Truth is, I don’t think you ever find that concrete answer that you’re looking for. There’s no letter of confirmation, no phone call, nothing. There’s nothing that will tell you 100% that this is your sexual orientation full stop. Rather, and like most things in life, you don’t know, you just believe. You believe in your heart that this is who you are, you believe that the feelings you have are that of attraction, you believe that this label is right for you. Sure, some of us have it more figured out than others but at the end of the day we’re all just people on this one big planet trying to figure it out the best we can. Beliefs change, feelings change, and that’s okay. But for now, if it gives you any comfort or freedom from feeling detached from who you are, just believe that this is true. Don’t worry if what you believe turns out not to be the truth, it’s really not the end of the world. Bottom line is, you don’t have to know who you are because there is no way of knowing 100%, people surprise us, even ourselves sometimes, and that’s completely okay. But with this mindset, you’ll realise that to question your sexuality to begin with, you believed you felt a certain way that perhaps indicated you’re not straight.
Faith is a state of openness or trust. To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don’t grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float. And the attitude of faith is the very opposite of clinging to belief, of holding on. In other words, a person who is fanatic in matters of religion, and clings to certain ideas about the nature of God and the universe, becomes a person who has no faith at all. Instead they are holding tight. But the attitude of faith is to let go, and become open to truth, whatever it might turn out to be.