because you saw that post and yeah

no one talks about that Great BPD thing where you perceive all non-positive responses as negative and aggressive. there are 2 emotions people have: happy, and angry

if someone responds to you with just “OK” or “yeah”, there’s no way to apply a neutral tone to it you just?? feel that its angry and intimidating and they’re just telling you to go away

no one talks about this?? there are so many BPD symptoms that get brushed under the rug but this one is so huge because you know you’re being illogical and you know they’re being neutral but there’s no logic in this sort of thing you just feel that fear and shame and internalize it and let it keep happening

idk i saw a post in depth about BPD and it mentioned that and i was really happy about it.

you know what’s cool about my friend who has major social anxiety? she doesn’t use it to put herself down. she doesn’t use it to call herself weak, or lesser of a person. if i’m going out and i invite her out, all she has to say is can’t, anxiety. and i get it. and i go out with other friends and i see her on her time when she can socialize and not feel like the weight of the world is crushing down on her. when i tell her i’m hanging out in the living room and she lets me know, can’t, anxiety, i’m staying in my bedroom. i get it. and i don’t push her, and i don’t pity her. i understand her. 

all i’m trying to say i guess, is that when things get hard mentally, and someone calls themselves weak, it upsets me. knowing your limits isn’t a weakness. being able to openly say “yeah, i didn’t go to that last week, because you know, anxiety.” isn’t something i’m going to pity a person for, and it certainly doesn’t mean i’m thinking less of you. and it bothers me to see people who have severe anxiety, and other things, equating it to a weakness. being able to openly talk about your anxiety and your depression and your inability to function as what you or society sees as common isn’t a fault. hell, it’s a strength to be able to say, “can’t, anxiety.” and i think it’s an even bigger strength of the person you’re saying it to, to be able to understand that, even if they don’t feel the same way. strength and empathy. that’s all i guess. 

JB Homophobia Analysis

Okay so there’s been a lot of bickering within the got7 fandom over what JB said during his celebrity bromance with Youngjae. Firstly, I’m disappointed in JB but I’m more dissapointed in people defending his actions. It wasn’t just one mistranslation, it was literally throughout the entire video. This is gonna be long but I took screenshots and I’m going to break it down for people who still can’t see why what he said was wrong.

But before that I just want to say this does not mean I think we should be sending him hate. In fact, we should be educating him on why what he said isn’t okay and a simple apology isn’t the end of the world. Idols aren’t perfect, they make mistakes and have flaws. JB’s homophobia is one of them. There’s nothing wrong with correcting ignorant behavior, but ignoring it just means it can happen again. Alright, I will now go in depth about the screenshots I took. 

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So I just saw someone say you shouldn’t tell an author if there was something in their fic that didn’t make sense to you because that’s the way the author wants and it’s like,

That’s not really how it works.

It’s next to impossible to get a beta. It’s even more impossible to get a beta who is above or at your level and is willing to actually help you rewrite things instead of just saying ‘yeah that looks good! You just missed a comma here!’ So authors aren’t necessarily posting things as-is because that’s how they want it, but because when you read your own story fifteen times you just begin to fail to see the errors. Authors also tend to forget they know things the audience doesn’t and leave out things they should have included, and the same for authors who feel they have to overexplain.

I mean if you’re just writing for funsies and because you have two minutes to rub together, by all means. Say you don’t really want anything remarked on. But if you plan to be a writer or plan on continuing to write in general, any criticism is very rare and ignoring it isn’t going to teach you anything.

Thank god in my language inanimate objects has no gender because I just saw a post on my dash about gender discourse of frigging nutella in German and asddffgghjjjkk what the fuck I would cry everyday if things were that confusing in Bengali. But we have three “you"s and their uses are confusing so yeah that kinda balances it out.

Kaisoo mega post @ EXOrDium in Mexico 042717

Finally I arrived home yesterday! I was very excited to comeback and tell you guys all my experiences at the EXOrDium in Mexico. Unfortunately I did not record a lot because I wanted to enjoy the concert 100%. This gonna be my kaisoo post, if you want to read my entiere experience I’ll update it soon. And I’m very sorry if this a little bit late, I wanted to post it ASAP but I was so tired. TT And thank you so much for all  of you wishing me fun!!

So first things first, yeah Ksoo have the best ass and thights in e.xo like man he has the perfect body ¡his shoulders are so narrow! He’s very cute and JI is a ball of happiness and very handsome! TT They look the same as in TV. 

Well how you already saw in some photos or fancams they whispered into each other ear at the first ment, Ksoo literally was kissing JI’s ear, like he whispered REALLY close, I was in shook because I watched in the past a lot of photos/fancams of it (whisper is something very common for them) but watching it live is really something else, Ksoo and JI really get REALLY close to each other to whisper more close than necesary in my opinion lol.

They smiled at each other A LOT through all the concert, like if they saw each other at any moment they would smile ASAP.

At the acoustic part JI were staring at Ksoo almost all the time he were speaking or singing but it’s so unique, he stares at him in this way in particular, I can’t describe it but when someone says JI have this special stare for Ksoo is true 100%. But it wasnt one sided, if you could see with how much pride and fondness Ksoo stares at JI when he’s dancing, like everything disapear for him when JI is doing his solos, Ksoo couldnt stop staring and have like this little secret smile just reserved for him.

At Unfair meanwhile Ksoo were inside the TVBox JI went and pretended to knock the door (idk what was he thinking like come on JI thats a tv wtf) trying to get ksoo attention then there were a part where Ksoo, JI and Mseok disapered for like 1-2 minutes inside of the refigerator box. 

Ksoo walked by and pat JI’s back. I don’t really remember in what song this was but they were wearing the outfit they wear for overdose in concert (black shine jacket?)

I don’t quite remember when this moment happen if when Ksoo and JI found each other in the middle of the stage or they were standing side by side but i’m pretty sure it happend because they smiled at each other with so much emotion and fondness, like they were so happy and enjoying of sharing the same stage. I was smiling like a fool the entire time it was happening so that’s why i remember it.

They stand next to each other when signing Angel and were waving at the fans.

These were all the Kaisoo moments I can recall and that I saw but now I want to add something really interesting I want to share with all you guys. So you can skip this is you just want just know what moments happened at the concert.

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random quotes from Super Best Friends play Final Fantasy XV

“I want him to just pick this thing [Carbuncle] up and eat it.”

“I remember that first trailer back when I was nine. This game took 85 years to come out.”

“Noctis looks like such an asshole I can’t stand it.”

In game: Find out what Gladiolus is weak to and let him have it.
Matt: “He’s weak to insults about his performance in the bedroom.”

“Prompto is the most boyband of them all.”

“When Noctis’s Papa Roach CD is done, the game is over.”

Patt: “I will rescue you buddy.” *revives Prompto*
Matt: “I rescued you with my magical boy hands.”
Patt: “My magical boy hands for my magical boy bands.”

“When teaming up with your buddies nobody can stop the amount of dicks you draw on each others faces.”

*seeing Ifrit in the first cutscene*
Patt: “The fact that it’s a perfect naked man that will not leave his chair–”
Matt: “I feel like at the end of my life that’s what I’ll be fighting. And I will fail.”

*imitating Regis* “So your boybands doing shit huh, what, you’re gonna go on tour?”

“Gladio can you please button up your shirt it’s distracting everyone.”

“Gladiolus looks like he’s from The Bouncer. In fact he might be from The Bouncer for all we know.”

“Gladiolus and Ignis look like that one guy from The Bouncer in the cactaur outfit put into two people.”

*Matt, imitating Regis again* “Remember Noctis, every moment you live is a disappointment for me.”

“And please… do something about your hair. It’s a constant embarrassment.”

*Patt, now imitating Regis* “You look like such an asshole, but, you’re my asshole.”

“It would really suck if he was doing the deed with Lunafreya, and he yells out some other dumb girls name in the Final Fantasy universe. Like ‘Oh! Yunalesca!’ and she’s like ‘Who the fuck is Yunalesca?’ ”

Matt: “Push the fucking car losers!”
Patt: “Push the car, and make sure that Gladio’s butt is the one that’s really in center there.”

“Why is Prompto always on the floor?”

“Wait, I don’t wanna play as Gladiolo– Gladiyolo, god–”

*after seeing Noctis summon his weapons* “No wonder she’s getting married, she probably saw that and went ‘Yes!’ ”

*sees Ignis walk off in the background* *Matt bursts into laughter* “Ignis is just like ‘fuck it I’m out of here!’.”

“I’m seeing photos people are posting of these guys taking selfies with themselves walking around in the background.”

Patt: “I just did a backflip slash for no reason, other than I think Noctis thought it was cool.”
Matt: “Well it’s because he knew Prompto was watching.”

“That should be the Logo of our channel – stop bitching, start killing.”

*Prompto starts singing the FF victory tune* “AHH!!– AH YEAH! ALL RIGHT, YOU WON ME OVER!”

*Ignis explains the Crownsguard attire* Patt: “Oh, so that’s why. They’re forced to dress boyband.”
Matt: “Or forced to dress like they just raided a Hot Topic.”
Patt: “It’s the law… So the King, that King? [Regis] Was like ‘everyone has to dress like this in my army’.”
Matt: “Okay, you know what? Fair enough. I never realize that.”
Patt: “That King is the weirdest old man in the world.”

*imitating Regis* “I want all the hot boys to dress in leather in my army.”

“Cindy, and one of these guys, I wanna help that along.”

Matt: “You know what this place [Hammerhead] needs!? It need one of those big inflatable floaty guys!”
Patt: “And it should be a cactaur.”
Matt: “Yeah! OH!! That makes me so excited!”
Patt: “There might be in here, who knows?”

“Why aren’t your lips moving Ignis?”

anonymous asked:

I saw you drew Duke as chubby and I love that because I feel as though when people hear "eating disorder" they automatically think anorexia, with cachexia or not eating. So I feel as though people with different types of eating disorders when they see this they feel as though that they don't have a eating disorder because it doesn't "fit" what most people say is an eating disorder. I just wanted to say I admire how you draw her because I think I remember I saw a post where you looked it up.

yeah i looked it up! had to make sure bfore possibly doing anything wrong ofc but even so someone got mad tht i drew her chubby just bc she has bulimia
and im glad u like that !!!

Tyler Scheid x Reader (GenderNeutral) - Sweet Summer

Summer is always hot, especially in L.A. It’s like Satan’s armpit there in the summer, and nearly all year round, as well. How can anyone be blamed for going swimming in such terrible weather conditions? What’s even worse are watching the people who enjoy the heat sit out in the sun or under the shade and blister, for who knows what reason. Maybe they’re sadistic.

Maybe that life guard was sadistic, the one with the curls and the stone-face look every time a kid screamed. And then there was you, possibly also less sadistic and crazy as you sat on the edge of the pool, your feet dipped into the cold and chlorine-saturated water. You watched some of the kids push each other into the pool, the lifeguard glare at them. He was… interested to look at. But he was at the other side of the pool, so you couldn’t make out much of his features.

“GERONIMO!” your best friend screamed as she ran to the edge, jumping and landing in the water with a massive cannonball-made splash. Splashing you, you laughed and wiped the water from your face, pushing your hair back.

“Hey!” you shouted. She surfaced and waded in the water, looking at you with a stupid grin.

“What?” she asked.

“Alex you had to warn me. I don’t really want to get too wet.” You glanced at the lifeguard who was busy with looking up at the clouds. Oh, a jawline…
“I did warn you. It’s called a warrior cry, and mine is Geronimo.” Alex seemed very sure of herself, laughing as she dipped down and underneath the surface to swim towards the shallow-end. It was her idea to come to the pool, dragging you away from your YouTube videos and Pringles. You looked nice, though, in your black swimwear. It was nicely fitting and dark, just like your soul. There, that is the sadistic side.

But Alex has that side, too, because she appeared suddenly while you were drooling subconsciously at the lifeguard and pulled you by your arms into the pool. You screamed loudly, stopped short by the cold and salty water. Your body hit the water and you were gone under, the last thing you saw before the water stung your eyes was the lifeguard jolting in his seat.

Fighting with Alex, your arms battled the waves and you struggled to stay afloat, not that well of a swimmer by any means. Your face reached the surface and your gasped for air, kicking your legs furiously. You could hear Alex cackling beside you as you doggy-paddled to stay breathing. Every other second your head dipped underwater and you were fighting to yell at Alex, making everything a struggle in the end.

And then you heard it.

Alex stopped laughing as the splash of a very large and muscular man hit the water. You turned and saw the man right next to you, right as you dipped back under. He grabbed you by the waist, wrapping his arm eventually under your arms before lighting you out of the water and onto the concrete in a matter of seconds. You coughed and blinked, looking up and seeing the beautiful silhouette of the most handsome man you’d ever seen above you.

“Are you okay?” he asked, his voice lovely.


“Are you okay?” he asked again. You nodded, his hand grabbing yours as he helped you to sit up. You coughed again and wiped your eyes, Alex losing her mind with laughter.

“You looked like you were drowning, so I saved you.”

You looked at him and blushed. “No, I just swim really weird,” you replied, laughter in your voice. He looked you over, slightly blushing himself, and then let out a sigh. He looked at Alex and smiled, then to you. He sat back on his bottom, possibly feeling like an idiot. He laughed, running his hand through his curls. You just stared, looking at the water drip down his muscular body. The way the sun glistened over his pecs and arms made your jaw drop a little. He looked back at you with the most amazing smile and you found yourself speechless, just in awe.

“Hey hot-stuff!” Alex yelled at you, making you snap back to reality. You shut your jaw and looked at her, glaring. “He’s drooling over you, too,” she said quietly, hoping he wouldn’t hear. You looked back and saw he was. He was staring at the all of you. Your face, chest, legs, everything.

“Tyler!” someone from afar yelled. “Get back to your post.” Tyler stood, helping you up.

“Gotta… go.. Um, I get off at 5. Mabe come back and we can get some ice cream?”

“Yeah, yeah I’d love that.”


He winked and walked away, leaving you standing there. His hands were so soft, you thought. And that was apparently aloud, because he turned around and smiled.

“Thanks!” he called. “Yours are, too!”

You covered your face and screamed, Alex laughing once more.


@smile-always-bitch @scarlet-says-hi

whizzer  asked:

Ahh I wasn't sure if you saw my reply to your other post (because your notifs are probably flooded with likes and reblogs but if you did see it sorry for sending it again) but yeah I'm dearevanhansenheadcanons and I managed to start the bathbomb meme and the fact that Will knows is just.....Wild


SHINEE - you wearing a oversized shirt and lounge socks.

Request: May you do a SHINee reaction to their s/o walking around in an oversized tshirt and lounge socks😇😇😇 Thanq.


You always do it. It was something he was already used to. But he always said you were beautiful like that. “Baby, you know, you look so beautiful.” “Oh, stop being so cheesy.” You said laughing and kissed him.


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“YOU ARE THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD!” He said looking at you. “What?” “Oh, look at you. So small in that huge shirt.” He hugged you. “You are exaggerating.” “I’m not. You look very beautiful.”


Originally posted by painkiipain

You were wearing one of his shirts. He took a picture of you and posted on his instagram. Hours later you saw the picture. “Really?” You asked, showing him the picture. “What?” “Why did you post that?” “Because I want everyone to see how beautiful you are.” “I AM HORRIBLE IN THIS PICTURE!” “No, it’s not. I’ve seen you worse.” He laughed. “Fuck you.” “If you want, we can fuck together.” He smiled innocently.


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He came home and found you cooking with nothing but a large t-shirt and socks. “Are you trying to kill me or something?” He asked coming up to you. “What?” “You look so beautiful … And hot.” He hugged you. “I can’t help. I was born beautiful like this.” “Yeah, and I love you.” “I love you too.” “I know that. Can we do something hot right now?” “You are a pervert.” “I’m not. You’re too attractive, that’s all.”


“Can you stop stealing my shirts, please?” He said when he saw what you were wearing. “Nope! They’re so comfy, and I don’t look pretty wearing them?” You asked, smiling. “Stop acting cute! I’m trying to be angry.” “Don’t be angry at me, baby.” You blinked. “Keep all my clothes on.” He spoke and you laughed. “I don’t want them all, just a few.”

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Like A Disney Princess

Request/Prompt: KASKDEIWJKSI I saw your post and I just had to request something! *in my New York accent pretending to be ordering something from the corner store* yeah, so can I get a fluffy Pietro x Reader where for their first date he brings her around the world using his speed! Also, I loved that Pietro pic ‘There Is Space On Me’! K, I’m done bothering you now, bye! - @quicksoldier
Note: okay, I lovoeoeo this request but i think… i did shit at it. I don’t know if it’s too cheesy. Also I had to change the around the world bit because i had no fucking clue on how to write that shit so yahh!! I hope you like it??? Also, i fucking described him as blond when the gif i used shows brunet, wtf andrea, get your shit together girl.
Summary: a date with Pietro, nothing goes wrong, and everything is perfect? Unrealistic, right?
Characters: Pietro Maximoff, Reader
Word Count: 775

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overwatch characters as D&D 5e


Mercy: Life Cleric, successfully resists the urge every day to just not prepare any healing spells for a day and see what the rest of the party does.

Lucio: Lore Bard, knows the cantrip Vicious Mockery but almost never uses it because it’s too mean.

Symmetra: Abjuration Wizard, her favorite spell is Dimension Door and she uses it frequently and to great effect.

Zenyatta: Devotion Paladin, buffs his teammates by giving them sage advice about life.

Ana: Hunter Ranger, likes to put all sorts of nifty poisons and sleep agents on her arrows. 


Reinhardt: Battle Master Fighter, the kind of Lawful Good that gives Lawful Good a good name.

Zarya: Eldritch Knight Fighter, her favorite spells are Absorb Elements and Absurdly Large Crossbow.

D.Va: Champion Fighter, likes to tease her opponents by doing acrobatics stunts in the middle of combat.

Winston: Totem Warrior Barbarian, everybody is surprised by this, which he uses to tactical advantage.

Roadhog: Champion Fighter, he owns actual weapons and knows how to use them but throwing chairs is more fun.


Junkrat: Wild Magic Sorcerer, embraces all the weird shit and backfires of wild magic surges with maniacal laughter.

Bastion: Champion Fighter, favors ranged weapons and aims to kill in one shot so it doesn’t have time to hurt.

Widowmaker: Assassin Rogue, favors ranged weapons and aims to kill in one shot because it’s more satisfying.

Mei: Circle of the Land (Arctic) Druid, likes to sleep with the room cold and everybody thinks she’s crazy for it.

Torbjorn: Circle of the Moon Druid, has a whole posse of awakened plants and beasts that go into battle with him.

Hanzo: Beast Master Ranger, his animal buddy is a giant poisonous snake that thinks it’s small enough to chill around one of his arms.


Genji: Shadow Monk, is equally likely to use his shadow stepping for pranks as actual combat.

Reaper: Fiend Warlock, enjoys using the Hurl Through Hell ability just a little too much and if it wasn’t so powerful people would complain about it.

Soldier: 76: Battle Master Fighter, the kind of person you think of when you think of “Chaotic Lawful”.

McCree: Hunter Ranger, generally a good guy but sometimes his shady-ass skill set makes you wonder.

Pharah: Eldritch Knight Fighter, favorite tactic is to cast Fly on herself and then bring death from above with her bow.

Tracer: Transmutation Wizard, known for her cheery attitude in battle and deadly combo of Haste, Misty Step, and Magic Missile.

Sombra: Thief Rogue, likes to do solo sneaking which people would complain about if she wasn’t so good at making it easier for them to follow her.

Edit: Please please for the love of god ask me questions about why I picked the classes/subclasses I did and how I would build these characters and what spells and feats I would pick and how I would build parties with them please let me geek at you about D&D and Overwatch.

Edit: Wow I really wish there was a better way to reply to replies! But this basically came about because I saw a post about how 90% of Mercy mains absolutely hate their teams all the time.

I don’t actually play Overwatch, but I’m a slut for the lore and in D&D I play a lot of healers - your clerics, bards, and druids. And what I have learned is that like yeah healing the other people in your party is cool but man you want to blow shit up too instead of spending all your time/spell slots keeping your party upright when this was a shitty plan to begin with. So it started with Mercy Is The Life Cleric Who Resists The Urge To Not Prepare Healing Spells and then it all went downhill from there lmao.

Imagine the first time Oliver had a craving for peanut butter post-breakup and realized he no longer had any reason not to eat it because he didn’t have to worry about Felicity’s allergy anymore.

Now imagine the first time Felicity saw Oliver eating peanut butter post-breakup.

Are you crying with me yet? No? Okay how about this?

“Is that peanut butter?” Felicity asked, her brow wrinkled in confusion as she watched him scoop a spoonful out of a jar.

Oliver spun to face her, plunking the spoon back into the mostly full container. “What?”

“Nothing, you just… you never eat peanut butter.”

“Oh,” he said, glancing awkwardly down at his snack before clearing his throat. “Yeah, I haven’t had it in a long time. I just had a craving and, you know, Susan isn't—”

He cut himself off, biting on his lip painfully to keep the words inside. She didn’t need to hear that. But from the sudden realization that crossed her face she’d gleaned the end of that sentence all on her own.

“She’s not allergic,” she said, looking at the jar with pinched lips and a sharp stinging in her chest. She knew she shouldn’t feel this way. It wasn’t fair, to either of them. It was just a stupid jar of peanut butter; it didn’t mean anything anyway, but…

“I don’t really like it that much,” he said suddenly and she looked back at him, at the repentant expression of his face.


“The peanut butter,” he explained. “I guess I lost my taste for it. It’s okay, but it’s not as good as…” He trailed off, the words on the tip of his tongue. Other things. You. Instead he said, “as I remember.”

Are you crying now? Cause I’m crying now.

Smash or Pass -Calfreezy

Anonymous said to simplysdmn:Could you do a Calfreezy imagine where you’re a youtuber and secretly dating so when he does the smash or pass video your name comes up and he gets mad/protective??

A/N: Hey! I hope you like this! I had fun writing this! I changed it up a little bit but I hope you like it anyways!

Cal’s POV

“Ok but Sarah only has like 600 thousand subscribers, this is so unfair JJ.” Lux said, putting his face in his hands.

“I don’t care what he says; it’s a smash from me.” I said, laughing along with JJ.

“Well, alright then, next one!” We played alone for a couple more minutes, Lux’s response being Sarah wouldn’t approve and so forth.

“Cal you really need to at least have one smash bro, you’re ruining the game!” Jide exclaimed.

“Ok fine!” He sighed while I laughed.

“Ok so Y/N Y/L/N, smash or pass?” My mouth dropped open and I had to cover it up by pretending to yawn. I looked over at JJ who was already saying stuff like “the things I would do to her” making me clench my jaw and ball my fingers into a fist.

No one knew that Y/N was my girlfriend and I really had no idea that she was going to come up within these girls. I couldn’t really get mad at JJ because he had already put Sarah in the girls and he didn’t know that we were dating. I looked over at Cal who was already saying something about subscribers and Sarah and Jide who was rolling his eyes.

“Oh my God, Cal are you listening to him?” He laughed. I cleared my throat, getting out of my thoughts.

“Eh, yeah.”

“So Callum, smash or pass?”

“Smash.” I could feel my face heating up , which Cal had noticed. It was a habit of mine when I talked about someone close to me.

“Wait! Callum do you know something about her?” Lux questioned sitting up.

“No, what makes you think that?”

“Nothing in particular.” He looked over at JJ and laughed.

“Honestly, I’d fuck her so hard.” JJ said. I looked over at him giving him a death stare. “What? I’m being honest! You can’t tell me she’s not hot and you wouldn’t want to? I mean look at her? And I know she watched these videos so Y/N, it’s a very big smash from me!” JJ exclaimed.

“I agree with JJ, if I wasn’t with Sarah of course.” I looked over at Lux, giving him death stare.

“Look at her Cal! Did you see the pictures she posted when she went to the beach? She look bare good you know.”

“Yeah, I saw.” I gritted my teeth. “I’d rather you not talk about her like that. I actually know her personally and I wouldn’t want ruin our relationship.”

“Define relationship?” Lux leaned slightly over JJ to get a closer look at me.

“Why does it matter?”

“Because, you’re acting like she’s your girlfriend.” JJ laughed.

“Well, maybe she is.” I muttered hoping none of them heard.

“Wait, Lux did you hear that? I heard that. ‘Maybe she is’? Maybe she’s your girlfriend?” JJ hit Lux’s shoulder out of sudden outburst.

“I’ll tell you if promise to edit this out.” He nodded frantically.

Y/N and I met at a Youtubers event last summer. At first she really didn’t like me, she thought I was obnoxious and stuck up but after a while these opinions vanished and she grew to like me. To my surprise she wanted to take this friendship further and I agreed. I was whipped and I fell in love with her. Once I explained it to them, they were dumbfounded.

“Well, well, well, who ever thought Mr Callum Airey would ever fall in love?“ Lux smiled at me.

“For real though, congrats man. I heard she’s a really nice girl so don’t treat her bad and it’s finally time you’ve settled down!” JJ laughed. We then went on to continue the video.


I sat down at my desk and logged into my computer. The first thing I did was check my business emails; answering a few and forwarding some to my manager. I then proceeded to check my personal email where most of it was just promo for shops and businesses but I also had one sent from JJ.

JJ and I had been friends for a long time, I’d met him at a gaming event a couple of years ago and ever since then we’ve been good friends. Knowing how JJ is he did have his sexual remarks and jokes but I always laughed and dismissed them because he was like a brother to me.

So when I saw this email, I really didn’t know what expect. I clicked it open and saw it was a little snippet of the Smash or Pass video he’d done with the two Cal’s. Callum had already told me that he had told them that we were dating because I had come up in the video. I watched the whole video out of curiosity and mostly because I was bored but it was quite funny to see Cal contain himself when JJ started talking about me.

I clicked onto the email and felt a bit wary of the message he’d left at the top which read ‘Enjoy’. Callum started explaining how we met at how i initially felt about him but how I grew to like him and stuff. He’d told me he told them that so I was quite confused why JJ would send me this.

“Honestly, I first saw her, I was completely in shock because I watched her YouTube videos before hand and it didn’t feel real. It was like love at first sight. She was literally an angel. She was and still is matter of fact the most beautiful woman I had ever seen so when she turned me down the first time, I was like nope I’m going to keep trying.” I teared up a bit when he said this because I never knew he felt like this.

“And the other day, I was with the guys and a few of them were like lusting over her Instagram and it took every fibre of my body not to beat the shit out of them because when you see guys doing that to your girlfriend it makes you mad, vulnerable and not good enough, you know what I mean?” Lux nodded and JJ muttered he agreed.

“So, I kept silent because I didn’t want to start anything because I know she wouldn’t want me to and honestly it just wouldn’t feel right. Anyways back to the point. I’m completely and utterly in love with her but she doesn’t know because I don’t know how to tell her.” I started sobbing quietly because I didn’t know he felt like this. I finished the rest of the video and wiped my tears and decided to FaceTime him.

“Hey! What’s up?” He answered immediately.

“Hi. Just been watching some stuff. Are you free to come over today?” I asked, hoping he’d say yes.

“Yeah! Wait, have you been crying? Oh God, you have. I’m coming over right now.” I began to explain to him not worry that I wasn’t upset it was more of a happy cry but he didn’t seem to want to understand, so I laughed at him and told him I’d seen him in a bit.

I made myself somewhat decent, just by fixing my hair and putting on a a cleaner hoodie. It wasn’t even 45 minutes until I heard the apartment phone ring. I opened the gates for him and opened the front door slightly so I wouldn’t have to get up to answer the door.

I heard him frantically take off his jacket and shoes at the front door and yell for my name. I called out for him and told him I was in my room. I got up and gave him a long hug and kiss before directing him to my bed.

Once we were comfortable, we started talking about our day and what we were going to do for the rest of the day. We then fell into a comfortable silence.

“Is everything alright? Why were you crying?” He broke the silence unexpectedly but I knew he was going to ask.

“JJ sent me something and it made me quite emotional,” he had already opened his mouth to say something but I cut him off. “Before you start saying you’re going to kill him because we both know you won’t it was a happy kind of emotional to keep it together Airey!” He grinned at me.

“Ok fine, so are you going to show me?” I nodded and grabbed my iPad off of my nightstand. I clicked into the email app and opened the email. I shuffled around a bit so he could see making sure we were both comfortable. Once he saw the thumbnail he gave me a weird look.

“I thought you watched the video.”

“I did but just watch.” I smiled. I played the video and all the emotion came back, tear falling out of my eyes but I wiped them away as quickly as I could but I had the biggest smile on face.

Once the video was done, I sat on his lap, facing him. “That was probably the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard that’s ever come out of your mouth.” I laughed softly. He looked away which made me frown.

“Cal? Whats wrong?”

“I didn’t want to say ‘I love you’, in your bedroom.” He chuckled.

I shrugged because I really didn’t care. He could’ve said while we were in the bathroom I really wouldn’t have cared.

“Cal, I don’t care. As long I’m with you, I’m happy.” He sighed.

“Well, Y/N, I do love you, so much. You really do mean so much to me. Honestly, I do understand if you’re not ready to say it but I do love you.” I smiled and just kissed him.

“I love you too.”

New Active Passive Scale?

I feel like this is pretty late game to be making some tweaks to my theories and whatnot lol buuut I’ve been thinking about the Active to Passive scale of the homestuck classes again, and Ive come up with something better than what I had before, which was basically this

and in thinking about it again and now that Homestuck is over, some things seem more obvious in retrospect, like Thief being the best candidate for Most Active, as well as Page being best candidate for Most passive, something I’ve even debated against in the past! lol

and that had me beginning from scratch with this

Lord - Thief ——– Page - Muse

and then THAT had me thinking that what if it was simply scaled along the inversions?

just like how Lord and Muse invert to eachother, and Thief and Page do, what if the next in lines also all match up inversion wise too?

and that got me THIS scale:

Lord - Thief - Prince - Witch - Knight - Maid - Mage -/- Heir - Bard - Rogue - Seer - Sylph - Page - Muse

which, when I looked at the actual active passive pairs as well got me this:

Lord is Opposite to Muse

Thief is 8 Higher than Rogue

Prince is 6 Higher than Bard

Witch is 4 Higher than Heir

Knight is 8 Higher than Page

Maid is 6 Higher than Sylph

Mage is 4 Higher than Seer

this seems to form another pattern as well that suggests that in the separate inversion quadrants, disparities in active/passive level are equally greater or lesser than other closer or further quadrants

for instance Relocation Inversion Application, aka Thief/Rogue/Knight/Page

There is a larger activity disparity in this quadrant between the active classes and their passive counterparts, which makes sense, the more active a class the more passive its inversion would be in comparison. Both Thief and Knight are much more active to Page and Rogue their actual counterparts

suggesting that the quadrant of Thief/Rogue/Knight/Page is one with harsher lines between passivity and activity

then the opposite example is the Witch/Heir/Mage/Seer quadrant, where the active are only 4 higher than their passive counterparts, and the classes themselves are much more “middle of the scale” without making each class itself middle of the scale, witch is still very active and seer is still very passive, but the quadrant itself is much more closely knit in its balance

then of course Prince/Bard/Maid/Sylph is very evenly in the middle of the distribution boths ways, again without sacrificing each individuals classes active or passive nature

So I Think I am actually going to start seeing the Active/Passive scale in this way

Its, pretty different than the one I had before, I’m not sure about some placements personally, like the very active of the passives Heir (ive always seen Heir as strongly Passive)

but you know what whether or not Heir acted actively or passively was a discussion back in the day where different people saw it differently, so maybe thats because it was on the active end of passive afterall, and it just wasn’t on my radar because of my own views and honestly the line of Rogue - Seer - Sylph - Page just feels so Right to me, even Bard being right after Heir I can accept grudingly

its weird how coming back to something you havent thought of in a long while lets you get a fresh perspective on things

so yeah, I might be going back and updating some posts that reference an active passive scale lol

OT4 Nonsense:

So I literally snorted up my tea when I saw @hchano new comic

and I couldn’t resist writing a follow up drabble for my OT4: 

::Nino and Alya walking home later that day::

“Hey Babe?”


“You think Mari’s cute right?”


“Like you can appreciate that she is an objectively attractive person who happens to also be your best friend.”

“Uh huh.”

“And you can see where the attraction would be in being involved with her without actually needing to pursue anything further because you’re best friends.”

“Are you worried that I am going to leave you for Marinette?”

“No! I am just saying that you can be in a perfectly platonic relationship and still have a deep appreciation for her as an attractive and desirable potential life mate.”


“And that doesn’t make you gay.”



“Because I’m Bi.”

“… shit.”

“Is this about your crush on Adrien?”

“What? No! Who said anything about that! I never said… did he say something? Because I haven’t said… I mean, what crush on Adrien.”

“God damn it honey you couldn’t have held out for two more weeks? Now I owe Mari dinner AND movie tickets.”

“You two were betting on me developing feelings for my best bro behind my back?”

“What do you mean developing, you and Adrien have been low key dating since November, we were betting on how long it would take you to notice.”

“What are you even talking about?”

“Honey, you pack him lunches.”

“That’s because Nathalie has him on this disgusting all natural diet plan! Of course I have to make sure he’s fed!”

“And what about the fact that you text him first thing every morning?”

“I text you too! You love my morning wake up texts! It’s not my fault that neither of you can be bothered to go to sleep at decent hours like normal people and someone has take care of you bo- oh my God I’m dating Adrien.”

I drew Sara Ramirez as a superhero because I’m extra and gay.

No but seriously I saw @pieces-falling-from-me made this post and I was like, “Yeah, she is a superhero,” and then I was like, “You know what you haven’t done in a long time? Drawn Sara Ramirez. DO IT NOW.” 

She has a shield because she works hard to protect LGBTQ youth and she has Wonder Woman’s Lasso of Truth because of how she promotes speaking your own truth. Her superhero name is the Activist. 

I used her 2012 Latina Magazine shoot as a pose reference. There actually isn’t a full body of this pose except for the behind the scenes video so I paused and screen shot the tracking shot up her body and then pieced the screen shots together. Because–as I said before–I’m extra and gay.

I’m also super lazy about shading so that looks bad but I’m happy with the rest of it.

I never realized how loud the bi pride flag colors are until I did this.