best picture i could get by myself

if you’re a woman who’s attracted to women but you can’t see yourself marrying one, know that that feeling is so common and very often temporary. this is not to say that i know you better than you know yourself; maybe you just don’t want to get married and that’s ok. but very few women have grown up with the idea that they could marry another woman, and it’s hard to picture something for yourself that you’ve so rarely seen!

i couldn’t see myself marrying a woman for a long time, but i did and it’s the best thing i’ve ever done and the many messages i get telling me my blog has helped people picture themselves marrying other women tell me i’m not alone. know that whatever you end up wanting is okay, but don’t stress if there’s some aspect of loving women that doesn’t come to you with perfect ease. in a way we’re forging new cultural territory here. it’s only natural to feel a little lost without a map.

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there’s a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven’t thought of it yet // panic! at the disco

I want to be able to wake up early in the morning and be grateful for all that I have. I want to open my curtains, let the the sunshine spill through, and realize how good I actually have it. I want to enjoy every moment of the day. I want to be productive, I want to do useful things. I want to spent my time studying for my exams. I want to make a beautiful planner, colour coded, with inspirational quotes and all sorts of sketches and pictures. I want to read through my material, and make beautiful notes. I want to be satisfied with the grades I get, because school does not define my worth and I did the best I could.
But I also want to relax, I want to shower and use that expensive showergel I got for my bday, and after that I want to put on my favourite underwear and sing in my room with those on, dancing to my favourite music. I want to dress to impress - myself. I want to look good, I want to feel goed. I want to put time into making myself delicious meals - avocado sandwiches, fruit salads, strawberry smoothies - and I want to spent time with my friends, joking with them, laughing with them, talking about our favorite tv shows and movies. I want to be happy. I want to take care of myself. And just before I go to bed, after I’ve noticed how pretty the moon looks that night, I want to read and get lost in the stories of others. Then I want to sleep, deeply, without interruptions, so that I’ll be energized the next day. And if this does not work out today, that’s okay, because there are other nights to come and other days to appreciate.
—  All that I want. Note to myself - @studiesstudy

So. Official post of what @linneart did for me. I’ve been in a bad headspace lately and it’s unfortunately been slowly becoming a common thing lately. With everything that’s been happening, the death of my kitty cat was just a bit too much. I’m trying to stay positive. I’m trying to keep myself on a routine and keep myself busy. I can’t afford those dark thoughts and it’s getting to me. But. Because of things like the somewhat sked, friends, and things like this picture are helping me thru. The thoughts are always there and it’s kinda scary. New Years almost here. Hopefully things get better.

@linneart I really really REALLY appreciate the picture you did for me. It’s absolutely perfect and the best thing I could ever ask for. Thank you so much.

let me tell you about her, about how when i saw her with her freckles and hair that never stayed put - i had to have her. i thought that i could feel myself falling through the floor for her. like she’d removed the atmosphere.

when she laughed i felt myself unmake, a god moment where the universe stopped existing, where suddenly there was an explosion that never stopped expanding. 

i figured i could never have her. girls like that, and girls like me? we are tragedies. our life together is snuffed out before it exists. i lay awake, whispering what i would say to her, trying it out on the ceiling’s shadows. i told myself that it could never happen, and then pictured it happening anyway.

she looked at me and the summer opened up. we would get so close that our bodies almost touched, only for the moment to stop. best friends, i thought.

when i got too sad to function, she took me to her favorite hiding spot. a meadow where the flowers grew tall. we lay on a blanket, our hands almost touching, she asked, “if you could have anything in the world, what would it be?”

and i turned, keeping enough distance that she could pull away if she wanted, feeling everything scream at me that i didn’t deserve her. “i’ll say if you do.”

and i kissed her, finally, my hands shaking, the wildflowers by her head. it was like coming home again. it was the moment everything goes silent. it was the hush of the wind. it was magic. i stopped as soon as i realized what i was doing.

i looked down at her, at the girl i had fallen for, at what i had just ruined. i felt myself panic.

she grabbed me and pulled me closer, kissed me so deep i felt bells ring in my soul that had been silent for too long. she pulled back only a little to say, “i want this,” her breath barely a whisper, her lips so pink they matched her blush and my heart racing so hard that i thought an earthquake was in my blood.

“this,” she said, “and this, and this, and a forever of us together.”

Exes Ask Each Other Questions:  BaekYeol

Who are you seeing now?

Chanyeol: Kyungsoo

Baekhyun: Sehun

What do you cherish about our time as a couple?

Baekyeol: I think what I miss the most is the times where we would just look into each others eyes and it was like I would get lost in such beautiful eyes

Chanyeol: I really miss the habit you have of taking pictures everywhere we went 

Would you guys mind sharing your favorite memory together?

Chanyeol: For me I have no favorite memory, because every hour I spent with him was wonderful 

Baekhyun: I feel the same way you do, we were both so close and spending time with him was the best thing I could do

Who would you blame for the break up?

Chanyeol: Well we aren’t perfect but if I were yo blame someone it would be myself.

Baekhyun: Really?

Chanyeol: Yes, because i know I made so many mistakes, I probably pushed you to the limit and I thought you got sick of me.

Baekhyun: I would blame it on myself since I was the one who ended up cheating well if we can call it cheating

Do you guys ever regret breaking up?

Baekhyun: Everyday, I mean I adore Sehun but no one up to now has made me love like Chanyeol.

Chanyeol: I thought I was over it but apparently im not of course I regret it.

Any last thing you want to say to each other?

Chanyeol: Well I guess this made me realize I still love you.

Baekhyun: I still love you too Chanyeol.

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Behold! Vogue-o! (And the blame for that name falls entirely on @cheesyturtle )

One thing I like to do in Gravity Rush is to try to use photo mode to make the characters look their best. So I challenged myself to take the most flattering pictures of Vogo I could, since I’m fond of the guy and he always looks like such a derp.

I rather like these, but if Fi looks uncomfortable getting his picture taken, then Vogo looks SUPER uncomfortable getting his picture taken. Poor guy.

missshelbyelise submitted: 

 Starting picture: Around 250

In progress picture: Around 200

I am still a work in progress, but I have come a long way in the last 6 months. When my world started spinning faster than I could stand, I handled it by working on and bettering myself. There were no special tricks or diets used, just healthy eating and being active. The best way to be. I still have more work to do, but looking at pictures like this is what keeps me going!

Get Motivated with more Before and After weight loss pictures  or  SUBMIT  

Since my hands are itching for more edits, here goes another fruit of my labor. This will be used to promote my blog again and again until I get tired. It could also work as a sample for those who wants to request some photo editing for their blogs. Be it known that I am not that expert in this aspect but I try my best to learn new skills.

For requests, IM me. And nope, I don’t make icons. I could just edit pictures from people or myself.
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I’m going to try my best to clear out my request queue ASAP, including my Kiss memes, while I work on a commission and other projects I promised others/myself to complete before starting new ones. So I’m not taking in new Kiss memes at current, I’m sorry. There are also a couple headcanon prompts I was given, I’ll get to that in a bit.

I am extremely amused that the same meme number was requested for Joe on for two different pairs from two different people, so how could I not combine them in the same picture? ;) Interpret the two panels as you so wish.

For therealmofgonzabas and penguinqueen423, as well as supporters for the pairs elsewhere in the fandom. I know you’re out there. Joe/Don and Joe/Kaiser seem to be pretty popular.

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I called for Wonder Woman to test WedjLok’s train track. And Wonder Woman picked up Laserskater. She should have given the controls to him, because she missed a switch and had to try again when entering the Taeniatum station. It should have been easy because the  green switch light was so bright that it turned everything green. The best part was the final turn. I could not get a picture because it happened so fast, but the automatic track switched them into reverse right before they careened over the edge of the platform. I am going to try it myself tomorrow.

http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Taeniatum/138/109/90

i literally could not be a celebrity because at some point in my career somebody would hate me for something that wasn’t true and i would not be able to sleep until i was best friends with that person so i’d have to write them a 10 page letter detailing why they were mistaken and then my publicist would find out and get mad at me and i just couldn’t deal with the pressure of my publicist being mad at me because i picture myself having a middle aged, motherly publicist and i want to make her proud

so this is the best picture i could get by myself, it’s kind of an awkward angle to take a photo, but…

i’d been considering an MCR tattoo for years and years and the moment i finally thought seriously about it, this streetlamp was the first thing that popped into my head. and when i drew it it just seemed to fit so well. the lyrics [Demolition Lovers] go, as lead rains pass on through, our phantoms, forever, and ever… but i just felt ‘our phantoms, forever’ described the relationship i’ve always had with MCR. and to be stupidly honest, this tattoo at this time in my life is one of the only things keeping me going.

my sidenote is that when i first designed it i wrote next to the sketch, “I feel like it’s everything we’ve ever been together; alone on a street corner; an idea in the dark. Somehow it’s everything they’ve ever been to me; a light, guiding me to no particular place, just there when I see it. Beside me, within me and ourselves, together.”

so yep!! there. done by Mat Park at Stingray in Allston, MA. he’s super gr8 and i’m so fucking happy with this i might be dead.

day three of my art journal! I have a bunch of scars on my arms and although I can’t take back what I did to myself, i have learnt to grow from it. Become stronger. I thought it’d be cool if I could show that and so I tried. It’s not really the best or the neatest but it means a lot to me. I used this fabric I’ve had for ages and use a sponge to get some green colour on there, and then I just used a picture of my arms, traced over the visible scars and added the flowers, and used one of my favourite quotes. I may re-do this page sometime tbh but that’s it for now

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Because progress pictures don’t need befores and afters, have four photos of me feeling really bloody good about myself.

In the past few weeks my face and body and general image probably hasn’t changed very much at all, but in the past pew weeks I feel like I’ve probably made the best progress I ever have within my recovery. Two years since hospital. One year since I decided getting healthy was for me. A few weeks since I realised what full recovery could actually give me.

I’m never going to be the best, skinniest, prettiest, [insert superlative adjective here], person in the world but I’m always going to be me. People will come and go (some I hope will stick around for a little longer than other (some already have)) and they’ll change the way I think and feel and act. They’ll be the most important people in my life and hopefully make me a better person as a whole.

I’m still not sure what this summer has in store for me but I’m hopeful it’s going to be one of the best ones yet and I’m determined that food isn’t going to get in the way of that.

Thank you for sticking with me when I’ve been hopeless and quiet and absent and trying to focus on other parts of my life.

All my love. xx

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taylorswift COULD YOU SEE ME FROM THE STAGE?

hahaha I’ve found myself in many pictures and many friends sent me these pictures saying they could see me from far away! LOL

I had SO MUCH FUN last night! THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE!

You killed it, I love you!

ps: I’m sorry I lack on collage skills, but i think these did the job hahaha

taylorswift

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I am so proud of Demetria Devonne Lovato. Thank you so mush for inspiring and helping a lot of teenagers. Thank you for not being afraid to speak up your story.You helped others and inspired others to ask for help and get a help. Without you some people won’t be here today.thank you For letting us know all the truth.thank you for being honest with us.there was not a day off when you have not helped me.your smile,your music,your pictures,your singing Is the reason why I believe in myself And the reason why I could come to the mirror and say I am beautiful and I worth the best.You proved that loving yourself is the most important thing in whole world. You are the reason why so many people don’t afraid to change their hair or change their style, many people are afraid because a lot of people judge them.you taught us that it’s okay to ask for help.you proved us what is like to be real person.you opened lovato scholarship program to help people with mental illnesses,that’s big thing to be proud. Every speech on your concert makes me more and more confident and make my soul more beautiful,with every speech,with every word I become stronger. Thank you,Demi.you have changed my life to better side,I couldn’t thank you enough..you gave me second life.i love you so much.Happy Lovatic Day ❤️❤️❤️

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I was tagged by @hannaoliviaway to post 6 pictures of me from this year.

2015 was a year that changed my life. Through planning a wedding, being in my best friends wedding, getting married, going to Ireland, getting a new job, and joining a new church, there’s no way I could exit 2015 as the same person I went in as. I’ve been searching within myself to recognize this new identity and get to know her well.
It has not been easy, but it’s been tears and laughter, strength and weakness, joy and fear. Cheers to all of it.

I tag @quiteyours, @erinelizakelley, @yesdarlingido, @cattedrali and @notentirelyauthentic.