because it needs to stay pretty

dios-bizarre-world  asked:

It sucks you're starting to not enjoy the Jojo fandom anymore, take a break if you need to your blog is still pretty awesome.

I think I have to stay off the JoJo tag for a while; it just means there will be more original content from me, and less reblogs. But I’m pretty busy with my life right now, so I also haven’t had enough time to spend on drawing or anything really that great, so it’s probably going to be manga caps for a while.

It sucks, because I really enjoy fan-created content, but the amount of shit in the tags is driving me a bit mental.

Thank you by the way, lol.

To everyone saying that Victor and Yuuri pair skating is impossible: That’s enough.

Yes, competitive same-sex pair skating is impossible.

But I’m pretty sure most of us just want to see an intimate moment between Victor and Yuuri back in Ice Castle Hasetsu, where they play Stammi Vicino/Stay Close to Me and skate out their feelings for each other together, perhaps holding hands/each other’s waists and trusting the other to lead them with closed eyes or something along those lines.

We don’t want them to compete in pair skating. We want to see a moment that is only their own, shared and expressed through their mutual passion and the thing that brought them together.

That is all.

But like - here’s the thing, really.

In a world where you can bring people back from the dead, but it doesn’t always work and it’s very difficult to do so, that’s a pretty big question. Why do some people come back but not others?

Last night, Percy stopped to consider that he’s died twice and been brought back to life both times, to his mind because people still needed him. Vex still needed him, Keyleth still needed him (and she said as much while resurrecting him), Vox Machina needed him to help save the world, Cassandra needed him, Whitestone needed him, so okay, he came back for a reason.

So now Percy is forced to consider that when people die and stay dead, it must be because they served no further purpose. They didn’t have a greater fate ahead of them.

Percy’s entire family, save Cassandra, is dead and so far as he knows, they cannot be brought back. In game and meta terms, he’s right. It’d be ridiculous to drop a dozenish expensive diamonds on bringing back all the dead de Rolos and Matt would almost certainly rule that their spirits had passed on and they could not be revived (the same as Tiberius could not be).

But within the story, that means that Percy has to realize that he is alive and his family isn’t because his family wasn’t important enough in the grand scheme of things. Percy had a fate to fulfill and the rest of his family didn’t. Scanlan, a tiny asshole of a gnome who writes dirty songs and has slept with enough women to fill a dozen brothels, Scanlan they could bring back, but not Percy’s siblings. Not Percy’s parents.

Percy’s not allowed to die yet, he has to go on living because others need him. But apparently Johanna and Frederick weren’t needed. Julius and Vesper weren’t needed. Oliver and Whitney and Ludwig weren’t needed.

Just him. He was needed.

It’s not fair.

Why I need Chicana feminism

Because I was taught to stay away from certain styles because they were too “mexican”. With phrases like “the bigger the hoop, the bigger the hole” when I loved wearing big earrings. Being told that red hair against my brown skin looked “ghetto” instead of fierce and bold. Wearing stylish flannels like the pretty pastel haired girls on tumblr and being told I look like a “chola”. Working hard to get rid of my slang because society taught me that it was “unflattering”. That bright red lips were too much. That my natural intense brows are now a makeup “fad”. When in reality all this shit was made up by people that want to put us down for claiming our own identity. 

Thoughts on Viktor and “Stay Close to Me”

This suddenly clicked on my mind and I needed to get it out.

The “Stay Close to Me” program was a cry for help.

I’ve seen posts showing the translations of the lyrics, and it’s basically about someone afraid of love and full of anger toward it, finally falling for someone and wanting this person to “stay close to them”.

What if Viktor seems so lonely (no significant other, no family mentioned, no friends shown ?) because he actually is. What if his relationships turned short because his partners only wanted to see the skater Viktor, the pretty playboy ? What if they never managed to do what Yuuri does, seeing him as human, wanting him to “be Viktor” ? And they didn’t want to see him as a whole human being, they didn’t want to see the part that aren’t that pretty. They didn’t want him to be awkward or messing up, or not knowing perfectly what to do in every situations. They didn’t want to see him not smiling or being happy and charming all the time. And it hurt Viktor, because he felt even less alone. Being with someone who don’t understand you and don’t really want you.

So he shut down and refused to let anyone close to him. Like Yuuri, he didn’t open up anymore. He kept skating, kept showing people what whey wanted to see, kept surprising them and surpassing himself.

But he felt he was reaching his limit. And mostly, the loneliness started to eat him alive. He was 27-years-old, and he felt like he always been lonely. Watched by thousands of people, but desperately lonely.

So he decided to give it a try. A last try. 

“Stay Close to Me” was a cry for help. It was his love story (maybe why he thought that Yuuri’s theme, “love”, was perfect ?), and the expression of his desire to find someone. He knew he couldn’t skate it perfectly because he didn’t have a significant other. yet. He skated it in the hope of someone seeing it and understanding. He skated it in the hope one day, he could skate it meaningfully (maybe in the duet version that’s put at the end of the official Yuri on Ice tracks list ?)

And it happened.

Yuuri understood. What was supposed to lie behind the program. What it meant. He skated it perfectly on the technical side, but also on the interpretation side. Yuuri had this emotional intelligence, this sensitivity, that made Viktor go “Him. He can understand. He might be the person I was looking for.” 

If you see it that way, it would only make sense Viktor would suddenly be ready to give up everything he knew (”I never thought I would leave this town”), to take a year off of the sport that meant his life, and to go toward the unknown so suddenly. Imagine how it would feel if you got so lonely for years, maybe for most of your life, when you gave up on love and being understood, gave a last try, and found someone, someone who understand. Imagine him seeing the glimpse of connection with Yuuri, hoping that it wouldn’t be a mistake, an other disappointment. Hoping that he’s not looking too much through it, that he’s right. Hoping that this time he really found someone.

Re-think of this scene of the episode 4, where he’s asking to Yuuri what he wants him to be for him. Imagine it being a test, and Viktor deep down thinking “please let me not be wrong. Please.”. Imagine his joy when Yuuri refuses all his offers to finally tell him he wants him to “be Viktor”. At this moment he knows he was right and that Yuuri can be the person who will understand him.

I might be wrong. But to me, “Stay Close to Me” was a cry for help. And Yuuri answered it.

Starting to see blogs that are "the mcmansionhell of" and all I want to say is

Y'all do you because more crap needs to be called out for being well, crap. I’m an architecture/interiors/design person but if you want to take down, say garbage Web UI (like my blog lmao) or auto design or whatever else fascinates you and want some pointers, shoot me a message.

General design blog advice:
- always make sure you’re legally reusing or modifying images. This is huge. Stay within the Creative Commons if you can. Better yet, take your own pictures if you can.

- roast things not people. If you don’t care about people’s feelings, here’s something that will make you feel pretty bad: You can and will get sued. Make up characters in place of real humans. Do not bully ever or I will be eternally disappointed in you. No witch hunts. Luckily for me, houses don’t have feelings. If they did, I’d feel really bad.

- If you want a larger readership I recommend keeping swearing in check. I follow what I call the DAHA rule: damn, ass, hell, and acronyms (‘wtf’, ‘af’, whatever else the kids say these days.)

I do want to say I have seen stolen content from this blog posted without citation. If you want to use one of my pics somewhere send me an email - I’m very chill about it. I hate DMCA takedowns more than anything, and have fielded plenty in order to bring dank content to all because I have a lawyer. Listen to your English teacher: don’t plagiarize. You will get caught.

Finally, if @classical-vinyl follows you, it’s me. (I first got a Tumblr in college to catalog my records because I’m very boring in real life.)

Happy blogging,
K8

Edit- Protip: I always tweet back (@mcmansionhell)
Troubleshooting the Fabric of Space

JD-

We’ve been pinging extremely random wifi signals for as long as we’ve been staying here, and I believe after months of frustration I figured it out… It’s the fireplace! We’re hooked up to the Floo Network, and amazingly enough I think strong wifi signals are seeping in from literally all over the planet.

Of course I don’t need to use their random wifi because I’m an IT guy so I’m pretty well hooked up on this end, but it’s an interesting dilemma that has popped up with the combination of tech and magic. 

On a lighter note, to the wizarding household out there using the Wifi name “We Can Hear your Hex Noises”, bravo to you.

Studying isn’t all color coded notes and cute organizational methods.

It’s chugging cold water at 2 am because this essay is so close to being done

It’s having multiple lights on just to stay awake

It’s having a bad week and Oh god where is my textbook? Why do I have a plate of uneaten eggo waffles on my desk and how old are they?

It’s debating if you really need to do this, or you can just bs it.

Studying isn’t always pretty.

The mods here just want to say, we know that everything that’s gone down in America today is shocking, horrifying and probably downright terrifying to a lot of you. Personally, I remember the feeling I got when I woke up and saw that Brexit had won, and I had pretty much that same feeling this morning too. We’re gonna keep posting our regular content, because some of you probably need a distraction right now, but we just wanna say that we’re here for all our followers, especially our minority followers - our followers of colour, our disabled followers, our queer followers, our followers from non-Christian faiths, our mentally ill followers, our followers who are anything that this result might harm. Our askbox is always open to you, and if you ever want to come in there and talk, we can answer privately. It’s the least we can do, at this point.

Stay safe, friends.

So I’ve really been trying to stay out of this weird Katie McGrath discourse. But things keep popping up on my dash and I look through the Katie McGrath tag pretty regularly. Apparently, we all need a discussion on how to act like normal functioning adults. And this is the only time I’m going to post about this. Because I didn’t think we needed to talk about this. But apparently…

For people that say they’re fans of a person, some of you are disrespectful as hell. I could get around the “Kashy McGra” thing, even though I’m personally really bothered by it. I’ve never like it and you’ll never find me using that tag. But hey, when an actor/actress starts gaining more prominence, jokes like that surface more and I understand that was lighthearted fun. But when some people start digging up pictures and making a big deal out of something that is a person’s job. Well. Let’s just say that it’s probably good Katie doesn’t have social media and honestly, I don’t think she should ever get on it if this is how some people are going to behave. 

Look, I’m as relatively as new of a fan of Katie as the next person. I knew of her because of Merlin but didn’t really follow her career until Supergirl. Yeah, I think her back tattoo is a little unfortunate, but that’s not really a reason to drag her over it. Yeah, her goth phase was interesting. But who can really say they never had one? Besides, it was a method of self-expression for a younger Katie. I don’t think we should be making fun of that. And don’t even get me started on that anal thing. That’s just downright disgusting, in terms of what that scene started. And where some people took it. I also don’t really understand why this goth thing was such a big deal. We all knew she had a goth phase, and arguably she still has a little bit of it in her personal fashion. At least, I thought we all knew. 

It’s been really surreal to watch this all unfold and continually be amazed what people are willing to post in public about a person they don’t really know. Especially one who tends to be pretty private. Or at least as private as you can be when you’re an actress. 

Yes, it’s a part of every individual’s growing fandom that you’re going to get some people who just do that. It’s the price of an actor/actress gaining exposure. And to some extent, we all have to just deal with it. But some of you really need Jesus. I’d really rather not get PMs over this, but if you have to, don’t tell me “it’s just a joke.” Because it’s really not that funny. Some individuals in the fandom really need to grow up and let Katie be herself. And not make a spectacle over the stupidest shit.  

And for god’s sake, don’t call me beautiful. I don’t care if you argue and yell and try to screw it deep into my brain, because I am not and I won’t waste time pretending to believe you. Let me be as I am. Let my appearance be that randomization of genes that it is. I am not pretty. I am not gorgeous. My looks don’t light up the world. My skin won’t take your breath.

I am average or below or I don’t care where in that area, and I will not care just because you try to make me.

Don’t call me beautiful. I’m not, haven’t been, won’t be.

If you do want to get your breath stolen, ask about my mind.

About vampires

Okay so I’ve collected this from numerous Tumblr posts and personal research, here goes!

Vampires and blood

  • Blood in dead bodies (with no open wounds) after several days will start decomposing, therefore vampires can last perhaps a month before needing more blood? Several is a pretty broad number. Maybe vampires who have lived longer can last longer without it. Just my guess, really.
  • Coconut water can be used as a blood substitute, therefore, vegan vampires can exist.
  • Vampires need blood because it has Vitamin D, a nutrient you get from the Sun
  • Vitamin D maintains your bones and keeps them from getting disease–perhaps this is why old vampires who haven’t gotten as much blood recently look so bony and fragile?
  • Vampires can survive off of any kind of blood
  • Vampires need blood to stay young

Vampire Powers

  • More powerful vampires can control the weather, beasts, transform into many different animals, even have really cool dramatic entrances (see Dracula)
  • Vampires can fit through really tight spaces (Dracula)
  • Vampires can only enter a house when welcomed
  • Vampires can hypnotize people (another Dracula thing)

Vampire Habitats

Vampires are dead, therefore they can live underwater, in really bad conditions, and even in space.

Vampire Weaknesses

  • Silver
  • Garlic
  • Crosses
  • Stakes through the chest/heart
  • Sunlight (must hide in coffin during the day, apparently)
  • Decapitation

Vampire Appearance

  • Red eyes
  • Pale skin
  • Really cold, unless full of fresh blood I’m guessing
  • Long spindly fingers
  • Long nails
  • Noticeable fangs sticking out of mouth (once again, Dracula)
  • Young if they have had a lot of blood recently
  • Aged without blood

That’s all for now. Let me know if I should include something else!

norrihiddleskittycap  asked:

Imagine Steve in an AU where he adopts the Maximoff twins!

“So Friday tells me if you want to stay, we have to get started, like yesterday on your alphabet soup visa type applications because it can take a while and like—Friday, can you explain it?”  Tony flashed a quick smile. “Pepper usually handles this sort of thing.  Sorry.”

“Sure, boss.  Their B visas expire in approximately 4 months. They’ll need to apply for an H1-B if they want to stay.  Though, it’ll be a stretch.  I’m not sure if the government will consider what they do as ‘skilled labor’.  Worth a shot, and they’re familiar with Stark Industries sponsoring visas.  We just have to hope they make it through the lottery.”

Pietro quirked an eyebrow.  “And if we don’t?” 

“-We can find a way.  Right?” Tony glanced towards the ceiling.

We might be able to get you back on an L visa, if we can set you up in our Sokovia branch.  It’s mostly a foundation, but it’d be just about all we have left as an option.  A green card would be an option, too, but it’d take some time.  More than we have.”

After Sokovia, with the twins joining the Avengers in a not-so-low-profile move to the Tower, the government was asking a lot of questions about their allegiances and intent.  Tony had lawyers for that, but they were still working on the best way to legally keep the Maximoffs in the country.  They kept coming up short.  Tony dropped heavily onto a couch with a groan.  “Uggghhh.  This is why Pepper does all this.  What the hell.”

Or” Steve had come out of nowhere, dropping a folder onto the glass table.  “We do an adult adoption.”

“Can you do that?”  Tony sat up straighter.  

I’ll have to look into it, boss. But without any living parents, provided they consent, Captain Rogers should be able to.”

Wanda smiled slyly.  “Is that why you give Vision side-eye? Do you disapprove of the relationship we may or may not have?”

Pietro laughed.  “You do a great Disappointed Dad face.  I will not call you Dad, though.”

Steve grinned.  “I don’t expect you would.”

Wanda glanced over the paperwork Steve had brought.  “Ok.  Yes. But,” she pointed a finger at Steve, “only if you promise to stop looking so suspicious of Viz.”  

Steve held up his hands.  “Sorry, ok.”

Tony clapped his hands together.  “This is great.  I’ve gotta go organize a party.  Adoption shower.  Something. There’ll be cake.  It’s gonna be great.  Friday!  Friday, take care of Steve’s paperwork.” 

Yes, boss.”

I’ll… uh… deal with the other neighbors later.

but hoho, I know someone who should help.

[Peri] JASPER

[Jasper] what.

[Peri] Many of those Lapis Lazuli birds have been lost in the storm. look out for any that get in or around here. I ESPECIALLY need you to keep your awful cats inside. they shouldn’t even be outside in the first place. It’s VERY irresponsible though like I’d ever expect you to be anyw-

…what are those????

[Jasper] free dogs.

[Peri] I doubt that! where did you get those???

[Jasper] none of your business. the cats are hiding upstairs because they cant handle these beasts. pussies.

[Peri] this is no time for jokes!! make sure they stay inside! YOU make sure they stay inside. not because those dogs are stressing them out. SPEAKING OF WHICH GIVE THEM BACK BECAUSE I’M PRETTY SURE I SEE COLLARS ON TH-

[Jasper] shut up and get out. your business isn’t my business either. this was probably all your fault anyway. deal with it yourself.

[Peri] …UGH!

[Lapeep] !!! phphhhhpt!!!!

yeah. fuck Jasper. I don’t even really want her involved anyway.

The Ninjago Fandom

-Hold literally no hate towards ships, if you dislike a ship/it can trigger things it’s always tagged appropriately. 

-All agree that Lloyd Garmadon needs protection. 

-NEEDED MORE SCREEN TIME FOR MORRO 

-All have one character they are obsessed with. 

-Pretty much agree that Nya is the most badass out of them all. 

-Pretend that Love Triangles don’t happen. 

-Ignore canon half the time because “What even is this time line???” 

-WANT GARMADON BACK 

-But assure that Garmadon can stay there if they destroy his character to turn him into an asshole. 

-Want a Nya season. 

-Need more closure on the Julian and Echo thing 

-THINK MISAKO IS JUST THERE AND HORRID CHARACTER DESIGNING 

-Want that fucking character development for Kai. 

-Basically one of the best fandoms outside of Lockwood and Co. 

archiveofourown.org
Everything You Wanted [Philip/Lukas, 802 words]
By Organization for Transformative Works

Summary: Lukas’s feelings when his father says that Philip is gone [1.06] 

Somehow you’ve convinced yourself.

You tell yourself you need to stay away from him. You tell yourself you can do it.

You avoid him.

You tell him to stop stalking you.

You avoid his messages.

You accuse him of lying.

You accuse him of making you steal.

You push him away at the party.

You take him home but he’s drunk and he’s not part of your life because you’ve told yourself he can’t be. You need to focus on what really matters and he can’t be a part of that.

You’ve given him pretty much every reason in the world to hate you but for some reason you’ve never stopped to think about it. You’re too happy about this sponsorship to think about anything else. You don’t want to think about anything else.

Because this is what you’ve been waiting for. This is your chance. And you want it so badly, that everything else fades away. You make him fade away. Just like that. There’s only Rose, your friends, your father, your motocross, everything that has always been there. Everything you thought was important. Everything you wanted. Everything you still want.

You can stay focused.

You can keep your grades up.

You can keep clean.

You can stay out of trouble.

You can hang with the right crowd.

Of course, you can do all that. That’s your thing. You’re totally there.

Keep reading

Fantastic Beast and Where to Find Them: My little review!(SPOILERS)

First and foremost, I just wanna thank you guys for liking and re-blogging my reviews! It’s pretty cool when you realize other people like or agree with you. So thanks, and stay film loving!  Now that the mushy gushy stuff is outta the way, you’re here for my only two cents I have. So lets get it, lets go!

  • Eddie Redmayne, my goodness. I have never loved Hufflepuff as much as I loved it now! You embodied Newt Scamander, every awkward mannerism, every half stuttered word, every half smile, every immense care for everything. 
  • Newt’s Hair. Just because I think it needs to be appreciated
  • This film to me has the same essence as the first Harry Potter film. A bit innocent with a some darkness. You can tell that the films will get darker and darker as the franchise grows.
  • JACOB KOWALSKI JACOB KOWALSKI JACOB KOWALSKI
  • JACOB KOWALSKI ( just one more because I’m feeling extra today)
  • Wizard America post WWI, 1920′s. I love it. 
  • Just Wizard America.
  • Tina, you strong independent women. I loved your conviction, your persistence, your heart. 
  •  I really liked how the showed more Aurors in this film! Here,you really got to see their job they do at the fullest.
  • Queenie’s smile could replace the sun. It could light up a whole building.
  • Queenie and Jacob at Kowalski’s bakery. 
  • I also loved how they portrayed legillmens as something that isn’t always meant to be painful and horrid.
  • Good riddance Mary Lou. You sucked. 
  • Credence, you poor poor boy. I really wished that Newt and Tina could have saved you. I think they could’ve if they got the chance.
  • The VISUAL EFFECTS on the beast were AMAZING. I loved how the captured unique details for every creature. From the flicker of the Thunderbird’s feathers to the shiny scales on the Occamy. 
  • Pickett, the Bowtruckle. I want one. I would be up for watching the movie from Pickett perceptive, I feel that it would be quite entertaining. 
  • The thought of Dumbledore as a Transfiguration professor just makes me smile.
  • Leta Lestrange. You best believe there is a story there.
  •  Gellert Grindelwald.
  • Colin Farrell. Collin Farrell’s hair in this film. Looked so good.
  • EVERYBODY’S HAIR LOOKED GOOD. 
  • Johnny Depp.
  • If you guy’s could tell me what Grindelwald said to Newt before he was taken away after his arrest, I would greatly appreciate it, because I didn’t quite catch it.
  • Newt’s Suitcase. 
  • Obliviate.

The film was magic, pure magic. There is something for everyone, romance, action, humor. And for those Potterheads, just enough nostalgia and fresh new faces to pull you through for the next film!

Go see it! It was great. 

Headcanons for Josh Washington and a reader with social issues (aka reader is not neurotypical so I’ll leave it vague) as requested by absolute babe @daddymenrah:

- Josh fully embraces your fucked up side - as long as it makes you happy. He lets you get angry, he lets you smash shit - he even joins in when you start throwing plates at the wall and insists on cleaning up after. 

- Josh is a pretty intense guy but he knows when you need space. When you’re living together he leaves you holed up in your own little world, staying one floor below so he’s ready for when you want to come back out again. When you’re apart he might send you a little text every now and again but he’s happy to deal with the radio silence because he knows you’ll always come back in the end. 

- Josh is by far at his best when you feel hyperactive. The two of you cause havoc wherever you go but you love it. You’re constantly pushing one another for the next buzz. Tell him to take that pill? He won’t ask what it is. Tell him to fuck you against that wall? Josh is already one step ahead. 

- It’s not all fun and games, naturally. Sometimes you feel very fucking depressed but Josh never lets his stuff get to you. You worry that he’s suffering, it keeps you up at night but he just grins at you and says “I’m not fucking going anywhere, chill” and that makes it more bearable for you. 

- After being together for a while Josh is pretty much immune to feeling bad about anything you throw at him. He’ll go to kiss you and you might say “gross I’m not doing this right now” and he’ll just do some ridiculous giggle and think your inability to process these feelings is the funniest thing in the world.

Jealous Alpha!

Request: Derek x reader please! Maybe where reader helps care for another injured wolf in the lack after a rough mission and Derek gets jealous because she’s his mate but he hasn’t told her yet.                                                                                                                                                         Warning:None!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 Note:I hope that you’re going to like it so if you do let me know..:))                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         It was getting harder fighting everyday with the supernatural stuff,even for a werewolf thing can be pretty  exhausting..We all ended up in Dereks loft beaten up,but  Boyd needed more help than us..I walked closer to him and I could see Derek tensing up but I didn’t want to argue with him now..Before the fight he told me to stay away but I didn’t listen so now  we weren’t  angry at eachother we were just stubborn..I didn’t have the time for that now I need to help Boyd because he was healing really slow..I walked to him..’Don’t move you just make it worse.’He tried to get up ‘No I’m fine it’s just the cut.’I stopped him by putting my hands on his cheeks..’No you’re not,now sit and let me look at that.’ He just let out a sigh..After I cleaned the wound it started healing then I heard Derek saying..’Okay are you two done touching?!’I turned around to look at him instantly getting up from my spot “What the hell is wrong with you today?’ The room went silent in a matter of second..’Well I’m not going to standing here while my girlfriend is touching the other man.’ Is he being serious now?! ‘Do you hear yourself right now Derek?I was HELPING him NOT TOUCHING.’ He didn’t say anything ‘So I don’t believe it’s just  Boyd,something else matters…And if you don’t want to tell me then fine.’ And with that I walked past him and getting out of his loft…When I was about to unlock my car door I heard Derek yell..’Y/N wait!’ I turned around to look at him anger obvious on my face..’I’m sorry okay.’ I looked aside and didn’t said anything…’I just got scared.’I looked back at him confused ‘Scared of what?’ He hesitated for a moment,then he put his hands on my cheeks ‘Scared of losing you..I few days ago I found out that you’re my soulmate and when I saw you helping Boyd I just got jealous..And yes I know that was stupid of me..But I love you and I can’t stand the thought of losing you..’By now I was smiling like a idiot ‘Soulmate huh?” He smiled back widely “Yeah!’ And then he kissed me with so much love and I felt like flying and when he pulled back I looked at him ‘And by the way..I love you too!.’ We both smiled and kissed again everything back to place and perfect. 

I’m not sorry.
And I know that you think that I should be.
And for a while, I guess I was.
I felt like it was my fault, that you left because of me, and you know what? Maybe you did.
Maybe you left because you were tired of having me pushing you away, maybe you didn’t feel the same way anymore, or maybe you just found something better. And I don’t blame you, I honestly don’t.
I know that people change, feelings don’t always stay same, and life’s pretty crappy sometimes, I get that.
I just would’ve liked some kind of closure. An explanation.
But I never got that, now did I?
You just stopped being there.
And I needed you. I really did. And I guess I still do, but you won’t come again, you never do.
And that’s the absolute most tragic thing about our relationship.
That I need you in every possibly way, and you’ll never be there again.
So I’m not sorry that you left me, and I’m not sorry that we don’t speak anymore, because it’s not my fault.
I don’t know what you wanted from me.
Just know: I tried so hard to be that for you.
And I am not sorry.
Because I was and will always be enough, and you don’t get to make me think I’m not.
Not anymore.
—  I’m not sorry.