because i wish it was

So you’re an arsonist now?

It didn’t matter how you built your pyre. It still doesn’t. You weren’t sure how you were going to fracture yourself and fall together in a better way - like gravity, like collapsing into a black hole - but if death is an inevitability, surely the death of an ego is inevitable too?

It wasn’t supposed to matter, but it did. You carried sadness around you - you did, you did, and you still do. So what would come first, the sadness or the memories that caused them? It was a sick juxtaposition - it was the contrast between ‘okay’ and 'not okay’. You think that if you had never learned how to be happy in the first place you wouldn’t be so sad now. You think there’s still plenty of time left to be happy.

What did they - the pictures, the chatlogs, the people - matter to you now anyway? Physicality is easy to burn, physicality can disappear - into carbon under bunsen burners, into smoke. It was what came after you were afraid of - of not having anything to look back at, of not being able to pretend that this past was your future. It was not having these security blankets - not being able to read these conversations  and trace over these memories until they were as smooth as your bathroom tiles from wear.

You think about them a lot. If a relationship has ten effort units total, and you give all ten, then you’re not going to get anything back. If you look up to someone, if you spend hours social media stalking, if you keep up obsessively without getting any acknowledgement of your existence, if you write emails that never get replies, if you spend hours upon hours drafting messages that never get read - then do you not force them to look down on you?

And you wanted to become something greater, to become a phoenix at the threat of rebirth - wanted something of revenge, or regret, or some other unnameable noun that started with r. You didn’t want to become something greater if they weren’t going to look back at you.

But not now. The pyre is built and the funeral is ready. There are no white flowers, no observers, no wills or last rites. Nothing but you and the flame. Nobody will cry for your death - but then again, do you need anyone to?

So you jump in.

Too little, maybe, but not too late.

Ah, yes… one of *those* days.

I don’t even really like Wish!Hook but I get weirdly protective when I see posts about how people are unhappy he had a child with another woman???

Haaaaaaave you met Emma? You know, Emma Swan? Introduced to us a whole season before Hook? Who came to Storybrooke? For her child? Her child she did not have with Hook?

Or hey! How about his previous love? Milah! Whom he spent CENTURIES AVENGING AND DEFINITELY SLEPT WITH? Is that an issue? Or is it just the child thing? Because she had a chid, who wasn’t his, and he still loved the fuck out of her.

Like… why are we equating having kids with being in love? They don’t necessarily go hand-in-hand (or hand-in-hook in this case).

And Emma not being in love with the father of her child didn’t stop Henry from being her True Love. And Milah hating the father of her child didn’t stop her love and guilt for him from being her unfinished business.

UGH FUCK YOU WISH!HOOK FANDOM YOU GAVE ME ALL THE FEELS FOR THIS JERK AND NOW I JUST WANT HIM TO BE REUNITED WITH HIS DAUGHTER AND BE HAPPY

And a Love Actually type scene after they’ve been reunited where he’s dropping his daughter off at school, and is introduced to the single parent of another student, and OH HEY IT’S ANOTHER EMMA SWAN

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happy birthday to our cute jimin!
thank you for being our angel

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We’re always trying to outdo ourselves, trying to do better, trying to write better songs. I think we want to inspire other people as well, so that’s what we’ll try to do through future songs. Joshua William Dun

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mchanzo week day 4 - red/blue

i love the contrasting colour schemes of these two, i think thats one of the reasons i love them as a couple so much
doing big coloured/lined pieces is so difficult in a single day! but im loving the challenge

[commissions are open! | i have a redbubble ]

nct are such good people??? like these boys have been volunteering at a multicultural school since last APRIL. and taeyong gives financial aid to four students each month???? and he doesn’t want the pictures of the kids to be released because they might be harmed. they’re all angels, stan nct

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one of my favourite lines from the script!! i’m proud of him :’)

ARMY PLS NOTICE ME

Please reblog/like if you still haven’t watched either of the following:

  • Bon Voyage S1
  • Bon Voyage S2
  • BTS Home Party Encore
  • Or any of BTS’ Vlive Paid Content
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Colin + Bradley week 2017
Day 4:
Colin/Bradley quotes

A smile spread across the actor’s face as talk turned to his real-life relationship with Merlin actor Colin Morgan. “We share a lot of laughs and we have a lot of fun,” James said. “We are quite ridiculous in our humor sometimes, which I think only the pair of us can relate to, but ultimately we have gotten on quite well because we had to spend so much time together anyway with filming the show. It’s helped out no end with what audiences see onscreen because inevitably that’s going to carry itself onto the screen as well.

“I imagine myself and Colin, when we do manage to get some time away from each other, we try to separate ourselves from each other as much as possible,” he laughed. “I think we both need that breather to realize there are other people and other ways of telling jokes!” x

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“Do you remember when we first met? I thought I had strayed into a dream. Long years have passed… You did not have the cares you carry now. Do you remember what I told you? You said you’d bind yourself to me, forsaking the immortal life of your people. And to that I hold. I would rather share one lifetime with you than face all the ages of this world alone. I choose a mortal life.” – Arwen Undómiel, The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)