because you know thats just how life is sometimes

anonymous asked:

may i request both of your crush headcanons (ex: how they act/treat their crush, would they pass notes, any specific things they do JUST for their crush, etc etc) for the hosts + haruhi? :oo i'm curious to see what you two think!

 awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yeah (GOMEN IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE POSTED ANYTHING SO HAVE THIS RLY LONG HEADCANON POST)


Tamaki:

  • Tamaki is dense as hell about his crush but you guys already knew that so at first he’s just putting the charms on you because he sees beauty in you just like he does with his clients
  • and he’ll just attempt to spend as much time with you as possible and call you sweet nicknames and his usual princely shit but then he suddenly starts to realise w h o a h i really like doing this kind of stuff around you
  • he ends up trying to rope you into the host cub family and gets you involved with all their shenanigans and you just end up being swept along with the tide like gdi tamaki
  • and then he starts getting JEALOUS whenever anyone else especially tHOSE SHADY TWINS gets a bit too close to be considered friendly and at first he just thinks ‘well they’re a part of our family, im just being protective’ but then Kyoya’s just like ‘nope. not doing this shit again. you like them. in a romantic sense not a family one gdi tamaki you want to be their boyfriend now stfu.
  • que sudden realisation on tamaki’s part
  • and he doesn’t really know how to act around you now so he just decides to up the charm (and gets really flustered at the same time and usually ends up embarrassing himself horribly by staring at you for too long when you’re walking together and careening into a pole or something).
  • *PRINCELYNESS INTENSIFIES*
  • put it this way; to him a moment when he doesn’t have your attention is a moment wasted
  • senpai wants to be noticed so badly
  • plz notice him and put him out of his misery

Haruhi:

  • dude. its Haruhi. she has no clue that she even likes you.
  • but its pretty clear to everyone else so there’s that
  • she just makes an effort to spend time with you and hang out and she’s just always there being nice and helpful and friendly and w o w be still my beating heart just look at that smile
  • she’s so unbelievably good to you like ‘you’re worried about an upcoming test??? we can study together at my house. i’ll cook dinner!’ 
  • ‘you need notes from that class you missed?? i’ll copy out mine for you.’ 
  • ‘you lost your phone?? i’ve got time lets spend the next three hours traipsing around the building calling it until we hear it.’
  • she pretty much sees you as one of her closest friends who she admires very much because you’re really great and talented and attractive in her eyes and she - wait what attractive??
  • ‘oh.’
  • ding dong you got it Haruhi.
  • and now she’s just a big flustered MESS around you at all possible times and trying her best not to show it because is this okay am i too close or not close enough do oh no have they twigged because im acting weird they can probably tell what if they dont feel the same way somebody please kill me god damn
  • eventually Kyoya figures it out of course and sometimes he makes very sly comments when you’re around, hinting that she likes you and Haruhi just has to kind of discreetly kick him like stfu kyoya u heinous space herpe
  • not to mention the way her head just SNAPS to a conversation whenever you’re mentioned and yeah we all knew it Haruhi you are just too cute for words.

Hikaru:

  • YOU MEAN AFTER HE GETS OVER HIS GIANT DENIAL BECAUSE SWEET MAMA THAT BOY IS DENSE WHEN IT COMES TO HIS OWN FEELINGS
  • yeah at first he’s gonna avoid you like the plague because what is happening to him why the hell is he reacting so strongly wtf all u did was pIC K UP A PenC IL G oD
  • okay so AFTER Haruhi, Kaoru and Honey smack sense into him and he comes to terms with it its great because he’s not competing against his brother or anyone else this time so yeah he just gOES FOR IT
  • Hikaru will legit resort to any means to get your attention/an excuse to hang out
  • any means
  • srsly he’s the kind of guy who’ll throw notes at your head in class just so that you both get detention or nick your wallet or something when youre not looking just so he can ‘find’ it for you later
  • ‘you’re failing that class?? WHAT A COINQUIDINK im failing too we should totes have a study date or something’
  • ‘oh dear i seem to have spilled my coffee all over you whoops SO sorry here take my shirt and lemme walk you to class’
  • he really does take off his shirt. this boy has no shame.
  • and whaaaaaaat??? rumours that you two are dating??? he totally didnt see this coming or hope those would spring up but hey you know thats not such a bad idea >;D
  • prepare for him to be super jealous all the time whenever you talk to other people like ‘whoah hey wtf hikaru i was in the middle of a conversation’ ‘no dont talk to them i swear on my life they were leering at your ass. im just looking out for you here, they’re probably a sexual deviant. bad news stay away.’
  • whatta dweeb

Kaoru:

  • he’s so nice what the hell Kaoru this level of selflessness is inhuman i stg
  • he just loves spending time with you and hanging out and doing things together this puppy is pretty much at your beck and call what a sweetie
  • of course that doesn’t mean you’re exempt from the light jokes and teasing that accompanies it
  • he’s basically at your side as much as he’s at his brothers (which means that you now have both of the twin’s attention well done prepare for hell and mischief)
  • but he pretty much makes himself your own personal superman like ‘wHOOPS you nearly tripped lucky i was there to catch you’ and ‘you’re off sick?? ill copy my notes for you. also what kind of soup do you like cause im coming over’
  • Kaoru is fun! He’s the kind of guy who’ll just text you like ‘are you busy?? not anymore there’s a carnival in town so get dressed, im waiting outside!’ and then he just drags you off and its loads of fun and youre just like ????? are u just being a fun friend or do u like me????
  • yeah thats another thing he’s so good of a friend that it becomes really hard for you to tell that if he actually has the dokis for you or if he’s just really friendly because he’s not FLIRTING with you like he does when he’s hosting and its confusing, but really he’s treating you differently and genuinely because he does actually like you and he wants you to stop treating him like just a friend AND ITS ALL VERY CONFUSING and absolutely perfect for a tense confession scene aww yeah aHEM we’ll totally write that if u guys request it
  • also prepare for Hikaru to get tired of waiting for his bro to make a move and attempt to be his wingman and he’s just dropping hints everywhere BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO BE CATCHING ON
  • Hikaru is 4378436% done with both of you. ‘omfg just kiss already you’ll make a lot of people happy’
  • the host club has started a betting pool on which one of you is gonna break and confess first lets just say Haruhi ends up with a LOT of moolah by the end of this charade

Kyoya:

  • the denial is strong in Kyoya ohhh boy
  • YOU THINK HIKARU’S BAD YOU CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO FATHOM THE SHEER AMOUNT OF DENIAL THAT IS HAPPENING HERE like he’s used to being charming and suave with his clients but this is different he actually has feelings for you???? huh??????? what is he supposed to do with those????
  • feelings are too much hassle goodbye
  • its likely that Kyoya would try to shove these feelings into a box in the corner of his mind and never ever ever think about you or how you make his heart do weird things or how nice you look when you laugh or how attractive your smile is and god fucking dammit
  • and even though he’s trying to suppress what he deems to just be a ‘distraction’ his soft spot for you still shows in ways he doesn’t realise until after he’s done it
  • ‘oh my god did i just offer them a discount what the hell is WRONG with me’
  • /i wont say im in love plays softly in the distance/
  • once he actually comes to terms with his feelings tho he starts PLANNING
  • if he’s going to do this whole ‘crush’ thing he’s gonna do it RIGHT gosh darn it.
  • he ends up using the host club to his advantage by making sure that they’re always serving your favourite food or doing a theme you like cause hey if it gets you there, he’s happy.
  • expect to run into him everywhere and every time you somehow get roped into getting lunch at really nice and expensive places with him and eventually its like ‘???? are we on a date Kyoya??’
  • ‘Well, duh.’
  • ‘oh. cool.’

Honey:

  • Honey KNOWS he’s cute and he’ll be damned if he doesn’t use it to his advantage here
  • he is affectionate as hell and he’s always around you or holding your hand or giving you hugs or sometimes when he gets really confident or ahead of himself he’ll plant big kisses on your cheeks and HE GETS AWAY WITH IT because everyones just like ‘awww thats Honey-senpai for ya’
  • tbh about half of your life is spent sitting at his table eating with him because how can you say no to a face like that
  • but here’s the kicker *drumroll*… he saves food for you
  • i know right
  • like if he knows you’re coming today he will find your favourite flavour bring it to his table and protect it with his life if he has to no one is allowed to touch the desserts he saves for you
  • its terrifying tbh
  • Mori totally knows about his big fat crush tho and most of his time is spent hovering over Honey’s shoulder whispering ‘tell them’
  • ‘IM WORKING ON IT TAKASHI’
  • he’s confident - maybe even overly so - in interacting with you as his crush, and later as your s/o,  but we think he’d actually be pretty nervous about the actual confession part 
  • like he’s super worried that you only see him as this little brother figure and he knows that you smiling at him in that way that makes his stomach flip when he does something cute doesn’t equal attraction and you guys are pretty much surrounded by these other hot people who people are falling all over and bless his soul youre perfect just the way you are Honey don’t ever change you can be cute and a boyfriend at the same time my darling

Mori:

  • bruh. Mori is so unbelievably chill about this.
  • in fact, he’s SO chill that it presents a problem because it’s almost impossible for anyone but Honey to figure out that he likes you at all.
  • THIS MAN IS TOO TALENTED AT HIDING HIS BLUSH.
  • the one big factor? He talks more when you’re around. you bring out his more talkative (and flirty) side because he really just wants to keep your attention.
  • and you’re like ???????????????????????? did big silent Mori just FLIRT with you???
  • hell yes he did and you better respond my friend
  • doki doki
  • while he really wants to hang out with you he’s sometimes not exactly not sure how to ask, and that’s where Honey comes into the picture
  • Honey will often drag you along to spend time with him and Takashi and then have some sort of ‘emergency’ thats causes him to abscond so you’re left with Mori and Mori has no qualms whatsoever about this
  • PS Honey is a matchmaking genius
  • He also likes having study dates with you because you guys get to spend time together without relying on conversation to keep it going (also because he gets to call it a date and it makes him feel all wibbly inside)
  • spoiler alert: Mori is actually adorkable when it comes to romance
  • when he finally does confess its gonna be romantic (and surprising) as hell aww yeah

- Admin Kits and Beckett

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Low and behold, I am FINALLY doing a follow forever something I said would do after I hit 2k. I may be a little late but it’s here and I am here to dedicate a post to all my fave mutuals and people who I have been following for awhile. 

If I missed anyone, I’m so sorry this was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through in my life and I’ve had depression so! thats saying a lot

Bold = my fave mutuals whom I love seeing on my dash and have made Tumblr less hellish.

Italics = mutuals who I silently admire from far away because I’m shy sometimes smh. 

My ultimate faves:

@thirlwallsjade BRUnAAAA!!! you already know your my number one bitch, the most beautiful and smartest and funniest girl i’ve ever met like i don’t know how you always be doing that but you doing it, and everything you say or do is iconic in my eyes just know this, so whenever you feel like you not doing good, i am ALWAYS thinking you doing your greatest, i love you so much and i’m like headass half asleep right now tryna express all my feelings to youhgsihg but!! bitch you should know i always got your back like there is truly nothing i wouldn’t do for you i got your back whenever bitch just lemme know and i’ll pull up on sight for you, like i said before sis, i would fight my FEARS for you.

@harryedwards rachel my love!!1 i cant express enough how much i love you like truly you are the greatest person, everything i could ever ask for in a friend, like honestly thank you so much for making me laugh everyday even when i don’t feel like it, like bitch just talkin to you put me in a good mood bc i KNOW you gon make me smile like i love you bitch, every wholesome loving meme is me to you (even when you say sum dumb shit), aslo youre fucking samrt as hell whenever you be going off to something about me im just sitting there staring a my phone like some damn fool bc i love u and i would really move mountains for you.

@httplaurmani MY WIFEEE!!! bithic we been known each other for like 4-5 months but i LOVE you bitch i would really kill a man for you and we stay talkin shit to each other but its all love bc you probably the only one who call out all my white men faves bc you just tryna show me the light. i love youbtihc thakkns for marrying me and helping me run a drug cartel

@wlwjauregui lizzie u already know i love you bitch like you always make me feel good about myself and u always checkin in on me and i really do love you and i hope life gives you everything you need in life bc you deserve that and more bc youre a literal angel i love u sis.

@adashofniallandasprinkleoflunacy umm i hate u bitch but u make me laugh everytime we talk and we always talk shit about harry so thanks for listening to me whine about my mans i love you bitch, and the next time you photoshop me bald ima cut you the fuck up

@allwedos i would really go to war for liberty like idk why but i feel so protective over you bitch like i would really lose an arm and a leg to make sure youre happy bc you the softest person i’ve met besides myself and i just want you to have the WORLD because you deserve everything good.

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What annoys them the most about their partner? Would they change it if they could?

Tonys eyes widen he looks down.

Peter: “What annoys me the most. Hm i guess when he is in his workshop for a few days without talking to anyone.”

Tony closes his eyes. His lips pressed together.

Peter: “That he sometimes forgets to eat.”

Tony nods.

Peter: “Well, thats it.”

Tony opens his eyes again. He gasps.

Peter: “But i wouldn’t change a thing about him.”

Tony: “Huh?”

Peter looks to him and smiles softly.

Peter: “I know that you still can’t believe that. But i do love you starlight. I don’t love a perfect person and thats completely alright. I’m not perfect either. Of course i’m sometimes sad when you are down there three days. But i love to carry you when you fall asleep there. And i’m frustrated sometimes when Jarvis tells me you haven’t eaten again. But then i can cook for you and feed you. I wouldn’t change a thing about you. Never!”

Tony wipes his eyes. He smiles shyly back.

Tony: “T-thank you.”

Peter: “I will remind you of that for the rest of our lives.”

Tony: “Stop making me cry.”

Peter kisses Tonys cheek.

Tony swallows and tries to calm himself.

Peter: “So what is annoying about me?”

Tony: “What happens if i say nothing?”

Peter: “Come on. Tell me.”

Tony: “Alright. Its annoying that he snores in his sleep. Sometimes i can’t sleep because of that…. but i also cant sleep without it.”

Peter laughs.

Tony: “Oh and that he always make me blush in front of our friends.”

Peter laughs even harder.

Tony: “And that he laughs at me!”

Peter kisses him between his laughter.

Tony: “But yeah i wouldn’t change anything about him.”


What do they fight about? What are their arguments like? How do they make up?

Peter: “Ohh. We fight after a battle. A lot.”

Tony: “Because somehow you seem to think that i can’t protect myself!”

Peter: “What no? I know that you are strong even without the suit. But you risk your life too often!”

Tony: “Pah i’m a superhero thats what i do for a living!”

Peter: “Are you kidding me? I know that! Just sometimes you could wait for me to catch up!”

Tony: “Its not my fault you are always so slow.”

Peter grins a bit.

Peter: “Maybe i’m just enjoying the view.”

Tony sputters.

Peter: “If you know what i mean.”

Tony slaps his shoulder.

Tony: “Stop that!”

Peter grins and bites his underlip. Tony yelps and sits on his lap.

Peter chuckles.

Peter: “Our arguments are exactly like that.”

Tony grumbles.

Peter: “We fight the most when we are worried about the other one. And then this results in a fight. But sometimes its enough when Tony comes out of his suit because his eyes are already wet then and i can’t help myself so i always kiss him senseless.”

Tony giggles against Peters neck.

Peter: “Also have you seen his butt in the under suit?!”

Tony laughs loudly and slaps Peter again.


What are they like in the bedroom? Any kinks/fetishes/turn-ons? Anything they won’t do?

Tony: “Peter they can’t ask us that!”

Peter grins.

Peter: “A gentleman never tells.”

Tony blushes a deep red and grins back.

Peter: “Hmm so nothing special. A few kinks yeah. Just nothing with blood or anything. But Tony has a few cute things he can wear. I like that a lot….”

Tony shuts Peter up and waves.

Tony: “Thats it for today!”

Peter: “But you look so great in it!”

Tony giggles.

Tony: “Oh i know.”

I just read an article in which they said instead of asking ‘are you suicidal?’ people should ask ‘would death feel like a welcome relief to you right now?’. And that hit me, because at this point I wouldn’t define myself as suicidal, I surely wouldn’t do anything to bring myself life dangerous harm. But god, does death sound peaceful sometimes.

polyamorous pansexual jane and her bi boys:

  • jane can sense peoples emotions but when it comes to people w crushes on her?? does not compute. boys you’re fighting an uphill battle
  • honestly can these three just open their mouths and be honest you’re getting in your own damn way
  • surprise surprise the isle isn’t the best place to learn Emotions and Healthy Relationships and jane is low-key having to deal w all that drama almost every time they’re having problems
  • she’s good w emotions but people you need to work with her
  • its a good thing she’s immortal bcuz thats how long she needs to wait for isle kids to tell their problems
  • carlos first becomes friends w her when it turns out she knows about the history of recording technology (she learned it because she’d been doing an experiment on it for funnies) and it turns out that having intellectual equals in true nerdy shit is a Thing for him.
  • jays super frustrated because tourney and ROARs great but sometimes you just wanna punch something as hard as you can and split your knuckles okay?? turns out janes got magic strength and heals quick. and a lot of frustration w her life and auradon in general and wants to punch someone too. they Bond. and punch each other.
  • jane realises just how traumatising their lives were and her compassion switch is flicked. dear god they’re so messed up this is not okay. why. she makes cupcakes and cookies to help them when they’re down, but makes sure she isn’t going overboard because she knows how smothering that can be. also because they’re both more malnourished than they should be and jane wants to change that.
  • she makes them winter clothes - evie’s good but she needs time to have a life and rest. jane doesn’t sleep unless she’s THAT bored and has Mastered knitting and crochet. her sweaters are the warmest, softest clothes you’ll ever wear. she makes them for all the VKs, tailored to their sizes and colour choices. also sometimes does weasley sweaters and it turns out that the VKs are enough in number to spell out dirty words. jane takes photos of it. its hilarious
  • when the feelings™ are established, jane once does the kiss-fingers-press-forehead thing and jay just. blushes. beet red and its the first time he’s ever been this flustered?? wow jay never seen a human being go that red before. (carlos is just as bad. janes cute. everything she does is cute. these boys are in cuteness hell)
  • turns out jane watches hair tutorials on youtube and is really good at them?? jay looks like the characters from Vikings for weeks. ragnar lothbrok ain’t got nothing on him
  • jane’s way of showing affection for her boys mostly amounts to grabbing their faces and saying “I love you and your happiness is Important To Me”
  • who knew people so smart can smile like morons??
  • jane and jay and carlos are kinda like willow and oz in Buffy the Vampire Slayer?? theyre kind offbeat and quirky and earthy and can sit quietly happily but also find each other great - theyre all the best thing ever
  • also janes kind of a spitfire once you dig deep enough? she’s got a lot of passion and she’s smart enough to use it well. she’s also really snarky when she’s mad. jay and carlos love it. its like the best aspects of people on the isle are all in her along w all the kindness of auradon?? god they love her
  • also WOW their sex lives can get kinky, when they get around to it. magic is great.

anonymous asked:

Hey Nini ^,^ Thanks for all your hard work, we love you so much <3 I was wondering, did you watch Ookiku Furikabutte? It's a sports manga / anime that has some pretty obvious shonen-ai elements in there ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) the anime has 2 seasons in 2006 and 2010, it also has adorkable characters & cuteness overload, I figured since you liked HQ you'll looove this one, I'm sure all the fujodanshis who watched it loved it & I really hope you watch it too because that's how much I love you <3

You know… I’m sports anime trash. 
Give me sports anime, that’s all I need in life. 

But for some weird reason I have a problem with Baseball. It’s like Tennis… it bores me to death. I tried Daya no Ace 3 times. I love the characters, but the baseball parts are so boring. Same with Oofuri. I know it has BL elements and GOD I LOVE THE CHARACTERS SO MUCH but I keep losing interest as soon as the games start and then I procrastinate continuing… I tried Oofuri twice. 
Sometimes I’m just not in the right mood, so I wait a while before trying again.
I won’t watch DNA probably but I really really reallllly wanna continue with Oofuri one day. It’s just SOOOO GOOD AND MIHASHI IS SO CUTE <3

Originally posted by adustyspectacle

When I watched Kuroko no Basket the first time I was like “Mh yeah it was okay.” because I’m not into basketball at all. But I kept thinking about it, so I rewatched it and became a huuuuge fan ^^ 
I’m weird. 

~Nini

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  • Eric Harris + psychopathy

Many psychatrists have diagnosed Eric as a psychopath. According to Dr. Langman who claims that “to understand Columbine, we need to understand Eric Harris.” Indeed, as a psychopath Eric can be considered as the leader of the massacre. Even if Dylan plays a voluntary part, analysis showed that the aggressive behavior of Eric was the main motivation. Eric considered himself as a God filled by nihilism.

I hate the fucking world, to many god damn fuckers it in. to many thoughts about societies all wrapped up together in this place called AMERICA. everyone has their own god damn opinions on every damn thing and you may be saying “well what makes you so different?”. because I have something only me and V have, SELF AWARENESS, Call it exortenstiolism or whatever the fuck u want. we know what are to this world and what everyone else is. we learn more than what caused the civil war and how to simplify quadratics in school. we have been watching you people. we know what you think and how you act, all talk and no actions. people who are said to be brave or couragous are usually just STUPID then they say later that they did it on purpose cause they are brave when they did on fucking accident. GOD everything is so corrupt and so filled with opinions little and points of view and peoples’ own little agendas and shedules. this isnt a world anymore, its H.O.E. and [no]one knows it. self awareness is a wonderful thing. I know I will die soon, so will you and everyone else. maybe will we be lucky and a comet will smash us back to day 1. people say it is immoral to follow others, they say be a leader. well here is a fuckin news flash for you stupid shits, everyone is a follower! everyone who says they arent a follower and then dresses diff. or acts diff. … They got that from something they saw on TV or in film or in life. no originality, how many JO MAMMA jokes are there and how many do u think are original and not copied. KEINE. Its a fucking filthy place we live in. all these standards and laws and Great Expectations (webb) are making people into robots even though they might “think” they arent and try to deny it. no matter how hard they try to NOT copy someone I still AM! except for this fucking piece of paper right here, and B.T.W spelling is stupid unless I say. I say spell it how it sounds, it’s the fuckin easiest way. hey try this sometime, when someone tells you something, ask “why?” eventually they will be stumped and cant answer anymore. thats because they only know what they need to know in society and school, not real life science. they will end up saying words to this “because! Just shut up!” people that only know stupid facts that arent important should be shot, what fucking use are they. NATURAL SELECTION. KILL all retards, people w/ brain fuck ups, drug adics, people cant figure out to use a fucking lighter. GEEEAWD! people spend millions of dollars on saving the lives of retards, and why. I don’t buy that shit like “oh hes my son though!” so the fuck what, he aint normal, kill him, put him out his misery. he is only a waste of time and money, then people say “But he is worth the time, he is human too” no he isnt, if he was then he would swalow a bullet cause he would realize what a fucking waste and burden he was. – 4/10/98

To sum up, Eric was not an average boy. His psychopathy was embodied in his obsession with setting fires and making bombs just because it was fun, his  fascination with Hitler and natural selection, his sadistic fantasies of raping girls he knew and ripping a knife through a human body etc. The most speaking fact was the vandalization of Brooks Brown car. After writing a fake apology letter, he posted a homicidal threat on his website, and wrote about wanting to go to the boy’s home and spit on him and his family, urinate on them, and torture them before blowing up the house.

i’d made a mistake in the third image (just because i’m human calm down, don’t burn me at the stake). it’s corrected. thanks to @kipkinky to point it.

(Please, don’t even try to insult me or say something to me like “Dylan was no follower bitch”. This is psychology, not a columbiner love letter)

April 10, 1998 - 19 years ago Eric began to write his Journal

I hate the fucking world, to many god damn fuckers it in. to many thoughts about societies all wrapped up together in this place called AMERICA. everyone has their own god damn opinions on every damn thing and you may be saying “well what makes you so different?”. because I have something only me and V have, SELF AWARENESS, Call it exortenstiolism or whatever the fuck u want. we know what are to this world and what everyone else is. we learn more than what caused the civil war and how to simplify quadratics in school. we have been watching you people. we know what you think and how you act, all talk and no actions. people who are said to be brave or couragous are usually just STUPID then they say later that they did it on purpose cause they are brave when they did on fucking accident. GOD everything is so corrupt and so filled with opinions little and points of view and peoples’ own little agendas and shedules. this isnt a world anymore, its H.O.E. and [no]one knows it. self awareness is a wonderful thing. I know I will die soon, so will you and everyone else. maybe will we be lucky and a comet will smash us back to day 1. people say it is immoral to follow others, they say be a leader. well here is a fuckin news flash for you stupid shits, everyone is a follower! everyone who says they arent a follower and then dresses diff. or acts diff. … They got that from something they saw on TV or in film or in life. no originality, how many JO MAMMA jokes are there and how many do u think are original and not copied. KEINE. Its a fucking filthy place we live in. all these standards and laws and Great Expectations (webb) are making people into robots even though they might “think” they arent and try to deny it. no matter how hard they try to NOT copy someone I still AM! except for this fucking piece of paper right here, and B.T.W spelling is stupid unless I say. I say spell it how it sounds, it’s the fuckin easiest way. hey try this sometime, when someone tells you something, ask “why?” eventually they will be stumped and cant answer anymore. thats because they only know what they need to know in society and school, not real life science. they will end up saying words to this “because! Just shut up!” people that only know stupid facts that arent important should be shot, what fucking use are they. NATURAL SELECTION. KILL all retards, people w/ brain fuck ups, drug adics, people cant figure out to use a fucking lighter. GEEEAWD! people spend millions of dollars on saving the lives of retards, and why. I don’t buy that shit like “oh hes my son though!” so the fuck what, he aint normal, kill him, put him out his misery. he is only a waste of time and money, then people say “But he is worth the time, he is human too” no he isnt, if he was then he would swalow a bullet cause he would realize what a fucking waste and burden he was. – 4/10/98


Aww, you poor thing.

She is beautiful. She is sleeping there, probably mesmerized in a nonsense dream. I can hear the silent sound of her calmed breathing. She is surrounded by an invisible halo of happiness and peace that makes her look like a goddess. And I love her, I love the way she smiles when she sleeps like if all the happiness was represented in those narrow and soft lips. I love her big brown eyes that shine so bright that they could be stars and the way they look mine when she is talking about something she likes or when she is mad. They are like two big black moons that hypnotize you and you can not get tired of them. Now they are closed, and they are still beautiful, they are two black lines that irradiate so much beauty. She looks so fragile, but I know she is strong. She awakes my soul, she is little, I know but for me she is big, in fact she is my sun, my moon and all of my stars, she is the main reason why I’m here, she gives my life a sense and guess what? She is worth that and even more. She deserves everything and sometimes I get so frustrated because she deserves the whole milky way and I just can give her a hug. I know she will never know how much I need her and I think thats ok because when people know your weaknesses they can use them against you, so I like keeping things like this to myself. She is both chaos and disaster, darkness and light, passion and hate…I love her.
—  Dear sister…

anonymous asked:

this is a little off track, but Ed, would u like to be in one of those youtube videos Jake and Jess makes? I think a lot of people here look up to you because you know how rough life can be sometimes. and I personally think you're admirable, and I relate to you the most (like many others here seem to do too). I'd love to see you talk! but, of course, only if you'd be comfortable with that. no pressure obviously. But just incase u think nobody wud wanna see u, thats not true! I'd love to <:3 ♥

Aw thank u honey. I’ve made a little segment bit n done my personality test thing. Ain’t that enough? 😂🙈 u will b sick of me before u kno it!!

anonymous asked:

I love you and your blog and I wish we were friends or could talk :) <3

Thank you!! trust me, I know how hard it is to try to throw out feelers and make friends with randos on the internet. I’m 100% not-exaggerating-for-lols terrible at holding extended conversations, but I promise it’s just because I have zero attention span and not because I try to actively ignore people… so if you want to talk sometime feel free to dm me   (・ω・)b

As 2017 is dying, anonymously send me something you’ve always wanted to tell me

anonymous asked:

Mom !!! Im proud of you for talking in chats !! Im too shy for that ... i cant even come off anon !! But i prefer it this way .. im sorry you felt uncomfortable though thats never fun !!! Maybe if you talk more it will become easier ?? I hope your day gets better !!! -squishy anon

omg IL my children!! SQUish

TY T_T It’s so hard??? I totally get y you’re on anon!!! T_T I wanna be on anon sometimes!!! We can be shy together!!! 

But like, uncomfort, is always part of life and just like !!! It’s better to have discomfort and happiness in between bcuz it keeps life interesting because no one knows how the awkwardness will be broken!! And if we had all discomfort well,, that would be AWFul!!

If I talk more, my ramblings like mine w/ you will become 10x worse,, I’d rather make a few jokes here & there and make sure no one thinks I’m crazy!! Everyone said I was a good person and I was like *gasps* Y but TYSM!! I wANNA GET TO KNOW U AND SEE  UR GOOD!! BCUZ I KNOW UR GOOD 2!! PEOPLE LIKE ME T_T I’m happy!!! !

 I HOPE YOU’RE hAPPY!!Don’T WORRY ABOUT ME LOVE!!  I’ve lived a long time w/ my minivan!! I’m good to go :)!!! U,, though,, u have so much life ahead & I know ur glowing personality will get u somewhere!! Ur so good & creative!! (have I said this before??I still wanna say it!!) BE HEALTHY,, HAVE A LONG LIFE!!! I WISH UPON U GOOD FORTUNE :D!! UR MOThER LOVES U!!

This is how I see Riley telling Farkle she has feelings for him.
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b></b> Rucas and Smarkle have been broken up a while.<p/><b>Location:</b> Riley's bedroom.<p/><b></b> Riley is sitting at her bay window. Farkle climbs through the window. He sees that she's been crying. He sits next to her.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Riley, what's wrong?<p/><b>Riley:</b> (wiping her eyes) Nothing. I'm fine.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> You don't look fine.<p/><b>Riley:</b> (stands up) Farkle, I'm ok. There's nothing wrong! Why are you here?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I wanted to check up on you. You've been avoiding me for weeks. (Looks down) I miss you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> (sits down next to Farkle) I'm sorry. I miss you too. I have alot on my mind lately.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> You don't have to deal with this alone. I'm always here for you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> (lays her head on his shoulder) I know Farkley. I'm scared.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> (holds her hand) Do you want to know what's my favorite thing about us?<p/><b></b> Riley nods.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> We can talk about anything with each other. We're supposed to be honest with one another. Please, tell me what's wrong so I can fix it. Why are you scared?<p/><b>Riley:</b> (sighs) Ok. (Stands up and starts pacing back and forth) The thing is, I realized that my feelings for someone has changed. I'm scared if I tell the person how I feel that he won't feel the same. And then it's too awkward for us to be friends. Or what if he does feel the same, and we date for a while, and then we break up? Then I lose him again. Both scenarios, I lose him as a friend, and I never want to lose him.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> What about your happiness? You can't be scared about the what ifs. Sometimes you have to take a risk and just go for it.<p/><b>Riley:</b> How did you get so sure about love?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I have this best friend, who made sure that I stay open to love, and she was right. There's more to life than science. Whoever this guy is, he better treat you right, or I'll come after him.<p/><b>Riley:</b> How do you know that he will feel the same way?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Because any guy who looks at you see a beautiful, smart, funny, nice, goofy, amazing girl. That's what I see when I look at you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> (Blushes) Thanks Farkle.<p/><b></b> Riley gives him a hug.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Do I know the guy?<p/><b>Riley:</b> You know him well?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Is it Lucas again?<p/><b>Riley:</b> No.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Zay?<p/><b>Riley:</b> No.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Please don't let it be Charlie.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Farkle, it's you.<p/><b></b> Farkle stands up.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> That's not funny Riley.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I'm serious. I'm in love with you Farkle Minkus.<p/><b></b> Farkle turns pale and faints. Riley rushes to him.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Farkle, wake up!<p/><b></b> Five minutes later.<p/><b></b> Farkle starts to get up.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Are you ok?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I think so. (Rubs the back of his head) I think I hit my head. I had a dream that you told me you're in love with me. Crazy, right?<p/><b>Riley:</b> It wasn't a dream. I'm in love with you.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> You are? Since when?<p/><b>Riley:</b> I think I have been for a long time. But I just recently realized it. You have always been there for me. We have great conversations. You always challenged me to do better. You put my happiness before yours. When we met, you saved me twice. You're my prince. I'm sorry that I didn't realized this sooner.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> (holds her hand) It doesn't matter when you realized it. All that matters to me is that you realize it. I always felt this connection that we have. It scared me. If I couldn't see it, it didn't exist to me. Love was scary to me. I saw my parents fight all the time. But you were the one who was there for me each time. You're the one who made everything better for me. You showed me what love is.<p/><b>Riley:</b> (tears in her eyes) Farkle.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> (tears in his eyes) I never told you why I have loved you since first grade, here's the reason. You were the first person to see me as me. Not as a kid with a weird name. You made me feel wanted and I never forgot that feeling.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I'm scared about losing you if we don't work out.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I'm not scared. You're the best thing to ever happen to me. I'm always going to need you in my life, whether we're dating or not. You will always be my best friend.<p/><b>Riley:</b> You mean that?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I do. I'm in love with you too, Riley Matthews.<p/><b></b> They inched closer to each other. He lifts her chin, and he kisses her passionately. She has her hands in his hair. He is holding her waist. After they stop kissing, they stare in each other's eyes.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Wow.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> That was better than I imagined.<p/><b>Riley:</b> You imagine kissing me?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> (voice cracks) No.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Really?<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Fine. Everyday.<p/><b>Riley:</b> You're a dork.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I'm your dork.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Yes.<p/><b></b> They look out the bay window.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I should go now.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Ok.<p/><b></b> They hug each other.<p/><b></b> Farkle climbs out the window. He turns around.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> You, me, relationship...<p/><b>Riley:</b> Let's do this thing.<p/><b></b> Farkle leaves.<p/><b></b> Riley jumps on her bed with the biggest smile.<p/><b></b> The end.<p/></p><p/></p><p/></p>
Some Tips on Making Original Characters

Not sure if this is the best place to talk about this since i dont really have much notoriety here, but a lot of people on DA found this helpful, so I’ll copypaste it here too! I got rid of the part where I used my characters as examples though because the images werent showing up here |D

(Disclaimer: Most of this stuff are things I’ve experienced and observed over the years and I’m just sharing my thoughts and opinions. I’m in no way a professional at character/story creation)

Also keep in mind that this is mostly advice for visual artists and not really writers. I’m not a writer so these things I’m gonna say may not apply :’D

Whenever I tell people that my original stuff is what gets the most feedback on here they always seems shocked because well, lets face it, original ideas dont get as much love on the internet than say fanart or whatever’s trending on the web. |D Because of this a lot of people often give up on thier own ideas and kinda just stick with what works for them or what gets them most feedback. But those people who I can see are passionate about their stories and characters and dont give up on them are the ones that I see having successful comics and even careers producing their own work! even though the road to notoriety is a hard one, especially if you’re working on your own thing.

Now my original stuff isnt THAT popular, but it definitely gets a significant amount of more commenters and interest than my other things, even if those things are much better drawn. It doesnt get as many favorites of course, but I think its because most people favorite for visual appeal. Plus, people seem to like my characters enough to draw giftart, request rping (even though 95% of the rp requests i get nowadays are ppl tryin to get into Sky’s pants |D) and make plz accounts from their facial expressions, so I think that counts for something! I personally dont think my characters and comics are very good, but people are enjoying them, so thats good enough for me!

Now it didnt used to be this way! Before NO ONE gave a shit about my characters or whatever it was that i was creating. |D Maybe I’d get a comment or two if I was lucky. But i didnt give up on them because well I couldnt! I’ve had these characters since childhood and I’ve grown up with them, so in many ways they’re like my children. Before DA I drew HUNDREDS of pages of comics, but I didnt care if no one read them because Ienjoyed them (and maybe a few others irl close to me). Its only when I started posting comics here (and therefore I could communicate my character’s personality and actions better than just a standalone drawing or written description) that I noticed a sudden influx of interest in my characters. While I’m flattered by the attention and it keeps me motivated to keep posting comics here, what really drives me is the love I have for these characters.  I guess what I’m getting at here is don’t make characters for people’s approval, make them because you love making stories.

I’m mainly gonna touch on how to make your characters more interesting to newcomers and not so much on character design itself. Thats for another journal lol

Make your characters DO things:
Im just gonna lay it down here right now: people wont care about your OCs UNLESS you make them DO things. (‘Do’ is a word I’m gonna use a lot here) People cant get excited about your character if all you have is a standalone drawing of them. If you do get a lot of feedback on the first pass its probably because 1) you drew them irresistibly attractive or 2) you already have a lot of followers and they’ll praise anything you’ll do. But if you dont have that skill or luck, you need to GET people excited about them. Put them in a comic! Make them solve a problem! Draw cinematic scenes with them in it! Drawing them in a blank space with no expression (or boring expressions) with no context (no matter how many times you draw them) isnt gonna get people excited about your character.

Even though I’m a character creator myself, its actually very hard for me to get invested in people’s characters. (at least online) The only times I can find myself getting interested in peoples characters is if:

1) the character is in a comic, animation, film, illustration, some visual medium and I can see their actions and judge their character. SOMETIMES I can get into characters from books and writing, but im not much of a reader and words dont get me as excited as visuals (sorry writers |D)

2) we roleplay and i see that the character is well developed through their words and actions, and the relationship between our own characters is well done and believable. This doesnt happen often but i have had good roleplaying partners in the past!

I guess its because the stuff im studying includes character development, so I’ve learned to judge whether or not a character is well or poorly done, and therefore its harder to win me over with OCs unless they’re done well. :’D This is probably the reason why adoptables arent appealing to me. Sure sometimes the design looks nice and usually the creator will put some kind of lore for the design to entice people to buy it, but it isnt enough for me to spend money on it. To me a character isnt a character unless you give them life, otherwise its really just a design in a blank space. I know obviously not everyone thinks this way and its probably because I’m not in the adoptables fad that I’m not seeing something, but thats just how I view them.

Not only that but make them interesting:
Alright this one is a no brainer. |D But a lot of people do have a hard time getting people sucked in to their character’s world. So lets say you made a comic, drew a bunch of stuff with your characters doing stuff and people still arent showing any interest in your work. (granted that you’ve been showing people your stuff and that you’re not totally unknown) Then theres probably one or two things wrong: 1. Your characters and story arent well developed or 2. Your art skill isnt conveying the right mood, expressions and atmosphere to get people sucked into the world. Even writing a novella on the character’s backstory and giving them 1000 personality traits doesnt do anything for me because I havent seen your character do anything yet. I dont care if your character’s whole clan was killed off. I dont care if your character was enslaved for 100,000 years. I dont care if your character is a half demon half werewolf half neko pangenderfluid polysexual transsquirrelkin penguin princess. If they dont DO anything interesting to get me to like them, all of those labels and traits are meaningless. Not saying that backstory isnt important, they do help give your character depth, but they wont be that important in the long run as your character grows and develops. Many reasons why I dont roleplay anymore is because of too many mary-sues and poorly written characters (among other things) and it can be frustrating |’D You may notice that I often dont like writing essays like this in my character descriptions because I just dont think theres a point until AFTER people get interested in the character first. Maybe I’ll write a paragraph about their personality, basic info and background just to hook people in, but I want to let my character’s actions show people who they are first.

My characters do need a lot of work in terms of development and design, thats why I’m making these comics so you guys can see that! Eventually I do wanna make a serious comic with actual thought and effort put into it, so right now these stupid silly comics are like testing the waters of comic making x’D

As for improving your art skill, people might not think this is a very important factor, but if you’re not good at conveying emotion with words (like me) you need to rely on your drawing and coloring skills to convey the mood you’re trying to get across effectively. (especially important if you want to be a comic artist) Amateur artwork can be distracting from getting the emotion across because we just see too many mistakes rather than focusing on what you’re trying to communicate to the audience.  I cant get invested in a character if the artwork just isnt at the level where the expressions, mood and environment arent communicating to me clearly. My favorite style of artwork is those 'cinematic’, illustrative types of artworks that kinda implies a story. Kinda like scenes you’d see in a movie. This is the type of artwork that gets me sucked in and want to know more about the character, because the emotion and expressions on the character are displayed clearly and the atmosphere of the environment is done so well to get me immersed in the world. If I wanna get invested in a non-serious story, funny comics and silly stuff can win me over, but I tend to be more picky with those. Not with the art skill so much but the actions and expressions of the characters, as well as the dialogue. I love comedy but it needs to be done well, otherwise I’ll just think its plain dumb |D

Even when I draw commissions for people I try to add these elements in to get me more engaged with the character and the drawing. Most of the time I have no idea who this character is or what they’re like, so I oftentimes have to get inside the commissioners head to see what they’re trying to get across with this scene or I have to invent a personality trait for the character to get myself more invested in this drawing. When I do this, the artwork tends to turn out better than if I had not.

How to start:
As artists, we always want people to get interested in our own ideas, but it can be hard because the things that we know about our characters and stories are completely new and foreign to others and you need to realize that people usually wont be interested at first glance. Dont force your ideas and characters on people to try to get them interested, that will just turn them off more. Instead just put your stuff out there and let them come to you naturally. Its kinda like becoming friends or falling in love, just let it happen naturally and the bond will become stronger.

If you’re new to this character making stuff, try these things out:

1. Watch shows/movies or read books/comics with your favorite characters. See why you like these characters so much and try to find out how you can make your characters just as likable. This is where most people find inspiration to make characters, including me!

2. Get inspired by people and the environment around you. Most of the time you’ll know someone that isnt like anyone you’ve seen before in tv or media. Use them as a model for a completely new character! Dont always rely on the internet for inspiration, since so many things have already been copied from something else.

3. Make a LOT of characters and weed out the bad ones. I made a LOT of characters in the past and many of them I didnt like AT ALL. I didnt completely scrap all of them, but I did try to improve them. Try to make every character unique and different, you’ll get more invested in them if they’re not cut-outs or stereotypes.

4. Try roleplaying with people. I know that sometimes people dont like doing this because they have to deal with a lot of frustrating rp partners, but if youre a newbie at making characters, this can help! It can help you with your writing and character development skills (granted that you have a good rp partner of course xD). I personally never did this when I was developing my characters, but I have seen people make great characters that started from rping.

After you’ve developed your characters to the max and your art style is on point and you think your stuff is pretty gold, but your stuff STILL isnt getting the feedback you want, just be persistent and dont give up. If you’re really passionate about what you do and you work your ass off trying to improve no matter what, eventually you’ll get a small (of maybe even really large!) following of people who will see that in your work and will adore the stuff you do. And sometimes thats all you really need to keep going! Will your audience keep being interested with what you’re doing? Maybe. Thats really up to you and where you want to take your stuff. I eventually want to take my stuff to a more serious route and I’m not sure how that will end up (not to say that I wont add some humor of course haha) but we’ll see!

Feel free to share thoughts, ask questions or correct me if I said something wrong, especially if you’re an actual professional at this stuff. :’D

I think death is the thing that scares me the most and I always believe we can die in any moment, thats why I’m a chicken and literally anything can scare me, I talk about wanting to die a lot because I hate my life so much but I don’t really mean it you know? its just because I hate my life so much and theres no other words that I can describe how much I hate my life better than saying I want to die, because sometimes giving up seems like the answer. but its just another way of me saying I want to get better, and I want this to get better. If you ever had those “wow..this is my life. this is it and this is me and I’m going to have to live with? I’m going to have to bare it? why? I’m not strong enough for this. I’m so tired I can’t do this.” and you have mental breakdowns and u fall into depression you’d know how scary that shit is, no one knows this shit is going to happen to them, no one is born depressed, even if they’re emotional and sensitive and weak nobody thinks “yeah maybe someday I’ll end my life.” no u hope for a better tomorrow you’ll say “maybe one day this will be gone, yes because nothing lasts forever one day I’ll be happier.” but what if that day doesn’t come? what if this is the weight that you have to bare all your life, this is your fate, test, “you’re one of the unfortunate ones.” the one that people will point at and say “she had a tough life.” thats what I felt when I read jonghyun’s suicide letter he was in the public eye, and he mentioned that he tried to find happiness many times, but a few days ago I guess he came to realize that this day won’t come and he gave up and he sent a message to his sister saying “Its been hard, let me go and tell me I’ve worked hard this is my farewell.”  isn’t this scary? death is the scariest and most heartbreaking thing, especially when you see the eyes of the ones that were left behind. I mean I watched the celebrities that came in and out of the funeral and I would cry. I mean what If I reach that point, what If nothing gets better and I fall into this hole. it could be you, it could be anybody. theres nothing poetic about depression or anxiety maybe when I was 12 I glamorized that shit because low key thats what happens in the internet. but people that truly experienced it would know, Its kind of shameful sometimes I wish I experienced it alone so other people wouldn’t remember that part of me, sometimes I’m scared that someone would mention it “do you remember?” I don’t know why its shameful but its also scary, and I don’t consider myself strong, not everyone that went through shit means they got out of it strong, they just sometimes barely get out of it so I’m not confident of taking care of myself if it ever happened again. 

Today I realised not all love is true love
Not every relationship is all-consuming,
Not every kiss is life-altering
Sometimes love is simple
It just makes sense
Two people fit together
And that’s all it is
But it’s still love
And it’s just as important as anything else
—  (based around caroline/stefan)

anonymous asked:

no but Pablo talking to them about life sometimes and he mentions he has a son and suddenly they all perk up like "son I want a son I want to meet the son where is son" and Pablo is so confused but that's just how they act around children ((totally not because finnick has the urge to protect them LIKE HIS SITER OOPS))

OOC: AWWWWW LIKE THE EMPLOYEES ADORE PABLO’S SON, ESPECIALLY FORMER OLDER BROTHER FINNICK. BUT PABLO IS STILL LIKE “Hell naw don’t touch him I know what horrible things you do you fuckin play with dead corpses of former nightguards when you’re bored ain’t no way I’m letting you near him.”

A year in the life of... The Aftermath. (fix it fic)

Rory was awoken from a deep slumber by a frantic knocking sound at her door.. she looked over at her bedside table and the alarm clock telling her it was 4am, whoever this was was in for a very rude and frankly insulting awakening. she swung her legs down to the floor and padded sleepily to the door where the knocking fiend was.

Groggily she rubbed her eyes and pulled the door open ‘Logan?!’ she was very shocked to see the blonde was the culprit knocking on her door, ‘What are you doing here? I mean not that im not happy to see you but this is a huge surprise last time we talked it seemed kinda final and now you are standing here at 4am with no coffee or donuts to warrant the sleep interruption.. I think my feelings can be summed up by huh?’

Logan smiled slightly, sleepy Rory was always adorable, he ran his hands through his (already mussed up) hair, ‘Hi Ace. Mind if I come in? I umm have some big news and i wanted you to be the first to hear it.’ Rory took in Logans agitated ,but somehow still extremely handsome state, damn him, she moved aside he swept past her and stared at her, he seemed to be vibrating with energy he was burning a hole in Rory when he finally spoke

‘I’ve done it.’ Rory looked at Logan warily already feelimg the pull of the Huntzberger heir ‘Done what?’ Logan laughed, it sounded slighly manic but amazingly happy to Rorys ears. ‘I’ve left the bastard and his stupid company. Its done. I told him I was through with him, through with his fucking company and most importantly through with being his bitch.’

Rory sat down, shell shocked, 'WHAT?’ Logan laughed loudly 'I’m done Ace. It’s over I told him he could respect my decisions and let me have the life I want and deserve and be a goddamn dad for once in his sorry life or… he can walk away from me and I’ll walk away from him as his employee and as his son..’

Logan paused the emotion of the situation finally gettin to him ’ It won’t surprise you to hear he didnt choose me.’ Rory came out of the trance Logans words had put her in and pulled Logan into her arms, 'I’m so sorry Logan. I know hes never been that great of a dad but even I thought he was better than this… she held Logans face tenderly in her hands ’ YOU deserve better than this.’

Logan put his hands on top of Rorys. 'I know I do.. so do you. Thats sorta why I’m here…. He took a deep breath in gathering the courage to share everything hed kept inside for years.

'I’m sorry I’ve been such an ass, I thought if I never mentioned the proposal and the ultimatum we could just carry on like normal no strings.. but I dont want that, not with you, I want you just you, but if you cant give that to me I wont walk away this time.. I’m in. I swear I’m all in. I will stay in your life in whatever capacity you choose for me because… he paused eyes filling with emotion held in for 9 long years..

'I love you, Rory.. You Gimored me the moment we danced at Richard and Emilys wedding. That was the moment I knew we were something and when you kissed me I knew that you were it.. the one….. I love you Ace. I always have and I know now I always will and if you dont feel the same way then that ok because just being in your life is enough for me.’

Rory took a step back pure love filling her entire body at Logans declaration but anger soon followed 'What?! Are you serious? You have a fiancée Logan you cant just turn up at my house in the middle of the night and tell me you love me thats not fair! I mean of course I love you too I always have but life doesnt work out how we expect it to, sometimes life just flys up over you and does a gigantic crap on your head ’

Logan reached for Rory unable to hold in the amusement at her very Rory Gilmore rant 'A gigantic crap? is that Sylvia Plath or..?’ Rory glanced at Logan thoroughly not impressed 'What do you want me to say Logan? Sure lets try again maybe this time we won’t both totally suck at being adults!’

Logan smiled softly. ’ No I don’t want you to say that, not unless you mean it. Please understand me Rory when I say I am not here to give you an ultimatum. I know that was my mistake last time… Logan looked at Rory, total reverance in his eyes,

’ You are Rory Gilmore you dont need anyone certainly not a screw up like me you are completely amazing by yourself you astound me you make everything brighter. I just want a chance to be in your life in whatever way I can. I just needed you to know how I feel, how I’ve always felt. I owe you that. Plus I dont have a fiancée anymore. I’m done with that too, I mean that was a buisness deal and since I have no buisness anymore and I am no longer technically a Huntzberger I have no need for a sham of a marriage.’ Rory stared at Logan her face totally unreadable

'Don’t you think thats what you should have lead with?’ She had tears running down her face Logan couldn’t take it anymore he inched down to her height and softly kissed her lips cupping her face gently as if he was afraid she might shatter Rory brought her arms round his waist and held him tight as if any moment he might disappear and after what she was about to share she thought that was a real possiblity.

'Logan.. I have some news too, see I was getting this weird craving for apples and poptarts and coffee made me feel so sick and I kept crying at dog commercials I mean I always cry at dog commercials but like I was sobbing…. She stopped her tangent looking at Logans amused smirk and crinkled eyes she sealed it away in her mind to hold on to when a Logan shaped hole in her door was all that remained of the love of her life standing in front of her…

'OK deep breaths.. so anyway I went to see the doctor and he told me i was preg…’ she didnt get the words out before Logan lifted her up and swung her around then brought his mouth to hers for another sweet kiss… 'Logan!’ Rory tried again ’ Didnt you hear me im pregna…’ she was interrupted once again by Logan and his lips…

'Ok you need to let me get this out because this is going to change everything you just said to me you wont want to stick around when you realise i have a bun in the ov…. Logan kissed her again silencing her once more with his mouth.

'Ace!’ Dont you think me kissing you is a sign that im actually quite satisfied with this news no pro con list necessary?!’ Rory could feel the tears, this time they were happy ones.. the happiest she had ever cried, slowly sliding down her face. She allowed herself to hope that maybe this time things wouldn’t come crashing down maybe this time they would be happy,

'You mean you want this baby… our baby.’ Logan couldnt believe that after everything he had just said Rory still doubted his feelings for her he vowed if it took the rest of his life he would convince her he was there to stay..

'Rory there is nothing I want more than to be a good father to our baby and to be a family with you a proper family one like I never had and one that you deserve to have.’ With that he kissed her once more slowly and passionately as Rory began to try to lead Logan into her bedroom laughing as she kissed every visable bit of skin on his face and neck Logan pulled away slightly.. 'Rory I have a question… does Loreilei know about this?’ Rory nodded still a little preoccupied with Logan and now the buttons on his shirt. 'Ace a follow up question…. this time will you jump?’ Rory looked confused for a second before the words finally hit her and she smiled safe in the knowledge she was completely sure of this decision and had the perfect answer to a Logans question

'You jump I Jump Jack.’ and with that the happy couple shedded their clothing as they made their way to the bedroom giggling and smiling like thay hadnt in years They knew they had a lot to work through and a lot to discuss but hey.. marriage and a baby seemed like a great jumping off point.

thats all folks… its not great but its the best I could do… my gift is my fic and this ones for you Rogan/Sophie shippers! Sorry couldn’t resist… I’ll see myself out.