I’ve reached a point where I’ve given up on black men. My entire life the main contributors to my self hate has been black men cause of how dark I am. It so bad to the point that when I talk one I can’t look them in the face cause I’m scared of what he may think of me. My self esteem was destroyed before I even knew what self esteem was. I support black men completely but I can’t find myself to date one, no matter how much I like him. I wish I didn’t care so much of what black men think of me..