because this blog isnt what youre thinking its suppose to be

i think amidst encouraging people to take their meds and trust their therapists we should also keep in mind that bad medication combinations and bad therapists do exist

if your mental health medication is making you feel numb/out of sync with the world/sad/paranoid/any number of other things (im just listing some that have happened to me) then your medication is not working right. medication is not supposed to make you gray and sad all the time

similarly if you’re feeling worse in therapy its okay to think about whether you really click with your therapist, oftentimes the first or second or even third therapist you try isnt the right one

ive been thinking about this a lot lately because theres been both a pushback against mental health treatment in general AND a pushback against that that boils down to “all doctors know best listen to them exclusively and therapists can do no wrong”

im on the right combination of meds for the first time in my life but it took ages to get here, and if i hadnt trusted myself in the past i never would have gotten this far. i guess what im trying to say is, have some nuance in how you think about mental health treatment because everyone has different experiences and accessibility levels with the systems in place. and if youre seeking treatment, trust yourself and do your best to find doctors/therapists you trust

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Voltron Fandom Rant( long)

The Voltron Fandom. A fandom that in just a little more than a year, has become a heaping cesspool of hate, one of the shittiest and most vile fandoms, leaving other past problematic fandoms like Homestuck, Steven Universe, and Undertale in the dust (at this rate). Full of people yelling and screaming the words “pedophiles!”, telling others to harm or kill themselves, just constant back and forth bickering. And all over one thing, something that isnt even an important factor of the show, barely 5%. Shipping.

Every fandom has their ship wars, but nothing like this. In all the years I’ve been in fandoms, I’ve never seen anything as terrible as this. When you meet other Voltron fans outside the internet, you honestly dont know if they are gonna like you or judge you completely, cause you might ship something they hate. So far, being in the cosplay fandom, I’ve met mostly really chill and nice fans, luckily not running into one anti.

Just the other day, we got confirmed ages of the characters, something I thought from the creators we weren’t going to ever get. And tbh, I wish we didnt.

As much as I’m happy for the Keith x Shiro fans with Keith being confirmed 18 (tho some antis are finding ways around that to still claim its illegal or some shit), what about the others? Especially the Shidge fans. The Shidge fans now, from what I’ve been confronted with, are distraught, terrified, nervous, and we barely are getting consolation or support from the Sheith (Shance and Shunk too) fans that we supported against the antis. And I think thats a shame. Our ship is as valid, as according to the creators, even if Pidge is 15. As I’ve claimed several times before, look at ErenxLevi, and how much that ship is popular with twice an age gap. And even if the age gap makes you uncomfortable, you can always ship it in timeskip, AU, or aging up terms. Thats completely fine and okay, because they are fictional and not real.

I don’t care for Sheith, but I will stick up for any Sheith fan against the antis anyday. Because thats what we do, we stick up for each other even if we don’t like the ship..

I wish they never released the ages. Imo the only good thing that came out of those leaked pages was Pidge being Italian.

Anyway, moving away from that, you antis. I…don’t know even where to start with you bastards, You ARE the ones who have made this fandom such a vile and disgusting place, you ARE the ones who make people scared and bully those who don’t agree with you, you ARE the GALRA. You THINK you are protecting minors, throwing “FICTION AFFECTS REALITY” in every argument, think you trying to make everything your “SAFE SPACE”, but you are just bullies. That’s literally all you all are, bullies. Not just other fans, but you harass the cast and crew too. And if they don’t agree with you or had enough of your bullshit (@bext-k, you are amazing, I’m so sorry about the shit you get), they are your enemy too. The actually people that bring the thing to life that you CARE ABOUT SO MUCH OVER ANYTHING ELSE.

Voltron is a cartoon. That’s literally all it is. A FUCKING CARTOON. A cartoon by Dreamworks, based on the 80s dubbed Japanese anime, that was dubbed from 80s Golion. The fact you guys are wasting so much stress and energy, on this baffles me. It really and truly, does. There is just, so much more in life right now we should be wasting our energy on. There are countries out there, that which if they could right now, would bomb and destroy us all in war. Then…would all this stressing out over discourse still be on your mind? Or would you rather be focusing on saving your own life and your family?

Fandoms are supposed to be enjoyable, supposed to be a haven where you can happily share and talk to others that share the same love of something you do…but not like this. This isn’t fun. You shouldn’t be scared or be sad in a fandom over other fans treating you horribly and making you feel bad over something in the fandom that brings you joy. Shaladin shippers, ARENT PEDOPHILES. Sheith, Shidge, Shance, ALL OF THEM. ALL SHIPS ARE VALID, AS CLAIMED BY DIRECTORS LAUREN MONTGOMERY AND JAOQUIM DOS SANTOS.

Let this discourse end. Its going nowhere. But what am I, just one person in this crazy fandom. Maybe things will calm down as the show progresses, maybe another thing will come along that the antis will jump onto. But I just had to get this off my chest.

I won’t be leaving the fandom, since theres so many amazing people outnumbering the shitty ones, but just know, dont be scared. Dont feel you are a bad person for what you ship. You aren’t. And if you need anyone to talk to, come to me. This blog is a Shaladin safe place.

Sorry for the long post, but if you read this to the end, thank you for your time. And any antis that want to comment on this…go ahead. Just know your hate will get you no where.

hi, this probably isnt the usual kind of submission you get, but i wanted to share a cool thing i noticed with this blog.

i remember back on your old blog you made a few posts about fictional wolves/wolfdogs and how they very rarely seemed to fit the bill as wolfy looking, esp not balto who is unfortunately the only cartoon wolfdog that comes to mind for me at all.

i think i found a pretty good example of a fictional wolf that displays some very recognizable wolfy traits, and that’d be midday lycanroc from pokemon sun and moon. one of the things i noticed right off the bat that are specifically more visible in its 3D model and animations, is that it was designed with several actual wolf traits in mind.

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imean, obviously theres a lot of creative liberty here seeing as its a wolf based pokemon, and not actually a wolf at all, but physically i think its one of the more convincing cartoon wolves i’ve seen. more noticeable w the 3D model is its narrow chest, head being held lower/appearing lower due to the mane and never actually raising higher than it is shown here, the thick mane itself over neck and shoulders, narrowed eyes, and long legs.

coloration isnt wolfy at all, perhaps simplified without a very high contrast between the colors, that’s cool, but not showing any blending. and blue eyes, with some other more obvious anatomical alterations such as the horse tail. but again, it’s a pokemon. to explain some of that also, if you wanted to i suppose you could consider it a wolfdog, since it’s pre evolution is entirely dog in appearance.

overall it registers pretty well as lupine in my head, i personally think it looks like the team actually did study the anatomy of real live wolves to recreate it in a simpler stylized form. what do you think?

I actually love that you shared this because how “wolves” are represented in games/movies/media is something that I think about quite often! The only issue I really have with getting super into these discussions is that they’re super opinion based. I mean, you can always weigh which representation has more actual wolf traits as being the better one but I don’t know if that’s always true when it comes to things with this much creative liberty.

I like the idea of Lycanroc being a wolfdog with how doggy the base evolution is. And all the wolfy traits you pointed out are definitely visible and are the same ones I found myself. Blue eyes on “wolves” will always bother me but, it’s a game, what can do you?

Here’s the adorable and doggy dog base evo of this guy:

Talking about wolfy video game characters just makes me wanna talk about all the others that I really like. We’ve come sooo far with animals in games and I just..I love it so much.

Here’s my all time current favorite wolf in any game, Sif, The Great Grey Wolf, from Dark Souls:

Sif was the companion of Sir Artorias, the Abysswalker. After Artorias passed away, Sif became the guardian of Artorias’ grave in the Darkroot Garden and wields Artorias’ Greatsword. Sif also uses some of his former companion’s moves during combat. All in all, Sif is very well done and looks about as close to an actual wolf as you could in a game when DS came out. Obviously, wolves are not this size and don’t go around swinging greatswords in their jaws but it makes for a really neat boss and character.

Another really cool wolf character, and one that’s much more of a fantasy wolf, is Link’s wolf form in Zelda: Twilight Princess:

Definitely a lot of doggy traits (shorter muzzle, round paws, defined markings, pointed ears) but it is a totally different world from ours so it’s hard for me to be too picky about it.

And then you have the reincarnated sun god Amaterasu, currently residing inside of a statue brought back to life, Okami Amaterasu:

The statue was of a wolf name Shiranui that saved an entire village from a curse brought upon them by a demon named Orochi. The games is a telling of one of the legends surrounding Susanoo-no-Mikoto, who is the brother of Amaterasu, the goddess of the Sun, and of Tsukuyomi, the god of the Moon. Ammy is definitely a pretty decent representation of a white wolf, not many complaints really. Okami is also a simply beautiful game and I highly recommend it to anyone and everyone who likes animals, nature, wonderful storytelling, and beautifully arty graphics. The game was released for the PS2 but it was incredible graphically for when it came out, at least I thought so.

Since I’ve only shared wolves so far I feel it’s only fair that I share a couple of my favorite dogs as well! There are many dogs in the world of Okami and they’re pretty adorable but I think Dogmeat from Fallout 4 will always be my favorite video game doggo.

I can’t tell you how many heart attacks I had before I learned he couldn’t die. I died so many times trying to ensure he’d be alright… >_>

And one last “dog” that I love is D-Dog from Metal Gear solid 5. Okay, so…I guess this one is weird, he is most definitely a wolf but he’s being called a dog and is called one throughout the entire game. So it’s the only case I know of with completely backwards misrepresentation of wolf in the media. He’s wonderfully animated though.

He’s also an incredible companion to have on the battle field as he wields a combat knife and can take out targets for you.

He’s pretty much the most badass wolf I know of in video games. Well, besides Sif, I don’t think D-Dog could take on that monster and come out on top.

Well, this post turned into something much longer than I originally planned but it’s fun to share personal likes sometimes! Thank you again for your submission!

Boyfriend Taeyong

  • fluffy fluffy fluffy the fluffiest boyfriend in the world
  • definitely more of a giver in the relationship (not in an unhealthy way tho!!!!!!)
  • in the beginning of the relationship he’s kinda distant
  • and reserved
  • but it’s only because he’s scared
  • he doesn’t want to push your boundaries
  • or make you uncomfortable
  • so at first there’s very limited amount of skinship
  • and it even makes you wonder if you’re doing smth wrong
  • but it’s just taeyong being soft!!!!!
  • it’s honestly painful for him
  • because he just wants to cuddle you
  • and hold you
  • and kiss you
  • but he doesn’t want to freak you out
  • so when you start initiating skinship
  • and letting him know what you’re okay with
  • he becomes the clingiest baby in the world
  • he just won’t let you go
  • the second that he sees you, he has his arms wrapped around you
  • he gives the best hugs
  • he rests his head on top of yours and he holds you so tight
  • he whispers cute stuff to you
  • “i missed you sooooooooo much”
  • “did you miss me”
  • “i couldn’t stop thinking about you”
  • “i saw this cute puppy on the way here and it reminded me of you”
  • you can’t really go out because your relationship is kept private
  • so when you see each other it’s at your place most of the time
  • when you’re watching a movie, he’s holding you
  • when you’re telling each others about your day, he’s holding you
  • when you’re doing the dishes, he’s holding you
  • when you’re sleeping, he’s holding you
  • when you’re eating, he’s trying to hold you and you have to push him back because you’re starving tbh
  • he either just pulls you to his chest when he’s being clingy
  • or he lies down on you and crushes you
  • when you’re doing something he follows you and clings to your arm
  • and when you have to reject his skinship for whatever reason, he pouts and whines
  • and he doesn’t stop until you give him a kiss
  • he also has a weird obsession with having you sit on his lap
  • he always taps his lap
  • or just pulls you on it when you’re sitting next to him
  • sometimes, very rarely, he can spend the night at your place
  • and it’s his favorite thing ever because he gets to sleep with you
  • you talk until very late (or early in the morning)
  • and it’s one of the rare moments when he tells you about his worries
  • and his hardships as a leader and idol
  • when you really can’t stay awake anymore, he holds you against his chest
  • and doesn’t let go until the morning
  • and even then it’s a struggle to get him to let you out of bed
  • he ALWAYS buys you stuff
  • even when you tell him he doesn’t need to
  • and that it burdens you
  • he says it makes him happy to spoil you
  • and that you shouldn’t worry about it
  • he listens to everything you say
  • and as soon as you mention something you like, he takes note of it
  • and the next time you see him he has the biggest smile on his face
  • “guess what hehe SURPRIIIIIIIIIIIIISE”
  • he has mentioned multiple times that he wants to be with someone who can lead him
  • i think this is also related to the fact that being a leader is very tiring
  • so when he’s with you, he likes having more freedom
  • and less responsibilities
  • and he feels a sense of security when he’s with you
  • though i see him as being very insecure in a relationship
  • he would overthink every he does
  • and everything you do or say
  • he would doubt himself a lot and you would have to give him reassurance all the time
  • especially at the beginning of the relationship
  • but even later, he would still be very doubtful
  • but you’d just have to remind him of how much you love him
  • and then he’d get all mushy and shy
  • such a baby
  • he’d be so good at comforting you
  • he’d listen to all your worries
  • and give you advice
  • all up in his leader role
  • and he’d try to cheer you up by acting silly
  • or preparing something fun to do
  • he’d also cook for you all the time
  • gordon ramsay better watch his back!!!!!
  • he’d ask for your opinion
  • and when you said it’s good each time
  • because it was good all the time
  • he would get fustrated
  • “SIGH……….. THANKS”
  • random i love you’s all the time
  • also he would be the first to say i love you
  • a few months into the relationship
  • he wasn’t planning to say it so early
  • but he’d also been wanting to say it for way longer
  • but he was just too scared of creeping you out by saying it too early
  • but one day you’re acting silly
  • and laughing your ass off about something
  • and while you’re giggling taeyong is staring at you
  • with the biggest smile on his face
  • and he just lets out “i love you”
  • and it gets all quiet
  • he regrets saying it because he thinks he made everything awkward
  • but you just smile and tell him you love him too
  • and he’s so happy he feels like he could die right at that moment
  • after that he never misses an opportunity to tell you he loves you
  • also very much the type to bring up marriage casually
  • “when we get married, i want to do this”
  • “oh we’re getting married now?”
  • “aren’t we going to? one day?”
  • “sure”
  • “good!! :D”
  • he always brags about you to the members
  • to the point they probably get tired of listening
  • “guys do you know what y/n did yesterday?”
  • “hey guys did i tell you about what y/n told me? it was so funny i cried”
  • “omg don’t ask me why i’m smiling so much”
  • “we’re not going to ask you hyung”
  • “woah okay donghyuck if you want to know so bad!!! LOOK AT THE PIC Y/N JUST SENT ME ISNT SHE SO CUTE”
  • “yeah ok she’s pretty cute”
  • “hey!!!!! she’s mine”
  • not really the type to get too jealous
  • sometimes he gets needy
  • but he loves how close you are to the members
  • and when he does get jealous, it’s more because of his insecurities than not trusting you
  • though sometimes he gets tired of everyone complimenting you
  • and even though he’s happy you receive so much love
  • and he’s proud that his girlfriend is so appreciated
  • he gets a little smad sometimes
  • because he’s scared of losing you
  • but as soon as you tell him you love him
  • or that you kiss him
  • he forgets all about it

@memekeymouse the NSFW stuff appearing even on safe-search, that’s Tumblr’s problem.
It’s not the artists. Because they’ve tagged it as NSFW (yes I went back and tagged most of them as such since you dont wish to see it..). And Tumblr for some reason still shows them. You should be directing this towards Tumblr, not artists who draw yaoi and Mpreg. Also Im not drawing these because of a fetish. Mpreg is not a fetish. Its a thing thats literally IN japan. Same goes for yoai.. A uke cuter and submissive one and a seme is the more dominate one in the relationship. I can name a few shippings that have all of what you’re trying to go against me in it.

Meta Knight X Kirby
Shadow X Sonic
Mario X Luigi (yes people ship that..dunno why…)

Villager X Toon Link
Edgeworth X Phoenix
Zero X Megaman
Descole X Layton
Layton X Luke
Ness X Lucas
Claus X Ninten
Red X Blue (Pokemon)
Gary X Ash
Yurii and his seme (forgot his name but its from Yurii on ice)
Ganon X Link
Dark Link X Link
Chara X Frisk (can be identified as any gender but it still counts)
Vegeta X Goku
Trunks X Goten Broly X Trunks

Need I go on? Because there is a ton more.

“Yaoi” in of itself is NOT pornographic (in some cases there is but mostly there isnt). It’s simply just what gay relationships in manga/anime are called. If you’re going to be bashing people for having ships and calling it what its SUPPOSED to be called in anime, you shouldn’t be allowed to have ships yourself. You need to realise that YAOI, UKES, SEMES, AND MPREG ARE NOT FETISHES! And its NOT illegal! However, you act like Im committing murder. So why does that make such a big issue with you?? And SIN can literally be ANYTHING. Look i get where you’re coming from. But you had no damn right to post any of that stuff! You didn’t even try to come to me nicely! My drawings aren’t the problem. It’s certain people in fandoms. Like you.
And as for anything related to sin, it happens in every fandom. EVERY. FANDOM. Nobody said that gay ships were “sinful”. It refers to NSFW or suggestive content. Yaoi LITERALLY MEANS GAY. AND YURI MEANS LESBIAN. REGARDLESS OF WHETHER IT’S SEXUAL OR NOT! If anybody is in the wrong, it’s you. I’m not physically harming anybody. I’m not insulting anyone. I know you didnt mean to hurt me but you did. Once again. You could’ve just told me privately.. And nicely that i had offended you. But no. You decided to make me look like the bad guy here! You judged me by my art first and not me as a person! Im literally one of the nicest people that you will ever meet…!! I have no hatred towards you, because I’m not like that. I just can’t bring myself to hate anybody. But that doesn’t mean that I will tolerate hurtful comments.
And the last time I had checked, this was my blog. Not yours. I don’t just go around telling people what to post on their blog or anything. And on the subject of MPreg, how does that automatically mean that I hate women and trans? happen to be female.
I love all genders equally, and non-binary people. Saying that I hate women and trans people just because I draw something related to Mpreg makes absolutely no sense. So apparently everyone who is okay with mpreg hates them right? We don’t.
Anyways, everyone. Regardless of what others think of what you like or don’t like, don’t listen to them. Especially if they’re hurtful. So please, don’t complain about something that isn’t that big of a problem. Especially here. And most people here ARE in fact okay with yoai, ukes, semes, and mpreg. Like @livewiregoth @asksecurityofficermitchellandco @bluehatchingrooster @thecurseddoll and many more. As a side note, that Skype screenshot that you were talking about was a crack roleplay. That means it’s used for HUMOUR. There’s something called tag blacklisting, so you won’t have to see anything with certain tags. I have the same right to ship and draw what I please just as you and everyone else do, regardless of what anyone says. If you dont like it then oh well. Maybe you can take something from this and not post hurtful things like that again.

Also. @mickeyofficialtwitteraccount had wanted to say this to you for a while now.

“Listen here ya lil shit; its none of your business what someone else does on their blog. Oh, your worried about offending gay people? I’m only attracted to people who identify as female in any way and I myself am a female, but it doesn’t offend me. Its just a tag. There’s no need to attack someone over this. You should be ashamed of yourself! You didn’t even try asking nicely first!”

Also if I receive anon hate for this. There are many ways for me to deal with a coward hiding behind a mask…

anonymous asked:

Can you just tell us what coding is? Google isnt being much help ;;

ugh god FINE but this is the last thing im talking about re: race in su and i mean it (maybe)

coding is hard to explain so this will be a very poor explanation (as well as possibly inaccurate) so if anyone who understands coding wants to jump in and explain it not poorly then please do

first of all, coding has to be definite and indisputable. it has to be ingrained into the character and be 100% INTENTIONAL from the writers. it’s not merely a fan interpretation, its something the writers are purposefully and EXPLICITLY portraying in the character that really CANT BE ARGUED

for example, you cant argue that garnet isnt coded as black. people who say “oh but shes an alien she doesnt have a race” just don’t know what coding is. like, you wouldn’t say jenny pizza is “coded” as black, you would say she IS black. garnet ISNT black, shes CODED as black. representational coding (there’s a lot of types of coding) is reserved for nonhuman characters, as it basically means youre ingraining real-world groups of people into the character

and it’s pretty clear why garnet is coded as black

afro, dark skin, physical features, voiced by a black woman, etcetc. if anyone looked at her who isnt familiar with steven universe, they would say she was a black woman, no doubt. she’s probably the most explicitly coded character in media that im familiar with

the point is, it has to be inarguable and extremely explicit and intentional by the creators. some people think pearl is coded as East Asian because of her fighting skills but that’s simply not definite enough. its an interpretation, and its arguable. you could argue that pearl is supposed to be a suburban white mom stereotype as well. pearl being east asian is just a headcanon. same with rose being latina. there’s not a lot of canon basis for that and it could be argued that she’s just white. even amethyst being latina can be argued, as she could also easily be interpreted as black by some people. the su fandom gets “coding” and “headcanons” really really confused.

if you want more examples of representational coding, i have some from other media…i cant believe im about to talk about knuckles the motherfucking echidna on my su blog but here we go

so im just gonna be straight up: knuckles is coded as black. his color scheme is intentionally supposed to be rastafarian, he has dreadlocks for that reason, and his main music genre from the earlier sonic games was rap/jazz/soul. he was originally supposed to have a jamaican accent but sega scrapped that idea. they basically wanted him to be an “island guy” as he was born on Angel Island. (he also has Mayan coding from his ancestry but thats just gonna make this complicated) HOW much he’s coded in different sonic games varies. the sonic adventure 2 game stressed this and even gave him a significantly darker snout color to emphasize it. it’s pretty much inarguable that in this game, knuckles is coded as black. it’s just extremely clear that this was the creator’s intentions…i remember everyone used to call him the “unofficial black sonic character”

there’s other characters who have clear racial coding from other media too…there’s a great post that ive seen floating around that talks about Eduardo and Wilt from foster’s home being coded as mexican and black, respectively. they also compared that coding to garnet’s coding in su. it was more geared towards those of you who think that “garnet is an ALIEN and there’s no instances of black in her” whereas this post im writing here is geared towards people who get “coding” and “interpretation” confused. id love to see that post again if anyone happens to find it

but yeah, coding has to be clearly intentional from the writers. if not, its just a headcanon/interpretation. garnet and knux are explicitly coded as black. pearl can be interpreted as east asian.

and whether representing poc through nonhuman characters is offensive or not is another story.

(anyone who actually truly knows about this stuff, feel free to correct me cuz maybe im just completely wrong. who the hell knows anymore)

thoughtsdrifttoyou  asked:

Hi I've been waiting for someone to ask but since no one will I will! How am I supposed to even be slightly okay with being fat if every single thing in media says the opposite? I'll actually start to feel okay and pretty and worth something and then I turn on a tv. But should I just give up all tv all music? Please help thanks

Do not be discouraged, my friend. Actually, we get this question a lot! its not as… boldly asked as you have though.. but we do get quite a few questions about how one is meant to find their worth despite being told forever that how they are isnt okay. 

Ive been wanting to tackle this question more clearly for a while now. 

The media has been giving unreachable standards of beauty for decades now. Unless you’re a certain height, weight, skin tone, have a certain shade on your teeth and you keep yourself up to immense status of grooming, you are NOT beautiful. 

Heaven forbid that you’re a person of color, or you decide not to shave this week. Holy shit, you broke a nail? talk about NOT being perfect. Whats this? You passed gas? YOU HEATHEN!! D8< 

Because of this, mainstream media  does not and cannot represent the billions of people on Earth. There are too many factors [including weight ] , that make up the diversity of the human race. 

We’re made up of millions of different genetic codes, social experiences and beliefs . Unfathomable combinations!  Luckily, with the help of the internet, people are finding their voice. We have youtube channels, blogs, facebook pages, and articles that are made by and for people who do not fit the media’s standards of beauty.. and because of that we’re finding a more true representation that no one can take away. And if you cant find it, you have the power to make it! 

Originally posted by seaeyedraw

We’re starting to erase the line mainstream media has made for us.  YOU define your worth. Nobody else can do that for you. 

So! With society’s exaggerated and downright hard-to-achieve expectations and knowing the reality of the human race, it’s easier to find the hope and beauty within yourself. 

Do you think so? 

- Mod Dom 

okay, here’s the thing about the ‘but im tagging it properly and therefore making it avoidable!’ argument.

i realize that a lot of you really do think that you aren’t doing anything wrong, and that kids (or people who dont want to see that) wont find your nsfw/disturbing content because it is properly tagged. that is not the case.

1. you can find them outside of tumblr

tumblr isnt a vacuum, tagging it will not prevent kids from seeing it.

for example; my younger cousins (i have like ten sets of younger cousins my family is huge) like to look up pictures of their fave characters, sometimes even print them out as posters, or, if they are black and white, use them as coloring book pages. i used to do that when i was little. my younger cousin’s friends do that. when i did service learning for the younger kids in my k-8 middle school, all the kids would do that during computer time. its a thing kids do.

when i typed in ‘black butler’ with the safesearch on into google images, i immediately got a picture of a naked ciel wrapped in ribbon.

okay, but lets try specific characters, and maybe a show with an even younger audience. 

‘steven universe garnet’, with the safesearch on. scroll down just a tiny bit, not even an inch of the scrollbar down (and of course the scrollbar will be moved down in all of these situations, why would you just stare at the first page over and over again??? but im giving these searches the benefit of the doubt and not digging really deep trying to search for stuff).

BAM, garnet wrapped in a small towel, dripping wet coming out of the shower in a sexy pose.

well, im just a kid who wants to look at pics of my fave mystery twins! let me search ‘mabel and dipper pines’… is that them kissing? on the mouth??? yep. after about a cm of scrolling down. with the safe search on.

there are also even more pics of them kissing (they are all by the same artist i think… different pics tho) if you search ‘gravity falls dipper and mabel’

and whats the worst about this is that thing that happens when you click on a pic, and google shows you related pics/pics like it… so even ONE slip up opens the door to much more (yIKES the stuff i saw while researching garnet…)

what that also means is that, when clicking on a totally innocent picture, not even a questionable slip up, you’d get recommended a nasty one. while searching ‘steven universe rose’ i clicked on a pic of her, and in the ‘related images’ thing that popped up there was a pic of rose and greg… doing stuff.

also, when i searched ‘hiro and tadashi’, i clicked on one of the very first pics that came up, where hiro was a toddler and got mad ‘cause tadashi took a pic where his hair was up molded all weird form his bath. related images? hiro and tadashi very close, blushing, and looking into each other’s eyes romantically. 

and kids probably wont search ‘___ nsfw’, but just as a test i searched all of those fandoms with the safesearch on, and still got nsfw/suggestive/incesty stuff. so that proves the point that safesearch doesn’t block everything, and you cant just say, “well, the parents should monitor their kids!”, because a responsible -but not smothering- parent would make sure that their child’s computer or devices had safesearch on– that doesn’t 100% work.

(with the exception of black butler i guess, but that dosent really matter considering how young (starting at 11) the fanbase is) these shows are childrens cartoons. as the ‘big kids’, the older audience, it is not right to make these spaces unsafe for the target audience. no one is saying you cant enjoy these shows, but you should not be drawing (and most importantly, posting) harmful things involving these shows.

2. not everyone can blacklist things

not everyone can blacklist things. whether its because their computer or device isnt compatible with xkit, or they are relatively new to tumblr and aren’t even aware that ‘tumblr savior’ is a thing, not everyone has the ability to keep stuff off their dash, even if you do tag it properly.

3. spammers

shippers who ship minors and adults. they post pics of said minor/adult pairing.

when they post those pics or comics or whatever, they do tag it properly! #seba//ciel, #ere//ri!   yay!

but do you know what else they tag it with? the name of the show/series.

not even just the name of the show/series. everything related to the show or series, because they want more notes. looking for a pic of alois trancy? boom! seba//ciel. even stuff that isnt seba//ciel, but is tagged as seba//ciel. why is there a gif set of sebastian in the alois trancy tag???

goodness help you if your favourite character is a character in the ship you hate, because the tag is probably full of that minor/adult pairing. that’s rough, buddy.

4. then just dont follow me!

first - unless you have it stated on your blog or in your about or whatever, something along the lines of ‘hey btw i draw/post child porn’ (and yes, it is considered child porn even if they are drawings, and not photographs of real children) (EDIT i recently found better links than that one, so have some more: <3 <3 ), how are people supposed to be aware that they shouldn’t follow you?

and it has to be specified. just saying ‘oh btw this blog posts nsfw sometimes’ isnt the same, because there is a difference between adults being depicted sexually, and minors being depicted sexually. 

one may be a bit embarrassing to show up on your dash when your friend is looking at the screen, or maybe might make a follower a bit uncomfortable- but they can handle it, its just sex.

the other is highly disturbing, and can upset/trigger panic attacks in a lot of people.

second - they might not even be following you.

someone could see a (non nsfw) piece of art you did on their dash, and they could go to your blog to check you out because they liked your art.

then, they could be greeted by pics of an adult and a minor f*cking. (im looking at you, seba//ciel and ere//ri shippers)

is it your fault they clicked on your blog and saw stuff they didnt want to see? 


is it their fault they clicked on your blog and saw stuff they didnt want to see? 


the thing to take away from that situation is, did tagging your posts prevent them from seeing your posts?


twilightprince102  asked:

Everyone is saying that Joey is gay, and while I do support that, have people considered her being bisexual? Liking both boys and girls? THAT would make much more sense, wouldn't it?

ok i have a lot to say about this.

bisexual joey is fine if you headcanon bisexual joey like its cool whateva live your life be ya self. maybe she is bisexual! who knows not us thats for sure.

but i feel like….theres this recurring thing thats happening…where a character shows attraction to one gender consistently and then for a split second they show attraction to a different-gender character and/or question their sexuality for a different-gendered character and everyone says “they showed attraction for BOTH genders in the past. that means theyre bisexual!” and then lots of people call out anyone that doesnt headcanon said character as bisexual bc its “bisexual erasure” and its a huge mess.

and you know its fine to see characters that have been attracted to both genders throughout their lives as bisexual like there aint nothin wrong with that. theres not that many bi characters out there so bi representation is awesome and headcanons are what you want them to be

but i feel like this whole thing that i just described fails to communicate the experience a lot of gay people go through (or trans!!). especially gay girls.

compulsive heterosexuality, heteronormativity, internal homophobia etc. these are all things that i think need to be talked about more.

i had NO idea these things existed until i was 18 (i had been questioning since 15) and stumbled across a blog talking about gay girls that finally realized they were in fact, gay but previously went along with being straight bc thats what…youre supposed to do….right? and back then i labeled myself as guess what? bi. it always felt weird to say it and it felt wrong but it was easier than figuring out wtf was going on w me bc i had never seen anything like how i felt. but…i had dated guys in the past?? and had just been with guys/had crushes on guys etc. so…..i MUST be bisexual….right???

as soon as i heard from another gay girl that these things existed and that i wasnt the only one that felt that way and it was something to overcome, i was able to stop doing things that made me uncomfortable.

i mean i know people that were HUGE flirts to the opposite gender (same? guilty?)before realizing they were gay just because isnt that what youre supposed to do??? flirt with the opposite gender??? or literally just overcompensating…trying to be like their straight friends and failing every time things got serious.

point: gay people that once identified as straight, bisexual or any other “queer” sexuality exist and have unique stories. i think these stories of realizing that you arent straight and that hey maybe you actually have no attraction to the opposite gender at all! despite your past actions and/or feelings! are so important to tell.

because otherwise it could be YEARS before some people figure out that they dont have to u know do things that they dont want to do or force themselves to be like their friends. and they can start being themselves while in their teen years! they can fall in love and go on dates etc while all their straight friends do the same thing.

just like its important to highlight bisexual awakenings/bisexuality/gay people that always know they were gay and love being gay/trans people/intersex people/ lesbians, its important to highlight that its not as divided as you think and you should explore because society really has you wrapped around its finger with expectations. it can have a serious hold on you.

i just…never see characters that go through the overcoming compulsive heterosexuality and realizing they never liked what they did in the past??? the closest i can think of is dave who realized that labeling sexuality is stupid and doesnt even exist in space or ever it never mattered or existed it was just how society made you think it did. to the extent that he would hate on gay people himself bc he was insecure about actually being what society considers taboo.

its scary. its a scary, crazy, wild experience that i think needs to be talked about instead of being labeled as “bisexual” everytime.

and thats why i headcanon gay joey ok.

i really wish i could tag this but im on mobile so hopefully enough people see it.

anonymous asked:

I read your meta on hinami,but i still dont get her. Why all this hatred towards akira? Akira didnt kill her parents,kureo did. And hinami,in a way,helped touka killed kureo. She's had her revenge,isnt it enough? But the way she put it,made her look like the sole victim in this case. Akira is also a victim here. Yes,hinami isnt responsible to make akira feel better,its something she must do on her own. But,if anyone has the right to be angry now,its akira,she lost her parents and yet no revenge

I’ve never said anything negative about Akira. This isn’t a blog for my personal opinions on whether I like or dislike certain characters, I was simply stating what Akira’s narrative flaws are. I find the way Akira is reacting to be realistic and in line with how the rest of the characters in Tokyo Ghoul are developed. That is they have brief moments of revelation and then fall back on old habits. Akira had a moment where she finally got to express the want she’s had her entire character arc, which was to be an individual person, rather than a carrier of her father, her mother and the CCG’s will.

This is hinted throughout her entire arc, (I did a post on it x) but even stated in the same chapter she took the blow for Takizawa. What annoys him about the student next to her is that he called her a ‘natural bred investigator’ which makes it seem like her talents are due to her parents rather than her own. 

Takizawa at least always looked up to Akira as a rival. He saw her as an individual that is to say, even if it was just so he could compete with her on an individual level. Which Akira clearly appreciates. 

However the moment she wakes up she has difficulty breaking away from her old way of thinking. This might be because one) the person she saved Takizawa is not around (who even knows where he is Ishida’s characters just disappear) and she wakes up in an entirely unfamiliar stiuation. Take’s right in the fact that she’s most likely still just processing. 

That being said, Akira still has a habit of saying some really mean things when she has her bouts of selfishness. I already discussed how saying “you’re not the person I know” is dehumanizing to Kaneki after she had been the one who affirmed his sense of identity when he needed it the most. 

She also told Takizawa that he was better off shutting up and dying because he was a ghoul now, even though he’s technically one of her closest friends and he had also just saved her life five seconds ago. 

Akira says these things because she’s shutting her emotions off and forcing herself to be cold, it’s a reasonable enoguh explanation she’s not doing it to be cruel, but she still says them.

As to your point about Hinami, Hinami never even cared about revenge, it would never satisfy her. 

However, the assumption that Hinami should be the one to help Akira through these troubled times smacks of… I’m not sure what word to describe it, “privilege” on Take’s part. He’s just assuming their situations are equitable. I don’t think he, Kaneki, or even Touka right now at all understand what Hinami is going through. 

It’s telling that of all the people she was close to, she confessed to Ayato miles away from their own base. Hinami is literally that considerate of other people’s feelings she puts on a smile while Akira is around, and then breaks down crying miles away because she can’t force herself to be totally comfortable with somebody that reminds her of her past trauma. 

Hinami’s extremely considerate and conscious of other people’s feelings. Akira is not because she spends most of her time bottling up her own feelings.

That’s not the only difference between the two of them though, Akira possesses still a lot of conditioned bile and terrible beliefs towards ghouls. She still thinks ghouls are better off being exterminated systematically by the CCG, even peaceful ones who were Hinami’s parents. She still sees no problem with using Quinques, and actively picked which ghouls from the jail to experiment on for drawing more Quinques like they were objects rather than people. 

Hinami’s trying to do her best to be respectful to Akira for Kaneki’s sake, and also because it’s the right thing to do not to keep on hating her. I highly doubt that Akira will extend that same regard to Hinami as she still has a lot of systemic dehumanization of ghouls to unlearn. 

This is a lot of emotional burden to put on Hinami, for little emotional benefit on her part and a lot on Akira’s. Also as a last point, Hinami’s 17 at this point and Akira’s 25. I’m only 21 and it’d still be weird if I went to a seventeen year old and expected them to help fix my emotional messes for me. 

There’s an implicit power difference between them is what I’m saying. As to quote @hysyartmaskstudio

Goat is supposed to be an organization to better the lives of Ghouls - to have them acknowledged as equal to humans, to have their thoughts and feelings and pain respected as valid. The way this is being handled is proof that Goat, and it’s King, have a long way to go.

Goat an organization of ghouls for ghouls has already gone out of its way to protect both CCG investigators, and Akira Mado, who have in the past relished in the systematic extermination of ghouls. If Kaneki wants to uplift ghouls, he should actually yunno do that try putting them first for once. 

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I will update the list if i think of more/find new fics or authors. also, if i got any of the links wrong (or they dont work), or i mixed up the author of a fic, please tell me!!

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Ten Years

Originally posted by themegalosaurus

Pairing: Winchesters x Daryl
Word count: 1,314
Warnings: Swearing, arguing, bit of angst

Part 27 of 2 Hours West

“Fine. Jesus.” He muttered. “Out of nowhere, he suddenly has a girlfriend. Serious, but never mentioned her to sis until he needed to bail on his Friday night pizza with Chey.” Dean pointed out. “The Wednesday before. Never mentions she has a damn kid, either, until we got attacked by vamps.” He was getting pissed again, and everyone could tell. “Then sis made your favorite father’s day meal. Spent all day in the kitchen. Once again. Fucking bailed. Never told anyone but Chey his girlfriend and her son moved in. Until fucking Father’s Day! Left Chey upset, and then she told sis, who got…well, pissed and hurt. He’s lucky I didn’t knock his skull in last night.”

John turned his head to look at Daryl. He took a deep breath and sighed, shaking his head slightly. Looking back at Dean he opened his mouth and closed it again. “I…I just don’t even know what to say at this point.” He looked at you. “You couldn’t have a nice, normal, drama free life could you.”

“My last name’s Winchester, that was pretty much a no from birth.” You sassed.

“Look, Dean, you can’t react like that.” Dean went to interrupt but John held his hand up, silencing him straight away. “It’s not your battle to fight. I know you wanna protect your sister but she is a grown woman. She has to deal with the father of her child in her own way.” Dean furrowed his brow and started picking at a paint stain on his jeans. “I’d be more worried about what she can do to him. I remember her keeping up with you two pretty damn well.”

“Yeah, she did.” Sam chuckled lightly.

John took a deep breath. “Now. You.” He motioned to Daryl with his chin, making Daryl swallow.

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anonymous asked:

saucenao isnt 100% reliable either. As an artist myself you guys are waaaay too strict on that. My art also got reuploaded somewhere else but I didnt care because I saw the person doesn´t want to make money or self-advertising with it. The lone use of my art is making me happy since its the hugest reward I could get. Maybe I´m alone with this but playing the source-police and attacking someone publicly instead of writing them it per PM is the worst in my eyes. Nice evening/day to you :)

I know it’s not. Sometimes there’s no way to know who the artist is tbh. And this is why it’s better not to repost at all.

Attack? When have I attacked somebody on public? Sourcing police? Do I go to every reposted fanart and attack people? How do I attack them? Do I invade their privacy, harrass them, insult them, tell them they are the worst for not knowing something most people don’t know? Do you have proofs? Or are you just upset and putting words in my mouth?
I only speak about matters like this in public when the issue is brought about in general (right now, the user pretty much directly replied to my post, so I thought I had to reply at least) or when the reposter has their askbox closed or blocks the owner when they try to warn them. If not I PM them. I always do this.

Idk if the person feels hurt about my reply, if they do, I’m really sorry. I thought it was a given that I wasn’t talking about them but about the issue in general. I’m really sure I didn’t use any insulting words. Point them out if you think I did, please. Point out the exact words I used, so I can be careful next time.
I was talking in general and sharing my experiences. I tried to be very polite. I only insulted zerochan and they deserve more than that tbh.

Good for you for not caring I guess. Most of us do. And just like you don’t care and I respect you for that, you are supposed to respect my feelings and wishes about my art too. It’s mine. I decide what I do with it, no one else should
The way you feel is not what we all are supposed to feel (there’s no rule about how one is supposed to feel).

I have no idea what I’ve done so you react like this and I don’t appreciate your sarcasm. I’m not shaming anyone on public, I’m sharing my experiences (in my blog) so people have in mind how it feels for us sometimes not all of us but for a great deal of us. So that out of the sympathy you may have for me, you think more about it next time. I was not judging or being police….

“ My art also got reuploaded somewhere else but I didnt care because I saw the person doesn´t want to make money or self-advertising with it. “

That doesn’t mean another person isn’t gonna find it and see it’s selling material. The more art pieces you reproduce without permission, the more people are gonna see it, and the more people see it, the probability that someone who dares selling sees it will be higher. It shouldn’t matter since they have your permission to repost it (since you saw them and all). But when it’s done behind your back, you have no control over it and it suddenly happens. It’s scary and disrespectul.

Anyway I apologize if I made anyobdy feel bad, I talked the way I did so people think about it a little, not to insult people or shame people, I even made sure to not attack anyone by saying we all have to learn. I’m extremly disappointed to have such a spiteful reaction. I respect your feelings, but next time be clearer about what I did wrong.

I always want to learn.

Try again if you want, but you can’t use the anon button this time, be brave.

wanna chat? pt 3

on ao3

pt 1 | pt 2 | pt 3

for those of you wondering, yes i will shut up after this. i’ll go do something ACTUALLY productive. hopefully.

i no longer know what’s going on here


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undead zombie model: Yeah
What do you need help on?

the real ladybug™: NOPE

the real ladybug™ renamed this group “HOMEWORK FREE ZONE”

drop the bass: for once i agree

flour power: But physics

undead zombie model: I’ll PM you

the real ladybug™: …………………………….

drop the bass: whats that for
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firelordlee-deactivated20161231  asked:

(I've been looking at your blog a lot lol) okay so I totally think (someone said this BUT) that oikawa would try to not take iwa seriously because like ??? He calls him ugly and stupid and shitty and like?? Oikawa WANTS to believe he's joking but !!! It's hard!!! And iwa doesn't realize this bc they've been like this forever so like!! Oikawa just gets passive and sad sometimes and iwa can't figure out why bc oikawa won't tell him! Iwa hates seeing oikawa sad and I !!! I'm emo

MAN LET ME TELL U SOMETHING THIS IS MY HC TOO,,, like iwa is so used to calling him names and although he never means it oikawa sometimes panics and thinks ‘holy shit he hates me now im done’ but in reality thats just the way he is,, and oikawa gets somewhat sadish about it?? but ofc!!! he say it bc its NOT supposed to bother him, hes SUPPOSED to know that he ISNT serious but he is a very paranoid child and thinks hes being serious

and then one day when he finally DOES tell iwa whats going on hes like ’???? is that what this is about u big baby’ and oikawa is like WTF MAN and iwa just reassures him how much he loves him and how that will never change and they cuddle and everything is GOOD

POC fetization/ace struggles and fears

letmedrivemyvan-intoyourheart submitted: 

 I’m a black (never liked saying african American honestly what a mouthful) panromantic ace, and seeing as I just turned 18 it’s been pretty difficult to figure out my sexuality over the years without the constant ‘youre too young’ thing. Firstly I feel that’s bullshit, how is it with boys are jizzing their pants at the age of eleven, at 18 im too young to understand how i feel about my own body and its desires.

My story is pretty boring, I had big crushes but never any relationships. I only realized I was different when I started processing my friends behavior (i never put much faith in the medias depiction of romance). Mid high school I discovered asexuality and it instantly piqued my interest, but at the time my mental health was shoddy and familial support was bare so that wasnt my priority. Then my psychiatrist invalidated me when I told him i thought the ace community might fit me by saying I still have sexual urges. Bc he’s the doctor i assumed he was right and ended up super down over this for the next little while, especially when i //cough// tried masturbating.
Only last year i got a more solid hold of my gender/sexuality and it was honestly bc of porn. Usually when I tried to watch porn it took me (liTERALLY) at least an hour to find a video that didnt frighten, offend, or just turn me off, and even then I couldnt invest myself into being attracted to the media, most times i’d listen to the audio alone (then I discovered the grace of BL-CD’s). Literally every time I would try to watch porn id get distracted by the anatomy and start drawing or something and one day(okay over the course of several days) i was said ‘SCREW THIS. IM JUST NOT INTO IT.’
I’d never experienced sexual attraction but I didnt want to go back to my condescending doctor and that conversation so i spent a long time doing research. I tried to invalidate myself time and time again, my main reason being something my friend said. “You’re just insecure.” She accepts me now but i will probably never forget those words because it constantly has me questioning whether my sexuality could just by a hyped up byproduct of my mental illness. I did have a minor revelation moment though after that. A boy had been flirting with me and at the time I had been trying to convince myself that I was cishet so I flirted back. I ended up getting stoned at his house; nothing sexual happened, in fact we didnt even kiss (mostly bc I didnt move and inch from my spot on the bed). This wasn’t the revelation part tho, that came as soon as I got home. I had a full on panic attack, one of my worst. I suppose it was because while I was there he was touching me. All I could remember where his hands and the pressure in the room and it made me physically sick. He hadn’t been out of line at all, had only cuddled me and I hadn’t said a word at the time (which I do regret) but getting home it felt like the biggest violation. It wasn’t just the touching, it was everything it pertained, even though I knew we weren’t gonna have sex or anything, the complete and utter lack of want frightened me. Even now I still feel bad and dramatic for reacting that way but the only thing that reaffirms me is the fact that I know, deep down, I didn’t want to feel that way but I did. I couldn’t change how I felt, because it’s something you just Know. So after swearing off boys forever (metaphorically) I decided to get my ass in gear and follow my heart¿

The interweb is a blessed place. Everything I found (including the tumblr community) was like opening the gates of valhalla. I wasn’t quite 'there’ yet but damn, I was Here. After that has been a series of finding support online since practically everyone irl thinks of my sexuality as a joke, they dont even take it the littlest bit seriously; and i didnt want to keep myself surrounded by that mindset. Finding blogs like these was a godsend and I can’t appreciate it enough.

With that out of the way, my most relevant issue as a POC as well as ace is the constant sexualization towards me. Even my friends do it! Because of my body type, being afab and curvy people just assume i’m a sexual figure??? I cant count how many times my own friends have touched my ass. On Canada Day a few weeks ago, my friends boyfriend slapped my butt as a joke, and all my friends are cool with it. In fact as the only POC in my friend group, my ass comes up a surprising amount. I know for a fact my friends don’t mean harm, they’re very open minded and it’s only bc of my long friendship with them that they frivolously touch me, and thats the main reason I havent said anything.

Mostly I feel as though, open minded as they are, they wont ever understand my sexuality. That’s only because it honest to god baffles me that sex is such a big and meaningful part of people’s lives, and if I can’t understand them, how can they understand me? Thats not so bad as not accepting it though, which they (the ones ive come out to) didn’t at first (until I showed them some colorful diagrams and had a serious 30second talk). My biggest fear in the end is the expectations people have of me. My parents have never had a health relationship with me so their opinion on my sexuality isnt a conversation that will ever happen, but im more concerned about a potential partners needs. I’ve always believed that if I really liked someone, I would do (very few) sexual things for them, bc thats part of the deal right? But a big part of me doesn’t want to compromise. Its honestly like giving a phone to a child, telling them to dismantle it and then put it back together again. I know how the mechanics work, how things should be, but Why? I just dont Feel like it’s something I Want. And then I’m scared shitless that bc i cant meet someones needs, they’re going to belittle/discredit or leave the relationship. Of course these are p reasonable worries but damn is it scary to have such a big heart and such a tiny chance. I guess i just wanted to rant and put some stuff out there, bc it affects me way more than I probably realize, especially in lieu with my mental health.

Here’s some advice I guess out of all of this; use labels to include, not exclude. If you think you might be ace, come right down into the community bc its p freaking rad. If you change your mind then no loss, if you hit the mark (like moi) then HOLY BALLS THE COLOR SCHEME IS DOPE.

thanks for listening, im always looking for new ace/aro friends so stop by, say hey, lets grab a cup of metaphorical coffee and not talk about sex

anonymous asked:

i read on another blog that your godtier is how you impact reality. that it has less to do with a desired end goal and more with just how you are as a person behaviorally and socially. like eg dave strider, he never really seemed to enjoy any aspect of being a knight and he eluded to not wanting to be that way on occasion, but thats just how he impacted reality and his friends whether he liked it or not. so like someone could have Seer of Heart ideals but behave and think like a Maid of Breath

I think I would disagree with that to be honest

Dave’s problem wasn’t the idea of a Knight or Hero in of itself, it was that he had a skewed idea of what the idea of heroism meant. He believed to be a hero you had to be like his Bro or John, and couldn’t reconcile the idea of himself, the way he was without changing anything, as a hero, because he wasn’t like either Bro or John

He didnt like combat, metal sounds, blood, death, he was abused with this intense “warrior training” by his guardian growing up giving him a natural distate for all forms of fight and combat and couldn’t get over the roadblock that Knight = Warrior and only Warrior

so because he believes Warrior and Knight to be equivalent, and couldnt dissociate those two things, he rejected the idea of himself as a Knight

In reality a Knight is so much more than that, their function is Application, the idea of applying objects to situations, any situation, or using tools to achieve ends, and a weapon is only one kind of tool

but to be fair I think the fandom also does this too, like they have trouble perceiving a Knight who isnt also a Warrior so maybe that’s where the confusion comes from

but to answer the idea of whether personality/who you are or what you do/what impact you have on reality is more important than the other, i think they are inextricable ideas, you can’t seperate them

because in order to have the greatest impact on reality, you need to be at your highest potential, and being true to yourself and god tiering without falling into inversion or overembracing is how you reach your full potential

the idea being you as yourself is valuable and powerful and how you make your greatest impact

so to me, I can’t really separate those things and can’t see, especially when every character with a classpect in homestuck has both of those things line up as well, except in cases where they misinterpret what their class means, like Dave and the idea of Heroism/Warriors/Knights

So no, I think if a persons true nature is represented by a certain classpect, i think they are that classpect, because allowing their true nature to shine is what allows them the greatest impact on reality by letting them truly reach their full potential

and also because their is no behind the scenes decision process going on when you god tier

the game isn’t sentient nor does it make decisions at all, much less decisions about you against your will, its more like it just scans you, sees whats there and makes that happen

my proof for stuff about Knights can be found in the tag “Knight Class” on my blog or just by searching Knight and reading stuff their or by the other strong examples of Knights Karkat and Latula, who can hardly either be said to supposed to have made their greatest impact on reality by being warriors either. Well, Karkat for sure anyway, his whole and Dave’s character arcs are about that, who knows maybe Latula is the actual warrior knight, we never saw enough about her

Hello girls! I just love your blog ^^ and I wanted to ask for a Leo scenario where you two are girlfriend and boyfriend for a while, but He starts to act strange, to avoid you and cancel dates, and you think he wants to break up with you, but isnt that! he wanted to ask you to take things to the next level because he really thinks you’re his true love of his life, he was just too shy and dont know how to do it ~ kk. Thanks in advance!! I just LOVE your hongbin and N scenarios <3 see ya!
Pairing: Leo x Reader
Genre: Fluff
Writer: Sabsab
Authors note: We are glad to hear you like our blog :D we really appreciate it. as for the request I hope you like it and enjoy reading. 
PS. we still got one Hongbin scenario left along with some others with the other members but Robo Ro is in charge of that Hongbin scenario and she’s a busy woman drooling over hot Asian men with long hair (aka, Hongbin Super hero era, Leo hyde era, Taemin Lucifer and Sherlock era and some other idols with long hair) and she’s also drooling over Ravi and his abs.  so she get distracted easily so it might take a while

“He wants to break up with me. I just know it. He acts so strange.” you said to your best friend on the phone.
“You shouldn’t worry so much. You know he is an idol maybe he’s just busy with his job.” she tried to calm you down
“Of course I know that. But he always text me to say good morning and good night on the days he has a busy schedule and now he has stopped texting that to me. And also when I ask him to go to the movies or something. He says "Not now (Y/N).” or he totally ignores me like I don’t exist.“
"There must be a reason why he acts like that but I know for sure he won’t break up with you. I mean you mean the world to him.”
“But still what if he doesn’t love me anymore? What am I supposed to do then?”
“Just don’t worry, he still loves you.” she said

The two of you had been talking on the phone for almost two hours. Talking about Taekwoon’s weird behavior and how you though he probably want to break up with you after all the years you had been dating. It all started like three weeks ago when he started to ignore your text messages and phone calls, first you just let it go not thinking anything about it since he’s an idol after all. But later he came home and left when you were asleep. Still you didn’t think anything about it but then he started to ignore you when you were together or he just gave you short and cold replies.

“You know how he acts, seriously maybe its just better if I disappear from his life just now.” you said with a hint of sadness and hurt in your voice.

You didn’t want to loose him, but you were afraid you would. You have been crying for the passed days when you were alone. You were hurt you, you knew maybe it was better that it just ends but still there was some part of you that didn’t want to let go of him. But you just couldn’t take it any more, the endlessly crying and the hurt feeling that thorn your heart apart you were sick and tired of it.

“Listen (Y/N), you make the choices in your life, do what you think is best and you know I’m always there for you.” she said. You really loved your friend she was so sweet.
“Yeah, your right. Thanks a lot, you are such a good friend to me.” you said, the whole situation with Taekwoon made you already emotional and those words that she just said really touched your heart and made it harder for you to hold back your tears. “But I’m going to end the call. I’m pretty tired.”
“Okay, but promise me when you need me. You call me okay?”
“I promise.”
“Okay. Good night.”
“Good night" 

You ended the call and started crying. You sure had a hard time. You slowly stood up, pulling a suitcase from under the bed and placed it on top of it. You opened it and start packing Taekwoon’s stuff. Tears kept rolling down your face but you knew you had to do this. When you finished packing his stuff you took the suitcase with you to the living room knowing he would see it there since he always take a midnight snack before going to bed. You then took a paper and wrote down a note and stick it on the suitcase with tape. 

You changed into your nightwear, went to bed without eating dinner just like all the other days. You didn’t felt like eating at all, only drinking water from time to time. You had lost pretty much weight but Taekwoon never noticed, he never asked you why you didn’t eat. You hugged your pillow, crying your self asleep knowing that Taekwoon won’t be in your life anymore when you wake up.


It was around three in the morning when Taekwoon walked in. He put his shoes off and hung his jacket on the coat rack. He walked into the living room spotting the suitcase and the note. He walked over to it and picked up the note.

‘Dear Taekwoon,

I want to thank you for all the sweet memories that me made, I really enjoyed the time we spent together but I guess nothing last forever. I think it’s the. Best to end this relationship, I feel like we are drifting apart and it won’t take long until you break up with me so that’s why I end it now. I just can’t take it anymore. I wish you the best and lots of happiness. Don’t worry about me I will get over you and I’ll be happy again. But I just need time for that.

Lots of love,

He stared at the note in horror, getting angry at himself that the way he acted made you think he wanted to break up with you. He put the note down and walked back to the coat rack. Pulling a small box out of his pocket. He opened the box looking at the beautiful silver ring with a small sapphire on it. That ring has been in his pockets for weeks. He wanted to ask you to marry him for a while but he just didn’t know how to do it. He always got really nervous when he tried to propose to you and because of that he act the way he does.

"Okay pull yourself together. You can do this.” he said to himself, letting out a sight. He was already nervous but he has to do it now before it’s to late.

He walked to your room, opening the door slowly. He walked to your side of the bed and he slowly shook you.

“(Y/N), wake up.” he said softly

You let out a groan, turning on your back stretching your arms. You slowly opened your eyes as you let out a yawn.

“Taekwoon?” you said sleepy
“Can you sit up? We need to talk.”
“Talk? Right now?”

He nodded walking to the light switch and turned the light on. You started to feel more and more nervous as Taekwoon walked back to your side and took a seat on the edge of the bed. You couldn’t help but tears ran down your face, He really was going to break up with you.

“(Y/N), please don’t cry.” he said as he leaned in and whipped your tears away with his thumb “there is no need to.” It was silent for a while until he spoke again.

“(Y/N) this is something I really had to do sooner but I had no idea how to do it and the way I acted only pushed you away. You see… The years I spent with you were the best of my life, I enjoy your smile… I enjoy watching you sleep and many more things. And well… I don’t want you to be my girlfriend anymore… I want you to be more than that.” he paused, you looked at him with big eyes as you saw him getting down on one knee, holding a small box showing the beautiful silver ring with a sapphire on it. “(Y/N) do you want to marry me?”

You couldn’t believe it, you were so glad that he proposed to you. Taekwoon is the one you want to share the rest of your life with and something happening like this made you so happy. You were so wrong, thinking he would break up with you while actually he wants to marry you. He just didn’t how to do that.

“Yes, of course I will.” you said happily with a big smile on your face. You hugged him right after he put the ring on your ring finger. “I’m so sorry I thought you wanted to break up with me.”
“It’s okay, I was acting like an idiot and pushing you away. If I were you I would had thought the same as you did now.” he said and smiled before kissing you on the lips. 

anonymous asked:

Do you know bothers me about people calling Zayn anti black or racist ? It's that white celebs like Lewis have said the N word. Have been racist constantly but noone reminds him of that. Not like the way they do to Zayn. Anything Zayn does, we get ppl making posts about him being racist. I'm like uh ok it's up to u to b offended but next time ur whites so something then plz go ahead and remind them of their anti blackness like u do when Zayn so much ad breathes.

Exactly. I also find it extremely pretentious that it is the white folks who are the most offended by this. I still cant believe Louis’ blatant racism was swept under the rug like that. He DID say the n word twice, his family has been PROVEN to be racist af but yet no one condemns him. No. Its like it never happened. Harry did black face. Black face! I get so mad thinking about this. Maybe white people dont understand the significance of this. Hell even some non black poc dont. But nope, lets all act like Harry is a sweet little angel.

No one ever calls these whites out unless it is the affected people. This fandom has definitely developed a cult of hating on poc while turning blind eye on their whites. What did Zayn do? A shady vid where I’m still convinced he never said the n word while singing that song. Maybe he did. Maybe he didnt. I found more offense in his tweets. Black people are allowed to feel however concerning that situation. You can be offended and unstan or you can be offended and continue stanning. It is a matter of choice really.

Yeah I fucking dont want to see another white person acting extremely offended on my behalf coz guess what you pretentious ass you DONT know how it feels and you NEVER will. I understand sympathizing with the situation and calling out so both the offender can learn from their mistakes and the offended can feel the support. I understand calling out a person if it is coming from a place of love. But this isnt the case in this fandom, is it? No. People just call out Zayn for the sake of spreading hate and making his fans feel stupid because “all this time instead of stanning Zayn, you could be stanning these 4 whites.” Because these whites are angels. Because they are unproblematic. No do not support the brown Muslim guy. It is not acceptable.

I saw most of these popular blogs are white people spreading their racism in such a way that it feels wrong not to be racist towards Zayn.The other poc ex fans, while I understand being mad and leaving the fandom, it is unacceptable how these same people flourish on spreading hate and making Zayn fans feel like they are on the wrong side. Just the things these people say are so racist ableist, islamophobic and downright abhorrent. Their behaviour, I dont even believe they say these things in real life; just here, behind their screens because yeah that is how cowardly they are.  

Is there a perfect person in this world? No. Are people allowed to make stupid mistakes and learn as they grow yes. Do you crucify your friends like you did Zayn when they make mistakes? No you dont. So it is time people start using their brains and quit blindly following concepts propagated by evil minded folks. Decide for yourself. Either stan or dont. But do it on your own terms.

I’m also going to say it is hilarious for someone to expect me to stan a white person. A person who has had white privilege all their life and does not understand what racism is. The fact that Zayn is a poc is what made me stan in the first place. Sure he is talented and attractive and it made me take a closer look. I relate to Zayn coz he has faced racism before, he understands the feeling of people hating you just for existing.

While y’all (4d fans) making these essays about Zayn’s mistakes,  I want to see the essays on the 4 whites mistakes too seeing as y’all refuse to be educated and reasonable. I want to see daily posts about Harry and Louis’ racist behaviour. I want to see posts on Liam’s homophobia and black appropriation. I want to see posts on Niall’s pedophile scandal and lord knows what. I want to see long ass posts on all the mistakes these 4 whites have ever done in their lives. But this wont happen now will it? No. Because white people are allowed to make mistakes and be racist as possible and still considered human. God forbid if a poc does the littlest mistake of them all coz then the crucifixion begins and never ends.

If Zayn had never debuted at no 1…I dont even want to think. But here you have Niall fans calling Zayn a flop lmao. Because people make the softest bed of them all when it comes to these whites but want Zayn to sleep in a cactus bed.

All this hate just because he dared to be different. Because he took his health first finally after years of entertaining spoilt brats. After defending his supposed friends all these years only to have them react in the whitest way possible: spoilt, privileged, snooty, childish and selfish behaviour.   Behaviour that would have seen Zayn buried alive were the roles reversed.

So yeah I get mad af every time 4d fans ‘call out’ Zayn because their only intent is malice. These people should start personally calling out themselves because no one should aspire to be such a vindictive bitter and frankly stupid af racist piece of shit.