“You messed me up pretty bad. The worst part is we were never actually together. Pathetic right? A game you were good at was: lying. Lying about everything. Everything that ever came out of your mouth was a lie.
From the first day it all started, you lied. You said you cared when you didn’t. You said you wanted to see that you were glad I came, but all you really wanted was to get rid of me. Which leaves me in the confusion of why you would even do that in the first place? Why did you make me believe I was special. You made me think I was beautiful even when I couldn’t see it. You never really thought those things. You just did them to make me fall, just hard enough so that when you decided you’d had enough, it would kill me inside.
When that day came, after weeks of not knowing why you were pushing me away, you decided you’d had enough. You’d had enough of lying to me, and you’d had enough of using me for a temporary situation. At 2am I got your text: ” I found a girl and I’m happy" I found out that your situation, that ‘girl’ was your ex. You know the one that hurt you and that you’d tell me bout? Yeah her. I felt my chest cave in and I felt as though the dark of the night was spinning around me. I had never felt so used in my life. You needed your distraction from her and you got it. You got me for almost a year. Enough time to hurt me and enough time for you to go back to her. I hated myself for being so foolish and blind. But i guess that what love does: it makes you dumb and blind.
Today you’re back with her even after all she did. You fucked me up so bad and i didn’t know just how much until now. Every guy that talks to me I ignore and push away. I don’t ever question if someone is interested in me anymore because I’m afraid they’ll turn out like you in the end: A pathetic liar in need of a temporary distraction as an excuse. I’m still pissed dat you for ruining my trust in anyone. I’m pissed about wasting over a year trying to get over you. And I’m over you now but i don’t think I’ll ever be over what you did. To this day I still don’t fully understand why you did this to me and the worst part, is i don’t even think you realize what you did. That’s the worst part of it all.“
So I saw a post a minute ago about how ‘not every girl is beautiful because if you had to choose one, one would clearly be more beautiful.’ Well, that made me angry, because truly EVERY girl and person IS beautiful. For example the exact definition of beautiful from dictionary.com:
having beauty; possessing qualities that give great pleasure or satisfaction to see, hear, think about,etc.; delighting the senses or mind: a beautiful dress; a beautiful speech.
So, from this it says not only is outter beauty considered beautiful but so is INNER BEAUTY because beauty isn’t just defined by how you look, but also by what you say, what you think, how they act, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL BASED ON WHO YOU ARE, NOT WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE. So please stop saying you aren’t beautiful, because you are.
and believe me, you'll never EVER be irrelevant to us. my daughter idolises you, btw. She's seven years old and she's now comfortable with wearing her glasses because she sees pictures of you wearing them. :)) she says you're very pretty and the most nicest person ever. well, second to my mother who spoils her with gifts every time she visits haha.
Okay, now I legitimately started crying. Oh my god. Please give her a massive hug for me, she sounds absolutely adorable. And hell yes, glasses are the bomb!
Honestly, this has been the most amazing message I have ever gotten. Thank you so so much for this. You’re amazing and so is your daughter <3
The physical ache your body feels when you miss the person you love is endless. I can never seem to get rid of this feeling. Not that it’s necessarily a bad thing. It is just a constant reminder that I’m not with you, when all I want to do is be with you. I want to be there when you’re sad and in pain so I can hold you in my arms and reassure you that everything is going to be okay and that tomorrow is a new day. You amaze me on how good you are at staying positive and keeping your head up above the water, but sometimes it’s all too much and you feel like you are going to drown. But I wouldn’t let you. You’d rest on my shoulders so I could hold you up. All you would have to do is breathe. I want to be there on the good days when you are overjoyed and we have life to celebrate together. I would buy you a chicken quesadilla, smores poptarts, and a coke then take you to the beach where we could just lay in the sand and listen to the waves crash. I remember last time we were at the beach I asked you what superpower you would want if you could have any. You threw the question back at me and I jokingly said that when I snapped my fingers that a burger would appear. Haha But I’m here to tell you that if I could have any superpower it would be to absorb all the physical, emotional, and mental pain you are feeling at any given moment in your life and put it on my shoulders. I want you to be happy and stress free. I want you to enjoy life to its fullest. Lately we have been having more bad days than good days, but it won’t last forever. The future is bright for the both of us. The distance we have between us can be super hard some nights when all we want to do is be wrapped up in eachothers arms, but I honestly believe it’s going to make us stronger as a couple. We just have to remember that it is not always going to be like this. Just know that I am always going to be there for you whenever you need me. With everything that life throws your way I am going to be right there by your side with endless support and love. I admire you in so many ways and I am so grateful to have you in my life. I can’t stress enough how special and precious you are to me. You truly deserve the world and endless happiness. There is honestly no better feeling than going through life “one day at a time” with the one you love by your side and for me it will always be YOU.
It was only always me.
I had no filters
I had no guards
The last time
I sang my desires
You said I was beautiful
You made me believe
I didn’t believe
Now I understand
What it means
To dance with wolves
Dressed dashingly as sheep.
You have such a kind, generous soul, Zaza. You give so much love and gentleness to the world. You're a flower in bloom, putting smiles on people's face with your existence. I speak for all your followers when I say: Thank You, Zaza. Thank you for all that you do for us. Your kindness reaches us all and spreads positivity and light. You should be proud, you've made a difference in this world <3
oh goodness turtledove, that msg is unbelievably rad. i can hardly believe tht you feel all those beautiful things about me. thank you feels so paltry in comparison, but THANK YOU all the same. i am blown away by you dove. :DDD