because i need a break to process everything

An honorable human relationship — that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love” — is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.

It isn’t that to have an honorable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you. It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us.

The possibility of life between us.

—  Adrienne Rich, from On Lies, Secrets & Silence

So just because Mary has some good qualities, I should be okay with Joseph and her staying in their unhappy and unfulfilling marriage?
Mary has shown to be a loving person to her friends but none of that love was given to her husband and children. If Mary was shown to be a good mother and wife instead of a neglectful alcoholic mother, I would have been like “Okay it’s pretty shitty that Joseph would cheat on her and I feel kinda guilty for trying to break up a marriage.” 

I get that it’s bad to try and break up a marriage and being a homewrecker. I wouldn’t have minded, though, if Joseph’s end was to stop seeing the MC to finalize his divorce and start dating when everything has settle, but they decided to keep Joseph in a shitty marriage because Mary is sometimes a nice gal. And it’s not fair for Mary either because it’s obvious that she’s unhappy too, whether it’s because she doesn’t love Joseph or because Joseph doesn’t love her. 

I don’t necessary need MC to be together with Joseph in the end, but I would have liked to see Joseph going through the process of having a happy life without putting on a facade for the Maple Bay community. 

And why not give us the option of helping Joseph instead of simple fucking him on his boat? They made MC and Joseph into bad people without an option to take the moral high ground. 

I don’t regret buying the game because I love these characters, but I’m disappointed that more thought wasn’t put into Joseph and his end. It’s not right to break up a marriage, but it’s not right to think that a gay man should remain in a broken marriage with a woman simple because Mary is kinda okay. 

Cave In part Three

FP x Reader

Summary : You and Polly have been best friends almost all your life. Today you graduated from high school, and she, along with the group decided to celebarate with you at Pops. But you run into someone there who you have a secret past with.

(Reader is 18.)

Song : Maybe by Alina Baraz

Warning : language. Some angst and very very light smut. Lol idk.

A/N: if you want to be tagged in the future parts, please send me an ask!

Part One - Part Two

His words were playing over and over in your head. Giving you a sense of happiness in that very moment.

The guy you were secretly falling for, felt the exact same thing. But why is it so hard?

FP stood there, staring intently at you. Wondering what you were thinking and regretting ever telling you how he felt.

He was beginning to freak out from your silence.

You wanted to tell him how you felt too. Tell him that you were falling in love with him no matter how hard you tried not too. But you couldn’t. For some reason, you were speechless. Frozen in your stance.

It wasn’t because you felt nervous, you were shocked and tried to process everything.

FP cleared his throat, breaking the silence.

“Say something, please.” He said.

You slightly opened your mouth, about to tell him everything before you were interrupted by Polly.

“Hey!” She smiled, standing the the first steps to the trailer. “Everything okay?”

FP glanced back at her, and flashed a smirk.

“Peachy.” He said, with an annoyed tone.

“Well, we are about to play charades. And I need my partner.” She muttered.

You nodded, and waved a finger in the air. “I’ll be there in a minute.”

She squealed and made her way inside, leaving you alone with the older Jones.

“I have to go.” You said. “But don’t think for a second that this conversation is over, Forsythe Pendleton Jones the second.”

FP let out a soft chuckle, a tiny smile playing on his lips.

“Come on Y/N!” Polly called out through the window.

And with that, you said your goodbyes to FP and made your way inside, which he followed.

He spent the night in the kitchen, sitting on the table. His eyes still on you as you and the group were playing charades.

He watched the way you laughed with everyone. Cracking jokes and making fun of one another. He even noticed you glance back at him from time to time.

But as time went on, and as his mind grew fuzzier from the alcohol, he realized that he couldn’t be with you the way he wanted.

FP didn’t want to hold you back. To keep you from living your life and finding someone you truly deserve.

Not only was the age gap a big reason, but also because he had too much baggage and didnt want to burden you.

Everything began to weigh on him, and he knew he couldn’t sit there and watch you.

“Hey, lets go to Pop’s.” Jughead said. “Burgers and fries sound so good right now.”

Betty chuckled and nodded. “Lets go.”

You glanced back to look at FP but he was nowhere in sight. You leaned to your side, too look down the hall and noticed his light on in his room through the crack of his door.

The group started walking outside with you following behind. You tried to focus on them, and what they were talking about but all you could think about was FP.

“Hey–” you said catching everyone’s attention. “I have to run home really quick.”

Archie furrowed his brows, holding veronica close to him. “Right now? It’s dark and–”

“I know, but I left my wallet there.”

“Y/N, it’s okay. I can pay for you.” Betty smiled.

You shook your head, “n-no I can’t have you do that. It’s fine.” You said. “I’ll run home, get my wallet and then I’ll meet you guys at Pop’s.”

“Do you want me to go with you?” Archie asked.

“What? No! No. It’s okay–” you said with a grin. “I’ll be fine. My house isn’t that far.”

They all nodded and waved bye as they made their way into Polly’s moms car.

You stood there and waited until they drove off and disappeared into the night.

Once they were out of sight, you turned around and walked back to the trailer. A part of you growing nervous while the other felt a bit invincible.

You slowly shut the door behind you and started down the hall way. Feeling your heart beat with every step you took.

You knocked on the door, and only heard FP groan. Suggesting you to open the door, which you did.

He was sprawled out on his bed, with his eyes shut.

This was the first time ever being in his room, and it was exactly what you pictured it would look like. Making you chuckle to yourself.

“Hey.” You whispered.

The second you spoke, FP looked up at you. His brows furrowing, wondering to himself.

“W-What’re you doing here?” He asked.

You took in a deep breath and stepped inside. Causing FP to pull himself up and sit on the edge of his bed. More intrigued than before.

“I told you we weren’t finished with that conversation.” You exhaled.

FP didn’t say a word, only kept his eyes on you. Trying hard not to get up and kiss you right there and then.

The tension was so thick, it was almost unbearable.

“I am in love with you, FP Jones.” You said, taking slow steps towards him. “And it scares the hell out of me too.”

You were standing right in front of him, in between his legs, looking down. He could feel as if his breath shook in the back of his throat. Every part of him craving to feel you close.

It was quiet in the room, with the sound of your heart beat, thudding in your ears.

You were terrified of moving, but you somehow found just a pinch of courage deep winthin. And suddenly, you straddled his lap.

Chills covered FP immediately, as he began to yearn for you more than before. Your eyes were locked on each other, not once looking away.

You pressed your hand against his chest, feeling his heart beat race.

“I’m yours.” You whispered.

And just like that, FP cupped your cheek and crashed his lips to yours. Pulling you closer to him as he deepened the kiss.

His tongue danced along yours, while his other hand traced down your back, making a shiver ripple along your spine.

Everything felt whole in that very moment. It felt like the world around you had faded and it was only you two.

Your breathing became heavier and you were starting to roll your hips over his lap. Creating a small groan fall from his lips.

His hands gripped your waist. Every part of him wanted you, needed you. And he was so close to rolling you over and tearing your clothes off.

That was until the sound of you phone going off snapped you both back to reality.

He gently pushed you to the side and popped up to his feet. His hands covering his face as he paced back and forth. Fighting himself from pulling you back into him.

It was Polly who called you. But you ignored it instead.

“I’m sorry-” you breathed heavily. “I–”

“I think you should go.” He said. Feeling a knot grow in his throat.

You shot up, furrowing your brows. “What? Why?”

“Because, this can’t happen alright?” He stated. “So just go.”

Suddenly the feelings you felt before were now turning to anger and confusion.

“Are you fucking kidding me?!”

He dropped his hands and met your gaze. “Im not good enough for you! I’m not the guy you are suppose to be with you!”

“I can make my own decisions FP.” You gritted. “So don’t make this about me.”

“You don’t know what you want.” He said. “You’re still–”

“Still what?”

He shook his head and let out a long sigh. Running his fingers through his hair.

“Y/N, this isn’t going to work, alright? You and I can’t be together!”

You felt a tear begin to roll down your cheek but you wiped it away before it could fall.

“You know, there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don’t.” Your voice shook.

And that was your cue to leave.

Not once did you look back, letting the tears go and feeling broken.

FP watched you, fighting himself from running after you. He hated knowing that he hurt you and hated himself for even telling you how he felt.

He was torn, and didn’t know what was wrong or right.

But what he did know was, he felt like everything was falling apart around him.

“Fuck!” He yelled, throwing a punch to the door.


Part Four

Tagging : @cupcakelord2000 @livierinforeva @hufflepuff-ish @bombcheryl @mirajanestrauss1999 @im-a-light-child @holding-onto-youth

Mistakes || Jeon Jungkook (PT. 1)

Word Count: 2.1k

Genre: Angst

I thought you might want to see this.

The words rung out in your head on repeat. You remembered the exact moment Chae Ri had told you. It had been a couple weeks ago, while he had been away on tour.

She had knocked on the apartment door, and you had welcomed her in with open arms, expecting her for your weekly movie night. What you had not expected was for her to pull out her phone and show you a picture of him, with another girl.

It had been taken by someone who had been out the same night as them, only to be posted the next day and it soon made it’s way all over social media. It was on every platform and you couldn’t go anywhere without seeing it.  

You tried to push the image out of your mind, laying in the empty bed. Your attention was brought to the empty sheets beside you where the body was missing. The warmth that had been promised taken away by a too long flight.

There was a loneliness that you were unable to shake off. It was clingy onto your bones, weighing you down and causing your thoughts to run rampant. What was supposed to be a night for you to remember the way it felt to be with another, became a night for you to be reminded of his absence.

Your breath came in shaky and your lungs felt ready to collapse. Evey feeling, every sound, seemed tripled by the empty bedside. Where another body once laid, you wondered if he would ever return.

The picture seemed innocent enough at first, one you would have approved of at first. He had been polite to the girl, or she could have tripped and someone caught the photo at the wrong time. The girl was sat in his lap, looking happy with her position on him.

It wasn’t until you were alone that night, staring at the image in bed that you recognized the white knuckles and the harsh grip on her hips. He had pulled her down and we holding her there.

The girl hadn’t objected, returning the lust-filled gaze he gave her. He did it knowingly, knowing you would see it, knowing that it would ruin you. Your imagination ran rampant with the thoughts of what happened after the photo had been taken.

Jungkook had cheated on you.

Keep reading

In lying to others we end up lying to ourselves. We deny the importance of an event, or a person, and thus deprive ourselves of a part of our lives. Or we use one piece of the past or present to screen out another. Thus we lose faith even in our own lives.

An honourable human relationship—that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love”—is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other.

It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation.

It is important to do this because in so doing we do justice to our own complexity.

It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.

It isn’t that to have an honourable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you.

It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us.

The possibility of life between us.

—  Adrienne Rich, “Women and Honor: Some Notes on Lying,” On Lies, Secrets and Silence

An honorable human relationship — that is, one in which two people have the right to use the word “love” — is a process, delicate, violent, often terrifying to both persons involved, a process of refining the truths they can tell each other. It is important to do this because it breaks down human self-delusion and isolation. It is important to do this because in doing so we do justice to our own complexity. It is important to do this because we can count on so few people to go that hard way with us.

It isn’t that to have an honorable relationship with you, I have to understand everything, or tell you everything at once, or that I can know, beforehand, everything I need to tell you. It means that most of the time I am eager, longing for the possibility of telling you. That these possibilities may seem frightening, but not destructive, to me. That I feel strong enough to hear your tentative and groping words. That we both know we are trying, all the time, to extend the possibilities of truth between us.

The possibility of life between us.

Adrienne Rich

For the fitblr low on cash:

It’s okay not to have the latest Nike app/sportswear.

It’s okay to go without the FitBit.

It’s okay to not eat clean if you can’t afford the produce.

It’s okay to not be able to afford quinoa or almond flower.

It’s okay to order a pizza if it’s all you can afford. 

It’s okay not to have a gym membership.

It’s okay for your workout to be push-ups and sit-ups because you don’t have equipment.

It’s okay to miss a workout because you worked an eight hour shift and just need to collapse on your bed.

It’s great if you have the resources to get these things. It’s great if you are able to eat clean and go running every day and track everything on your FitBit. I know I do. But if your lifestyle doesn’t give you the time or the money to do those things, it. is. okay. You’re putting in your best effort and you care about your body. That’s the most you can ask of yourself. Remember, you need to love your body. Don’t break it in the process.

thebutterflyboudoir  asked:

Can I just say that I'm in love with your moster au?! It's so thoughtful and beautifully done! I was just wondering if you could maybe talk a little more about how the love square fits into this au?

thank you!

i talked about it here and here before but i can expand a bit

basically, Ladynoir is the first one that happens, like in canon. They meet that way, Marinette finally transforming and Adrien, as Chat, finally being able to fly. There’s the same banter as in canon and they have a good time as monsters. Sadly the magic they need to consume to transform doesnt leve them much time to have fun.

Adrienette is still awkard at first, basically because Marinette is discovering how to deal with her new monster powers and keeping them hiding from the rest, while Adrien has been a Sphinx all his life. Adrien believes Marinette is a human, which doesnt help this dynamic cause he believes it’s because he is a monster she doesnt want to be near him. It’s when they are playing videogames when she tells him he is a friend to her, which it’s a relief for Adrien, but he still cant figure out why she blushes and stammers around him.

Ladrien is interesting because it’s where Adrien finaly learns to fly. He has been forbidden to do so to apparent to be more “human”, so he has been conditioned to that. As Chat he doesnt have that weight so he can do it freely. And one day Ladybug helps him to fly. Tells him that she used to be scared but she doesnt anymore. That everyone needs a little push sometimes. 

Marichat is also interesting because Adrien acts “humanly”around her as Chat, he tries to be bypedal which is uncomfortable for Sphinxs, but he doesnt want to scare her more. Which Marinette isnt but he doesnt know that. But Marinette notices cause she has seen Chat around Ladybug, how he walks on four, how he is more cat like. When their encounters happen more in this form she straight up tells him that if he wants to act more as a monster around her she doesnt mind, that she prefers for him to be comfortable. This breaks the boy btw because Marinette is accepting him. This helps the Adrienette dynamic because Adrien starts acting more cat like around her too

Everything changes tho, when Adrien discovers that Marinette is actually a monster

Hey, Clone Club!

As you may or may not know, today I met Graeme Manson and boi, wow, where to even start…

First, there was a panel with him, which started with video messages from the cast (Tat, Kathryn, Kevin, Kristian, Jordan, Josh, Lauren and even John) saying how much they wish they could be here in Brazil, how much they appreciated our fan love and all of our support through the years (I cried with their videos because I’m super emo all the time, it was really cute). 

The first segment of the panel was basically about the process of writing, filming, planning the series, where Graeme answered the questions from the host, it was really fun! He talked a little bit about how everything started, he mentioned wanting to produce a film and all that, but they needed a break before a new project. The second part was all about fan questions and blooper reels! Every 2 or 3 three questions they played one video, 3 in total. Good thing: I got to ask him a question!!! I asked about Rachel and Helena, and if the many parallels between them were intentional, and if yes, why we never got a scene of them together and if it could happen if the film they’re talking about really happens (thanks @katsadako for the suggestion!) first he asked: “Are you a Rachel fan?” and I said “Yes! She’s my baby!” - he laughed and said, obviously joking, “Oh! Rachel fans are the worse!”, we all laughed and I said I was a Helena fan too, then he answered the question saying that they only noticed Rachel and Helena never met by the end of Season 5, and couldn’t think of a way for them to meet, so they preferred to approximate Sarah and Helena more, but he would definitely be very happy to make it happen in a possible film, if it is anything in the same “universe”. He mentioned that ideas of spin offs were popping, but like, not exactly as a continuation, more like companions, other clones.

Ok, end of questions, one more blooper reel, end of panel… NO! THERE’S MORE! There was an invite under 30 chairs for a cocktail in the hotel he’s staying at! How amazing is that? He invited a bunch of fans, film makers, actors, producers, writers to discuss their ideas and meet new people! It was great! Sadly, I didn’t find a invite under my chair… BUT! We all went outside the room, and he started taking pictures and talking to the fans, of course I wanted to tell him about how much this TV show changed my life, specially Tony, because he helped me to come out to my sister as a trans guy. We did talk, he signed my phone case, we took a picture and he hugged me, and I decided to wait until he was done with the other people so I could mention a thing I forgot: Tony was, in fact, the first trans guy I’ve ever seen on TV, well, anywhere really because at that time I was 12 or 13 and had no idea trans man existed. When I got to talk to him and told him that, I couldn’t hold back my tears and cried a little bit, he took a picture of us to show Tatiana and I mentioned I didn’t get an invite, so he asked my name and said I was going with him.

After a while waiting, we went together to the cocktail, talked a bit more and I asked @starconfetti‘s question (about Cosima’s abandonment issues), he said that in his opinion, she had a really loving and supporting family, sometimes distant, but that her constant fear of losing Delphine is just because she loves her deeply.

I spent a good while meeting other fans, talking to him about how Tony was important, we talked about how I learned english, what I wanted to do with my future, took more pictures and all. I am still amazed by how effortlessly nice he is (and I’ve always felt kind of intimidated by him, HA!), and when I needed to head home, we hugged more, I said I wanted to keep in touch (@sarahshelena, I can’t believe I said that to him and your fic was the first thing that came in my mind right after, OH GOD.), so he told me to post our pic and tag him on Twitter, so he could follow me for us to talk, and mentioned that he was communicating with the cast all day and was going to send them our pictures. He called me a “smart dude”, I said “thanks man” and then he told me how important he thinks it was for us to meet, I agreed, we laughed and hugged once more before I left.

Honestly, it was an amazing experience. Usually I do not feel so connected with someone so fast, but he’s extraordinary. Sorry for the long ass post, but I needed to share the whole (and it’s still not whole, because would be as long as a bible) thing. If you ever get the chance to meet him, do not hesitate! It is SO worth it!

Thanks for your attention, and sorry if I didn’t ask your question, it was all so overwhelming! 

Also, I recorded a few videos and audios that I’ll edit to post later! ;) Oh! Sorry for any grammatical mistakes, I am SO sleep deprived, but I couldn’t let the memories fade!!!

High School Band AU: Ch. 17

One, two, three, four!

You sway your hips according to the beat of the drums.

“I know what boys like. I know what guys want. I know what boys like, I’ve got what boys want.”

You walk towards Zen, playing with his hair as he bows a little in your direction playing his guitar.

I know what boys like, I know what guys want, I see them looking.” You march towards Yoosung, grabbing his chin to make him look at you.

“I make them want me, I like to tease them. And they want to touch me, I never let them.” You beckon at Jaehee, winking as you get off the stage and pass next to her… only to go back up there.

“I know what boys like, I know what guys want, I know what boys like. Boys like, boys like me.” Now you go to Saeyoung, bumping your hips against his as you lean on his shoulder.

“I think you’re special. I might let you… You’re so much different! I might let you… There’s no one like you! I might let you… Or would you like that? I might let you…” you were motioning to give Jumin’s butt a quick smack, but seeing Saeran looking straight at you made you serpentine towards him.

“Sucker!” only to push his head away when he comes close.

From the audience, V and Rika watch the show. V is clapping to the beat of the song and smiling, while Rika is crossing her arms and shooting daggers with her eyes.

“So, Rika… what did you think?” you ask, feeling like you would wag your tail if you had one.

“It suits you perfectly, MC. It’s tacky, bitchy and annoying… blah blah blah manipulative sneaky bitch blah blah blah.” Her voice echoes as you feel yourself dizzy, your legs get weak and your sight gets blurred as you feel your body getting heavier and falling, quickly meeting Saeran’s eyes before hitting the floor.

“I hate you!” you read his lips before passing out.


“The song is annoying on purpose, new age is supposed to be ironic!” you yell, raising your head suddenly. Blinking quickly, you find yourself at the records’ store.

You wipe the drool of your mouth and rub your eyes. Oh… if your uncle catches you dozing off at work, he’ll kill you! Well, would it make him feel better if he knew you were having a nightmare? The same one you’ve been having over and over, ever since you announced you would quit the band?

You did the right thing. How could you stay after creating such a tense environment to work? A lot of bands are build on pressure and stay together for years, but… look it up, how many bands had all the members in love with the same member? If there ever had one, wouldn’t they had already parted ways by now?

Love…  what is love? Singing about it is so easy! But feeling it is so different, is so… less cool than when you write some lyrics, put on a nice melody and give lots of material for high school bands to do covers like this. Love… hurts. It hurt at least six people in Mystic Messenger.

No, love didn’t hurt them, you did. You sneaky little bitch! Love is a good feeling, you are bad!

But… why are you feeling hurt too? Why… quitting the band felt like the hardest thing you ever did? Why… do you miss them if all you wanted was to play with them?

Did you? You don’t remember having any thought similar to the idea of seducing everyone. You’re not even seductive! You’re… weird and… kinda of a smug… and bitchy for no apparent reason… why would anyone like someone like this?

You’re terrible! And they are all so nice, sweet, considerate, everyone in their own ways with their own struggles… could it be that these struggles really messed up all of them so much to the point of them falling for someone so… awful? And you, being the loner, the newbie, the outcast by nature, got so fascinated with the possibility of finally having some friends and forgetting the mess with your family, jumped the gun and unintentionally played with them?

Because you’re pretty sure you never tried to seduce everyone on purpose, all you wanted was friends, not people crushing on you all at the same time! You don’t have romantic feelings for any of them, you never wanted any of them to have for you! You don’t love any of them!

Except for… one of them. The one who hates you… that stupid, gross, weird, kinda of a smug and a dick for no apparent reason, but he has his reasons, and now you’re just one more reason for him to be like that.

“Saeran?” you ask out loud, looking at the door as you see a very familiar red hair walking in to the store. It’s… Saeran? What’s with the boombox? “Saeran, what are you doin…?”

“Shh! Just listen!” he says, putting the boombox above his head and hitting the “play”. Oh god… what is he doing?

You’re just too good to be true…” Oh no… “Can’t take my eyes off of you…” OH HELL NO!

You get up from the chair next to the register and walk towards him, pressing the stop button.

“What the hell? Let me just play till the chorus!”

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?”

“What do you think? I’m serenading you and… confessing my feelings.” You stare at him, frowning. There’s something really wrong here…

“Okay… go on…”

“After you left, I… couldn’t let things like this. Don’t mind what Rika said, I know I don’t! I… I love you… please, come back to the band, we need you, I… need you…”



“Yep, I’ll come back.”

“Wow, easy like that? Whoa, that’s… great! That’s really great! Yeah!”

“Only if… you answer me a question.”

“Sure, anything, MC!”

“What did I call the math teacher to be suspended?”


“I got suspended last week for cussing the teacher out, what did I call him? You must remember, Saeran, since we were at the detention together…”

“Uhm… why would I…? It was something so silly, pffff.” He scoffs.

“Really? Because you thought it was hilarious, you laughed and kept calling me that even when you took me to that special place and… well, you remember what happened, right? Or do I have to remind you?” you narrow your eyes at him, as he widens his.

“WHAAAT? So the closet wasn’t the first time???” he coughs in surprise, almost dropping the boombox.

“Hi, Saeyoung.” You cross your arms and glare at him. Saeyoung chuckles, lowering his gaze before taking his glasses on the pocket of his jacket.

“Was it the boombox that gave away or…?”

“It was the fact that you twins don’t look that much alike, at least not to me.”  

“Yeah, forget that we’re identical twins, we don’t look alike. You will fight science to prove your point, right?” okay, now he almost sounded like Saeran. “Oh well, though that I could might as well give a shot.”

“A shot on what, Saeyoung? What is this?”

“Well, the winter festival is in the end of the week, we don’t have a vocalist, I mean, we do have, she’s just sad because her crush got mad at her and took another dramatic decision. So I, a genius, a visionary, a romance expert, an identical twin, took a very dramatic decision as well, dressed up as my brother, and came to confess his feelings for the girl he likes in his place.”

“And can I ask what the visionary genius would do if I believed that? I would say yes to coming back, and then what?” he opens his mouth to speak, but backs away.

“A visionary doesn’t necessarily has to have everything figured out! I was improvising!”

“You were trying to make a big mess.” You sigh. “Not bigger than the one I did, but still…”

“Ah, come on, MC! You’re still thinking about what happened? Forget that, it’s all in Rika’s mind, I know for a fact you didn’t get in the band to play a femme fatale bullshit like that. I know you… I have known you… before everybody…”


“Come back! We need you! Not in a romantic way, I swear! We need you to sing, slay, bring the gold home and… make us laugh and have fun like you were doing before…”

“Are you sure I wasn’t just playing with everybody’s feelings?”

“I can say you never played with mine, I knew I never had a chance with you.” He puts the boombox on his shoulder, smiling.

“Saeyoung… what if you had?”

“I hadn’t. The kiss? We were listening to a sexy song in a very… lewd place, and… you didn’t kiss me.”

“But I wanted.”

“But you didn’t. You could have stayed and pushed a little further, I would probably give in if you tried again. But you went away without hesitating, MC. If I still had any hope, it died right then.“


“So… if you ask me, I say it’s because we were talking about Saeran a few moments before, so… maybe there was something inside you already telling you not to do that, you were coming to the wrong brother right then.”

“I don’t think it was that, Saeyoung. I think… you’re overestimating me.”

“And I think you’re underestimating yourself. But we can agree to disagree for now. So I’m just going to ask you one more time: please, come back, MC.”

“Saeyoung, I…”

“The ideal would be if you did this for yourself, but if you can’t, do it for Saeran.”


“He’s hurt, he’s been locking himself in the bedroom all day writing and playing drums. I’m getting hurt by seeing him like this. Please, MC… I know you love him, so do it for him. And for me, if I’m not asking much…”

Son of a… when did he become so mature? Was he always like this? Well, probably, the whole weirdo façade was just to cope with all his family matters, but the truth is… Saeyoung is probably the most mature and sensitive brother, always putting his brother’s priorities first, always taking care of Saeran, protecting Saeran, giving up the girl he likes because of Saeran…


“Getting away from Saeran is the best thing I can do for him. And for you, Saeyoung. I… I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything.”

You feel your voice breaking and lower you gaze, avoiding the tears. Then you just feel a warm body revolving yours and a pair of lips on your forehead, along with a chuckle.

“See you soon, MC!”

“Saeyoung, I’m not coming bac…” you growl in frustration as he turns his back on you and just walks away. He’s so stubborn! You’re not coming back! If at first you didn’t want to come back to process what’ happening to yourself, now you don’t want to come back because you need to get away from them so they will forget you and stop getting hurt. You don’t want to hurt anyone!

Stomping, you turn around to get back to the register. You barely manage to sit as you get up again, hearing the door being open. Did Saeyoung come back?

“I’m not coming back! I… oh…” you flinch, seeing it’s not Saeyoung, it’s… “Jumin…?”

“Aren’t you cold? It’s starting to snow heavily outside.”

“I’m fine. How… how about you, Jumin? What are you doing here?”

“I’m here to clarify some things, since you walked away from my chalet in such a hurry. You see, MC, a lot has been said by everyone that night.”

“I know, I…”

“Everyone, except for me.”


“I didn’t have a chance to speak, MC. Everybody got to share their feelings for you, but I didn’t.”


“I’m here to tell my feelings for you, MC.”

Shit! Now you’re almost missing that boombox…

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You Could Be Happy

A Seth Rollins Epilogue to my other Fic “Opposite” from Seth’s POV about what happened ‘behind the scenes’.

A/N: This is an angsty fic based on the song “You Could Be Happy” from the band Snow Patrol. Listen to it for the full effect.

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You could be happy
And I won’t know
But you weren’t happy the day I
Watched you go

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My theory about Killian’s secret, EQ, next week’s episode and Killian’s adventure

Episode 14 it’s an episode about Regina and The Evil Queen, yeah? Yeah. 

I think The Evil Queen knew for a very long time that it was Killian the person who killed David’s father, why else would she be the one who starts this? She was the one who taunted David in 6A. She wants to tear them apart, all of them, to destroy their happiness. So yes, she knew about David’s father for a very long time and she saw this as an opportunity to break everyone. 

I think, at the beginning of the next episode, EQ will pay a visit to Emma while she is alone (or to Emma while she is with Killian and maybe Mary Margaret is there as well) and spill the secret, I can already hear her saying “Congratulations for your engagement! But how can you accept it with what he did to your father?!” because she is a bitch and she will make Emma curious and nervous about what Killian did to her father and Killian will have to tell her the truth. Emma will be, of course, mad at him. But NO, I don’t think she will give him the ring back, I don’t think they will break up but yes, I think she will be mad and need some time to process everything

Next week’s press release says: “ Hook, determined to make things work with Emma, turns to his old friend Capt. Nemo for advice, but Gideon torpedoes his plan before he’s able to set things right.”

I strongly believe that after Emma will leave him, Killian will go to Nemo for advice and help, because where else could he go? David? He might be 1. asleep or 2. be there when Killian admits what he did and be really really mad at him. So Killian goes to Nemo, Nemo is on Nautilus, and they talk, Nemo gives Killian a speach about family, and how he can make things right for Emma and her family.

 During the time Killian is with Nemo and Emma is thinking, Gideon sees how lost in her thoughts she is, he realises that Killian is Emma’s weakness (because honestly, he IS) and that she is vulnerable when she isn’t with him so he goes after Killian to get rid of him and be able to fight Emma. He finds him on Nautilus, still with Nemo, prepared to go after Emma. So Gideon does something (opens a portal or something) and sends Killian, Nemo and Nautilus on Agrabah (and yes Liam 2 too, because he will be in 6x15) which will be the start of Killian’s adventure in Agrabah with Nemo, Liam, Jasmine, Aladdin, Ariel and so on. He’s adventure there will be to find a way back to Emma. 

I am 85% sure this is what will happen because we’ve seen enough of EQ, we know what she can do, and spilling the secret means breaking our heroes. Also Gideon needs to know Emma’s weaknesses and Killian is one of them, he gets rid of Killian, he is one step closer to break Emma.

White Bear

The Black Mirror episode White Bear is so incredibly fucked up. And, like, I know this is par for the course for BM, but still.

Besides the fact that torture is bad and no one should experience it, even if they’re a murderer, there’s also the fact that they aren’t even torturing a murderer. The memory erasure blows that rationalisation to bits.

Every morning, they create a brand new person solely so that this person can experience suffering, and then they kill them each night, starting the cycle again the next day. It doesn’t matter what her physical body looks like - they are torturing babies every day for entertainment. White Bear Justice Park is a factory farm for humans.

There is a sense in which the show did manage to convey the type of emotions that might make you want to inflict suffering on someone who films torture for fun. That’s because I have a very strong impulse to personally murder everyone who ever visited that park. They are very much all complicit in something incredibly evil.

I need fan fiction in which park visitors with a shred of decency decide to break her out and, in the process, shoot the director in his smug fucking face.

anonymous asked:

yo i'm a frickin junior and here's tips for highschool so you're not as dead as me: keep up with the work because OH BOY, you don't need a lot of school supplies unless you're in advanced placement, sleep is honestly more important than a butt load of work if you don't sleep then you'll get run down easier so work in chunks, take short breaks like 10 minutes during homework stuff so your brain can process and cool down. jcksldkdkdksk don't stay up too late it's NOT WORTH IT AT ALL.

i am in advanced placement so i got like everything on the list dkfjdk I APPRECIATE IT

Why do weighted blankets gotta be so damn expensive?! You’d think they’d let us off with a break but nooooo…like where the hell am I gonna scratch up 300$ just so I can sleep at night?! And because I live in Canada, everything shipped from the US costs 10,000$ and my first born in shipping. SO FRUSTRATED

Sometimes I need to take a break from everything to just relax and do nothing. Because this transition into adulthood isn’t easy. I can’t explain it but it’s this idea of knowing that I can no longer just sit and watch the world go by. It’s realising that you now have to fix your own problems and that you can no longer be oblivious to what goes on around you. It’s the idea of knowing that you have to take on new responsibilities. This transition is a long process, it’s hard because your changing and adapting whilst trying to transition away from your old care free habits. So sometimes my idea of fun is to just relax and stay in bed and give myself some time to breathe.

what I mean when I say I want Yusuke and Hifumi shogi-strategizing how Yusuke’s gonna confess to Ryuji is I want both of them compiling pretty much everything they know about Ryuji and his schedule to set a plan of attack while trying to account for literally anything that could go wrong. thoroughly thinking it through. saturday afternoon would be best, because if he needs it Ryuji would have a full day to process without it messing him up at school. ideally this could be done over a longer break, but the next break doesn’t happen for months and it’s not worth it to wait that long. before he starts working out would be better than after he starts working out, and actually, him working out afterwards might help him clear his head. choose a neutral place that’s fairly public so either could make an exit, if need arises, but somewhere that has relatively private areas where no one has to worry about anyone eavesdropping. and bring an umbrella in case of rain. sit close enough to encourage physical contact but not close enough to be overbearing - perhaps a distance of five centimeters? look up what distance is appropriately heart-pounding’. build up romantic atmosphere, but gradually. chocolates? candles? maybe doesn’t work at a park in the middle of the day but pack some just in case.

anonymous asked:

When Owen pulled away from the hug I noticed a lot of people saying " Oh you're done crying.. okay bye" but they're wrong because when Owen pulled away he looked in her eyes to make sure she's ok and he was waiting for her to say something but she simply looked down letting him know she's not ready to talk yet and that's why he said "ok" and walked away because he doesn't want to force her into talking. I'm so happy I ship Omelia ❤️l'm in love with their love.

I am too :) 

And yes, Owen pulled away because the elevator ride had come to an end and he resumed his path because he is going on with life and giving her space exactly like she asked him to, but at the same time he doesn’t fail to be there when she needs him.

I think Amelia looked away not because she isn’t ready to talk, I think now she finally is (it doesn’t mean it will be easy and she will simply blurt out everything though. And of course, that conversation wouldnt take place in an elevator and especially not on that moment when she was still processing a lot of pain).  The reason for her to be avoiding looking him in the eyes is because she was too embarrassed and feeling very vulnerable. If Amelia did make eye contact with him, she would break down even harder and they were in an elevator, at work.  

Owen would never have left her if he wasn’t sure she would be fine, hence why he took his time making sure she was okay before she left. His “okay” was his realization that she had let out what she needed at that moment to regain stability and resume what they were doing before they met. 

Villain!Matt tho

Your Villain!Matt AU is everything I never knew I needed and in one of your posts you asked for more ideas so here:

- So Matt wants ultimate revenge upon Shiro and hurting the other paladins is one way he’d do that. Imagine if he actually captures one [it could be Hunk/Keith/Lance; any of them really] after the end of Season 1 when they’ve all been separated and manages to hold them for awhile. Before the others can reunite, figure out one of them is in dire danger and figure out a plan to rescue them, I imagine Matt’s probably done… A lot of damage by then. He hasn’t had time to perform a full memory deletion [I imagine THAT would take a long while] but he has unfortunately inflicted quite a bit of physical torture. Hunk/Keith/Lance [H/K/L] are probably very mentally disturbed too; they pleaded and pleaded with Matt to try to convince him that his family’s okay but of course that wasn’t enough to break the mental rewriting [and ya know the torture itself].

Essentially by the time H/K/L are recovered they themselves are in extremely bad shape [their healing process would be a whole other aspect but lets ignore that for now] and Pidge/Shiro are even more distraught because Matt’s their sibling/close friend! But he’s committed a horrible crime to H/K/L!? But he’s been brainwashed so how accountable is he really!? Queue angst and drama because everything is in such a fucked up state.

Okay wow this is getting long [SORRY!] so Imma try and quickly end this ramble of mine. Through sheer determination, Pidge/Shiro manage to break the mental rewrite that has happened to Matt; but it’s not a happy-ending from here because now Matt’s sane again but he has so! many! scars! He’s done so many bad things! He’s deeply hurt all of the paladins; he feels like he doesn’t deserve to live. Why does he get a ‘happy ending’ with everything he’s done? From here on Matt and the paladins go through a GIGANTIC [and very slow] healing process. Everyone has scars because of what’s occured and it takes ages for things to reach a positive state. BUT I NEED THAT POSITIVE END because I can only take so much angst.

Ok wow Im so sorry for this… This AU is literally just so good [my fav] and I had to share this with you. I hope I haven’t annoyed you!


as soon as i read the title i was just

Oh man, oh man I can’t imagine what Matt would come up with. He’s so morally screwed that there really isn’t anything he’d not be willing to try on H/K/L. Not to mention his relentless tendency to get what he wants. He’d try to get information out of them first, no doubt. He’d want to know where Shiro is. Oh, oh and he is very very observant too. He wants to get in your head, he wants to know what makes you tick, and he’d pay close attention to how H/K/L react to the things he’d do.

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As someone who identifies very strongly with Yang, I just want to point out that her “recovery” is very in character. People seem to think it’s rushed because she’s being all upbeat now, but I’m pretty sure Yang is just doing the same thing I do and copes with her problems by convincing herself that everything is going to be okay even though it doesn’t feel like it at all. Denial, denial, denial until t becomes the truth. Tell yourself you are doing better and you will start to feel better. Does it work all the time? Absolutely not. Breaking down sobbing at 2am when your emotions suddenly hit you out of the blue is part of the process. But during the day when you need to do things, and especially in front of other people, you keep up that bright smile and tell everyone you are doing fine until you start to believe it. Can’t have dad worrying about her all the time when he’s got other things to deal with, right? Just gotta power through.

Is she all recovered now? Absolutely not. But she’s gonna tell herself she is, because it’s the best way she can make herself get there. Fake it ‘til you make it.