because that just gives me a lot of emotions

WHY YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOUR SIGN
  • Aries: You play all the time, and you play to win. You are a cheerful and a happy person but god help the ones who do you wrong or the ones you love. You know how to party and you know how to have fun. You always give great compliments. You have a great body and great physical looks. Your smile is sexy and your laughter is even sexier. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Taurus: You have an impeccable taste for literally everything, you are the biggest hedonist out there and you simply know how to live. And you love life itself which comes in many forms. You have a cheerful spirit, intriguing mentality and even a greater heart. You are capable of putting up with so much shit and staying sane, haters can just stay jealous. You have the power to crack the earth in two when you witness negativity and you will. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Gemini: Your intelligence, style and communication skills know no borders. You are always the funny one, and even while some people might think that you're a drama queen or a double-faced attention whore, you just know that it isn't true. And you don't fight them but you let them learn it themselves that you're not a double-faced backstabber who hurts people for fun. You just love supporting people and making their lives better. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Cancer: You are literally one of the sweetest experiences one could ever have. You can teach people a lot, and you can stay strong through a lot of shit in your life. You are pure, innocent, loving and caring. You give the best hugs out there and you know how to satisfy people. You are full of positivity and you always put people's needs before yours. You can stand up and keep an insanely happy face even you're being torn apart inside. You are strong and you are one of the most sensitive people out there, which makes you really strong. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.|
  • Leo: You have this cheerful spirit and you radiate with alluring energy. People might accuse you of wanting to be the center of attention but you deserve to be the center of attention because you are special and you know what you're capable of. You just want to assure people that you're a person who's capable of many things and you can lead yourself and people to greatness. You are a natural born supporter and you simply know how to make people's lives better. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Virgo: You are really a person who's great in many spheres of life. You're deep. People might accuse you of being overcritical and a perfectionist, but don't let them bring you down. Yes, you are critical and you are a perfectionist but that's because you just want everything to be alright. You suffer from tons of anxiety when you want to achieve something but believe me, it will pay off. Just stay strong and don't listen to people who say that you're very silent and unsuccessful because you have the potential to surpass them all. You are a great thinker, a very intelligent person and you are one of the biggest go-getters out there. Stay strong and you will succeed in whatever it is you want. You know how to fix people's problems and you are born to help. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Libra: You are a person who radiates with positive energy. You are a beacon of happiness and you are one of the most creative people out there. You know how to care for people and you know how to love. God damn it, you have impeccable style and you know how to dress. You are appealing and both your physical and mental beauty are dominant when you enter a room of new people. You are a big, big person with even a bigger heart than your body and you know how to give people an advice. Those pieces of advice you give, often fix people's problems. You are beautiful. You are admirable. You are capable of many things and you know how to get shit done. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Scorpio: You are a person who's capable of many things. People usually think that you're too intense, childish, evil and vengeful but you're not. You just know how to have fun and you love making people's lives better. You are a master of telling jokes. Your eyes can penetrate deep inside a person's soul and see the sadness inside that person. And you will help that person. You help people on a daily basis, even if they don't see it. Most of the time you are very sad and you suffer inside because you think that people don't see what you've done for them, and that is okay. But believe me, they do see what you've done for them. And if anyone wrongs you or a person you love, you can avenge yourself or that person you love. Many people think that you're cruel and unforgiving but that's not true. Don't listen to the stereotypes for Scorpios and focus on being a good person. You forgive endlessly, you just don't like showing your emotions because people might manipulate you or use them against you, so you might do some things (which you will later regret) just because you don't want to seem weak. But that's how you protect yourself. Don't worry about others' opinions, you're a great person, filled with positivity. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Sagittarius: You are a person who cares about everyone. You are not bitchy and nervous, it's just that you are sick of people doing mistakes which they will later regret. You are a born teacher and you are born to lead people into a new, better world. People need to start listening to your pieces of advice because the pieces of advice you give are priceless. You are not extreme and you are not impulsive because you want to be, you do it because you want to prove others that you're a good person and a person who honestly and sincerely cares about everything. You often suffer from anxiety and insomnia, but it's because you are a very intelligent person and your mind works a lot faster than other people's. You come off as a person whom everyone thinks that hates emotions and doesn't know how to feel, but, believe me, you know how to feel. You just can't stand it when people don't live just and you are born to fix the mistakes of yours and of other people's. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Capricorn: You are a deeply caring person but you don't show it as most people do. Others will think that you're unfeeling and cold-blooded because of the way you show your emotions and because of your silent nature, but you are not emotionless. You are a person who cares a lot about your and other people's future. You are not materialistic and money-oriented, you are a person who is concerned with your and other people's well-being, so you work your ass off because you know where you might end up one day. Don't let people pick with you or underestimate you because you are a very sensitive and emotional person who knows how to support people and lead them to happiness. You will be made fun of, you will be insulted, you will be hated and you will be fought but you should know that you shouldn't give up of spreading positivity and working hard to achieve your goals. Don't let negative people stop you and bring you down. Learn that you are a person who knows how to function. You are not dull, as most people think. But let them think because you needn't carry about negative people's irrelevant opinions because you know who you are, and you are not dull. You are a very interesting, funny and creative person. You are a great friend, parent, partner and a lover. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Aquarius: You are an open-minded person and your intelligence is really great. You are a very understanding person and you know how to have fun. You lead people into great adventures which might seem risky, but you do it for the sake of fun. Best memories always come from great experiences, and you know how to make people experience things. You are not limited and detached as most people think, you are a person who just thinks rationally for your and the lives for the people around you. You are not argumentative as everyone thinks, you are debatable. There's a difference. You love learning and debating, you just seem argumentative because you're passionate for debates and learning new things. You are not a weirdo or a freak, you're an eccentric person. There's a difference. You are a great friend. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
  • Pisces: You are one of the most insightful people out there and you simply know everything, because you feel everything. you have the gift of unlimited and uncontrollable emotions, which might sometimes take advantage of you but I assure you that you have the ability to control your emotions. You are one of the most intelligent people out there. You are very beautiful, both physically and mentally. You are a natural born philosopher and you're the deepest person there is. You are not weak just because you are hurt or triggered easily, you are strong and powerful beyond limits because you experience everything both with your heart, soul and mind. You absorb people's feelings and you absorb information like a sponge. You are capable of many things. No matter your easygoing, sweet, cheerful or introverted nature, you are one of the best fighters out there and you always win no matter what, because you stubbornly go to extremes and you have the ability to go to the end of the universe and back, if it's required of you to get what you want. You fight till the very end and you know how to sit on the throne. Despite most people's (stupid) opinion, you are not a wallflower. You are a natural born leader who just seems dreamy and lost most of the time but that's because you're very intelligent and you think like no-one else does. When the topic of a conversation is brought, I bet you've already been overthinking about it. You can put up with so much shit and you can go through everything, you can run through hell and fly through heaven in order to achieve your goals. You are not weak, you're just a person with the most intense emotions out there. Learn to control things and you will be unstoppable. When someone hurts you or someone you love, you will turn into a giant shark and every unjust person will feel the ocean's wrath. You are not weak because you're a forgiving person, you are just one level above all those haters and you actually understand why people made those mistakes, and that's why you forgive - when you forgive. NOW, START LOVING YOURSELF AND YOUR SIGN.
things i want from supergirl

give me the first time kara is patrolling the skies and she hears maggie’s heartbeat skyrocket. and look, we all know kara’s probably stumbled in on maggie and alex at least once, so kara knows what /that/heartbeat sounds like.

this isn’t that.

this is faster and different and kara as supergirl is worried so she heads that way,

fast.

and maybe it turns out to be nothing, but chances are, it’s not. chances are it’s detective sawyer hauling a little kid behind her, a little boy with a fat lip and a black eye and an arm kara can see that is broken without her x-ray vision. and maybe it’s maggie with her hand protectively on the shoulder of the little boy, keeping him firmly behind her and maybe the other has her gun leveled at the gun leveled at her.

and this was only supposed to be a statement collection maggie will tell kara later - that’s why there was no back up.

but kara worries that she won’t get there fast enough because maggie has a terrified kid in one hand, a gun in the other and her eyes leveled at a man who is threatening to kill her. and kara, well she shows up just in time.

she shows up through a window, skidding through an open door because she used her super hearing and she heard, she /heard/ the way the mans muscles were tensing in his hand. she heard the slightest shift of the loaded gun and kara knew.

so she dove and rolled and skidded and is standing, wobbling, catching a bullet with her fingertips. she’s catching it and clutching it and turning to the man who fired it because

maggie sawyer isn’t allowed to die.

[maggie doesn’t know that yet, but kara will tell her]

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The Signs As Girlfriends

*CHECK YOUR MOON AND VENUS SIGNS TOO*

Aries: She’ll make fun of your quirks but secretly fucking adores them, she’ll stick by you through thick and thin but will give you a kick up the ass if you need it. If you’re not giving her enough attention/affection, trust me she will let you know. Like Aries boyfriends can get jealous easily but is less confrontational about it (you’ll know by her face and eyes)

Taurus: She’ll picture you’s two together in the future if you guys are committed. She takes commitment really seriously so if you get it you lucky bruh. She likes sensual things like food and massages but it could literally be as simple as a bag of chips and a back rub. If you promiseher your love you better mean it because she can get hella jealous and possessive.

Gemini: Much like Gemini boyfriends, the girlfriends can be super extroverted in their relationship, she will talk the ears off anyone who asks about you. She’ll be witty and sarcastic with you but in a charming manner and she’ll do things to get a reaction (for example, run off your phone). When it comes to emotions she wont like getting too deep and will probably try and talk her way out of the subject.

Cancer: She thinks A LOT and might worry a lot about the relationship cause she doesn’t want to fuck up so you might need to reassure her a good bit. She can get emotionally jealous and possessive sometimes but only cause her mind can trip her up a bit. She has such a lovely smile that’s simply contagious and she can make you feel so fucking safe and cared for, like she will always be there when you need to talk no matter what time it is. Great sense of humour (blushes at dirty jokes but secretly she fucking creates them lmao)

Leo: She’s the type that’ll make you look at life with excitement. Like a child
she finds beauty and happiness in the simplest of things. She’s the type that will dance with you in the back garden at 2am with sparklers. Her laughter is infectious and she loooooooves to tease omg but she knows when you need affection and she’ll give it to you without hesitation. She’ll love to show you off as well like omg ‘’This is my partner and they’re the best person ever like look at this lil shit”

Virgo: SARCASTIC. AS. FUCK. Intellect is a big thing with this sign, if you’re boring her good luck getting some. She loves to be witty and smart assed around you. She’s not very touchy feely but will melt into hugs. She won’t always express her feelings, if you compliment her she’ll probably brush it off nonchalantly or make a witty comment but trust me she appreciates it and you probably just made her tummy do the spinny thing. If you ever get the chance to get into an emotional conversation with her cherish it cause they’re not very common.

Libra: She’ll watch rom coms and give out to you because you don’t do those things for her and then you’ll do them and she’ll be like “Ew cringeeee” but she’ll appreciate it a lot. She’s witty but doesn’t really use it unless she’s pissed off. She’s really caring and also really fair, you have to meet her halfway or she’s not gonna bother with you lol. She’d walk through hell to make you happy if she really cares about you but if you cross her she’ll walk back through hell to make sure karma kicks you in the face

Scorpio: In public she’s soo chill (think Rosa from Brooklyn nine-nine). She’s neither overly affectionate or completely affection-less, she’ll hold your hand and stuff. When it’s just you’s two, she can be really giggly and soooooo dirty minded whether you know about it or not omg. She’ll listen to your problems and try to help you through it. Look after her feelings tho, even though she might not show them, she feels deeply. Oh and if you ever want to slash someones tires she’s your girl.

Sagittarius: She’s the type to romanticise travelling, and she does it so well. Whether she wants to travel the world with you or just 5 miles, she loves to make plans. As a fire sign, she’ll be really fiery when she flirts, she could probably bring you to your knees tbh. She takes NO shit whatsoever so don’t even try to play her. She likes when you two play as a team rather than. She can get bored easily and needs to be occupied.

Capricorn: She’ll probably be hella quiet until you two get close enough for her to trust you with her personality. Not into public displays of affection and likes to keep relationships low key cause they know that people can be assholes. She’s like a living meme generator tbh and has suuuccch a dirty mind omg. Like Cap boyfriends, they keep so much heartbreaking stuff to themselves and rarely ever open up so if they open up to you feel blessed son.

Aquarius: Think of every eccentric disney female character. That is an Aqua girlfriend to a certain extent (depending on their moon). She will ferociously twerk to untwerkable songs and it’ll work??? like idk how it just does. She always tries to make the best of a bad situation and she’ll do the same with your problems. She’ll try to help you grow and develop mentally. She’ll be the one to text you at 3 am like “Babe do you think aliens are real?”. She’ll make really good jokes too (some can be offensive but not intentionally)

Pisces: She can be so aloof and sometimes she won’t actually hear what you’re saying because she’s too busy admiring you, she will love you whole heartedly. She’s so emotionally intelligent and can always tell when there’s something wrong with you SO DONT DENY IT because you will frustrate her and she can get nasty when frustrated. She’ll sit with you and talk about dreams and aspirations and she’ll be the one to encourage you to do whatever makes you happy. Don’t try to take advantage of her because she will know and you will pay.

So big word to the wise people, WATCH THE FINAL LIVE STREAM.

They actually answered a shit ton of questions, (which prepared me when my best friend was absolutely torn apart with concerns). And it’s just… soothing.

Among the things highlighted;

• Marco IS most definitely going after Star, he’s not going to give up.

• Marco still has the Laser Puppies

• We didn’t see him cry because he bottled his emotions, but it is to be interpreted that he DID cry later on. A LOT.

• He’s still processing things, especially Star’s crush. However he said (not word for word but contextually) that he’s going to be doing a lot of growing.

• HE’S VERY UPSET DID I MENTION

• He and Jackie have a curfew of 9pm and THE REACTION OF WHEN SOMEONE ASKED WHAT THEY DID AFTER THE CONCERT IS PRICELESS.

• He does not like this nickname of Mango.

• He liked the prince outfit a ton, but not the shoulder pads.

• Let’s just say his Summer plans definitely revolved WAY more around Star, than Jackie.

• He’s got his scissors, no worries.

ON THE OTHER HAND STARFAN13

• StarFan is a Starco shipper, a DIE HARD STARCO SHIPPER FUCK Y'ALL I CALLED IT

• SHE WRITES AND I QUOTE “JUICY” STARCO FANFICTION, I STRUCK NOSTRADAMUS AGAIN

• She was present somehow at Star’s Song Day.

• She’s sad

• She wants to dye her hair either purple or blonde

• She’s trying to get Marco to hang out with her more but he thinks she’s a creep

• SAYS THE BOY WHO STALKED JEREMY FOR BLACKMAIL

• EVERYTIME ANYTHING WAS SAID ABOUT STARCO SHE HELD UP HER PAPER STAR AND MARCO I WANT TO DIE

• StarFan’s ringtone is Star saying Narwhal blast.

• Marco openly admits he likes Parry Gripp and Space Unicorn, it’s not so ironic.

AND IN CONCLUSION

OUR LORD AND SAVIOR DARON HAS PROCLAIMED SEASON 3 WILL BE THIS YEAR.

AMERICAN GODS SENTENCE STARTERS

episode two - the secret of spoons. ( contains violence and nsfw themes )

  • ❝ can you hear me ?
  • ❝ you want help ? fine. ❞
  • ❝ let me tell you a story. once upon a time, a man got fucked. now, how is that for a story
  • ❝ let me paint a picture of what’s waiting for you on the shore. ❞
  • ❝ and all for what ?
  • ❝ and i ain’t even started yet. ❞
  • ❝ this guy gets it. ❞
  • ❝ angry is good. angry gets shit done. ❞
  • ❝ you’re already dead, asshole. at least die a sacrifice for something worthwhile. ❞
  • ❝ let. the motherfucker. burn ! let it all burn. ❞
  • ❝ were you shot at ?
  • ❝ well it depends on who you ask. ❞
  • ❝ i don’t know what the fuck you speak of. ❞
  • ❝ how was the funeral ?
  • ❝ you wanna come in and talk about it ?
  • ❝ mmm-mmm-mmm. what a little asshole. ❞
  • ❝ oh, you know him ?
  • ❝ they don’t have a fucking clue. ❞
  • ❝ i don’t give a fuck if they don’t have a fucking clue, i want one ! give me a fucking clue !
  • ❝ good. compact amended. ❞
  • ❝ your first bed as a free man. enjoy it. ❞
  • ❝ an assault on you is an insult to me. don’t think because i didn’t lose my temper i am not angry, or am lacking a plan. ❞
  • ❝ i didn’t mean to wake you. ❞
  • ❝ they told me you died. ❞
  • ❝ you were just having a bad dream. ❞
  • ❝ you going to miss it ?
  • ❝ too many people tell each other not to repress their emotions, to release their feelings, to let the pain go. there’s a lot to be said for bottling up emotions. ❞
  • ❝ what i say has got to be said, so i want you to consider my words very carefully. ❞
  • ❝ say it. ❞
  • ❝ you are only obligated to feel bad about that for so long. ❞
  • ❝ let there be beauty where there can be. ❞
  • ❝ plan is, we will be meeting with a number of people preeminent in their respective fields, and then we will rendezvous in one of the most important places in the country. ❞
  • ❝ i don’t like dropping in on friends empty handed. ❞
  • ❝ you can’t look out for yourself, how the hell are you gonna look out for me ?
  • ❝ not so fast. we need to talk, [] . ❞
  • ❝ funny how things supposed to make you look good only make it worse. ❞
  • ❝ the fuck is this ?
  • ❝ i’m all sorts, [] .❞
  • ❝ i’m the one they sacrifice to. then till now. ❞
  • ❝ time and attention. better than lamb’s blood. ❞
  • ❝ i hate that. i hate that they were hurting you, [] . i would never do that to you. ❞
  • ❝ i want you in my camp with us. ❞
  • ❝ look at it like this: we’re the coming thing. we are already here. ❞
  • ❝ i was impressed with how you dealt with him/her/them. ❞
  • ❝ who’d have thought you had it in you ?
  • ❝ he/she/they were underestimating you. they all are. not a mistake i’ll make. ❞
  • ❝ i can give you so much more. you name it, honey. what do you need ?
  • ❝ don’t fight gravity, [ ] . i’ve been at this a while. ❞
  • ❝ i’m trying to help you. ❞
  • ❝ keep your neck out of the belt. ❞
  • ❝ that went as well as can be expected. ❞
  • ❝ i think i’m losing my mind. ❞
  • ❝ oh, like the rest of your life is sane. ❞
  • ❝ at times, the universe does seem to have singled you out for unique abuse. in these moments you have to ask yourself, would i rather be ignored ?
  • ❝ always better dead than forgotten, and no one is ever going to forget you. ❞
  • ❝ it’s a sudden onset of strange. fair cause for consternation, unless strange is a new language and what we’re doing here is vocabulary building. ❞
  • ❝ you may have to consider that you didn’t see what you saw, or you did. the world is either crazy or you are. they’re both solid options. take your pick. ❞
  • ❝ when you decide, come and tell me. but don’t rush into it. take your time. difficult decision. ❞
  • ❝ there are bigger sacrifices one might be asked to make than going a little mad. ❞
  • ❝ you wanna know the secret of my success ? the secret is charm. ❞
  • ❝ i only come when matters are vital, as they are now. ❞
  • ❝ god, you are gorgeous. you have not aged. ❞
  • ❝ the truth is not what people want to hear. ❞
  • ❝ prettiest woman, prettiest lies. ❞
  • ❝ black as night, sweet as sin. you take coffee, then i read your future. ❞
  • ❝ he does not know our world. ❞
  • ❝ i’m easing him in. ❞
  • ❝ you are the worst man i have ever seen. ❞
  • ❝ nice to see you, old friend. i brought a gift. ❞
  • ❝ i come here only to share bread and information. what you do with the latter is entirely up to you. ❞
  • ❝ i’d be happy to help. ❞
  • ❝ oh, he is nobody’s husband, and i am nobody’s wife. ❞
  • ❝ family is who you survive with when you need to survive, even if you do not like them. ❞
  • ❝ i am not a good cook. when i was younger there were servants to make meals. here there are no servants; there’s only us. ❞
  • ❝ learning is beneath me. ❞
  • ❝ i thought you were supposed to read tea leaves ?
  • ❝ that bad, huh ? any good news ?
  • ❝ you brought that madness into my life once. never again. ❞
  • ❝ you know me. you know what these hands have done. ❞
  • ❝ you don’t want me, you want [] , and he’s/she’s/they’re not here. ❞
  • ❝ it will be glorious, win or lose. ❞
  • ❝ i am tired of glorious. ❞
  • ❝ everyone thought he/she/they must be the good one. so i became me. ❞
  • ❝ time passes. now i am gray. ❞
  • ❝ i think in the old country i am forgotten, and here, i am like a bad memory. ❞
  • ❝ i know the killing. ❞
  • ❝ to give a good death is art. ❞
  • ❝ every man’s an equal. ❞
  • ❝ is good ?
  • ❝ first blood is mine. so you’ve lost. game is done. ❞
  • ❝ i just started. ❞
  • ❝ ten thousand deaths made right here. ❞
  • ❝ it’s your move. ❞
  • ❝ he’ll take that shot. no joke, no boast, no half-measures. how good are you ?
  • ❝ it’s your decision. ❞
  • ❝ when my voice breaks on this song, remember old love gone. ❞
Why we enjoy Sarah J Maas’s books:

Alright! So I finally got through all of the survey responses. I got over 300! However, I did have to throw out over 50 as many people decided to check more than 5 for likes or dislikes. And I don’t think google forms lets you limit the number they can check? Anyways, it’s fine because I still have 254 usable responses and tons of lovely quotes/thoughts/rants from all of you!!

I’ll put the data charts up top and then the long answer responses below, divided into sections.

So clearly, we are overwhelmingly here for the female characters, the character growth, and the romance. But we also like the morally grey characters, the world building, and the representation of PTSD, abuse, and mental health issues. 

I’m sorry that is so tiny, but basically, we overwhelmingly dislike the lack of diversity in terms of PoC and LGBTQ character and we also have some issues with world building, magic, and seeing our favs do problematic things. 

Also 18 of your hate Celaena lol (I love her and I know that putting that answer in there as a selection was petty af but I cannot help myself. It was all for a good laugh)


Alright, so most of us feel negatively and positively about the fandom. But a solid chunk, 34%, feels positively most-all of the time. Which is great. We are doin okay friends. Only 5.5%, 14 people, felt like the fandom affected them only negatively. 

So we clearly are here for enjoyment and escapism. And pain. 

Also, I apologize for the wet dreams one but THIS FANDOM LOVES SMUT I HAD TO PUT IT ON THERE OKAY

So 70% of the ppl reading to enjoy things and find it easy to ignore the things we dislike. 


And the long answers:

Enjoyment:

Some of us really enjoy the way she writes characters—she really makes us really care with backstory and character development:

“When I finally decide to shut the book, it takes me a minute to forget that the characters aren’t real. I’ve fallen in love with almost every single one of her characters because they’re so authentic; they go through hardships, they love, they fall out of love, they get angry, they grieve deeply, but most importantly, they GROW. I’m so impressed with who Feyre and Aelin have come to be as women over the years. The familial love that bonds the characters together is also something that I really connect to. They really would do ANYTHING to protect each other.” anonymous

“She delivers types of characters and points of view that other YA writers haven’t done. She pulls of tropes without making them boring. She isn’t afraid of calling characters out for doing the wrong thing.”- @the-heir-of-terrasen

“I think SJM’s character development is her biggest strength. I haven’t connected to so many characters in a series since Harry Potter. She is good at showing rather than telling when it comes to several moments of key character building, especially for . That I am so emotionally invested in such a wide variety of characters across two series is a testament to her gift.” -anonymous

“Her use of description and narrative really is eye-opening to the world of the characters in the most subtle of ways. She knows how to wield a character’s experiences and history to cleave new paths in their personalities, and thus makes ever-changing, ever-growing characters that are so much more relatable than most other fantasy books. Not to mention that her villains are just as mysterious and wicked as her protagonists, making even the antagonists realistic to the point of you *screaming* at the book for whatever the character has done this time.“ - @cynical-minds-for-cynical-times

“The Connection to the characters. I don’t relate so much as I do just care very, very deeply about them. I LIKE them, even if they aren’t likable people?” @squaddreamcourt

We also really enjoy how morally complex the characters are:

“What I love about SJM is that she doesn’t make things prettier than they are. She has not created a perfect world, with those perfect good characters finding a perfect happy ending. Instead she created a world that has loads of problems we’re also facing in our world and she shows us how layered and well thought out characters are dealing with them. Her characters grow and the emotional impact of their deeds is not shrugged off. I love it how everything they do has consequences and how the heroes make mistakes and bad decisions and how the villains do good things sometimes. What I love is that it’s a fascinating world with fascinating characters that gives me an unique view on our world.” @acourtofhopeanddreams

“The characters are very well-rounded and dynamic. Almost every character has a motivation for what and why they’re doing what they’re doing, which is something some villains lack in other stories. You find yourself hating the characters, but still enjoying the parts that they’re in because they are so realistic in their mannerisms and motivations.” anonymous

Her books help us deal with personal issues, and we also seem to enjoy how relatable or realistic the personal relationships between the characters are:

“I feel like her books help me a lot, for one thing because they make me feel excited and enthusiastic about something which I think everyone needs more of in their life. I also love the platonic and romantic relationships between the characters because they educate me about abusive relationships, healthy relationships, and the complications of friendships etc. I love this because I feel like it helps me understand myself and the people around me better emotionally, and puts my own personal experiences with other people in perspective. I also find a lot of the things that go down between the characters help me feel more secure about my personal life, and they help me accept myself for feeling the way I do about certain things. Also, I love just love reading them because I find them really fun and enjoyable.“ - @ashryverblue

“I enjoyed the way she wove my favorite fairy tales together and wrote compelling romance. I also connected to the characters and appreciated how she prioritized female pleasure in sex.“ - @sarahviehmann

“The representation of mentally ill and abused characters and their arcs that deals with their past and their issues that isnt “love fixes everything” -anonymous

“also like how they don’t have the common ‘no body likes me because I’m ugly I’m so sad boo ho’ because I never really related to those characters. I want to read about someone who is confident in their body and with their skills, and not someone who is whiny and needs someone to hold their hand through everything.” @a-book-love

“Feyre’s struggle with abuse and PTSD in ACOMAF was relatable and her growth is inspiring. I love her relationship with Rhys and the understanding and respect they have for one another. I love Rhys and his Inner Circle - they’re funny, kind, intelligent, strong, witty etc. I like that Rhys, Mor, Az, and Cassian are abuse survivors - it gives me hope. I love how supportive they are of one another. Of course, I love the magic and world-building in the series but the characters and their relationships are what stand out to me the most in this series.” @pencilsfulloflead

And some of us are here for the drama (myself included):

“Honestly these are the most dramatic books I’ve read, which I love. My favorite thing about fanfiction is how character focused they are, all the big sweeping emotional gestures, all the angst and drama. Give me all that shit. SJM’s books give me that but with original characters/a new world/etc. which allows me new content with those same tropey, dramatic things that I love, with good writing. “ anonymous

“GOD I WISH I KNEW, I HAVE ALWAYS CONSIDERED MYSELF BEING HELD IN THIS FANDOM AGAINST MY WILL AND BETTER JUDGEMENT. I guess I’d say the characters– while I wouldn’t call them “relatable” necessarily– are engaging, and the light fantasy trappings, digestible (though not refined) prose, fast pace, exciting-if-not-necessarily-logically-sound plot twists, and heightened drama create an exciting tableau/ fertile ground for indulgent romance narratives/ heavy interpersonal dramas, which SJM does well. There’s also lots of side characters/ unexplored plot or world-related threads prime for creative exploration that make the world fun to explore as a fic writer.“ @valamerys

“The books have an element of wonder to them; my jaw was wide open during the scene in HOF when all the witches drummed for Abraxos and during the Weaver scene in ACOMAF. Aelin never fails to make me laugh, and on the flip side, her story in HOF is my absolute favorite.” @screaming-at-billiards

And finally, this little snippet that I thought explained why most of us read for the female characters:

“that the women don’t need men to be powerful”


Dislike:

So we clearly have some issues with the diversity…

“Two black girls died for white pain (Dorian/Sorscha and Aelin/Nehemia) in back to back books.”

“I would like to see more POC and LGBT characters because I feel like with the powerful messages and arcs these characters go through it would be beneficial not only to the storyline (with experiences like racism and LGBT discrimination to add to their issues and how they deal with them) but to how people read the book.”

“She messed up big time with ACOWAR and how poorly she treated Mor’s trauma.”- anonymous

“I can’t think of a general thing I dislike about Sarah’s books. I know lack of/poorly handled diversity is an issue but as a straight white female I tend to let others speak on this as I don’t feel like it’s my place to say whether or not POC/LGBTQ+ characters are represented well/enough. Other than that there are plot points, conversations, small things, etc. that I wish had gone differently but that’s my nitpicking and personal preference.” anonymous
“Primarily it’s the lack of representation and understanding of diversity, but recently with acowar I felt she became too busy and it was a bit rushed and unfinished.” @fcyrearcherxn

“Eh I wish it [descriptions of skin color] was clearer so ppl would stop drawing illiryans white” @acourtoffeyreandaelin

And some of us have issues with world building…

“Sjm seems to think about a lot of things while writing, but she doesn’t think them all the way through. For example, the magic system, the references to mythological characters/creatures from multiple cultures and smashed together, etc. I get the sense that even if she has to outline for her publisher, there is still so much that just isn’t thought about with enough attention to detail.“ @abookandacoffee


How dislike affects our reading:

Some of us are not affected by the things we dislike:

“Not at all really, if anything it just fuels fanfiction.” anonymous

“Literally not at all. Even if there are things I dislike, I still love the characters and their stories.” anonymous

“they mildly irritate me until i get over it about 4 minutes later” anonymous

“not much tbh, I just skipped that shit lol” @squaddreamcourt

Some of us were disappointed by acowar and the world building issues it raised affected our enjoyment:

“It makes me cringe when I read it, and honestly all the issues in ACOWAR made it harder for me to get into. Some illogical (even with magic in place) things in the end battle made it impossible for me to focus on the end of the book, cause I still couldn’t get over how little sense what had just happened made. Which was the opposite of ACOMAF, I couldn’t get enough of that book.” - @nightinsurgent

Some of us are negatively affected by the way SJM has handled certain issues:

It [ Mor’s trauma in acowar] honestly ruined the entire book for me and I try to pretend like the third book isn’t even canon.” -anonymous

“Sometimes it can put a downer as I’m a POC I can sometime realise I can’t fully relate to all characters but usually i brush it off as I realise that all books have faults.”-anonymous

And some of us feel guilty for enjoying these books despite the issues:

“I have at times (particularly after major online discussions) felt guilty for taking pleasure from something that hurt another person’s feelings.“- anonymous 


How the fandom affects our enjoyment:

Some of us love the fandom and how it leads to deeper understandings of the story:

“I LOVE fandom. It makes me feel like I’m part of something and that I have people who are there for me. It also gives me new ways of obsessing about the series, and I love seeing other people’s interpretations and feelings about the books, especially when they point out things that I haven’t noticed before. It just gives me a deeper, richer reading experience and it’s like I’m always partly in the world of the books, because I’m always thinking about them and in that sense they never really leave me and are always a part of me.“ @ashryverblue

“WE RIDE AND DIE TOGETHER SO NOTHING IS TOO PAINFUL WHEN YOU HAVE EACH OTHER” -anonymous

For some of us, fandom really affects how we enjoy the books and how we think about certain aspects and characters:

“I’ve always been a critical reader but I wonder if I didn’t have a medium to see, read, and interact with my criticisms that I would let them go easier.”- anonymous

“I can mostly ignore it but sometimes it makes me feel shame for liking the books as much as I do. I also can get past it because I think some people are way to harsh and expect perfect characters which is not what I’m here for. Also, even if improvement in terms of representation is slow at least sjm has made some changes which is something most authors would never do.”-anonymous

“I get to see both sides of all the arguments and my own opinions are sometimes changed based on an argument someone might present considering any topic, which expands my horizons and makes it more enjoyable for me.” @angrydinosauryouth

“I don’t think I would care about Suriel’s death so much if it wasn’t for this fandom who made him a drama loving queen. Things like that” @jmaas-books-lover

We are disappointed with the fandom recently:

“At first I loved how we were all interacting, but the fandom has grown so negative and condemning of any differing opinions. I don’t mean people being called out others for saying abusive characters are not abusive, but people seem to go to war over inconsequential opinions that don’t harm anyone.” @nightinsurgent

“The ACOTAR fandom in particular used to be really lovely and amazing, and there are still groups with whom that is still true. Everyone let people think about and enjoy what they wanted as long as we weren’t perpetuating or justifying abuse, and it was a very supportive environment. It’s less so, now, and people are defending the text just to defend it, which is frustrating to me both as a fic writer AND a reader.” @sarahviehmann

“What gets at me is the clouds of negativity… And it seems really  hard to avoid sometimes, especially in such a small fandom. And when a few vocal members, who otherwise make good stuff, get very negative it gets worse…”

Some of us love the books despite what the fandom has to say:

“The fandom itself doesn’t affect my love of the books, I make my own opinions about them. But the fandom is severely affecting my enjoyment of being a part of the fandom.” @miladyaelin

Some of us enjoy parts of the fandom, but have serious issues with how the fandom reacts negatively to certain aspects of the books:

“Parts of the fandom really make me happy and allow me to discuss my thoughts and feelings about the books. There’s an amazing community of people. But there is a huge part of the fandom which really, really negatively affects my experience through heavy, harsh, and often unnecessary criticism. That’s not to say that we shouldn’t be critical and shouldn’t discuss the issues in her books, but there’s almost a frenzy about it now to the point where those of us who enjoy her books are made to feel bad about it. Yes, she has problems. But there has been significant improvements that no one seems to want to acknowledge. The second something new is released it’s torn into shreds and if you have a different opinion then you’re wrong. (For example, how Morrigan’s coming out was handled. Everyone has been saying how bad it was and how Sarah really messed it up, but I’m bisexual and I now really relate to Mor and the way she came out and her reasoning for not doing so before was incredibly real and believable to me. It seems that a lot of the people (though obviously not all) who criticise the lack of diversity in SJM’s books aren’t actually diverse themselves and are just on some sort of crusade to make themselves look like better people.) Why can’t some of us just enjoy a book for what it’s worth?” anonymous

anonymous asked:

can you do #21 with mccree and hanzo please?

21. “No one has a heart of stone.” 

“I do not understand how this is enough for you,” Hanzo says.

McCree looks over at him from where he sits by Hanzo’s side, close enough to touch but not quite. Hanzo had not wanted to be touched, earlier, and McCree had done as asked–but he had looked just a little disappointed“What’s not enough?”

“This. Us. Me. I should not be enough for you.”

McCree’s brow crinkles with concern, and Hanzo regrets that he has put that look on McCree’s face. “Where’s this comin’ from?” he asks. “Of course you’re enough for me. More than enough.”

Hanzo shakes his head. “And I do not understand how that is possible.”

“Why?”

“Because!” Hanzo bursts out. He whirls to face McCree, suddenly overcome by the distress and shame he has been trying to keep down for the last hour. “I am not capable of giving you everything you want! You are kind and honorable, you are open and you deserve everything back that you give. Yet I am none of these things.” 

McCree is visibly stunned. Hanzo feels sick to his stomach, ashamed of his outburst, but now that he has begun, he cannot stop. The words continue to spill forth, months of pent-up fears finally breaking free. “I cannot tell you the things you deserve to hear. I can barely stand to be touched many days. I tried to kill a man you call your friend, who is my own brother, and you act as though I am still worth of love. Still capable of love. But I patently am not. Even what I have to offer you now is barely a fraction of what you deserve. This–I–cannot possibly be enough.”

The tide of words finally stops. Hanzo slumps, exhausted by his own outburst, and stares at the ground shamefully. McCree is quiet for a long moment, until finally he reaches out and settles a hand on Hanzo’s shoulder.

“Han. Look at me,” he says. Reluctantly, Hanzo does. “Listen. You don’t owe me shit just because we’re together, you hear me? If you take nothin’ else outta this, then remember that. I’m only ever gonna take from you what you want to give me.

“Second of all, this idea that you can’t really love or be worthy of it or whatever is bullshit.” Hanzo winces, but McCree barrels on. “I mean it. You got a lot of emotions in you, and even if you don’t want to show it all the time, I know it. I know you care about me. Ain’t nobody got a heart of stone, Hanzo.”

McCree pauses for a moment, letting the words sink in. When he speaks again, his voice is lower, softer, but no less intense. “And as for all the–not givin’ me what you think I need? Just bullshit. You are–you just bein’ with me is more than I thought I’d have in this life. Everything else is just icing on the cake. I started lovin’ you before we ever got together, and sure as hell I’m gonna keep goin’ even if you don’t always wanna hold hands or whatever else you’re worried about.”

He reaches with both hands to take Hanzo’s face between his palms. Hanzo’s throat tightens with emotion, but McCree won’t let him look away. 

“You are enough,” McCree says with finality. “You are a good man, you are perfect, and you are enough.”

Dating Yugyeom Would Include...

Oh boy.

  • Lots of cuddling!!!!
  • SMILING. THE CHEESIEST, HAPPIEST SMILES
  • Hand holding!!!
  • “Babe, have I told you how cute you look in that dress?”
  • Casually opening doors for  you and just being a gentleman in general
  • Awkward kisses because you know Yugyeom gon try to be naughty 
  • Always having to defend him against Jinyoung and other evil hyungs
  • Having to reign in your own boyfriend because he’s just plain sassy and naughty
  • Lots of stolen kisses
  • When you fall asleep on him, he’d just smile and play with your hair
  • Romantic dinner dates
  • Extreme flirting!
  • Cheering him on in the JYP dance stuido and having everyone look at you like you’re insane, but you don’t care ‘cause that’s your man
  • “Call me oppa!”
  • “Yugyeom, you’re only two months older than me. I’m not calling you oppa.”
  • Pouting until he gets what he wants
  • Nuzzling/forehead touches
  • Yugyeom would spoil his girlfriend. Not only would he give you lots of emotional affection, but he’d spend lavishly on you and not care when you get embarrassed because he loves to see you dressed up for him. 
  • “Yugyeom, what do you want for your birthday?”
  • *Clears throat loudly* “JJ CROSS!”
  • “I missed you” even though you saw each other yesterday
  • When you walk in the room, his face lights up and he gets the dopiest little smile on his face
  • Always surprising you. Yugyeom is the type to show up at your work/school with a grand gesture of some sort. 
  • Roses! Roses! Roses!
  • Playful banter
  • He would 100% look at you like you created the heavens. He’d do it when you aren’t looking and everyone except he and you would know about it.
  • If you scraped your knee (even slightly) he’d piggyback you to the car. 
  • He would pretend not to notice you stealing his clothes because he secretly loves when you wear them
  • Cooking together!
  • “You’re not busy tomorrow, right? I already made plans for us. Wear that dress I bought you yesterday.”
  • Serious 1-on-1 talks with the Got7 hyungs about your feelings for Yugyeom because they’re overprotective mommies about their maknae. 
  • If he made you feel unwanted/ignored, he would immediately make up for it by kissing you all over your face and telling you how much you mean to him. 
  • 10/10 would likely spill his guts about how in love he is with you like 7 months into your relationship and it would just kill you. 
  • Romantic confessions 24/7 bc the maknae is obsessed with Kdramas. 
  • Getting frustrated when you’re around other guys, but being lowkey about it 
  • Would pretend like he doesn’t like your compliments, but would smirk when you tell him he looks good
  • Cute little comments like “I bet our kids would be cute” and getting flustered about it
  • Might trip over his own feet watching you walk in front of him
  • Acting naughty/sexual in front of fans, but if you’re forward with him he’ll blush so hard
  • Yugyeom is the type of boyfriend you have long talks with and go over your data plan to talk to because he just gets you and listens to every little detail
  • Would remember random details about you/your life and repeat them later to make sure you knew he cared
  • Would buy you a promise ring for your __ year anniversary and love to see you wear it
  • 10/10 Yugyeom would be in deep shit if he fell in love because he’d never recover. Hopeless romantic af. 
Anger

Hey I think I got this😂my request is the reader uses passive aggressive anger as an emotional control making the reader sarcastic and a little morbid. The reader has no central point of where the hurt stems from its just too many bottled emotions that she forces back until Spencer coaxed her to let him in the only way he knows how - making her mad. I suck at making things short, hope this is okay enough😂 feel free to interpret and change what you’d like! I enjoy any and all you have to write!

@gublermeup, I hope you enjoy your one-shot because here it is, comin’ ‘atcha!


“Guess she should’ve called first,” you deadpanned.

Hotch had had enough. He grabbed your arm and yanked you out of the victim’s mothers home, and when he tossed you out onto the porch, you merely shrugged off his reaction.

“What? It’s the truth,” you shrugged.

“Go back to the precinct,” he bit before shutting the door in your face.

You had always been this way: sarcastic, morbid, emotionally compartmentalized. You couldn’t remember a time when you weren’t. You didn’t enjoy the feeling of vulnerability, and you sure as hell didn’t like being surprised.

But even you knew you had crossed a line.

I mean, when someone shows up at a victim’s home who was killed by their best friend’s killer when she walked in without calling first, who in their right mind tells the grieving family member, “I guess she should’ve called first”?

No one, that’s who.

No one except you.

And yet, there you were, driving back to the precinct with other thoughts swirling around in your head.

Like you didn’t even do anything wrong.


Reid was flabbergasted.

He calmed the mother down from your statement, but he was only half paying attention at this point. Yes, you were cold-hearted, and yes, your sarcastic tones got annoying, but you had never been cruel.

This was downright cruel.

He could see Hotch seething behind his eyes, and he wasn’t so sure you wouldn’t be out of a job.

But, before any of that traversed, he was determined to figure out exactly what just happened.

After the day had wound down and one of your sarcastic comments had led to the actual finding of the unsub, Hotch declared another night’s stay in the hotel before venturing back on the plane in the morning.

But, you decided to check out and rent a car to go home.

“Do whatever you want,” Hotch sighed.

He was done with you, and you knew it.

Just like everything else is eventually done with you.

You served your purpose to him, and now he didn’t care what happened to you.

So, you packed your bag, slammed your way out of the hotel, and headed for the nearest car rental station.

But, Reid was hot on your heels.

“I’m coming with you,” Reid said as he dropped his bag down beside you.

“No, thank you,” you said lightly as you filled out the paperwork.

“Not a choice,” Reid breathed.

“Funny, that’s how rape culture is perpetrated,” you mumble to yourself.

“Nope. Rape culture is perpetrated by the idea that women are somehow responsible for their own victimization. It’s the sexist idea that women need to cover themselves up to prevent rape rather than teaching men that rape, in general, is wrong.”

“Some women like it rough,” you sigh as the woman behind the desk looks at you oddly.

“Jesu-Y/N, seriously?” Spencer asked.

“I can go all night… and I will, if you get in that car,” you said as you turned around and looked him in the eye.

But, what Spencer expected to see, he didn’t.

Instead of anger and frustration, he saw…

Nothing.

You had wholly closed yourself off.

“I’m coming with you,” Reid says as he picks up his bag.

You shrugged and began to walk away, and you had to admit that when he actually climbed into the car you felt your blood pressure tick up a few notches.

“Get out,” you grumble.

“No,” he says as the two of you sit there in the car.

Reid studied your body. If your face wasn’t going to show anything, it means you weren’t putting as much energy into covering up your bodily language as you thought you were.

And he was right.

“Everyone gets tired of you eventually,” Reid stated. He didn’t mean it as a true statement, he meant it as an observation.

But, the reaction it sparked gave him a bit of hope.

“Tell me something else new, genius,” you quip as you start the car.

His heart sank for you as you began to pull out of the rental parking lot.

So, he decided to make you angrier.

“You drop them just as quick, though. Hotch might be done with you, but you’ll be just as done with us,” Reid postulated.

He also saw you white-knuckle the steering wheel.

“No worries. Life goes on. Someone will come in to replace you eventually.”

But, that time he saw your blinking uptick, and he wondered whether or not he should stop.

“You think you’re all hot-shots and big-wigs and people others look up to,” you begin as the car begins to speed up down the highway.

This wasn’t good.

“You think that because you can remember lots of shit and speed read that somehow it makes you special.”

“Y/N…y-you’re uh…”

“You think that because you don’t take vacation and focus more on your job and have some mom deteriorating somewhere that people will just… buy your sob story and be lenient on you!?”

You were now going well over 100.

“Y/N!” Spencer yelped as you careened onto the highway.

“You think because I don’t show emotion that I don’t have any!? Huh!? You think because I’m sarcastic and don’t give a shit that somehow tossing me out like garbage is fine!?”

“Y/N…. please….” Spencer begged as he grasped onto the emergency handle above him.

“Well, let me tell you something about little miss emotionless…” you hiss.

But, before you could get a sentiment out, blue lights began flashing behind you, and Spencer was hyperventilating as you came to a screeching halt on the side of the road.

And then, just before the cop approached your side of the car, you slowly turned your head to meet Spencer’s fearful eyes.

“… the emotions you want died with her family.”

“Ma’am,” the officer says as he knocks on your window, “roll down your window.”

So, you went through the motions of showing him your credentials and telling him about an imaginary lead you were following on a case, and that you would slow it down and you were sorry. The officer bought it, bid you good luck, and sent you on your way.

And Spencer’s eyes were watering as he watched you pull back out onto the road.

“Your-…your family?” he asked.

“No worries,” you sigh as your demeanor changes back to its dead one, “I’ve lost a family before. I can lose one again”

And Spencer didn’t know what to say.

Requested imagine •19 Monty

please please a love hate Monty fanfic where after the tapes come out in a public manner and are released, it seems like livery high forever changes and y/n starts drifting away from Monty and he notices but they eventually kiss and stuff ?

“Hey babe wanna go out tonight?” Monty asked as he jogged up behind you and slung his arm over your shoulder “oh hey, maybe another time I’m kinda busy” you excused and he looked disappointed. You walked off and didn’t see much of him for the rest of the day. Getting home from school you slouched into your chair in your room and stared at the tapes, you groaned and put your headphones on forcing yourself to listen to the rest.

Everything was in full colour to you now, in the past you saw most things in black and white, either you liked someone or you didn’t, simple as that. Now you weren’t so sure what to think, sure Zach was a nice guy and wouldn’t harm a fly but why did he have to be so cruel to hannah? Did he know? Or was he just a typical guy who’s oblivious to 95% of humans. Then there’s Marcus, he was genuinely your friend but if he could embarrass a girl like that then there’s no place in your life for him. Oh Justin, you’ve had such a hard life and upbringing, making up rumours about girls to boost your own ego and status is low, take a look in the mirror and decide if you really do want to be different to the scumbags your mom dates.

You could go on about how your opinions of everyone you had called friends had changed in one long night but again you’d be there for another long night. “Hey baby girl!” Your thoughts interrupted by your boyfriend Montgomery and you sighed “hey, what’s up?” You ask and he leans against your locker “I’m good what about you?” You couldn’t decide if he was genuinely asking or judging you about something “I’m good” you replied and started to walk away when he grabbed your arm, turning you round “what have I done wrong?” He asked staring into your eyes “nothing, Monty, please let me go” he loosened his grip and surrendered “I’ll text you later” he mumbled and walked off.

It’d been a week since you spoke to Monty, you didn’t have a problem with him, you just felt nothing at the moment and couldn’t be near anyone. He wasn’t happy though, he’d throw you looks in the hallways, get angry whenever you spoke to any of his friends, he’d even blocked your phone number, and Facebook and you were pretty sure he was seeing someone else.

It was late, way after school had finished and you had been in the library studying. At your locker you were loading up with books when you heard a crash of a locker door beside you, you turned and seen a messed up Monty “I can’t do this anymore!” He shouted at you, you just looked at him confused and he chuckled “you don’t see it? You’re fucking killing me y/n! I’ve tried loving you, I’ve tried hating you because they say love and hate are the closest emotions but I can’t do it, how can you just change and hate me?” He asked trying to fight back tears “Monty, I could never hate you” you just about whispered “then what has the lady 3 weeks been about then? You can give me the silent treatment all you want, but it’s selfish, have you not even thought about how I’ve been coping?” He gritted through his teeth “I don’t know, after hannah died I found out a lot of stuff I wish I hadn’t and my head has been like mush, I haven’t been able to concentrate on anything, I haven’t even showered in like a week!” You pleaded with him, dropping your bag in surrender, Monty gently held your hands “are we okay?” He whispered and you looked up “we will be” you replied and he pulled you closer to him, kissing the top of your head. Without a word he grabbed your bag, led you out to his car and drove you to his place, tucked you up in his bed and brought you food and water, he knew you hadn’t been eating at all.

“If anything is ever getting to you, you have to tell me okay? I can’t go through this again” Monty whispered and kissed you deeply, you kissed back while nodding in agreement with what he said “now how about we have a bath together? I’m starting to believe you haven’t showered in a while” he laughed pretending you smelled bad, you laughed with him, kissing him again as he got up to run you both a bath.

I really hope this was okay? I wasn’t sure how to go about the love hate thing but I think I got it okay??

4

It was amazing shooting that scene where he says that to Sarah because we’re shooting my perspective before he turns away and walks off to commit the ultimate sacrifice—Tatiana was just sitting on an apple box next to the camera and she was just crying. Her eyes—she was so focused on me and she was just giving me so much to react off of. She’s such a giving actor. It’s not even her perspective. It was beautiful for me to play off that emotion. And another wonderful thing was, I told Helen Shaver at the beginning of the shoot, “Push me hard and I trust you and I’m not going to take any notes that you give me personally.” Literally probably did 50 takes of it. She was so great because she just gave me every opportunity to get it right and get it in as many ways as we possibly could, and to finally pick what would be the best way to portray the emotion that he had for this girl. But yeah, a lot of the gals and guys that were on the set that day said there weren’t a lot of dry eyes in the house, that’s for sure. – Dylan Bruce

anonymous asked:

What other fics are your faves/masterpieces?

Oooh grayface! You ask the hard questions.

I struggled with answering this over the last couple days for a couple reasons.
FIRSTLY - as I tried to compile the list, I got caught up rereading a bunch. I’ve spent the better part of three days either refreshing my Instagram to flail over lilicole at Coachella, or rereading old favourite fanfics. Total time!suck. lol.

Also, like I’ve said in the past, I read A LOT of fic. Like, I think I was several thousand fics last year (Completed and WIPS) on top of the 53 original novels I read for my goodreads challenge in 2016). I read a lot of fic and honestly, I *like* most of the fics I finish because if I hate something or it doesn’t give me joy, I’m not going to continue reading it. (As an example, just recently, I stopped reading a fic by a friend of mine - not because it’s terrible writing (because it wasn’t) or because I don’t love my friend (cuz I do - she’s talented and wonderful and kind and every good thing) - but because every update of the story was giving me anxiety and literal rage at the characters to the point where I was unproductive in real life because I was so mad. Fic is supposed to be fun - even angsty and emotional fic - so I literally had to unsubscribe and take a step back a bit. I still love her, and will read other stories by her - just not that one anymore. It’s a complex thing. So, there’s that.

And then there is the fact that I like a lot of fics that I wouldn’t call MASTERPIECES but… I *liked* them. It’s hard to know what crosses that line into epic awesomeness. I generally bookmark my particular favourites but again - does that mean I think they’re all MASTERPIECES? What does being a MASTERPIECE entail? And maybe there is fic that I absolutely am over the moon about - that other people wonder “What’s the big deal?” There are several favourites of mine that could be like that.

And what if a fic is short? Most Masterpieces are usually Tolstoy length, aren’t they? Sometimes. But sometimes they’re short and perfect and speak to me RIGHT NOW (before more canon makes them suddenly AU) but reading them after isn’t as gut punchy. And sometimes they start as AU and yet they’re still freaking spectacular.

And I hate to throw even one more wrench into the problem - but here’s another: I’ve been around fandom in general for a LONG time. Like 12 years. 12 years where I was really active in fic writing/reading/reviewing/betaing/reccing etc. That makes for a LOT of different specific fandoms. Are you interested in the fics I fell in love with 10 years ago when all I read was Draco/Ginny? Or what about my Sherlolly love? Or Hiccastrid? Or Gendarya? Or Violate? Or Shenny? Or Reylo? Or most recently Bughead? Like - I have a lot of favourites that I read and reread over and over again in all of those fandoms.

And what if a MASTERPIECE is a fan favourite? Does it HAVE to be a fan favourite? Maybe it was written by a BNF and maybe it wasn’t. I was accused of BEING a BNF once (which is laughable - as I’ve mentioned in posts before, I’m a collector of BNF friends - I don’t claim to be one myself) - but does that colour whether I think something is a MASTERPIECE or not?

Does my opinion even matter for that matter?

One last thing before I actually give you a mini list of just a FEW of my favourite “Masterpiece” fics. As I’ve said, I like to collect writers. It’s kinda selfish of me - but I like to surround myself with fandom friends who have so much talent that the metaphorical room is thick with it. Probably because I’m only a mediocre writer myself - but I sure do know how to fangirl people who deserve praise. So, sometimes I love an author so much that every thing they write is a Mastepiece to me. How can I choose when everything they write is so perfect?

You see why this is a SUPER tough question?

ANYWAY - if you got through that, you deserve some links. Remember, some of these will be in fandoms that you aren’t into, greyface. But I hope one or two of them catch your eye. I loved each and every one of them.

And if you’re a writer, and I’ve loved on one of your stories with comments and praise and yet it’s NOT mentioned right here - that doesn’t mean that in the eyes of “Jandy Salmon” it’s not a Masterpiece, it just means that I had so much to choose from and such conflicting feelings about which/how many to share that it didn’t get mentioned. But remember, I’m sincere in every review I leave - and I try to leave at least fangirly squeeing on like 95% of the stories/chapters I read (which is a freaking lot). It’s been a while since I posted fic, but I /still/ receive reviews that make my heart happy and I think being actively engaged with reviews helps build connections with the authors I love.

Right? Okay Right. Here’s the list of just a FEW of my favourites (fics that I would probably call MASTERPIECES) that I read over and over again because I love them THAT much:

Jane Austen

The Effect Series by Shem (Kitty Bennet/OC, Lizzie/Darcy)
http://archiveofourown.org/series/115954

Everingham by katharhino (Fanny Price/Henry Crawford)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/279556

Mansfield End by Ione (Fanny Price/Henry Crawford)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/1072559

How to Train your Dragon

Simple Gifts byEcoutez (Hiccup/Astrid)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/1925469

Game of Thrones

Not Today by ebmordecai (Arya/Gendry)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/407295?view_full_work=true

Pretty much any (Jaime/Brienne) fic by SigilBroken but especially these two series’:
Honour Thy Regard http://archiveofourown.org/series/48322
In this Light http://archiveofourown.org/series/53759

Sherlock (Sherlolly)

Longer Than the Road That Stretches Out Ahead by sunken_standard
http://archiveofourown.org/works/434802

In the End by Lono
http://archiveofourown.org/works/671569/

The Deaf and the Blind and the Color Red by Solshine
http://archiveofourown.org/works/375335

The Falling by Petra Todd
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8455202/1/The-Falling

The Full House by Emcee
http://archiveofourown.org/series/18800

That 70s Show (Hyde/Jackie)

Hyde’s Long Way Home by MistyMountainHop
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7072364/1/Hyde-s-Long-Way-Home

Sky High (Warren/Layla)

Why Villains Have A Better Life By  KFD
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4297395/1/Why-Villains-Have-A-Better-Life

It Just Takes Some Time By Half-elf
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3878294/1/It-Just-Takes-Some-Time

The Office (Jim/Pam)

Oracle Mom By time4moxie
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3893458/1/Oracle-Mom

In My Life, I Love You More By bluelimit
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6420571/1/In-My-Life-I-Love-You-More

Laugh this Life with Me by shannanagin
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2853729/1/This-Life-With-Me

Big Bang Theory (Shenny)

the paladin protocol by spaceanjl
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5623923/1/

miles to go (before i sleep) by medusa20
http://archiveofourown.org/works/250535/chapters/387524

& light is only now just breaking by allthingsholy
http://archiveofourown.org/works/154681

the road ahead is clear again by notalwaysweak
http://archiveofourown.org/works/250525/chapters/387513

Doctor Who (mostly Ten/Rose)

Chaos Verse by earlgreytea68 (The whole collection is AMAZING)
http://earlgreytea68.livejournal.com/82528.html

Welcome To Your Life by cenowar
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3130472/1/Welcome-To-Your-Life

Life As You Know It by cenowar
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3575257/1/Life-As-You-Know-It

Battlestar Galatica (Lee/Kara)

Alone Time by alissabobissa
http://beyond-insane.livejournal.com/601124.html

Any and EVERY Starbuck/Apollo fic by hackaddict  (Freaking MASTER of BSG fic)
http://hackaddict.livejournal.com/tag/starbuck%2Fapollo

Harry Potter

For our allotted time is the passing of a shadow by florahart (Cedric/Hermione *whut?*) http://hp-springsmut.livejournal.com/79314.html

Under by Tudorrose1533 (Draco/Ginny)
http://dracoandginny.com/viewstory.php?sid=5065&chapter=1

The More is My Unrest by Arabella and Jedi Boadicea (Draco/Ginny)
http://www.sugarquill.net/read.php?storyid=848&chapno=1

American Horror Story (Violate)

Sucker Love by Tjoek  *Incomplete but still a Masterpiece*
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/7612662/1/Sucker-Love  

You have been Weighed by Shootingstella
http://ahs-exchange.livejournal.com/8634.html

Then anything written by @lolableu (who also writes awesome Divergent fanfic btw), GrayGlube @whatwouldflorencedo (also awesome GoT fic), ScarletWoman @feelavalanche (also started one of my fave Veronica Mars WIPs), and OhYellowBird @ohhyellowbird (also wrote a freaking AMAZING Reylo fic too). These girls are my Awesome Nerds - my Lunchtable girls and I love them. There is no higher praise than that. Read them.

Veronica Mars (Dick/Mac)

Sinclair-Mackenzie  by BIFF1
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10127131/1/Sinclair-Mackenzie

Mercy on the Undeserved By LVfangirl
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10310550/1/Mercy-on-the-Undeserved

Star Wars (Reylo) - probably the hardest section to choose from - because I’ve literally read over 1000 fics in the last year and bookmarked nearly 100 which I *liked/loved*.

Firstly - read anything by diasterisms (kylorenvevo) - especially
Ghostwalks (Gin and Fog) http://archiveofourown.org/works/6931657 (there are only like a dozen stories so I’m serious when I say read them all. *waves fangirly flag*

when there’s nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire. by ohyellowbird (told you she’d show up down here)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/5564245

Forms by Trebia  (a fandom staple)
http://archiveofourown.org/works/5454443

Isolation by TearoomSaloon
http://archiveofourown.org/works/5937457

Sky Marked Souls by AnonymousMink
http://archiveofourown.org/works/5816995

On a White Horse by ms_qualia
http://archiveofourown.org/works/5863972

Ahgh - there are just so many Reylo fics. This is definitely not a definitive list. Read terapid, corariley, and perrydowning too. I promise I love SO many and all of you writers are freaking brilliant.

OKAY - and lastly Bughead (Riverdale). It’s still new for me. Most of my most favourite fics aren’t finished yet. Like, I hope you’re reading these future masterpieces - that aren’t finished - but are DELICIOUS and if we’re all very, very good - maybe the authors will love us enough to make sure they get finished: (these are just a few of my very faves - I don’t usually rec WIPs but these are just really freaking good!)

tell them we sold out by thedeadsea33
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10524258
(FIGHTCLUB AU - and it freaking WORKS! Juggie is perfect here.)

I’ll Wait for You by AGirlNamedWhiskey
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10478181
(UNDERGROUND RACING AU - and it also freaking works! Jughead’s wink will KILL you in the very first chapter. The author also writes a fic named Space and Time which is also brilliant and should be read.)

Chiaroscuro by formergirlwonder
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10337472/chapters/22849886
(Noir! And it’s amazing! I swear this was filmed in black and white)

lost and found by @lusterrdust
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10030289
(Future Fic - and it will make you emotional with it’s perfection.)
(Also - read all of lusterrdust’s stories. They’re amazing. All of them)

Bizarre Love Triangle (Series) by @ficmuse
http://archiveofourown.org/series/697908 
(First fic is complete and it’s fabulous and campy with cool music and a HEA. Currently Story 2 is WIP but intense and potentially angsty. Hold on to that HEA, friends.)

Not Quite Shakespeare (Series) by Taeyn
http://archiveofourown.org/series/684909
(GORGEOUS. I wish there were 10 times as many stories in this series)

Hoping For Dandelions by HeartIconography
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10159226/chapters/23522034
(SUPER Delicious slow-burn. The SlowBurn is killing me)

Break Free and Run (Series) by sylwrites
http://archiveofourown.org/series/700677
(Seriously - every story gets better and better and better. College AU.)

1971 by shingekinoboyfriends
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10498407/chapters/23161344
(1971 AU perfection - the mystery has just gotten started!)

—– And lastly. These Bughead fics are complete and perfect and could and should be read as Masterpieces right now!

Softly Glowing from Within by formergirlwonder
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10141253

So Talk by zombiekittiez
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10127753

Four Times Before the First Time by slantedsunlight
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10225847

anonymous asked:

I just realized we're halfway through the season and the closest we've gotten to a 'monster' episode was the vampires Mary and Cas fought in episode 9. I know ppl were talking about the episodes being all about human monsters possibly meaning something earlier in the season, do you think that's even more likely now that the pattern's continued?

Yeah! I was just musing on this (uh, a couple of hours ago when I started watching the episode)

I do think it’s really interesting because it gives us a lot more variety on emotional stories. A randomly placed ban on monster stories by the showrunner imposes limits, and within limits, the imagination has to go in different directions :P I mean, it’s literally the box they have to think outside of? It reminds me of how werewolves weren’t written for like 6 years until Robbie rebooted them and then suddenly werewolves are a stock monster but they weirdly never ever show up in the same way they did back in Heart, even though technically that type of werewolf still exists out there :P And we never get episodes about rugarus, because again their story is so limited by their rules you can only write about basically the ground their original episode. Vampires being more human from the start meant that they were so much easier to write stories about family and other things which were relevant, while if you tried to cram a rugaru into one of those episodes, it would just not work out. 

But saying “NO monsters” gives them even weirder bounds to work in. Ghosts are okay because they used to be human. Well, so did vampires, but it seems the problem is that being “monstrous” is a transformation and it turns a human into something Other, a purgatory bound soul. Meanwhile demons are more relatable. Humans can go to hell. Bobby showed humans can go to hell, walk back out and go to Heaven. Crowley and Dean have showed demons can be cured and made human. Monsters are a sort of step to the side to discuss human nature - a sort of jekyll and hyde foisting it off onto a completely different person style thing. But demons WERE human and still exist on that spectrum, so they’re “human nature”… And the angel plot is also dealing with very human things - 12x10 makes it clear that angels coming into contact with humanity sort of makes it rub off on them, or at least corrupt and change angels, and of course with the nephilim stuff, a focus on mingling with humans. In 12x07 Lucifer didn’t even want to be Lucifer. He just wanted to be Vince and wallow in human distractions. His speech at the end before he melted was a ton of complaining about human nature. 

I like that this season has human villains (mostly), and human problems, and this focus on human nature. I think the lack of monsters is another little way to underline how this really is a season exploring humanity in a very different way than before.

(And idk if anyone’s read to the end of my watching notes or would want to so I’ll just round off by grabbing this bit about Dean in 12x11 after he’s killed all the witches, because I was reflecting on human nature, or, specifically, what they were exploring about Dean’s there…)

It was using Dean as a weapon. He had no idea who he was, no purpose, just these orders/suggestions and he went on instinct, couldn’t even talk, COULD fire a gun, and had enough instinct to load the gun, walk into the house, and fight the witches.

I’m reminded of 9x21: Dean in the middle of the dark decent. Goes to kill Abaddon (mirrored in the fight with Lily and Ishim last episode), and for the entire scene from the moment he comes in the door, I think until they leave the building, Dean does not speak a word. He just goes in there on instinct, charges Abaddon, and pushes through he wall-shoving to get her, all on this brutal killer instinct that Rowena has reminded Dean he had.

Dean with no sense of self was very cute and goofy, but he retained his moral code (killing monsters bad, person who kills monsters hero) and he retained his killer instinct, so stripping him right down like that, I think this was the message of what has been programmed deepest into Dean, the things that would go last when everything else about him was disappearing. And considering I’ve been working through the last few episodes of season 9 lately, I’m chilled. :S Especially that the back up plan was to throw Dean at them as a weapon

First Follow Forever!

May 26, 2017

Sometime at the early hours of the day I reached and surpassed 1,000 followers. Since I’m still a major noob to this website, I’m not entirely sure what a follow forever is, but I think you just list a whole bunch of mutuals you adore, etc. So, well, that’s what I’m going to do. 

But first I just wanted to voice my thoughts, which may be a bit difficult because even though I am a writer, I have a lot of trouble expressing my emotions, thoughts, and feelings. So please, bear with me!

 As someone who has been writing since the young grade of second, I just - I can not believe I have ended up here. Posting my work on a social media platform for the world to see, with more than one thousand followers. This is amazing, and I never once thought I’d accomplish something as big as this.

Words cannot convey - they can not be fathomed or formulated to express just how grateful I am to everyone who decided to give me and my work’s a chance. Whether you’re a silent reader, a one time reader, a writing account, a BTS fan or not - I thank you. It’s because of  all of you that I have and am able to grow as a person. I look forward to the future. 

I adore and love everyone one of you, whether we’ve spoken once, thirty times, or not at all. Know that I am rooting for you! 

Here is to what’s to come!

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I just don’t understand...

I have to say… A lot of the schizoid and schizotypal bloggers on here talk a lot about not being nice to other people because they don’t have empathy and emotion… But… That’s not a requirement to being nice? I’m nice to pretty much everyone because it makes my life a hell of a lot easier when everyone likes me… People will always do me favors and give me things, and help me when I ask etc. I don’t get why it’s so hard for other people to be nice just because they don’t feel it deep down… That’s such a strange concept to me… Honestly, I never feel strongly enough to be rude, and to put on a ruse to act rude just sounds exhausting.

       okay so let’s write a novel talk about actual trainwreck of a character Jack Sparrow in this movie. so there are spoilers under this so don’t read if YOU DON’T WANNA BE SPOILED because I’ve been waiting months to write this and now I finally can:

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BTS React to: The person they like being cheated on

This is written from the perspective of you being their best friend who they have a huge crush on and your boyfriend cheats on you~


Namjoon; You would call him telling him about your boyfriend cheating on you, As you’re crying and sobbing down the phone he’d sit up straight and feel his heart being torn apart. He’d be super angry at your boyfriend and he’d also be  in complete disbelief that anyone would ever cheat on you because to him, you’re an absolute princess. He’d tell you that he’ll be over as soon as he can, making you promise to sit tight and not do anything rash or silly until he can get there to comfort you, saying over and over “Everything’s gonna be okay, you know that right? I’m not going to leave you, I’m here for you. Always”

Originally posted by taesdrug

Jin; I don’t think Jin is the type to get overly angry usually, but upon you informing him about your unfaithful boyfriend, I feel Jin would loose his temper a bit. He wouldn’t go and try to kill your boyfriend or anything like that, but he’d silently wish he could punch him right in the face for hurting you so badly. All he would want to do is coddle you in his arms, telling you that you deserve better than him. Of course, Jin would be there for you throughout your whole breakup, making sure that you’re eating well and being healthy - all while showing you how much he has always, truly loved you.

Originally posted by eatjin

Yoongi; Man…this boy is going to be pissed as hell. I don’t think Yoongi would react suddenly - he’d just sit and listen to your words and take them in. But when you start to cry and he can see how much you’re physically hurting over this guy, he’d feel his anger bubble over and it would take every ounce of will power he had not to go over to your cheating boyfriends house and put him in his place. He’d lay beside you on your sofa, spooning you from behind while saying with his deep ass voice “He’s worse than trash, and I hope you know that you’re worth so much more than that fucking loser. He’s a damn idiot”

Originally posted by yoo-ngie

Hoseok; I believe that Hoseok would be a mixture of slight anger and just being so upset. The fact that he has always loved you so much and knowing that your boyfriend betrayed your trust was irritate him beyond belief. However, he wouldn’t show how extremely annoyed he is to you - he would do what he does best and just try to make you see the good in a bad situation. He’d smile, wrap his arms around you and let you cry into his shoulder while he strokes your hair lovingly. “You don’t need a person like that in your life. Come on, just let it all out and in a bit, we can both go and do something fun…how about that? Just you and I…sound good?”

Originally posted by bangtannoonas

Jimin; I would imagine that Jimin would just be totally shocked and hurt when you tell him the bad news. He’d want to hold you and rock you back and forth to try and soothe your emotional pain - but at the same time I think Jimin would be hesitant to do that because he wouldn’t want to take any advantage of your situation and your feelings. He loves you so deeply, but he doesn’t want to be your rebound either. He doesn’t want to ruin his friendship with you in the sense too. I feel he would give you lots of hugs and say “Whatever happens, you’ve always got me, you understand me? I care about you so much. Never forget that…ever” as he smiled and runs the backs of his fingers over your cheeks.

Originally posted by sugaglos

Taehyung; This boys heart would be in his throat upon seeing you so wound up and upset. Taehyung is someone who feels emotions so deeply, it would be like it’s happening to him also - he’d be able to feel your heartache easily. He’d be livid at your boyfriend, cussing him internally, and he’d be so bitter over how he knows that if he was your boyfriend, he would rather stick pins in his eyes than to ever think about cheating on you. Of course, he would be holding you in his arms and running his hands over your back, cooing and hushing any harsh cries that escape your lips. He’d talk to you about anything you wanted to talk about, trying his best to advise you and be there for you as much as possible.

Originally posted by kpop-kdrama-kvariety

Jungkook; I feel that Jungkook could go two different ways here. He would either be so upset and shaken up about the fact your boyfriend cheated on you that he wouldn’t know what to say, or he would get super angry. Everyone paints Jungkook as a very shy and nervous baby, but I feel if he loved someone that much and someone broke their heart, he wouldn’t know how to cope with all of the angst inside of him. He’d be full of questions, asking you if you’re okay while biting his lip and not really knowing the best way to comfort you other than leaning you against his chest and cradling you in his arms. When you’ve calmed down a little, I could see him laying you down and watching you fall asleep, singing a little soft tune to help ease the sadness in your heart while thinking “I would never in a million years treat her like that…”

Originally posted by sugutie

kokiri85  asked:

Every time Clark doesn't get something, a joke or an opinion or why a certain song makes some people cry--the kind of stuff that hits all people differently anyway--he secretly worries it's a Human Thing that's just beyond his ability to understand.

three cheers for feeling like, instead of punching through steel, superman just punched through your heart

and i hate to be that person but this gives me a lot of emotions about clark and bruce, because nine times out of ten, jokes are going over bruce’s head rather than clark’s. it’s not an alien thing, it’s…. just a thing, it turns out. whenever someone makes a star wars reference, bruce looks at clark helplessly - “who is yoda why does tim keep calling him space shrek clark please stop laughing at me” - and whenever someone (hal, or barry, or both) makes an elaborate pun clark looks at bruce with a pained expression

161106 Super Junior's 11th anniversary letters ♡

Donghae’s letter:

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Eunhyuk’s letter:

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Leeteuk’s letter:

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Kyuhyun’s letter:

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Heechul’s letter:

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Siwon’s letter:

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Yesung’s letter:

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Sungmin’s letter: 

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To E.L.F whom I miss
Are you guys doing well? You guys are healthy, right? I have been healthy all these time, and have been diligently learning a lot of things and growing up while living the army life. ^^

Recently, I’ve been going around while getting dispatched with Shindongie and Eunhyukie, we’ve been living life together so it was really fun, we’ve made enjoyable memories and are slowly ending our army lives. Before knowing it, Dongie and I are going to get discharged from the army soon. Even though our Ryeowookie is still in the training centre… The weather has became colder so I’m worried (for him). Hoping for our members to get discharged from the army healthily!

Now that we have lived life while being separated, it makes me think a lot about the times that had passed without resting… It also makes me think about the things (which I) lacked in previously…

I had a lot of things which I wanted to say back then.. Because I really had no idea how to say those words, I was really lost. I’m really thankful that I’m given a chance like this to write a letter. Even though I wouldn’t be able to fit everything that I want to say (in this letter), it would be great if my thoughts/feelings are being brought across. To be honest.. I know that it’s too late.. Even so, I wanted to tell (you guys) about how I feel despite it being late…

I’m sorry…

I’m still hurting and sad from how I hurt and made things hard for the fans before I enlisted… I didn’t do it (to hurt the fans)…

I really didn’t want to hurt anyone, and I really didn’t want to cause any harm to the members, too.. I thought about things for a long time, and discussed with the company.. I had also prepared a lot and thought about how am I supposed to let you guys know about this in the best way… It was confusing and suffocating for me when things didn’t go the way I thought it would.. I couldn’t do anything else but to withstand all these without saying a word…

To be honest.. I thought, “this is not right.. this is not it..”. I couldn’t do anything about it and time was flowing recklessly.. Before I knew it, in the eyes of the people who were far away from me.. I already became someone who wasn’t me… Even though I was indeed sad, I thought about how people could of course misunderstand (this situation) since I wasn’t able to say anything (back then)..

I’m still feeling unfortunate and sad.. Also.. Sorry about this..

My heart hurts..

To the people who still supported and protected me despite me being like this, I’m really thankful, and I want to repay (you guys) with my hard work. Also.. I miss you all..

Before we know it, it has became our 11th anniversary with everyone.. And also the members.. Now that I’ve looked back, I really feel grateful towards the fans who have loved and led me who was lacking so much.

I’ve always put (these words) deep down in my heart… I’ve always thought.. That things became this way because I wasn’t able to express my feelings properly like how I really felt.

I hope for the day where my heart/feelings would reach (you guys) to come…

Please look after me while I work hard..!

We would be able to meet soon.. Salute!

-Lee Sungmin-


Ryeowook’s letter:

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To. My babies whom I miss and always thankful for~
Hi? E.L.F. ^^ This is Recruit No. 40 Kim Ryeowook! kkkk Wah~ Our ELF are really the best when it comes to loving Super Junior,even the Suju magnae line are coming into the army~! Are you guys doing well? I got surprised because the weather suddenly got colder >.< The environment here is good, the food here is also especially good, everyone~ You don’t have to worry (about me) too much~ Has in been a little over 20 days?! Our ELF who supported me when I enlisted.. Also ELF who have cried while worrying about me.. To the cool ELF who have coolly sent me off since almost all the hyungs have came back already, thank you everyone~

The first day was really.. I couldn’t sleep well and I looked up at the ceiling thinking.. Where am I.. Who am I.. kk However, I’m doing fine with the rest of the 21~22 year old recruits now~ How do I say this.. I’m hanging out with them so much like friends that I tend to think that “am I really Suju”, “am I a bald high-schooler Ryeonggu” k.. We’re spending everyday relying on each other like family! You saw the photos, no~ ㅠ.ㅠ The photos which even I haven’t seen.. I’ve received letters on the fan-accounts (of the day I enlisted)~ Even so, I was really cool, right? kk I’ll come back again as a brave man! Salute! Yesterdat~ I wrote letters to each of the members and sent them through mail. Really.. The only way of communication in here is through letters and it’s the only precious time to breathe and rest, it’s as refreshing as drinking beer~ I don’t know why but I feel a little nervous thinking about how the hyungs and Kyuhyunie would be reading (my letters), and even though they probably won’t reply me, I end up waiting (for them to reply)~ Our ELFs, please tell them to reply me~ k (I’m half joking and half serious kkk) I wrote cards to the members before on 2005 Christmas.. I think about how the magnae Ryeonggu back then has now grown up to being 30 (years old) and currently in the army~ I ended up thinking about a lot of things while having to stand for night watch almost every night for 2 hours (we prepare for 20 mins and do duty for 1.5 hours).

The feelings and dreams~ Which I had before debuting.. The records.. And memories~ which I made after meeting the hyungs.. And also our ELFs who have walked those times together with us.. I still remember vividly the day, like it was just yesterday, when we went back to the dorm and discussed about the name of our fandom~ Precious memories like that.. Seems like Super Junior was my everything when I was in my 20s. From the start till the end.. There were a lot times where I thought.. Should I give up because it’s too tiring.. I’ve worked so hard but why is it that I can only reach this far.. I also blamed and was disappointed with myself a lot.. I was also really shaken up whenever my mom.. or my dad falls sick, my emotions went through ups and downs frequently.. What should I do.. The times were difficult for me, just like going through puberty. However, whenever I was like this, the hyungs taught and believed in me, and whenever I was sulky, they counselled and held on to me, there were a lot of times like this. Of course, I also thought about our ELF and set my heart to it, and overcame it all! I don’t know if it’s because of this, despite me being Super Junior, but I really love the hyungs and also our name as much as Super Junior fans.

All 19 of us are currently living together in the training centre, we eat and sleep together.. Train and talk together.. I really miss our Super Junior members. I also really really miss the ELFs who love our members… I’m also substituting the characters of our Super Junior members into the friends here in the training centre.. kk If I see similar points, I would say, “you’re like Donghae hyung.. You’re like Eunhyukie hyung”~ kkk Ah~ Now that I’m writing a letter.. I suddenly feel like singing.. After coming here, I haven’t been using my throat, so there seems to be thorns forming~

Even though it’s still very far away, I really want to get discharged quickly and sing (to you guys). With my stories ^^ From when we first debuted, till now. And even in the future, we’ll keep going on together, right? I can keep thinking like that and continue with my trainings, right? Are you guys replying me? kk We’ve (been together for) 11 years~ I wanted to see your faces.. Hear your voices.. And celebrate~ ELFs who have been waiting for (my) letters~ This is okay, right? It has a feel to it, no(?) kk I’ll celebrate (with you guys) all~ I want in the future! (Time) would go quickly if we had belief and love with us~ Don’t fall sick.. Why do I keep thinking about the lyrics to Like a Star… Even when I was recording (the song), it was very sad..

I really am doing well, and I will think of and miss (you guys) every day.. So, our ELFs must eat your meals properly and sleep a lot! It would be great if (you guys) don’t receive too much stress from work or studies~ Don’t kick the blanket away just because it’s not that cold~ Since it gets really cold at dawn, bring along a sleeping bag and use it kk be careful not to catch a cold~ ^^

I’ll be writing a lot of letters in the future~ We shall meet again through the letters~
Sleep well~ Oppa is going to sleep after a roll-call! Another night watch today, heok! kk

My love, E.L.F.
Go on forever, E.L.F.
Self-congratulations on 11th anniversary~ ^^
Recruit No. 40 Kim Ryeowook
Super Junior Ryeowook
From Ryeonggu to our lovely ELF

P.S. Since (the letter is going to be sent) through mailing, I wrote this in advance.
The detail here is (me using) a blue pen (to write the letter) kkk

cr: teukables, nobodyelf, kimlixus.

Season 10 - the verdict

If you’re just reading this to pick a fight because your taste differs from mine, then I suggest you don’t read further. However, if you’re up for a civilized discussion and exchanged of opinions, then go ahead :) I’m certainly not one to critize just for the sake of complaining, but I’d like to express my views on the latest season that has let me down.

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