before 2004

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― Before Sunset (2004)

“I have these dreams, you know, that I’m standing on a platform, and you keep going by on a train, and you go by, and you go by, and you go by, and you go by, and I wake up with the fucking sweats, you know? And then I have this other dream, where you’re pregnant, in bed, beside me, naked, and I want so badly to touch you, but you tell me not to, and then you look away. And… I touch you anyway, right on your ankle, and your skin is so soft, that I wake up in sobs, all right? And my wife is sitting there, looking at me, and I feel like I’m a million miles from her and I know that there’s something wrong. You know, that I can’t keep living like this, that there’s gotta be something more to love than commitment… But then I think that, I might have given up, on the whole idea of romantic love. That I might have put it to bed, that day when you weren’t there.”

Before I Forget
Slipknot
Before I Forget

“Go!


Stapled shut, inside an outside world and I’m
Sealed in tight, bizarre but right at home
Claustrophobic, closing in and I’m
Catastrophic, not again
I’m smeared across the page, and doused in gasoline
I wear you like a stain, yet I’m the one who’s obscene
Catch me up on all your sordid little insurrections,
I’ve got no time to lose, and I’m just caught up in all the cattle

Fray the strings
Throw the shapes
Hold your breath
Listen!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

I’m ripped across the ditch, and settled in the dirt and I’m
I wear you like a stitch, yet I’m the one who’s hurt
Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions
I’ve got no right to win, I’m just caught up in all the battles

Locked in clutch
Pushed in place
Hold your breath
Listen!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

My end
It justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road and my end
It justifies my means
All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
THE END OF THE ROAD!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

I am a world before I am a man
I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, OH!”

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I always imagine myself the hero who killed dragons, rescued virgins, and freed the world from evil. As we went out yesterday to find the prisoners, I felt like that little boy who wanted to save the world. But as we returned, I understood that I am part of the evil that I wanted to save us from.