best book

you don’t know who you’re going end up with, get married to, have two kids with. you can never know but that shouldn’t stop you from imagining a beautiful future, one where you have someone who loves you. i like to imagine mine with you in it and a beautiful house with a rooftop so we can throw dinner parties around this time every year. i like to imagine waking up to you and rolling over to kiss you every morning despite my embarrassing morning breath. i like to imagine how we will end up together.

//nikitagupta

all i could think of was your body against mine. not in a very sexual way but in a protective kind of way. i could think of your arms and how they would hold me tightly so i’d be warm. i could think of your legs which would cling to mine so i wont get away sneakily. i could think of your lips breathing out air slowly over mine so i could remember every second im not alone. all i could think of was how i would sleep like a baby in your arms unaware of the troubles that await me.

//nikitagupta

i used to see my parents fight even as a young girl hiding under my blanket. and i would always wonder why my mother simply never walk out of that door. it was all so ironical from the eyes of a ten year old because my mother would always remind me to stand up for myself. but now i get why she stayed because walking out on someone you love is easy but staying and fighting for what you believe in is harder.

lessons my mother taught me//nikitagupta

Kaz leaned back. “What’s the easiest way to steal a man’s wallet?”
“Knife to the throat?” asked Inej.
“Gun to the back?” said Jesper.
“Poison in his cup?” suggested Nina.
“You’re all horrible,” said Matthias.

Six of Crows