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squirrelgirlv2 asked:

*waves hands around* ahh sorry ;~; pls don't be sad!! I promise that everything will be ok *hugs* I guess that if you think about it, your phobia really shouldn't exist because if he universe gets torn apart it will just reset, so that's a good thing :3 I guess you shouldn't worry anymore?? Also don't say stuff like that, you'll just make Paparyus (and us) sad. You're a nice skelly that everybody likes so don't feel bad :D

* i… I’m truely sorry, i need a moment to calm down-

but bellamy’s voice.

“you should come home to yours.”

trying to keep it neutral, like he’s speaking for all of them and yet being the only one to ask her to make the hard choice, come home, please come home. (we can’t lose clarke.)

he’s been dealt a crippling blow, again. half of pike’s people lost, the resources of the mountain lost, gina who knew he didn’t (couldn’t) love her but loved him anyways, torn away in moments, and he just wants clarke to come home. to not lose one more person tonight, to have her by his side, because they protect each other, it’s what they do. (it just makes sense. i’ll do anything.)

and she says no. 

i’m sorry.” i can’t come back with you, i can’t go back there, my place is here, this is where i have to be. 

the head and the heart. the (broken, crushed, struggling) logic at unceasing war with the (wrecked, drowning, grasping) soul, always at odds, fighting to fit together, fighting to find a breath of clarity together before it’s lost in the chaos again.

clarke rips away his one last shred of hope, nullifying everything he has lost that day, ultimately, for her, with two earnest words.

it’s no wonder that he backs away with a mask of anger, the likes of which we haven’t seen since their first days together, clashing, snarling, fighting for dominance before the pieces clicked together. this is betrayal, going back on who they are, together.

the head and the heart may belong together, may need each other to survive, but it does not mean that they work in concert. the heart wants what it wants, but the head will see the better good and act upon it.

Imagine Sirius and Lily bonding over their sibling problems

This is an excerpt from my Jily fic Tell Me More


“Right,” Sirius said, pulling up a chair and sitting beside Lily. “Now that Prongs isn’t here, what’s wrong, Lilybean?”

               In answer, Lily held out Petunia’s letter, now crumpled and torn. Sirius smoothed the paper out and scanned the paragraph, his eyebrows furrowing together.            

               “Petunia’s your sister?” he asked when he had finished, handing Lily the letter.

               She nodded and stared at the writing. “She hates me,” Lily whispered, refusing to meet Sirius’ gaze. “And I didn’t do anything. She hates me because I’m different and because I wouldn’t give up magic to live at home.” 

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YABookers Favourite Reads 2015

LAUREN’S TOP TEN BOOKS READ IN 2015

1) Six of Crows (Six of Crows #1) by Leigh Bardugo 

As a massive fan of Leigh Bardugo’s The Grisha trilogy I was highly anticipating Six of Crows. I adored the characters, particularly Jesper, Nina and Inej. I loved the crews interaction even more, and how familial they all seemed. Six of Crows was better than The Grisha trilogy in my opinion; more lovable characters, an intricate plot and several heart stopping moments.

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2) Walk on Earth a Stranger (The Gold Seer Trilogy #1) by Rae Carson

Torn from her family, Lee is thrust into a path she never expected to take and I really admired her development, and the relationships and bonds she found on the trail. The beginning is a little slow as it sets the story but I encourage you to persevere because once Lee sets off on the trail, it’s a whole new journey, and a fantastically engaging one at that. It’s gritty and an honest novel; the hardships travellers faced on the road to the west are not treated lightly and not everyone makes it out alive. Fans of historical fiction/fantasy will devour this. 

3) The Girl from Everywhere (The Girl from Everywhere #1) by Heidi Heilig (ARC - Released Feb 2016)

This book is truly something special. Beautifully written with fantastic story telling. Such great character development, fantastic character interaction and I have a lot of love for Nix and Kashmir. I loved Nixie and her dedication to The Temptation, her love for travelling, her spirit and adventure. She certainly made this book for me. I loved the Hawaiian setting in the 1880s and it is clear the author put a lot of time and effort into the culture and the atmospheric setting.

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4) Tiny Pretty Things (Tiny Pretty Things #1) by Sona Charaipotra and Dhonielle Clayton

I loved reading from June, Bette, and Gigi’s perspectives; the jealousy, the competitiveness, the bitter rivalries that goes on in elite ballet academies. But more importantly, Tiny Pretty Things features a diverse case and tackled issues such as racism, eating disorders and drug abuse, highlighting the pressures these young girls and boys have to be on top. Tiny Pretty Things is a fantastic, engaging, and cleverly plotted novel.

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5) One by Sarah Crossan

It is rare I find a book that captures the essence of twins so honestly and realistically. I’m not conjoined, and I don’t know what it is like. But I do know what it is like to have that one person you are so undeniably close to. Such a great, honest, raw and moving account of two girls who can’t live without each other.

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6) The Winner’s Crime (The Winner’s Trilogy #2) by Marie Rutkoski

Since I read The Winner’s Curse, I have admired Kestrel for her wit and intelligence. This has not changed, and Kestel is so fierce and smart and I really love her character. The suspense in The Winner’s Crime is fabulous, even if the story drags a little in the middle. It is full of courtly politics and political manoeuvring, which makes this high fantasy even better. 

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7) The Impostor Queen (The Impostor Queen #1) by Sarah Fine (ARC - Released Jan 2016)

I absolutely adored The Impostor Queen. I had such high expectations after Of Metal and Wishes and Sarah Fine surpassed them all with her new high fantasy novel. The world building was spot on, the characterization in-depth, and the romance exactly what I was looking for. I found myself enamoured with Elli and her passion, determination and willingness to learn for herself. 

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8) Little Peach by Peggy Kern

Little Peach is not an easy book to read. It’s a raw and heartbreaking story of a fourteen year old girl’s survival - out of options and charmed by her “Daddy”, she finds herself forced into prostitution. Peggy Kern does not hold back. She tells an honest, powerful, horrific and emotional story. It is a difficult one to read, but fantastic nonetheless.

9) Tiger Lily by Jodi Lynn Anderson

I absolutely adored this book. I loved everything about it; Tiger Lily’s wild streak, Tink’s undying loyalty to Tiger Lily, the Lost Boys, Peter Pan and his courage and Pine Sap and his thoughtfulness. Tiger Lily is an incredibly unique retelling of a well known favourite, and Tink is a great narrator.

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10) None of the Above by I. W. Gregorio

I found that None of the Above was a moving, raw and emotionally driven novel that tries its very best to stay authentic and provide a relatable intersex character struggling with her identity. Whilst also being informative and discussing the prejudice of being intersex, it also discussing the psychological impact and decisions that come with a diagnosis. None of the Above is informative but also emotional.

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MEGAN’S TOP TEN BOOKS READ IN 2015

1) The Wrath and the Dawn (The Wrath and the Dawn #1) by Renee Ahdieh

The Wrath and the Dawn was original, compelling and  magical read. The writing and world-building was beautiful and enchanting. Shazi and Khalid were fantastic characters, and they were complex, strong, and beautifully written. A slow burn romance and a really well developed relationship. I recommend this to everyone.

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2) The Summer of Chasing Mermaids by Sarah Ockler

The Summer of Chasing Mermaids is a retelling of The Little Mermaid. Elyse is disabled having just lost her voice, which she is still grieving with, and the novel is about her coming to terms with that loss, and figuring out how to cope with it. The novel features wonderful friendships, with some very positive and female empowering and feminist messages. A must read, especially for fans of contemporary.

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3) One by Sarah Crossan

I have no words for how beautiful and utterly heartbreaking One was. I haven’t cried like that at a book in forever. I felt it right down to my very soul and very little books have made me feel like this. I could really connect with Grace and Tippi and I really did understand that bond between twins, one that very few people understand unless they are a twin themselves. One is a story about love, loss and acceptance and it is extremely powerful and moving.

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4) Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys

I fell in love with many of the characters, and my heart broke when theirs did. Joana, Emilia, Florian, the shoemaker and the wandering boy. They all had such distinct personalities, with a lot of depth and development throughout the novel. Emilia was my favourite, Joana following closely behind. I think Salt to the Sea is a must read for any fans of historical fiction or history in general. I’d definitely recommend it to fans of Sepetys other novel, and for fans of the Book Thief and fans of Elizabeth Wein’s novels.

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5) Vengeance Road by Erin Bowman

I loved the atmosphere of Vengeance Road. There were cowboys, gun fights, a gold mine, and a gang of murderous riders. I think what really added to that atmosphere was the narrative and writing style. Kate was a character I adored. She was ruthless, wild and fuelled by anger but she was also vulnerable and have a kindness in her. I loved the Colton brothers as well, who were also great and the back and forth between them all was really great and entertaining. The plot was exciting and suspenseful with numerous twists and turns, and there was never a dull moment. A truly engrossing read which shows how greed for gold creates madness and monsters of men.

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6) The Abyss Surrounds Us (The Abyss Surrounds Us #1) by Emily Strutskie (ARC Releases Feb 2016)

The Abyss Surrounds Us is very unique and an original read. It was a very morally grey book, with no specific ‘good’ or ‘bad’ guys which I really loved. A science fiction story that is very engrossing with pirates and sea monsters and badass ladies, who had great and complex relationships and a great romance - a must read.

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7) Dare Me by Megan Abbott

I loved the fact that 90% of the characters were girls and I loved their dynamics with each other. There were friendships and rivalries and love and hate. Friendships were sometimes just as toxic as the bad relationships and there were lies and despite that there was something really honest about the novel and its writing and its story. I loved the mystery. It kept me engaged right from the start and there were so many twists and turns and surprises and no matter how much I guessed I was always wrong. It was dark and raw and I really loved it - it was just my type of book.

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8) Orleans by Sherri L. Smith

Orleans was a genuine breath of fresh air, especially in the dystopia/post apocalyptic genre. There was a lot of world building, and it was very original and so well done. Unlike most dystopian novels and post apocalyptic novels, there was zero romance. This is a story about survival, and Fen de la Guerre need to save her tribe’s newborn baby. It was such a well crafted story which was action packed, but slow paced at times and so delicate and well crafted. This was such a fantastically written novel with a brilliant, strong, intelligent and powerful protagonist with an amazing and original setting and world building.

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9) Far From You by Tess Sharpe

Far From You is well-crafted mystery with strong and memorable characters, with positive bisexual representation. There were really great relationships, with strong, complex and flawed characters. I particularly enjoyed reading about Sophie, our protagonist, and Mina. A absolutely fantastic mystery novel with superb characters and relationships. A must read for contemporary fans.

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10) All the Rage by Courtney Summers

All the Rage is a story of anger and gives a truthful picture of rape culture in society. One thing I really loved was how she writes girls, whether they be likeable or unlikeable but they all seem so real. Another thing I really loved is that Courtney Summers does not hold back with this story. It is gritty, raw and painful and just so important. I think All the Rage is a perfect title, because it does just that, it makes you rage, and it makes you angry. All the Rage is a very character driven novel, but that was essential to the story and it wouldn’t have worked so effectively had it not been a character driven novel.

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left-leggus asked:

For that little memory loss bagginshield idea-- i feel like if it were bilbo who gets hit on the head, Thorin would totally go along with it ( telling the company its to keep bilbo less confused, when secretly he just likes the excuse to be upfront with his love for bilbo with no reprocussion) Like hed use every oppportunity to be fluffy and sweet but draw a strict line about sex (cause he doesnt want to take advantage of bilbo, which of course frustrates said hobbit)

I’m torn between wanting Thorin to feel horrible throughout, like, knowing that he’s essentially stealing tender moments from Bilbo.

Or if Thorin has entirely convinced himself that he’s doing this to comfort Bilbo, that Bilbo will thank him afterwards (and then Thorin goes to expire in the nearest bush or something)

Either way, muuuch handholding and cuddling and Thorin trying to avoid kissing to the best of his abilities but then Bilbo kissed him as they were falling asleep and Thorin couldn’t sleep for hours because he was all O.O

critical role fanfic with vax and keyleth because at one point Vax stole a flower then kiss and declared his love and didn’t really get a response.

Hands pressed against the smooth white bark of her favorite tree, Keyleth communed with nature, mentally traveling through the labyrinth of roots whispering secrets of the land. Vax watched her for a long moment, torn between not wanting to bother her and needing to get this over with.

“I thought I’d find you here,” he said, stepping from the shadows of the outer wall of the keep.

“Oh, Vax, you startled me.”

He strode across the small manicured lawn outlining Keyleth’s tiny garden. “Can we talk for a minute?”

“Sure.” She released the connection she held with the natural consciousness of the earth and focused wholly on him, obviously puzzled. “What do you need?”

Vax sat down on the white wooden bench beneath her favorite tree. Swan bell flowers dipped and swayed around their heads, and their unique bell shape seemed inquisitive to Vax, as if the tiny flowers dangling from the willowy white branches above wanted to listen in.

The leather in her armor creaked as Keyleth sat beside him, crossing one leg beneath her. Vax wanted to remember her like this, at peace beneath her tree, in her garden. The wind, carrying a brief scent of ash and fire, tugged at her red hair, and the failing sun still turned a few strands to threads of gold. They were about to walk into a land of fire and rubble, and he wanted to hold onto this brief image of healthy greenery and blooming nature.

She looked at him with such questioning innocence that Vax started to doubt coming here. His heart raced inside his chest and he knew he would rather face down a dragon than stare into the emerald pools of her eyes at this moment. He had made a decision, though. There was nothing left but to follow through.

“I wanted to return this to you,” he said. His voice sounded course to him, so he cleared his throat and took a small folded piece of silk from a pocket hidden in his jacket. It was warm from his body heat. He placed it gently in her palm.

“I …umm, what is it?” Keyleth asked, a little too loudly.

Vax rushed on with his confession. “I took it a while back, and I think it helped me get through what I thought of at the time as a rough patch. But the more I hang onto it, the more brittle it becomes. It’s a chore to carry and protect it so it doesn’t fall apart in my fingers. Now that I think on it, it was never within my right to take it in the first place. It’ll never be what it once could have been if I’d left it in your hands to mature and develop. Still, I think it’s best I give this back to you.”

“I still don’t know-” she started to say. “Can I open this?”

Vax ran his hand through his hair, frustrated that he probably wasn’t saying the right words. He just needed to get to heart of it, and be blunt.

“Are we still friends, Keyleth?”

Her eyebrows shot upward. “Of course, Vax!”

“Good. Listen,” he grasped her hands and looked directly in her luminous green eyes. “I want you to know that while, yes, everyone is dealing with some really messed up shit out there, you can come to me. If you need to talk, have a problem or a concern, I’d like to help. I’d like to hear you and be there for you.”

Vax watched the change in her with an intensity that served him well over his hard life. He caught how she subtly pressed her lips together and how her eyes darted and shifted under his gaze.

“Kiki?”

She sighed. “You say I can come to you when I have a concern because we’re friends?”

“Yes.”

She pulled her hands from his and met his gaze. “When I was concerned about Vex hunting down Gilmore’s stolen goods, you went with her anyway, even though I could tell that you agreed with me.”

Vax frowned. He wasn’t used to someone questioning his decisions, and finding the words to explain his actions was strangely difficult. He remembered the moment when he had shrugged off Keyleth’s concern and disappeared from her sight to follow his sister. Someone walking their path alone, like Keyleth, would find it easy to make decisions based solely on whether they thought it was a good idea or not. Oftentimes, Vax didn’t have the luxury to let a loved one walk into a bad situation alone. He only had one.

He put his hand over hers and said as kindly as he could, “There are only two things that trump friendship: Love and Family. You should know better than to ask me to side against my sister on anything.”

Keyleth nodded numbly at him. “I see. There’s a hierarchy.”

“There is. What I’m trying to say is that I’ll always give you whatever spot you want you want. You’re a good friend, Keyleth, and I worried that I messed that up.”

He stood. “I need to go help Vex. I think when you’re done here we’ll be almost ready to go.”

Keyleth nodded and started unwrapping the small, feather-light package she held. “I’ll be there in just a minute. I’m just going to check on-”

She stopped and looked up, but Vax was gone.

“I’m so confused,” Keyleth murmured as she pulled a dried, and flattened swan bell flower from the folds of silk.

curefl0ra asked:

tales of the abyss!!

Send me series and I’ll tell you my:

Favorite character: The fon Fabres, DON’T MAKE ME PICK ONE

Second favorite character: Torn between Natalia and Tear. I think I’ll go with Nat because I tend to relate to her a bit more.

Least favorite character: Sync or Arietta, maybe?

The character I’m most like: I’m kind of a mix of Natalia and Luke. I am their love child.

Favorite pairing:

Honorable mention for Luke/Tear because I love them almost as much.

Least favorite pairing: Anything involving Sync probably, also Aerietta/Ion or Anise/Ion.

Favorite moment:

Rating out of 10: 1000000000000000/10 A++ would recommend best game right here

Cinder, a gifted mechanic, is a cyborg. She’s a second-class citizen with a mysterious past, reviled by her stepmother and blamed for her stepsister’s illness. But when her life becomes intertwined with the handsome Prince Kai’s, she suddenly finds herself at the center of an intergalactic struggle, and a forbidden attraction. Caught between duty and freedom, loyalty and betrayal, she must uncover secrets about her past in order to protect her world’s future.

Just finished. I was unsure how to rate this book, torn between 3 & 4 stars. In the end I settled on 3, for one reason, which I shall explain in a moment. On the whole I really liked this - I loved the premise. At first I wasn’t sure if it was going to be for me but it was actually really cool, and the ending most certainly left me wanting to read the next book. I’m not totally freaking out over it though, because I didn’t feel all too attached to the characters… I don’t know if this is something that will improve in the later books or not. Kai for example, I didn’t feel like I knew one thing about, other than that he enjoys his sarcasm. Cinder was more complex and I did like her character, but I also found a little self-contradictory. At times she was immeasurably socially awkward and then at others she would be the epitome of cool and collected. I loved the futuristic earth in this book, though I would liked to have understood a bit more about it. Just a little more description and background story would have been nice, because it’s such a cool idea and it deserves the attention.

On the whole I did really enjoy this. I feel like it probably has a lot more to offer as a series beyond the first book. I mean the hype has to come from somewhere and I feel left out so, I really hope it does. Aaaaand despite not falling head over heels for the characters, I am intrigued by the overarching plot. 

anonymous asked:

What did hope mean when she said she didn't know if she wanted to call it off? 😱😱

I’m assuming you meant this part (I honestly had to find it because I didn’t remember her ever saying it! Oh gosh):  You look up at him, studying his closed-off expression and you’re torn between calling it all off or crying.

She meant calling off the fight. Like, she hates how withdrawn he looks to her in that moment? She’s thinking about just backing down and wanting everything to go back to ‘normal’ again.

while we cleaned out my closet earlier I finally sorted out my storage boxes which I haven’t touched in years lol. one of them was full with a bunch of old drawing supplies (used brushes, dried paint etc) and another was filled with torn up pieces of my older than old drawings

many years ago I had this one moment where I actually went and ripped apart most of the drawings I’ve made without much hesitation lol. I don’t 100% regret it because I still partially think the way I thought back when I destroyed all of this.

when I started drawing (like, actively drawing, not what you do in school or kindergarten) I started out with copying the little Diddl designs from the notepads I collected with my best friend

I know for a fact that I did not rip those drawings apart but somehow all of them are gone?? well, whatever.

after that, I got into animanga and started copying random stuff here and there, mostly nardo because I was really into that.

I can’t believe how much good paper I wasted on these drawings…. I did all of that on some kind of thick paper which was definitely not for simple pencil/ink drawings lol.

I even copied fanarts that I liked, although I did that very rarely because it made me feel incredibly bad haha

as for original drawings… I probably did those even more rarely, and at some point I realized that I had nothing to call my own, and basically all I got going for me was that I was able to copy things almost 1:1 without tracing. that frustrated me so much that I just went and… well, ripped all those copies apart.

some pieces were spared because I had them stored away in big folders

but like 95% of the copied content is gone now.

I kept being frustrated with myself for a while before I broke away from drawing and tried painting (that’s where the supplies come from) and using coal and other fancy stuff. from that time I only clearly remember that I was really in love with pastel sticks and I did a lot acrylic paintings for relatives. my uncle got me books of how to draw flowers (I think he tried projecting his own preferences on me there because he also paints a lot of flowers haha) but really I did tons of still life and random picasso shit

nowadays I find painting too tedious and too time consuming so I rarely do it anymore and at some point I got back into drawing anyway, so meh.

I don’t really know what the moral of this story is tbh. like, I know it’s not wrong to start off with copying other works. it can actually help you improve but I’m not sure if I even improved by doing it LOL maybe because improving was never my goal in the first place.

I found some other cool stuff. like silver, glittery cardboard

another big folder with draws, probably

BUT WHEN I OPENED IT

sin

sIN

SIN

She wanted to grab a hold of the moment and freeze it forever. She would always keep the reminder of how his apologies rolled off his tongue: “Listen to me please, I’m sorry that you weren’t my first and that I hurt you so many times.” His pleas made no difference to her, her heart had been torn one too many times. She let out an exasperated sigh. “No, no you’re not, you have never been sorry.” Because the feeling of his words against her ears will always soothe her, knowing that for once he cared, even if it was much too late.
—  don’t you ever think that I wanted to walk away from you
Dammit M

“You don’t listen for shit.” Kerrwynn muttered at her while stepping over his now knocked out cell mate.

M had been persistent and damn near ran like clockwork when it came to seeing him. This wasn’t even that bad of a holding situation and she was all torn up about it. He walked up to her and stared at her for a moment laughing at the irony. Then a sharp pain from cracked ribs reminded him of how bad of an idea that was. He grabbed her by the hips and pushed her to sit down on the bed. A small squeak of sorts escaped from her lips when her ass hit the mattress.

Kerr sat on his cellmates chest and looked up into her eyes. “ First things first. Cover up with the blanket. I’m not looking to have to kill another knight because one thought your lack of clothing was an advertisement. Secondly, this is going down my way. Got it?”

“ We could have been out of here and one round deep at the Rest if you would have just shut up.” M responded with her usual level of snide.  She stood to put the blanket over herself and Kerr caught a glimpse of the amount of skin she was actually showing and had to shake his head to stop staring.

He stood and moved himself onto the mattress next to her his back leaning against the wall. “ If you must know I’ve already discussed a deal. I’ll indirectly do odd jobs with the Farstriders and it will act as a form of probation but I will be free to come and go as I please.” He closed his eyes and let the cool stone wal alleviate the swelling on his back and side. With his eyes closed the turned his head in her direction. “ Please tell me you least told the Wolves what you were doing.”

She moved herself over to him. She completely violated his personal space while making a complete scene of scooting her ass back against the wall and him. “Nope.” She nonchalantly replied while whipping her hair back behind her making no remarks that most of it hit him in the face first.

Kerr shook his head and smirked . “ Lyra and Garog are going to kill you.”

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dizzymosquito asked:

Character: Betilla the Nymph

My apologies for not answering before, I got delayed with my night internships! OTL

  • Why I like them: why you wouldn’t? She’s like a mother figure for Rayman, and is so careful/lovely. ;u;


  • Why I don’t: if I had to name one reason, it would be maybe because of the new design…Not that I dislike it, but I was so used to the first one 8′3


  • Favorite “episode”: I wouldn’t call this an episode, but probably the epic moment where she tries to face Mr Dark by herself in the beginning of Rayman 1-


  • Favorite “game”: I’m torn between Rayman 1 and Rayman Origins, aaaa- but I’m more drawn towards her first design-


  • Favorite line: Let’s admit she doesn’t have a lot of quotes… But her pig latin quotes sound super cute!


  • Favorite outfit: I may prefer R1 Betilla but let’s admit….

Betilla’s new outfit beats it. ♥



  • OTP: Betilla x Mr Dark. Go ahead, shame me I won’t care~


  • Brotp: Hmmmmm- Betilla and R1 magician? They seem to be nice buddies. c:


  • Head Canon: I imagine whenever Rayman would pass by to see her again later on, she would probably take the oportunity to show him back some old photos of the good times when Rayman was still a “recent” creation- only to embarass him along his friends. x) It wouldn’t be her intention, though.
    Oh, other headcanon of mine: Betilla and Mr Dark would have been childhood friends. ♥ A headcanon I share with a lovely french artist on dA!


  • Unpopular opinion: It was already talked about it before in the fandom and I have my own opinion about it, so I prefer to not bring this back~
  • A wish: getting to see her again? She’s so cheerful. ;w;


  • An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: though not making her as the weak poor fairy in distress who needs to be rescued!!! She’s stronger than that. ;w;’ I mean it’s told she’s one of the strongest fairies of the glade??


  • 5 words to best describe them: Wise, Cheerful, Careful, Beautiful, Powerful. ~


  • My nickname for them: I don’t really have one… And I’m out of ideas for this one, sorry! ;w;

anonymous asked:

The best kind of ship is when you cannot decide either you prefer person A to be dominant or person B to be dominant. (Aka Jerrie ) Like it's so difficult picturing one being more dominant or submissive than the other. The moment you decided ahh A is the dominant one and B the submissive a little voice is saying noo it's the other way around and then you're torn apart to make a choice, i don't know if you got my point haha

No I totally get what you’re saying and I relate to it a lot! When I first joined the fandom and started shipping Jerrie, it was kinda forced into my brain that Perrie was dominant and Jade was the submissive because of the whole innocent and badass trope that people saw in them, but honestly I’ve never really believed that one too much. Because Perrie is adorable and just plays with her animals and then Jade’s this fiesty little thing that parties all the time and stuff like that. Gahhhh their dynamic just makes it so hard to decide who is which 

tbh I will admit tho that writing dom Jade in Cliches was super fucking fun and I’m starting to lean towards dominant Jade haha

Unexpectedly..

I met her unexpectedly.
Right when I seemed to need her.
Complete strangers, yet she filled the emptiness inside of me.
Her deep brown eyes locked away in my memories. Forever there to stay, yet forever wanting to forget.
I never realized until that moment under the moon, how terrified I was to actually love her.
I needed her. No. She needed me. But I could never give her what she needed because I am damaged junk.
Thrown and tossed. How can someone so broken, fix someone so torn? That’s what I learned….. they cannot. It is impossible.
She deserved the world, and I was but a tiny grain of sand.

/poem from a different perspective\

I sincerely wonder if every comforting word you spoke to a broken me, were just lies slipping through your teeth. Was every hug, every movie night, every hand hold, was it all just so you could feel some sort of emotional fulfillment without having the relationship? Did you use me because I was weak, vulnerable?

I tried to see the good in you, just like I do with every one else. But you were a better liar. So when you realized I was serious about my feelings, you just gave up.

I felt it. You broke my heart. I could feel every rib crack, I could feel my heart torn from my chest. I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t breathe. I felt everything in that moment. I felt the gravity of the world pressed on my shoulders, shoving the air from my lungs. But I still fought. Damn it, I fought so hard to be okay. I thought everything could be okay. But I was so wrong.

Now that I look back, I feel like a fool. I wasted so much time on a person who really just didn’t care. You didn’t fucking care about me. You would’ve tried to make everything right. Instead of suggesting we stay friends every time you turned me down, you should’ve just walked away. You left me to do it. That was 2 months ago.

I’ve learned so much about myself in these two months. I am so strong and beautiful and funny and passionate and loving. I have so much to offer this world. I don’t want to be angry anymore. I’m not going to choose to be angry at you. Because that’s not who I want to be. You’ve filled my place with someone new and it’s time that I do the same.

Everything happens for a reason. Every person you meet, you meet them for a reason. They shape who you are and who you will become. The obstacles in your life are simply that. Obstacles that you overcome. And each jump you hurdle makes you a more confident, wise person. You were by far the biggest obstacle in my way. I tried everything to get by until I realized that I had to accept that you were going to be a part of my life forever. You weren’t going to be with me physically, but the memory would exist and I will learn from the mistakes I made.

I’m on a rollercoaster that only goes up, my friend.

Goodbye.

tachiisms asked:

☑: something my muse has accomplished that they’re proud of

Huh. This is… actually kind of a hard one? Etain has so much doubt going on that the only moments I can even easily recall from the book where she was proud of herself were when Atin complemented her lightsaber craftsmanship and when Mereel complemented her ability to break down Ko Sai so quickly. 

She really doesn’t tend to view herself as doing things well, or expect people to have much respect for her. Like seriously, tell her she’s competent at something and she’s torn between utter disbelief and a strong desire to keep pleasing you/not let you know how badly she tends to fail, because she never got much in the way of validation of her worth in the Order. Kast Fullier and Zey possibly excluded.

That said, I think one of the things she might have been proud of prior to the series was her physical training? Etain is a very slight, frail-looking woman and people really don’t expect her to be able to endure or do very many things.

Yet even as early on as Qiluura you see her exhibiting physical strength and endurance that most people would expect to be well beyond her, keeping up with exceedingly well trained and muscular clone commandos despite a lot of strain and rough territory.

I think that probably goes back to her time at the Temple and as a Padawan, and I headcanon that Etain pushed herself exceedingly hard in physical training, even setting a few minor, temporary records in things like obstacle course times or run times or reps. And she took a lot of pride in those things because she had to- she wasn’t very skilled with diplomacy, or the Force, or her lightsaber, or emotional control. 

Her physical abilities were one of the only things she felt she could take into her own hands, and it was a joy and mark of pride to her when, at least in this, she succeeded. 

And it ended up really paying off at Qiluura.

thesuperiorfeeling asked:

I really really REALLY LOVED Admiration of two part 3 and I'm so sorry that I haven't sent you this a few days ago!! ANYWAY, I'm so torn on voting because like, drive-in dates can be really cute and awkward silences and 'how do you make-out in a car this is so uncomfortable' and parties make for embarrassing moments and Stiles can bug Isaac about his little crush and oh god, I'm getting too emotionally invested in this cause i just love it so <3

omG YES! Thats so perfect honestly! Im personally stuck bc like parties are the perf cliche that i could kinda twist abit, but then drive ins are all awk and cute.. And of course im a sucker for a good dinner date; he takes y/n out to his fav 24 hour diner and they just mess around and learn about each other and stuff?! Agh im overcome with ideas and cuteness but tbh I love that whole drive-ins premise 😍