because throughout everything

I forgive you.

you never apologized for everything that you ever put me through and you probably didn’t even notice any of it because people usually don’t notice things they dont care about, and thats what I was to you. I was just another person that existed, I was just another person that made you feel like you were worth something.

All you ever did was make me feel incomplete. I’d look at myself for hours until I could no longer recognize anything in trying to figure out why you don’t love me in the way I put love into you.
And even if you didn’t love me in that way, why couldn’t you at least be a good damn friend.

but you never gave me a thing. and I used to stay up at night trying to convince myself that you cared about me when I knew damn well you never did.
I always knew what I was to you but I tried to ignore it for so long, I convinced myself otherwise because when you know that the person that you love, does not even give a damn about you something inside you shuts off and I couldn’t deal with that and I didn’t want to accept that so I kept trying to see something that was never there.
I think thats what destroyed me in the end, knowing the reality of what we were but trying to look past that and find something that wasn’t there.
I was looking for so long, I got lost and forgot what I was looking for.
and I forgive you.
I forgive you for all of it, I forgive you for the nights I stayed up crying because you chose her. I forgive you for leaving and then coming back just so you could leave all over again. I forgive you for the things that you said when you and i both knew you didn’t mean them. and I forgive you for using me to try and fill the hole that she left in you. I forgive you for using me as a fix for your confidence because throughout everything all I ever saw was how great you are, and all you ever did was feed of that.

and now I forgive myself.
I forgive myself for everything that I put myself through. I forgive myself for letting myself believe that you really were the greatest part of me. I forgive myself for loving you when you weren’t worth a damn thought.

because after stepping away, I see it all so clearly now. After I accepted what I really was to you, everything else made more sense.
I destroyed myself in loving you and for that I am so sorry but when I say I forgive you, I mean I forgive myself, I forgive giving so much of myself to someone that didn’t care how my day was going. I forgive myself for all the hurt I endured.

—  I have to let go, and to do that I need to forgive.

Delena Forever Ours ♡ July 8th: 2/4 Delena Scenes
→ 4x07 My Brother’s Keeper

This scene was a long time coming; it had been building up for so long. Despite it being over a season since Elena had fallen in love with Damon, she still wasn’t ready to fully accept those feelings and choose Damon. And while it wasn’t this scene or even this episode that solely made her choose to act on her feelings in full, it was a breaking point. Elena experienced Stefan’s need to change her because he couldn’t - wouldn’t love her as a vampire. All Stefan saw when he looked at Elena was a broken toy and Elena told him to let the girl who died on that bridge go… and I think she took her own advice here too. After a long day of dealing with her brother attempt to kill her and realizing that the first man she truly loved, didn’t look at her the way he use to, she came home to Damon. It was Damon who told her that he had never seen her more alive, and it was Damon who made her feel loved, when she felt like everyone around her wanted to find the cure to change her. It was Damon’s love that remained steady throughout everything because whether Elena is a human or as a vampire, it’s Damon who loves her all the same, as he’s always loved her and always will. It was this moment that Elena finally allowed herself to feel what she felt for Damon and not to feel guilty about it. 

so its me, britt, aka galaxybin and !!!! i feel like i need to spread some love, because throughout everything that has happened, my amazing mutuals have stuck with me through everything, and i want you all to know that i truly appreciate yall not abandoning me lmao. also feel free to drop by my messages and say hello !!! i always lov makin friends with my mutuals :) (im srry to ppl with side blogs that im mutuals with, it never shows up,,, fix this @ tumblr staff… but know i lov u sm and i appreciate u as well !!!)

bolded - friends (aka ppl ive talked to) yall are amazing and even if we havent talked in a while, i lov u bunches!!
italics - faves, i look up to u and ur one of my favorite blogs 

(i wanna do lil messages but tbh i could write a message about all of u and my fingers would literally fall off hehe so yea, ily all nd thank u !!!)

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This “Rey Skywalker would be too boring” argument is really getting tiring. 

 Yes, it would be soooo boring to see how Rey handles having Luke Skywalker, the Jedi legend, as her father. It would be sooooo boring to see how Luke Skywalker, who had (obvious) issues with his own father, handles having a daughter. It’d be soooo boring to hear him say “I am your father,” and to see him pass on his legacy to his child. Man, I’m falling asleep just thinking about it!

It keeps bothering me that they decided to show that galra shield in Sendak’s ship to the audience through Keith, when they could very well have used Shiro or Allura, people we know has a past with the Galra empire, or even Sendak himself.

Okay, that sounded confusing, so let me try to elaborate. English is not my first language, so it will be a bit hard.

On the first episode, after Shiro and Pidge casually ditched Keith to his own luck on finding Red, we see him running around until he find himself in a… A…

He has two paths to go and doesn’t know which one to take.

You know, this

Now, the composition on this scene is interesting. You have the galra symbol hovering above Keith, who is right in the middle. It’s almost like it is pointing at him. 

Scratch that, the whole scene seems to be pointing at Keith in this one. No matter where you look, the lines take you back to our favorite Red Paladin. 

And then, this happens.

His whole body language changes when he sees it. He straightens his back, his arm falls to his side and I do wish I had HQ screencaps of this moment, but I don’t, so bear with my rushed kisscartoon misery.

And then he actually stares at it.

He stares at it for sometime, and only stops when he hears the galra soldier coming. His whole expression is… I don’t know how to put it. fucking language barriers, dude. If I were to name it anything, it’s almost of somewhat familiarity. 

As if he’s seen it before.

And then we see his expression changes yet again as he hears the soldier approaching and remembers why he’s there.

And not once the galra symbol leaves the screen in this brief moment. It’s always there, pointing at Keith, above Keith, on Keith’s visor…

Now, after three years hearing my teachers saying over and over again that nothing in animation is there just because, that everything was throughout planned to be there and be the way it is, I can’t help but wonder what were dreamworks and studio mir’s intentions with this one.

I mean, there’s the obvious one: to show the viewers one of the shields of the Galra Empire. To know that, whenever this symbol and others similar to this appear, it means that it’s related to the Galra in one way or another.

The thing is… Why do it through Keith, out of all the characters?

They could have done it earlier with Shiro’s flashback, as he remembered that he was in that ship before, at one point of his time as a slave from the galra empire. 

They could have done it with Sendak, since, you know, it’s his fucking ship.

They could have done it even with Allura, when Sendak first contacted the castle, and she could have recognized the symbol from the time Altea was being attacked.

But they made the deliberate choice to do it through Keith’s eyes.

They sat down in a room, discussed over this scene, made the storyboard, and decided that showing a Galra symbol through Keith, going even as far as keeping the reflection on his helmet’s visor when there were very few other times they used reflection to show anything in this show.

And here’s my guess on their not-so-obvious reason on to why they made this choice:

They want us to associate the galra with Keith, even if in the back of our minds.

The last time I saw a show giving this sort of hint was in the really fucking good anime Erased. In the op, for a very brief moment, you see the reflection of the killer in the shattered glass.

It’s not a really obvious reflection, for you still have a hard time associating the face with any named characters before the great and majestically composed reveal. And it lasts not even a second, so, unless you’re an obsessed theorist who lives in a shack in the desert and went through the op frame by frame, you barely notice it.

But is enough for you to make out a black suit, and now it’s imprinted in your mind that you cannot trust the man in the black suit.

SPOILER: And, as it turned out, the only character who used a black suit in a regular basis was the killer.

And just like in Erased they wanted you to associate black suit with the antagonist through the reflection, I feel like Voltron is trying to do something similar in here with Keith.

They aren’t straight out telling us, but they aren’t exactly keeping it from us. At a first glance, it’s just another in between scene before Keith gets to his lion.

But when you put it together with all the other slightly more obvious pieces of evidence…

… I dare to say it’s a quite brilliant hint.

TL;DR: Either Keith is a galra and they want us to associate one of the galra symbols directly to him as a hint, or I’m going completely crazy here.

Invisible (Michael Clifford Imagine)

Summary: She was there then she was gone

Word Count: 2k 

Pairing: Michael x Y/N 

Warnings: suicide, bad thoughts 

Requested? Nope but if you want to request anything it would make me very happy

A/N: I wasn’t even planning on writing anything but this just sort of happened. I really hope you like it as I’ve never really written in this style before…

 Michael stands on the ashen ground as the wind whistles through the rustling trees surrounding him. A lone tear splashes down his pale cheeks as a sob tears from his throat. The dewy grass makes a soft thump as he falls to his knees in front of the hard stone. 

 "Why? Why did you do this? I could have saved you.“ His voice cracks under the pressure of overwhelming despair as he brings his shaky hands to his face. The sparkling drops begin to flow over his skin at a greater pace, growing in speed and effect as he lets the memories wash over him and take him away. 

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anonymous asked:

se is just so real and natural. they never needed any long love speeches, but when they do it doesn't feel scripted, it feels honest. but gosh damon and his speeches just feels SOscripted and ott and like a soap opera all se has to do is look at each other or smile and there's so much love there. thats why in 6x22 damon said about 6 billion speeches but stefans tear and elena laughing at stefans jokes is what looks like the true love. same in s7, stef got 1 scene to mourn E & it meant more.

I agree. I hate Damon’s long-winded, verbose empty speeches because they’re just words and it runs on too long and nothing is concrete, it’s just hot air. Stefan and Elena have simple lines, even their speeches? “You’re right. I owe you everything because throughout all of this you are the one thing that has kept me from giving up, from turning it all off” that’s it and you know it’s true because in 3x01 he calls her, in 3x02 he watches her from a distance and gets anxious/excited when he thinks she saw him, in 3x03 when she hugged him, he allowed himself one second of being his old self and closed his eyes when her arms were wrapped around him. We know that he means what he says. Even in 4x01 “I was coming back for you, Stefan. Because I love you. No matter what happens, it’s the best choice I ever made.” Three sentences. That’s all they need. It’s why I loved the 2x06 “Katherine, who?” line so much because it was ONE sentence, it wasn’t even “I don’t want to talk about Katherine” just simply, “Katherine, who?” and Elena’s smile said everything.

The longest speech was 6x22 and it was organic and genuine because it was a goodbye speech and there didn’t need to be slow motion and loud music and billowing dresses because it didn’t need to be dressed up, it was honest and it was real and it was a testament to season 1, the heart of the show. Stefan and Elena don’t need speeches because they know each other’s hearts, they know each other implicitly and intimately and better than anyone so they communicate wordlessly, through action.

Just like 7x12. Damon makes a big production out of his pain, killing people left, right and centre, going on his “death wish” or whatever, getting himself beat up, woe-is-me, I’m-in-my-pain, let-me-smash-through-everyone-with-my-angst and it’s just so big and boring and get your shit together, Damon. But Stefan finds out and he becomes unhinged in his car, like unhinged and dude goes out and kills Julian with a plan, with execution and it’s so much more meaningful and so much more powerful than a grand display of his pain.