reading this message made me sad, but i’m 500% sure you’ll be happier with a girl your own age than with a teenager. i’m happy i was able to help you make a positive change in your life.
while i’m glad you had a reality check, i’m also sorry it had to happen: speaking from personal experience, having to take a long look at yourself and not necessarily liking what you see is awful.
having the level of self-awareness that you can recognize your unhealthy behaviors and take steps to change them makes you a thousand times better than all of the men on here. i sincerely wish you the best in life.