i think andrew hussie is a master class case study in author anonymity
like, who even gives a shit about death of the author when the author barely exists metatextually anyway? his public friends are all people associated with or who worked at one point on homestuck, his social media reveals nothing about him personally, and the only pieces of personal information he discloses are pieces of disjointed, unrelated, or “is he joking?” type material. i know he’s a sagittarius but i don’t know if he has parents. i know he has a giant blue horse dildo somewhere in his home, but i don’t know which state he lives in.
nobody within the past 500-600 years of literature has managed to write something as big as homestuck and remain as secretive as he has. most authors are tempted by the fame offered to them via their work and immediately flood their audience with personal disclosure, try to make themselves celebrities. not hussie. hussie wrote one of the biggest pieces of internet literature in history and stayed completely off the map for all of it.
(holding Saeran's face between his hands and squeezing)
Will you please stop squishing my face?
At the beginning it was because I wanted to see how ridiculous you would look like this. But instead, you still manage to look adorable and pretty, and now I want to keep holding you because your skin feels nice.
These are the moments where half of me is asking why I fell for you and the other half is wondering how could I have lived without you for so long.
You plan out everything when you go somewhere (whether it’s just different rooms in your house, or different stores around town). You know exactly where to go, when to go there, and how to get there. The order in which you are going places is the most efficient route and will accomplish everything in a logical order.
However, when it comes to actually executing your plans, you always forget to do things and constantly need to back track or reroute your course since you’re always lost in your own thoughts and thinking about what’s next, rather than what you’re doing.
So yesterday, Feb. 26th, was the 5 year anniversary of this art endeavor known as tehflah’s Sanctuary. I made this blog the day after my birthday because I was kinda having a bad time at the time and needed a change in my life. Originally the plan was to have this as a moderator blog for an ask blog, which… Just never really panned out. But all the same, it’s allowed me to be creative again and learn (or try to learn haha), digital media. Before the blog, I very sporadically drew in a sketchbook and never really shared anything on the internet.
It’s been very helpful to get back into something creative again, and to share it with all of you lovely people. Thank you all for sticking with me on this journey, and for all the interesting, thoughtful, super nice, hilarious and clever comments that you send my way. I read and appreciate all of it, trust me! <3 And every bit of it helps me continue drawing for you all.
As for the future, I’m not sure what is next. Probably more technicolor horses. I don’t really see that changing anytime soon. I have a few ideas of things coming down the pipe, but you’ll just have to wait and see! :b
Spoiler, it’s horses. :V
Once again, thank you all for sticking around and enjoying the stoof I create. And thank you for all the nice birthday and blog-a-versary wishes! <3
btw while i’m still thinking about it and before i chicken out on the idea – i mentioned a while ago that i was thinking about making a more professional blog (probably on like, blogspot or wordpress or something) to answer science questions and flex my science writing muscles a little
if i were to do that, how many of you might actually read it?
Reasons why you don't like Mon-El? Just wondering.
Wow. Okay then. *cracks knuckles* Let’s just get to it.
So let’s preface this first. Please refer to this post/rant regarding my feelings towards the Supergirl fandom. Because my feelings towards Mon-El are an entirely different entity than my feelings towards the fandom.
That being said, let me also address another thing that is relevant to this post and then I set it aside. My feelings towards Supercorp have nothing to do with my feelings towards Mon-El. And because I know if a Karmel fan reads this, I’ll get at least one rude message in my inbox. I know Supercorp will never be canon. I do not dislike Mon-El because he’s getting in the way. I’ve noticed over the last year or so in fandom that people have been invoking the “My ship is canon and therefore yours don’t matter, get over it,” and the “My ship is canon and therefore more important than yours,” arguments. Both of those are bullshit and if anyone sends me those, your message will go ignored.
And this is me setting Supercorp aside.
So. Mon-El. He’s probably the single most controversial character introduced this season, perhaps the most controversial character the show has ever produced. I believe, if social media is any indicator, there are more people who dislike Mon-El than like him.
Which to some degree does make me sad. Because I think his character could be really complex and interesting. And while I don’t think I would ever ship Karmel, I think if Mon-El was written differently it could be a ship I could support wholeheartedly. However, with the current way he’s written, I just can’t. I really want to like his character, but the writing is so poor that it’s basically impossible. Also, take note that I don’t have a thing against Chris Wood and this fandom thing of going after actors is immature and needs to fucking stop.
There are a lot of small-ish (or big-ish depending on how you look at it) things that I dislike about his character, but the baseline problem is really the cause of all of it. He doesn’t actually seem to understand why Kara is annoyed at him for doing what he’s doing. He doesn’t truly listen to her. That’s it. In my mind, that is the single biggest issue with Mon-El’s character. And if that were changed, his character has the potential to turn into something that I think most people could at least tolerate, if not support.
Because think about it. Many of the biggest criticisms, well deserved in my opinion, of Mon-El has to do with his treatment of Kara. Especially regarding things that she has reprimanded him for multiple times. And he seems to not understand why she’s angry at him. For someone that claims to love Kara as much as he does, he doesn’t show it very well. They are fighting about 85% of their screentime while the other 15% is dedicated to their physical relationship (kissing, sex, etc) and Kara actually building an emotional relationship with him.
Look, no relationship is perfect. At all. Fights are inevitable and expected. But for a couple that spends the vast majority of their screentime arguing, I can’t see how that relationship is expected to last very long. Especially when the fights are originating from Mon-El inability to listen and apply.
He is relearning. I agree with Karmel fans on that point. He is most likely the prince of Daxam and I expect him to embody the culture of objectification of women and slavery. That’s not really the issue. The issue is lines like “Things were so much easier when I objectified women and didn’t care about anyone.” Yes, that was supposed to be a cute line about his dedication to Kara to change himself to order to be with her. And I guess if you like Mon-El/Karmel that’s probably how you interpreted it. But that’s not at all how it comes across to me. At best it comes across as basically saying that Kara’s expectations of him to change are a burden and he wishes he could go back to his life on Daxam. And at worst it says that he doesn’t care that by Earth standards (the standards we’re all judging him by) he’s doing things completely wrong and that everyone should just accept who he is trying to be and get over it. And pretend he’s actually making significant changes to himself.
His inability to understand why Kara is angry and his blaming it on relearning is a problem. Relearning is one thing. You can give a person the benefit of the doubt once, maybe even twice. But when Kara is continually having to berate him for the same things three, four, five, etc times it’s no longer him actually trying to relearn. It’s him making excuses.
Picture this: Mon-El actually listens to Kara. Mon-El seriously listens to her. Kara teaches him why his behaviors are wrong. And because he loves and trusts Kara, he believes her and listens to her. And because he loves her, he makes a genuine effort to change, instead of insulting her, lecturing her, speaking for her, playing with her emotions, doing things completely opposite of what she asked of him because he thinks he knows better, and all the other unhealthy things that happen in their relationship right now. Especially when Kara herself has yelled at him it not do those things to her, multiple times. It’s Mon-El’s inability to actually listen that is the problem. It’s not his race. It’s not his gender. It’s not even his relationship with Kara. Rather it’s the nature of his relationship with Kara. It’s that he doesn’t trust her enough to make her own decisions. It’s that he doesn’t listen to her. It’s that he doesn’t seem to actually put forth the effort to relearn, rather seems to be using that as an excuse for his actions.
What I believe is the root of Mon-El’s problem is his inability to really listen. Most people will know what I’m talking about. When your parents tell you to do something and you say “Yes mom” or “Yes dad” but it doesn’t really resonate and you completely forget the thing they told you ten minutes later. This seems to be what Mon-El does. He just takes Kara’s words, brushes them aside and forgets about them. That line “Okay, okay, I’m sorry. That is two strikes on me. Now let’s just let it go…” is a perfect example of what I’m talking about. It’s like he didn’t even listen to what she just said. Rather was listening to the tone of her voice, realized she was angry at him and said “Okay, okay. Whatever you say. I’m wrong, you’re right, now let’s have makeup sex.” He doesn’t acknowledge that what she’s saying has any meaning. If he did he would most likely say something like “Okay. You’re right. I’m sorry. I didn’t listen to you and that was wrong of me. Let’s work this out. Together.”
Look, whether you ship Karmel or you don’t, like Mon-El or don’t, he’s not perfect. And no one expects him to be perfect. But I do expect him to put forth a visible effort. And while he is different than he was from the beginning of the season (but let’s be honest, that bar is so low since he was kicking Kara across the floor at the beginning of the season), for as much support and acceptance that he’s gotten from Kara and others for that matter, I would have expected even him to be further along in the relearning process.
And while I cannot support Karmel myself and these are the reasons I don’t like him, I don’t hate people who do like him. It’s their right to do so. What annoys me about fandom is that some of those people are going far out of their way to pick fights and find arguments. Freedom of speech means that you can say what you want to say. It doesn’t mean that people have to agree or listen to you. And it doesn’t mean you can stop people from expressing their own right to freedom of speech and telling you why they think you’re wrong. Karmel fans and I will have to agree to disagree. And that’s fine. I don’t care if people want to have an adult conversation with me about the issues. But if we’re going to devolve into petty arguments and baseless personal attacks, just keep it to yourself. Because it’s a waste of your time. And a waste of my time.