the sequence will play out, that eventually after deepening, lifting, trusting, a bit of a challenge you feel exhausted. Eventually you will lay still, quite, motionless, content.
Eventually love will come again, you’re deepening though, the way you think, feel, the way you exist. Always learn more, challenge more, live more. Don’t get lost. Push, baby. Push. Your effort, that your result only need to effect you. Make yourself proud. Hold yourself to your standard. Don’t brag, explain. Let your passion show your liveliness.
And don’t forget to savor the stretch, don’t forget to savor the kiss, don’t forget through the struggle, it’s a beautiful thing called existing. Revel at the moon, dance or run till your legs tire. Do deep, go fully. Trust yourself. Share that passion for the outer world with someone else. Don’t forget to fill every crack, crevice, hole in your heart… with affection, respect and love for yourself and the people who have made and continue to make you.
My attempt at yoga outside. These past few weeks seemed like hell, though today was lovely.. learning that you have to take things day by day…. “Bad days build better days,” And there’s a light at the end of this tunnel I’m sure.
second tag post due to my anxiousness tonight. thanks @scientificarum for the tag! <3
Rules: post the questions you answer, you don’t want people to be confused. answer the 11 questions i will ask at the end of the post, and then write down 11 more questions for the people you tag to answer. tag 11 more people!
1. What’s your favorite piece of clothing you own or owned? a light grey sweater
2. What’s your favorite drink? coke
3. What do you consider to be your best find? what do you mean :0 sorry i don’t understand this question
4. Are you usually early or late? …………….. late.
5. What are some small things that make your day better? yoga/ meditation
6. What would be your first question after waking up from being cryogenically frozen for 100 years? “What has happened since I was last awake” probably ahah
7. What age do you wish you could permanently be? i don’t know, i want to experience all ages
8. What’s your favorite genre of book or movie? oooh difficult question, I don’t know :/
9. What is the most annoying question that people ask you? “sorry lady, can we talk to you a little about religion?”…. facepalm
10. What is the most interesting place you’ve been? probably some palace or museum, I find every historical building very important and interesting
11. What do you hope never changes my young mentality
here are my questions: 1. When do you study best: morning, afternoon or night? 2. Who is your study inspiration person? 3.What is your main goal in school right now? 4. What do you do when you are demotivated? 5.What do you eat when you study? 6. What is your favorite study method? 7. What was your most embarrassing moment in school? 8. A lesson you learnt from a failure. 9. What is the best advice you would give to someone who wants to succeed in school? 10. Would you study even if you had no exams to do? 11. What do you like to do in study breaks?