THIS ISNT PERMANENT but if u wanna unfollow then obv u can. i am going to be taking a few weeks break. i had a suicidal breakdown earlier this week and i have not recovered well. im working through some things , some trauma and issues. i appreciate EVERY kind word and message sent but im finding it v emotionally overwhelming to reply rn so i will get there eventually. so i am sliding away for at least a month. i should be back on the FIRST OF JULY but who knows. i will be around and posting occasionally but i will mostly be absent. feel free to ask for my ooc contacts or if u know them then hmu bc i could do with the Friendship and support rn. this is a v complex and lonely time in my life but im working on it bc i want to get back to projecting as much love and kindness as i can into the world and writing with all u lovely ppl. this has been a huge and scary step to accept guidance and help whilst taking some time for me so pls have a great month and pls be patient with my sporadic activity !!
Finally, there are robots robot boyfriends who wear each other’s clothes. (Clothes? Pieces?)
I’m sorry this one too so long, since most of you know I’ve been dealing with chained concussions on and off for over a year. Still, this was such a joy to do, because Zenyatta is my sweet boy - and now looks like General Grievous’ jedi cousin.
Genji looks a bit odd to me still, and don’t even get me started on how Zenyatta taught him to float… But I took a fair amount of artistic liberties with their designs since neither of them have full reference for the parts of their bodies that aren’t covered? It’s like they planned this.
Bob shut down b.echo, explained why o.ctavia’s anger at bellamy for “killing lincoln” was irrational and hypocritical, and basically confirmed that we’re getting canon bellarke all in one day. He literally saved us in one. day.
Bob Morley is literally a fucking icon in case yall forgot.
so today I had a call for a patient having an asthma attack. me and my partner go, and we’re treating the patient, and her fiancee shows up with her daughter, who had a tooth pulled that morning and isn’t in school. we take the patient to the clinic and I sit out in the hallway with the daughter, who was a bit scared cause her mom wasn’t well. we start talking, about her brothers and her school and her pets and video games and her favourite ice cream that she gets to eat all day because of her tooth. she asked what I was studying, and I told her, and we talked about what I did volunteering as a first responder.
then she says ‘I have autism’ and I look at her and say ‘guess what? I have autism too.’ and she was so excited. we high fived. I told her it was nice to meet another girl with autism, because it was mostly boys. she asked if I had sensitive hearing too. then when her mom came out, attack over thanks to the medication, she told her mom.
then afterwards she told me it was nice to meet me and she gave me a hug. it was great. I’m still so happy. I’m happy that I got to meet that young girl who probably doesn’t know any other autistic women, who probably won’t meet many more. I’m happy that I was able to distract her from worrying about her mom. I’m happy that she gets to see me, going to school and helping people and generally being successful and also autistic. I’m glad that I was able to share that with her, that I wasn’t afraid of other people finding out or realizing that I’m autistic and it’s okay. I’m glad she knows it’s okay too, to be autistic, and to be proud of being autistic.
Thank you for talking about your concerns re: Sony/Columbia and Rob Stringer. I thought I was the only one who felt sick to my stomach at the thought of the man who has been friends with Simon for years, and was head of the US label that helped to closet H & L, being the one to sign H. I don't know why people are excited, because the power dynamics are really messed up now, and there's no guarantee that the stunts are going to stop for L anytime soon. Trying to have hope, but it's hard. :(
It’s very hard, and you’re perfectly welcome, anon.
I thought I had posted about Rob Stringer in the fall, but all I can find is some articles I uploaded, so I’ll revisit now. Stringer has spent his career at Sony, he’s been running labels there since the early 90s, and his brother was a main exec and CEO of Sony Corp (not music) for quite some time. Stringer has headed Columbia since 2008, and he’s done extensive business with Simon Cowell in that capacity. Indeed, Simon was the first quote in the Billboard article announcing Stringer’s appointment as head of Sony this October. Their working relationship has been extensive, as far as I can tell. He has credited his work with Simon on XFactor acts as his gateway to success for getting Glee to work, which was hugely responsible for his success turning Columbia around. [Adele as well, and he’s partly responsible for a lot of a resurgent trend of U.K. artists’ US success.] He has called Simon the “best A&R guy he knows” in multiple interviews.
One Direction signed to Columbia in 2012 as they were breaking the American market; the closet clamped down during this time.
Sony purchased controlling shares in Syco in July of 2015 – paying £85 million total for it, and absorbing the £70 million debt it had accrued. While making £45 million from it personallyis somewhat pathetic for Simon, that’s a far better fate than being jettisoned from Sony and declaring the company bankrupt within five years. The buyout was, it would appear, the best possible outcome for Simon given the failures of his television series, losing One Direction, and being unable to produce a suitably earning substitute.
Rob Stringer was announced the new head of Sony mid-October 2016.
I say all this to suggest that thinking of a ‘fresh start’ for Rob Stringer or Harry is not logically sound. Rob Stringer has been involved in their business since 2012 – but even say for argument’s sake that perhaps he didn’t determine their marketing. But Rob Stringer has been calling the shots at Sony since this fall (and potentially had input before that official announcement). And we know Sony now holds the Syco strings and has since July 2015, a date we are all very aware of – so Rob Stringer stepping into the office in the last six months has certainly had power to ameliorate the situation, and he has not done so.
Harry has been constructed as the big fish, the Justin Timberlake, almost since the beginning. It seems Sony’s going to be damned if they don’t get what they’ve always angled for, by hook or by crook. Given what we have seen, they’ve been successful at backing Harry into a corner, as well as Louis, with profound effects for Liam and Niall as well.
Columbia and Sony are sure to promote Harry’s music thoroughly, because it could make them a great deal of money. But that is the equation. It is very much in their best interests not to help Niall, Louis, and Liam or One Direction, as that would distract dollars and time from Harry’s solo work, which will make them a fortune. It is quite evident by now that Sony has had the power to step in but have not, because such an extreme power imbalance in negotiating is much more expedient for their bottom line. They’ve been monstrous and it’s gotten them Harry’s contract, which is what they wanted.
Hope is not any easy thing in such a situation. I think patience will continue to be the watchword.
When we met, you just felt so familiar. Not in the sense that you reminded me of someone I knew. Fuck, in that instance I had already forgotten everyone but you. It’s as if I had been patiently waiting for you; that I had spent my entire life missing you. It’s as if you had always been the person I looked for in a crowded room; the person I thought of while standing silently in front of the ocean. It’s you, my love. It’s always been just you.
LT - I always find myself having to pause and thank God for you