believe me when i say that

Man, Attack On Titan’s character and thematic writing really is underrated.

I see almost nothing picking the characters apart (outside my bubble of Tumblr, at least), when to me it’s the most interesting part of the story.

I don’t think the horror would work if the characters didn’t have these human reactions. If everyone were a badass like Levi you wouldn’t believe in their threat. It’s really the tragedy element of a character’s human flaws and desires getting the best of them.

Eren’s mother’s death is so effective because she is so human. Because she isn’t a infallible source of hope. She’s just another human being who breaks when her family is taken away. If that weren’t there, I don’t think the scene would be nearly as powerful.

Imagine if Gelgar didn’t really have the drinking problem?

If the Levi squad never admitted their mistake?

If Ymir had no motivation of living for herself or Historia her predicament of having given a false name?

If Mikasa didn’t have everyone she loves constantly taken away?

If Eren and Armin didn’t have their shared dream of freedom or putting an end and giving a meaning to all the deaths that happen?

The characters all have human desires, but within a cruel and unfeeling world.

The world is unfair and our characters fight so it no longer would be unfair, this is why I think I care, at least.

Would you really care if these characters weren’t shown to be feeling these things? It’s not that the Titans are this overwhelming threat that makes this story effective, it’s that they turn a blind eye to feelings. The Titans could be no matter what size or shape, but their threat wouldn’t be real if it didn’t mean anything to the characters and thus the audience. We hate the Titans because they make the world unfair and cold (just as we hate Marley because they make the world unfair and cold).

The idea that rational badass who does nothing wrong = good character is such an annoying thing for AoT for this reason and would absolutely ruin the series.

Fisherman’s Knot Chapter 17

[Ao3]

[Title Songs]

[Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5][Chapter 6] [Chapter 7] [Chapter 8] [Chapter 9] [Chapter 10] [Chapter 11] [Chapter 12] [Chapter 13][Chapter 14] [Chapter 15] [Chapter 16]

Warnings for abuse and also a lot of internalized victim-blaming.

Thanks as always to @thesnadger for beta-ing, thanks to @marypsue for helping me work out some plot snarls, and thanks to all of you for your readership, comments, and patience.


The Devil And The Deep Blue Sea

Ford’s breath caught in his throat. His mind reeled, searching for an excuse, a bluff, anything to get them back on track. Stan could have managed it. Perhaps under different circumstances Ford could have too. If that smile wasn’t so familiar. If the grip on his wrists wasn’t so tight. But try as he might, his mind remained blank.

“I … don’t know what you mean,” he said.  His tone hovered somewhere between confusion and bravado. It wouldn’t fool anyone.

He should have brought a weapon. Something to remember for next time, if there was one. Note to self: don’t listen to children who complain about how a high-caliber plasma blaster would ruin the outline of his suit.

“Tell me, Stanford,” said Doctor Smith. “Do I look like an idiot?”

“No?” Ford replied. You look like a triangle, he thought, and almost giggled at how absurd that would sound if he said it.

“Really?” Doctor Smith straightened up and stood back, crossing his arms. “Then how did you expect me to fall for your transparent little scheme? Did you think I wouldn’t suspect?”

“I … suspect what?” said Ford. He could feel his heart picking up, a drumbeat of terror slicing straight through him. Did he know? Did he suspect? If he knew where Nuala’s skin was truly hidden … if Stan was in danger—

“I knew what you were here for from the beginning. You wanted to steal Sarah away from me!”

“That’s preposterous!” Ford blustered, hoping that he could pass the quaver in his voice off as anger. “Now unhand me or I—”

Doctor Smith laughed, and it was cultured and germane and terrible as his situation was Ford felt himself breathing easier. It wasn’t a cackle. It wasn’t like—he almost thought “his Bill” and felt the bile rise at the back of his throat. It wasn’t like Bill Cipher. This was just a man. No more powerful than him.

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BROTHERS (Underfell comic)

The End

Wow. I can’t actually believe I did it. But yeah, here it is : the end of my first webcomic. 
That was a so good experience ! 52 pages, almost a year, and when I look at the first pages I’m like “wow, that was ugly”  That comic allowed me to improve my drawing skills a lot, and to discover fantastic people.
I don’t really know what to say now. Just, thanks a lot everyone. Thanks for reading that, thanks for supporting me, thanks for the likes and the reblogs, thanks for bringing so much happiness in my life.
At first, I wanted to redraw the first pages. But you know what ? I’ll let them just the way they are. So you can see it is possible to progress, and to remind me where I come from.
Now, I don’t really know. Next year I’ll be in a school where I won’t have a lot of free time. I’ll try to draw, and I want to keep drawing the new comic Mistake, even if it’s just a page every two monthes. Now that I did Brothers, I can’t imagine not drawing a comic. And after Mistake, maybe something else, who knows …
Drawing a new comic about BATIM doesn’t mean I leave the Undertale fandom ^^ I’ll keep drawing things about my lil sanses …
Well, I think that’s all. Thanks again for everything ^^

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me when someone says they “dont really like beethoven 6 as much as the others” even tho they are entitled to their opinions but i still believe it is the purest composition on the face of this planet

A RANT

another one.   I was looking at pictures,  tribute stuff for chris cornell on you tube.    and people are posting “well he’s burning in hell because of suicide”

give me a break.

first,  what poor taste.  

second,  I don’t believe that any God would condemn a person to hell, when they are hurting and do commit.   I just don’t.   they were saying well chris was Catholic (actually he was greek orthodox) and blah blah.  I was raised Catholic and there is NOTHING in the Bible about that.  NOTHING.

even heard that from a Catholic priest.

people, you all need to shut your yaps.

a man is gone.   a son, husband, father,  friend, brother.   people are hurting.

they don’‘t need to hear from you, with your hurtful comments.

damn, if this doesn’t remind me of kurt’s death.   and all the

“he was just a junkie” comments.

God give me strength.

anonymous asked:

I can't believe a year has already passed since FINAGLC ended, damn. Even though my love for undertale has mostly faded, I still find myself reminiscing on how damn good of a fic it is. Literally no other piece of literature had me feeling so involved with the plot, characters, writing, etc. Anyway, just wanna say thank you so much. You're an amazing writer, and a good sport when it comes to dealing with fans. Sorry for the long message oops. Hope you have a great day/week/year!

Time flies! That’s really sweet of you to say, especially being done with the fandom. Thank you! :D

anonymous asked:

is it bad to hate when people say to always love and appreciate your mom bc of all shes done for you? bc whenever i see things like that i feel super guilty bc my mom is lowkey super abusive and none of my friends believe me and they all think that my mom is super nice. is it bad to feel guilting about not loving ur mom?

no! i hate that too. those people are awful, they havent a clue what youve been through, what she’s done to you. tell those people to fuck right off.

redwingstaz82  asked:

Congrats on sending out your invites, J! That must make you guys even more excited about the wedding, yeah? I just wanted to say hi and see how things with you have been lately, and as always, I appreciate you and am always happy to communicate with you when I catch your asks open. 😊❤💛💚💙💜

Oh totally! I’m super excited: every day I’m just so grateful to wake up next to this amazing woman, I can’t believe she’s with… me. I’m so fucking lucky, so like… celebrating that with people we love? 

Yeah, I’m hella excited <3 <3 <3 

Why Spoilers Make Me Happy!

Good morning Everyone and Happy Sunday!

So this will be short and sweet today.

***Warning: This is based on spoilers posted on the spoiler site, so if you don’t like knowing spoilers, just skip this one. I’ll put the actual theory under a read more so those who don’t like spoilers won’t see it. You’ve been warned!***

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When I was a teenager my mom used to use “masculine” to chide me and “feminine” as a reward. If I was wearing a flannel and jeans and had my hair in a braid, she’d scowl and say “Are you sure you want to go to school looking so masculine?” If I got dressed up in women’s clothes and put my hair down for church, she’d smile and say, “It’s so nice to see you look feminine for a change!”

That messes you up like you wouldn’t believe when all you want is to feel comfortable in your own skin.

anonymous asked:

I wish I had your faith in Camren still, I'm losing mine. I'm also losing faith in the ot5 we saw at the end, I think it was only happening because Dinah made sure it did. I don't think the girls were actually friends with Camila anymore, Dinah a little. I think when Camila says that she isn't in contact with the girls, she reached out, it didn't go well, I believe her. She doesn't seem nervous to me when people bring up the girls, she seems sad. My ot5 Camren heart is so broken. 💔

Its okay munchkin. I have enough faith for the both of us. Come here…😌

Originally posted by yesilliniz

I’d say the most difficult part in game development (or any original project in particular) for me is motivation and faith in my strengths.

When everybody have been telling you “Haha loser you won’t succeed you don’t have money/talent/literally anything give up” your whole entire life, believing in yourself gets…pretty hard you know.

anonymous asked:

Man, I'm not a fan of KS either but you are completely 100% right, IMO. As long as things are tagged, there shouldn't be an issue. (Well I guess it's more difficult for those on mobile, but still.) Stay strong.

Indeed. There may be several reasons for why Killing Stalking specifically is frowned upon, and believe me when I say that I understand entirely why that is. However, the reasons for each individual reader’s interest in it are personal, and I should not have to explain my life story to justify my reasons to a stranger online, simply because I see potential in something they personally do not.

I will not dictate what others are allowed to enjoy (or not necessarily enjoy), and I will not judge others based on what they read/watch/play/etc. I do not know them personally. It is not my place to say how and why they indulge in what they do. What matters is whether they do their part to ensure that others have the choice not to indulge in it as well, by tagging and such.

And lastly, I thank you for your kind message.

EXCLUSIVE: Incorrigible rocker declares ‘Trust me, she’s a fair piece, mate’

HE FAMOUSLY sang about how Maggie May stole his heart – and now Rod Stewart has revealed that Theresa May has the same effect on him.

In an exclusive – if politically incorrect – interview with The Mail on Sunday’s Event magazine today, the veteran rocker describes the Prime Minister as a ‘fair piece’ with a great pair of legs.

Sir Rod, 72, says: ‘She’s a fair piece, mate. She does show a bit of leg, which I like. I’ve seen a picture of her when she was at Oxford and I’m telling you, she was a fair piece. Trust me, I know about these things.’

He insists his admiration for Mrs May extends to her personality too. The thricemarried singer says: ‘She seems genuine. She’s believable. I was reading about how in love she was with her husband when they first met, and that it was genuine love. I liked that, it’s human.’

Sir Rod, who had a 1977 hit with Hot Legs, is also a fan of Mrs May’s policies, explaining that ‘she sounds like a Prime Minister’ – but he pours scorn on Jeremy Corbyn’s ‘last-minute bloody pledges… I’ve heard it all before’.

The hardest thing is when you don’t want to, but you have to. It’s like you have to break your own heart. Like you have to take away your own happiness. It’s doing the worst thing that could ever happen to yourself, because you have to. So believe me when I say, I never wanted to leave you.
—  P.G.G ; jxd

anonymous asked:

i know you meant well when you said 30 isnt ancient, but im nb so my life expectancy is actually 30 :(

Hey anon, I’m so sorry that that’s a fear you’ve had to live with. I know that trans people are at greater risk of violence and suicide, and I’ve heard people say many times that the life expectancy of trans people (or trans women, or trans women of color, depending on who you ask) is anywhere from 23 to 35. Your ask troubled me, so I’ve dug deep looking for solid evidence of any of these, and I don’t believe that these statistics are true.

A trans woman, Helen, looked into the “23 years” claim and traced it back to someone’s notes on two workshops at a 2007 conference, which stated that trans people’s life expectancy is “believed to be around 23” (emphasis mine) but cites no actual source. This claim has been presented as fact in many news articles since then, but as far as I can tell, no one seems to know where this figure came from.

Another claim is often sourced to an Argentine psychologist quoted in this NPR article

Psychologist Graciela Balestra, who works closely with the transgender community, says it’s an especially vulnerable population.

“Transgender people have an average life expectancy of about 30 to 32 years,” Balestra says. “They don’t live any longer; I think that statistic alone says so much.”

But again, the article gives no source for this figure

I found an article claiming that a 2014 report by the Inter-American Commission on Human Rights (IACHR) “concludes the average life expectancy of trans people in the Western Hemisphere is between 30-35 years.” However, when I tracked down the report, An Overview of Violence Against LGBTI Persons (pdf), its only reference to this is (emphasis mine): “[T]he IACHR has received information that the life expectancy of trans women in the Americas is between 30 and 35 years of age.” Again, this is no source.

Someone said on my post that these statistics may have come from the NCTE/NGLTF report Injustice at Every Turn (pdf), but I can’t find any reference to any such claim in the report.

Thinking about these claims, they seem unlikely for some basic reasons. Consider that we simply don’t have a long enough span of data on trans people, and that what data we do have is extremely limited because we can’t always know who is trans and who isn’t. Consider also that, although obviously the murder rates for trans people are extremely high, the number of deaths of 20-something trans people would have to be ENORMOUS to offset the existence of older trans people and bring the average down to 30. Especially since, unlike with racial groups for example, the data on trans people would likely include almost no childhood deaths, simply because it would be much more difficult (and in many cases impossible) to identify these children as trans. And since we know that trans women of color are extremely disproportionately affected by violence, statistics that include white people and/or trans men would be especially unlikely to be so low.

And as to your specific situation anon, again given that trans women of color are most at risk, I don’t think we have reason to believe that being non-binary specifically puts a person at anywhere near this level of increased risk of dying young.

I don’t say any of this to question anyone’s experiences or to deny the state of emergency that trans women face with regard to violence. That is very real. But I think it can be harmful, even dangerous to trans people to spread claims like this around, especially without evidence. Expecting to die by 30 would take an extreme emotional toll on anyone, and trans people deserve better.

But don’t take my word for it: FORGE, a national transgender anti-violence organization that works with trans survivors of sexual assault, wrote the following in its 2016 publication “First Do No Harm: 8 Tips for Addressing Violence Against Transgender and Gender Non-Binary People” (pdf) (I have moved two footnotes into the main text and provided links to some endnote sources; italicized emphasis is theirs while bold is mine.): 

Promote Hope for the Future

It certainly is not the same as a murder, but publicizing a low “life expectancy” rate for transwomen of color is another way to steal away their future, a “crime” that has been committed repeatedly by trans, LGBQ, and mainstream press. Think about the people you know or have heard of who have been diagnosed with a fatal illness and given a short time to live: how many of them have enrolled in college, undertaken lengthy training for a new occupation, had a new child, or tried to establish a new non-profit? A few do, certainly, but many more focus on their bucket list, arrange for their good-byes, or simply give up entirely, essentially relinquishing whatever time they have left to depression and regrets. When we tell transwomen of color they cannot expect to live very long, we rob them of hope. We rob them of any motivation to invest in themselves, their relationships, and their communities. We rob them, in short, of their lives even while they are still living. (This statement in no way negates the need to systemically work to improve and increase the life expectancy of trans people through working to end transphobia, racism, poverty, pervasive violence, and health and healthcare inequities, and more.)

One trans woman of color was trying to come to grips with an estimated lifespan figure more than ten years shorter than the one that has been published most often. (We are not repeating any of the (incorrect) estimated lifetime figures that are circulating, to avoid even inadvertent reinforcement.) Faced with the report of yet another attack on another trans woman, she wrote:

These days, I look at the latest reports of stabbed, shot, beaten trans women, search myself for tears, and I cannot find a thing. I want to mourn and rage. I want to honor all of our sisters — the hundreds each year who are ripped, namelessly and without fanfare, from this life — who are taken so young before their time. But the grief and anger — even empathy — do not come. I don’t feel anything but numbness and fatigue, and somewhere far below that, fear.

The terrible irony of the life expectancy “fact” is that it is based on an impossibility. The only ways to determine a given population’s life expectancy are to: examine decades or more of death certificates or census data containing the information being studied, or follow a specific set of individuals for around 100 years and record every single death. There is not and never has been a census of transgender people. Our death certificates do not mark us as transgender. There has been no 100-year-long study of a representative group of trans people. So where are the estimated lifespan figures coming from?

FORGE tracked the most commonly-cited figure back to what was most likely the 2014 Philadelphia Transgender Health Conference, where a workshop presenter gave the figure and explained she had calculated it by averaging the age of death for all of those listed on the Transgender Day of Remembrance (TDOR) website. This means the figure is actually the average age of those trans people who were both murdered and came to the attention of someone who added them to the TDOR list. Interestingly, this average is very close to the average age of everyone who is murdered in the U.S., according to the U.S. Department of Justice statistics. [I’m not seeing an average age given in the cited source but you can see on page 5 of this Bureau of Justice Statistics report (pdf) that the average age of homicide victims in the U.S. was between 30 and 35 from 1980 to 2008.]

But not everyone is murdered.

Despite how many there may appear to be, only a tiny, tiny fraction of transpeople are killed by other people. Most of us, transwomen of color included, live average lifespans and die of the most common U.S. killers — heart disease, cancer, chronic lower respiratory disease, and unintentional injuries (accidents).

Please don’t add to fear and hopelessness by spreading inaccurate and profoundly disempowering data.

Since I can’t respond to everyone directly, I’m @ing some people who’ve brought this up on my post and may be interested: (urls removed after posting for their privacy). I appreciate your thoughtfulness in bringing this to my attention. If you or anyone else has a source on any of these figures that can provide specific methodology, I’d be very grateful to see that.

In closing, here are some resources that provide a more hopeful view of trans aging. They are well known but I hope they will be helpful to someone.