been listening to this for the past 2 hours

Jumin Han: Last Breath

Hello everyone welcome to this new angst series :D So with Jumins part I really recommend reading his Wedding Dance One Shot before reading this c: it gives it extra feels :3 


Jumin: * his pov *

I always knew I had to eventually lose her. I would have never guessed that 50 years of marriage can pass by so quickly. We both wanted to die in each other’s arms but that was only just a dream. If there is a word that I can describe my life with (y/n), it would be the word dream. Many people would be puzzled why I pick that word and it’s only because they simply don’t know that (y/n) made every single one of my dreams come true. She gave me two beautiful kids, a boy and a girl, and they suddenly became my world. After many precious and memorable years, we finally completed our last dream; which was growing old together. The only downside of growing old together is that eventually one of our names will be placed on the tombstone first. I always hoped that my name would be first but with the cancer spreading throughout my loves body, it seems that God didn’t listen to my wishes. For many months, (y/n) health slowly decline and suddenly, the cancer is spreading quickly. The doctor told me that she only had 2 weeks left yet, my love has been here for 5 weeks. I made sure to visit (y/n) every day and today was going to be a special visit. Today is our 50th year anniversary and I’m hoping that the doctors let me stay a few hours past normal visiting hours.

 I smiled at the nurses while I was making my way towards her room with flowers and a balloon hand in hand. I slowly opened the door afraid to wake her up with my presence. I was greeted by the sounds of her heart monitor and other machines that were connected to her. Seeing her like this, breaks my heart even more because I’m seeing her become more lifeless every single day. I smiled at her putting down the flowers and balloons making my way towards her. She grabbed my hand and gently whispered “Please tell our children to come now”. Her request was a bit odd because she knows our kids always visited around the afternoon. As always, I respected her request. She wanted to meet with our kids one by one. I didn’t understand why but it was finally my turn. I walked in and she had tears running down her fragile face. I grabbed my handkerchief and wiped her tears away “what is wrong my soul, today is our 50th anniversary! We will get through this my love, I promise you” I whispered gently. I saw the wrinkles from her lips form a small smile. She motioned me to sit down and I grabbed her hand while doing so. She tilted her head towards me, preparing to break my heart. The look of her face told me everything before she even said a word.

 She caressed my thumb while looking into my eyes “Jumin, my love, my heart, my soul… I c-can’t keep fighting. I’m.. I.. I’m tired of ha-having tu- tubes everywhere. We lived a bea-beautiful life and you ca-can let go now Jumin. You can l-let me go now my love” she pleaded with my heart but neither my mind or heart was ready for that request. I looked into her eyes noticing how her soul was slowly leaving her body. I gave her fragile hand a tighter grip “remember our wedding day 50 years back?” I managed to squeak out while tears were caressing my face. I felt cold thumbs caressing my hand as if she tried to tell me to keep going. I gave a heavy sighed and brought her hand to my forehead “I vowed to worship you till my last breath and that will always continue. I told you that day that you were the color in my black and white world. I cannot lose you (y/n) you m-mean too much to me and I wo-wouldn’t know what do without you. P-Please” I got off the chair and kneeled on the floor “let’s con-continue fighting together because I can’t lose you. I refuse to lose the best thing that has ever happened. I know this is selfish, but seeing your face always gets me through the day. I will give up my heart, mind, body and soul for you (y/n). Everything I did in our life together, just know it was for you. Please don’t make me sign the paper.” Tears started to flow out of my eyes like waterfalls and I looked into her face seeing she hasn’t changed her mind. I kissed her hand gently finally accepting her last request. “We were made for each other. Thank you for the life you have given me. Thank you for keeping me alive. My shattered heart belongs to you now.” I got up from the floor and kissed her forehead.

 TIME SKIP: 5 HOURS

 I talked to the doctors and signed all the paperwork that was necessary to fill my loves body with morphine. That is what she wanted screamed my mind. Congratulations, you killed your happiness screamed my heart. My wife’s last request was to not let the kids be in the same room. I was the only that was going to see her last breath. I sat on the seat next to her while the nurses were removing all the tubes that helped her stay alive. I felt my wife’s hand grip mine tighter with needle being pulled out. I finally saw that she was in pain. My loves head tiled to the side and gently whispered “Thank you”. I nodded while I was seeing the nurses prepare the morphine for the doctor. I saw two more doctors enter the room as a witness for the report the hospital needs to do. I looked into my wife’s beautiful eyes while the doctor slowly inserted the morphine inside her. Tears were rolling down (y/n)’s beautiful angelic face. I cleaned them with the same handkerchief that I wore on our wedding day. I notice she was feeling more relax and I felt cold hands caressing my face. I breathed in anticipating the moment of when she gave her last breath “Thank you for showing your heart to me, thank you for handing me the key to your heart. I vow to love you for the rest of my time here in earth and I vow to find you in our next life. I thank God every single day for allowing an angel to be my wife. We raised two beautiful children that gave us the gift of 5 grandchildren. We been through so much in life that I do not know what to do without you. I am going to miss you for the rest of my short life. Everything that I do will always remind me of you. I just want you to know that everything I did for you, I put my heart and soul into it because you are worth my blood, sweat, and tears.” I couldn’t breathe because I notice her soul was starting to leave her body. I was scared I wasn’t going to have enough time and I gripped her hand and screamed “I vow to worship you till my last breath, just know when my heart stops beating the last beat was made for you!” I breathed heavily and heard “I love you Jumin Han” ever so softly. Your last breath was my name. My least breath will forever be your name. I love you (f/n) Han. I’m going to love you till my last breath.

anonymous asked:

Shigaraki, Shinsou, Todoroki and Kirishima cuddling hcs please!!

[I’ve just been listening to Yo Girl for the past hour and getting progressively more energised so have this even tho its 2 in the morning christ it’s 3 now that I’ve finished this

can you see who I love the most ;)]


Shigaraki Tomura

  • Shigaraki waits until he’s been with someone for four too six months or more to judge whether or not he wants a proper real relationship with them or if he just chose the first interesting person because he was bored at the time
  • after he figures out if he genuinely likes them or not, because lets be real he is an emotionally scramble mess, he gets kind of koala like? but he’s careful that only four of his fingers are touching them the other would be touching their clothes probably so it’s not uncomfortable
  • if Shigaraki ends up really liking his s/o he most likely bully Kurogiri into taking a finger of a set of gloves then taking the ones he didn’t of off that one on another so Shigaraki doesn’t have to worry about hurting them if they fall asleep snuggling
  • Shigaraki unsurprisingly or not is rather fond of being the small spoon because it means he isn’t touching his s/o and that it’s unlikely he will hurt them though he’ll probably still wear one of his pair of gloves
  • he will deny the fact he is a snuggly koala until his death bed and beyond

Shinsou Hitoshi

  • this boy LOVES cuddling with his s/o, movie night??? yes please!!! cat cafe??? even better!!! cats + his s/o!!! its a dream come true!!! literally will accept any excuse to cuddle them they make him feel so happy and relaxed
  • Shinsou’s s/o could be doing their homework at his house when suddenly??? cuddles lmao ok boy they don’t mind though because he always seems to be more awake after cuddling them as if he had actually gotten some sleep?
  • after like eight months Shinsou will feel a lot better about himself and just wrap them up in hugs and spoil them for a while when he realises they’re part of the reason he doesn’t hate his quirk anymore and is still trying to be a hero
  • eventually Shinsou can sleep quite easily because his s/o quiets all the voices and memories that whisper he’ll just become a villain when Shinsou is done playing pretend at thinking he can be a hero
  • because of this Shinsou has no shame about cuddling he will cuddle anywhere!! anytime!! he’s DOWN for it!!! an unstoppable hug monster!!!

Todoroki Shouto

  • Todoroki is similar to Shigaraki in the sense he needs time to make sure he didn’t get together with his s/o to spite his father or to just meet everyone’s expectations for him to be romantically interested in someone
  • after figuring out he likes them for them and not because of a fit of rebellion Todoroki is pretty shy and blushy about cuddling, he doesn’t really hug anyone besides his mum and he visits her once or twice a fortnight
  • likes to be the big spoon because then it’s easier for him to protect his s/o but he THRIVES as the little spoon since it’s like his s/o is saying I’ll stay with you no matter what even if you’re injured and need protecting
  • a++++ will abuse his quirk to either warm up or cool down his s/o depending on the weather and if his s/o has a jacket or not 
  • is a soft boy that will 100% spontaneously combust if his s/o shares pictures of them cuddling where he has fallen asleep

Kirishima Eijirou

  • Kirishima is always so excited to cuddle he will literally yell yes before he even finds out if that’s what his s/o is asking about or not he is so excited about this to the point he unintentionally activates his quirk and his hair gets ridiculously spiky from it
  • 10/10 would kill a bitch quick smart to get back home to cuddle with his s/o Red Riot is fawned over by romantics and gushy teenagers alike at the fact he zooms to cuddle his s/o
  • actually has ran over Kaminari in his excitement to greet his s/o at the end of school, thrilled to bits to see them and get a chance to sneak a cuddle in during their date Kaminari is Resigned TM
  • Kirishima is always straight up about when he wants to cuddle and is determined to be the big spoon but he ends up as the little spoon every!! single!! time!! why??? how!!! he Needs to Know
  • loves to sneak little kisses to his s/o during cuddle times and loves smelling their hair because 1. it smells nice and 2. it makes them laugh
Mon-El

I’m watching Supergirl Season 2 Episode 6 right now - and I’ve been binge watching the whole season 2 for the past hours. And I just want to say, that I cannot be more proud of our #frat-fuckerboy-selfish-Daxamite-mon-ew-white-bread Mon-El for his character development. Our lost outer space sweet stray puppy is changing. He makes mistakes and not perfect but he’s growing up. He makes mistakes and not perfect but he listens. He makes mistakes and not perfect but he wants to learn and listen and change and grow and I got tears in my eyes I cannot be more proud ;’)


* And Chris Wood is one-of-kind amazing actor. AMAZING I tell ya.

Chris Evans Imagine

Chris had been talking to Robert for the past 2 hours. The thing is that most of the talking was done by Chris. He had been going on and on about how much he missed (Y/N). Adn how much he loved her. Everyone of the cast had came together for a fun evening. The point of it was to relax and have fun. Yet Robert was stuck listening to Chris and his so called “problem”. He was in love but the girl didn’t know about it. 

While Chris was talking Seb came up to Robert “Let me guess. He’s talking about (Y/N). Last time i was the one stuck listening to his sad story. So I know the pain” He laughed as he sad next to Robert. 

“i mean, he is so in love yet he does nothing about it and complaining about it to us isn’t doing somthing about it.” Robert said as he put a had on his head and rolled his eyes. 

Everyone knew about Chris and (Y/N). Just the thing was that they weren’t a real couple, even tho they both wanted it. Robert and Sebastian turned back their attention to Chris when he was in the middle of another sentence about (y/n).

“ and i really want her to be mine. Some guye asked her out infront of me, like how does he know we aren’t a couple. i mean..” Chris stopped by robert he was done with all of this. 

“Because you are NOT. And you know why not? Cuz you are NOT doing anything about it. You sat here talking for god knows how long, but in that time you could have been with her. All you do is talk about how sad you are because you’re not with her but yet you don’t do anything, you just come to us and cry. Why don’t you man up and tell her how you feel. Cuz i can’t take it anymore. Ether do it or stop talking about her…love you man but you’re really annoying me.” The whole room had fallen silent. Everyone were looking at Chris and Rob. But everyone wanted to know what will Chis do. And what he did was, he got up an ran out the door. 

“You think he went to see (Y/N)?” Tom asked as he came closer to Robert and Seb.

“I pray to God that he goes, cuz if i have to listen to his talking for one more minute I will push him off of a clif.” 

I literally cannot get anything done unless there is a dire time constraint I have an 8 pg paper due in 2 days and I’ve been listening to elevator music for the past hour

name tag

I was tagged by @supercorpppp (this is so long overdue sorry)

Rules: use the first letter of your name to answer each question. real answers only. if the person who tagged you has the same initial, you much use different answers. you cannot use the same word twice. once you enter your answers then tag 10 people! 

name: Lyn

four letter word:  Luck
a boy’s name:  Leo
an occupation:  Lawyer
something you can wear:  Loafers
a food:  Lasagna
something you find in a bathroom:  Loofah
a place:  LA
a reason for being late:   Laziness
something you shout:  Liar!
a movie title:  Legally Blonde
something you drink:  Lemonade
an animal:  Lion
a type of car:  Lamborghini
title of a song: Let It Go (LISTEN MY NEIGHBOR HAS BEEN PLAYING CHILDREN’S SONGS FOR THE PAST 2 HOURS AND THIS IS STUCK IN MY HEAD HELP)

ps. ok i was actually at a loss for words at some items lol

I tag: @cozysinner, @murdershegoat, @elmizki, @passwordfuckingpassword, @crazyqueerfrenchfry, @thejollywriter, @thechroniclesofnad1a, @nerdaday, @lenadluthor, @charmingice

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I was tagged by my pal tedrick @hovigsgravity to post a selfie (I’m honestly not big on selfies lol I usually only take selfies for selfie Saturday, my lockscreen (don’t tell me 2 charge my phone!!1!1) and the last song I listened to (or, like, the only song I’ve been listening to the past 24 hours lol)

I tag @kauhea (who made my lockscreen btw shoutout to her) @ilincayodels @latteshawn @ani-lorak @fragilewailmass @alex-florea @namasteale and @francescoskarma (you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to) ❤️❤️❤️

tag game

I was tagged by @thehipsterbubble thank you !! :)

Relationship status: maybe one day

Favourite colour(s) : red and green

Lipstick or chapstick: chapstick

Last song I listened to: To Kill a King - Bloody Shirt (Bastille Remix) ; i have been listening to this song for the past 2 hours lmao

Last movie watched: Batman: Bad Blood

Top three shows: avatar the last airbender, gotham and stranger things (i recommend all of these shows, they’re great)

Top three characters: JASON TODD (dc), prince zuko (atla), nico di angelo (pjo)

Top three ships: Jaytim (jason x tim), rupphire (ruby x sapphire) and zutara (zuko x katara)

currently reading: will grayson, will grayson by john green and david levithan

top five musicals: hamilton and les miserables are the only musicals i’ve seen

tagging: @breezy-blogs @senhoritabombatomica @hello-saintjuvia @aninerd @mintymacaronrain @piggylikes2eat @crazyfangirl1810

you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to  ♡

Have you been this wet for the last 2 hours?

Request:  Can you just write some smut with taetae where we have some after stage work? Im so happy if you could do that

Requests are open!! 

A/N:  I was honestly not sure if you meant backstage smut or after performance smut or something entirely different so I made an after concert backstage smut I hope it was what you had in mind!! This is not proof read sorry for mistakes!!

Genre: Smut

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

Word count: 1.4 k

If that boy could keep his fucking tongue inside of his mouth only one time. And stop running his hands through his sweaty hair.  And stop with these damn hip thrusts who the fuck created this deadly choreos. Being a fan at a BTS concert was hard. But being a members goddamn girlfriend that has to sit front row and watch all the teasing helplessly was extra hard. Taehyung knew exactly what he was doing. He had started the teasing before their performance to make sure you would suffer all evening.

“y/n I’m so excited for our concert!! I can’t wait to perform for ARMY!”

“I know Tae you told me this 5 times in the last 2 minutes.”

“Then I should tell you something different. You know what else I’m excited for?”

“The new pokemon game?”

He pouted at your sarcasm but carried on talking either way.

Performing for you later tonight.

“Oh god Tae stop it here are lots of people around. I don’t need the staff knowing what we’re up to.”

“Then we should go somewhere with less people.”

He stood up and dragged you around a maze of hallways into an empty dressing room. Right when he had closed the door he pushed you up against it and trapped you with his arms. He started at you smirking for a moment before his lips came down crashing onto yours. His kisses were messy and hungry and he soon moved on to suck some hickies onto your neck.

“Tae you have to be on stage in a few minutes, we can’t do this now.”

“I know how dripping wet you already are, we can do this quickly.”

His hands roamed over your underwear under the skirt of your dress. Why had you worn a dress today? His fingers ran over your covered slit and he chuckled at the confirmation of his previous statement.

“I know Tae, but not that fast, no one could do that.”

His fingers drew circles on your clit and you whimpered slightly, still trying to convince him that it was bad timing. Right at that moment there was a knock on the door.

“Taehyung, y/n, I know exactly you’re in there and I know exactly what you’re doing, but we need to go on stage now.

Taehyung sighed and pulled away, but not before he pressed one last loving kiss onto your lips. He opened the door to find Namjoon waiting outside.

“I told him, but he wouldn’t listen I swear.”

“I know he can be so goddamn stubborn.”

“I heard that.”

“Come on now we need to go on stage.”

And now you were here. You weren’t front row you were basically in the staff area. Which was even closer than front row. Tae had been making sure to exaggerate every hip thrust he had to do, winked or smirked at you about a 100 times already and his tongue, oh lord his tongue. It has been everywhere but inside his mouth for the past 2 hours. He even had made sure to lift his shirt at a given appropriate point. He was gonna pay for this.

The concert finally ended and you headed backstage again. Jin, Namjoon and Yoongi were just plain exhausted and sat on the next best sofa or chair to nap before they could leave the venue. But the rest were hyper. And I mean really hyper. Taehyung was jumping around you like a little excited puppy, babbling about the concert whilst you were just frustrated beyond compare. After about 10 minutes you’ve had had enough.

“Tae could you please come with me for a second.”

Tae was still a bit too excited to get what was going on but Namjoon who had been quietly listening to music in the corner looked up and gave you a knowing smile. At least they wouldn’t search for you two.

You were surprised how you had found the way back to the empty dressing room and this time you pushed Tae in it.

“y/n is everything okay?”

“No everything is not okay. You have been teasing me for the last 2 hours in the worst ways and you were pretty aware of that. And you riled me up before the stage knowing we couldn’t finish. So no, everything is not okay.”

“Aww, I’m sorry baby, should I make it up to you?”

“You better will when we get back home.”

Who said I will wait till we’re home.

He had you pressed up against the door for the second time today kissing you passionately. His deadly tongue played with yours and you moaned into the kiss.

“I will make sure you know how sorry I am.”

He smirked as he kneeled in front of you, unzipping your dress on his way down. You shook it off and stepped out of it.

“Nice set of underwear. Did you know I was planning to fuck you backstage? Or did you only hope for it baby?”

“Ugh shut up already.”

“Have you been this wet for the last 2 hours?”

“Yes I have. Why do you think I’m so frustrated, huh?”

My poor princess.

He peeled off your soaked panties and discarded them somewhere next to the dress. Then he went on kissing your thighs, one after the other, avoiding the place where you wanted him.

“Tae do you really think now is the right time for teasing?”

“It’s not?”

Your glare down to him made him give you an apologetic smile as he suddenly delved right into it, sucking on your clit harshly. You let out a surprised half scream half moan as he altered between kitten licks and sucking on your clit. You tangled your hands in his hair as he teased you with his tongue around your opening.

“Pl-please Tae, I n-need more.”

He complied without hesitation this time, pushing his sinful tongue deep inside of you. He sped up the pace and made sure to give your clit a few licks every now and then. Soon you were clenching around his tongue and he added a finger to circle your clit whilst pushing his tongue inside of you in a fast rhythm. You threw your head back as you leaned against the wall and moaned his name over and over as you reached your orgasm. He made sure to lick you entirely clean until you were whimpering at the overstimulation. He pulled away and pressed a kiss onto your lips so you could taste yourself.

“Now I can finally take your bra off as well.”

He did as he said and began undressing himself as well.

“You know you’re not the only one that has been frustrated for the last 2 hours.”

“I can see that.”

He signalized you to hold onto his shoulder and jump to wrap your legs around his waist. Then he pushed your back against the wall to steady you.

“I always love to fuck you up against a wall.”

“You love to fuck me everywhere, especially at inappropriate times Tae.”

“That’s true.”

He let the tip of his dick run teasingly against your slit and you still where sensitive and whimpered.

“Still sensitive huh, baby? I’ll promise it will pass quickly.”

He kissed you deeply as he pushed all the way inside you, grunting because of your tightness. You let your head fall onto his shoulder and moaned. He gave you a minute to adjust.

“Please just move Tae.”

His thrust were hard and fast from the beginning on, showing his 2 hours of frustration. You bit slightly into his shoulder to not scream loud enough for the whole building to hear. He should be long exhausted from the concert and dance performances but he was still so hyped up he didn’t feel the exhaustion. He was pounding into you mercilessly and when he changed the angle a bit to reach better, hitting your spot every time you couldn’t take it any longer.

“T-Tae I can’t, I’m so close.”

“I know baby me too, just let go.”

With an extra loud moan of his name, this time probably heard by the whole building, you let go. Your walls clenching around his dick erratically pushed him over the edge as well, so he came, grunting your name in your ear with his raspy low voice. When you had caught your breath you both got dressed ready to go home.

“So did I make it up to you with that? Or are you still mad and I need to try again at home?

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