because i want to read books

Today this adorable little Grade 3 asked if she could read to the teddy bear that sits on the service desk. 

I told her of course, he LOVES hearing stories! Whenever she wants to, she’s more than welcome to read to him, because he’s always up for a good story.

She read him three books, and when it was time for the Grade 3s to go back to class she asked if she could give the bear a hug “because he’s really cute”. 

I told her the only thing Henry likes more than stories is hugs – he’s a bear, after all, bears are famous for their hugs!

Writing tag meme!

I was tagged by @mysecretfanmoments <3

1) How many works in progress to do you currently have in progress?

This depends, I suppose, on the definition of “in-progress” (and this month kind of messes that up) but I think the correct total is 4.

2) Do you/would you write fan fiction?

Hahahahahahahahahahaha

3) Do you prefer paper books or ebooks?

Ebooks! I always read in bed but my weak noodle arms have a hard time holding up regular books for long periods of time, and my severe nearsightedness makes it hard to see when i want to take my glasses off because they dig into my face. But with a phone screen I can jam that shit right up into my eyeballs

4) When did you start writing?

When I was 7! I tried to write my first novel, and it was the pinnacle of ridiculousness

5) Do you have someone you trust that you share your work with?

A lot of people, depending on the project! I don’t post any of my fics before @ellessey-writes and @reallycorking read them through first. For original writing, my dad reads all my stuff c’x (and some of my fics too, but I edit them to be SFW haha…. he is an innocent flower)

6) Where is your favourite place to write?

My bed! I write on my phone a lot, or my laptop.

7) Favourite childhood book?

Animorphs all the way, Harry Potter as well

8) Writing for fun or writing for publication?

Both! For fun, right now. I have a novel I want to finish and publish one day :)

9) Pen and paper or computer?

Computer! I recently wrote in a notebook whilst on vacation because my phone had died and felt personally attacked when trying to transcribe it all again into Google docs

10) Have you ever taken any writing classes?

Yep! I majored in screenwriting, and also took several classes in writing for games. I’ve actually never taken a creative prose writing class, though.

11) What inspires you to write?

I have always been primarily inspired both by my own imagination, and stories that spurred it on. I love fantasy and science fiction and creating new worlds, and I want to write more minority and LGBT+ and female characters getting to have these adventures. Mostly, I really just want to share these stories with anyone who will listen. 

I’ll tag (if they want to/have time to do it): @ellessey-writes @byesweetheart @peasantaries @talkativelock @someone-stole-my-shoes @dontperishyet  @sagechan

anonymous asked:

Hey, so I read the books before I saw the show and I was so excited to see the characters come to life and it was like their last chance because the movie literally failed, I just wanted it to work so badly and even tho I felt very underwhelmed by all the acting and the ridiculous very cringey writing I believed that it better itself and fiercely defended it because I was just annoyed at all the criticism, and by that point I learned of cc’s past and I guess I started trashing the books with-

the show fans because book fans were so hard on the show and I guess to even it out I began hating the books… lol it’s dumb I know.. objectively, even overlooking the fact that the show was so far from the books, it was just a bad show, I would never have watched it if I didn’t read the books because it was just bad and cringey, it’s gotten better this season which makes me optimistic for the next but idk I’ve been reading the books again lately and it’s just so much better and the show doesn’t even have the same feel of the books at all, which is… disappointing, and I just don’t think they could come back from it, coupled with the fact that I’m just honestly tired at the tumblr callout culture, it’s just stressful at this point, it feels like a witch hunt, people grow, they make mistakes, they are problematic because that’s what makes them human, so we can’t expect cc to have been perfect all her life, we can’t expect characters to always be non problematic cinnamon rolls who never make mistakes and who never grow, a character like that is the definition of a 2D character, something show fans (I even said that myself at one point) accuse the book characters of being, at this point I feel like the showrunners are way too scared of the fans and it just feels very toxic and overwhelming so I guess I’m just done, I’ll still watch it on netflix but I think it will just be casual because the fandom is horrible and the show is just plain bad

I wanted to take some time to answer this, because I can definitely relate to aspects in my personal experience. When I first joined the book fandom, having watched the show first, then read the books and enjoyed them even more, I found on tumblr there wasn’t really space to be both a show and book fan, which is really depressing when you think about it.

Anyway, I discovered the anti cc tag, and being a new impressionable blogger, I thought that this was the norm to change your opinion and follow the popular opinion. I felt really conflicted for a while, because I felt I had to not like cc and the books, to fit in. I soon realised that that was not the case, and that you could have your own opinion and not be like everyone else on tumblr. But it had gotten to the point where I felt guilt for liking the books, and I felt I had to make up for this by ‘joining’ the anti cc’s and fitting in. It was horrible, and I felt like I was a bad person, (‘a bad bisexual’, specifically related to CoFA). I also felt that since people were older than me in the anti cc community, they were indefinitely wiser and smarter than me, a fifteen year old.

I soon started chatting to other people who had their own open opinions and weren’t afraid of opposing the anti community, while acknowledging stuff cc has done and faults etc, and I completely ditched the mindset that once-someone-has-done-something-problematic-you-can’t-ever-like-them-again, which is mainly tumblr culture, like you said. It’s exhausting and depressing, and you can’t speak a word of things that are considered problematic that you enjoy (while accepting that they’re ~problematic~).

My current view on the situation is that you’re absolutely allowed to like things, even though they may be considered problematic, and just acknowledge those parts and move on. (I’m saying problematic too much but I can’t think of another word to describe it).

I feel the show fandom can be a super pressuring and nasty place, which drives people away from the show (like you said), and that they need to get their priorities in order. Is the world going to end if a teen enjoys a book series that has faults + good parts? No. Is the world going to end if a character/show runner/actor/whatever messes up a few times? If it’s not on an epic scale, then no.

We put too much pressure on ourselves and other people to be perfect unproblematic angels, when that’s literally impossible. It’s also extraordinarily hypocritical to call people out, while doing the same human mistakes everyone does. (I’m not saying that mistakes should be discarded—they should be learnt from and lessons in life).

Actors aren’t perfect people, we aren’t perfect people, authors aren’t perfect people, I’m not a perfect person, you’re not a perfect person, because that doesn’t exist.

It is exactly like a witch hunt, people hurling insults at cc and the book fans, while pretending to be perfect people themselves, when they are definitely not. I completely agree with you about people growing, people being human, etc. I also think that you’re correct on the characters of the show being unproblematic cinnamon rolls, so much so that the plot has taken the strain of this effort. I’m repeating this too much—but I want to get my point across.

People aren’t perfect. That’s what makes them people. That’s what makes plot. So if we constantly want people to absolutely perfect in every way—we’re going to end up with a long boring life with no dips or heights. (Which is the direction of the show, I think.)

Every time a show runner messes up, or a character does something considered to be problematic, the fandom goes mental, and you’re absolutely right in the fact that the show runners etc are scared of the fandom, because I’ve seen the effects of this fandom uproar, and the show runners have to balance all this while trying to run a show with good plot, which is not happening. (It’s the same in other fandoms—take the voltron fandom for a good example).

I also think that the book fandom are too hard on the show at points, which I would I say I was. I think we generally respect the show/people who enjoy the show as a whole.

It’s awful that the fandom has driven people to stop watching the show and talking about it with people online and enjoying the good aspects of fandom culture. From what I’ve seen, I don’t think it’s going to get any better, so I’d say casually watching it is a good idea. (If all else fails, there are a couple people in the book fandom who watch the show as well, so you could start to chat with them!)

This turned into a long non coherent rant, but I hope my point got across.

Honestly Rey being either a Skywalker or a Solo has been dead for such a long time now, not only because of all the hints that those involved with the production have been dropping to disprove the theories, but because the canon timeline doesn’t allow for it without completely compromising the original trio’s integrity.

In Bloodline, a canon novel revolving around Leia taking place around six years before TFA, we learn that Ben was travelling with Luke up until it was exposed to the public that Leia was the daughter of Darth Vader. She had (understandably) wanted to take this secret to the grave, but the news had left everyone in shock– especially Ben who had no prior knowledge to being Vader’s grandson. He must have been devastated and confused, causing him to fall to the dark side during a moment of weakness.

Rey Solo is not only dead because neither Han nor Leia recognized their daughter in TFA, but throughout Bloodline Leia gives no hints to having ever had another child. Her thoughts always lead to Han or Ben, and when the news of Vader broke out, she rushed to send a message to Ben trying to explain it to him before anyone else got the chance to. She never thought about a supposed second child. Again this book is canon material and there would be some major continuity errors if the thought of her ‘lost daughter’ never crossed her mind.

Rey Skywalker is also dead with Bloodline because Rey was abandoned on Jakku roughly 15 years ago, whereas the destruction of Luke’s temple and Ben’s defection happened only 6 years ago. If Rey was Luke’s daughter, that would mean he abandoned her on a dangerous planet and then continued to research Jedi lore and train Ben, his nephew. It makes absolutely no sense and compromises Luke’s character. I know– and expect, Luke to be far more cynical  and morally grey in TLJ, but that’s because his confidence in himself has been shattered from his failures and Ben’s fall to the dark side.

These theories have been dead for so long and I’m not sure why they’re still so largely accepted in the fandom. I now that most fans tend to stick to just watching the films, but even if that’s the case, TFA itself makes it quite clear she isn’t related to our former heroes.

Two Americans in Cordonia, Prologue (Liam/MC, Drake/MC)

Two Americans in Cordonia
By Misha

Disclaimer- Not mine. I’m just borrowing them for a little while and will return them when I am finished.

Author’s Notes- @blue-sappir sent me a request asking for a story where both Amelia and Eleanor ended up in Cordonia. She asked for a one shot but I read the request and knew I wanted to make a longer story out of it because it was such an intriguing idea. So this is a rewrite of The Royal Romance, Book 1 where both Eleanor and Amelia end up in Cordonia. I write my TRR fanfic in first person generally and will switch back and forth between Eleanor and Amelia’s PoVs.

Pairing- Liam/Eleanor, Drake/Amelia

Rating- PG (might be higher in later chapters)

Summary- When Maxwell approaches Eleanor with the offer to sponsor her, he agrees to let her bring a friend with her.

Words- 379

Prologue

Eleanor

I stared at Maxwell, considering his offer. Could I really accept it? Go off with some stranger to a foreign country where I knew no one? “Can I bring someone with me?” I asked impulsively, “ I mean, I am going to a foreign country, I’d feel better if I had someone I knew with me.”

He thought about it. “I guess… I mean, they wouldn’t be a suitor, of course, but I don’t see the problem in another guest.” He smiled at me, “if someone objects, I bet I can Liam to smooth things over, he’s going to be so thrilled to see you.”

I blushed, hoping Maxwell was right. The previous night had been something out of a fairytale. Now I was going to get a chance to live that fairytale. I knew it was crazy, but I had felt an instant connection to Liam. I felt like we had met for a reason and the fact that Maxwell was offering me this opportunity seemed like a sign that Liam and I were destined to be together.

“But you have to work fast,” Maxwell cautioned, “we don’t have time, so pick who you want to ask.”

I paused for a moment, considering the two possibilities. I could ask my cousin Evie, but she had just lined up a new job and was excited about her own adventures and honestly, there was no one in my life who craved adventures more than my friend Amelia.

I grabbed my phone, want a free trip to Europe and the adventure of a lifetime?

I got an immediate response: Yes!

I texted back. Meet me at my place ASAP. I’ll fill you in. We leave in an hour.

I expected questions or something but instead, all I got was sounds like fun! I laughed, that was Amelia, she was never one to pass up an adventure.

I turned to Maxwell, “my friend is going to meet us at my apartment. Her name is Amelia Grant and she’s a lot of fun and very adventurous.”

Maxwell grinned, “sounds like my kind of girl. I can’t wait to meet her.” He waved to the car he had waiting, “but now we have to hurry, we have a plane to catch and an adventure to start!”

awillbedeleted  asked:

I heard somewhere that Mal and Ben were having dreams of each other before Mal came to Auradon, further confirming their true love. If this is true, WHY IS DISNEY ADVERTISING THIS MALXHARRY CRAP knowing well enough they aren't endgame? It's a waste of time, money and character development in the cases of: Harry, Mal, Uma, Ben and low-key Evie, because according to Dove's HC, Evie replaced Uma, which isn't true if you read the first book. I can't believe Disney is putting all this on the line.

Tbh, Disney don’t give a fuck about the books- they literally said the books, movies and Wicked World were separate canons- meaning they’ll just fuck up the films all they like.

Also- even if the books aren’t connected to the movies- the ship doesn’t make sense still as film 1 confirmed Mal never had a boyfriend or knew what love was.

Lord….Dove just had to drag Evie in that mess didn’t she…..

I literally can believe anything with Disney nowadays…

Hi loves!

It’s mid-October and I’m kinda in a reading slump, I miss reading YA, I’ve been reading too much NA lately (which is my go-to genre when I’m in a reading slump). 

I want to read some books that have been in my TBR forever:

  • The Raven Cycle (I’m so freaking intimidated to read this, I don’t even know why I haven’t picked it up)
  • The Diviners (because the third book is finally out, but I need to re-read the first 2, because I’ve forgotten a lot of things)

  • Three Dark Crowns (I kinda want a dark YA fantasy, and the second book is already out)

  • Wonder Woman Warbringer (I can’t believe I haven’t read this, it’s my favorite superheroine and my favorite YA author, WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?!)

  • ACOWAR (Yes, I’ve heard some bad things, so I’m not as excited for it as I was when I finished ACOMAF, but I still want to see what happens to everyone)

  • Windwitch (what’s wrong with me that I haven’t read the sequel of one of my favorite fantasy books of last year?)

  • Dreams of Gods and Monsters (in order to read the last book in the DOSAB trilogy I’d need to re-read the first 2 and I think I’m procastinating that)

  • Stranger the Dreamer (I’m forcing myself to finish DOSAB before getting into this one)

  • The Star- Touched Queen (I’ve heard so many good things about this duology, but I never pick it up as my first choice when I’m perusing my TBR)

  • Hollow City (I watched the movie of Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children around this time last year and loved it, so I went and bought the boxset but I only read the first book, I need to continue with this series)

  • Crooked Kingdom (I read the spoiler for the death of one of the Dregs and I never got over it, it’s time to move on and read the conclusion to one of my favorite books of all times)

  • A Darker Shade of Magic (I’ve never read any Victoria Schwab books, what even?!)

What should I read next??? Please vote!!!! Whats the best book to read in October?

So this beauty arrived today in the mail and honestly I wasn’t initially even going to buy it. That B&N interview with Joel Enos left a bad taste in my mouth and I didn’t want the money I pay for these volumes to go in his pocket so I made a promise to myself to not buy this when it comes out. I ended up breaking that promise after season 3 of the anime was announced, because whatever Viz does is nothing compared to what Pierrot is capable of and I didn’t even care anymore. Also, I guess it’ll look nice in my shelf and Urie is in it so it’s worth it right?

Anyway, to get to the point, I read it, ended up on the credits page at the end of the book and guess what I saw there…

They replaced him.

Originally posted by rainhagretchen

book tag!

I was tagged by @demidorks​! Thank you Giu <333

First Crush on a Fictional Character

Cedric Diggory (I know you said the exact same thing but like. Mood)

Book That Made You Cry

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (oh shush haters)

Book That Was Spoiled For You

Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins

First Time You Fell in Love with a Book

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone by J.K. Rowling

First Time You Couldn’t Stop Smiling Because of a Book/Character

probably Amos Daragon by Bryan Perro (that’s a thing from Quebec)

First Person Who Had a Real Impact on Your Reading

My 3rd grade friends (then my 6th grade teacher)

People I Tag: @undeadnymph @annabathtime @gr33kg0ds @preatorpercy @spookeeith @sallyjacson & whoever wants to do it! :)

anonymous asked:

Megs! Just had an idea! If the buy you a coffee $3 is at least £2.81 then you can buy a secondhand book on amazon? so people could recommend a book for you, send you the dosh and you could get it if you want??

Thats a lovely sentiment but its a commitment, which is what im avoiding! i would feel pressured to read the book and potentially feedback and honestly i dont have the time or energy

i like Ko-Fi because there’s no obligation, people can just choose to support or not support + its fine either way but i dont have to give or owe anything yknow?

Im using the money to save for a weighted lap pad to help improve my ability to focus + get things done + help me feel more settled during the day
  • Slytherin: There's this really great show I think you should check out!
  • Ravenclaw: Okay, I will.
  • Slytherin: *three years later* Oh, did you like that show by the way?
  • Ravenclaw: Oh, I haven't started it yet.
  • Slytherin: Are you fucking kidding me?

Ah. That’s where the beginning of the end begun, kids.

Anne, please stop doing that.

ok, edit added later (of the 22/09/17, today): guys, don’t insult her when you reblog this post. Yes, this is a very bad decision. Ok? But this doesen’t mean that she is a bad person. A tumblr user in one of the many reblogs said that Anne commented this post saying that now she wants the help of an editor. Even though I’ve checked the comment section of this fb post without finding this famous Anne’s comment, I want to believe that now she is working with an editor and I want to have faith in this. The point of this post was my will to express the disappointment towards Anne’s decision because this was the reason why this beautiful series got a lot of mistakes in the latest books. Stop. No bullying. 
I would feel very bad if she starts to feel miserable reading us. 
And yes, I know that her behavior towards the fandom (in the past) wasn’t good, but when I post something positive or negative that she has done, I want costructive criticism or a not-insulting sentence. 

(If my english is bad, I’m sorry. I’m not a native speaker)

Taking textbook notes is a chore. It’s tedious and boring and sometimes challenging, but hopefully these tips will help you improve your skill and shorten the time it takes you to do textbook notes!

Give yourself time: Realistically, you can’t knock out 30 pages of notes in 20 minutes. Take your time with textbook notes so they’re a good studying tool in the future. The general rule is to take how many pages you have to do and multiply it by 5: that’s how many minutes it’ll take you to do the notes.

  • Also, divide you notes up into manageable chunks to increase your productivity. I am personally a huge fan of using pomodoro timers, and I adjust the intervals for however long I need to.

Skim before you start taking notes: If time is an issue, don’t read your 40 page in depth before even picking up a pen, but make sure you know what you’re reading about by skimming a bit ahead of your notes. Read over section titles, and look at charts, maps, or graphs. Writing and highlighting as you read the chapter for the first time isn’t effective because you don’t know if a sentence will be important or not, so make sure you’re reading a paragraph or section in advance before writing.

Use the format they give you in the book to help take your notes: In a lot of textbooks, there will be a mini outline before the chapter itself that shows all the headings and subheadings. Those will be your guidelines! I find this super helpful because long chapters can be daunting to go into without any structure. If you don’t have one of those, use the headings and subheadings provided for you. If you haven’t already been doing this, it will help you so much.

Read actively: It’s so easy to “read” a textbook without digesting any information, but that is the last thing you want to do. Not only does it make taking notes a million times harder, but you’ll be lost in class discussions because you didn’t understand the reading. To keep from passively reading, highlight, underline, star any important information in the book itself.

  • Have a color coding system for highlighting or underlining and write down a key somewhere (here’s a few that you can adjust for your needs: x,x)
  • Use sticky notes or tabs to mark any questions or important points to come back to

Summarize important information and paraphrase: When taking the actual notes, don’t copy down full sentences word for word. Not only does writing full sentences waste a lot of time, it’s not an effective way to learn. If you can paraphrase the information, then you understand it. It’s also easier to study notes which are in your own words instead of textbook academia writing.

Be selective: You shouldn’t be writing down every fact that comes up in your textbook. If a fact ties into the bigger topic and provides evidence, then it’s probably something to keep, but you don’t need every piece of supplemental information (but do make sure you always write down the vocab). Learn your teacher’s testing style to help you decide what to write down. Could this be on the quiz/test? If the answer is yes, make sure you write it down.

Learn to abbreviate: Just like writing full sentences, writing out full words will waste time. Implement some shortenings (make sure to use ones that you’ll understand later!) into your notes. Some common ones are: b/c=because, gov=government, w/o=without, and here’s a great list of a ton of examples of abbreviations and shortenings.

Answer margin and review questions: A lot of textbooks have margin questions on every page or so that sum up what’s really important about that information. Make sure not to skip them because they’re really helpful for understanding. Write them down and answer them clearly in your notes. Most textbooks also have review questions after the chapter that check for reading comprehension, so make sure to answer those because they’ll show you if you really understood the chapter.

Don’t skip over visual sources: Maps, diagrams, illustrations, charts, and any other visuals in textbooks are so helpful. If you’re a visual learner, these things will be so essential to you and how you understand what you’re reading. Charts, tables, and diagrams sometimes also summarize information, so if you’re a visual learner it might benefit you to copy those down instead of writing it out.

  • Add visuals if it’ll help you: As said above, copying down charts, tables, illustrations, or diagrams can be super helpful for visual learners. They’re clear and concise, so pay attention to them.

Write your notes in a way that’s effective and makes sense to you: Mindmaps, Cornell notes, or plain outline notes are all really good forms of notetaking. Find which one works best for you to understand them and which one is most effective for your class, and use it (stuff on mindmaps and cornell notes).

Combine your class and textbook notes: If you rewrite your class notes, add in information you think is relevant from your textbook notes. Mark anything both your book and teacher said were important–you don’t want to forget any of that. If you don’t rewrite class notes, then put stars next to anything repeated.

“So, where’s your LGBT fiction?”

It’s no big secret that a large portion of the LGBT fiction market is online. Many books aren’t even available in print, which I know frustrates some readers (and authors!) who would like to find books in bookstores, libraries, etc. And heck, some people just like paperbacks.

But they aren’t in bookstores. Not in significant numbers, anyway. Even as larger publishers branch out into LGBT, they’re sticking to ebooks.

After talking to publishers, agents, authors, and booksellers over the years, I’ve come to understand one of the primary reasons for this is, quite simply, that queer lit doesn’t sell in bookstores.

With that in mind, I went on a mission this week. I visited five bookstores around Seattle and Portland - Powell’s, Half Price Books, and Barnes & Noble - and I asked the same question: “Where would I find the LGBT fiction?”

Y’all.

Y’ALL.

This is the LGBT Fiction and Non-Fiction section at a Barnes & Noble. The entire section.

But you know what’s extra aggravating?

This is where I found it:

I mean, great. Glad it’s near LGBT & Gender Identity (Though it’s literally the bottom shelf. The top three are Native American and African American non-fiction, which apparently are part of Cultural Studies but don’t warrant a sign despite occupying ¾ of the space…? IDK.)

Signage weirdness notwithstanding, look what section I’m in. I mean, if you’re looking for LGBT Fiction, you’d expect to look…in the….fiction section, right?

No. It’s in the non-fiction section. This is the view of the fiction section from the LGBT section:

Those are Graphic Novels, followed by SFF, followed by Romance. So if you’re in the mood for Gay Romance, you’re not even in the right ZIP code if you start perusing the romance section.

And if I wander over to the fiction section and look toward the LGBT section…

That far wall? The shelf with the LGBT books is perpendicular to that.

See what I’m getting at? There are literally only three ways someone will find the LGBT fiction section at Barnes & Noble:

1. Ask. Which is fabulous for people who are closeted, kids who aren’t comfortable asking, and people who don’t even know the genre exists.

2. Stumble across it. Which you’re totally going to do if you’re looking for a novel because you’d absolutely wander out of the fiction section to find one.

3. Already know where it is.

Can’t imagine why LGBT fiction doesn’t sell.

At Powell’s, the situation wasn’t any better. Powell’s is enormous. It’s multi-level with color-coded rooms because it’s just….huge. I made a valiant attempt to find the LGBT Fiction on my own, but after a full hour of browsing, including scouring all the rooms containing fiction, I finally had to go ask.

There was a reason I couldn’t find it - it wasn’t in any of the rooms dominated by fiction.

It was in the room with all the history books, tucked back behind Military History. Because God knows that’s where I go looking when I want some LGBT fiction.

To their credit, Powell’s had an impressively large section, and it was decorated with a gigantic rainbow sign….but what good does that do anyone if they can’t find the section?

Finally, Half Price Books. Behold, the entire Gay & Lesbian Fiction section:

And yep, that’s the non-fiction section. The Gender Studies and Anthropology section. All the non-queer fiction was downstairs. Not even on the same floor.

So…you know…I think I might’ve figured out why LGBT Fiction “doesn’t sell very well in print,” and what a shock….it’s not because people don’t want to read it.

Just in case anyone wants to try me today.

This isn’t “overreacting” or “making a big deal out of nothing” this is a genuine problem and I’m tired of skinny people deciding what is and isn’t offensive to fat people. White people don’t get to declare what is racist, Straight people don’t get to decide what is homophobic, and Cis people don’t get to decide what is transphobic.

So, that being said, your skinny idealized-by-society selves do not get to decide when fat people are experiencing fatphobia.

My entire god damn life has been a fat joke, I would walk down halls and people would make jokes like “fatty want a donut” and while waiting outside the classroom for the teacher to show up would say “try not to eat us.”

I watch shows, listen to music, read comics and books to escape; not to see one of the very few characters representing me to be subjected to the same fucking stereotype placed upon me by society.

The stereotype that; because I’m fat my only motivation, my only goal, and my only desire in life, is food. That my only passion is to cook. That my only source of happiness comes from eating.

And it’s fucking upsetting, and even more so when it’s brushed off as not being an issue.

Skinny characters get multifacted personalities. The jokester who is self-conscious. The reserved loner who has a temper but is actually vulnerable and going through an identity crisis and experiences racism. The geek who is seen as calculated and a walking wikipedia but actually has feelings and is missing their loved ones and learns what true friendship is. The delicate princess that is so dainty and light yet embraces those things and learns to fight and kill a man with her bare hands if she so desired.

But what do fat people get?

Either tall hulking brute that is overly agressive and overpowered. Or the super soft and squishy fat guy that loves everyone and is obsessed with food. Maybe, just maybe, sometimes we will get the tolerable asshole who makes dick jokes and is overly cocky but secretly kind (90% of the time they’re gamers).

So to see a character that could also have a family he misses, or has lost. A character that could also relate with racial issues. A character motivated by his teamates, that used to be nauseous just riding in his lion that now blows up ships just for tailgaiting and is strong enough to probably carry multiple people by himself, that would sacrifice himself in a heartbeat to save a stranger let alone those he loves…

Boiled down to a shitty joke where he frantically chases the smell of a pie to get to the center of a maze as motivation.

Makes me want to fucking cry, because my one safe space, my one escape; is using the same type of shitty jokes that kids used while shoving me in locker rooms and snapping rubber bands against my skin in class.

Though I’m so sorry for “over reacting” and inconveniencing you.

I’m so sorry for speaking out about a character that you don’t care about.

But more than anything, I’m sorry that you’re truly that heartless to tell hundreds of people who are being genuinely hurt to basically “get over it.”

I read YA because if I wanted to hear about bills and mid life crises then I would talk to my dad

I’m rereading IT because I liked the new movie and haven’t read the book since I was in middle school, and I forgot that Stephen King is… like this. Hey, SK??? HEY, DAWG??? I don’t need to know that Stanley’s wife is sexually attracted to the Family Feud host because of his cool watch. Her husband’s up there killing himself and you’re like, “Awwwwwwwwww, she horny for that watch tho.” I don’t want to hear “terribly sexy” in reference to a watch unless I’m reading bad Back to the Future fan fiction. You know that joke about how what if people described dicks in novels the way they describe breasts? My man’s got you. He’s an equal opportunity dickscriber. He’s fluent in dick braille, in fact. He can read your weenie wrinkles like a boardwalk psychic if your pants are tight enough, I guess.