because i need a break to process everything

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*cries forever*

“An honorable human relationship — that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love” — is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.It isn’t that to have an honorable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you. It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us.The possibility of life between us.”

Adrienne Rich, from On Lies, Secrets & Silence  

I’ve done so much for you, maybe not physically but emotionally. I fed your ego and starved mine. I let you use me because it meant I was still yours. I took care of you and destroyed myself in the process. I dropped everything else in my life to make it revolve around you. I cried myself at night over you hoping you’d be okay the next morning. I’d break every bone in my body for you. But what I didn’t realize was that the feeling wasn’t mutual.
—  2am thoughts

An honorable human relationship — that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love” — is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.

It isn’t that to have an honorable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you. It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us.

The possibility of life between us.

Adrienne Rich

anonymous asked:

Last week, after they gave us episode 7 on friday, they released a new clip of episode 1.8 the next morning. Lets all hope they give us a new clip to at least reassure us tomorrow! Please

I know where you’re coming from, anon. I want to know if Isak’s safe… I want Even to be safe as well… But at the same time, a part of me doesn’t want to see a clip? I think it’s amazing how realistic this show feels. I, like many other people in this fandom, just need a little break right now? To carefully process everything that took place in today’s episode.It really opened my eyes. (Mostly because of personal reasons.) But whatever happens, this show has proven me wrong so many times, I’m much calmer now.  So even if we don’t get a new clip soon, don’t worry too much! Everything will be okay.

Hope you’re doing well!