it is as you say: the world keeps turning,
everyone keeps on living,
the wheel constantly in motion.
everything is clockwork,
night fades and morning draws in
and i still can’t help thinking
about everything yet to come.
we are strung by ideals and ideas,
pushed along by hopes
and dreams and often kept awake
by fears dressed as nightmares.
i haven’t figured out the things
i thought i would have by now;
my hand shakes, i’m always anxious.
my mother doesn’t sleep at night,
her wrinkles stretched by worry.
my father, the healthiest person i know
and a newly minted cardiac patient,
has given his heart to hold up this roof.
they say immigrants suck the country dry,
but i’ve lived twenty four years watching
it suck the life out of my parents
as they shrink with age and ailment.
at least i’m educated, they tell me,
that makes their sacrifices worth it
somehow. but despite all of this,
all i really know is that i will never know
how they willingly gave up everything
for so little in return.
nav k || too many hospital visits, rarely any good news
Hi! :) Please tell me about Bangla and why you are learning it and how it is going and more! And what kind of language is it? (My language knowledge is very limited to only indo-european languages but I'd love to know more about other language branches too!)
Well hello there! Thanks for your curiosity and interest!
Bangla is an Indo-European language–it’s actually one of the most widely spoken Indo-European languages (by native speakers). It’s derived from Sanskrit and it’s native to the Bengal region of the Indian subcontinent and is the official language of Bangladesh, which is the country I’m originally from.
I moved to the States when I was a baby, so while Bangla is chronologically my first language, I’m really bad at it now. I speak a mix of Bangla and English at home with my parents (with more English than Bangla lmao) and the other Bengali adults in my life, and I can read it a little, but I can’t really write. Also, my speaking skills are super basic, and so outside of very basic casual conversation, my comprehension is kind of limited.
If you talk to anyone in Bangladesh, it’s pretty normal to insert English words in conversation. So, while I have a horrible American accent and use more English than anyone else, my language isn’t too out of place when I go to visit, and so I haven’t been pushed too terribly hard to learn it better.
My main motivation for trying so hard to learn it now is, to be honest, that I’m trying to get out of my school’s language requirement. I just don’t have time in my schedule to take more language courses, and while I was taking Japanese this past year, I wasn’t able to put enough time into it. If I can learn Bangla, which I already speak, and have some professor from another institution who knows Bengali administer a test and write a letter to my school, the language requirement will be waived, so I’ll have more time to focus on my math and physics courses.
I do really want to learn Bangla for myself, though–it’s something I’ve been wanting to do for basically my whole life, and I keep starting and abandoning it, but I’m excited to be working on it now.
Anyway, the textbook I’m using right now is Teach Yourself Bengali by William Radice (I googled course syllabuses for Bengali courses at other institutions and this one was mentioned in one of them), so I found it online and I’m hoping it’s good. I’m also using books we have at home. Right now, I’m trying to get the script/letters down, and I’m going to try reading children’s books and collections of short stories that we have at home.
I might change the URL later, but I think I’m gonna use @goruchagol as my blog for Bangla stuff. Feel free to follow it if you’re curious to see my future progress, but it’s empty right now.