before and after pregnancy

anonymous asked:

Beyoncé, the biggest artist rn, was able to hide her pregnancy until she wanted to announce it?? Wow shocked

lol, pharrell williams had TRIPLETS in January and announced it like yesterday, he went through two months of promo for his song and film for Hidden Figures which included interviews, red carpets and performance, and not a single question was asked. Eva Mendes and Ryan Gosling hid an entire pregnancy and birth and nobody knew anything before after 2 months from the birth. Louis is just unlucky, I swear. 

touka appreciation

i want to talk about just how incredible touka is, making herself eat human food just for her child.

touka, at the moment, is paralleling ukina, as ukina ate human meat for her child’s sake, the same as which touka is eating human food for her child. however, the difference is that humans can eat human meat. it’s sickening, but we can digest it, whilst ghouls can’t digest human food. eating human food for ghouls is not okay, because of the enzymes they have and their different structure of tongue. eating human food weakens them, even to the extent where normal weapons, such as knives and forks, could harm the ghoul. to add to this, eating human food makes them feel like they’re gonna vomit. 

touka is going this far for her child. the next nine months are going to be agonising for her, she might even die because of how much her body will be weakened. she’s putting herself at so much risk, even a normal human could kill her. she’s willing to put herself in such a state, to weaken herself this much just for her and kaneki’s child. 

but because of this, kaneki’s has further aims as the one eyed king. before hand, he only was the king because 1) it was a sense of duty left behind by eto and arima 2) for his friends, who are mostly ghouls. these were his reasons before hand, he wasn’t really passionate about it at all. but after touka’s pregnancy and touka herself, he’s managed to have his own reasons to be the king. he’s thinking to the future, to the point where he won’t kill any human, weakening himself to the point where he might not even be able to use his kagune. he’s not killing anyone so that when this ends, the possibility of another ccg emerging will be really low, because no one would want revenge on the ghouls. he’s going this far because of his child + touka. 

not only this, buT touka spent so so long waiting for him to come home. not even that, she didn’t even desire anything in return, all she wanted was for him to be safe. when tsukiyama says that they should bring haise’s memories back, touka declines because she doesn’t want kaneki back in the ghoul world. she went this far for him, even though she only knew him for around the two months he was in anteiku and the other six or so months when he left. sure this can be seen as obsessive or whatever, but that can be discussed for another time. 

of course, being with touka doesn’t mean kaneki’s completely okay, that the years of abuse and everything afterwards is erased. not at all, but it cannot be denied that touka has had a great influence on kaneki. remember back in the arc where they were to save hinami (think it was called the cochlea raid? i don’t remember the name of it) but she tells him that she’ll ‘see him later’. he replies with, ‘you’re a cruel one, touka,’. this is because that he’s decided that he’ll be the sacrificial pawn for them, that he really does want to die, but then touka says this, making him get a small desire for more. it also means that he can always go back to :re. people tend to forget that touka trained kaneki, and although she was harsh to him, the only reason he survived up to the aogiri arc was because of her.

she’s going so far for her child, even though it means her own life will be threatened. i admire her bravery so so much, because the next nine months or so of her life is gonna be fucking hell.

The 5 biggest lies/misconceptions about the pro-life movement:

1. That we’re filled with old, white, republican men. Not that there’s anything wrong with old, white, republican men but our movement is filled with such a diverse group of people, of all ages, race, creed, and political backgrounds.

2. That we care more about the child than the mother. We care equally for both and only want what’s best for both mother and child. We see the wrongness of abortion and how horribly it can possibly effect the mother while always harming the child. There are better options available and some “choices” should never be legal or made.

3. That we are anti-women or misogynistic. This is such a broad and completely baseless assumption. There are actual pro-life feminists in our movement. Women also make up a good, large portion of our movement as well. Let’s not forget that gendercide amongst unborn females is something that is going on right now as we speak. Abortion has allowed sexism against females to flourish in countries such as China, India, and even our own. Our position on abortion has nothing to do with some “hatred” against women and everything to do with the fact that abortion unjustly takes the life of an innocent human being.

4. That pro-life arguments stem from religious beliefs. There are currently 6 million secular, agnostic, and atheist pro-life Americans right now. This is a huge and ever growing number. I, myself, am an atheist pro-life female and I don’t need religion to tell me that ending life is wrong. Actually, most arguments against abortion that I’ve ever read are completely secular and make no mention of religion at all.

Science tells us that life begins at conception, it also tells us that once egg and sperm unite a new human with it’s own set of unique DNA is now in existence and growing.

5. That once the child is born we stop caring. The pro-life movement doesn’t just want to protect the mother and child from abortion but also improve the quality of life and make sure every basic need is met before, during, and after pregnancy. We do this by donating our time or money to charities, becoming sidewalk counselors, volunteering at CPCs, etc. I’ve even seen the pro-life tumblr community come together and support pregnant mothers in need through donations. It just wouldn’t make sense for someone to be pro-life but be insensitive towards a new mother in desperate need of support.

Being pro-life doesn’t just mean caring for unborn life, it means caring for ALL life in every stage.

Impossible

This is an attempt to find my Muse.  I’m going to take a nap now.  Wake me if you find the little stinker, will you?

Basically, writing is hard and I’m giving up on this weekend as a lost attempt at it.

Impossible

Rated - M undertones

He remembers the feeling of his last “I love you,” the soft, broken way he’d said it, the surge of emotion behind the words.  He remembers that last kiss, the regret and remorse that had flavored it as his dreams for a life with her came to an end.  He remembers feeling the fine strands of gossamer hope that had bound them together stretching taut, finally snapping when he had pulled himself away and urged her to “go on” without him.

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anonymous asked:

Can we get some pregnant Mercy mood swing shenanigans with Genji present? He deals with them most after all.

“And…you are sure you are well?” said Genji.

Mercy sighed, exasperated, “Yes, Genji, I’m fine.”

“All right,” said Genji, “So you just want me to leave you to continue eating that block of cheese while crying?”

“Yes,” Mercy’s voice cracked.

—-

“Genji, I’m glad you’ve patched things up with your brother, but I swear the next time he brings up dragons in reference to my stomach, then pacifism and hippocratic oath be damned, I’m punching him in the face.”

“I—” Genji glanced up from the scattered crib parts on the floor, “Did something happen?”

“’The dragon stirs within you,’” Mercy imitated Hanzo’s deep timbre.

“Ah…” Genji awkwardly rubbed the back his neck, “Yes.. well…he does that.”

—-

“Dinner’s ready,” said Genji. 

“Mm,” Mercy was frowning between several different paint swatches on the wall.

“So…how is the nesting coming along?” said Genji, leaning against the doorway.

Mercy scoffed. “I am not ‘nesting.’”

“You’re nesting,” said Genji.

“I can stop at any time,” said Mercy, “Maybe you can help me.” She gestured at the paint swatches on the wall. “Meadow and sunbeam,” she pointed at two swatches on the left, “Or Pistachio and creme?”

Genji glanced between the two. The paint shades were practically identical. “Uh…”

“Genji, your visor lets you see a much wider spectrum of colors than most people. It’s not that hard,” said Mercy, folding her arms.

“Meadow,” Genji blurted out, pointing to one.

“That’s pistachio,” said Mercy, her brow furrowing.

“…yes?” said Genji.

Mercy sighed and massaged her temples. 

“I like pink,” said Genji, glancing back at the color swatches, “We’re not even considering pink?”

Mercy shook her head. “Pink is… cloying. Green is supposed to relax, and yellow is supposed to encourage happiness and creativity.”

“Well…I… trust your judgment,” said Genji.

“I asked for your help in this, not to just default to my judgment,” said Mercy, frowning. She caught herself and then ran a hand through her hair and sighed. “I don’t know why I’m letting myself get so worked up about this. This is–Well it started out fun and now it’s—” she pressed the heels of her hands to her forehead and then leaned against the wall with the color swatches and slumped down to the floor. Genji took a seat next to her. 

“…How long have you been at this?” 

“Well I mean, it was mostly just cleaning my old file boxes out of here, then cleaning out that closet, then vacuuming this rug–which we are definitely replacing by the way–and then I took a break to eat and when I was done the room was clear enough so that I thought it was a good time to look at color swatches and,” Mercy glanced at her comm, “Mein gott it’s been 9 hours,” her voice filled with a quiet horror. She moaned and slumped against Genji. “Auch du scheisse–I’m nesting.

“Nooo, you can stop at any time,” said Genji, playfully elbowing her.

“Don’t make fun of me,” she said, her voice half-muffled into his shoulder. She sighed and looked up at him. “I was supposed to take it easy today,” she murmured, “I’m not supposed to be like this! I–I’m supposed to be in control.”

“You’re in control,” Genji mindlessly played with her her hair. “I think we both know you have a tendency to overwork,” he said with a slight chuckle, but he glanced up at the room, “To be honest I had hoped we would be doing this together.”

“Oh–” Mercy sat up, “It hadn’t even occurred to me–I should have–You were on a mission, and I thought it would take my mind off of things—”

“It’s fine–It’s fine,” Genji put his hands on her shoulders and then leaned his head against hers, “You’re doing fine.”

They sat there for a while before Genji remembered dinner was waiting for them in the kitchen. “Come on,” he rose to his feet and held a hand out to her, “Let’s get some food.”

Mercy took his hand and he helped her to her feet. She walked out of the room and he stood in the doorway briefly. “A little pink wouldn’t hurt,” he said, mostly to himself before following after her.

Finn Balor - Prompt #2

Prompt: “Hey, hey, calm down. They can’t hurt you anymore.”
Requested: by @ambrosegirlforever
Warnings: Body issue
Words: 1400+
y/d/n: your daughter’s name

“You nervous?” your husband Finn asked as you pulled up to the arena for Monday night Raw. You were returning to in-ring competition after nearly 3 years. You fell pregnant just before your wedding to Finn when you were at the height of your career. WWE kept you while you were pregnant getting you to be an ambassador and a commentator on NXT and 205. After you had y/d/n, you had 6 months off tv before you took over Talking Smack, Raw Talk and Pay-per-view kick off shows. 

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anonymous asked:

Ever since I was a little kid I've always wanted to have kids and I've wanted to be the one that carries them. However, I also am genderfluid (afab) and I want to go on t to help with dysphoria. I've heard that people can freeze their eggs but even then would I be able to become pregnant using in vitro fertilization?

Charlie says:

yes, possibly.  Everyone’s body is different, and everyone’s circumstances are different, so I don’t want to give an all encompassing answer that everyone thinks applies 100% to them.

Being on testosterone doesn’t always make people infertile.  It is something to expect, but that may never happen (freezing the eggs is always a good move though). By infertile, here I mean not only able to get pregnant but to actually carry that baby to term.  That being said, you would have to go off hormone replacement therapy before and for the duration of the pregnancy, and possibly even after, depending on what your doctor recommends. (The reason I mention this is breastfeeding, because there isn’t a lot of research on if this matters or not, and results are conflicting at times.)

Whether or not you can manage the dysphoria/emotional effects of discontinuing hrt, along with any possible physical side effects that may occur, is something you’ll have to factor in to the decision and not something we could give useful help on, probably.

If you look on YouTube and in the news there is without a doubt a transmasculine person that had hrt who has carried a baby (oh wait just found one), so that’s I would give you a cautious yes to this.  However, I would really talk to a doctor more in depth about it. Good luck!!

so I had a lady come up to me at work today and she wanted the plan B pill but english was not her first language

and I understood what she wanted but she had this translation app on her phone

and what it said was “I don’t want to install pregnancy” and I was like. I mean. fair enough, I don’t want to install a pregnancy either

Like Wildfire

The Inquisitor is pregnant and she can’t wait to tell Cullen.  But because he’s away on a mission, it seems like everyone hears the good news before him.  Because after all, such news spreads like wildfire.

Just a Cullen x Inquisitor pregnancy fic, set after the game.  They’ve been trying to get pregnant for a while now.  Fluffy drabble.


“Warm, quiet, the constant beating drum.”

Idina looked up at Cole from across the campfire, chewing her bland meal.  It had been comfortably quiet for a while at the camp, Blackwall having gone to scour the sands of the Western Approach for some dry wood to feed the fire.  Dorian sat next to her, deep in his book, only pausing to stuff more roasted nug bits into his mouth.

“A rushing sound, comfortable, all it’s ever known.”

She cleared her throat and Cole looked at her.  “Who’s that?” she asked him.

“A tiny voice, but… not a voice.  Too young, doesn’t even think, only feels.”  Cole had started tapping rhythmically at the log underneath him.  A silence fell again, his beat and the spitting of the fire seemingly the only sounds in the vast desert.  After a long moment, Cole spoke again.  “It’s coming from inside you.”

Idina’s heartbeat was loud in her ears as his meaning dawned on her, and it mirrored the fingers wrapping on the wood a few feet away.

Dorian looked up from his novel, glancing around at his quiet companions.  “Inside her?” he questioned, reaching for his water skin and taking a drink.

Cole nodded before gesturing to Idina’s stomach.  “In there.”  Dorian’s mouthful of water suddenly made a reappearance as he spit it all out.

“Did I miss something?” a new voice asked behind her back.  She turned to see Blackwall, arms full of lumber, with an eyebrow raised towards the Tevinter.  After a silent beat where no one was really sure what to say, Idina’s attention turned back to Cole.  

“Cole, are you certain?” she asked, eyes wide, not daring to hope.

“It’s quiet, but it’s there.”

She smiled, wide and bright, while Dorian gaped at the both of them.  “You’re pregnant?!” he screeched.  Then it was Blackwall’s turn for wide eyes and gaping as his gaze turned from mage to spirit to mage.  Idina laughed before standing up and pulling on her boots and picking up her staff.

“And just where are you going?” Dorian asked her.

“Not just me,” she said with a smirk.  “All of us.  Come on, get up.  The sooner we slay that blighted high dragon, the sooner we can get back to Skyhold!  I need to talk to a certain Commander of the Inquisition.”

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anonymous asked:

MORE PREGNANT!TONY, BEGGIN' YOU!

Fear not, anon. I don’t know who you are, but you must be psychic because I was just thinking about this hahaha

I’ve decided to work on some new additions to my winteriron ABO w/ mpreg… drawing series? (collection? it’s not really a comic… but they’re all connected)

So you can look forward to something in the near future if all goes to plan!

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Fatherhood (Daryl Dixon imagine)

imagine: before the apocalypse, your boyfriend Daryl fled after hearing the news of your pregnancy. upon arriving at your home, Alexandria, Daryl must prepare for fatherhood. (2,500 words)

based on this request from anonymous: Could you do one where you and Daryl were together and had a kid before the apocalypse. But when everything happens you and Daryl weren’t together so you have been separated ever since the break out happened. But eventually you came across Alexandria with your kid and have been there ever since. Then Rick’s group gets there etc.

an: i know daryl’s too old to have a kid this young but i don’t care bc kids are cuter to write than teenage children!!! - gabby 
TW: teenage pregnancy

Originally posted by reedusgif

I was a nineteen year old college student who could barely take care of herself, somehow always tangled up in illegal or dangerous situations. Daryl was the twenty year old brother of my drug dealer who, equally, could barely take care of himself. Daryl hung out in the same bars that my friends and I did, and tagged along with Merle to college parties. Usually, I went for the typical college douchebags; the jocks who’d spend more time on the playing field than with me. Hence, it’s safe to say that my relationship with Daryl was unusual, but unlike the few before him he made me feel safe, and we could take care of each other.

I was a strong and self-assured nineteen year old in a stable relationship, but I cried into my pillow like a heartbroken twelve year old. I was a happy, carefree college student with my whole life ahead of me, but I as curled up on the bathroom floor in the foetal position, I dreaded the future.

The dozen or so pregnancy tests lined up along the edge of the bathtub all read ‘positive’, but I’d never felt so negative in my nineteen years of living. 


Once the initial shock of realising I had a life growing inside me had resided a little, I decided it was time to turn my life around. After secretively flushing a colourful array of drugs down the toilet, pouring three bottles of vodka down the sink and deleting Merle Dixon’s contact details from my phone, the next step was to let Daryl know that he was going to become a father. 

Strolling back into my dorm room after filling my pockets with the pregnancy tests, I tried to act casual.

“What took so long? And why’d you take vodka into the toilet?” Daryl drawled, barely looking up from the motorbike magazine he was reading. I can still remember how relaxed he looked, slumped on my bed, surrounded by pillows. Meanwhile, I was the opposite of relaxed; my nails digging into the palms of my hands, my teeth piercing the inside of my cheek. 

Various sentences collected on the tip of my tongue, but my lips may as well have been glued shut. After a few moments of silence, Daryl averted his attention away from the magazine and raised a concerned eyebrow at me. Just as I was about to speak, a couple of the pregnancy tests tumbled from the pockets of my jacket and landed before Daryl. One puzzled glance at the smiley faces on the tests and Daryl had clumsily shoved his magazine into his back pocket and was lacing up his boots. 

“Daryl, talk to me,” I’d pleaded. He seemed unable to look at me as he headed towards the door. 

“I’ll call ya sometime,” he replied, running a hand through his blonde hair. “I gotta process this.”

Two months and my first ultrasound scan passed and I’d still had no contact from Daryl. Soon, Merle wasn’t the only Dixon whose number I’d deleted from my phone.


My son Nathan and I were evacuated from D.C. when everything started going to shit. I deserted a café I’d put my whole life into running, and my son didn’t even make it to middle school. We left behind a tiny apartment and traded it for a huge house in Alexandria, our new home. After living there for almost two years, the other residents had become the family we never had. 

Nathan had been feeling unwell lately, and after complaining of a scratchy throat, headaches and waking up in cold sweats I decided to ask Denise to check him over. Pete Anderson was usually the go-to doctor of Alexandria, but I favoured Denise not only because she was a good friend, but because Pete creeped me out.

Initially I was embarrassed to be knocking at Denise’s door so late at night, but she was incredibly welcoming, immediately sitting Nathan down and checking him over. I couldn’t help but fuss over him because he was all I had left, not just in the apocalyptic world, but before this all happened, too.

“Have you met the group Aaron brought back?” Denise asked, making small talk as she took Nathan’s temperature. 

“No, I didn’t even know Aaron was back yet,” I replied, yawning slightly. “How many of them are there?”

“I don’t know exactly, but there are a lot.”

“Can we go meet them, Mom?” Nathan asked, squirming a little as Denise used the stethoscope on his back. 

“If you sit still for Denise we can go in the morning,” I promised, returning the grin he shot in my direction, his expression reminding me of his father. 

Denise concluded that Nathan just had a common cold, and after apologising profusely for wasting her time, I strolled home with my son’s hand in mine. This was the way it always was, and although many had told me that I needed to find a father figure for Nathan, I liked it this way. 


It was almost like Christmas morning when we awoke the next day. Nathan was always excited by new arrivals, I think he hoped to find some children nearer his age; Ron, Sam, Enid and Mikey were all older and picked on Nathan a little. He scarcely gave me time to dress myself before he was dragging me out of the house.

We ambled past the lake, looking for ducks as we made our way towards the newly occupied house. I let Nathan knock on the door once we arrived. A large, orange haired man with an impressive moustache answered the door, his face serious and a little threatening.

“Hi, I’m Y/N, this is my son Nathan, we just came to introduce ourselves,” I said, embarrassed by how timid I sounded.

“Are there any kids here?” Nathan asked confidently.

“We got a boy a little older than you, and girl a hell of a lot younger than you,” the guy replied, ruffling Nathan’s hair. “I’m Abraham. Come on inside.”

I was surprised to find they’d all slept in one house, and even more bizarrely, all in the same room. Some were still lounging on the couches; I felt a little intrusive to be in their new home so early in the day. 

“Hey Rick, don’t you think the little man looks like someone we know?” Glenn asked after we’d introduced ourselves to everyone. Nathan was a way off, reading comics with Carl; he waved shyly when he noticed all eyes were on him. “Guess who I’m thinking of.”

“Oh yeah!” Rick exclaimed, grinning. “He looks like a mini-Daryl.”

Almost immediately upon hearing his name my heart began to race; I could hear my pulse pounding through my head. The sound almost drowned out the laughs of the group.

“Hey, you alright there?” Rick asked, a frown on his scarred face. 

“Nathan’s dad was called Daryl,” I replied dryly, swallowing uncomfortably. “Probably a weird coincidence.”

“Well, our Daryl isn’t really the fatherly type,” Michonne said, placing a hand on my shoulder. 

“I don’t know, that sounds about right,” I laughed nervously, pinching the bridge of my nose. “Where is he anyway? I’d like to check, I’m a very anxious person.”

The creaking of stairs behind us revealed the person I was hoping I wouldn’t see, answering my question for Michonne. Daryl looked different as he descended the stairs, his hair longer and darker and instead of being a scrawny teenager, he was now toned and muscular. In a moment of panic I grabbed Nathan, murmured goodbye to everyone and raced out of the door, wincing as it slammed behind me. As I piggybacked Nathan home, I wondered if this was how Daryl felt all those years ago, running away confused from something he was afraid of, but wanted so much at the same time. 


Nathan’s cold seemed to be getting worse, as during the night he was vomiting and had come down with a fever. Trying to keep an eye on him and get dressed out of my pajamas at the same time was proving to be a struggle; you’d think that after nine years of being a single mother I would have mastered multi-tasking. I was clad in pajama bottoms and a half done up shirt when I heard a knock at the front door.

I told Nathan to stay put in bed, and rushed down the stairs to answer the door, almost slipping down the polished wood in the process. I was already out of breath by the time I’d opened the door, but upon seeing the person stood before me all oxygen was knocked out of my lungs.

“Lemme in, we gotta talk,” Daryl demanded, a pleading look on his face.

“Nathan’s really sick, I’ve gotta get Denise,” I panted. There was no time for chat, regardless of it being the absent father of my child I was talking to. “Can you watch him while I get dressed and go get her?”

“I, uh, I don’ know nothin’ ‘bout babies,” he drawled in the same Southern accent I’d fallen in love with all those years ago. 

“He’s nine, Daryl,” I scoffed, beckoning for him to join me in a hurry up the stairs. “Please?”

I could hear Daryl talking to my son, our son, through the thin walls separating the bedroom and the bathroom, where I was rushing to get changed. I couldn’t help but pry on their conversation.

“Nathan’s a cool name,” Daryl had said, a little awkwardly. “D’ya mind if I call you Nate for short?” This caused a small smile to creep onto my lips, but I quickly shook it off. A cute nickname could never make up for his absence in Nathan’s life, and his lack of interest in mine.

I practically sprinted to Denise’s house and explained between breaths that Nathan was displaying symptoms worse than that of a common cold. We made it back to my place in record timing and zoomed upstairs to my bedroom where we found no trace of Nathan, and no trace of Daryl.

“What has he done!?” I whisper-shouted, panic rising in my chest. Denise found a scrap of paper on my bedside table with the words “showing Nathan my bike in Aaron’s garage” scrawled onto it, and soon the panic was replaced with intense anger.


“I’m sorry, Mom,” Nathan repeated for what could well have been the thirtieth time this evening. I’d found him in Aaron’s garage sat on Daryl’s motorbike, wrapped up warm in his dressing gown and slippers. A look of pure joy lit up his face as he grabbed onto the handlebars. Denise had since cleared any worries of influenza and I was tucking him into bed and kissing his forehead as I did every night. 

“Goodnight little one,” I whispered, reaching up to switch off the light.

“Mommy?”

“Yeah?”

“Is Daryl really my real dad?” His voice was saturated with hope and it made my heart sink with disappointment. 

“Yeah, he is.”

“Why have I never seen him before?”

It took a while for me to find an appropriate response. “He wasn’t ready to be a dad just yet.”

“Is he ready now?” I turned away from my son and switched off the light, hoping to mask the single tear that was coursing it’s way down my cheek.

“I don’t know, Nathan,” I said, my voice trembling slightly. “I’ll ask him.”

I experienced déjà vu from almost a decade ago as I shuffled into the sitting room. Daryl lay on my couch, swamped with cushions as he flicked through a book of mine titled “Tips for Single Parents”. He lazily tossed it onto the coffee table and reluctantly pulled himself into a sitting position to accommodate for me on the couch.

“’m sorry,” he murmured. Either he was unusually interested in the ceiling, the walls and the floor or he was determined to avoid my gaze. 

“What were you thinking?” I asked calmly, although my tone was bitter. “He’s sick, and you take him out into the cold?”

“He told me he was feelin’ alright,” Daryl shrugged, biting at the loose skin around his nail beds.

“Daryl, he’s a kid with an obsession for motorbikes,” I almost laughed at his foolishness. “Of course he’d tell you that.”

“Oh, yeah, I guess.” A silence fell upon us, and as I stared at the empty, black screen of the television in front of us I recalled a time where a stoned Daryl and I would watch reality TV just to mock it. “Nate’s cool, Y/N, you’ve done a good job.”

“It’s been really hard,” I yawned, stretching out tiredly. “I wouldn’t change a second of it though. You’re right, he is cool.”

“He wanted to drive it around Alexandria,” he smirked. “At least I ain’t that irresponsible.” With a roll of my eyes and a small laugh, I sat forwards and opened one of the drawers in the coffee table, pulling out a photo of Nathan from when he was three years old. He’s sat on a motorbike four times the size of him, yet his smile still manages to be the main focus of the photo. 

“See, he’s always liked them,” I laughed, offering Daryl the photo. He seemed tentative as he took it from my grasp, but soon he was beaming as he examined the photograph, gently brushing away any fleck of dust. 

“Can I… nah, don’t matter.”

“What is it?” I prodded.

“Can I keep it?” Daryl’s eyes were ever so slightly glassy and I noticed he was chewing the inside of his mouth, a nervous habit we both shared. “Shit, I missed out on so much.”

Somehow, I found myself wrapping an arm Daryl’s shoulder and he was soon enveloped in my embrace, his warm tears seeping through the fabric of my pajama top. It felt strange, yet almost natural to hold him in my arms.

“Did you think about us?” He pulled away and nodded enthusiastically in response, looking humiliated as he wiped at his bloodshot eyes with his wrist.

“’m sorry, this is selfish,” he breathed uneasily, glancing at the photo again. “I ain’t the one who had to bring up a kid by myself.”

“Why’d you never call? Why’d you leave?” I asked, threatening to spill my own tears. 

“I didn’t wanna be like my old man, I ain’t lettin’ my kid have a dad like that,” Daryl practically whispered, again avoiding my stare.

“Mom?” A tiny voice called out, and soon Nathan’s voice was replaced with the sound of his feet stomping down the stairs. Daryl rubbed furiously at his eyes and attempted to look collected as Nathan entered the room. 

“What is it, sweetie?” I asked, pulling him onto my lap and protectively wrapping my arms around his small body. 

“Is Daryl ready to be my dad yet?” he asked innocently, and I watched as a microscopic smile graced Daryl’s lips. I shrugged at Daryl, unable to answer for him.

“I dunno, buddy,” Daryl began, scratching the back of his neck uncomfortably. “But I’m sure as hell ready to try.”

Hi, I’m Lindsey!
I’m a 24 year old Deaf Education teacher in the Seattle area… I’ve been married to D for almost 4 years and we have a 9 month old named Thea! We ttc for almost a year with PCOS before being surprised with a smooth, uneventful pregnancy. She was born after a 3 hour labor in the bathtub and is the red-headed light of my life.
My blog is mostly personal posts, but I’m always looking for more moms to follow & do life with!

@freshlymintedmrs

why are people acting like beth and jerry’s relationship was ruined solely by rick. yeah, sure, he did nothing to help and he did make it worse. but they were unhappy af before he came back into their lives. they got married after an unplanned pregnancy, not because they loved each other. they stayed together because they grew codependent and had two kids. their marriage was already breaking apart and we all saw this divorce coming, rick only helped fuel it. he only helped add onto their shitty marriage. he didn’t cause it. 

sainttaire  asked:

I never knew Marie Therese had a stillbirth! Can you point me to any sources, please?

Indeed I can!

http://tiny-librarian.tumblr.com/post/89604309942/as-she-turned-thirty-four-on-december-19th-1812

The quote does refer to it as a miscarriage, but I’m not quite sure that would be the correct terminology which is why I referred to it as a stillbirth. If a letter written at the end of January said the baby was expected in June, she’d be about 4 months along. Another mentions it in February, so then she’d be five months. It says she lost the baby “ Quite a few months into the pregnancy” later on.

I’m NOT an expert by any means, but I’ve seen the definition of a miscarriage as being before 20 weeks gestation, so it appears she would have been past that time-frame if she was considered quite a few months in.

In any case, there was never another pregnancy recorded before or after that, although she seemed to suspect she was pregnant 8 years later at the age of 42, but it was actually the onset of menopause.

Babygate Masterpost

*question: Why aren’t the links so that I can just click them? answer: Tumblr was being a jerk to the OP and the links won’t show up, so just copy and paste the text to see them*

This is for the purpose of having all the links I find most useful in one place and to provide a touchstone for people new to the situation.  This doesn’t contain everything, but it contains a lot of the most vital information up to this point.  I tried to stick with the most verifiable evidence.

Basic Concept

The story that Louis Tomlinson got Briana Jungwirth pregnant and had a baby with her is a lie.  Most likely this is a PR stunt and Briana never had a baby at all, much less Louis’ baby. The evidence is below.

For the concept of how the entertainment industry works, see here.  For more information from other sources, see here.

  • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/126145920328/the-entertainment-industry-is-shady-a-primer-for
  • link2: https://www.tumblr.com/edit/148949137023/bakagamieru.tumblr.com/tagged/analysis+resources

Pre-Planning

  • despite being spotted with at least 5 or more girls (x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x) in the preceding months, for some reason the mother is the only girl the papers identified far ahead of the pregnancy news
    • mother link: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3083097/Louis-Tomlinson-dating-American-beauty-Briana-Jungwirth-seen-holding-hands-LA.html
    • x1: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3138691/1D-party-partners-Louis-Tomlinson-Niall-Horan-enjoy-wild-night-emerge-bleary-eyed-club-mystery-brunette.html
    • x2: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3099554/Louis-Tomlinson-parties-early-hours-mystery-blonde-New-York-nightclub.html
    • x3: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3089333/Louis-Tomlinson-parties-hard-favourite-LA-club-Harry-Styles-looks-cheerful-lunch-bandmates-celebrated-Billboard-wins-ex-Taylor-Swift.html
    • x4: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3094021/Louis-Tomlinson-looks-weary-makes-exit-Justin-Bieber-s-LA-mansion.html
    • x5: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3078814/Live-Young-Louis-Tomlinson-Liam-Payne-party-Snoop-Dogg-album-release-bash-Hollywood.html
    • x6: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3077881/Newly-single-Louis-Tomlinson-leaves-LA-club-female-partygoers-enjoys-night-One-Direction-band-mate-Liam-Payne.html
    • x7: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/video/tvshowbiz/video-1182830/Louis-Tomlinson-bundled-cab-mystery-blonde-LA.html
    • x8: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3075843/Louis-Tomlinson-parties-Liam-Payne-L-hotspot-thanking-fans-support-Zayn-Malik-Twitter-spat.html
    • x9: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3070019/Up-Night-Louis-Tomlinson-looks-bleary-eyed-hits-Los-Angeles-club-friends-partying.html
    • x10: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3055121/One-Direction-s-Louis-Tomlinson-takes-one-girl-room-SIX-hours-late-night-boozy-antics.html
    • x11: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3051880/Newly-single-Louis-Tomlinson-invites-FIVE-girls-hotel-room-boys-night-London.html
    • x12: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3044571/One-Direction-s-Louis-Tomlinson-continues-party-pals-leaves-brunette-beauty-cold-s-whisked-packed-van.html
    • x13: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3041342/Louis-Tomlinson-parties-storm-raunchy-burlesque-club-leaving-early-hours-mystery-blonde.html
    • x14: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3036779/Newly-single-1D-star-Louis-Tomlinson-works-magic-gets-cosy-mystery-blonde-Manchester-nightclub.html
    • x15: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3034892/One-Direction-s-Louis-Tomlinson-enjoys-night-mystery-blonde-beauty-ex-girlfriend-Eleanor-Calder-unfollows-Instagram.html
    • x16: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3015811/The-mystery-girl-Louis-Tomlinson-kissed-Thailand-daughter-multi-millionaire-menswear-designer.html
    • x17: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3006032/One-Direction-s-Louis-Tomlinson-splits-long-term-girlfriend-Eleanor-Calder-pictures-emerge-kissing-mystery-woman-night-pool-party-Thailand.html
    • x18: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2986781/Louis-Tomlinson-parties-London-reports-signed-talent-scout.html
  • the mother’s mother created a Twitter account and followed the People baby account before the pregnancy was known but after the mother had been seen with the father
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137823621203/what-a-coincidence

Lack of Talking

  • the father’s label owner was the first to confirm the pregnancy news rather than the father, the mother, or a rep statement, 5 days after the news first broke
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/124508371043/saltygoodness-digital-spy-uk-the-article-is
  • the father’s bandmate was the first to personally speak about the pregnancy rather than the father
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/125777928428/one-directions-liam-says-louis-is-very-excited
  • the speech used to refer to the pregnancy by both the father and his bandmates was strangely vague, and a Mexican journalist claimed that asking about the baby during interviews was banned
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/125846983283/laratjuhh-btw-its-a-very-exciting-time-is
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/125761015203/dailydoseofziam-swallowsmateforlyfe
    • link3: https://twitter.com/jdquesada/status/669620514323697664?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw
  • the mother’s grandmother was the first one to confirm the birth rather than the mother, the father, or an official rep
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137794535878/trishdishes-granny-is-at-it-again
  • despite making a big deal of another member becoming an uncle previously, not one of the father’s bandmates congratulated him on the birth or on his first Father’s Day publicly
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142396128608/aestheticniallshat-can-we-talk-about-the-fact
  • the father has never said the mother’s name in person and has rarely if ever mentioned her in person

Why No Paternity Test?

  • the pregnancy was announced before a paternity test despite the parents not being in a committed relationship and the father being in a position to be vulnerable to gold-digging
    • link1: http://www.gossipcop.com/louis-tomlinson-paternity-briana-jungwirth-baby-dad-father/
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/02/03/louis-tomlinson-dna-test-freddie-son/
    • link3: http://www.celebritynetworth.com/richest-celebrities/singers/louis-tomlinson-net-worth/
  • despite varying timelines on the mother and father dating, the father was definitely out clubbing multiple times a week without the mother from late February to May
    • link: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/119798591456/so-i-am-sure-we-have-all-noticed-the-uptick-in
  • despite claiming the father was dating the mother for months, the father was linked to multiple “mysterious blondes” (x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x) during the months leading up to the conception
    • link: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/briana-jungwirths-cousin-claims-louis-7833226
    • links for x’s are in the pre-planning section above
  • the father stated at the Brits that he missed the child after just a day apart and hadn’t left him before, just after that it was reported he was in a custody battle due to being refused the right to see the child, and yet he has traveled away from LA where the baby is many times since then, and he missed the child’s first Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/140044596008/goldsforevers-x
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/02/26/louis-tomlinson-custody-paternity-baby-mama-son/
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/145063506783/preaching-to-the-convinced-again
  • despite the father stating he wanted children even as a teenager, there are no pictures or videos of the father smiling when talking about the baby before the birth, or smiling at the baby with anywhere near the joy that’s found on his face when he sees any other child
    • link1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QwxrPkeAZp4&feature=youtu.be&t=5m28s
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/125863216883/louis-tomlinson-awkwardly-talks-about-becoming-a
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/125855274398/paynoismytype-level-of-louis-enthusiasm-when
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/130722436933/hazandlousohappily-louis-being-asked-about-his
    • link5: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146870111473/louis-baby
    • link6: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146872609263/louis-with-kids
  • the father was only granted “several hours of visitation per week” to the baby and doesn’t seem to have followed through on legal action to try to correct this
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/140060271803/louis-tomlinson-and-briana-jungwirth-reach

Privacy

  • the mother attended the father’s concerts in full view on the floor
    • link1: http://www.j-14.com/posts/briana-jungwirth-spotted-at-one-direction-concert-with-louis-tomlinson-s-family-baby-bump-71667
    • link2: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/louis-tomlinsons-baby-mum-briana-6529130
    • link3: http://www.j-14.com/posts/briana-jungwirth-baby-bump-with-louis-tomlinson-s-family-at-one-direction-concert-72499/photos/briana-jungwirth-baby-bump-one-direction-concert-9-115245
    • link4: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3257709/Fancy-bumping-Pregnant-Briana-Jungwirth-wears-outfit-cheer-babydaddy-Louis-Tomlinson-second-1D-show.html
  • used a public twitter with her name in the title and talked to fans on it
    • link: http://www.j-14.com/posts/briana-jungwirth-twitter-realbjungwirth-louis-tomlinson-freddie-98395/photos/briana-jungwirth-twitter-1-147236#photo-anchor
  • created a twitter for the baby
    • http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138260436558/sexatoxbridge-isnt-that-a-bit-weird-haha
  • used a public instagram with her name in the title, gave out an email address
    • link: *broken link
  • has a public snapchat
    • link: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146873056061/haroldslovebites-when-you-claim-to-want-privacy
  • participated in many, many different occurrences of pappings, with the baby as well
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/144578449258/anyonewitheyescanseeit-i-mean-honestly
    • link2: http://www.zimbio.com/pictures/KQ0S-ud3eVY/Briana+Jungwirth+Steps+Out+Baby+Freddie+Reign
    • link3: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3302795/Louis-Tomlinson-s-baby-mama-Briana-Jungwirth-reveals-growing-bump-grabs-lunch-go.html
    • link4: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3628893/Louis-Tomlinson-s-former-flame-Briana-Jungwirth-shows-post-baby-body-skimpy-white-bikini.html
    • link5: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3420091/Louis-Tomlinson-s-ex-Briana-Jungwirth-looks-incredible-pictured-baby-son.html
    • link6: http://www.babyrazzi.com/2016/01/29/briana-jungwirth-steps-out-with-baby-freddie/
    • link7: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3167411/Louis-Tomlinson-s-pregnant-ex-Briana-Jungwirth-looks-calm-casual-s-seen-time-revealed-having-baby.html
    • link8: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3412628/Briana-Jungwirth-spotted-time-giving-birth-Louis-Tomlinson-s-child.html
    • link9: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/158133986048/the-pics-are-from-lemonlight-again
    • bonus link: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-4241578/Briana-Jungwirth-shows-slim-pins.html
  • made product promotion agreements
    • http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146867536798/briana-social-media-promotional-deals
  • held an hour long video q&a with fans on Periscope, contemplated a daily vlog
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142997802608/at-your-liberty-at-your-liberty
    • link2: http://brianaxjungwirth.tumblr.com/post/142946480675/briana-and-olivias-periscope-live-stream
    • link3: http://www.meltyfan.it/one-direction-louis-tomlinson-briana-con-freddie-scatenata-sui-social-e-la-privacy-video-a197480.html
    • link4: http://louisahassurrendered.tumblr.com/post/146867967864/direct-briana-quotes
  • follow her own update and fan accounts
    • link: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146872850656/corpidicarta-briana-claims-she-is-posting
  • the mother’s family also bought multiple domain names, some of which were unrelated to the baby but were related to the father’s band
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138283183588/indreamsbegin-brianas-aunt-registered-all-of
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/01/29/louis-tomlinson-son-freddie-website-domain/?adid=TMZ_Search_Results
    • link3: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146316203501/about-those-urls
  • summary
    • link: http://stephaniesoteriou.tumblr.com/post/146895415450/fame-seeking-briana-jungwirth-blasted-as-a
  • despite chastising paps, the father was papped many times with the baby, often in the same area
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146779238228/louis-tomlinson-pleads-for-privacy-for-son-freddie
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141640870893/niallhorantheirish-louis-and-oli-out-in-los
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142020024358/niallhorantheirish-louis-and-oli-in-los-angeles
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/144764219918/1direction-updates-louis-with-freddie-in-los
    • link5: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/144080582358/niallhorantheirish-louis-and-freddie-in-los
    • link6: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143451149738/thetomlinsondaily-2604
    • link7: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143086409293/thetomlinsondaily-1904
    • link8: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142828330268
    • link9: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142467133468/thetomlinsondaily-credit
    • link10: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143223651778/starbucks-things
    • link11: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141604506838/brianaxjungwirth-louis-was-out-with-freddie-at
    • link12: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141640948693/niallhorantheirish-louis-and-oli-out-in-los
  • the father’s family claimed the reason they weren’t posting pictures is because they wanted privacy for the child, then later posted several pictures
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/140347531748/brianaxjungwirth-johannahs-tweets
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142433011683/lifechangeing-daisytomlinsondeakin-so-pleased
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142424263398/crazymofas-phoeberosetommo123-freddiemy
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141489626463/brianaxjungwirth-johannah-on-facebook
    • link5:http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143177139883/thetomlinsondaily-mrsjohannahdeakin-happy-3
  • the father and mother both showed up in public to exchange the baby multiple times when they could have done it somewhere that’s actually private, such as a gated property, yet the father’s rep put out a statement denouncing paps for invading the child’s privacy
    • link1: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3604368/Louis-Tomlinson-Briana-Jungwirth-awkward-exchange-baby-Freddie-car-park-BANNED-house.html
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/05/20/louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-baby/
    • link3: https://www.thesun.co.uk/tvandshowbiz/1270100/one-directions-louis-tomlinson-reunites-with-stylist-briana-jungwirth-and-his-baby-son-in-la-without-his-girlfriend-danielle-campbell/
    • link4: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-seen-8013852
    • link5: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3649745/Louis-Tomlinson-heads-coffee-enjoys-day-son-Freddie-Malibu-celebrates-Father-s-Day-new-dad.html
    • link6: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwywNHPIpAo&feature=youtu.be&t=2m34s
    • link7: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146779238228/louis-tomlinson-pleads-for-privacy-for-son-freddie

Social Media Control

  • despite being born and raised American, the mother has used British spelling and phrasing on social media, indicating that it’s likely she has someone managing her social media at least part of the time
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142643025628/harryandlouisarehappilystrong
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142472637778/that-regular-chick-madat-55
  • the mother’s grandmother strangely posted on Instagram that she’s only posting “what has been asked of [her]” and doesn’t post without approval
    • https://that-regular-chick.tumblr.com/post/140538603546/cyber-granny-be-smoking-that-stroooong-shit-im
    • *broken link
  • possible scrubbed social media for the mother, also for the mother’s nanny
    • link1: https://m3llybaby.tumblr.com/post/147201415382/jungwirthwunseen-1dhq
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142966473463/what-do-you-mean-born-in-november-2015

Other Illogical Statements and Situations

  • the mother supposedly stated that she’s worried the new girlfriend could be a crazy fan despite the new girlfriend being with the father for at least 6 months
    • link1: http://www.tmz.com/2016/06/30/louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-danielle-campbell-custody-battle/?adid=TMZ_Search_Results
    • link2: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/who-louis-tomlinsons-new-girlfriend-7050102
  • at the time of the previous statement the mother also supposedly stated that a condition of her agreeing to an arrangement with the father is that he not use a nanny despite the fact that she has a nanny herself
    • link1: http://www.tmz.com/2016/06/30/louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-danielle-campbell-custody-battle/?adid=TMZ_Search_Results
    • link2: http://www.j-14.com/posts/briana-jungwirth-twitter-realbjungwirth-louis-tomlinson-freddie-98395/photos/briana-jungwirth-twitter-3-147235
  • despite smoking and using straws being prohibited after oral surgery, the father was pictured doing both after supposedly having oral surgery according to his sister, the story the pictures were used for was mainly about the baby and for some reason heavily featured his bandaid
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143077626168/bromanceshmomance-after-oral-surgery-youll
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143072040198/one-directions-louis-tomlinson-cuts-a-casual
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143077583653/boufantgirl-directionereg-fizzy-replied-to-a
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143086753213/they-want-people-to-focus-on-the-band-aid
  • originally I had left out questions about whether the mother got plastic surgery during the pregnancy (no decent doctor would recommend elective surgery during pregnancy), but new evidence shows the mother has definitely gotten plastic surgery now and that raises the likelihood that the suspected plastic surgery during pregnancy happened
    • link1: https://twitter.com/dellamakai/status/723915773186584576/photo/1
    • link2: http://www.acog.org/Resources-And-Publications/Committee-Opinions/Committee-on-Obstetric-Practice/Nonobstetric-Surgery-During-Pregnancy
    • link3: https://directionereg.tumblr.com/post/150109340025
  • the mother posted a rant about privacy and bullying, then later took down the post but copy and pasted it into a video from a month before before
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/144020158188/crazymofas-brianaashleyjungwirth-this-past
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/144376267183/haroldslovebites-briana-just-deleted-the-video

Media Inconsistency

  • the mother was first reported as a short fling, then as a relationship that started in Jan 2015 and lasted for a few months that would have overlapped with the father’s last long term girlfriend, and it was also reported they dated for a year, then recently it was reported as a one night stand again
    • link1: https://www.thesun.co.uk/archives/news/38775/one-conception/
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138671282093/stylinswooning-louis-tomlinson-dna-test
    • link3: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146727938566/ieruhfierjh-30616-tmz-live-one-direction
    • link4: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/briana-jungwirths-cousin-claims-louis-7833226
    • link5: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138642160798/as-happy-as-tmz-about-louis
    • link6: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146758028201/haroldslovebites-baby-custody-drama-the
  • it was reported that the father was dating the old girlfriend at the same time as he dated the mother, yet it was also reported that the reason he didn’t ask for a paternity test was because he and the mother were dating exclusively when they were together
    • link1: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/briana-jungwirths-cousin-claims-louis-7833226
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/02/26/louis-tomlinson-custody-paternity-baby-mama-son/
  • the father’s new girlfriend appeared around November 2015 and yet was reported to have been dating the father for a year in June 2016 when it would have been around 7 months
    • link1: http://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/who-louis-tomlinsons-new-girlfriend-7050102
    • link2: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146727938566/ieruhfierjh-30616-tmz-live-one-direction
    • link3: http://paynoisbatman.tumblr.com/post/146758028201/haroldslovebites-baby-custody-drama-the
  • the media reported the baby was born on Jan 22nd, but then the birth certificate released indicated the date of birth as Jan 21st, the father also indicated the baby was born Jan 22nd, although this was posted in the early morning, making it somewhat ambiguous
    • link1: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3412892/PICTURED-Louis-Tomlinson-spotted-Briana-Jungirth-welcomed-baby.html
    • link2: http://www.intouchweekly.com/posts/louis-tomlinson-one-direction-baby-birth-certificate-90315
    • link3: https://twitter.com/Louis_Tomlinson/status/690859667224928256
  • the baby’s due date was reported as multiple conflicting dates
  • the baby was originally reported as a girl and then with the name of Sydney Rain and then was later revealed to be a boy named Freddie Reign
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/135694513798/ive-lost-trackwhen-is-the-baby-actually
    • link2: http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/instyle-jumps-gun-announce-birth-louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-baby-six-months-before-due-1525185
    • link3: https://www.thesun.co.uk/archives/news/215511/louis-tomlinson-and-briana-jungwirth-decide-on-unsual-name-for-baby-boy/
    • link4: https://www.instagram.com/p/BBEYEDPL4Z2/?hl=en
  • the pictures of the father with the baby were released on a delayed timeline and deliberately attributed to the wrong dates in some cases
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143344534093/whileyouwereasleep-onmykneesforlarry-so-i
  • the media reported that the father and mother were about to go to court over custody disagreements in Feb, it was alleged the custody argument was temporarily settled under the condition that the father’s new girlfriend not spend time with the baby, yet the father’s new girlfriend was pictured with the baby multiple times and no action to stop it was taken until months later
    • link1: http://www.tmz.com/2016/02/26/louis-tomlinson-custody-paternity-baby-mama-son/
    • link2: http://www.tmz.com/2016/02/29/louis-tomlinson-child-custody-girlfriend/
    • link3: http://hollywoodlife.com/2016/03/29/louis-tomlinson-girlfriend-danielle-campbell-meets-son-freddie-picture/
    • link4: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3560475/Louis-Tomlinson-joined-stern-faced-girlfriend-Danielle-Campbell-leisurely-day-son-Freddie-Reign-LA.html
    • link5: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3521894/Louis-Tomlinson-steps-girlfriend-Danielle-Campbell-son-Freddie-plus-mum-Jo-Deakin-stepdad-grandad-TWO-half-siblings.html
    • link6: http://www.tmz.com/2016/06/30/louis-tomlinson-briana-jungwirth-danielle-campbell-custody-battle/
  • another round of custody battle press that happened months later was surrounded by language (“new” girlfriend, newborn child, another newborn) and references that seemed a throwback to when the baby was a newborn, suggesting the articles (and social media posts) had been written in advance about March and held onto until the 2nd custody battle news in July, other things happening around that time were similar to March too
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/147656180383/theres-a-lot-of-surprises
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146906407693/paynespider-lmao-briana-calling-her-almost-6
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146871066428/wait-whats-happening
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146821060158/is-it-just-me-or-do-you-get-the-feeling-people-had
    • link5: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/147600424648/claudiyah-so-youre-telling-me-that-daily-mail
    • link6: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/147977381708/the-rye-social
    • link7: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146764222543/you-know-whats-funny-the-guy-whose-show-louis
  • the pictures of the mother and father used when the pregnancy story first ran were pictures from May that were taken before the pregnancy was known, run by other papers for the dating story but not used by The Sun who didn’t report on the dating story at all, and then only published by The Sun when the baby story surfaced,The Sun being the paper the pap who took the pictures indicated
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138369432358/quietasides-quietasides-fyi-may-2015
  • the part where the father addresses the pregnancy was cut out of one version of an interview that was posted officially
    • link1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dYTvfzNXsN0&feature=youtu.be
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/131090481868/mytinylou
  • it was reported that the mother went to one of the father’s concerts in Canada, but it seems like the girl pictured wasn’t her and the article was deleted
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/124427604938/scrufflecake-scrufflecake

Pictures

Father’s Side Scarcity

  • despite his baby siblings being featured openly on the father and his mother’s social media, the father and his family rarely post about the baby (especially compared to the mother) and say it’s for privacy reasons
    • link1: https://twitter.com/Louis_Tomlinson/status/492031963784839169
    • link2: https://www.instagram.com/p/BGGzeO9L4ZX/?hl=en
    • link3: https://www.instagram.com/p/_pZcwBL4bc/?hl=en
    • link4: https://twitter.com/JohannahDarling/status/584677836662804481?lang=en
    • link5: https://twitter.com/JohannahDarling/status/536374873212190720?lang=en
    • link6: https://www.instagram.com/p/BD7nOavzFbb/?taken-by=mrsjohannahdeakin
    • link7: https://www.instagram.com/p/BDlFwGaTFUU/?taken-by=mrsjohannahdeakin
    • link8: https://www.instagram.com/mrsjohannahdeakin/
  • despite the mother posting baby pictures on a regular basis, the father’s family rarely post and state privacy as the reason
  • the two pictures of the father in color with the baby posted by him are only of his hands and don’t show his face
  • the one full picture of the father holding the baby in color posted online seems to have come from an update account rather than any of the family
    • link: https://twitter.com/1DBoysWW/status/703362841688932352/photo/1
  • while there are quite a few videos of the mother and her family with the baby, there are none of the father with the baby
  • *updated- there’s one video from the baby’s 1st birthday, but only one and it was posted by the mother’s family, it also has no sound and may have been taken on a day other than the actual birthday
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/156202503118/appreciatetommo-brianasrealaccount-special
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/156472868038/theystudyrainbows-i-am-screaming-so-the-js

Father’s Side Photoshop

  • the pictures posted of the father holding the baby on his Instagram appear to be photoshop, one is definite, the other is highly suspect (wrong hair length in both cases, missing tattoo, impossible body position of the baby)
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139712015203/louistopsfuckers-call-me-extra-but-whos-hair
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/159394101723/left-pictures-jan-22-25-28-29-feb-1-2-14
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139634459348/whisperedlouis-part-of-the-dagger-is-directly
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139700619798/use-your-eyes
  • the other picture the father posted showing the father’s hand with the baby also appears to be photoshop (missing scar)
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146272961918/louis-has-a-scar-on-his-little-finger-and-that
  • the other pictures of the father holding the baby posted by others on social media are also suspect of photoshop (humongous hands in proportion, missing tattoo, strange lighting and texture contrast between baby and father)
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141501417453/freddietomlinson-this-is-the-full-picture
    • link2: https://twitter.com/search?q=louis%20tattoo%20since%3A2016-02-25%20until%3A2016-02-27&src=typd&lang=en
    • link3: https://twitter.com/solodjhstan/status/703349912503775232
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143177139883/thetomlinsondaily-mrsjohannahdeakin-happy-3

Mother’s Side Deception

  • there are no pictures of the mother where both her face and her bare bump are visible
  • *updated- there is now 1 picture, posted around a year after the fact, in black and white, and also seeming inconsistent with other pictures from around that time)
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/153269597898/the-3-mths-preg-photo-mess
  • there also seems to be a missing mole on one of the bump pictures where her face isn’t visible
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/160218284328/more-because-theres-a-blog-i-wont-reblog
  • there’s also a picture taken Dec 2015 where the bump seems to have disappeared when it should be there
    • link: http://adifferentkindofson.tumblr.com/post/153303375836/i-had-a-friend-who-saw-these-bump-photos-and-said
  • pictures of other mothers and/or babies were several times falsely attributed by the mother’s family as being the mother and the baby
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137515690068/bitingmetongue
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139507670593/the-larry-hug-lol-nice
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137426447213/exposebiglarries-exposebiglarries
  • the mother’s family seem to have taken a bunch of pictures on one day and released them on social media over the course of a few weeks based on the same clothing being worn by multiple people in them
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142965980708/larry-stole-my-heart-x

Baby Inconsistencies

  • it appears the baby’s ear shape is completely different in two pics taken two days apart
    • http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142432893638/im-not-trying-to-be-rude-or-anything-honestly

Hints From Father

  • around three weeks before the pregnancy news broke, the father picked up a baby doll onstage, unnecessarily repeated “it is not real” multiple times and threw it off stage while wearing a shirt that said “the future is now”
    • link: http://tommosloueh.tumblr.com/post/124246882982/its-not-real-it-is-not-real-270615
  • the father tweeted lyrics from Dirty Dancing a few days before the pregnancy news broke
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/124133823053/hazzaloveslouslittlethings-so-remember-a-couple
  • the second show after the pregnancy news broke, the first song played after the father’s concert was Billie Jean, the lyrics of which should be considered
    • link1: http://tellmethisisnotlove.tumblr.com/post/124401203439/itsnotreal-x3
    • link2: http://larryistheoneforme.tumblr.com/post/143676893315/briana-jungwirth-is-not-my-lover-shes-just-a
  • the father followed Matt LeBlanc, well known for the show Friends, right after he was seen in Sunglass Hut the day of the baby’s birth
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138043729573/gryffindorlou-catp-aboutchopsuey-2201
  • the baby’s name, Freddie Reign, aligns closely with Freddie Mercury from Queen who is a well known gay icon, and who the father would have been aware of given the connection to the stuffed bear called Teddy Mercury that educated the fandom on much LGBT+ history and shared the stage with him for the entire last tour
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138195182403
    • link2: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gay_icon
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146860871243
    • link4: http://beccasafan.github.io/rbb/props/
  • the father posted about “Daddy Cool” but those are actually lyrics about a daddy kink and not a baby, and he said it again in person
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137889200373
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/137890564943
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139942997848/lewisandneil-lo-im-daddy-cool
  • the father mentioned Jeremy Kyle and his bandmate mentioned Family Fortunes during the first day he’d addressed the baby extensively in interviews
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/140040077793/quietasides-problems-you-can-get-jeremy-kyles
  • the father followed Ne-Yo who had a paternity scandal
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/146416641823/has-anyone-looked-into-ne-yos-paternity-scandal
  • the father never used to post solo selfies and then suddenly started posting unfailingly morose selfies right around when the baby was born and around events showing the father’s involvement with the baby
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142441297083/louis-selfies
  • almost the only pictures on the father’s Instagram that are in black and white since the pregnancy news are those of him in a picture with the baby or him with his girlfriend who is suspected to be a beard
    • link: https://www.instagram.com/louist91/?hl=en
    • *update: there are now a few more black and white pics but they’re either warning selfies, promo pics, or a pic that may have been taken by the father’s suspected boyfriend
  • all of the pictures on the fathers’ Instagram that show him with the baby are in black and white (*updated- except for 2 which don’t show his face), all the pictures of the father with the baby posted by his mother are also in black and white
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143177139883/thetomlinsondaily-mrsjohannahdeakin-happy-3
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141501417453/freddietomlinson-this-is-the-full-picture

Hints From People Close To The Father

  • the father’s family have made multiple suspicious comments and references pointing towards friction with the mother’s family, the baby not being his or not existing at all
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/141696218378/omg-lottie-latest-like-in-instagram
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/134286097798/saracha33-saracha33-the-tomlinson-deakin
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/134211202458/whats-with-lottie-could-you-explain-thankssss
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139574797508/a-brief-timeline-of-17-feb-2016
    • link5: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139515321028/baby-larry-love-the-thrilling-saga
    • link6: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/126062518678/tinylarents-jay
  • the father’s suspected boyfriend also hinted the day the baby’s birth certificate became public, and made a post that could refer to the father and the mother’s family, and possibly sent another hint onstage, and also posted a lyric to a song with an interesting title right after the baby’s birth (tweeting lyrics as hints being something the father’s suspected boyfriend is well known for), and followed someone with interesting initials right after the mother was doing diet tea promo
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139088941258
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/139030617668/exclusive-louis-tomlinsons-sons-birth
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138776606858/schlaflosonline-so-angela-encouraged-me-to-make
    • link4: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/130503751043/someonethatsfunny-quietasides-little-white
    • link5: https://directionereg.tumblr.com/post/150088617895
    • link6: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/147149730993/harrys-last-follow-on-twitter-billie-j-d-porter
  • the family of the father’s suspected boyfriend also hinted at the baby not being the father’s
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/138296077323/tommosgun-gemma
  • the father’s bandmate made another reference on social media
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/143801971828/lifechangeing-a-sample-of-posts-as-of-3rd-may
  • the father’s supposed-ex bandmate retweeted an interesting reference as well
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/126647782673/zayn-retweeted-a-cartoon-video-where-a-father
    • link2: https://twitter.com/search?q=zayn%20cyanide%20and%20happiness&src=typd
    • link3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gia6xOBRjQE

Retroactive Resolution

  • first the press ran stories bringing up the fan theories even thought the theories were by no means new and hadn’t been reported on much before
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142472549778/lifechangeing-press-about-baby-gate-conspiracy
  • then, a new pap stroll (not an old one) was released with audio where a baby crying was clearly heard and where the father issued an oddly phrased rejoinder to a pap
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142472945093/louellenews-louis-freddie-lottie-tommy
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142488413273/theirstoryofevents-respect-for-the-baby-not
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142488347713/unwindy-x
  • fans called this out for the retroactive fix and attempt to shut down speculation and discredit fans that it was
    • link1: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142488897533/fans-say-theyve-yet-to-show-anything-that
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142473089688/lifechangeing-nice-try-tmz-they-literally
    • link3: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142472584883/louis-tomlinson-my-baby-is-the-real-deal
  • the father’s selfie warnings and black and white pattern were identified and co-opted by the stunt team, by breaking the patterns they tried to diffuse the significance of them
  • the father talked about the baby at the Brits, but this was after having barely talked about it before birth, having acted upset whenever it was brought up before birth, and having repeatedly said he would have no particular responsibilities during the band’s hiatus
  • the father’s bandmate mentioned wanting to see the baby, but this was months and months after it was born, none of the bandmates ever said congratulations on social media, and the excuse for not having seen the child was flimsy at best

Why?

  • as may have become clear above, it’s heavily suspected that the father is actually in an unwillingly closeted relationship with his bandmate
  • the baby situation is one way of closeting them
  • the band as a whole is also nearing a transition away from their old, abusive and incompetent team, to a new team
  • their old team has been trying to underhandedly destroy the reputation of the band as much as possible in order to transfer fans over to their other artists instead, save face in the industry and with the public, lower the value of the band for their future team(s) since they’ll now be competing against their old team’s artists, and possibly out of a twisted personal vendetta against the band
  • using the baby situation to closet the father and his bandmate forces them to push back any plans they might have had to come out which distances the father’s old team from accusations of forced closeting
  • smearing the individuals in the band is part of this campaign
  • because the father getting the mother pregnant looks irresponsible, the father’s lack of interest in the mother makes him look cold, the father’s refusal to get a paternity test and formally establish custody looks naive and stupid, and it could look like the father is willingly participating in a terribly executed, over the top closeting stunt to people who see it’s a stunt and don’t know much about the band otherwise, this stunt functions as a smear campaign against him

Knowing It’s a Stunt, Was There Ever a Baby?

  • no, starting from the assumption that it’s a stunt, it’s extremely unlikely the mother had a baby
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/136495335948/no-baby-heres-why-im-very-skeptical-theres-a
  • it’s unclear if a real baby was used for the stunt for the first month or two after birth, it may have been a combination of dolls and photoshop at first
  • after a certain point it became clear there was a real baby being used, although it’s unclear if there’s been more than one baby playing the role or who exactly the baby or babies belong to, although there are various theories
    • link1: http://adifferentkindofson.tumblr.com/post/152556781406/hi-sorry-there-is-no-way-they-did-not-use-a-reborn
    • link2: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/142424215068/lifechangeing-zoomed-in-version
    • link3: http://thetruthaboutonedirection.tumblr.com/post/142557981251/babygate-masterpost-important-evidence-you-may
    • link4: http://tellmethisisnotlove.tumblr.com/post/144003767569/what-is-going-on-everyone-is-freaking-out-and
    • link5: http://adifferentkindofson.tumblr.com/post/152642920951/shadyshit91-tumblr-comimage152571941406-idk-who

More Resources

The reason I made my own post was to keep things easily accessible, but it was also in order to add proof I think is objectively compelling, especially without too much context being required.  The posts below don’t necessarily fulfill that goal, but it’s always nice to have extra resources.

Babygate

  • my babygate tag and the chronological version of the tag
    • link: https://www.tumblr.com/edit/148949137023/bakagamieru.tumblr.com/tagged/babygate
    • link2: https://www.tumblr.com/edit/148949137023/bakagamieru.tumblr.com/tagged/babygate/chrono
  • more here
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/160163411433/babygate

The Father and His Boyfriend

  • video links here
    • link: http://bakagamieru.tumblr.com/post/160163411433/babygate

&. @tcgetherness liked ( x ) for a lyric starter
trampoline - you won’t 

it wasn’t OFTEN that autumn was awake after ollie fell asleep. but here she lay on her side, ollie on his back. her small arm was positioned around his waist, hugging her frame as close to his as possible, leg draped over his. he looked so PEACEFUL. autumn was so in love, she had never felt this strongly about a person before. honestly she never thought that she would end up finding love like this. it had gone against everything that she thought she believed in. she ended up having pre marital sex with this man, she lost her virginity to him. but he was calm and understanding when she was hesitant. 

there were times when autumn wondered what she was doing here, how she could be in a relationship like this?? sometimes she felt like it was far too much, that she wouldn’t be able to handle it. she had thought about leaving, if anything for OLLIE’S sake. he could be happier…probably. every time those thoughts got into her head though she shook her head and remembered all of the good things that had come from this relationship. 

she could tell that there was nothing but LOVE in his heart, and that filled her heart with even MORE LOVE. she noticed ollie’s brows furrow together and he shifted in his sleep. she frowned slightly, hand sliding up to cup his cheek, pulling it closer so she could press a soft kiss to his other cheek. “its okay…” she cooed softly, pressing another kiss to his neck. “shh…it’ll be okay…” 

anonymous asked:

I dedicate this request to our beloved Tanaka Kazunari. s/o attending ukai's funeral (after they got engaged/ before announcing pregnancy, up to you) make me bawl and flood my country T^T

I swear you guys have it out to get me. You know how much I love Ukai, so this breaks my heart. Prepare to flood the country because I’m already crying just thinking about it. :’(

-Admin Lana


The day Ukai Keishin had knelled onto a knee to propose to you had easily become the greatest moment of your life, nothing could compare to the warm feeling of happiness spreading along the width of your chest. The path to marriage had been a long and difficult one, but alas it finally bore fruits of your combined efforts. There were times where you were unsure if it’d work out due to the lack of time you spent together, but Ukai made up for that small insecurity in any way possible; Spontaneous date or late night drives, he made it clear that you were the one he wanted to spend his life with. The months spent planning the wedding were even more so hectic considering that he was balancing both coaching and a job while helping you with preparations, but the end result was well worth the stress.

He was purely content with a small wedding including family, friends, and of course, the volleyball team. They had grown to be your own children, Hinata even calling you ‘Mom’ on occasion. It was truly delightful, and the first time you had ever seen your fiance cry was as you walked down the aisle. To this day he’d chalk it up to an eyelash falling in his eye, but the truth was he was elated to finally call you his wife. As soon as the priest had given him permission to kiss you, sealing the sacred vows between you, you were swept off your feet, lips meeting in a tender kiss that conveyed every unspoken word. It was almost as if it had happened yesterday, the pair of you waltzing across the dance floor, enveloped in the small bubble you appeared to wrap yourselves in.

“Since when did you know how to dance? Last time I checked, you could barely step without tripping over your own feet.” The teasing remark set the blonde’s face ablaze, opting to pull you closer in hopes of hiding the blush.

“I wanted this night to be perfect for you which is why I started taking dance classes. I’m assuming they paid off?” Ukai grinned, hoping that he had impressed you with the countless hours he spent on his feet perfecting his footwork. Your heart swelled; He had gone through all of that trouble just for you.


Life was pure bliss when you were able to wake up to the person you loved each morning. You always made it a point to try and wake up before him, mostly because you wanted to be the first thing he sees in the morning, but also because he looked awfully cute when he was sleeping. 

“Good morning, love. Did you sleep well?” He always loved it when you greeted him with cliche nicknames. It was quite endearing.

He let out a muffled groan as he stretched before his toned arms draped across your side before pulling you close. “Of course, I always sleep better when you’re next to me,” Golden eyes drew themselves to the clock on the nightstand, reading six, such an ungodly hour. “Why are you up so early anyway?”

A frown sullied your once glowing features, a hand coming to trace the contours of his chest. “You were coughing in your sleep again and I wanted to be sure you were okay.” Ukai didn’t say anything as he turned his gaze to face the ceiling, heart suddenly growing heavy with stipulations, those he kept hidden from you.

“It’s just a cold, I think after some rest I’ll be back to normal.” He gave you a warm smile, one that washed away any doubts and concerns. That’s just what he always did, eased you worries so you had nothing to burden you. If only you had known.


You had grown anxious over the past several minutes, glancing between the door and the floor, all but jumping when the doctor emerged, a smile stretched across her features. 

“Congratulations Mrs. Ukai, you’re pregnant. Six weeks to be exact.” And now the mornings spent retching into the toilet made sense. There were several emotions running through you, and a hundred more things you wanted to do at the moment, but first and foremost you wanted to let your husband know. After giving the woman your thanks, you headed towards the front entrance of the hospital.

If you hadn’t been paying attention, you would have missed the familiar head of tousled blonde hair being rushed down the hall on a gurney with several medical staff members trailing behind shouting incoherent words. It could be a mistake, but you had to make sure. You had to.  Chasing after the commotion, you followed until they passed where you could not go, but you knew. It was Keishin.

“Ma’am, you can’t go past those doors. Who are you to the patient?” A male nurse stopped you, gently grabbing hold of your forearms.

You felt like vomiting. “I-I’m his wife! That’s my husband in there! Please, just tell me what happened?” 

The man gently guided you to the waiting room a few feet away, seating you in the chair. “I’m not sure ma’am, but our staff is doing everything possible to make sure he’s alright.” You could only nod silently, praying that everything would be okay.


But it wasn’t okay. Nothing would ever be the same. The world as you knew it began to slow until it stopped all together, and the only thing you could say was, “It’s not real.” 

However, it was, the cold sting of pain that struck your heart was evident enough at the doctor approached, a solemn expression sticking to his features. He couldn’t even get a word out before you collapsed into a pitiful heap, wailing and screaming with despair. It wasn’t fair, not for you, Ukai, and the child growing in your stomach. Misfortune always came to those who did not deserve it. 

You believed him when he said it was just a cold.


The coffin felt smooth against your hand, the anchor that kept you cemented to surreal reality. It was silent as the attendees watched you with pity filled gazes, unacknowledged to the pain that was wracking your body. The Karasuno volleyball team was there along with Takeda, and a few close friends, all who had been close with your late husband.

You shuffled to the front, eyes bleary with tears and swollen. “Keishin was such a wonderful man, all of you who knew them were well aware of that. He sacrificed what little free time he had to coach a volleyball team, and he’s never regretted that. It always brought a smile to my face to see him filled with such energy and vigour every time he was at a match,” Your throat grew hot, threatening to close up as you chocked on your words. “I’d like to think that he’d be that way with our child. He used to say that he’d love it if they grew up to join Karasuno’s volleyball team.” At that, you heard a few gasps, shocked at the news. None of them had known you were pregnant, not even Ukai.

Taking a deep breath, you glanced up into the darkening sky, in hopes that you could perhaps see his face in the clouds. What a hopeless dream. “Keishin wouldn’t want us to mourn like this. If anything, he wants us to re-remember him as he was.” It took every ounce of strength to keep your composure.

“I love you, even till death do us part.”