I like being able to think back to SOME my past relationships and not have to be like, “WHY DID I DATE HIM” or “I HATE HIS GUTS.”
Like, I can think back to some of my happy times with a guy I have dated and not be sad that I’m not with that person anymore and still have the full nostalgic effect of that moment. Being almost 20, I can remember how stupid I was with my emotions back not even 4 years ago.
I’m so serious about being stupid. I remember being torn up about a guy who treated me like crap when I was 16. I was in my sophomore english class, sitting there wondering what is wrong with me because he left me for another girl. I know it’s so traumatic and I can see why someone older with more experience might belittle this situation for 16 year old me. I’ll go a head and defend 16 year old me for a second! I had dated that jerk for a year.
It had been a few weeks, I had gotten better about hiding being upset, I was trying to laugh and enjoy my friends. There’s this guy, Jake. At that moment I had known of him for 5 years and never thought much, I didn’t know much, it was our first time having a class together. We had started talking a lot and joking around because of the seating arrangement. A couple of us were teasing him about how he doesn’t notice anything, he was of course trying to defend himself.
I knew the perfect plan to prove him wrong, My eyes are considered a form of hazel, they are the outcome of a mutation of my mom’s brown eyes and my dad’s blue ones. The majority of the time I think they’re greenish, I have seen them blue multiple times, I’ve been told brown a few times by other people, I’ve seen them grey in pictures. I was being mean, I knew there was no way that this kid was gonna say hazel if I asked him what color my eyes were. I covered my eyes and said, “Tell me what color they are if you’re so observant.”
What he said next literally gave me back almost all the confidence I thought I had lost. He said, “They’re like emeralds.”
Was he right? Technically no. Do I remember that and smile to this day ? yes.
I wish I could say that me and Jake ended up together and are currently talking about moving in together after college just so this story could have a cool hollywood movie ending, but that’s a lie.
We did date, for a year and half. It didn’t work. We both moved on and I could tell you some wild stories from during and even after that relationship ended…Okay our “romantic relationship” ended. Jake and I are still friends. We have made it clear to each other we don’t regret each other and even still catch up here and there. He is a good person and I’m glad I can call him a friend.
I just hope everyone could still look back at those kind of memories and be happy and still be happy about where you all are now,