For those of you who’ve been to DisneyWorld before you may know that in Magic Kingdom at night they have a show called “wishes” and it’s actually really cute and there’s singing and it’s just magical. My boyfriend has me close my eyes and make a wish (apparently that’s what you’re supposed to do…this was my first time in Disney) and I do and I opened them and he was down on one knee and asked me to marry him! Best. Trip. Ever! We just hit the four year mark in our relationship and I’m so happy that he’s asked me to spend the rest of my life with him! We don’t plan on getting married for a few years…time to plan, get settled, get our lives together…but it’s still such a happy time for us. I couldn’t imagine being happier!

He proposed with an Elsa (from Frozen) inspired engagement ring that is GORGEOUS but plans on getting a more practical one soon! I love the Elsa one, I haven’t taken it off. When I met her and Anna I almost hyperventilated!

Anyways, this was WAYYYY longer than I had expected, I just wanted all my friends on here to know that we’re engaged! There’s a picture of the ring on my instagram @bowtikii

I've never been so hurt in my life.

Ben and I broke up. No warning, nothing. He did it over text and he doesn’t wanna talk or see me. I’m breaking down. Two and a half years gone. GONE. And he doesn’t even seem to care. This isn’t like him and it’s really weird. I’m not sure if he’s hiding something or if I did something. He won’t tell me anything. I’m in so much heartbreak I don’t know what to do. I can barely see. I can’t breathe. I’m crying so much. I know he’s just a boy, but he’s MY boy. And I love him. He said I pushed him away but this was SO sudden. He won’t even meet me to talk in person for five minutes…I know the more I text him the more annoyed he gets but I can’t believe it’s over.

I can’t do this anymore. Bye guys.

Tonight was A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.!

I’ll spare you all the boring details and just get to the cutest part of the night. Ben didn’t know my face had burns all over it and so when he picked me up I kept covering my face. They look REALLY bad and it’s really embarrassing. So he kept trying to move my hand to kiss me (no, we’re not dating but sometimes we kiss…shhh) and I wouldn’t let him. So he forced it down and his eyes got all big and he had this little freak out and asked what happened and hugged me a bazillion times and it was soooo cute. And I was telling him how embarrassed I was and how hideous I looked and he grabbed my face, kissed me and told me I was beautiful.

Ok, I have the sweetest best friend in the world and I hope he knows I love him.

After an amazing day of hugging and kissing and cuddling and smiling...

He doesn’t text me good morning this morning. Which I can look past, maybe he was in a hurry or forgot. BUT then he texts me on his break and says “Hey we gotta talk…” and of course I said “Ok what’s up?” Then I said “Babe?” and he didn’t text me for another 30 minutes and he said “After work. :)”

I’M SO CONFUSED. You don’t mix “We gotta talk” and “:)” together! I don’t know if I should be worried or what, but I am.

I responded “Is it bad?” I just wanted a yes or a no just so I could stop worrying if it’s a no…and if it was a yes, I don’t know what I’d do. But I’d like to know. AHHHH.

Ok, getting off for a bit to think. Byeeee :)