before i expire

this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’
‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’
‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’
‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’
‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’
‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’
‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’
‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’
‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’
‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’
‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’
‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’
‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’
‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’
‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’
‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’
‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’
‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’
‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’
‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’
‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’
‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’
‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’
‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’
‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’
‘  please don’t go.  ’
‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’
‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’
‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’
‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’
‘  there is absolutely nothing  &  no one who can stop me.  ’
‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’
‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’
‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’
‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’
‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’
‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’
‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’
‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’
‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’
‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’
‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’
‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’
‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’
‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’
‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’
‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’
‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’
‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’
‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’
‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’
‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’
‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’
‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’
‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’
‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’
‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’
‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’
‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’
‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’
‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’
‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’
‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’
‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’
‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’
‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’
‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’
‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’
‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’
‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’
‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’
‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’
‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’
‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’
‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’
‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’
‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’
‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’
‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’
‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’
‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’
‘  would you even miss me?  ’
‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’
‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’
‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’
‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’
‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’
‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’
‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’
‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’
‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’
‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’
‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’
‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’
‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’
‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’
‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’
‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’
‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’


Royai Week Recap

Because why not mooch off last week? XD

  1. Chess- A collaboration between the ever-amazing @the-flame-and-hawks-eye and myself :3
  2. Black Tie
  3. Catalyst
  4. Promise (slightly nsfw)
  5. Letters
  6. Light/Darkness (very nsfw)- now complete with fic by the absolutely wonderful @tea-withjamandbread!!
  7. Incendiary

Thank you guys for all the love and I can’t wait to finish catching up on everything I missed!

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i met the love of my life yesterday and im dead

when my friend Claire (the girl on the right in the second photo) walked up first, he shook her hand for a while and was just like “hi” and she stopped him and was like “why are we shaking hands for so long” and he was like “I don’t know, why not?” and she just replied with “we should stop” (not a huge marvel fan, but she waited in line for me)

so then i walked up behind her and he turned to me, started shaking my hand and was like:

spider-man: “hi”

me: “hi” *awkwardly laughs*

spider-man: “how are you”

me: “i’m great” *dies inside*

cast member: “she’s a big fan, huh?”

spider-man: “yep, big fan”

me: *laughs and dies again cause they just knew I was in love with spooderman*

he shook my hand for a good twenty seconds and i’ve never felt so shook


so yeah that was my day yesterday how was everyone else

Vacation Packing Timeline and Tips!

Hey guys! I’ve gotten a few questions about planning outfits for vacations, as well as packing. I thought I would share my “Vacation Packing Timeline” as well as a few tips and tricks I’ve discovered over the years that just make packing and traveling so much easier. My spring break is in one week, therefore over the past few weeks I have been preparing my clothes, bags, and myself for the trip! These are just a few things that I find helpful during packing/travel!

Preparing/Packing Timeline 

  • Two weeks before a trip: I like to use an app (Stylebook is my favorite; about $3 on the app store, but so worth it) to plan out my outfits that I will be taking on a trip. My general rule is to pack by outfit, not by piece, therefore I will plan specific outfits and save them to the app! I also like to pack things that I can pair 2-3 different ways, that way if I change my mind when I arrive at my destination, I have another way to wear an outfit and it wasn’t a total waste to bring it! For example, pack a top that can be worn with white jeans/regular jeans as well as shorts, but also can be paired with different shoes and jewelry to change the outfit from day to night! Of course there are a few exceptions to this rule…that super cute going out dress and pair of heels…but generally I try to follow it. 
  • One week before a trip: This is when I like to lay my clothes out! I push all my clothes to one end of my closet, and hang the clothes I plan on brining all in one section on the other side, therefore I can see all together how many outfits I’m bringing, if something is too similar, and if something can be paired a few different ways! This is also the time where I look at all my clothes and see if anything needs to be washed, sent to the dry cleaners, or ironed! This takes a lot of time out of packing, that way when I begin to fill my suitcase I know everything is clean and crisp; I don’t have to take time out of packing to clean/iron anything. 
  • One week before a trip: This is also the time where I like to start to pamper myself to ensure I look my best on the trip! I workout year round, but if you don’t, you might want to start a week or two before your trip just to flush out your body and make sure your face is clear and bright! I make sure to eat extra healthy this week, drink tons of water, and spend more time treating myself! I’ll whiten my teeth, use a face mask, exfoliate my skin, wax my eyebrows, get my nails done, and get a spray tan!
  • Five days before a trip: This is when I like to pair my jewelry with my outfits; I tend to always overpack jewelry and find that I don’t even end up wearing half of it! I pick 3-4 necklaces, 3-4 pairs of earrings, and 2-3 bracelets that can go with most, if not all outfits so that I minimize luggage space. This can also be done right from the beginning (or at the packing stage) to avoid an extra step and an extra days work, but I just love packing so much that I don’t mind having something to do each day haha. 
  • Three days before a trip: I like to grab my suitcase out of the garage and make sure I have all the bags I need to pack. Even when I’m not flying I just find it easier to pack everything in one huge suitcase instead of taking a few different bags. I may look funny with a giant suitcase pulling up to my friends house for the weekend, but for me, it’s just so much easier to have everything organized in one place. You can never go wrong with one giant suitcase that fits all your clothes, shoes, hair tools, makeup, accessories, bags, etc.! 
  • Two days before a trip: I begin to pack. I like packing at this point because if I find that I need to run to the store because I forgot something, then I have the time to do it. This reduces so much stress and anxiety for me because then I know I have absolutely everything I need and I’m not running around like a crazy person. This is also when I like to do my laundry that way I have clean pajamas, socks, t-shirts, and other things for the trip. 
  • One day before a trip: This is when I finalize packing. I lay out the outfit I plan on wearing the next day, and finish up my suitcase. Rolling your clothes into a suitcase really does save so much space, unless it is a thick or heavier item. Therefore I lay my jeans, jackets, and sweaters flat, then roll everything else! I will also fill up my travel size containers with shampoo/conditioner, face wash, face lotion, body lotion, etc. I store everything in gallon Ziploc bags because I’m paranoid that something will leak! While I’m doing this I will be checking off items on a packing list I made (because I’m crazy and an outfit planning app isn’t enough) just to make sure I don’t forget anything! Also, I will go through my pantry and fridge and throw out any food that will expire before I come back. I’ll pack a few snacks to have on the way to my destination. If I’m just going to a friends house or my parents house I’ll also pack a small cooler with the foods that are going to expire soon, but that I don’t want to throw out (fruits, veggies, sandwich stuff, milk, etc.). I’ll also clean my apartment and do the dishes so that when I come back from a trip everything is nice and clean so I can just relax after traveling.  

These tips may not work for everyone. However, I find that by taking a few minutes out of each day to check off these tasks I never forget anything while traveling and am so much more relaxed. I am a very organized person and love to take a little time out of each day to accomplish these tasks. I love packing and traveling, so this is fun for me. If you’re one of the people who isn’t obsessed with planning and packing, maybe just follow tips 2 and 7 ;) Hope this was helpful!

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I went everywhere! I went absolutely everywhere!

                                              ✘Continuation of this

                                                ✘@fallenwillpower


✘✘ “ᴏᴏᴏʜ ᴀ ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴇʀ ᴏʀ ꜰ ɪ ᴠ ᴇ ʜᴀꜱ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ꜱʟɪɢʜᴛ ᴄᴀꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ɴᴀʀᴄɪꜱꜱɪꜱᴍ. ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴ’ ɪ’ᴍ ꜱᴜʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴀ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴇʀ’ ᴛᴡᴏ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ.” His words are snappy and irate, brow creasing.

anonymous asked:

yo there's a bunch of shirtless dancing Colton videos on @/adrieebug on Instagram, wanted to make sure you knew cause they could be rlly cute in your au. there's only like 4 hours left before they expire

Bruh. I don’t miss these things. I gotchu.

The Iron Chef

In honor of Iron Bull Appreciation Month, and because yesterday was my anniversary and therefore I’m still feeling schmoopy, I’m reposting this bit of tooth rotting fluff. This takes place at some unspecified time in my (now rather defunct) Cabaret!AU-verse, but you don’t need to know anything more than Dorian is a belly dancer.


The Iron Bull was… baking. Dorian blinked at him, watching the mercenary maneuver his way around his spacious kitchen with a surprising amount of grace. Dorian rubbed his hands over sleep crusted eyes, attempting to ensure he was actually awake and that he wasn’t seeing some strange fade apparition.

No, Bull was still there, humming to himself as he leaned over and pulled a muffin tin out of the oven, wearing nothing but black pajama pants (printed with flying nugs of all things) and a lace trimmed pink gingham apron. He had massive oven mitts over his hands, also in pink. The remains of his baking efforts were neatly stacked in the sink, rinsed and waiting to be loaded into the dishwasher.

Dorian was still recovering from the sight of Bull looking like he had walked out of some kind of deranged cooking show, when the smell hit him. Whatever he was smelling, it was sinful - sweet and rich and mixed with the intoxicating aroma of the coffee that Bull had already brewed. Dorian’s stomach rumbled and his mouth watered enough that he was seriously concerned he might drool.

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