because that last post made me miss everything

I had one of those nights again. The nights that I’m wide awake late at night, I don’t feel comfortable, my anxiety way too high. I’m just left staring at my computer screen trying to distract myself so I can go to bed. I so desperately wanted to call you because your voice was always one to calm me down. It made everything wrong to right. Not saying I can’t take care of myself but your admiring ways made the process ten times easier than me doing it myself. I wish you could’ve been there that one last time to make my mind stop racing.

MISSING HER Part 4


Part 5: http://as2015.tumblr.com/post/150567734222/missing-her-part-5-part

Part 3: http://as2015.tumblr.com/post/149960294312/missing-her-part-3-part-2?is_related_post=1

Hello, here I bring you the fourth part, which made me shed tears, because yesterday I lost all the file and  I had to redraw everything from scratch, I’ve been drawing the last 17 hrs of pure feeling. Sorry for the errors of translation, I hope they enjoy it. see you.

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✿ Quickly sharing these because I need to run back to work~

Top:  ghost!Sei! (QuQ) 30 mins speedsketch. 

This is from a MizuSei horror-game AU I talked about on twitter. Basically: Mizuki is searching for his “spirited away” Rib members through a ruined, dark and abandoned Platinum Jail. Sei is a lonely, depressed but kind ghost of a boy that died probably long ago. He appears in front of Mizuki during his journey and decides to follow him around *Sei’s legs are strapped and “melted” together, fading out. His eyes seem to be constantly crying black tears and stitches from an unknown surgery appear across his chest. A child-like drawing of a broken heart decorates his shirt. He usually floats around Mizuki as the latter walks, warning Mizuki if danger is approaching, or making sometimes slightly heartless comments to various situations, but always helping out and mentally supporting Mizuki whenever it’s needed*.

During their journey, they come across malfunctioning Allmates that got corrupted by a virus that spread through Rhyme back in the day when their users were still using them for said virtual game. Mizuki also has to be careful to avoid the Alphas, the android puppets, the last remaining human-like, yet very dangerous things, that are left in this abandoned place *and maybe they stumble on Clear too, who is still not 100%ly corrupted by the virus /0/*.

Objects, photographs, and items holding memories of people long gone help them piece the puzzle together. In the end, Mizuki has ventured so deep into the deserted Platinum Jail, that he wonders if he’s maybe the only one who got spirited away after all. The line between reality and illusion is thin and unclear. With Sei’s guidance, Mizuki finds himself at the huge, white glowing Oval Tower. Something is still alive in there. Or maybe not.

What of it all is the truth after all? What is Sei’s secret? 

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//wiggles hands and makes spooky sounds (~Φ0Φ)~ 

//I’m sorry, I’m just listening to really many horror-game walkthroughs while drawing OTL Heavily influenced by Fragile Dreams and Fatal Frame.

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Bottom left: Closest friend at uni gave me her notes from last month *because I keep missing that one class due to work*, so I drew her a Sei on a heart post-it as a thanks omg /)///(\ Note says “Thank you!” in Greek _(:3_)TL 

Bottom right: Actually part of a bookmark I made back in September for my friend endspire ;3; //must send you a christmas gifts package aaah but I need to print out everything first //i’m taking so long SRY ;A;

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It’s been forever! I got wrapped up in school and my son and caring for my grandmother and my depression attacked me in a bad way this winter. But I finally got my creative mojo back and I never forgot about you guys! I’ve missed everyone like crazy. 

I wanted to share some work in progress pics with you of the dining room I’ve been working on :) It’s based on a bunch of stuff from Restoration Hardware. I finally got the sheer curtains to work! I figured out how to make pieces of stuff invisible using alpha! I got the table down to a manageable poly count! Woot! lol. 

There’s deco stuff from a lot of different places because I can’t post pics of an un-decorated room and I haven’t really made that much deco (working on it!). So in the last pic you can see a list of the new meshes (well, the rug isn’t a new mesh, but the textures are new).

I’m not sure when I’ll have this all complete, but as soon as I do I’ll have it up for everyone to download. I work on it every day so it shouldn’t be too long. 

Clock on the pics to enlarge them so you can see everything better.

Let me now what you think! 

I’m off to download everything I’ve missed since I’ve been gone :)

“Let’s face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren’t invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren’t sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig. And why is it that writers write but fingers don’t fing, grocers don’t groce and hammers don’t ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn’t the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn’t it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it? If teachers taught, why didn’t preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which an alarm goes off by going on. English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn’t a race at all). That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.”

— (via be-killed)

But, but, but!

But, no, because there are reasons for all of those seemingly weird English bits.

Like “eggplant” is called “eggplant” because the white-skinned variety (to which the name originally applied) looks very egg-like.

The “hamburger” is named after the city of Hamburg.

The name “pineapple” originally (in Middle English) applied to pine cones (ie. the fruit of pines - the word “apple” at the time often being used more generically than it is now), and because the tropical pineapple bears a strong resemblance to pine cones, the name transferred.

The “English” muffin was not invented in England, no, but it was invented by an Englishman, Samuel Bath Thomas, in New York in 1894. The name differentiates the “English-style” savoury muffin from “American” muffins which are commonly sweet.

“French fries” are not named for their country of origin (also the United States), but for their preparation. They are French-cut fried potatoes - ie. French fries.

“Sweetmeats” originally referred to candied fruits or nuts, and given that we still use the term “nutmeat” to describe the edible part of a nut and “flesh” to describe the edible part of a fruit, that makes sense.

“Sweetbread” has nothing whatsoever to do with bread, but comes from the Middle English “brede”, meaning “roasted meat”. “Sweet” refers not to being sugary, but to being rich in flavour.

Similarly, “quicksand” means not “fast sand”, but “living sand” (from the Old English “cwicu” - “alive”).

The term boxing “ring” is a holdover from the time when the “ring” would have been just that - a circle marked on the ground. The first square boxing ring did not appear until 1838. In the rules of the sport itself, there is also a ring - real or imagined - drawn within the now square arena in which the boxers meet at the beginning of each round.

The etymology of “guinea pig” is disputed, but one suggestion has been that the sounds the animals makes are similar to the grunting of a pig. Also, as with the “apple” that caused confusion in “pineapple”, “Guinea” used to be the catch-all name for any unspecified far away place. Another suggestion is that the animal was named after the sailors - the “Guinea-men” - who first brought it to England from its native South America.

As for the discrepancies between verb and noun forms, between plurals, and conjugations, these are always the result of differing word derivation.

Writers write because the meaning of the word “writer” is “one who writes”, but fingers never fing because “finger” is not a noun derived from a verb. Hammers don’t ham because the noun “hammer”, derived from the Old Norse “hamarr”, meaning “stone” and/or “tool with a stone head”, is how we derive the verb “to hammer” - ie. to use such a tool. But grocers, in a certain sense, DO “groce”, given that the word “grocer” means “one who buys and sells in gross” (from the Latin “grossarius”, meaning “wholesaler”).

“Tooth” and “teeth” is the legacy of the Old English “toð” and “teð”, whereas “booth” comes from the Old Danish “boþ”. “Goose” and “geese”, from the Old English “gōs” and “gēs”, follow the same pattern, but “moose” is an Algonquian word (Abenaki: “moz”, Ojibwe: “mooz”, Delaware: “mo:s”). “Index” is a Latin loanword, and forms its plural quite predictably by the Latin model (ex: matrix -> matrices, vertex -> vertices, helix -> helices).

One can “make amends” - which is to say, to amend what needs amending - and, case by case, can “amend” or “make an amendment”. No conflict there.

“Odds and ends” is not word, but a phrase. It is, necessarily, by its very meaning, plural, given that it refers to a collection of miscellany. A single object can’t be described in the same terms as a group.

“Teach” and “taught” go back to Old English “tæcan” and “tæhte”, but “preach” comes from Latin “predician” (“præ” + “dicare” - “to proclaim”).

“Vegetarian” comes of “vegetable” and “agrarian” - put into common use in 1847 by the Vegetarian Society in Britain.

“Humanitarian”, on the other hand, is a portmanteau of “humanity” and “Unitarian”, coined in 1794 to described a Christian philosophical position - “One who affirms the humanity of Christ but denies his pre-existence and divinity”. It didn’t take on its current meaning of “ethical benevolence” until 1838. The meaning of “philanthropist” or “one who advocates or practices human action to solve social problems” didn’t come into use until 1842.

We recite a play because the word comes from the Latin “recitare” - “to read aloud, to repeat from memory”. “Recital” is “the act of reciting”. Even this usage makes sense if you consider that the Latin “cite” comes from the Greek “cieo” - “to move, to stir, to rouse , to excite, to call upon, to summon”. Music “rouses” an emotional response. One plays at a recital for an audience one has “called upon” to listen.

The verb “to ship” is obviously a holdover from when the primary means of moving goods was by ship, but “cargo” comes from the Spanish “cargar”, meaning “to load, to burden, to impose taxes”, via the Latin “carricare” - “to load on a cart”.

“Run” (moving fast) and “run” (flowing) are homonyms with different roots in Old English: “ærnan” - “to ride, to reach, to run to, to gain by running”, and “rinnan” - “to flow, to run together”. Noses flow in the second sense, while feet run in the first. Simillarly, “to smell” has both the meaning “to emit” or “to perceive” odor. Feet, naturally, may do the former, but not the latter.

“Fat chance” is an intentionally sarcastic expression of the sentiment “slim chance” in the same way that “Yeah, right” expresses doubt - by saying the opposite.

“Wise guy” vs. “wise man” is a result of two different uses of the word “wise”. Originally, from Old English “wis”, it meant “to know, to see”. It is closely related to Old English “wit” - “knowledge, understanding, intelligence, mind”. From German, we get “Witz”, meaning “joke, witticism”. So, a wise man knows, sees, and understands. A wise guy cracks jokes.

The seemingly contradictory “burn up” and “burn down” aren’t really contradictory at all, but relative. A thing which burns up is consumed by fire. A house burns down because, as it burns, it collapses.

“Fill in” and “fill out” are phrasal verbs with a difference of meaning so slight as to be largely interchangeable, but there is a difference of meaning. To use the example in the post, you fill OUT a form by filling it IN, not the other way around. That is because “fill in” means “to supply what is missing” - in the example, that would be information, but by the same token, one can “fill in” an outline to make a solid shape, and one can “fill in” for a missing person by taking his/her place. “Fill out”, on the other hand, means “to complete by supplying what is missing”, so that form we mentioned will not be filled OUT into we fill IN all the missing information.

An alarm may “go off” and it may be turned on (ie. armed), but it does not “go on”. That is because the verb “to go off” means “to become active suddenly, to trigger” (which is why bombs and guns also go off, but do not go on).


EDT: What is going on with me trying to reblog this post? Everything above here is someone else’s work (now made into the quote it should have been) so please stop crediting me! Last time I tried a reblog it went peculiar like this, and now the text is here but the source isn’t (and has apparently gone away). DUH?

This next part is my bit.

Last time I reblogged this the formatting was really peculiar. It looks more legible now, and this is worth reading (with a pinch of salt due to no provenance for several terms). (EDT: But see the comment above!)

Here’s an example. AFAIK “French Fries” didn’t originate in the USA; also Frenching is done to meat, not vegetables. I’d suggest the name comes from deep-frying them since deep-fried onion rings = “French Fried Onions” on most menus and packages. Also, over here (French) Fries = thin and chips = thick, while USA chips = UK/IE crisps.