I’ve always been taken aback by the accusation that “reylos are just closeted self-inserting straight girls” and here’s why: I’ve never projected myself onto Rey. I can’t project myself onto Rey. Rey is who I wish I were. Kylo Ren ? Kylo Ren is who I actually am.
I remember watching the infamous bridge scene and getting teary eyed as he was getting teary eyed. Then he delivered the even more infamous “I’m being torn apart” line and I was bawling.
I may not know what it’s like being a magical space warlord, but I know what it’s like being torn apart, begging to be free of this pain and feeling like it’s too late, like you’re beyond help.
I wish I were Rey, but I’m not. I’m Kylo Ren.