because i see characters as complex and the product of a situation

bts personality analysis: yoongi

yoongi is hard to analyse because his personality is so complex. he has a lot of sides that he shows the camera — the sleepy, the ‘swag’, the goofy. i think people misinterpret yoongi and see him as ‘lazy’ which is something that i cant even fathom thinking. we only see glimpses of this; when he is doing logs or vlives or at fanmeets — yoongi is the most passionate, kindest person i think ive ever seen. he has this desire so deep inside of him and in his mixtape, you could hear it. he has gone through so much to be where he is today and that makes him empathetic because he is aware of peoples struggles. yoongi is understanding. yoongi loves so deeply but doesn’t like to show it so he is perceived as cold. he cares so much about everything but he cant show it so he is perceived as careless. yoongi is irony. he is passion and desire and kindness wrapped all into one small body. please realise that yoongi cannot express his emotions as well as other members, so he puts his stories and thoughts into his songs.

yoongis personality is really layered, and i think that only a select few people that yoongi sees fit would be able to open him up and see all those layers. i feel like it would be hard to befriend yoongi because he seems to be selective in choosing who he likes and you have to be able to understand who he is and how he would react. but when you start to truly get to know him, yoongi is probably the most affectionate and clingy member in the group. he would be that boyfriend that acts like he doesnt want to be around you but really he would bring you in closer (literally in every analysis ive gone on a rant abt them i need TO STICK TO THE DAMN TOPIC AT  HAND). 

yoongi is very smart. he knows how emotions work and has developed a strong aura for himself which is very hard to do. although he is intelligent, he has a hard time with spontaneity. he needs to have a plan and needs to know everything that he is doing. in his vlive with hoseok, we could see the juxtaposition of their personalities: hoseok really just opened the face mask and put it on, but yoongi read the entire package front to back and followed the steps exactly as it was written. its a simple interaction but it is very telling about how yoongi reacts to situations. he is calculated without the cunning.

yoongi and jungkook are a relationship that is hard to define - i find that most jungkook related relationships are like this but ill get more into that in his analysis. both yoongi and jungkook have trouble expressing themselves so it wont be the most overtly affectionate relationship but i see them both having a lot of respect for one another and just a chill duo who just wanna have a relaxed time. yoongi and taehyung are a fun pair to analyse because they are so different; yoongi values realism and taehyung values optimism. they both see the world in juxtaposing ways and thats why i think that they would be a good pair since i believe that opposites do attract. yoongi and jimin are one of my favourite relationships in bangtan because jimin just wants to please yoongi and yoongi likes to be pleased so its just ?? so perfect??? i rlly dont have much more to say but i just love yoonmin. yoongi and hoseok are my #1 go-to relationship in bangtan. they are the most complex members and together they just fit together so perfectly, as if there personalities were made to be mended together. yoonseok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i lvoe them. yoongi and namjoon are a genius pair. their combined creativity makes for a fierce track and i can only imagine the products that they have in the folders on their laptops. they both have such immense thoughts that together i feel like it would be too intense to sit in a room with them.  jin is most pliant when around yoongi, since yoongi’s character is pretty intense, i wouldn’t have thought that jin would be roommates with him; it just doesn’t seem like a good fit. but it really is kind of perfect. jin has the ability to adapt his personality and knows yoongi’s boundaries and that’s why i think he is the best person to be yoongi’s roommate.

min yoongi - infp/pisces. passionate, emotional, competent, perfectionist.

kim seokjin

Mixed Black African Girl (Cameroonian/French)

I’m a mixed black african girl who grew up and lived most of her life in Cameroon, in Central Africa. My dad is half-white (french) and half-black (cameroonian), and my mom is 100% cameroonian. There’s little to no black african characters in popular fiction, which has always bothered me, and it would be so nice to read about someone like me for once.

  • Culture and food

Cameroon is a country created during colonization, with borders defined by europeans. Because of that, Cameroon is actually made of 200 ethnic groups, each of them having their own language and culture. So the culture and daily habits vary a lot depending on which region of Cameroon you are in. In the big cities, though, everyone is mingled no matter where they’re from. However, so many different ethnic groups cohabiting together often causes tension. There are also a lot of stereotypes about every ethnic group.

I grew up in the central and coastal areas of the country, and I’m Bassa. The Bassa are one of the main ethnic groups in Cameroon. If your parents are from two different ethnic groups, it is decided that you officially belong to your father’s ethnic group. My mother is Bakoko but my father is Bassa, so I’m the latter. When I meet another Cameroonian, two of the first questions we usually ask each other are : What are you (meaning, what’s your ethnic group) ? and Where is you village ?

Villages are very important in the Cameroonian culture. Your village is where your father’s ancestors were born. Even if you’re not born there, you usually have grandparents or great-uncles or family friends living there, and if you have enough money to do so you must regularly visit your village. And usually, when people earn enough money, they send money to their village so that people living there can have a better life, build more houses and schools etc.

Cameroonian food is very diverse, and varies depending on the region. The national dish is Ndolé, a dish made with ndolé leaves, stewed nuts, and meat (fish, beef or shrimps). Other common foods are bobolo and miondo (food made out of fermented manioc), soya (spicy grilled meat on skewers), and plantain. My dad is half-french though, so at home we eat almost as much french food as cameroonian food (crème brûlée, shepherd’s pie, beef bourguignon, A LOT of bread and cheese).

  • Language

There are hundreds of different languages, but the official languages are French and English. Cameroon was colonized by France and England so Northern Cameroon mainly speaks english and central/southern Cameroon mainly speaks french. Most people also speak their ethnic group’s language. I don’t know how to speak Bassa, though, because neither do my parents. When me and my siblings were kids, our dad asked our baby-sitter to teach us, but she could only do so much and I only remember a few words.

  • Beauty Standards

Like most countries, there is a lot of colorism in Cameroon based on European beauty standards. When you’re a woman, the lighter you are, the prettier and more desirable you are considered. Dark skinned women are often mocked and considered not as pretty. A lot of people, mainly women but also men, use dangerous products to lighten their skin. Internalized racism and white beauty standards are very insidious, and a lot of people want to look like white people, including me when I was younger. As a kid I remember wishing i was a pretty blonde-haired blue-eyed white girl like the heroines of the books i was reading. Growing up I stopped wishing that, but I relaxed and straightened my hair a lot, wanting to have long straight hair without realizing that it was still an attempt to look like the ideal version of a white girl. I’m sure that if I had more black female characters to relate to when I was growing up, I wouldn’t have spend so many years hating myself without even realizing I was doing it.

Also, Cameroonians usually consider thick, curvy women to be the ideal beauty standard. But being thin is still an ideal broadcast by the media (especially that american and european media are heavily broadcast and consumed in Cameroon) so most women still diet a lot and go to the gym to lose weight.

  • Clothing

Women wear a lot of skirts and dresses, be it casual or for work. Most cameroonian schools have uniforms and mandatory hairstyles (either cornrows or short shaved hair).

Elderly people often wear more traditional clothes and outfits. The most prominent traditional item of clothing is the Kaba. The Kaba is a long dress made of wax fabric and other materials and is owned by pretty much every woman. The dress looks different depending on the situation : the Kaba you wear when you stay at home is usually very long and very loose, the Kaba you wear during official/formal events is more tight-fitting and stylized, etc.

  • Dating and Relationships

I’ve never dated anyone, but when I was in high school none of my friends ever told their parents they were seeing someone. Having your parents know about and meet the person you’re dating after only a few weeks or months is something that just doesn’t happen (unless someone gets pregnant). It’s when things get serious that you introduce them to your family. Also, a lot of parents would prefer their children to marry someone from the same ethnic group.

Homosexuality is still illegal there, and you can go to jail for being gay.

  • Home/Family life

My parents are still happily married, and I have 3 siblings. My parents are both close to their siblings, and I’m close to mine. Me and my siblings grew up with our cousins, we were always at each other’s houses. I pretty much consider most of my cousins as extra siblings. We have a very big extended family and every day I discover new distant cousins, aunts, great-uncles etc. My dad being half-french, when I was growing up we sometimes went to France during summer to visit his relatives living there.

In Cameroon, most people who have enough money to do so send their children to study abroad once they’ve graduated high school. I’m currently living in France for my studies, and most of my high school friends are also going to college in France, England, Canada, Brussels, South Africa etc.

  • Identity issues

Despite being only ¼ white, I’m very light-skinned. My siblings being much darker skinned, when I was a kid I thought I was adopted (i’m not, it’s just genetics). Cameroon being a black country, when someone is visibly mixed and light-skinned as i am, most people just label them “white”. A lot of people would refer to me as “the white” and it always really hurt me. My family wouldn’t understand why i was so angry and hurt, they’d say “they don’t mean anything by it, it’s just that you’re light” but the fact is it made me feel like i don’t belong. I’m cameroonian, i’ve lived in Cameroon almost my entire life, i’m black, and still some people see me as “other”, they see me as white. And so for a long time, I didn’t dare to call myself black, I’d say “I’m biracial” or “I’m mixed” instead because I somehow felt like a fraud. But I’m black and not white-passing at all, and I still experience racism abroad (but I’m aware I have a lot more privilege than dark skinned people).

  • Daily struggles

So I’m currently living in France. On one hand, sometimes white people are racist toward me, or just totally obnoxious and ignorant, trying to touch my natural hair and thinking that people in Cameroon don’t have computers or whatever. On the other hand, when I randomly meet other cameroonians and we start talking, they always assume that because i’m mixed i’ve lived my entire life in France and i don’t know anything about Cameroon. And there’s nothing wrong with being a child of immigrants and not knowing the country your parents or grandparents came from, but i know that if i wasn’t visibly mixed they wouldn’t question the fact that i know Cameroon and lived there my entire life.

  • Misconceptions

Because of how the media depict African countries, a lot of people think that everyone in Africa is extremely poor and starving, that we don’t have electricity and internet and that everyone lives in huts. Which is so false. We have rich people and poor people, we have huge modern cities and regular cities and small villages with huts, almost everyone has access to a tv and internet, etc.

  • Things I’d like to see less of

Cameroon and other african countries being depicted as poor unfortunate countries where everyone is starving and illiterate and waiting for the generous white people to save us. What we need is for people to see us as the humans we are, and to allow us to grow in peace.

  • Things I’d like to see more of

Black african characters being written as the complex human beings we are. Shy black african characters. Nerdy and hella smart black african characters. Mixed black african characters who struggle with their identity. LGBTQ black african characters.

  • Tropes/Stereotypes I’m tired of seeing.

The “savage”, “uncivilized” african. African characters who are aggressive, dumb and shout all the time. The poor africans in need of saving by white people.

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Tumblr Needs To Chill: Let People Like Hamilton!

I’m so tired of seeing people being so rude to the Hamilton fandom. Especially when the Hamilton fandom are just minding their own business. For example, I’ll be scrolling and see a post sharing interesting or funny facts about the founding fathers. And there is always a guarantee that someone will hijack that post or send anon messages like, “The founding fathers were slave owners, so you’re a terrible human being for liking Hamilton or American History.” 

And you know what? I’ve had it. I have several responses to these accusations.

  • “The founding fathers were slave owners and you keep ignoring that.”

Let’s get the big one out of the way. Most of the founding fathers were slave owners. No one is denying or defending that. However, most of the fandom (and people who study American History) generally think ‘”That’s really disappointing to know… I wish things were different. America would have been a better place if these important figures were abolitionists.” But after that, they continue on to study more about the good and bad in history. That horrific part of history will always be there. And that will never change. BUT. BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT! Just because we don’t talk about it all the live long day does not mean we don’t acknowledge it. WE. KNOW.

However, there are so many amazing things the founding fathers did that can not be ignored. Like it or not, all of these people played an important part in creating a whole country basically from scratch. We don’t ignore the fact that they owned slaves, but we also don’t ignore the great things they’ve done to create a new nation either. Both are huge factors in our history. And we acknowledge both. 

We don’t see them as gods with no flaws. We see the founding fathers as they were. Real people, with real complex personalities and issues. They were right about a lot of things. And horribly wrong about others. They both did great and terrible things. Does the good justify the bad? Of course not! Everyone knows that! But just because people focus on the positive does not mean we diminish or ignore the negative! WE. KNOW. Okay, next!

“The musical glorifies slave owners!!! The show is racist and you’re racist if you like it!”

Did you watch the same musical as I did? Because in the show, Hamilton hated Jefferson because Jefferson owned slaves. They don’t ignore the issue or diminish it by pretending it never happened. Rather, they show that it was a thing and not every one supported it. However, they show the complex situations regarding slavery at the time. For example, it was mentioned in the beginning that Hamilton started career as a trading charter… which included ships with slaves from time to time. That’s messed up. What’s worse is that Hamilton was a poor 14 year old kid with no family and no way to support himself at the time. If he wasn’t given the job, he would have starved and died in the Caribbean. It would have been a horrifying job for an adult, but he was still a child. A child who seen the horrors of slavery with his own eyes. That’s terrible! But seeing those acts started his abolitionist worldview from an early age. They present in the opening song the complex childhood he had and you see how that influenced Hamilton when he fights against Jefferson later in life. And from the “Cabinet Battle 1″ song you can see that he is against slavery. Just because it’s not the main focus of the show, that doesn’t mean the issue is completely ignored. And if you want a more bold example, let’s talk about John Laurens.


JOHN LAURENS IN REAL LIFE AND IN THE SHOW WAS A WHITE GUY THAT PUBLICLY STOOD AGAINST SLAVERY. That’s one of the major focuses on his character! He has an entire verse in the second song the show about wanting to free slaves and mentions this goal multiple times within the show! And when he *spoilers* dies in the show, it’s treated as a huge tragedy because his dream of freeing the black troops died with him. It’s treated as a horrible tragedy.  And it was that event that caused Hamilton to kick start his political career because his best friend failed to accomplish that goal.  And after this event, Hamilton is way more vocal about the issue in the second act. He was NOT a slave owner and acted as a voice against the horrible common practice of his time. If the show did not have Laurens as a strong voice against slavery or if they had written him out of the show, then okay. I can kind of see the anger. But Laurens acts as a modern voice to those times. So stop treating every character as a racist when the show CLEARLY PLACES HISTORICAL CHARACTERS WHO WERE AGAINST SLAVERY IN THE FOREFRONT OF THE SHOW! 

And George Washington? If you watch any clip of the finale, when Eliza mentions how she fought against slavery, look at George. He hangs his head low and backs away ashamed. Because Washington could have done more. That’s. The. Point. The show never ignores the fact that slavery was an issue of their time. And they strongly say in the end that these people could have done more for those people! If the show really glorified slave owners they would have left out the complex aspects of Hamilton’s childhood from the show, completely taken out all mentions of slavery from the get go (or written Laurens out of the story), or deny that the founding fathers owned slaves within the show itself. But they acknowledge it and mention multiple times that slavery is a bad thing and the show presents itself in a sorrowful “we wish things were different” way.

Speaking of the show… apparently Hamilton the Musical as a whole is considered racist to some people. How? The show is the only one I can think of that stood for including many different kinds of ethnicities in one production. Seriously. I’ve never seen a show that is so inclusive of all actors from all ethnicities for the entire cast! Hamilton gave all kinds of actors a chance to be included. The show celebrates the creation of America by including a viewpoint of what America looks like today. How is that racist?

Is it because black people are playing slave owners? If that’s the case, then the point went completely over your head, my friend! Anyone could have played Jefferson. Anyone. So why isn’t Jefferson played by a white guy? Because, that is too common in modern media. There are soooo many movies about slavery that has the owner as a white guy, because yes, that’s what happened. Now, while this is historically accurate, there has been so many slavery stories in media that upon repeated viewings, the meaning of the message risks losing impact because today’s audience is so used to seeing the white guy owning the black guy. 

HOWEVER, when we see the black guy owning someone of the same ethnicity, it visually solidifies the anti-slavery message in a new and impactful way. The whole point is when you see a black man playing Jefferson, you’re supposed to feel a disconnect. Jefferson owned slaves. But we see him as a black man being a slave owner. We are supposed to feel uncomfortable because we see that they are the same. The same. As in, THE SAME HUMAN RACE. By showing how ridiculous it is for a black man to own someone from his own ethnicity, we are given a new strong visualization of why slavery shouldn’t have happened in a way that has never been done before in recent year.

Also, how are people who like Hamilton racist? The Hamilton fandom has been so accepting of the diversity in the cast, it’s is mind blowing. I’ve seen people get angry because a black woman played Eponine in Les Mis. Or that a latino man portrayed The Phantom in an Andrew Lloyd Webber concert. But Hamilton? With every change to the cast, the fandom have been so supportive of diversity, regardless of who plays who. The show accepts anyone and everyone from every ethnicity and I fail to think of one other show that uses so much diversity. Hamilton has been accepted and celebrated by the majority of viewers because of this. And the fandom does wonders in showing broadway that diversity is something that should not be ignored, but celebrated.

“You’re advocating slavery by liking this show.”

That doesn’t make any sense. The actors don’t own slaves. Lin-Manuel Miranda doesn’t own slaves. There is no part in the show where someone tells someone that people should be slave owners. Most people who like Hamilton and American History do not fantasize about owning other people. Slavery is in the long distant past for most of the modern world! THANK GOD.

Again, most people who like American History or Hamilton are well aware of the good and the bad these people inhibited. They don’t deny the awful things these real people did, but they don’t ignore the good acts either. The founding fathers were real people. We don’t advocate everything they did. And we don’t treat them like perfect beings. The end.

“This actor supports an organization I don’t support, so they are evil and any show that uses them are evil too!”

I see this mindset all over Tumblr all the time. However, I’m starting to see it circulate within the same circles who keep harassing the Hamilton fandom.  So forgive me for the tangent, but this needs to be addressed as well.

Here’s a hypothetical situation. You have a friend. A close friend. One that has been with you through thick and thin over many years. And you just find out that they support an organization that you don’t. Do you cut off that friendship because of that one fact? Most people wouldn’t, because that friendship is too important to them to risk losing.

This should apply to the things you like. When you like a show, movie, an actor, a writer, or anything- there is always going to be something about that thing that people or even yourself will not like. It is literally impossible to have someone who will have the exact same mindset as you. But everyone has a personal reason why they support or advocate something. It is not up to you to change that. Now, people’s opinions can change, and you can help shape other people… but most of the time, they will continue to live their own lives beyond your control. You can never really know someone inside and out. Don’t drop people just because you have a different viewpoint.

This applies to actors too. People are saying Lin is a horrible person because he donated to Autism Speaks. So was it a huge campaign? Did he ever say that Autism Speaks is the cure for Autism? Did he try to rally a bunch of people to donate to this organization? Actually no. He made one tweet talking about how he donated for a friend’s cause. And people fail to mention that this tweet was made over four years ago. That’s right. These people are using one tweet from OVER FOUR YEARS AGO as justification to harass an entire fandom. If you actually read the tweet, the post was more about supporting his friend than the organization itself. A lot of people donate to organizations for a friend’s need without really reading into the organization itself. You do realize that people can be unaware about these corporations, right? For crying out loud, my mom just learned the truth about PETA. And people are still acting like he’s a spokesman for Autism Speaks. Which obviously he’s not. He made one post from four years ago. Four years is a long time and people tend to change opinions in that span of time. Has he made another post about Autism Speaks? No. It’s just that one post, so it was most likely a one and done deal to support his friend.  That’s hardly something to hold an eternal grudge over. Especially since it happened OVER FOUR YEARS AGO and he hasn’t made another post about it since!

The other reason why people hate Lin is because he used the N word once and “didn’t apologize.” Yet what people don’t reveal is he was quoting David Diggs for the Hamiltome audiobook. He was quoting David Diggs, the black actor who played Jefferson. It was a direct quote and Lin read it word for word as directed for the audio book. That’s it. It’s not like he uses the N word as a derogatory term in daily life. It was a one and done deal for a direct quote in an audiobook. There’s a difference between saying something out of your own accord and quoting someone, especially for an audiobook. Yes the quote was censored in the book, but when you have an audio book, it’s hard to edit a quote without an audio or visual context. In situations like this, the reader has to go by what the director wants. It’s not their choice what’s written or what they should say instead. They just read what’s given to them. That’s the job!  If anything, y’all should have been mad that the director didn’t add a *beep* noise in the editing room. 

What annoys me about the whole thing is that it takes one person to post something with exaggerated or misinformed content. And with Tumblr’s already “walking on eggshells” and “one strike, you’re out” mentality, it is ridiculously easy to get people to blindly hate, when most of those people won’t even check to see if that information is true! Or if it’s in the right context. People in general need to do their own research before spreading exaggerated or falsified information. It literally took me two minutes to look all this up. Do your own research before jumping to conclusions.

Getting back on track. My main point is this. With very very few exceptions, people (living or dead) are not gods or devils and shouldn’t be treated as such. They are humans with their own complicated problems that result in their own individual opinions and thought processes. We are not ignorant of the negative just because we enjoy the positive. We know people are going to make mistakes.They have made mistakes! They are going to do things you will not like. This is a fact that will never change no matter what. However, you can still like the positive things they do or did! It is not a crime to enjoy the positives of someone. That doesn’t mean you’re ignoring the negative. Appreciating a famous person (past or present) does NOT mean you support everything they do. So please just leave people alone!

In conclusion, American History enthusiasts and Hamilton the Musical fans
DO NOT advocate everything that our founding fathers did. 




Creators Misunderstanding Their Fan Base: Undertale

I love Undertale, so do many others. However, I love Undertale because of the fan base. I have met so many kind and determined individuals that I wouldn’t have met otherwise if not for Undertale. Many of these people are artists, and it’s nice to see the same characters drawn in so many different styles. Even better is when there is a story written about Undertale, a what if this happened instead of this? Great examples of this are Dreamtale, by @jokublog (currently not theirs more about that later), Glitchverse, by @camilaart, and Xtale/Underverse, by Jackei/@xtaleunderverse. There are many more alternate stories/universes I would love to share but I really want to focus on these two right now. As you may or may not know, both these creators make animations/comics based off their story lines, and they are incredible. The amount of effort that goes into each and every frame of animation is jaw dropping to say the least. The story is also pretty great compared to most, especially Glitchtale’s constant subversion of every expectation and Underverse’s imaginative plot and character portrayal are no small feat either. It’s immediately clear that a lot of effort goes into their work to make it as great as possible and create their animations fairly quickly. However, I’m not here to simply sing their praises because the title isn’t “Amazing Undertale Universes You Have To See To Believe” no, this is “Creators Misunderstanding Their Fan Base: Undertale” 

 Recently a story came out about Joku threatening to use her fan base against another person who was just giving feedback on a shirt that they made. This led to them deleting their blog and now it’s being held by a nice individual so that Joku can have the name back if she wants. Joku makes sure people know that she is getting lots of hate over this misbehavior of hers. She’s making it seem like her fan base is full of haters that demand comics every week and don’t care about the person behind the project at all. Her “fans” led her to deleting her blog that she had used for a while now, over one small incident. That’s. Not. True. Joku’s fans are passionate, without a doubt, but they have huge amounts of respect for the amount of work that goes into this complex narrative that Joku is almost always working on. Joku, you’re fans are there, making fan art, liking your posts, and sending positive words your way, but you don’t care about that, do you? You just want to show everyone that you can overcome the haters by yourself, but you can’t, nobody can on their own. You say you ignore the haters, but dealing with what I’ve heard people say about you in silence, isn’t a great idea. If you open up more to your audience, show your real fans that you still care about them, I have no doubt that there will be a shift in the types of people who view your content. I along with many others didn’t hate you for what you did, was it a bit uncalled for? Yea, a little bit, but that one incident with someone WHO’S ALREADY FORGIVEN AND APOLOGIZED FOR MAKING IT PUBLIC, shouldn’t have led to you deleting your blog. The blog is being held for you, your choices are to reset back to zero and build your blog all over again, or quit and leave everyone.

 Jackei, the creator of Xtale and Underverse, is passionate about her work. Her amazing narrative and intense animations make it a joy to experience through and through, but she has her flaws as well. One day you’ll get a hilarious shitpost from Jackei about how she got braces, the next a comic about how she is having to stand against her fans barrage of negativity. I’m saying it right now that there is a difference in HATING and CRITICIZING and it’s easy to tell which is which. Hate usually is opinionated, relying on the same feeling from others to help boost their opinion into more of a fact. Fans that criticize a work however often point out actual problems with the product they were presented with. Maybe the animation was a bit low quality in some places, or maybe the dialog didn’t add anything to the situation, but whatever it is its a real problem that they just shed light on for you. Those fans care, unlike the haters you insist are your fans. Many people really love your intense devotion to your work, making comics often along with incredible animations that have breathtaking moments a plenty, but it sucks when someone you hugely respect talks down to you. You make it clear that whenever you get hate you try to deal with it in silence, and for the most part if you are a strong enough person that works out really well for you. Not only does it improve your image as a creator but it makes fans think much much more of you as a person. However, you show us that side of you way too much, and its clear you want to be that person you portray yourself as. You’ve gotten much better about showing us that you can withstand the hate sent your way, and your shitposts/memes are always a joy to behold, but why not show off the better side of your fan base, the people who really care about you and your work. It’d make a difference in how you view your fans. Just remember Jackei, haters shout loud because they want others to hear them, but when a fan comments, they don’t even expect an answer from anyone.

 Camila is an incredible artist as well, creating a 20 minute animation in less than 4 months is unreal. On top of that the animations feature a standard of quality not usually seen in animations made in the same amount of time. However, Camila is known to harp on people for asking when the latest episode is going to come out. Her response is usually a meme or her telling them to chill and just wait. Camila has the opposite issue that Jackei does, she will show all the asks about when the episode is coming out, making it seem like that’s all her fan base cares about. That and her talking down to her fans often, sometimes calling them stupid for not understanding a small detail in the animation. She’s who Jackei strives to be, impervious to all hate sent her way. To be honest, it’s not the best way to act towards your fans, sometimes people honestly just want to know because they are hyped for the next episode. Especially with the amount of information Camila will spoil about the episode, when in reality it’s mostly misdirection to make hers fans come to one conclusion before the episode even starts, just so she can subvert everyone’s expectations in the end. It’s incredible how many times I knew what would happen just because I followed Camila’s tumblr, @camilaart. Camila, I desperately wanted to donate $50 to you on patreon after you lost part of your house because I desired to talk to the biggest inspiration in my life at the time. To be honest I still want to, but I’m only 15 and I have no income for which to donate to either of you, sorry /;-;/. Camila, your awe inspiring, I just wish you would act more mature and be more loyal to people. After what happened to Jackei you threw her under the bus, reblogging what she said just to garner it more exposure. It’s shocking how many people you turn on after someone comes out with something bad about that person, like Jackei and Ultima almighty. You’re getting much better though about pointing out positive things, like animators and artists who have almost no exposure on youtube, is pretty amazing. It’d be amazing though, if you could use the positives to detract haters instead of memes. You’re a role model for some people whether you want to believe it or not, and sometimes people take anything that role models say as undeniable fact. Your on the right path, please don’t reset again. 

(Everything I said are just my thoughts on these two amazing animators, I just really want to get these out their so that maybe they will both see this post and reflect on themselves as creators. I plan to do more of these but I don’t what topics/people to do yet. And guys, don’t hate these artists just for me pointing out a few things wrong with them, that’s the complete opposite of what I’m trying to say. If you don’t like them, then just ignore them, it’s as simple as that. Thanks for reading this, it truly means a lot to me.) 


Character analysis: Undertaker

-Undertaker is not only my favorite character from “Black butler”, but my all time favorite character. He’s interesting, funny and complex. There’s still much we don’t know about him, but I feel that his story will be very important to the plot, especially if it turns out that he was romantically involved with Claudia Phantomhive, Earl Phantomhive’s grandmother, which is one of the most famous headcanons about him.

-Undertaker is presented to us, at first, as someone who accepts laughter as payment. He knew many things about the underworld, and therefore worked for Earl Phantomhive. After that, we learn that Undertaker was part of ‘Evil Aristocrats,’ and that he used to work for Earl Vincent Phantomhive as well. He became a much important character when we learn that he was a Shinigami; that he was behind the bizarre dolls creation; and that he carries the hair of Claudia Phantomhive with himself, in one of his lockets.

-Undertaker seems like someone, who is nonjudgmental by nature. But that, on the other hand, he seems like someone, who has strong opinions, and that is not afraid of using razor sharp words.

He’s analytical, and tries to understand humans, while at the same time he is fascinated by them.

I think that this fascination is related to his human life. He committed suicide, and then became a Shinigami. We can easily assume that he did that out of guilt, but it’s highly possible that there were other causes, for example loss of someone he loved, or unrequited feelings for someone. Undertaker seems to bear lots of guilt, and that could come either from his former life as a human, or from his Shinigami life. It could be that a situation, which may or may not have led him to suicide, was also part of his life as a Shinigami, like Grelle. She still cannot realize her dream to become a biological female, even after death. Meaning that she will continue longing to be a female forever. “What was that impossible situation that led him to suicide?” is a question we still don’t know. No matter how much he smiled, and how carefree he may seem, his eyes are still sad. He carries the burden of sorrow, grief, and guilt within, wherever he goes.

-Undertaker always presents himself as a person, who loves jokes, and that is on the insane side. Even kids are scared of him, but

I don’t think that his real self is 100% like this. He may have a creepy,funny side, which he overshows, but he definitely hides other parts of personality. I believe that he is a lot more sensible than he seems to be. His nature seems to be creative, because of his style (I mean just look at all those piercings and the braid and the shoes!), but from what Yana Sensei said, he doesn’t wash his hair, that’s why his hair is sometimes gray and not white. (Oh God.) Anyway, that means that he doesn’t care that much about cleanliness, even in his shop. It’s highly likely that he suffers from depression, even after his death. He’s definitely lonely, but I believe that it’s extremely hard to get close to him. His trust might even be broken several times, and he might be already sick of the lies, even though ironically he also lies.

This isolation made him even further depressed. I think that Undertaker tries his hardest to find meaning and joy in life, even if that’s a little. Maybe, he regrets not enjoying his life to the fullest, when he was alive, and if the Claudia/Undertaker theory is true, it’s possible that Claudia made him love life.

-When it comes to the way, Undertaker took his own life, I have two theories. It’s possible that the words, that he said to Our Ciel, were a hint.

Although, it’s possible that he was talking about Claudia here. Just saying…Another theory, is that he drowned himself. As we can see from the silhouette.

-What about his scars? I think that it’s highly likely that he got them later, maybe after his retirement. As we can see from the artbooks, Undertaker didn’t have them back then.

There, we see that his death-scythe had the skeleton, but from his flashbacks, we don’t see it. What’s the history behind it? I hope it didn’t belong to someone. *smirks*

-His entire persona is enigmatic and mysterious, and makes us want to know more about him, and even like him. (I also like that he used to keep his hair tied up like this. It looks cute.) We don’t know his real name, and where he is from. (I don’t believe that he was named Adrian. That’s just a headcanon. But, who knows?)

Undertaker is surely cunning, and who knows what he has up in his sleeves. (Technically, we know what he has, but shh). We don’t know his plans, but they seem to be highly likely related with resurrecting the dead, for example Vincent Phantomhive.

They seem to have been good friends, at least, and I think that Vincent Phantomhive is exactly the kind of person, you’d see Undertaker hanging out with, cunning, clever, funny, and easy-going. Undertaker clearly misses him, and we have many proves of their friendship.

-I’m really looking forward to be learning more about him, and I think that’s highly likely that this is going to have part two or more. And, I have another thing to add. How is possible that he can be productive with those long nails? They are really long. Hahahaha.

~By Red Rose Crown.
~Photos by Yana Toboso.

snufflypuffly  asked:

your wife is a writer!! do you think she'd have any writing tips for a young aspiring author who's only recently started planning for an original book?

This is the Gay Wife answering herself!


Some disclaimers:

1.This turned into a monster, I am so sorry. I apparently had a lot to say on the matter.

2. I assume you read the blog and don’t have a huge problem with cuss words. I normally wouldn’t do this to a stranger online, so…

3. I am so fucking pretentious. Lord. I added a bunch of links to things that have caused me to pause and think about writing, and some of them are just??? I am so sorry, please don’t judge me too harshly.

Thank you so much for this ask! I was surprised, admittingly, that you’d ask for my writing tips despite the fact that I haven’t published anything online for you to read. But I am glad you did! My wife (the blog owner) is so very kind and supportive of me. Maybe a bit too much? She talked me up quite a lot in her answer to that ask. Because I don’t think I am all that special. Nor do I think myself and the spaceman living and my head are a wellspring of great ideas, BUT HERE GOES. [Note from the blog owner: I never exaggerate baby’s talents 😉]

I have had thoughts on writing advice blogs/posts in the past, as in, they aren’t always useful.  K J Charles, an author I really like, recently made a post about writing advice that is really worth a read if you would like to seek out advice in the future.

That’s not to say I am not totally willing and excited to answer you! This might just be a weird tip list, that’s all, because all ‘tip lists’ are biased to one writer’s processes. My ideas on writing might not work for you, may be disastrous, or may be where you set your flagstones. I’ll try my best to communicate what I think will help. But with that, take it with a grain of salt.

Writing a story, by its nature alone, is a product of desperate translation of something that is intangible; emotions, moments, places one has never been, experiences one’s never had. A story becomes good when the translation of ideas switches from the surreal to the profoundly relatable. That might be something to keep in mind as you write; that you aren’t telling a story, you’re translating this idea in your mind and heart into words – into language, into a story, into a pathway to follow, into this brand new experience that will sit with a reader for long time after they finish the story.

The writing process is labyrinthine and elaborate and intricate. I’m going to list a couple of things that have helped me, specifically what I did when I was feeling uninspired or frustrated with what I was writing. Again, these worked for me, so if they don’t for you, don’t use them. Try something else! Explore! Innovate! Grow! And allow yourself mistakes!

I constantly think about classic writers and how they differ. I’m kind of a nerd for quotes and delight in spending hours pouring myself over them. And writers so vastly differ from each other when it comes to how they approached their craft (I think about that last one a lot because it directly contradicts every ‘writing advice’ blog post I’ve ever seen). You’ll have to do that, too, or risk being drowned out by the static of how you think you should be writing. You should never let your unique way of writing be chained down by all that bullshit out there.


Plotting/Outlining/and the dirty work

I try to do NanoWriMo every year and fucking hate it to shards and jagged pieces. If there was one overwhelming thing I have learned, it is that I need an outline to function. This came as quite the surprise to me personally because I am such a messy bitch. But dear merciful Lord in heaven, if I don’t have an outline I can’t move forward. So I embraced that and outlined my scenes like a motherfucker on a lone motorcycle, reaching for that burning red sunset, running from my sordid past, man! Here is just three notebooks from the last year’s NaNo:

Now that is three notebooks, not including the forth one I also filled up. One of them is initial notes; themes I had in mind, character outlines, a summary of the plot – basic stuff. I also wrote out some rules. This was a supernatural/horror/comedy, all three of those genres I have no practice in. So I wrote out tropes that I wanted to avoid, points that I wanted to greatly impress, character traits I had etched in stone (for instance, “Edwidge will stay a kind person.”)

Then I dive into outlining by chapter with a rough first go, then another notebook where I re-wrote that outline, then a forth with fleshed-out dialogue exchanges, character movements (both in detail, such as the hands, the eyes) and within the constructed space (sits on a desk, leans against a wall, observes the pictures on the wall), and with random details I decided while outlining. In that same vain, the nightmarish scribbles off to the side of the notebook pages are products of an idea striking me and the muses directing my hand. Muses have horrible handwriting.

Now I know there are people out there in the great green world who can write with vague outlines, or no outlines at all (I’m looking at you, @onedamnminuteadmiral, you wicked ho). And those people are witches and heathens that must meet with the pyre. I’ll bring the gasoline if you bring the matches. [Note from the blog owner: Heeeyyyyyyyy!]

I probably shouldn’t admit to it, but I would often get really frustrated with outlining and resort to stick figure storyboards. Yes, like I’m a writer for derivative cartoon about a wacky suburban family. My stick figure storyboard was surprisingly effective (???I guess???). I got a sense of space, of movement, I made notes about the way the eyes moved. This, coupled with the far more wordy outline, added a lot of hot sauce to that beef.

I also saw this method of storyboarding today and I am thinking I might take it up. It looks fantastic!

So, yes, either outline or don’t. I really worked for me, but it might come more natural for you to fly by the seat of your pants. If there is one thing I would do, it would be to make notes on how the characters move within the space. Specifically, placement of hands, how their eyes move, the lighting, anything that gives the characters a solid weight in their world.


A slice of characters

Human nature, by the definitions divined by humankind itself, is fucking absurd. A person left unobserved will always devolve into subtle rule-breaking based purely and the common, everyday swerves their free will dictates (ie. I never wear lipstick, but this morning I was feeling kicky by no outside influences what-so-ever, so, fire engine red?). There is more glorious spark and untold, unfolding of brilliance in a real person sitting quietly in a chair for a half and hour than there will ever be in a fully-realized, well-rounded, fictional character. That might be a harsh statement, but it is something I constantly have buzzing in my bonnet when I write characters. It causes me to strive for something more from my characters.

I bring up that (jfc am I pretentious) philosophy video about fate/free will because in writing characters, you’ll constantly have to think if your characters are acting as you believe they will, or how they would more naturally behave.

People are series of moments with great contradictions. Characters who are well developed, compounded and complex, and interesting to read, should also be weighed at the center in how they contradict themselves. I find this to be a really important standard in writing characters. This is so damn hard to explain, so let me give some silly examples.

Characters tend to have traits/characteristics/personality rules cemented by the author. I see it constantly in books, and it really steams my vegetables. For example:

 Valen was raised in a polite society—he is a polite and considerate man – he will act politely as a matter of keeping the character consistent.

Valen was raised to be strong — he would be calm in this situation— he would not be afraid at the climax of the book.

It’s… not a wrong way of writing character. Constancy is certainly important. Its just flat? ‘Uninteresting’ may be a bit too much. Writing a character as a series of set rules can be this transitive, it just feels manufactured, distant from reality.

For example, consider at how I act:

Gay wife spent her formative years in the South — she was trained to be a polite person, professionally— she calls her customers Mr. Meyers and Ms. Linda and her boss solely as Ms. Jeanne—she works hard to be a polite person – she always uses ‘pardon me’ and ‘excuse me’. That is honestly who I am.


Gay Wife had a weird home life growing up—she had a rocky, religious upbringing— this manifests in really vulgar humor at home— she calls her wife whore-tits and expresses religious terror to her cats. This is also honestly who I am.

Am I vulgar person? Am I cautious and polite? Those contradict each other, and they are both true about me! I try to be as polite as possible, but at home where I am comfortable and unobserved (other than by my wife, who is now stuck with me so whatever), I turn into a total asshole.

When I read a love story, for example, I get concerned when a character stays exactly the same as when they started out. I’m not specifically talking about character growth, per say, but in the way the carry themselves, in the way they behave. I read one fantastic book where a character spoke differently with the other servants than he did to the lord of the house, even after they started a relationship together. As you proceed to write your characters, I would recommend thinking about how differently people behave depending on their current situation, and contradict the rules you have set for the character. Everyone act different around their grandma than they do around their high school friends. Both those situations, the person is still themselves, just affected by compulsions lent to them by the situation.

So consider writing a character that is both compassionate and open-minded, but is also bigoted towards someone/something. It tells the reader where that compassion ends, the lines that character draws. Or a character that is brave, but only because he is a coward (that is one of my favorites.) A character that is a brilliant genius, but a fuckin’ idiot. I’ve personally known plenty of real people I would describe as genius fuckin’ idiots.

Please consider how funny, upbeat people are so fucking sad inside. Or rather, they tend to be. Within two weeks of knowing the funniest person I’ve ever met, I was asking him if he was okay. And he was fuckin’ not, and I knew to ask because despite this blog making people laugh (of which I am proud), I’ve had depression since I was a child and have struggled with it to the extreme (aside: if anyone needs to talk, feel free to message me @thewaltzrio). I’ve borrowed that so many times when writing. [Trigger warning on this link, but it is worth reading.]

You play your cards right, you’ll also be subverting tropes left and right.

Compound contradictions, add in swerves of free will, mix in a pinch of chaos caused by fate (that you have set for them), and you’ve got a interesting, more real and weighty character on your hands. People will relate to that. The best compliment I’ve ever received was, “Hadrian [one of my characters] has really stuck with me.” That meant a lot to me, more than anything I’ve heard about the story or the setting or the world building I’ve done for the story.

The second best thing I’ve heard is when I let someone read what I have written, and the first question I ask is “which was your favorite character?”. I’ve done it dozens of times with the same work and I’ve gotten a different answer every single time. If you do the same, you will know you’ve got a good cast of characters on your hands.

It is only my personal opinion that characters are worth more than the story itself. You connect with characters, you believe in them, you root for them, you love them with an unhealthy dependency. Look around every fandom — it is characters that draw people into a show, make them stick with it, make them care about the 2nd season getting greenlighted. The plot is a series of situations done to the characters. It happens to them. The interest in the story is cultivated from the perspective of a character and how they react.

Which brings me to the details. Fuck yeah DETAILS.

Write details when it comes to character creation beyond hair color, zodiac signs, or height and weight. Now, you’re on tumblr and without a doubt a smart and well informed person, so I don’t need to go into the importance of a diverse cast of characters. So here are some of my favorite ways of meshing the character into the world, and making them seem more like people.

I like mentioning the condition of their fingernails. You might find something else that works for you, but I like fingernails. I made mention that my main character has “acres of real-estate under his fingernails.” Now that is a handful of words that tells the reader that: He works hard, he doesn’t have time to clean them, he isn’t vain, he doesn’t consider clean nails something worth his time worrying about. Everyone in his community probably carries the same kind of dirt and grime around with them.

I adore using verbal ticks as markers of a character’s personality. I probably go overboard with this; I go out of my way to add a tick to each character. My character Hadrian ended up saying ‘in any matter’ to switch topics. He is the only one who says that, and it’s a nice verbal tick. My character Raif is trying to be seen as a poor tradesmen, so he uses improper grammar when speaking on the daily, and (in exposing his true background) uses expressly proper grammar when in a stressful situation. If a reader picked up on that tick, then they would feel so damn clever when Raif is exposed as the lost prince! That is satisfying payoff!

My favorite one I’ve written so far is Seymour, a 15-year-old who was raised mostly in isolation, without a real home or community to call his own. So he parrots other people, he borrows from his friends and those he admires. It tells a reader than he lacks a sense of self, of place, of how to interact with people. I never actually say he does this, but he constantly repeats phrases he hears from his friend Raif. And, by the end of the book, he is also saying ‘in any matter’ to switch topics. It is a satisfying way of showing how Seymour interacts with other characters.

Mentioning the condition of a character’s clothing is so baseline it might as well be chapter one, line one, in the guidebook of how to write characters. But you can really have fun with this one. For example, I made of point of introducing my main characters in very particular ways. When Douglas meets Hadrian, they are at a costume party. Douglas is in his Fleet cadet uniform (which tells the reader he is the type of person who didn’t feel the need to change his out of his everyday uniform for the sake of a costume — Is he too proud of it? Is he too shy to dress in something bizarre? Is it already a costume to him?) and he sees Hadrian across the way. Hadrian is wearing the draping robes and ivy and burning candle crown of a pagan god of mischief (which tells the reader damn near everything they are in for with him. That he pays attention to ancient pagan god history in a religious society, that he isn’t concerned with looking ridiculous in public, that he is a huge fuck-head.) [note from the blog owner: I love him.]

That is different! That isn’t going into details about fineries/tatters/tailored clothing vs. hand-me-downs.

Clever segue to the next section!!

A student of curiosity

So you may notice that I am not going to mention a very huge part about writing in this bullshit thing I’m claiming as writing advice, and that is how you construct your plot. Who gives a shit? Sorry that was harsh. But we’ve all seen that chart in school about rising action and climax and falling action and UGH. Because seriously, who gives a shit? You write what you want, there are no rules.

But! I can add a few words about how to help your story get swol. Or at least, what worked best with what I do. Like I said earlier, humans are fucking absurd. And human history is so broad and sweeping and fantastic that you can find endless sources for inspiration to draw upon. It is important to stay curious and make a habit of studying the bizarre. I utilize my love of history to find inspiration. History pulls from and contains so many other topics to learn about and utilize; superstitions, unsolved mysteries, trends, dead religions, all sorts of niches that have wedged their way into the building blocks of history.

If you find history dry, that’s fine! Loads of people do. The point is, if something really grabs you, take the time to think about why it did. Those wiki binges that last until 3am? What is it about those subjects that drew you in that you could borrow for your story? (I once based an entire romance novel on a wiki binge about the quartering of soldiers in the colonial United States.) Podcasts are fantastic for this! I’d recommend Lore if you haven’t already checked it out. Even though Aaron Mahnke drives me fucking crazy with that “well, you see, maybe human beings were the monsters the whole time” bullshit, I still love this podcast.

But remain curious as you write. Think about moments in books and movies that have stuck with you and you don’t know why. Some clever little thing that made you pause. Like, for me, the kitchen scene in Jurassic Park. I’d never seen kids under such threat before, just pure terror, and that is my very first thought upon thinking about that movie. I know that I write notes (usually when I’m at work) on what about a thing made me sit up and pay attention. Then I break it down and mold it into something new. Who knows, maybe it will help add a great twist into the plot that you didn’t think of.


The literal scene, a quick note—

I’m also a huge nerd for movies and the way movies are shot. I know this is coming out of the blue, and may seem odd to add in a monster post about writing, but stick with me on this. Movies and writing have some overlap if you’re willing to spend time thinking about constructing a scene in your book the same way a director frames a shot. I swear, it works if you let it.

When I get frustrated with how a scene is playing out while I am writing, I try approaching it based on how it would be framed cinematically. Every reader has (what my wife calls) the theater of the mind, and you can use that to your advantage as you write. Think about how a character would view a room upon entering it for the first time. What draws their eye, what piques their interest, what is central to them. Film directors to the same thing when they frame a shot. They carefully plan how the light falls over a character’s face. They deconstruct and reconstruct the layout of a room. They block the actors. They pan over book titles to show a character’s interest. They  they keep important things out of frame to remind the viewer that it will come back into play in a few moments.  You can do that all, too, when you write!

I recommended once that my wife and I watch a very well shot tv show when we were both frustrated with writing. We got sketchbooks and drew what caught our eyes. I remember I latched on to the way a character’s earrings moved every time she did; it was subtle, but vibrant, kinetic, and a detail I don’t think I would have thought to add if I was writing that same scene. I liked how the bloodshot eyes of a character didn’t come into view until the scene grew tense and they filmed a closeup of the actor. I thought that would translate well in writing; add tension when my character got too close and saw that the other character was influenced by something yet unseen. I detailed the way shadows fell over a staircase, and how the beam of light was on only the most enlightened of the characters in an ensemble cast.

This is something you can do on days when your brain is a fried pancake and yet you still want to work on advancing your story. Take a TV show or a movie that left an impression on you and take notes on the environment, or the actors’ expressions, etc. As strange as this sounds, it works well with animation. Every single thing in a work of animation was purposely chosen to be there. Every single thing was created – like your writing will be. I’d say look at Satoshi Kon’s animation process. Not only is his work a fantastic exploration of writing and storytelling, he is very purposeful in what is seen, shown, understood, and then subverted. Think about how you’d write that, how you’d describe it. How a “quick cut” can translate into writing the impressions and feelings in a character. (ie. The smoke clouds, into a clear sky, how a character looking at one can get the impression of another).

I’d recommend looking at Every Frame a Painting YouTube page. I know I got a swell of inspiration on how to pace out and detail a scene based on the importance of subtle details in this video. Or, if you want to think about how to construct a plot, Lindsey Ellis on YouTube and her video essays are fantastic, too. For example, if you want to think of how your characters address and interact with your narrative, consider what she has to say about RENT. The last minute of this video is gut-wrenchingly powerful and says more about the dissonance between characters and their narrative/the event that narrative was based on in that ONE MINUTE than months of research could tell you. (Note, don’t watch this if you love RENT. If you love RENT, that’s okay, my wife reeaaallly does.) [note from the blog owner: I do love RENT, but this is a really great video and I don’t disagree with anything she had to say. Still love RENT, but boy it’s got its problems, haha]

Aaaaand that’s all I think I have to say about that! Thank you so much for sticking with me this far! I hope something in this mess helps you. Thank you again!

In final—

Your voice moving forward with your manuscript is unique, and your voice is powerful. There will never be one like it again and there has never been one like it before you. There has never been a day of your life that wasn’t a product of chaos and mayhem from unseen struggles of the universe, and yet you made it through some boring Tuesday! Good luck, and I’ll be rooting for you!


Sincerely, The Gay Wife

My Confusion on Billy

Okay, wait a moment. I finished watching Stranger Things seasons one and two and I have successfully become confused. I ended up really liking Billy’s character because he’s so psychologically complex. Nothing about what he has done to Max is excusable, obviously, but there’s reasons behind it that make his character so compelling and potentially redeemable.

And this is where the confusion steps in.

His father is clearly abusive towards him because his dad considers him gay. Now, we don’t know if Billy is or isn’t (though my vote is for that he is gay) but in the 80s, that still wasn’t an acceptable thing. So, his dad is abusive because Billy’s pretty and cares about how he looks facially and physically and takes care of his appearance.

So, an important thing to remember is that his dad’s abusive.

People with abusive parents tend to go two ways from what I’ve observed and those people who have been abused that I’ve talked to. One way is that they become very meek and shut in regardless of who they’re around. Fear is practically their permanent emotional setting and it tends to be fairly obvious. The other way they tend to react is in anger and they lash out at anyone around them. They find pleasure in meaningless things and let the rest of their emotions out in rage on others (but typically never their abuser). That second way of reacting is Billy. He reacts in anger to everything and he wants people to feel the same way, wants to not be alone in his pain. And he also gets pleasure from meaningless things, such as sex.

So, I don’t understand why people say he’s irredeemable. Especially when his response to his situation is one that is shown in quite a few abuse victims.

And the other thing I’m confused about is calling Billy racist? Like, maybe I missed something (I did only finish both seasons yesterday) or maybe I interpreted the situation with Lucas differently (that tends to happen), but it never occurred to me that Billy was racist.

Now, let me explain.

As I said above, Billy tends to react in anger to most things and wants people to feel like him, feel the same pain–to not be alone in his suffering (because it’s rough when you have no support group and you live in this situation, for those of you who don’t know). And this extends to Max, as evidenced in the show. In a natural (but I’m not excusing it) response to his situation, he tries to find a reason for why they had to leave California and both of them blame the other.

The point, though, is that Billy wants Max to be in pain, too. He doesn’t want to be alone in his suffering. And he also has the unfortunate side effect of reacting in anger to everything (in a sort of sociopathic way, although I wouldn’t say he’s a sociopath).

So, when he sees Max talking to Lucas, his automatic response is that he can’t let that happen. He can’t let Max have that happiness or that support when he has neither (again, a natural response to his situation, but I’m not excusing it). And that’s where we see him tell Max to stay away from Lucas, threatens her. Lucas is the only one Billy sees Max with time and time again. The only time he sees her with the others or reacting to the others is when he speeds up on the road at them when the boys are biking home and then when they’re at the Byers’ house and he sees them through the window and when he walks inside. But he doesn’t see Max with a single one of them other than Lucas until he’s at the Byers’ house.

So, I don’t understand how that makes him racist. Is it because Lucas is coincidentally black? Because I just figured his reaction would be the same had Lucas been white because of the psychological state he’s in due to the abuse from his father.

Of course, though, this is all interpretation, but these are things that genuinely confused me when I was looking through the responses to Billy’s character–a character I very much enjoyed because I feel he is redeemable and the psychology of his character is fascinating (the things that drive him and make him who he is, his situation, how that has influenced his behavior and his treatment of others, etc.).

I hope to see more people at least realizing that although he’s a dick, he’s a product of his situation and is young and able to change, but change for many abuse victims can only come when they’ve been removed from that abusive environment.

(Not to mention, we don’t know how long the abuse has been going on and, if I remember correctly, Max references or implies that Billy didn’t always used to be like this and that he has simply been getting worse and worse–meaning that the abuse could’ve been happening for a while and the gaining of a stepmother and a stepsister and the move and all that have made him reach a breaking point. And if Billy hasn’t always been like this, it means that change is possible and could potentially be easier for him than it is for some other abuse victims.)

EDIT: you guys do know what an opinion is, right? And what an interpretation is? Because all of you seem to think I’m stating facts or something. I said Billy MIGHT be gay. I said that I PERSONALLY don’t think he was being racist. I said that I BELIEVE he’s redeemable. These are all opinions and interpretations. Why are some of you guys acting like I’m stating it as a solid fact? Opinions can be disagreed with, but that doesn’t mean they’re wrong. And, if you read what I wrote and actually understand it, you’ll see that I’m not excusing his actions because I state more than once that I’m not excusing his actions. Geez. (And I don’t listen to everything the writers say because, if anyone cares to remember, Steve was also meant to be irredeemable and look at him now. The writers aren’t always right even when it’s their own work. And I believe Billy can be redeemed. Do I think the writers will do so? That’s iffy. Would I like them to? Yeah.)

Detroit dir. Kathryn Bigelow (2017)

I finally saw Detroit, the day of the Charlottesville Nazi march no less.  

I have very mixed feelings on the movie and they’re only mixed because director Kathryn Bigelow is a really good filmmaker. People who were most wary of the film because it had a white writer were right to be so, because the script is absolutely the weakest link and writer Mark Boal, who also wrote the scripts for Bigelow’s films The Hurt Locker and Zero Dark Thirty, has penned a script that gets so much wrong, trampling all over moments of subtlety with clumsy dialogue and making minimal effort to deliver context. 

The film has a very clear three-part structure: the first is dedicated to the overarching outrage and frustration that led to the 1967 riots, the second shows the murders of three black men by the police at the Algiers motel that took place mid-riots, and the third focuses on the lack of justice provided by a biased and ineffectual legal system. But at every turn the writing, and sometimes the direction, undercuts its own message. Aside from some completely lazy title text accompanied by some very ugly animation, the first section does an absolutely terrible job of showing why black people in Detroit started rioting and even mostly privileges the perspective of the police. The final section is so bad you have a character screaming out “the system is rigged” in a courtroom as if the movie doesn’t trust the audience to put the pieces together.

And that’s a real pity because these two weak sections bracket the strongest most effective part of the movie where Bigelow delves in to what exactly went down at the Algiers and where Boal for the most part (but unfortunately not completely) curbed his need of having characters broadcast the film’s intentions. This is the part of the movie that’s earned the most criticism for the amount of violence, but it’s a violence that feels earned in a way that the violence of the first section of the movie doesn’t. This is Bigelow at her masterful best, juggling a large ensemble of characters so that their actions and motivations are clear. Despite the chaotic nature of the action, which involves about a dozen characters running in and out of various rooms, the geography of the place is never in doubt so that audiences are able to fully focus on the horror of the actions. It is by no means a perfect piece of cinema but it’s by far the best part of a fractured film because it shows (without telling!) that there is absolutely no winning what the police call the “game”, where they use brutality to get their suspects to confess, or indeed any way of winning when it comes to black men dealing with the police at large. One of the gifts of the large ensemble is watching as all the black men take different approaches to trying to survive the night and the absolute desolation of watching as every single one loses. Even the ones who live come away completely destroyed by what they’ve seen and what they needed to do to survive.

Will Poulter, playing a racist cop, has been met with the most praise and though he’s very good among my favourites were John Boyega as a security guard who decides the best approach is to act deferential. It’s not a great role, again the writing lets him down, but he has such a commanding presence that he’s a pleasure to watch on screen. Algee Smith as an ambitious young singer and Jacob Latimore as his friend and roadie are also standouts. I’ve heard no one praise Anthony Mackie but he has one of the best moments in the film. Sitting in his room with two young white girls they hear the police invading the motel he starts coaching them on what to do and how to act and without further explanation you can tell from the exhaustion and fear in his voice that he’s been in this situation before. It’s a quiet well articulated moment of the kind the film could have used more of. Also to briefly bring up the two white girls who are also brutalized by the police: Hannah Murray has the biggest part between the two of them and she is unfortunately awful. I’m honestly so disappointed because though the role was small it covered a lot of complexities I’ve never seen depicted before on screen: the way white women use black men and black culture as a way of being transgressive, the way white women are used as an excuse for white men to lash out against black men, the way that even if they are privileged in some ways they can be victims of sexual harassment and abuse, and the way in which despite these things they can retreat back into the privilege of their whiteness. A lot of complexities going on that are ruined by Murray’s atrocious performance. I wish Bigelow had chosen someone else.

Some more scattered thoughts: I love it when directors reuse actors so I enjoyed seeing Anthony Mackie and also Jennifer Ehle, so great in Zero Dark Thirty, in a cameo! The production values on this were amazing and the costume design by Francine Jamison-Tanchuck, especially for the women, was gorgeous. I can never unthink of John Krasinski as Jim from The Office, and he was distracting as a smarmy police union lawyer. Samira Wiley also pops up for literally less than a minute, the role didn’t require her having a lot to do but it seems like such a crime to have her do the work of a glorified extra.

I wish I could recommend it because I am a huge fan of Bigelow but I just can’t. The riots deserved a better movie and I believed Bigelow could do better so I’m disappointed that the resulting film was so uneven. Even though the time never dragged for me this only ever felt like a very solid first draft with hints of how much better it could have been. I’m not surprised it’s flopping at the box office because a) it’s not very good and b) who exactly is the audience for this? White racists won’t touch a movie that address systematic racism by police and white people sympathetic to the film’s message will have a difficult time sitting through a two and half hour uneven film filled with gruelling violence. By the time I walked out of Detroit to check the news a woman was dead and many more injured after a Neo-Nazi plowed his car into a crowd of peaceful protestors. It served as a painful real-world reminder that black audiences and other people of colour are already living everything Detroit has to say. 

twodemigodtraveleroflorien  asked:

Two questions! A) what would be good motives for a prince villain BESIDES tragic backstory B) Any advice for writing a redemption arc?

Wow, I’m in love with this ask. Antagonist motivations? REDEMPTION ARCS? Yes please!!

Okay, so the plan is, I’m going to address the first question first and the second one second. I think that seems reasonable. This might get a little lengthy, I can feel it in the wind, so we’ll see at what point we’ll probably need a Read More.

Question A: (Princely) Villain Motivations

1. Perhaps the most obvious is, well, power. I know a lot of people get pretty tired of the whole “powerful villain wants more power/land/control/riches.” But the fact is, it makes sense, particularly for an antagonist that was raised in power. Keep in mind the kind of childhood this Prince might have had, and all the things they might have been told since they were young. Since they were a child, and during their most formative years, they were likely told time and again how it is their duty as the heir and future leader to uphold the reputation, stature, and altogether power of the entire kingdom. That’s quite a lot of pressure to be under, and it’s hard to get out from under that idea.

Now I’m caught up in the psychology of this trope so here are some points that are somewhat related.

- The first thing they have to fear is looking bad. A Prince is a public figurehead, many are looking to him. That’s a lot of people to disappoint. And when your only counsel is potentially people who are leading you askew, it’s hard to avoid counting on the wrong advice while under pressure.

- These people they could potentially disappoint are both people they personally care about (family/friends) and people that they are responsible for (the citizens)

- Particularly if it’s family applying the pressure, then this care stands to lose everything they have ever known of they try to stand for what they actually think.

2. Noble Ends: Maybe this character kind of has some good ideas or intentions, but for whatever reason, the execution is less than the best- as in, noble ends but evil means. This can take a number of forms, but often you see noble-ends/evil-means characters doing things like putting other people in danger if it means saving one specific character, etc. For every character, this can be different. This particular character is interesting because they are in a position of political and military power, meaning that things are pretty high stakes within their personal lives, the interior of the kingdom, and in their entire country’s relationship with other entire countries. I’m sort of going of the assumption here that you have an idea of the kinds of things your villain does, just not why. 

One of the most often quoted phrases I see about antagonists is that “every villain is a hero in their own minds.” Really take that into consideration for this option in particular, but really it applies to any antagonist.

3. “The Puppet King” Approach: By this I am referring to the trope where a political or powerful figure is actually just being used or manipulated by others with ill intentions. This can be the result of many things, such as straight up blackmail, or the controlling people having leverage over them (like hostages) or, if you want to connect it back to the first idea, through emotional manipulations.

- Blackmail: The controllers have something against them that, if revealed, could be disastrous for the character.

- Leverage: The controllers have something the character desperately needs or wants and are holding it over their heads.

- Emotional Manipulation: Borderline Tragic Backstory, and relating to the first idea, but the controllers could be telling the character terrible things in order to get them to do terrible things- perhaps they told them that they are useless or worthless if they don’t do these things, and this character craves the validation, attention, interaction, etc that comes with pleasing these people. 

4. “They’re Not Evil, They’re Just Misguided”:  Maybe this character is completely misinformed about the situation. This could be an elaborate manipulation on someone else’s part, or really no single person’s intention, but the product of the environment in which this character lives. It sort of ties back to “Noble ends and evil means”, except with a lot more deception and miscommunication going on. Keep in mind, they still have to make the choice to do some terrible things, so it’s not like they didn’t have bad intentions ever.

There’s also a few things you should keep in mind when writing a character like this.

First… if some of these ideas make it look like I am giving the “villain” something to be pitied, or like they have qualities or intentions that one could actually understand, or even an actual (gasp) tragic backstory, it’s because I actually am. If you want to write a good villain, and I mean a really good villain, they have to be just as complex and psychologically believable as the hero. Not only that, but it helps readers keep in mind that no one is just born with a gun in their hand and murder in their hearts. That layer of real tragedy is sometimes needed to show people that hey, this person fell real hard, and that is not just their personal tragedy, but a tragedy of the very world we all live in.

That being said, I am going to jump into my second thing to keep in mind… This villain can have understandable intentions, but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t gonna do villainous things. Make them do terrible, horrible, horrendous, awful, unforgivable things. After all, they aren’t really a “villain” if they don’t do entirely evil things sometimes. Yes, it kind of sucks that this person became this way, but now it’s a little too late. They are a threat that needs to be dealt with now, or they will only breed more tragedy. 

A villain’s “tragic backstory” only is meant to explain their actions, not to excuse them.

As for question two… I actually think I’m going to get back to you on that one. Redemption arcs deserve an entire post, because they are remarkably complex and I just can’t limit myself to only giving a handful of tips. I will be setting that post up probably later today, tomorrow at the latest.

Thanks for the questions, as always, and look for the redemption post on the horizon. 


Netflix's Death Note

Okay let’s get some shit down for everyone who watched the anime and those who don’t know why the adaptation was so bad.

Just to be clear beforehand, I do realize this is somewhat harsh and that the original series is much too amazingly complex to shove into one movie and that directing something like this is difficult and stuff would but cut anyways but then again that all goes to an extent.

Immediately from the beginning of this show, our first glimpse of this “edgy”, “misunderstood” teenager with eventually shown mommy issues is just already so off. If they were going to dye his hair, why not make it a little more candid and cover those ugly ass blonde highlights with the actual brown color? The first scene where we witness the horrible corruption of Light’s character is when he attempts to stand up to Kenny..If netflix attempted to even showcase Light’s actual character, they would know that the real Light was completely confident, smart, and a literal genius. He always knew what would happen and wouldn’t be stupid enough to get himself into a situation like that or at least get out of it. The whole point of Light Yagami wasn’t his fear over the death note’s power or Ryuk. Being that crazy genius was what made him the only person capable of using the Death Note without losing his shit completely. Netflix completely destroyed Light’s character and the notion of evil behind it.

Secondly, Ryuk!!!! Just another butcher case.
What happened to the sometimes funny and joking to the sometimes objective and cold character?
Ryuk was supposed to be a shadow mostly, his point was to only watch how Light transformed the world with the Death Note for his own entertainment. He never threatened Light to make him murder. He never chose his victims. And most importantly there was never any extra rules written in the death note that magically were always appropriate for the next problematic scene. They only diminished Ryuk’s character to a scary death god used to further push along the story and add to the obvious gore intended theme.

Next, Misa Misa. I absolutely loved her in the anime. I was shocked to see her as some emo, obviously-hangs-with-the-wrong-crowd cheerleader. Misa’s character was meant to be a girl who idolizes Kira and is completely in love with Light. She would never be so crazily stupid as to write his name in the death note in order to take it from him. Her relationship with the death note was never supposed to be as important as deciding who would die. She only ever followed Light’s demands and he was the one who made these decisions. She was never supposed to kill the detectives because that was a scene in which amplified Light’s wits and HIS ability to easily overcome obstacles thrown by L. As well as that, the love she and Light had wasn’t real. Their “love” was supposed to showcase Light’s character in terms that he had become cold and merciless to even his own family due to his priority of accomplishing his main goal of cleansing the world, no matter what. On the other hand, I understand this is a hollywood movie and couldn’t go without romance but the scenes of them making out and etc were shown so awkwardly in between their killing.

To the last character, L. Most fans were either of L’s side or Light’s. “Good vs bad”. Cat vs mouse. Their whole intended relationship. And the fuzzy borders of who was who. Netflix did attempt to showcase their battle of wits..except without the wits and gave us instead an amusing little game of chasing? Oh and can someone please tell my why L wore a ninja costume basically the whole movie? Where was the classic white tshirt and jeans. Was also saddened by the missing weird voice change to hide his identity. One good thing was that L wasn’t just another white dude. But, just like everyone else they eventually took away his cool calm nature. We know that he was obsessed with Light and it is indeed portrayed to an extent but he never lost his shit. Chasing light with a gun? Chasing a highschooler with a gun? Really? I do appreciate the insomniac characteristic still being there though. Although impractical, it would have been cool to see him completely barefoot the whole time. Yet great job crushing his secretive, analytical and genius character. At least his back story is the decently accurate except for the whole part where he was trained as a kid.

Lastly, the whole fault in the actual movie production. The whitewashing, completely unnecessarily gory deaths, and lack of the morality problem. I’m not sure why they further had to make mia’s name white instead of just leaving it as Misa? What happened to Light Turner’s brother Timmy lmfao. For a second, when Turner read that page with the oh so scary warning about Ryuk, I really thought they were going to go the whole movie mispronouncing his name. They should have wasted less time on a 10 minute chasing scene or making out to further build the completely necessary relationships in Death Note! Instead they rushed the movie. It seems that the director had trouble mixing in his own concept while trying to keep it accurate to the original story. He portrays Death Note as some teenage romance story with supernatural elements. Something I did appreciate,even though it really doesn’t fit with the original, was the visuals. I appreciated the aesthetics of the neon and dark scenery. But in the end it’s much too deep to condense into this movie without rushing it and leaving the audience confused.

To conclude this, RIP the chip scene and Light’s famous maniacal laugh.

Friendly Remind that John Winchester Wasn’t Some Nice Guy who Changed Over Night

Recently I had a conversation with another Supernatural fan. We were discussing John Winchester’s parenting, and how some people believe John was a nice guy in the first season until the writers changed the originally intended purpose of John’s character. I’d just to like to take a moment right now to say John Winchester being a bad parent is nothing new. John Winchester was not father of the year season one, nor was he former father of the year for season two. The writers didn’t create some happy go lucky, fun loving, emotionally intelligent, understanding father and then decide to change him for plot purposes.

I think we can all agree that yes, John is a complicated character who can’t simply be ‘all good’ or ‘all bad.’ Complexity is part of what makes characters interesting- one sided, never developing characters are boring and don’t last very long. John watched his wife, the woman he loved, burn alive on the ceiling of his infant son’s bedroom- of course the guy was going to make mistakes. He was definitely put in a horrible situation, and John only did what he thought was best. John kept his sons with him (except for those stretches of three of four days when the boys would be alone but hey whatever) because he wanted to make sure they were safe. John trained his boys so they could protect themselves if they were ever in the situation that John could not protect his boys (and it definitely came in handy) because he thought that was for the best. John gave his boys the weapons to protect themselves and the knowledge to know how to do so because he thought it was best.

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But did John really think it was for the best to give his eight year old son alcohol? ”But it was probably just a taste,” readers shout. “What kid doesn’t want to ‘be a man’ like his dad? It’s not uncommon for kids to have a sip of alcohol once or twice in their childhood! Everybody loves Bobby and he was the town drunk!”

John drank too much, he raised one son who drank too much and two sons who grew up thinking alcohol was a coping mechanism for failures. See 3x10 Dream a Little Dream of Me.

Dean: There you are. What are you doing?

Sam: Having a drink.

Dean: It’s two in the afternoon. You’re drinking whiskey?

Sam: I drink whiskey all the time.

Dean: No, you don’t.

Sam: What’s the big deal? You get sloppy in bars, you hit on chicks all the time. Why can’t I?

Dean: It’s kind of slim pickings around here. What’s going on with you?

Sam: I tried, Dean.

Dean: To do what?

Sam: To save you. I mean, where you’re going… what you’re gonna become. I can’t stop it.

See how the Winchesters work? Failure to protect family at all costs= personal failure, personal failure= inexcusable wrongdoing, inexcusable wrongdoing= sadness, sadness= no closure that’s for sure because emotions are only for women because only women have feelings and being like a woman is wrong? All of that = drinking instead of honestly discussing feelings or, you know, something which is actually healthy and productive. And of course that kind of mentality has tainted their relationships with other characters (Dean and Sam are responsible for their own choices but how much easier would it be for them to communicate with each other and others if they had been raised to honest and open?).

“But Cas didn’t even show up until season four, John didn’t have an impact on his son’s lack of friends!”



…Whether you like John or not, we can all agree that Dean’s main coping mechanism is drinking.

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“John wasn’t actually an alcoholic- we never even saw him drink! That’s something new that the writers made up!

Dean: Um. Dad hasn’t been home in a few days.

Sam: So he’s working overtime on a Miller Time shift. He’ll stumble back in sooner or later.


You can see the impact John had over his sons long before he died, even when John was alive things were difficult. There were lines the boys did not cross, things they did not say, things they did not do. And one man they were not supposed to question

I’ll just… leave these here. 

(Dean protecting Sam from their dad because Dean will always protect Sam, Sam arguing with John because he’s watched Dean be belittled his entire life and let me tell you that does not make for a comfortable sibling-parent relationship because you see your parent as a threat to your sibling, a threat to someone you love. In this case, not only did Sam love Dean but Dean was his parent. So Sam grew up watching John yell at Dean and belittle him as they drove around the country, Sam watched John abuse his big brother, his caretaker, his best friend.)

And John’s huge emphasis on family and loyalty caused Sam and Dean to think it was wrong to pursue individual happiness, that going after what you want (for example, a career as a lawyer, a loving possible future fiancé, making friends, etc) was selfish and a waste of time. I mean Sam’s “rebellious phase” was going to school…

Dean: And that’s why you ran away.

Sam: I was just going to college. It was Dad who said if I was gonna go I should stay gone. And that’s what I’m doing.

Dean: Yeah, well, Dad’s in real trouble right now. If he’s not dead already. I can feel it.

Sam spent his entire life trying to fit in, all he ever did was study for school- to get into one of the best school’s in the country- and all of his hard work that his father responded to with “If you’re gonna go you should stay gone” is brushed off with a single, “Yeah, well.” AKA Your personal accomplishments don’t matter Sammy because we were raised thinking that happiness lived and died with family.

When Sam (Sam, who never got to have a relationship with his mom; Sam, who spent his entire life switching schools; Sam, who had to start over on different curriculum with new kids and new teachers his entire life; Sam, who always argued with his dad and didn’t feel comfortable telling him anything; Sam, whose childhood was consumed with “being a freak”) was finally benefiting from his years of hard work and was able to proudly (but he probably didn’t say it proudly because school wasn’t what John wanted for Sam so of course he wouldn’t be proud of Sam’s work) say he was accepted into one of the best schools in the entire country with a FULL RIDE, what does his dad do? His dad tells him to get out, to leave the only family- the only life- he’s ever known, and stay gone.

Don’t forget that even if Sam gave up everything he had spent his entire life working towards (Stanford, being a lawyer, being with college friends, working through what happened to Jess instead of hunting) it wouldn’t have been enough because Sam had demon blood in him, Sam was evil.

Anything outside of the norm is considered a monster and monsters are wrong.

Yes, it was canon that a father told his eldest son he would have to murder his little brother (John’s baby, a child) if he became something John wouldn’t want him to be.

So aside from the whole ‘all of your accomplishments are selfish, wanting anything for yourself mean you’re selfish and want people to die, I’m going to abuse your big brother in front of you as you grow up because that won’t complicate our relationship, you know when I’m not abusing/neglecting you, oh and also I’m okay with you being murdered if it comes down to it and what you are is wrong and evil’ John and Sam apparently had the better of the two father son relationships?

Don’t even get me started on Dean.

‘You’re still not good enough, Dean. You ruined this car, you ruined something I gave to you- I wouldn’t have given you the impala if I knew you were going to ruin it. If  you don’t touch up your car (do as I say) it’ll get even worse, because the only right way to do things is my way. If you’re not pleasing John Winchester then what you’re doing has no value or purpose.’

Maybe if John looked around once in a while he could see that his children

are really good


caring people

who deserve better.

And I’m all about family loyalty but we’ve seen over and over and over again that if Dean or Sam were to lose one another they would feel personally responsible, they would blame themselves for the work of demons or angels or monsters- because it’s their job, their responsibility to look out for one another, to save one another. They will always be responsible for one another, if something happens to one of them it is automatically the other brother’s fault.

No Sam, don’t you get it? Can’t you see how Dean (a child) was responsible for you, not your dad who was god knows where?

That’s not poor parenting, oh no.

… You see how this thinking is kind of unhealthy?

‘Sorry I couldn’t find a way to bring your dead body back to life, this is clearly my fault because obviously bringing a dead person back to life is super easy. I didn’t save you; I didn’t protect my family so I’m a failure.’

And this is just the first two seasons! I didn’t even get to


or this

or this (Because living any other kind of life- not being a hunter- would mean failing to save people, it would mean innocent people would die due to Sam or Dean’s selfish desires. Wanting a happy life= selfishness)

or this

(“And when dad got home…”) or this.

The writers didn’t “change John’s character” they just explored how it affected his sons.

The Complexity of Hanzo Shimada's Character

I have been doing a significant amount of character research of Hanzo Shimada from Overwatch, something I preform frequently when I am interested in a character. Much of my research includes accordances among fans about his behavoir and personality, since Blizzard has not fleshed out tremedously such in canon.

This is what I found so far:

  • Hanzo, as well as his brother Genji, have been raised in an environment that has emphasized cultural values that today many modern Japanese, as well as other members of the developed world, recognize as unhealthy and inevitably counter-productive standards of morals. I suspect Sojiro Shimada had become aware to some level that the rules running the Shimada clan’s world were at the very best amoral, and thus tried haphazardly to shield his sons, especially Genji, from such ideals; I say haphazardly, because it more or less came across as a game of favoritism to Hanzo.

  • Hanzo in particular bared the brunt of his environment’s expectations; whether this was because he had a much more open ear at the sound of ‘the heir to the clan’, or because being the first son had him entirely susceptible and exposed, I am unsure. He nevertheless endured the pressure through coerced sense of pride, though in reality surviving with a suppressed emotional conscious and constantly mismatching moral convictions.

  • Hanzo is arrogant, a text-book perfectionist, a callous opportunist, and thus has placed himself on a very high pedestal- a nominally predictable way to cope with fear and feelings of inferiority. However, despite his large ego, Hanzo is by no means a narcissist in the technical sense. If this were the case, he would not hold such affection towards his 'dishonored’ brother, nor his deceased father who had his own flaws. He is also an unconscious hypocrite.

  • Hanzo is capable of love. Hanzo is capable of sympathy, if not empathy, but driven to take both human traits as weakness, Hanzo is unable to express well nor evenly his emotional capacity for others.

  • Hanzo likely has a history of alcohol abuse, as well as vunerablity to sucidal idealization, depressive-onset ennui, sudden and violent emotional outbursts that are fettered by day to day agitation.

  • Hanzo’s perception of himself is a tower upon festered personal needs left long unmet and ignored; as such, he may be found by most anyone else but Genji as extremely uncooperative and intolerable outside of a common goal. For a love interest, he will be amiable-avoidant: he will certainly be less harsh. He may even seek intimacy - but he will inevitably reject his own attachment, leading subsequently to a sensible other dismissing his devotion, questioning his love and humanity, and invoking resentment later on down the line.

  • Hanzo is an extremely intelligent logisist and a talented strategist. I imagine math is his other favorite subject.

  • In the event of life and death, Hanzo would choose for those he cared over himself, regardless of his ego and regardless of his 'honor’ complex.

Edit 11/26/2017, because apparently I can’t keep all of my notes together:

  • Hanzo’s allure to wealth and power puts him on a dubious see-saw of integrity; painfully aware of his own definition of purpose, his brother’s supposed death unsurfacing the dismissed merits of compassion and mercy deep within his person. Yet juxtaposing his individual morality is the very virtues of his upbringing, that though he has turned away from the old, intensive rights of his clan, he remains impounded by their foundations. Should he, or rather were he, be tempted to satisfy the fabricated entitlements of his blood and tradition, Hanzo may not necessarily find himself succumbing, but indeed embattled between his humanity and his self-impeached crown.

  • Hanzo is a practical man. Given the situation, he will not kill or injure lest it is necessary, and like wise he will lend his aid to others if politics requires it. However, outside of those he has grown close to, rarely will he act out of charity, finding it wasteful for not only himself but also for the person in need, and if it doesn’t align with his own endeavors and or benefits him in some way. In this same light, Hanzo’s practical-mindedness, along with his experience as a crime leader, makes him an excellent negotiator, off-cuff interrogator, and able to maintain his composure under significant pressure

In essence, Hanzo is an incredibly flawed character of ambiguity on all fronts, and suffers from a fair amount of internal turmoil. However, how he presents himself outwardly serves as a shell for what he is within, which exists even as he refuses to acknowledge it. Given time, pleasant relationships and plenty of shattering wake up calls, Hanzo may yet come towards his truer self.

Other people and Cartoon Network themselves don’t seem to understand WHY people hate Teen Titans Go

If you bring up TTG and your dislike of it, you’re either greeted with people who agree with you, or people who say ‘You’re living in the past’ or ‘It’s a KIDS show get over it’ or ‘This is different, it’s not meant to be taken seriously’

This is what people and Cartoon Network themselves fail to understand: We get that and pretty much fully accept this is not OUR Teen TItans

It’s not that we’re opposed to the idea of a comedic reboot of something we love at all, I mean it’s worked amazingly in the past! Sonic is really benefiting from it with the new cartoon series, and even something as serious as BATMAN turned into Batman Brave and the Bold, and a lot of people love that series!!

So it’s not the fact that they turned Teen Titans into a comedy: It’s the fact that they did it wrong on so many levels, and the fact that the show runners and the network itself act like literal children when it comes to criticism.

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Thoughts from a Future Psychologist on Season 3 of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

I have been watching Crazy Ex-Girlfriend since mid-season 2, and to say that this show felt different from the beginning is an understatement.  I saw the show on Netflix and decided to start watching it without really knowing the premise other than what the title was. I expected a show that was light-hearted and a little dramatic and showed us a slightly unlikable but ultimately redeemable heroine. I was right, but just not in the way I thought I would be. From the second episode when Rebecca utters the words “exeunt pursued by a bear” to excuse herself from an awkward social situation I was hooked. The hilarious and on-the-nose musical numbers and feminist meta were simply added bonuses; however, as the story progressed I was so much more excited as a PhD candidate in Counseling Psychology to see that this was going somewhere unheard of in network television land. We were finally going to see a realistic portrayal of mental illness on television in the form of a well-written, multi-dimensional female character.

Now, here we are in season three, waiting for the penultimate game changing moment where our favorite “crazy ex” finally starts unpacking some serious childhood trauma and emotional issues. The subject of Rebecca’s diagnosis is exciting for me as a mental health professional, and while I believe that the diagnosis will lean a certain way based off of what we’ve been shown and the research that I know Rachel Bloom and Aline Brosh McKenna have done, I want to go a step further by unpacking some of the things about Rebecca’s history that we as an audience should keep in mind as we go through this journey with these characters.

1) First and foremost, there is a psychological history surrounding certain disorders being diagnosed in women and not men due to psychology’s own sordid history of misogyny and victim blaming. My personal believe is that we will see Rebecca come away with a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. Some of the symptoms of BPD are:

- underdeveloped self-identity

- dissociative states

- chronic feelings of emptiness

- compromised ability to recognize the feelings and needs of others

- history of unstable relationships

- anxiety, worry, and panic

- frequent mood changes

- fears of rejection and abandonment 

-risky sexual behavior

- substance abuse

Sound like our Rebecca yet?

However, BPD is often diagnosed disproportionately in women. Several feminists would argue that this is due to a patriarchal history of pathologizing women’s emotional states in reaction to severe traumatic experiences. I’m not saying this is a legitimate argument against BPD, simply that it is something to keep in mind if this is Rebecca’s eventual diagnosis. This segues me into my next point.

2) Trauma affects its victims in various ways and several of the symptoms we see in BPD are also symptoms commonly seen in various trauma disorders.  They’re obviously different in several aspects, but there is some overlap. Rebecca is no stranger to trauma. She has trauma from the abandonment she experienced at the hand of her father, the controlling and abusive relationship she has with her mother, and the show even hints at generational trauma that Rebecca might identify with in relation to her religious identity. Her symptomology and behaviors show us someone who is trying to cope with a traumatic history that we might have only scratched the surface of as an audience. Rebecca is not a reliable narrator and there is so much about her as a character that she keeps hidden from us as an audience because she denies it about herself. 

3) Finally, we need to remind ourselves that while Rebecca’s actions (especially in the latest episode) are not excusable, she is not the only guilty party in this narrative. Just like in real life, every player in this story has done something to enable or reinforce Rebecca’s behavior at some point or another (except for maybe White Josh and Heather). Furthermore, there are a lot of things about the other characters that we still have unanswered questions to that I think will play a larger role at some point in the storyline of the show, specifically Josh. We still do not know what he was doing in New York, why he decided to move back to West Covina, why he’s afraid of commitment, and why he also has issues with his self-image. Josh as a character could be seen as an archetype of the traditional male rom-com lead; however, he’s not. He’s a dynamic character that we simply have not been shown every side of yet because the story POV has been so focused on him as an ideal of Rebecca’s solution to her problems. We could write him off as a product of the socialization of men in Western culture; he’s immature, he’s fickle, he can’t commit, he allows himself to be infantilized by his parents and friends, but this show and its characters are the brainchild of two very smart women who have done their research. Josh Chan has his own history as a character that I fully believe we will delve deeper into as this thesis on the idea of the “crazy ex-girlfriend” is unraveled.

4) The female friendships within the show paint us a bigger picture of the overall idea of what we should be learning from each episode. Female friendships are weird, but rewarding. We are socialized to be polite and submissive or catty and competitive. At different times within the show’s narrative all of the female friendships grow and evolve into each of these stereotypes, and what we can glean from that is that women are actually complex and human. Women and their relationships to each other are not as clearly defined as media wants us to believe, even feminist media. While it’s ideal to think that women should all support each other or its stereotypical to think that women all hate each other, the truth is that we are all complex and human and our relationships as women are consistently changing. Furthermore, these concepts of competition or support would not really be discussed in relation to mens’ friendships because men as characters are allowed to be dynamic and exist as singular entities, which is the point. Audiences should begin to allow female characters to be complex and growing and changing without vilifying them for having interpersonal conflicts in the same way they allow male characters to do the same.

I honestly could write an entire dissertation on this show and the intricacies of its portrayal of mental health and the deconstruction of the archetype of the crazy ex. It’s brilliant and original and important. Art is supposed to say something, and for the first time in a long time the idea of a television show as a think piece on American culture is true again. Plus there’s songs! Bloom and McKenna have outdone themselves in putting a new-wave feminist perspective on these issues and I will go to my grave singing the praises of such a brilliant subversion of everything modern media tells us we should be as women.

Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

[I didn’t want to make this too lengthy since it’s 1:00 am in the morning. I can’t be bothered to make a detailed analysis for Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo although I really wanted to express my admiration for it because I loved every bit of it.]

I have seen hype for this drama EVERYWHERE but as usual, I’ve never bothered to check it out. Now that I’ve started watching it (and already on the latest episode!), I can say that it’s such it’s exactly my type. How and why? I’ve never been much of a K-drama person, having W as the only drama I genuinely liked. I am extremely picky, if you haven’t noticed(cue the eye roll) Plus, this is a story between a weightlifter and a swimmer — that is not exactly appealing to me. But you see, the drama makes you feel so light-hearted but at the same time it doesn’t feel like the show slacks on the production and story just so it wouldn’t be too complex. It’s laidback without pushing it too much, so it shows you not just Kim Bok Joo and her budding relationship with Jung Joon Hyung, but also different depths of the characters that revolve in the story. As a matter of fact, it even shows you the side of the supposed rival, Si Ho, instead of making her look like a bad person without a reason just so the main couple’s relationship would stand out.
Each of the character’s personalities feel so realistic. The fact that they made characters like Jung Joon Hyung, struggling with PTSD, Song Si Ho, struggling with depression and eating disorders, and even the main character Kim Bok Joo sufferimg from the feeling of emptiness and hesitation may seem like a small thing to others but a very big thing to me. Although we belong in a completely different situation, them being athletes and me being the complete opposite, I experience the same problems, often feel like I have no idea what to do with my life, and have an eating disorder myself. Trying to overcome that is no easy job. Not only that, but it’s nice to see that real-life athletes get a representation of what they feel and how they may not seem as strong as they physically look. On the other hand, I also applaud Seon Ok and Nan Hee for being such strong women and for having great pride for their weightlifting skill. Although at times they may seem ashamed of it, they never gave up on it just because people told them weightlifting wasn’t for women. (I would also like to include how genuine their friendship felt like!)

All darker themes aside, as I’ve mentioned, it’s a drama you don’t have to think much about. The chemistry between Bok Joo and Joon Hyung, played by Lee Sung Kyung and Nam Joo Hyuk respectively, will draw you in. It’s so natural and absolutely adorable. It’s cute and quirky without being too cheesy or pretentious. If you’d sum it up, their relationship is basically just these two college kids having casual banters, petty arguments, and crazy antics here and there with their friends and fellow college students. It’s like falling in love with your best friend, like the “I feel safe and carefree with you that’s why I like you” kind of way.

It’s definitely a recommend for everyone, especially for youths because I know you’ll be glad to have a show understand your struggles somehow, but at the same time make you stay up all night wriggling and screeching your butts off. It shows you both the beauty and the reality of youth. Can’t wait for episode 14!

Perceptive Functions

Extroverted Intuition (Ne)

Ne is about seeing all the possibilities, all the possible endings and directions of a situation. It synthesizes abstract ideas and easily understands connections between everything. People using Ne are able to connect up things, people, cases etc, that you would never imagine they would fit together. What is more, Ne takes one thing and it analyzes into many different things. Extroverted intuition is capable of entertaining multiple contradictory ideas simultaneously as it sees almost every side to every situation. It is predominantly a future-oriented function that examines all the possibilities of what could happen next. Those people are usually excitable (especially by the unknown or the totaly new) and highly creative. Ne people, can change the subject of a conversation so easily that you won’t even notice. They intrinsically enjoy debating ideas, exploring various interests and they view almost everything in life as challenging or fun. They also have vivid imaginations. They are constantly thinking about what to do or experience next, but have a difficult time sticking with just one idea or plan long-term. They get bored easily and they always need something different and new in order to keep up with.

Example: Someone gives to a Ne the word “Life”. Ne will act like: Life. Life is colour. Flowers have many colours so life is flowers. Flowers mean spring. My grandma loves spring. In spring I have my birthday. Spring is my friend’s Zoe (Zoe means Life in Greek) worst season. Birthday? Birthday is the best day in the world for each person. Did you know the world’s population is 6,5.000.000 +…. etc. That’s because Ne loves analyzing things in all possible ways and then connecting those things together.

Introverted Intuition (Ni):

Ni forms a framework of how the world works based on thorough, abstract analysis of past and current events. It aims to identify the “essence” of ideas, theories, people and situations in order to fit them into a larger schema. Introverted intuition is a forward thinking function that seeks to identify the optimal or most likely outcome of future events. People who lead with introverted intuition always try to find the most possible end in situations etc. They are usually intense people, focused and highly perceptive of inconsistencies that arise in their external environment. They enjoy riddles, puzzles and wordplay. When they end up in a conclusion, it’s really hard to make them change their minds because they think that what they guessed it’s the only right thing. They often experience “hunches” or “aha” moments that they may identify as epiphanies. They are excited by the unknown. They usually need time when forming an answer and often, they will return days after your last conversation in order to tell you something they thought or they learned during this period. While Ne is all about seeing all future possibilities (even the wrong ones), Ni is about seeing the one most sure/obvious possibility. Their intense foresight is a product of their future-oriented introverted intuition subtly pairing with their low extroverted sensing.

Example: A Ni is watching a complex movie with friends. One of the characters keeps saying that they feel alone, they don’t know or care about the future, they never smile etc. The Ni user will automatically conclude that this character will die or commit sucide eventually and they will probably be right. That’s because Ni knows to take in information from patterns, symbols, behaviour, unnoticed things etc and then to sum all those things up and find the final result.

Extroverted Sensing (Se):

Se is focused on taking in the world as it exists in the present moment. It is highly in tune with the sights, smells, sounds and general physical stimulus that surrounds it. Extroverted Sensing lives and thrives in the moment, more so than any other function. People who lead with Se are often naturally athletic, highly impulsive, observing and enjoy ever-changing stimuli. They place a high value on aesthetics and lust after the “finer things in life”. Extroverted sensors usually aren’t interested in over-analyzing a situation. They simply see what they want and they go for it. These types tend to exude a natural sense of confidence, as they are usually quite sure of who they are and what they want. If they want to say something, they say it. If they want to hear something in a noisy room, they will tell others to stop talking. They like doing sensory activities (or sports).

Example: When you try to read a book or do your homework or a project and you automatically turn your head and look at a butterfly out of the window, it’s your Se function noticing an external sound, figure etc and it wants you to stop doing what you’re doing and just keep looking at that butterfly. Se users would also want to go outside and touch the butterfly.

Introverted Sensing (Si):

Si is a detail-oriented, information storage function. It takes note of facts, events and occurrences exactly as they happen and categorizes them, somewhat like an internal filing system. This is a past-oriented function that dwells predominantly on what has been and it often gives way to nostalgia. People who lead with Si are organized and structured, as they believe in being prepared for any potential problem. They hold tradition in high esteem and believe that the tried and true method is always the best way of getting things done. Introverted sensors believe that the future will repeat the past, more so than any other type. They hate the unexpected and they always want to feel secure about anything. They hardly ever try new things or different methods of doing something because they see the good - old method as the best one. They also connect things that are happening now, with similar things that happend in the past. They are really good at remembering details such as names, numbers, dates, street names, adresses etc.

Example: A Si person looks at a red dress. The way they react will be like: Wow look at that dress. It reminds me of a longer, red dress my second cousin, Mary, was wearing four years ago in a school party next to that street at 8:30 PM, and she was so beautiful with that dress and I remember a tall, thin boy called Bob telling her… etc.

Decision - Making Functions

Introverted Feeling (Fi):

Fi is about deep analysis of personal emotional processes and morality. It seeks to break down emotions to their core and understand them as wholly as possible. It also develops a strong internal value system of right and wrong, which the Fi user employs to make decisions. Fi searches for the deeper meaning behind everything. Introverted feelers are highly aware of their own emotions, and when they put themselves in the shoes of others, they can often feel their pain or joy on a personal level. That means they cannot feel in the same way what others feel. They are sympathetic (understand the pain/joy), but not empathetic (feel the pain/joy of others). People who lead with Fi are compassionate, analytical and often highly concerned with moral issues. It is very common for them to be self-conscious because they find it hard to understand how others may react to something they do or say. They are usually highly creative or artistic, and may feel as though nobody else truly understands who they are deep down because their feelings are introverted, so they aren’t comfortable expressing how they feel outwardly. They express their passion through art, music, poetry etc. They have a rich inner world that they want to guard. They mainly advocate for staying true to yourself and do what makes you happy.

Example: In a survivor game, there is a Fi user that has to do something they don’t like/want to. Fi users would never do something they’d feel it’s wrong. Let’s suppose that someone tells them to kill an animal (a turtle, a fish etc). The Fi person will probably not do it because this is what their moral/ethic code of right-wrong tell them to do, even if that means they will not eat.

Extroverted Feeling (Fe):

Fe is highly concerned with maintaining social norms and keeping the peace. It is a decision-making function that strives to do what is best for the group and picks up naturally on the emotions of others. It is a mirroring function that may cause the user to have trouble deciphering and understanding their own feelings without the input of others. Extroverted feeling requires social interaction to stay fulfilled, more so than any other function. People who lead with Fe are highly reactive and sensitive to the feelings of others. They seek out social interaction relentlessly, as they feel the happiest and most alive when they are in the company of loved ones. They seek to maintain harmony and keep the peace at all costs – they cannot fully enjoy themselves unless the people around them are healthy, happy and comfortable. Although they do have personal moral standards, they usually try to create harmony and peace, even if that means sacrificing a part of their individuality. Warning! People who use Fe, will not feel healthy and happy, until everyone they care about is happy. If you see someone feeling sad by keeping harmony, it means they are not Fe. Maybe they are Fi. Fe is happy when everyone is happy. Fi wants everyone to be happy, but only if it is happy first.

Example: Five friends plan to go out for food and everyone wants to eat pizza except from a Fe user who wants Italian. The Fe user probably won’t tell what they really want to eat and they will agree with others on pizza, since they don’t want to ruin the atmosphere. This is what makes them happy, so they won’t feel sad for not eating pizza.

Extroverted Thinking (Te):

Te seeks to impose order on the external environment as efficiently and logically as possible. It’s about doing what you know and using your knowledge and information. It values productivity above all else and is a results-based, action-oriented function. Te wants to see results, it doesn’t care about the process or the system behind it. It naturally implements concrete plans for accomplishing goals and is quick to make decisions. People who lead with extroverted thinking are frank, decisive, calm, ambitious and highly productive in every capacity. They are natural leaders, goal-oriented in the workplace as they are quick to take charge and give orders. Extroverted thinkers may come across as bossy, hard, or opinionated to those who lack the function, but in reality they are simply pointing out what they believe to be the most efficient course of action for everyone involved. Te will ask “how the system works and what else can be done?” while Ti will ask “why the system works that way and what else is happening behind it?”. Te will not learn something they think it’s not useful or something that will not help them achieve.

Example: Te is given a program about a project that must be done. The schedule is like: First, we need to do x. After, we should tell y to do z so after these and these courses of action, the result should be like this. Te will probably not care about the process. They will overlook it and they will keep in mind just the result of the project. They will work the way they want in order to logically achieve their final goal, without showing importance on the process and the schedule.

Introverted Thinking (Ti):

Ti is an information-gathering function that seeks to form a framework for how and why the world works on a concrete, tangible level. It is adept at understanding systems and naturally notices inconsistencies within them. Ti seeks a thorough understanding of how things work as a whole. It wants to deconstruct things to look at the individual parts and see how things function together. Ti will also ask why, when etc. It cares about the process of things and not so much about the result. They cannot be satisfied with just a small answer or just what the goal is. They want to know everything about the process, about the idea behind it. They are logical, systematic and objective to a fault. Introverted thinkers will learn something for knowledge’s sake. It doesn’t matter if they will never use the information. They just want to know. Even if it’s useless. They ask a lot of questions about everything they think it’s questionable. They enjoy finding “short-cuts” that increase efficiency within a given system. Ti users are often heavily introverted, as they take a great deal of time to understand how things work before they feel comfortable sharing or acting on their knowledge. They prefer not talking about what they have in mind and they hate it when others think out loud.

Example: Ti is given a mathematical exercise which goes like: A=E. Ti will be annoyed by the exercise and the person that created it. That’s because Ti wants to see all the process. It doesn’t care that A equals E. They want to know the whole action. So they correct the exercise and they make it look like: A=B, B=C, C=D, D=E, so A=E.

Hope this helps ☺

Let’s Talk: About Tifa Lockhart

Dramatic title completely unneeded but I’m in a bit of a bubbly mood right now and want to talk about a female character who holds a very close place in my heart. 

This is not the first time I have talked about Tifa, or sang a song of praise for her, or written a defense for her. 

I don’t know if this post counts as meta or a character appreciation, but I just wanted to share my personal experience on why I love this woman so much. 

This is just me rambling on so I hope those reading this get some enjoyment out of….whatever this is?

I apologize if this gets really sappy and corny. 

Tifa is just fantastic ok. I love her. She’s a badass. There’s just no way around it, Tifa is a certified badass. 

She is a very complex character and has so many nuances about her. 

Her general personality aside, I admire her emotional strength. 

Tifa is a pillar. She’s a pillar of strength for so many people. Tifa has been through so much trauma I honestly wonder to myself how she’s even able to function in CoT and AC. 

Tifa shows a strength that deserves the utmost respect. 

Tifa’s first traumatic loss was her mother at 8 years old in which she was so distraught she had tunnel vision when it came to the consequences of her actions. A very human response to extreme emotional stress. 

She begins losing friends as they all are leaving town in search of jobs, yet Tifa remains productive. 

She’s a tour guide, took up martial arts training, she plays piano, she reads a lot, she keeps up to date with current events, and seems to have a fondness for playing the guardian angel. 

In BC Tifa had taken in a sick cat and cared for it, and I totally believe Tifa is the type of person who would volunteer at an animal shelter or who would be part of an animal rescue team, or honestly just do it because she has such a soft heart. 

When Tifa first reunited with Cloud at the train station, she didn’t even know it was Cloud. She saw some guy laying in the mud under the pouring rain, and without a second thought jumped to his side to see if he was alright and needed any type of help. 

It was then she realized it was Cloud. She didn’t even know! She just saw someone in trouble and acted. 

Tifa is a protector and a nurturer. 

When her father was murdered, she became so distraught (again) and had complete tunnel vision (again) and charged at Sephiroth without worrying about her own safety. 

After this traumatic loss of her father and hometown at such a young age, she quickly adapts to life at Midgar. She begins managing a successful bar and even becomes a mother figure to a little girl. 

In FF7, Tifa is only 20 years old. She’s so young, and she’s been through so much, yet she has also accomplished so much as well. 

When Cloud was in Mideel, again, she put her own health at risk to make sure he was getting the best care. 

In Dissidia, Tifa put herself in danger by approaching Kain, and reaffirmed that she is still his friend despite what he’s done, and showed compassion and forgiveness towards him. 

Tifa also showed compassion towards Cloud in Dissidia. Despite not remembering their past, not remembering their promise, not remembering anything, she sacrificed her life to save his. (This part is an essay for another day)

Tifa shows great compassion to Aerith, realizing Aerith probably lived a lonely and hard life despite Aerith always being so bright and outgoing. These two women formed an extremely strong bond very quickly. 

Tifa is protective of Aerith, and is utterly repulsed at Hojo calling her “specimen” and treating her as though she’s nothing but some tool or ingredient. 

In Dissidia Omnia, Tifa is the first one ready to throw down with Kuja and Kefka for attempting to take Aerith. 

In World of Final Fantasy, she charges in to protect Reynn and Lann without a second thought. 

In AC, she is so injured and can’t protect Marlene, but that doesn’t stop her from forcing her body to continue on (even though her body completely gave out on her) 

In AC, she also uses herself as a meat shield in order to protect Denzel. 

I won’t pretend that this isn’t extremely reckless and foolish of Tifa to put herself in situations that could harm her, but her intention is to protect people. 

It was even Tifa’s idea to have Denzel live with them permanently. 

I know that Tifa is not everyone’s favorite character or even liked character for some people, but for me, she is so many things. 

After all the trauma she experienced throughout her life, she is not jaded or bitter. 

However, it’s not as though these traumas just bounce off her but they have knocked her to the ground and continued the beating. Tifa stands up, tears streaming down her face, wiping the blood from her lip as she trembles, wondering how she will continue on. Then, she sees someone who needs help, she sees someone who is wounded and she rushes to their side to aid them despite her own injuries. 

And to me personally, I find this so inspiring. She has not become jaded, or bitter, and it has not caused her heart to become stone. 

Her heart remains soft and kind in a cruel world. 

Earlier, I called Tifa a pillar. Pillars hold things up, they support, they are structured, but they can be damaged. However, they can also be repaired and re-enforced. 

Though that pillar will never be the same as it once was, it is still standing. 

Tifa Lockhart is a beautiful character. She is wounded, there are moments where she doesn’t know if she can continue on, there are moments she needs to be reassured, but she’s still standing. 

Despite all the pain, and all the shit she had to go through, she will always be there for the people she cares about, and even be there for people she doesn’t even know simply because they needed help, and she was there. 

This trait of hers acts as a positive but also a negative. 

What I like about this trait being Tifa’s is that Tifa is just some girl from a small backwater town. 

She’s not the last of her kind. She’s not a princess. She’s not an Oracle. She is not the daughter of a hero, nor does she have dreams of becoming a hero. She is part of no legacy, has no sacred duty to fulfill. 

She is just a girl from a small town who loves and cares deeply. 

anonymous asked:

i don't see anyone in the fandom being at all hateful. y'all are just mad pricefield isn't the ship most fans like the most anymore. let people love whatever they want to love, it makes them happy, let them be happy.

Oh, good, I must’ve just imagined all of the hateful Max-bashing and PriceField bashing I’ve seen across Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube. I feel like the only reason I haven’t seen it here is because Tumblr has no proper commenting system.

I completely agree with your last sentence, yea. I’ve never said there’s anything wrong with people loving what they want to love, but I do think AmberPrice is functionally unhealthy and harmful for both characters in the long run, and so glorifying and romanticizing it OVER the relationship that actually brought healing and maturity is just a little backwards to me. It’s not that I think it’s “Wrong” to ship it, it’s that I’m uncomfortable with grown adults actively marketing unhealthy teen romances to the masses. As I’ve expressed in my deep dives on BtS, I think Deck Nine is self aware of these issues, and the damage Rachel causes to people around her is actually a pretty prominent and recurring theme of BtS, all while wonderfully (so far, at least) expressing that in a way that doesn’t paint Rachel as a villain – she’s not a problem, she’s a person. And ya know what? So is Max – just because Max’s social anxieties are internalized (whereas Chloe’s are externalized against others, and Rachel’s are externalized into manipulation) it doesn’t make her faults less excusable, and yet I’ve seen people say such hateful things about her recently. It’s really alarming.

I disagree with the idea that PriceField “isn’t the ship most fans like anymore.” I think a lot of NEW people have jumped on AmberPrice, and I think Episode 2 was able to warm a lot of people up to it in particular (because some really neat stuff was done with it, even in a negative way that’s thematically super interesting). Just wait until that Farewell episode releases and all the original fans of the first game will actually feel comfortable supporting that relationship again, I suspect. Right now, Square wants people to ship AmberPrice, and the ways they’ve done it – going as far as to manipulate PriceField specific content creators to legitimize this new story that was never intended in the first place. And that’s not to say it shouldn’t exist, but to say I don’t see why it should outside of selling these characters, their love, their personal problems, as a product to fans they know care too much to ignore. It really rubs me wrong to see so many talented people, from voice actors to game devs, kind of shoved into this money-making mess that in some ways is devaluing the original story it’s based on.

So, I mean, we could ignore that and get to your “i haven’t seen any of this hate” and like, hey, I’m glad. I wish I hadn’t. But here’s the thing – I’ve seen people, multiple times, in multiple places and ways, talking shit about Max in hateful manners I have never seen anyone talk about Rachel with. (Actually, people did pull similar shit with LiS1 and Chloe)

At that point I don’t even give a fuck about ships. Max is a great character. She didn’t do anything any more wrong than Chloe did, than Rachel did, and she sure as shit doesn’t deserve people saying things like “she should be dead instead” or “she should’ve killed herself like that journal page showed” and it’s things like that that really make me worried. Even back with the nonsense in the Avatar fandom shits I never saw people saying shit like, “yea well Aang should’ve died” or “Zuko should just kill himself” and tbh characters in THAT show did some pretty dark and not OK shit to each other, much worse than just…becoming distant over time because of social anxiety.

Then again, a lot of folks in the Avatar fandom weren’t as adolescent, ironically – until a sequel happened. And just like that series, I see an uptick in immature mannerisms, behavior, and mentalities happening – because a prequel happened. And I see the fandom splitting itself apart in ways that never happened before this prequel, even though we already knew basically all of this already.

Square’s marketing/management has only worsened the situation and made a number of passionate, dedicated fans of the original fan uncomfortable in their own fandom, and that’s just sad and messed up. I feel unsafe openly expressing my feelings on Reddit, where the LiS section has just become a hivemind to the hype train. I really like Deck Nine, I like these new actors, I feel for the old ones, I feel for Dont Nod, I just…feel bad for most everyone involved in this, because it was all a really complex, delicate, uncomfortable thing to do in the first place.

But “the fans” asked for it, and when that happens, corporations can practically smell the money and can’t resist. TBH I get the impression BtS isn’t performing to expectations – probably because Square assumed it would somehow sell MORE than the original, when that just was never going to happen. And that upsets me, too, because Deck Nine seems pretty damned awesome and I’ve had personal contact with some folks there, they’re great, I am glad they have their heads in the game (literally). But I feel like their skills are kinda being wasted on what basically has amounted to fan service.

#TheOne thing I did not expect to see with this fandom was cannibalizing itself over fucking shipping and trash-talking the main fucking character of the actual main story en masse. #TheOne thing I did not want to see (but knew would happen when this project got revealed) was a romance between minors built on an unsteady foundation being packaged and branded as “The Best Thing please buy it”

Ford has been, and always shall be, an irrational character. There are very few decisions he comes to in the show that are logically sound. He starts from faulty assumptions and emotional precipices left and right.

He doesn’t think he does this, but it happens. He’s so used to seeing the world through two filters: his “freak” filter and his “intelligence” filter. Those two things effect him so strongly, he doesn’t even realize it. But he comes to conclusions and decisions by filtering every new situation through them, and it leads to some disastrous results.

(It’s not entirely Ford’s fault, either. Everyone has a Filter. Everyone filters the world through something that profoundly affected them. Stan’s filter is “worthless” or “punching”. And those filters got pushed on the boys until they became so entwined with their identities, they couldn’t pull themselves away).

Ford implying he’s kicking Stan out at the end of the summer was not a logical, rational choice, but to his mind it was. “I’m back, it’s mine anyway, he shouldn’t have stole it, it was his fault in the first place, I deserve it.” Those are all things he must have thought in the process of making that decision. But each of those thoughts were by-products of his Filters. 

Deciding to kick Stan out wasn’t logical. He based that on the presumption “Stan used to be fine, Stan can get by, Stan will be fine again.” And that was a faulty presumption. But it flowed right through his “freak” filter and his “freak” filter told him Stan is normal, he’s got personality, he’s good with people, something you’ve never been able to achieve, people like Stan, people don’t like you, Stan will be fine, just like he was in the past.

And Ford didn’t think to second guess those quick thoughts because they were just steps in the chain to his decision. He barely even realized those thoughts were there. His “freak” filter tossed them right out and left him with the idea of Stan will be fine.

So no, Ford is not the cold-hearted, made of stone, logical character he gets passed off as. He’s complex and struggling and filtering his perception of the world through some faulty analysis, and it leads to some poor decisions, that he doesn’t see as poor because he’s convinced himself “it’s the smart thing to do.”

Ford later comes to realize that maybe he was wrong, and definitely some things need to change. He may never fully realize how much of his life he’s filtered through “freak” and “intelligence”, but he does learn that he can’t pretend to be an island, and he reaches out to Stan and the others to try and rebuild the relationships he singed while filtering life like that.