because this show is too depressing

You know, one thing i like about Mulan is how Yao, Ling and Chien Po don’t really seem to care about the fact that Mulan is a girl.

I mean, when they find out, they are visibly perplexed

But even so, they rush and try to help her when she’s about to get killed

After this, they all seem quite depressed about having to leave her behind (and when Shang ignores her)

And when she shows up and takes action, they gladly follow her lead

And they even rock some crossdressing, like she did

(btw they just missed a great opportunity to make Shang crossdress here, shame on you movie)

Honestly, i just think this needs more appreciation. Because to them, Mulan didn’t have to prove herself again, just because she is a girl. She already earned their friendship and respect when she was ‘Ping’, and that was enough.

What The Signs Are Afraid Of

Aries:
Showing weakness - Anybody who has never been close to an Aries would never know that they are actually very sensitive and emotional people. They hate showing their more emotional side because they see that as showing weakness.
They fear that showing their sensitive side will end in others walking all over them or pitying them.

Taurus:
Not being in control - As a fixed sign, Taurus’ hates not being in control. When things change too fast that they can’t process or really accept the fact that things will no longer be how they were before, they get really depressed. They isolate themselves and try to hold onto what they are familiar with instead of following the stream to the unknown.

Gemini:
Not doing enough - Geminis’ are hard workers, even though they have a hard time focusing on one thing at the time. They always get things done, but they fear that they aren’t doing enough and that everything they do constantly need improvement. They are never 100% satisfied with their own work - even with others admiration.

Cancer:
Being rejected - They are very sensitive people and don’t take things like rejection very easy. They don’t care about who or where they are rejected from, it is the fact that they aren’t wanted somewhere or by someone that they are afraid of.

Leo:
Being forgotten - As everybody know, Leos’ love being the center of attention, so when they get forgotten they start fealing small and unloved. No matter how much confidence a Leo has, they still need some type of validation from others and without that, they start feeling invisible and unimportant.

Virgo:
Not being needed - Virgos want others to need them. Feeling need means a lot to them because it means that someone can’t do something withouth their help. Helping others distracts them from thinking about their own problems, but directs their attention on fixing others problems. So when they aren’t needed, they get sucked into their own deep and dark thoughts.

Libra:
Telling people how they really feel - Libras are always trying to solve other peoples problems or be the shoulder others lean on. This is why they never say how they personally feel about the situation - To uphold the balance they have already established.
They fear saying what they really feel because that might make others look at them diffrent and ruin the balance.  

Scorpio:
Finally opening up only to getting hurt - They are very emotionally closed people which is why it is rare that they open up to others - because they fear getting hurt if they do. That is why they go out of their way to keep their distance to others. 

Sagittarius:
Getting too close to others - They have a fear of getting too close to others and committing. The idea of no longer being able to do whatever they used to do, without considering others feelings is terrifying to them and it makes them feel trapped. This is why they tend to distance themselves from others before anybody gets too attached.

Capricorn:
Having their hard work go to waste - Capricorns put a lot of time and energy into everything they do. They bust their asses to get to where they want to be, so when all their efforts goes to waste, they break down.  Things like this stay in the back of their minds till forever. Even with their will power to start over, they have a doubt in the back of their minds that their abilities to do it all over again won’t be enough…again.  

Aquarius:
Being seen like everybody else - Aquarius hold a certain pride in being different, so when they are generalized or put in a category with others, they start feelings small and insignificant. This is why they often are protective of what they see as ‘theirs’.

Pisces:
Not being able to help someone they love - Watching someone they love hurting is hard because they put themselves in their loved ones place. They make their loved ones problems their problems, so when they can’t help them, they personally feel affected because of how emotionally invested they are in helping.

The whole point of Hannah having some reasons why she killed herself that the audience would view as being too small to kill yourself for is to show what the mindset of an actual suicidal and depressed person is like. If you are healthy you wouldn’t get depressed because of those small things. So I’m sort of sick of healthy ass people who are like “she’s a drama queen”.

it’s time. for meta. about how Viktor Nikiforov is the Most Transparent™ because I need to establish this.

Y’all have accepted that he’s got an excellent control over his temper. You’ve also accepted Viktor’s pretty good at acting. I agree with both of those things, at least, to an extent. 

In terms of his temper yeah I totally agree. He doesn’t lash out (generally), and his actions, if there are any, are highly restrained in proportion to his anger. That being said, it’s super apparent when Viktor’s annoyed. Like here! Episode four!

Look at him he’s blatantly annoyed. He’s got the fucking shadows over his eyes and everything.

But even after Yuuri turns around, look at his face. This isn’t like a true Cheery Viktor™ face. This is like Viktor pretending to be his normal self, but it’s clearly not working like. At all. And we saw him make the transition to this face. Came with a ding noise and everything. We know this isn’t accurate at all anyway. And I think Yuuri knows too considering his reaction. 

Is that fear or is that fear. (Hint: it’s fear). Like, of course part of this is definitely attributed to Yuuri’s anxiety, of this I have no doubts. But I think if Viktor wasn’t so transparently annoyed in the way he made his entrance, to his not quite genuine face, to his tone of voice, it probably wouldn’t look like this. 

in episode 5 you’ve got more annoyed Viktor, but in this episode he makes no attempt at hiding it, I mean look.

Look. 

To quote dub Viktor in episode 2: “that’s not a happy face.”

I could get more from that pre-SP hug in particular but you really get my point here. He’s clearly not happy. Very transparent. 

I’m not going to address episode 10 because everyone and their mother has already addressed episode 10. We all know Viktor was Fucking Pissed (insert that one Kirby picture but like. with Viktor).  

Viktor is very transparent in his anger, but it doesn’t stop there. Because Viktor wears his entire heart on his sleeve, and I think he’s aware of this. That’s why, especially for the public, he acts. And here’s where it gets tricky. Because I think Viktor’s a good actor, but only for a specific type of audience: the general public. 

We know that before Yuuri Viktor was depressed, given how he talks about his past and what little we’ve seen from it. He’s described skating as a shackle around his neck, and his life before Yuuri was devoid of “life and love” But there’s visual indicators of this too. Like these brief glimpse of the old Viktor in episode 11.

He’s so sad and miserable I am going to cry Vitya let me hug you. But there’s another reason I showed this. It’s to compare this, with Viktor by himself, to Viktor in front of a crowd.

He’s won the GPF for the fifth time in a row. The crowd is going wild, but look at his face. His smile. We know Viktor. We know what a truly happy Viktor looks like. He’s got a heart shaped smile and his whole body radiates joy, and this isn’t him. That smile isn’t even a real smile. Viktor’s just doing it because it’s expected, and the crowd eats it up, like they eat up the rest of his public persona. But it’s fake. We know he’s not happy and we even know what happy Viktor looks like. It’s so obvious.

“but if it’s so fake, why do they buy it?” Because they don’t know him. And we didn’t either when all of us first watched this episode, so we all bought it. Maybe we, and maybe some of his fans, think something is off, but no one knows him well enough to prove anything. It’s all speculation. All they have (and all we had) is just what Viktor wanted to show us. That’s why it works. He’s a great actor to the public and the like, because the public is never shown anything he doesn’t want them to see. 

But this wouldn’t work on anyone who knows him. Like Yakov. This is where it gets into hc territory, I suppose but I imagine Yakov would notice. He’s been Viktor’s coach for so long, and if you look at the brief glances of younger Viktor to this Viktor, they’re very different. Yakov honestly feels like Viktor’s dad at this point, so he would notice. Maybe he’s even tried to bring it up, but Viktor acts in front of everyone, not just a crowd. “I’m fine, Yakov.” You’re not, Yakov thinks, but he can’t successfully bring it up with Viktor. 

Less HC territory is Yurio, who clearly noticed something was wrong, but didn’t put it together properly. Yurio concludes Viktor’s lost his inspiration and he’s entered a slump. Maybe that’s true, but that’s not all of it. But he still knows something is wrong.

I can’t argue for anyone else who was probably a part of Viktor’s life at this point, as we have basically nothing to base it off of. With Georgi or Mila or Chris we don’t actually know if they were even close, or how close, before Yuuri. There’s nothing to base it off of. 

We actually see Yuuri make a transition from one side to the other. Yuuri was a fan who didn’t know Viktor, and slowly gets to know him, seeing beyond the man he put on a pedestal. It’s pretty neat.

tl;dr: Viktor is hella transparent. I agree he’s got good control over his temper, and that he acts, but he’s still transparent as fuck.

What The Signs Are Afraid Of

Aries:
Showing weakness - Anybody who has never been close to an Aries would never know that they are actually very sensitive and emotional people. They hate showing their more emotional side because they see that as showing weakness.
They fear that showing their sensitive side will end in others walking all over them or pitying them.

Taurus:
Not being in control - As a fixed sign, Taurus’ hates not being in control. When things change too fast that they can’t process or really accept the fact that things will no longer be how they were before, they get really depressed. They isolate themselves and try to hold onto what they are familiar with instead of following the stream to the unknown.

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Yuuri is in the kitchen when he hears Victor call it out in question. They had just finished up supper and Victor had cooked so Yuuri was in the kitchen washing up the dishes to return the favor. And he’s just standing by the dishwasher, humming idly and wondering if Victor has picked out a movie for them to watch or if tonight is going to be a night where they watch game shows featuring Victor yelling out the answers that can actually be correct on occasion. It had been a long day at the rink and Yuuri even wonders if maybe they’ll have a nice glass of wine before bed.

So, Yuuri is just minding his own business, not thinking twice when Victor calls out his name. He hums back, expecting a question or statement about leftovers but then…

“What’s yaoi?”

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Hi. I hate seeing anyone cry (especially Hobi because it’s heartbreaking), but I think it is important as fans that we remember these people we see as perfection are in fact just actual, regular humans like me and you (just with a lot more social cred and talent).
They aren’t always happy.
They aren’t always sexy.
They aren’t always thug.
And they don’t always wear their true emotions. In fact, most of them wear a facade.
We, as fans, need to remember that no person is perfect, no matter how close you can get, and that these idols are allowed to have human emotions like the rest of us. They are allowed to feel anger, pain, loss, depression and anxiety.
They are allowed to be vulnerable too.
And we HAVE TO LOVE THEM STILL.
Because if you don’t love them when they show you their true colors, you just love the facade, not the person behind it.

THEY ARE NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS TOO AND DESERVE TO BE TREATED AS SUCH.

Dear idols,
Please show us your true emotions so that we may empathise with you and love you on a whole new level.
You don’t have to be strong and perfect all the time.

- Your Loving Fans.

(Not my gif, all credit and rights reserved to the rightful owner)

You know what is amazing ? Truly amazing ? Is that we can go back and reading bleach KNOWING that ichigo had a crush that transformed into love for orihime . 

Like this ichigo ? 

Totally had a crush on Orihime 

And this ichigo ? 

ALSO totally had a crush on Orihime 

And this ichigo ? 

He is a dork trying to take care of his crush 

AND THIS ICHIGO IS FALLING IN LOVE WITH ORIHIME 

AND THIS ONE GOD LOOK AT THIS ONE TRYING TO PROTECT THE GIRL HE LOVES DESPITE HAVING GREAT TROUBLES TO CONTROL HIS HOLLOW 

AND THIS ONE IS FUCKING PROMISING TO PROTECT HER . HER AND ONLY HER WHEN HIS OTHER FRIENDS WERE HURT TOO . Also in japanese culture this particular sentence hold a lot of meaning in the romantic sense . 

“ Ok ok I get what you mean “ you say to me “ But what about THAT ichigo ????” 

ALSO FUCKING IN LOVE WITH ORIHIME MY DUDE HELL YEAH 

And this ichigo ? Crushed by Orihime being taken to Hueco mundo . 

LOOK AT THIS BOY LIKE CALM DOWN ICHIGO WE KNOW YOU LOVE HER BUT CHILL DAMN no but seriously look at his reaction rukia was about to die and yet his gut reacted here at the mere mention of orihime’s name ???? 

And look at this mofo seeing his love in slow motion hair blowing in the wind and shit 

AND GOD LOOK AT HIM PROTECTING HER WHILE SHE HAD HER SHIELD IN FRONT OF HER . lIKE ICHIGO YOU’RE SIXTEEN TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

And look at him not even being able to look at orihime in the eyes because he sees fear in the way she looks at him . God this breaks my heart 

Ok this heals my heart look at him being completely awestruck , look at Kubo represented her voice reaching out to him ! Look at his eyes GODFUCKINGDAMMIT 

*sobs* FUCKING ORIHIME SAID HIM TO NOT BE FUCKING HURT ANYMORE AND LOOK AT HIM , THIS LOSER HE WAS NOT ABLE TO KEEP UP WITH GRIMMJOW BUT JUST ORIHIME CHEERING FOR HIM AND SUDDENLY HE IS . NOT ALLOWED . TO SUSTAIN ANYMORE DAMAGE . He is so fucking in love with this girl it disgusts me 

Ichigo! You’re dead ! On the floor! You have a hole in your chest! like dude it’s not the time to think about orihime and how much you want to protect her oh god 

OMG ICHIGO YOU JUST HAD A HOLE IN YOUR CHEST AND YOU TRANSFORMED INTO YOUR HOLLOW WHICH WAS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR LIKE THE FIRST THING YOU DO IS ASKING ORIHIME IF SHE’S ALRIGHT WHILE SHE’S OBVIOUSLY UNINJURED . LIKE JUST HOW MUCH DOES HE CARES FOR HER OH MY GOD 

And look at him , puppy faced and all mushy mushy just because orihime cried for him . What a loser omg ichigo like be cool in front of orihime stop wearing your heart in your eyes your feelings plain for the whole world to see like that 

“ yeah I noticed you were real popular with the guys … not that it bothers … but you know… I’m just placing it in the conversation … like that … just to … you know… ANYWAY” 

We SEE YOU ICHIGO WE KNOW YOU NOTICED ORIHIME WAS SO POPULAR WITH THE GUYS AND IT BOTHERS YOU but except from keeping the creeps away from Orihime he won’t do anything about it because he always respected Orihime’s agency so much like this kid is so pure I love him god 

Look at him being awestruck once again by orihime . Thinking she is so great and amazing and his heart must expands so much knowing just how much her and chad care for him . He must be so grateful 

Omg don’t do this to him orihime he’s so in love with you SO IN LOVE . He cannot stand the thought of losing you because of tsukishima’s power look at how heartbroken he looks STOP ORIHIME STOP also orihime my love breaking through tsukishima’s ability just because OF THE STRENGTH OF HER LOVE FOR ICHIGO LIKE WHERE DO THEY STOP FOR THE OTHER OMG THIS IS TOO MUCH 

Once again look at him being all dorky and happy like a puppy just at seeing orihime !! He had just been beaten by Bach and was depressed he couldn’t protect everybody but POOF one look at Orihime safe and smiling and bam puppy eyes showing his feelings to the whole world 

OMG ICHIGO BE COOL THIS IS SO TOTALLY LAME 

oKAY YOU LOST IT I GET IT HORMONES YOU’RE A TEENAGER AND YOU’VE LOVED ORIHIME FOR SO LONG YOU’RE BOUND TO ACT LIKE THAT SOMETIMES I GET IT MY GUY 

And look at him comforting orihime like “ NO ORIHIME DON’T BE SAD NO” . Omg he is such a dork , he is so in love it’s killing me

HE WENT BACK TO PROTECT HER CRADDLING HER TO HIS CHEST LIKE SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE HE’LL ALWAYS ALWAYS PROTECT HER NO MATTER WHAT

Okay ichigo danger is over you should let her go now even if her hair is really soft and it feels really good holding her so close to you  

AND LOOK AT HIM MY GUY IN THE MIDDLE OF BATTLE COMMUNICATING WITH HIS WIFEY BY A SINGLE LOOK TO REASSURE HER . LIke godammn ichigo you’re fighting against a god FOCUS 

OMG ONCE AGAIN YOU STOP MID BATTLE TO REASSURE HER . ARE YOU SHOWING OFF YOUR NEW COOL FORM IN FRONT OF ORIHIME , ICHIGO ??? ARE YOU ???? ARE YOU?????????????

And most importantly the most in love with orihime of all those ichigo 

It’s been 12 years he’s been in love with her and look at the softness in his eyes , the casualness because THEY ARE FUCKING MARRIED FOR AT THE VERY LEAST 6 YEARS OMG THEY SPEND EVERY DAY TOGETHER BEING ALL DORKY AND IN LOVE . cAN YOU BELIEVE THEY GOT THEIR HAPPY ENDING ??? CAN YOU BELIEVE THEY ONLY EVER LOVED EACH OTHER ???? CAN YOU BELIEVE THEY BOTH GOT TO MARRY THEIR HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART ???? CAN YOU BELIEVE THEY HAD A BEAM FOR SUNSHINE AS A SUN ?? CAN YOU BELIEVE HOW HAPPY THEY MUST BE WAKING UP NEXT TO EACH OTHER EVERY MORNING GOD ????

THEY ARE JUST . SO IN LOVE . 

* spontaneously combust*

maybe he doesn't hit you...

maybe he doesn’t hit you but he reminds you every day how worthless you are until you start to believe it yourself
maybe he doesn’t hit you but he controls what you wear,who you talk to and what you do daily
maybe he doesn’t hit you but every time you threaten to leave him he threatens to kill himself so you’ll stay
maybe he doesn’t hit you but he’ll make you feel guilty for the things he’s done
maybe he doesn’t hit you but you feel as if you have to have sex with him so he will show you affection
maybe he doesn’t hit you but he doesn’t like it when you overdress or wear too much makeup because he’s positive you’re going out to impress guys
maybe he doesn’t hit you but being with him makes your friendships suffer
Maybe he doesn’t hit you but you can’t go anywhere without him knowing precise details.


Maybe he doesn’t hit you..but maybe he destroys you mentally.

Watching that shitty “The Day Naruto Became Hokage” cos I’ve never seen it before.

Only a few seconds in and Hinata is showing her shy, spineless, weakling self. She can’t even wake up her “husband”. She’s probably depressed cos he slept on the couch and not with her. Pathetic

I live for her sad look LOL

LMFAOOOOO

His kids have no respect for him at all. This is because Shitnata is a horrible parent who doesn’t know how to raise kids. She’s too shy and timid to tell them that this shit is not okay.

naruto is so happy with shitnata, sunshine family 4 life!!!

look at how happy he looks when he sees her!!!! and lmao, she’s so spineless and timid that she looks nervous talking to him. 

THE SMILE OF TRUE LOVE LMFAOOOOOOO

she called him fucking “naruto-kun”. the audio said “naruto-kun”. they are fucking married for over 10 years at this point and she is still nervous around him and calls him naruto-kun. what the fuck

wow, look at how happy he is !

himawari beating him up bc shitnata can’t parent her children.

and he’s passed tf out, bc of that kid, missing his ceremony.

because of hinata’s spinelessness, weakness, and overall patheticness, naruto missed the most important day of his life. the day he’s been looking forward to since chapter one, since he was a child.

#NarutoUzumakiDeservedBetter

Soulmate au where you can see the colors of your soulmate’s emotions

Fair warning this is about to become a Check Please post

-For most of the first year all Bitty saw of Jack’s emotion was ice blue. Bitty was sure that Jack hated him, but it was just hockey-hyper-focus shoving all the other emotions to the side. Later on Bitty learned that when the ice blue cracked with yellow and black, that was when Jack needed him most.

-Bitty had always been just a little too much for Jack. His pinks and yellows and oranges spread everywhere, over everyone on the team and everything he touched. Jack could swear he could pick one of Bittle’s pies out of a lineup just by the little lingering cloud of love around it. Jack could never imagine being so free with his emotions, and it scared him a little. It took him so long to let himself reach for Bitty, but once he did, Bitty could never think Jack hated him again, not with the way everything turned purple when Jack smiled at him. (I’m not saying that they spent most of the time on the Fourth of July watching each other instead of the fireworks, except I definitely am).

-Jack can always tell when something is bothering Bitty, because a small, thick cloud of red nerves will gather right over his heart. At this point Jack doesn’t even need to see Bitty to know, he can hear it in his voice over the phone.

-Ransom and Holster have a System. Their emotions are so in sync that when one of them’s sparking off gold happiness, the other one is too, before they even hear the good news. Part of the reason they’re so perfect together on the ice is because they wrote their own language with twists of emotions to mean anything as complicated as “Coming up on your right, pass to me, I’ll pass back and you shoot”.

-Shitty and Lardo are usually purple and yellow together, with red thrown in when Shitty’s on a rant. They don’t need to throw around a lot of emotion to get each other. Except when Shitty’s stoned. When Shitty’s stoned, Lardo refuses to use him as her beer pong partner because “Brah, your waves of admiration for my skills and general existence are way too distracting.”

-Chowder shoots off so many colors that Farmer is practically certain she’s not the only one who can see them. All you really need is to see his face. Sometimes this is hard for Farmer because there are too many colors covering Chowder’s face.

-Nursey has always had problems with his depression. He’s convinced himself that Dex can’t see his colors because he’s shoved them down so deep. Nursey sometimes pisses Dex off just so he can have some kind of emotion thrown his way.

-Dex really wishes Nursey would knock it off with the whole fake chill thing. Like maybe if Nursey would let one of his emotions out once in a while then they would STOP SPINNING TOO FAST FOR DEX TO INTERPRET THEM.

-Tango’s emotions usually show up in little bubbles. Mostly confusion. He’s almost always got at least six tiny pink bubbles of confusion surrounding him at any time. Whiskey thinks it’s pretty cute.

13 Reasons Why rant

I’ve been seeing a lot of mixed opinions on the show so I just wanna share mine, as a person who has attempted suicide and as a person who’s friend committed suicide.

Honestly, people are missing the whole point of the show. Yes, suicide is the choice of the person who does it, but the actions and inactions of people in their life factor in on that choice, which is the whole point of the show.

The show is not a suicide prevention show, I’m sorry, it’s not. The main message of the show is to watch what you say and do to people and how you treat them because you never know what that negative impact could have on them. Showing a graphic suicide, which I agree was even a bit much for me to witness, was just an added shock value to really embed the message that your words have consequences.

I hate this mentality that bullying doesn’t cause suicide, because I know first hand that it sure as hell factors in on the situation. When you feel like your at the point of no return and have no one, your brain is swimming with negative thoughts, with the words others have said to you or said about you.

This is why Hannah tried to find love, not because love will fix everything when you’re depressed, but because she wanted just one happy thing, just one person who could show her they cared. I too became very codependent on someone just for the hope that that little bit of happiness could keep me going.

Not everyone who has dealt with these issues can relate to Hannah, and that’s okay if you don’t like it. I don’t recommend anyone who is dealing with these issues to watch because it is graphic and potentially triggering.

But I beg everyone else to watch so they can understand how much power their words have over people. I beg everyone who watches it walks away with a different outlook on life and the way they treat other people. I beg everyone reaches out and help and supports the Hannah Bakers in their lives.

THE 100 GOT SEASON 5.

lemme just tell you something now:

from the bottom of my heart. I’m gonna say big THANK YOU to all of you, we’ve made it.

To all of you who were upvoting everything during/after s3 - thank you
To everyone who was involved in positivity projects for the cast&the writers
To everyone who was coming up with new ideas to promote the show&spread positivity
To everyone who was here and is still here despite all awful things that happened to us
To everyone who was making memes when we were depressed with you know what
To everyone who was fighting and protecting our actors when they got hate or characters (explaining bellamy or jasper mostly)
And also to everyone who was too tired to do anything because of this shit happening but was still here

lots of love, we’re rising again

I heard a poet say the other day about how easy it was to write with a mask on, to tell the truth and nothing but the truth, if I hide the words good enough and toss away the keys to this lock, could you still find yourself if it’s so deep inside of my flaws? You love it when people write about you, especially if I’m doing the writing it seems. I don’t write about you much, so here I am. One last poem. And I give your eyes a solid peek with every letter, a silent whisper that says nothing, but if you pay attention to my lips it mouths an I love you each and every time when you catch me staring at you and I look away. I wonder when I see you staring, do you do the same when I turn away my head? I love to write, but you’ll wonder if it’s about you, you, you, you, you or her, her, her, her, her or her. It’s about you. This is about you. You know who you are. In the first conversation we ever had, you asked if my favorite color was red before even getting into my head. And those eyes that peer, that leer, that steer straight into mine, we haven’t met, we have met, we haven’t loved, we have loved, we haven’t fallen, we have fallen, we haven’t fucked, we have fucked, we haven’t broken into, we have broken into, we haven’t written, we have written, we haven’t been, we have been, we haven’t talked, we have talked, we speak for five minutes and I feel like I’ve known you for several lifetimes and attention is such a trickling thing as it falls from my eyes and into yours– we haven’t been anything before these five minutes, but I’ve made love to your every way before we knew, before you knew, before I knew, we were kinda fucked. We made sure to not get too close, we made sure that it never happened, it stays as it stays, it says as it says, and one day, we’ll never be. She says I could never date a writer. And as ironic as it is, we’re both writers, so as enamored and as pulled to one another as we are, we’ll think about it when the sun decides to go for another eternal nap, and when the moon finally decides to give those love letters back with different people holding each cloud up, with separate lovers holding us, we’ll think about it until it hurts. And we’ll do it for the sake of falling in love, the art of the what if’s while you’re young and stupid, it goes like this. You are something that casts more deadly spells than a dark lord’s wand, that bends more trees than the wind during hurricane season, that breaks more often than a sidewalk during the heat of summer love, that admires more deeply than artists comparing themselves to Van Gogh, that swells more quickly than a mosquito bite because you forgot bug spray although it never works because they too find you irresistible from blood type to skin, that itches worse than eating something you’re allergic too, it’s often our favorite foods too, that stretches more than the horizon when the sun asks the moon to come out and play always, always, slow dance to that one song from now on, that sings as beautiful as the Mona Lisa when we try to figure out her smile, that still to this day, I choose to not talk to you because yes it’s true, I’m a little in love with you, and yes it’s true, we won’t ever exist at the same time, too many obstacles and yes it’s true, we live for poetics the modern romantics trying to be antiques inside of a masterpiece, we never knew how to love properly, so we tried to pave way inside of a kaleidoscope– if we ever fell in love, it would be a bad trip, like overdosing on lsd because you thought that you were a cactus and spines started to grow out of you, yeah that kind of fucked up. We would be messed up, but I think in some lowkey happy offset universe, we would’ve been happy about it. She talks to me about poetry like I invented it, the truth is I write to feel something, isn’t that why we do anything? These words have been written before, I’m just following footsteps, I’m just another person trying to write down my wrongs, am I wrong for it? And it was one of those days, some strange scene from an anime when the sun is setting and they’re walking across a metal bridge as friends and he comments on the days that go by without a second thought, and the water is running and she says that you can’t skateboard down slopes because you’d get in trouble, rules were meant to be broken, and if you don’t break them, you can bend them just right. And it’s that kind of day, where bookstores mean more to us than clubs. Neon soul, would you care to stay here as you are for just a little while longer? She speaks about poetry like it’s the only thing that matters. He utters back wildfire spreads wildfire. I don’t know why he said it, but it just felt right, right? And the day will end, but not before you walked us through two art museums and there’s always a juicy secret near the end of us whispering to each other about other people and what they’re up to. In this fairy tale, they don’t fall in love. In this poem, they don’t get together. In this life, they’re just friends. In this heart, they’ll be just two lost souls stuck on a bench, I’m a little tired, I’ll just rest my head on those shoulders, and I must tell you, that you look better without make up. There will a day when this is just a faded gem you’ll find in your brain. There will be a brief moment when you’ll remember those five hours, and it all started because of those five minutes when you asked if we have met before, and I know that I write long pieces with very shitty grammar and not enough elaborate metaphors, but the thing about my writing and why it’s so damn relatable may be because I write with a cold heart that just wants to feel warm, we all need that day. That day, that’ll indefinitely change us in ways that we may not be able to comprehend today, tomorrow or even by next year. A day that explains, a day that demands to be listened to and just like how a chest needs a careful set of ears to listen to its heartbeat, I’m glad that I gave a listen to yours. And maybe I’ll move out of this city where people do the same shit every fucking day and pretend that it’s okay, that this is it. We’ll work until we’re grey, get that 401k go on vacations while we’re fragile with an old passion for pastries, cheap hotels and some famous beach that all of the old people go to. There’s got to be more to life, you mentioned that a few times. This was just a glimpse to what could be with someone else, and I’m always holding onto your hands just a little too tight because I don’t want you to let go and it’s okay because today will end, but not in this memory. In this memory, we’re young forever. In this memory, we’re breaking every rule just a little bit. In this memory, I write down every little detail because I don’t give a fuck. In this memory, I play a slow dance with you until the moon finally explains itself to us in entirety. I’m full because of you, I’m empty because of you. In this memory, the metaphors never run out and the poetry isn’t just about love, it’s not about sadness anymore, it’s about clawing my way out of my thoughts and back into a moment where I’m not so depressed and I’m cracking jokes right next to you all the way down Central Park and in this memory, there’s a small chance that you could’ve been more than just someone who showed my heart around New Orleans. In this memory, I remember you as my pretty crimson. And if this memory shall ever fade, I’ll fade with it too because the more we write, the more we are, if I am what I eat and I am what I do, I’ll eat the yellow paint and write until it’s dark and if I’m ever blind and no longer the person that I was when I walked across that bridge with you– at least it’s an ending that I can dwell on. Poets write poetry, clouds use rain as a disguise, but this writer is just wearing another mask and tomorrow isn’t any different. I am the wildfire, and I’ll spread in many directions. I just hope that we never burn down together and if we do, that wouldn’t be so bad, right?

A thing regarding why I think a character like Ro Woon is so important:

When you think about female leads in kdramas, they tend to be quite black and white - they’re either the one’s changing the jerk lead for the better or the one that needs changing. And I’m not saying that our female leads have no personalities or flaws, and I’m not saying that Ro Woon is some revolutionary lead - but she is part of a very small minority of female leads who don’t fit with the kdrama black & white trend. 

As noted, the main two types of characters you get are -

 1. The “bitchy” female lead: Usually a woman in a position of power; rude, doesn’t care about other people, just wants to get the job done. (Is also at times a bratty chaebol heir, but I haven’t seen one of these in a very long time)

2. The hardworking girl who isn’t afraid to speak up against injustice. She’s the same as the bitchy lead, except she isn’t in a position of power and she’s not “bitchy” lmao. 

With the 1st type of character, almost all of her character traits are her flaws and things that need to be changed. And with the 2nd, though her flaws are rarely crucial to the plot - it’s usually along the lines of “I don’t know how to do my job properly, since I’m new at this” or “I trust people too easily”.

And then on the rare occasion, you have a character like Ro Woon. She doesn’t fit the bill for either character type, and instead sits somewhere in between. She is not intentionally malicious like the “bitchy lead”, nor is she the ideal woman. 

From her perspective, Eun Hwan Gi is the man who drove her sister to suicide. Everywhere she turns, people only have negative things to say about him. His secretary was hospitalised under stress and is absolutely terrified of him, and even his best friend couldn’t really defend him. So taking this into consideration, alongside her rage over the fact that not only was he a main factor in her sister’s depression, but also, he didn’t even have the decency (as far as she is aware - since his anxiety is kept a secret) to show up to her sister’s funeral and the entire situation was brushed over, her wanting to destroy him makes complete sense. 

Yes she is wrong, and yes, she is being too quick to judge without really looking at his personality. Yes she is putting other people at risk for her revenge. Yes she is flawed.  

But that is why she’s so important. Because in the midst of her flaws, what she does is present a side of women that kdramas rarely show. As women, we do make mistakes. There are times where we do want revenge, we do make rash decisions, we do make judgements on people based on our personal feelings instead of trying to understand them and we do at times, make the situation worse when trying to improve it.  

Ro Woon is a good person who just happens to be making some bad choices. And it is more than fine, because women in kdramas, and even in media generally, are rarely shown in this position. 

Women are allowed to have flaws. And if a rewrite of the show is to change this about her, than honestly, it annoys the hell out of me.

stuff about the signs (pt. 2)

 libra

  • generally, they are very attractive people, physical and spiritually
  • they look cute, but actually they’re a mess
  • social butterflies, you know they’re nice from the moment you meet them
  • popular people
  • they’re the most indecisive, that’s why sometimes they can’t be good leaders (ofc there are exceptions)
  • agressive when defending things that matter to them, their dreams. one of the most important is equality and you can see a lot of libras fighting for social equality
  • it’s hard to change their minds
  • perfect teammates
  • they always look for someone to defend, like it’s a need
  • if a libra hasn’t flirted with you before, you aren’t human
  • they feel rejected, but that’s on them because people like them very much
  • they are vey noble and sometimes they don’t realize people are taking advantage of them. sad but true
  • enthusiastic and polite people
  • quick learning (above average)
  • they’re actually very sexual
  • they want the people they love to be fine and in peace, they’re not selfish

scorpio

  • complex people, big thinkers with a great imagination
  • practical, they do and undo things incredibly quick
  • passionate people, sometimes possessive
  • psychic and analytical traits since they were born
  • they can be insensitive to others
  • but actually they feel too hard
  • despite most scorpios are introverts, they’re natural leaders
  • they’re self-destructive… too destructive, you don’t want a scorpio to be your enemy, trust me
  • likes adventures
  • stubborn and hard-headed, they’re very hard to deal with
  • they’re very jealous, but they know how to control it. usually they are because they’re afraid of being too clingy, even when they’re not (told you, complex people)
  • they’re very competitive, they believe the end justifies the means; they don’t cooperate a lot, if they’re good or bad, that’s important because they damage or help in their strange way

sagittarius

  • the free spirits; these buddies will be okay as long as they have freedom, in every way
  • don’t tell them they can’t do something, because they won’t stop until they show you they can
  • for them, “no” means “yes”. “maybe” means “yes”.  everything is a damn yes
  • reverse psychology works well with them
  • loyal and trustworthy. they may not always be there when you need them, but when you get their attention you get ALL their attention
  • this people gives much without expecting things in return, they like to see everyone happy
  • they have an incredible luck, that’s why things always go their way
  • charming and good when talking in public, they usually have hidden talents (but they won’t show them that easily)
  • independent and progressive
  • good philosophers, with good and new ideas
  • excelent humor sense
  • the most incorrect people on earth
  • they get carried away because of pleasure
  • strong personality

capricorn

  • nothing describes them better than the word “ambition”; they know what they want, how to get there and nothing will stop them
  • they have an inner self who leads them even when they can’t keep following it
  • they’re a disaster regards to love
  • they’re prone to depression, because they get too intense
  • this is one of the signs that lives more completely, because they turn themselves into what they want and they focus on that
  • they’re very sexual with the one
  • they can be mean, because they’re kinda vain and think they know everything
  • can get attached to a easy routine and they don’t even like it
  • they have too many secrets
  • talented and hilarious. they’re introvert people who can take the role of an extrovert so well
  • they’re very charismatic, usually role models but they have to put much effort to not be manipulative
  • they’re leaders on emergencies; they make possible the impossible

aquarius

  • the quirkiest sign, they’re filled with very cool ideas and have unusual interests
  • they’re tense and tend to look for people who only uses/hurts them; they like to be alone and are prone to be an only child
  • veeeeeeryyyyy smart
  • curious and experimental
  • they’re not affectionate or emotional, but they crave to feel these emotions despite they don’t admit it. they need someone to trust and who they can be themselves with
  • even when most of them have a very strange side (which is good), they’re polite and have good manners
  • hot tempered, they’re afraid of intimacy but at the same time they desire it
  • manipulative
  • they’re very proud; when they’re talented at something they know it and feel very proud of it (that’s good)
  • good luck when you want an aquarius to apologize lol
  • they have a hard time discovering what is what they want for their lives, but once they discover it nothing will stop them in their way of reaching the goal
  • they’re friendly once they trust you, and they’re the most loyal friends you’ll ever have. once they care about you they’ll do whatever for you, like, pick you up at 3 am when you’re devastated and confused. an aquarius will always find a way

pisces

  • they don’t like conflict; they use to being confident yet they’re not assertive, they don’t show it that much
  • they like either to show off or to be unnoticed
  • they’re romantic and appreciate the art of simplicity
  • very hard to provoke
  • yes, they’re sensitive but they’re elastic too. if you throw trash at them they won’t fall apart easily
  • they enjoy being close to people. loneliness = NOT COOL
  • they’re artistic and enjoy music, films, paintings, literature, watching the clouds, the rain… they find beauty in everything
  • they’re eternally in love, always falling for someone
  • is that friend who thinks everyone is perfect
  • their mechanism of self-defense is lying to themselves
  • they’re altruistic and will do everything for those who they love
  • do you think they won’t hurt anyone? do you think they’re cute and innocent? you can’t be any more wrong, that’s the image they have earned… there are good ones, and there are truly bad ones
  •  they like to victimize themselves and then complain about how others call them weak
  • walking contradiction
  • they’re good listeners and love to analyze; when they’re your true friends they are the best, they’re understanding and give empathy

translated from x

Imagine, if you will, little 11 year old Hagrid excitedly reading his textbooks and he reads Fantastic Beasts And Where To Find Them and he’s so captivated by all the magical creatures that he writes Newt a letter. He doesn’t really expect a response, but he gets one. They keep up a correspondance because Hagrid has so many questions and Newt can see he loves these creatures the same way he does.

In Hagrid’s second year his dad dies, and not knowing what else to do, he writes Newt. Newt immediately invites him over for the break because he just lost his father, Tina, and needs somewhere to go. So Hagrid spends the summer at Newt’s house learning about magical creatures. Newt guesses Hagrid’s lineage almost immediately upon seeing him, but doesn’t bring it up. Tina quietly resizes the guest room.

Part way through his third year, the letters stop. Newt gets increasingly worried and writes to Dumbledore asking if Hagrid is okay, because he isn’t responding to letters, and is shocked when he finds out about the expulsion. So he shows up a Hogwarts at the little grounds keeper’s hut to find a very depressed Hagrid. He tells him that he and Tina were so worried when they hadn’t heard from him in months, to which Hagrid starts crying, saying he was too ashamed to tell them because they’d be disappointed in him. Newt thinks about this child who doesn’t quite fit in and loves magical creatures and he assures him they aren’t disappointed at all. 

Hagrid says Aragog didn’t kill anyone and Newt believes him because he knows what it’s like for his creatures to escape and be blamed for a murder they did not commit. (Plus, he knows acromantula and knows that if the girl had been killed by one she would not have been found in the condition she was found in.)  So Hagrid recovers and the letters resume.

Now, imagine Hagrid, fifty years later, excitedly telling Newt that he’d been chosen as the new Care of Magical Creatures professor at Hogwarts and Newt telling him how proud he is.

Canada Romance Heacannons

·Too cute???

·Super shy but very protective.

·Very comforting to a self-conscious s/o. Also very good with depressed or anxious people.

·Tries so hard to impress his s/o. Also a show off to anyone whose willing to watch.

·Get ready for cuddles because ohhhhhhh boy. Especially in the winter, he likes to use the excuse its for body warmth.

·Not as innocent as he seems.

·He loves to tell his s/o how much he loves them. He will say it in French too sometimes.

·Speaking of French he sometimes forgets that his s/o probably doesn’t understand it and he ends up confusing them with gibberish.

·Pull the curl.

·Kuma never leaves Canada’s s/o’s side. It makes the Canadian super jealous.

·Warm fires, fluffy blankets, and movies are the perfect date.

·Sometimes he accidentally falls asleep with his glasses on. Usually the s/o has to take them off, and sometimes Canada wakes up with glasses imprints on his face.

·Likes to give quick pecks to the cheek than acts like nothing happened.

·He’s very flirty, but usually he says a pick up line in French. They ARE often pretty dirty.

·Snowball fights all the time. It doesn’t even end when you go inside.