I'm turning 20 in 6 days and I'm literally having an existential crisis like wtf am I going to do in the future type shit and it's stressing me out :(
Okay let me tell ya something.
I didn’t know what I wanted to do till I was 21 years old. I just turned 23. While everyone was preparing for college after high school graduation, I had absolutely no clue what I was going to do. I went through countless of options and it seemed like everyone knew what they wanted to do since freshmen year. I was lost. Because I didn’t know anything. I barely knew myself. I was only 18. I would get so upset, and cry about my future constantly because I just couldn’t find ‘my’ thing. I worried about my future, about money. About if I was ever gonna be able to leave my shitty town. But something hit me one day. That, you are in control of your own future. You can choose what you want. You can try everything out. Everything and anything. And let’s say, you don’t know what you want right now… that’s okay. You have so much time left to figure it out. You have a life full of opportunities ahead of you. You’re just getting started! You have so much time. If you’re in college right now and you’re thinking “fuck. Idk if I wanna do this anymore.” Switch your major. Research different majors, take different classes that have nothing to do with your major. I’m taking a ceramics class in the fall… i’m an English major lol i’m doing it because it’s something that’s sparked my interest. And who knows, maybe i’ll change my major? I know the future is scary. Because it’s so unknown but if you become so focused on the future and living in the future, you’ll stop forgetting to live in the present. And you’ll miss out on the right now. You will figure it out. It’s going to be okay. And it’s okay not being okay.