‘i missed the show because i was in the studio whole day’ and then he shows up at universal music group after party is the new ‘harry and louis are on vocal rest and just relaxing that’s why they are not in a radio interview to promote the album they are part of in a normal promo appearance’
Damn i can’t wait for SJ’s comeback later this year and i really hope
this time the promotions will be decent and prioritized over individual
activities because i really miss them all in one variety show aside from
this, i’m really happy most of the boys will be back safe and healthy
Miss Quill’s become such an incredibly important character for me that I hardly know where to begin. So I’ll just take a deep breath and try to explain why she’s come to mean so much to me and we’ll see how it goes.
Already in the first episode I could sense she was exactly the kind of character I inevitably end up loving - both complex and morally grey. I did not know much about her, but I really liked what I saw. I enjoyed the sarcasm and sassiness and I truly appreciated the fact that she was portrayed as strong, but at the same time unafraid to cry and show that she’s in pain over the loss of her people. Right from the beginning it was obvious that she was a person who has deep and strong feelings and who is very loyal to the people she sees as hers. That impression only got reinforced as the show went on and I learned more about her. Miss Quill is indeed both impressively loyal and capable of extremely strong feelings that she tends to bottle up until she explodes. And seeing as both loyalty and the capacity to feel things strongly are very important to me, I could not help but love her.
But that’s not all. Again right in the beginning it’s established that she’s a slave. Despite the enormous effect this has on her, we don’t see her completely crushed by it. We see her keep fighting on and making the best out of the genuinely terrible situation she’s been put in, a situation in which someone else has all the control and which has stripped her of the ability to be that which she perceives as the true essence of herself - a soldier. She is shown to suffer because of this loss of control and self, but at the same time she is not shown to give up. Instead of throwing in the towel, she chooses to control what she can and keep on fighting in any way she can - from pestering Charlie, to being sarcastic or using dry humour in difficult situations. Not being able to use weapons, she improvises and ends up turning anything into a weapon. She is put into an impossibly hard situation, yet she adapts and finds ways to go on. She has no support, no one who cares for her, the person controlling her is not really aware of the amount of power he has over her life and what it’s doing to her, she has no way to deal with the pain of being a slave and of not being allowed to be who she really is as well as with the grief over the loss of her people and yet she goes on. As someone who’s been through a serious depression only six years ago, I cannot even begin to tell you how much it means to me to have a character like Miss Quill in my life. Someone with whose suffering I can identify, but at the same time who doesn’t let that suffering crush them and finds ways to keep on living through the pain, with the pain. Pretty much all Miss Quill said to Tanya in The Lost resonated so strongly with me that I cannot even articulate it properly. I can just say that I immensely appreciate the way Patrick Ness wrote all of that and that it moved me beyond belief.
Another aspect of Miss Quill that contributed greatly to my love for her is her profound loneliness. I cannot help it, when I see a character who is starved for attention and affection I always go into “Let me love you!” mode. I can’t stand for people to be left out or ignored. All the tiny (and not so tiny) pleas for attention on Miss Quill’s part over the first season did not fall on deaf ears as far as I’m concerned. They only made me love her even more, especially because of the way she moved on every time no one paid attention to what she was trying to say. I repeat, she’s an incredibly strong person and part of that is not being afraid to show what is often incorrectly perceived as weakness i.e. grief or loneliness. The fact that she does that and is still shown to be one of the strongest characters on this show means a lot. For me true strength is to not be afraid to show that which society labels as weakness. True strength is not always being stoic or unemotional or brave, it’s being strong through the pain or brave through the fear, something Miss Quill herself agrees with me on.
Miss Quill’s intelligent, inquisitive, tough and badass, but at the same time incredibly caring when you manage to earn her loyalty, she’s not conventionally good, but she has a very strong moral compass that she always follows and is loyal to the end. I could go on about her all day and I would still never be able to do her justice. That’s in fact part of why I love her so much - there are so many different sides to her, I could never possibly list them all. And Katherine Kelly’s portrayal of her is nothing short of perfection. I’ll stop here because this is long enough and just once again reiterate that I love this character so much it hurts. Also probably too much to ever be able to express how much or why in any sort of coherent manner.